#..also dont even get me on that depressive tangent of potentially not being able to see him cause i cant do that right now

[the-kipsabian]

can i just sleep the next two and a half weeks i dont want to feel things before its london weekend and i can just focus on the positives

[a-libra-writes]

who do you think would prefer an s/o who’s charming, more of a people person, using their words to get what they want vs an s/o who’s more quiet, strategic, and plans and schemes to get what they want? is it a case of opposites attract, or would they want someone to compliment them? 👀

.......so i ended up having a lot of thoughts about this LOL 

okay so i think this depends on the s/o’s morals! like you can be scheming to help others instead of hurting them. so let’s go with that bc i dont wanna brainstorm a low ethics/morality s/o (this makes me think of 7KPP, a fantastic visual novel that’s the only decent Court Drama Simulator vn i’ve come across). Also there’s a loooot of characters so imma just list the ones I have Strong Thoughts on and sort them by region oh lord what have you done my dork is showing

Northbois

So while I feel like Robb and Ned would prefer a more outgoing and charming sort of person ... I really can’t help but ship them with someone whose more cunning and can actually play the game of thrones. Like lord someone help these Starks because their intrigue score is 0 and they need someone protecting them from Tywin, Roose and Walder LOL. I can really see both father and son thinking their s/o is this sweet thing and not having a clue of how much scheming they’re actually doing to protect Winterfell... Ned would probs catch on after a while but Robb would just be blinded by love and devotion haha. 

Sansa would probs want the first ideally, but as she gets older she’d greatly appreciate someone who has that sort of cunning and uses it for good purposes. Also she’d like a calm and steady personality to rely on.

Jory is a straight up honest guy to a fault, kinda like Ned, so he’d also prefer the first type of person and appreciate them more.

OKAY SO you’d think Roose would go for the second type but HEAR ME OUT. I think he’d go for both equally, or a mix of the two. Listen. I have a strong HC that he would be very attracted to someone who is his opposite in many ways - outgoing, charming, sweet and kind. If that person also happens to be cunning as hell and willing to manipulate anyone - even him - to protect what’s their’s, oof. He’s gone. I think he’d really get off on the idea of having an s/o who everyone is shocked he’s involved with bc “omg they’re sooo nice” and only he really knows their “other side”, so to speak. Realtalk I don’t think he’d go for someone just as morally awful as him bc he’d see them more as a threat than a potential partner.

Ramsay is a little shit that would also be attracted to the first kind of person but honestly needs the second type to keep his ass in line. That’s the sort of person who would figure him out and manipulate him accordingly so he isn’t skinning the goddamn neighbors. Also he wouldn’t give a damn about their morals so go off i guess just dont start any revolts in the north

VERY Northbois

Jon really doesn’t care for schemes, even if he acknowledges they’re useful, and he’d be attracted to someone who knows just what to say and is charismatic bc lord knows he’s struggled w that for a bit.  Benjen really loves outgoing, charming and talkative peeps esp when they wiggle their way out of stuff or convince the upper command of the Watch to consider a different plan. He’ll be soooo attracted to that. Edd is kinda meh on both I’d feel? Like he’d prefer a quieter person but not a scheming sort, that’s too troublesome to deal with. I think he could come around to the first one eventually.

Mance super respects the second type, he finds it very attractive actually, especially when they start manipulating him into something and he catches them. Tormund is a dork and prefers outgoing people, totally doesn’t notice when he’s being taken in lol. He rlly hates the second sort of person, sees them as snakes.

Southbois

Edmure would absolutely be drawn to a gregarious and outgoing person! And if they can talk their way into or out of things thank god bc fishboy has a habit of putting his foot in his mouth. I really don’t think it’d work out with a schemer person bc of that Tully honor, and unlike Ned or Robb, Edmure would start to catch on (I don’t buy into the show characterization of Edmure like frack that he’s not an idiot). Brynden has a lot of experience and has seen a lot of BS, so he’d understand the risks and sacrifices his s/o would be making when they’re playing the game, and he’d really wish they wouldn’t!! Like yeah it’s to protect their family and friends but he wishes they didn’t have to do that. He wants to protect them on his own.

Brienne REALLY prefers someone whose honest and can talk their way in and out of things!! Like the Starks she’s very honorable and has no patience for lies and manipulating even if it’s for something good. It’d take a lot for her to trust and be attracted to that kind of person, they’d have to like... be very honest with her about what their plans are and why they’re doing them. 

Kingslanding bois

oh lord Stannis okay so INITIALLY he’d be put off by both personalities for diff reasons - outgoing because socializing and diplomacy is something he just sucks at and the second one because holy hell he hates dishonesty and scheming. Now, he can admire a strategic and collected mind, but as soon as dishonorable plots roll in he starts side-eyeing. I think it would take some time for that latter personality to gain his trust, and if this is like... his wife we’re talking about, she’d probs have to scheme behind his back, even if it’s for his own sake. For an outgoing person, he could eventually befriend or fall for them once some common ground is found. He wouldn’t be able to admit how much he admires their people skills haha.

Davos understands that sometimes manipulating and scheming is needed and can be used for good, but personally he prefers a more diplomatic, out in the open approach. So the first type is def his kinda person. He could still befriend the second type as long as they’re not assholes, though.

Tywin would honestly work with both sides of the spectrum and in between, but ultimately, you’d have to understand who you’re dealing with. There’s no honor or high ground being involved with Tywin Lannister, and the s/o should expect to get dragged into his schemes, esp when he trusts them ... and that’s no easy feat. Ultimately it’s less of how you get what you want and more of ... what are you willing to do to get it. Pesky morals and all that.

Tyrion has had enough of his dad’s bullshit that he’d only be romantically involved with the first type, someone who uses sass and flattery like he does. He can still respect and befriend a more cunning person, though. Jaime also prefers the first type, he thinks it’s just because “oh I like outgoing and forward people” and not...”i’ve spent years dealing with lies and schemes from father and cersei”, yanno that old chestnut. Bronn definitely prefers gregarious and cheeky peeps, schemes go over his head and bore him.

Sandor dislikes both sorts of personalities for different reasons ... He’s offput by someone who would be very talkative and outgoing with him (like why are they talking to him wtf), and he also hates scheming and lying and all that, he’s seen too much of it. The first type has a better chance of befriending and getting close to him, the second not so much. 

Petyr very much respects and admires both but like ... you know he’d prefer someone that he thinks he can outwit and manipulate, so probably more of the first type of personality because they seem less cunning and more of “just” a people person. Given his obsessive/yandere tendencies he probably wouldn’t notice he was being taken in by someone friendly and kind. 

like okay weird thing to think about but just consider this... I really wonder what it’d be like if Robert had an s/o like the first one you mentioned. Not Cersei, certainly not his beloved Lyanna - a third party, a gracious and likeable queen that kinda makes up for his faults and she’s TRYING hard as hell. like idk if they’d ever fall in love but like idk i feel like his depression would be slightly lessened to have a partner that’s very beloved and tries to help him and put him in a good light in his subject’s minds. Am I making sense? She’s not perfect but she wants what’s best for the realm and if she’s gotta do it herself she will. IDK sorry this is a tangent, i think about major change AUs and their political consequences a lot

Heckin south n east bois

Margaery is a Big Gay and you can’t fight me on this, you will lose. She’s super attracted to the first kind of gal bc that’s def how she is herself! So she’d love to play those little word games with them. The second personality type she’d just write off as “eh quiet person” but once she got closer and began to realize their cunning and wittiness she’d def take an interest, esp if she found out about some good things they did. Then it’d be a classic “outgoing babe dating more reserved babe” and yall both would be VERY well-known in court. absolute power couple

Oberyn likes both equally! Especially if your motives are to help others and/or save your friends and family. He loves that kinda loyalty and he really admires someone who has a way with words and schemes in equal measure. Hell he does both himself. He might lean more toward an outgoing person just because that’s how he is too.

idk where to put Beric but he rlly likes the first kind of people!! He’d probs ask you to get supplies or money on the Brotherhood’s behalf, and he actually kinda likes it when he finds himself doing something you wanted cause you asked so nicely or talked him into it ..... Thoros calls him a simp and it’s true ok don’t bully he can’t help it

& lastly Essosssss

So, I think Daenerys would be a lot more drawn to the second kinda person. First of all: Very mysterious, ooh. Secondly, she’d appreciate a cool head that will tell her the truth and is willing to do more unsavory things bc they believe in her so much. Obvs she would need someone with unquestionable loyalty, and once she tests and is reassured of that loyalty, then she could start some kinda romance. She’s def attracted to someone who can get shit done that way.

Jorah is a big opposite in that he’s kinda had to do that unsavory stuff himself and is still ashamed by it, and generally doesn’t trust people like Littlefinger and Varys and Illyrio, etc so he’d prefer someone who is just genuine and talks their way out of things. Also yall know him he can’t resist once he starts liking someone like cmon

Grey Worm is absolutely in the first camp too but for diff reasons! Scheming and all that shit just makes him nervous and he distrusts it, even if it’s for Daenerys’ sake. He just wouldn’t associate with the person ... Someone more outgoing would definitely fluster him more but at least he could feel like he could trust them. Missandei can go either way - she knows the power in both diplomacy and manipulation, and would likely admire and be pulled to someone who uses both to help people. 

sorry i got so wordy and a bit repetitive lol both are like, my fav kinda character archtypes, esp for court settings.

[survivorpanem]

EPISODE 4 - “THE WILDCATS NEED TO POP IN HERE AND TELL THEM TO GET THEIR HEADS IN THE GAME” - JC

Basically, this “choosing your own tribe” twist is very beneficial to my game. I told a big group of people to go on this tribe, so I have 5/7 (including me) people on my side. That is great, even if we lose a lot of challenges. Since almost everyone is loyal to me, I can pick and choose the people that I want for my alliance. Also, I’m glad jaiden is here, because now we know who is the first to go when its time to vote somebody out. I just hope they don’t connect the dots and realize I have connections to almost everybody here. Anyway, things are looking up in my game currently. Even if we get down to the wire and we keep losing challenges, I am not worried, I can make it through. Plus, when I get to the merge, the other tribe will be fractured, almost guaranteed, and I will be able to maneuver through the game, especially since I have an ally in Isaac over there.

The big problem is that I'm going home. That's pretty much what it's come down to for me now. No one on the tribe I chose wants to work on the competition and no one really wants to talk to me, either. Once again, there's such a depression in the game being left by everyone's silence that it makes me forget that I'm even here sometimes? 

RJ tossed around the idea of throwing the challenge and just voting me out. Surprisingly enough, the person who literally does videography in their actual life is somehow too busy to even bother attempting this challenge for their tribe. It seems so easy for me to just give up and say that not much was lost, and I almost wanna just lay down and let these people vote me out. 

Yet, there is still a fight left in me. It's a smoldering pile of rubble, because the flame that once occupied the same space had gone and burned every bridge I had in the game. The flame was a sign of my own rebellion I guess, because I never go down without a fight. That's not changing today. 

If we still lose this challenge, I won't let myself lose the game, too. I wanna win.

Are these bitches throwing the fucking challenge? Or do they just suck?

Liana is mad at me and I feel so bad D: I didnt mean to hurt her feelings :'( me Allison Andre wand Isaac should have added her to that cat right when it was made and not kept it a secret. Also I'm pretty sure my tribe had a heartattack and that me and ryan palmer are the only ones alive.

I would say that I'm sad that we lost but I can't complain. I literally did not help AT ALL with the comp so i shouldn't say anything. I don't know who I want to vote out. Honestly I don't even remember who is on my tribe rip

I don't know how to articulate myself when I'm under duress, so for this confessional I'll just link some gifs in order to express my emotions better.

First of all, we lost immunity. I tried so fucking hard in the last hour to put that shit together because no one else wanted to do anything (@RJ AND LIANA)

Then, I kind of realized that yea, I'm probably fucked. These are the people who planned on throwing immunity to get me voted out, and although they're all like "oh well we won't vote you out, you did the challenge!" my inner thoughts are telling me otherwise.

In my opinion, the person that should go home tomorrow is RJ. He's a fucking videographer, film-maker, what the fuck ever, and he's like "sorry I can't do this challenge". Bullshit RJ, if you don't have time for this challenge, you don't have time for this game. I want to get the pen and parchment and write his name down right now, for fucks sake. 

However, I know that Liana didn't do anything either. We all know that. She's a nice girl, but she is a huge threat. In her Storybook games, she has quit before. Maybe she'll quit now. Maybe something came up and now she has no time to finish this game, either. I'm going back to my inner thoughts now!

Right now, I have to try and get Zack, JC, and Sam B to trust me fully. I need them to vote to keep me this round. My life literally depends on trust that I haven't given out to other people. I'm going to spend the whole next day just BEGGING people to trust me and work with me because I have no idea what's going to happen next.

I don't wanna get voted out of All Stars because I have a ton of supporters coming into this. At least I think so. I don't want to let anyone down because FOR ONCE I actually have the desire to win a game. I WANNA WIN SOMETHING, OK?????? Winning is all that matters to me and I wanna scream sometimes because I dont think it's realistic that I will win this game, at least not now. I've already embarrassed myself on National Television coming out here, so like... is it enough?

Right now, the vote comes down to trust. *I* trust JC and Sam G more than anyone else on this tribe, but do *they* trust me? And what about Zack, because I know he's got reasons to not trust me after I exposed the alliance with RJ to the entire arena chat. Then, there's Sam B who is so bland when you talk to her that you can't tell where her head is at completely. Is she with me, or is she against me? She says she's with me but your word is not always your bond. Sam G and I are really close, because she told me that RJ is her contract. If we get him out, she gets the clue to the idol. I won't ask her for it because that's her choice, but if she decided to give me the clue then I understand how it is, too. But she knows people that have hosted me and I think she's aware that I play chaotically, but I am 100% loyal to her at all costs in this game. She has so much dirt accessible about me that it does concern me a lot, but... she's becoming my friend now.

And then, after we lose and everything, I'm talking and so is JC and Zack. Then Constance comes walking in all high and mighty, whipping her fake ass hair in mine and Zack's faces and immediately saying "Hi JC" for no fucking reason. She literally is the dumbest person when it comes to social game because you don't just come into a chat, say hello to ONE PERSON out of the multiple that are there. No matter how petty you want to be, that's fucking stupid. But Constance will be Constance, always there metaphorically screaming in my ear with her selfies every single day trying to get the attention of everyone.

These people are like, acting so cool all the time and I can't stand them. Maybe the same is being said about me because I totally walk around here like I'm hot shit FREQUENTLY and try to act like a badass, but I'm really not.

Tomorrow night, I'm hoping things go my way. I really hope I stay tonight. I wish I could be iconic and pull out an idol or two, but luck wasn't in my favor all the times I went searching for the thing. Implicit bias is something I learned about in psychology class and I think luck had nothing to do with my decisions, because obviously I'm going to be biased against the places that seem like they wouldn't have the hidden immunity idol. See, haters? I learn things. Shit might hit the fan if I pull off a move against RJ or Liana. Who knows where Zack's loyalty really lies? I'm considering lots of scenarios, but unfortunately, this isn't one of them.

If I end up getting voted out tomorrow night, then I guess this could be the last confessional I write? If you're reading this with the knowledge that I'm being blindsided, then this last gif is for you <3

I'm finally not going to a tribal in this game! It's really relieving considering I wouldn't have really wanted to vote anyone out on the tribe. Ryan may have ended up being targeted (even if he was the only one to put effort into the challenge) and that would have been a conflict of interest. So the tribe may have had to settle for Constance or Jake. I would have preferred Constance going but she's being seen as a potential number for the Isaac/Liana side, and I want Jake in my pocket. It seems like a lot of people have "players in their pocket" so why can't I?

Okay weird tangent pertaining to Jake and the Genz people as a whole. So the Genz alliance died... and I couldn't be happier! See, that alliance put a huge target on all of our backs from the start. So there had to be some methodical ways to break it up from the inside without letting it get too messy for ME in particular. A lot of what happened was kinda natural shit/conflict going down that I kinda just let happen:

-Taking out Brian was the first instance I saw where that could cause cracks. Brian was super close to Liana and RJ and I couldn't fully trust him. Had I voted Dylan like I was supposed to the first round, it would have tied and who knew what would have happened.

-The Ryan and Liana conflict has kinda worked itself out beautifully. Ryan threw the Genz alliance out in the open to Dylan, someone who Liana had control over. They get pissed, and I'm there for both of them complain to. I don't let the conflict resolve, but I just get all the tea. And now they don't trust each other (to my satisfaction tbh).

-Bernel going out was another fun instance of things naturally falling into my lap. Jaiden getting to the Oasis ended being a blessing in disguise seeing as we were immediately able to vote out a slightly more inactive wild card in Bernel. Another Genz number that I didn't necessarily want is gone. 

-Now I'm close to Ryan and Liana separately. Jake doesn't seem to be doing much but does trust Ryan. And I don't talk to him much but, I'm hoping Jake will trust me as well.

ANYWAY

We're saved thanks to RTP and Daddy Ken. A sentence I never thought I would ever say. And to go back to the Jaiden going to the Oasis as a blessing in disguise thing... not only did allow for Bernel to go BUT it also just made Jaiden the seemingly easy vote for next round. And then we'll be at final 13. Fuck, is merge/jury soon? *screams* Well in time for that... I have to reconvene. It seems like a lot of loose voting blocks are happening, but I want myself, Isaac, Allison, and Jordan to be a consistent one. Liana got mad when she found out that existed so I'm not sure if she's included in that or not/wants to be? Idk man. I'm just trying to play in a way that I'm the target the least amount of time as possible. And I need numbers to keep it that way.

So yesterday, I got talking to JC. Before I started off, I said that I wanted none of what I said to become part of the strategy. I wanted what I said to be a personal conversation, between me and them only. Not for the hosts, not for the confessionals, not for the other players, and not about the game anymore.

I told JC that I wanted to quit.

I basically said that I was only here to play for them and people that deserved to win, trying to get these people further in the game instead of myself. I said that I wanted to give up because I was so stressed out about this game that it made it such a negative experience to really even carry on. The game that I was playing to allow myself to win was too difficult for me to continue and I made it clear to JC that I had no desire to continue to play for the win, and that I just wanted them to win instead. If I left the game, they would likely end up losing because they don't have the number or the "shield" that I could be going forward. I don't know if JC believed what I said, but we discussed it for a little bit. Maybe they went and told everyone else all of these things, but the truth is...

I still wanna win. Obviously.

What I said to JC was meant as a surrender speech so it seems like I'm not going to play aggressively like usual anymore. JC knows how I play, so I had to come up with something to make myself seem like less of a threat when I know I'm still going to play the same way. Yes, I want to go to the end with JC, but I want to beat them, and I'm going to.

After this conversation was over, I went and talked to Zack. We talked personally about Raccoon City, a bunch of other stuff, and a little bit about the game. I laid it out that I want to go to the final three with Zack and JC, so now it's out in the open to both of them where my intentions lie. Zack is extremely loyal and I think that's good enough evidence that I need to stick with them for as long as possible.

I'm going to really try and sell this idea that I'm here for the team, not for myself. If I convince Liana to vote for someone other than myself, there is a better chance that I won't get voted out tonight. I wanna continue taking things day by day because success doesn't happen overnight, especially when everyone is pre-merge in this game. I expect lots of twists regarding tribe divisions while this game continues so I need to keep on my toes with my social game. The people who are likely to flip to the Arma tribe need to go faster than someone who will remain loyal to Occidere tribe, which is what I want to say. I won't flip to the Arma tribe of course, but who's to say that RJ or Liana or Sam B won't?

All that matters now is that I remain out of the crosshairs.

I literally did nothing for the challenge but at least I'm not the only one. I'm sure people want to target me for being inactive but I'm also hearing some other stuff. People might want Liana and that honestly scares me because Liana tries to keep me informed. Everything I know about random alliances and stuff has come from Liana. I'm trying to think of a way to save her and I might have an idea. If Zack, Sam B, and JC want to vote Liana, they need me or Jaiden to do it. So if Jaiden and I just go to Liana and RJ and say 'hey Liana, they wanna vote for you' maybe the four of us could vote together and take out Zack or Sam B. As long as they don't want JC then we should be good.

hie. it's a sad day here. a SAD day. i just sent in my vote to send liana home.. 

I FEEL BAD. I LIKE LIANA. I LIKE OUR CONVERSATIONS. yes liana is a HUGE threat and is in a majority alliance but liana is someone who could help our tribe right now and help us win immunities. but on the other hand.. i stayed loyal to someone in raccoon city who has a huge target and was in major alliances. and look where that got me? second place. i'm not here to play for second place AGAIN. i need to do what i need to do and the alliance i'm in with jc and samantha made me realize that. i wanted to vote for sam's ass to leave because she ain't ever even pm me but whatever! am i lowkey hoping liana stays? i won't confirm or deny. but like i said before.. i'm here for first place.

http://funny115.com/v2/11_12.jpg

Actually, I'm in a pretty curious position right now. The entire tribe has woken up and everyone minus RJ is talking to me. They're all discussing the option of blindsiding Liana at this tribal council, leaving RJ aside for next round. He's the easy vote in this case, but we have to save him for later. I personally think RJ is still a bigger threat than Liana, but I'll let it go for now.

Zack, JC, Sam B, and Sam G are planning on voting for Liana. RJ and Liana are planning on voting for me. It makes complete sense for me to vote out Liana and let her go, but at the same time I could always flip and bring Sam G over with me, and blindside someone else like JC or Sam B.

Sam G might have let it slip to Liana that her name is being written down tonight. In which case, I have to make a decision. I can side with Liana and RJ, hoping that Sam G follows suit, or I can stick with the numbers I know are certain and get rid of Liana.

Trust is super hard to come by in this game and I trust JC more than anyone. I also think that I can trust Zack, but his loyalty is only something that he gives on his own terms. If Zack isn't down with me, it doesn't matter that I'm down for him. I trust Sam G but she's looking to "make a big move" against the threesome of Zack, JC, and Sam B and that's super complicated and nerve-wracking because then I'll be left with two people who are pissed off at me, and then Liana and RJ who were willing to vote me out last round.

I think my mind is made up what I'm going to have to do tonight, but crazier things have happened and I've changed my mind before. I'm so nervous.

Okay so like what is up with my allies omg. The Wildcats need to pop in here and tell them to get their heads in the game!!! Idk this is hella difficult but I think I'll be in the numbers to be safe for this vote at least for how things are going right now. We're going to tribal now because 4 minutes of a loop of naked Ken was better than our video! And honeslee I wish someone like Constance or something was here so we could vote them out but I meeeean, Liana is here too and I'm not a fan of her gameplay since she had my name in her mouth and speaks to everyone so! Ugh I wish Isaac was here too it'd be nice to vote him out. LMAO THERE ARE SO MANY PEOPLE I WANNA VOTE OUT HEZKAHSBDBS.

And like honeslee I feel like I have the people to lead a vote on Liana? But the thing is everyone in my tribe is a mess! RJ wants to vote out Jaiden Jaiden wants to vote out RJ Liana wants to vote out Jaiden I want to vote out Liana Zack wants to vote out Sam G and Sam G needs a strategy session with Troy Bolton...then there's Samantha Bussy who's probably fisting herself as we speak!! Nah but tbh I feel like both Sam's would maybe vote for Liana? But maybe not because Bussy is giving me tea that she and Liana got into a fight with Allison? Honestly hosts you made no mistakes with this cast we are CRACKED!

And omg I was sooo bored yesterday and basically I was messing around with everyone and Jaiden and I were being friendly which basically ousted our fake fight akzjxbzbz, and then Samantha, Zack and I were being friendly too and basically ousted our whole alliance! Mess!! But truthfully I 100% did not give a single fuck. Not one! Because like everyone in the main chat is so cliquey and like no one cares when Constance Jordan and Isaac constantly oust themselves so why should we care! Foh!

OMFG OK so like me being the charitable heart I am and wanting to send Liana home with a passion, I campaigned to send Liana home over other names that were flying around like Jaiden and Sam G. HOWEVER, some hoe decided to tell Liana her name had been brought up? MESS! Everyone is running around like chickens with they heads cut off omfgggg. Hunty could have an idol. If there's one thing I've learned this round, it's that drama is fun to watch, but not fun when it involves you! Yikes I hope I don't go home

ive had like 5738 emotions and now i tihnk im going because no one is responding to me. im scared.

~Later~

WHAT!!!!!!! THE FUCK!!!! IS HAPPENING!!!!

Liana found out, I'm losing my mind, I'm flipping the vote to RJ, and I want Liana to stay because fuck this game im probably flipping everyone's vote onto me and im paranoid AS FUCK because i want jc to stay also and idk whats happening someone help me!!!!!!!!!!