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theater-goul · 5 months ago

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Something something cringe culture is dead something something

I couldn't get this dance out of my head so i learned it and it was really fun☝️☝️

#i had to change the last bit cause 1 i have no fucking clue what they're doing with their legs there #and 2 i didn't wanna stand there awkwardly while the camera was focused on the christian kids so i watched a few different performances #and just kinda did my own thing #fun fact i have FIFTY THREE RECORDINGS of me doing this stupid dance #mostly to just improve little things #and the dance is just REALLY fun #i love the prom🙏🙏🙏#the prom #the prom musical #trent oliver #choreography #I LOVE DANCING🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥#i cant tell if im any good at it but its fun and makes me happy so whatever🙏#dont mind my messy ass room

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tea-cat-arts · 6 months ago

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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will

#svsss #scum villian self saving system #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #the fact that people think scum villain #-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me #especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater #heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series #he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters #(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters #like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx #I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes #side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me #i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation #but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years #like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain #the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too #+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu #as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people #another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does #also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be #he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students #and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing #+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this #but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy

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sskk-manifesto · 3 months ago

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#Nothing to say. A good episode. A good season.#I love Oda. I love his voice perhaps even more lol #I should look for an improvement of the video quality... To say it's 1080px mkv :/ But the latest upload on N/yaa is too heavy #The op visuals of the untold origins arc are very good. The songs are good too #Although I suppose I may just be nostalgic ahah #I like fuku/fuku... Especially this young bittersweet flavour #Fuku/fuku have so many “couple who for some reason broke up but who still love each other more than anyone else” in this episode.#What do you mean they keep calling each other.#What do you mean Fukuchi won't hesitate to help Fukuzawa even after he refused to join his group.#Mmmmhhh... One more thing #There's so much emphasis on Christianity in bsd. It makes sense for Atsushi and Dostoyevsky I suppose due to the irl authors‚ but...#Why was Oda handed a Bible in this episode? Why was Ango carrying a Bible with him in the Beast movie?#When you take into account that Christianity only makes for 1.5% of religious believers in Japan‚ it's just curious.#But maybe I'm missing something? Was Oda-author Christian too?#Then again I can really feel this wider underlying pattern which... Exceeds the characters in a way?#It's mostly details so it'd be hard to list them but... Idk.#Why was there a cross behind Kunikida when he witnessed the little child die.#🤔#That would be all. This season is very beautiful and I love Mushitarou but can't WAIT to get back to Atsushi I miss him 🥺🥺🥺#random rambles

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jacksprostate · 5 months ago

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So what advice WOULD you have for people who might suspect themselves to be autistic, especially those who can’t get an official diagnosis? /gen

Yeah sure, under the cut!

My philosophy focuses around problem solving and improving circumstances rather than focusing on getting or following the path of a diagnosis. So the first thing I recommend if you feel you're struggling, is start actually writing down things you struggle with. Big or small. And then for each, start making a plan on how to mitigate or remove your struggles. Obviously, easier said than done. Lord knows it takes a lot of time, effort, and discipline. However, the biggest thing, is keeping a mindset where it is: you have struggles with x. But this is not a permanent thing, this is something you can work on. You may not be as naturally adept as some people, but this is a challenge and you can face it and improve how it affects your life. This is something that has to be done whether you follow the whole diagnosis route or not, because it's the requirement for living, lol.

I will give an example from my own life.

Firstly, I have always very much struggled with food intake. Eating is something of a chore to me, a lot of food is repulsive (less so than before, thankfully), cooking is a lot of energy. Eating healthily is even more of an issue since you have to make and eat so much more of less calorically dense foods. Over the past 4 years, I've improved a lot though, though it has been trying at times. First, I catelogued my issues. My biggest issue is due to eating little, I wasn't getting enough calories, and I was always tired and weak. I was often sleepy, struggled to concentrate. I was on the verge of being underweight but considered not — yet, I had pretty life impacting symptoms. It was actually thought that I had more severe problems due to all the deficiencies I had. So, the first thing I did was seek out high calorie food that I could use to at least increase my energy. Preferably avoiding outright junk food, but basically, I started routinely trying to eat a meal with lots of carbs once a day. As my energy slowly increased, I started trying to fit in healthier snacks and whatnot, but ultimately (even now!) my goal, 100% is just making sure I get enough calories that I'm not tired tomorrow. It was difficult, especially since my appetite was so surpressed hunger didn't really come back until like 6 months in. Nowadays I do get hundry but still find it unfortunately easy to ignore, though I'm a lot better with it. Anyway, focused on high calorie foods. Once I had more energy, I worked on *cooking* high calorie meals. Literally, just like pasta. Noodles with poor man's pesto (garlic, basil, parm, salt). Ramen. I still eat that like once a day lol. My new challenge is shifting that a bit but it's a work in progress. Anyway, while I regressed some sometimes, I started regularly cooking a very very low effort meal once a day, and eating smth that made sure I had energy for the next day. A lot of my symptoms improved even though my diet was still essentially shit. Then, I also worked on taking a multivitamin. I am very bad at sticking with medications so frankly this is still on and off for me, but I'm planning on incorporating it into my morning routine before work and that should help. I did do this consistently for a while, and this helped. All this happened over 2-3 years. If I ever ate out, I made sure to get something with meat and vegetables since I knew I wasn't getting it at home. Now, my most recent success is I've started managing to meal prep and bring lucnhes to work. I do really simple air fryer chicken and rice/couscous, or fried rice (good for veggies). So far I've managed to consistently bring food, which is a goal I've never dreamed I'd be able to manage on my own! Super awesome. I also found 'drinking' my meals is easier sometimes, so I found smoothie mixes I can tolerate that have more nutritious things. And I do that sometimes. Anyway, I'm finally at the point where the struggle is less eating, and now more expanding my consistent cooking and making myself a better diet. But that is SIGNIFICANT success compared to where I was originally, when I wasn't cooking and I was barely eating and it was physically impacting my life in a way that made it much harder to claw my way out of. But, despite it taking a long time and having a lot of backsliding, I was able to significantly improve.

This sort of thing can be applied to mental health stuff, social stuff, etc. Basically, identify your issues, identify solutions — long term goals but also specific short term steps that will get you there. And then keep trying. Even when you fail. Even when you give up for a long while. Even when it feels like it isn't working. Keep trying. And eventually you'll have made progress even without realizing.

I also applied something similar to trying to work out how to socialize well. Which may be applicable for you. The best thing you can do in my experience is watch people, be confident, and try to pay attention and learn how to interpret people's comfort levels and what's common casual topics of conversation and what's not. Yes, it's hard, and it's usually not intuitive, and that's a big part of why you may feel you are autistic, because this seems entirely foreign in a way it's not to other people. But it is a skill you can learn. At this point, I can hold a conversation with my coworkers, even if we don't have much in common or if we have differing opinions or whatnot, I can have a good lunch conversation and come off as 'intense, but nice'. Which is a good thing to aim for. Like with the eating, I recommend a lot of reflection and efforts to catelogue and identify areas of struggle and how you can observe and practice improvement. The more you do all this, the more it will genuinely become less manual and more automatic, like driving a car. There's a lot you think about when you first start driving, that you aren't consciously thinking about 5 years later. It's the same way. And also, try not to take your fuckups too personally. And some people just won't like you. It is what it is. Just keep chugging.

I know, it is easy to sit here and be like "why should I have to figure out and stick with common topics of conversation? I'm not into those :/" Lord knows, I always felt dumb and out of place whenever people bonded over sports. But what these common topics are, their purpose is essentially like a little olive branch, a thing the person is offering to try and make it easier to chat by commiserating over a common thing, whether it's a issue, a thing yall like, or something else. I'll probably never manage to follow sports teams and I don't want to, but I will nod along as some guys talk and commiserate when they express feelings about wins or losses. The point is to bond. That's why the weather is such a huge topic. Small talk serves a huge purpose! The more you become familiar with how to casually hold a conversation with someone you don't know well over one of these topics, the easier it'll be, and most social stuff develops from that sort of thing. As you bond over the olive branch topics, you can flesh out anecdotes and experiences and personal stuff as you become better friends with people, rather than throwing it all at someone at once and hoping they catch and like you. It lets you sort of get a feel for people, and you can keep it at the small talk level instead of just not talking at all or immediately proceeding to best friends mode. It's a comfortable middle.

I also really recommend, for anyone, engaging and developing a fondness for the world around you, and practicing having appreciation for everything. It has helped my mindset and capability to keep trying. I really recommend learning to identify some category of things in nature in your area, because you'll feel more grounded in the world, you'll see more detail, and the world will feel less threatening.

#asks #might be a bit toughlove but its heartfelt... mostly it's just. treat your issues as solveable and work on it. and youll often find they ge #a lot better. certainly not always fixed. though sometimes ! but. a lot better to live with #youll feel more capable and ready to face the world and develop and stuff :)#regardless of if u get a diagnosis youd have to do this sort of thing anyway bec even w a diagnosis u must still grow and adapt as a person #in society. how would a diagnosis help? what accomadations are you seeking? how will they help you? what can you change right now? what is #stuff youre just gonna have to brute force?#not to say diagnoses cant make thing easier but they are no silver bullet and can often bring new horrors to your life #idk. i think. always be wary and recognize that a diagnosis changes very little positively outside of accomadations you may be able to r #eceieve anyway. at least in uni. oh and dont forget trade schools exist. and many other options than dying artist and doctor and sales #if youre feeling overwhelmed by the future break it down and seek help #let yourself seek help to improve but dont let yourself seek help in the form of stagnation. stagnation is the devil

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maiteo · 14 days ago

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https://www.tumblr.com/maiteo/766068197942345728/yep

Oh don’t even get me started on that Lego head twat I’ve hated him for years now. What really annoys me is the way it’s sooo obvious that the club waited for all the talk about him to go down, like that twitter user said away fans don’t even boo him no more, and fans feel more comfortable talking about him as if he’s a normal member of the squad, for them to start shoving him down our throats again and act like nothing happened. It’s so so disgusting the way they shoved his case under the carpet and weathered the storm and waited for all the noise to disappear before posting him on socials again. I wanted to link a tweet but I can’t find it but basically it was something about how for as long as he is at the club it’s like a dark sinister cloud is hanging above the club and the clubs gonna keep failing and getting humiliated as karma

im pretty sure I’ve seen the tweet you’re mentioning and it’s so true!! i’ve been done with that dark spirited spaniard for some time now & ik i’ve said it before…it’s actually insane how defensive ppl get whenever anyone points out how gross he is…

& you’re right its such a pathetic way to operate especially when they’re constantly pushing this brand of “unity” and “being one w their community” “the arsenal family” & whatnot…like none of this is applicable when this what we allow at our club?

it’s incredibly damaging that this is how clubs/individuals act during these situations bc they don’t realize how it negatively affects the culture and how the silence/no stance/defending this shit etc makes this such an endless and evil cycle…I’m so tired

#answered #a lot of things they’ve been silent abt now that I’m thinking about it….#just constant let downs tbh…the club mostly n arteta ofc but the fans let me down too #like there’s ppl who wanted to draw attention n voice their concerns w five at the club & it got little to no traction #bc ppl are more concerned w performances n rivalries n shit so any perceived threat to unravel artetas impact/the club’s improvement #is immediately shut down & heavily shunned….more shunned than the literal criminal.

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lighthouseborn · 9 months ago

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LET ME TELL YOU A TALE . . .

@lighthouseborn — an independent, headcanon heavy portrayal of 𝑯𝒆𝒏𝒓𝒚 𝑻𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒆𝒓 from the iconic 𝘗𝘪𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘦𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘊𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘣𝘣𝘦𝘢𝘯 franchise. multiverse & crossover friendly. a patchwork project treasured by Hannah since 2019.

#potc rp #age of sail rp #the little mermaid rp #god i do not know how to tag for visibility s;dfj;dlkfjg #currently wanted for treason ( sp. )#dreaming up things to say & never quite saying them ( my edit. )#''isn't this mostly the same as--'' i have had one (1) promo idea for the last four years leave me be #ain't broke don't fix!!!! just improve upon!!!!#anyway i think i've stared at this riddled with indecision for long enough here u go n;b;kna;jwerlkjsfg

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dewvorce-flowers · 22 days ago

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Self affirmations to myself : You started this blog so you could have a fun archive of stuff from the new fandom you just joined(that'sover a year now btw, been A Ride). Don't overthink stuff like seeming too online or how much you can reblog before it becomes annoying just because a small handful of people follow this now.

(Btw sorry if I ever ignore DMs I either forgot or my brain decided that actually answering will take too much energy)

#just got too into my own head again because I noticed just how much more stuff I reblog compared to others #just how much time is spent online #but like even if there's better ways to spend my day #that doesn't change the fact that I'm ill and mostly homebound atm #like sure I could be beating myself up over how little i do and how much more I used to be able to do (I do that too but I shouldnt)#and instead appreciate that I'm privileged to have the ability to just be at home sick and enjoy my time recovering as best as I can #but it gets tiring when the chronic illness doesn't improve even after months or rather years tbh #and why am I able to reblog so much on here but still haven't replied to RL friends #I'm also mourning what I could do in this fandom #like I'm a decent photoshopper with a ton of ideas just wasting away in my draft file #or I have soooo many fic ideas and while I'm a horribke writer I would still love to take a crack at them #instead it's lying in bed with pain and brain fog reblogging funny stuff #this isn't a knock on the funny stuff it's literally one of the few things keeping me from sliding into very bad depression but y'know #sometimes which there was a way to voice call with people about their post cause on some days even typing gets too much #okay this is enough self pity #delete later #abi rambles #I can't ever be truly angry at having gotten into hockey cause this fandom has so many cool people and actually got me to jump over #my own shadow and DM people on my own for the first time!!!

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sunnibits · 5 months ago

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you wanna know something crazy about being an artist is that if you look back at art you made a year or two ago and still think it looks good, that’s a bad thing <3

#/mostly joking if you are able to look at old art and still find things u like about it that’s actually wonderful and healthy #and improving at ur own pace or not improving at all is also fine and healthy #mostly I am just feeling a little depressed rn and sad that I don’t feel improved since last year :(#I miss having art motivation #sad times

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rubitheracoon · 8 months ago

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This show has been feuling me with motivation to improve my drawing skills and I LOVE IT

I have literally never drawn so much in a week before and not struggle to think of something let alone try to draw stuff I haven't before or don't have much skill in

Like I DREW THIS IN ABOUT 15 MINUTES

It's still scuffed ofc but it wouldve taken me like 20 minutes or longer pre-hyperfixation

IM FUCKING IMPROVING FASTER THAN I HAVE EVER BEFORE

#my art <3 #art improvement #my hyperfixation #hazbin hotel #even though its mostly unrelated i wanna put it in cuz im referreing to it #my art #im so happy that i have so much motivation to work on my skills #ive been going so slowly on just improving on 2 or 3 things that i already knew how to draw #and i never had thr motivation to move onto something else #my hyperfixation may be a little bit unhealthy but it sure as *hell* (hehe) has helped me through alot of stuff #i dont think this work was awfully good i definitely couldve refined it and thought through it better #but thats up for debate #im still moderately happy with it :]

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fruitsyrups · 8 months ago

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ive crossed over into an alternate dimension where side profiles are somehow sometimes easier to draw than other angles. bodies in side profile however... nooo thank you...

#ok the back of the head is hard but the facial features proportions kind of feel easier to figure out . maybe.#weird #n e way im happy with the way i draw faces mostly maybe 50 percent of the time but im so not caught up on drawing bodies #like to the point it just looks bizarre #decent proportional face with like at least some understanding of structure/form even if it's not much #and then the stiffest clunkiest body you ever did see #or i can go the other way around and have an ok body. like decently fluid / proportional. but no face #theres some kind of disconnect. cant have both at once #thats only a sometimes thing though anyways. faces are generally easier #tried to do a teeny bit of gesture drawing yesterday but i was feeling sooo lazy and impatient so only 3 of them turned out ok ish #im pretty sure i post more often talking about art than i actually post art #i dont post most of the things i draw #i like to have my little secrets...#secrets in question are just literally anything that isnt adventure time art #actually looking through my art folder is crazy cause like if i saw this 3 years ago (i was really bad at drawing 3 years ago) i would. idk #drop dead or something #but now its like yeah same old same old. lots of problems. need to work on those.#but its nice to step back and be like woagh holy shit. massive improvement #earlier i was trying to dfraw a character and it wasn't coming out right but instead of getting frustrated and discouraged #it was more like i had this feeling of . idk. excitement to get better at drawing?#i dont know if this is just a temporary mood or maybe im turning over a new leaf. new optimistic mindset about art #<- watch that 'new mindset' totally disappear when i have a slightly more prolonged period of art struggle. lol

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dullahandyke · 11 months ago

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nothing like a typing test to lift the spirits

#i might still not have the fucking essay half done but i just scored 118wpm qwerty on monkeytype 30 second test with 96%acc #^ btw typing tests r mostly bullshit and theyre not an accurate measure of how fast u type in practice #they often include only common/basic words and lack both punctuation and coherant word patterns #additionally it only measures how quickly you can replicate written word #when i know that personally a lot of the drag on my typing speed is composing sentences in my head or processing audio #like using stenography methods a lot of people reach speeds of 220+wpm (the average speed a person talks)#but even if i learned plover (something i have all the equipment to do but i havent sat down n done yet)#i doubt id be able to become a court stenographer or other such thing bcos of how autism slows down my audio processing #so i would need to attend to That and improve it greatly and i do not know if that is possible #and also like i have no urgent need to transcribe real-time dialogue its just an interest thing #but yknow!#anywho i probs need to practice dvorak more and get good at that before i crack into stenography #last i checked i was like 23wpm without reference if i attempted accuracy (using a typing test with punctuation and sentence structure)#which is like. dogshit. but it wont get better if i dont practice ig #okkkk from now on im going dvorak mode except for schoolwork and im not allowed 2 get mad #ok there we go i switched over yay #i'm both better and worse than i expected #muscle memory is doing so much heavy lifting re: where letters n shit are #but its still a little agonising

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vulpixelates · 1 year ago

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i am so sad that isuzu/rin wasn't really in the og fruits basket anime that i watched as a kid (as far as i can remember?) bc she legit would have rewired my brain chemistry

like. my little baby gay, goth middle school heart would have been OBSESSED w her on sight. even now i want half of her outfits, like just look at them