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Hope is Dangerous...
A machine elf woke me up this morning.
(Link has description penned by the ethno-botanist who named the phenomenon.)
Now, I have already heard of them, and I know what they're supposed to sound like, so if my half-sleeping brain wanted to produce one for me, it has instructions. Also, I'm operating on 1.5 hours of sleep right now, tops. Consciousness gets gooey under these levels of stress. Scientifically, this is a useless experience.
Nevertheless, a loud, excited, unintelligible gabble - distinct in that way from Disney-esque squirrel-speak - woke me from fitful dreams. And then the spouse came in and told me it was about time to get ready for my fateful doctor appointment.
I've had thyroid issues for at least three decades, probably born with them. My number was low (standard panels only check one, of three), they threw enough Synthroid at me to get the number into "normal range" and never gave me a diagnosis. I still had symptoms, nobody cared. They tried to treat my anxiety with antidepressants - which never worked. Because my thyroid number was "normal," you see. Of course, I was gaining weight because I didn't eat properly and exercise, even though none of the diets and exercises worked either. My thyroid number was "normal." I was just a lazy liar!
My "family doctor" (I'm lucky to have one!) "prescribed" megadoses of iodine, and sea kelp, and a ketogenic diet. I begged him to send me to an endocrinologist, almost from the first appointment. I told him the same story I've told you, plus more. Finally, my spouse accompanied me to an appointment and told him to give me the referral. He did, but I couldn't get an appointment with the thyroid specialist for months. Today was that appointment.
I have had so many doctors stop listening, glaze over, and do the minimum amount needed to get me out of the office. I've also had a bunch be very enthused about listening and helping me! Only to disengage and glaze over when it turns out the minimum amount doesn't cure me and I keep coming back asking for help. Pssht! Women! Am I right, fellas?
Today, this guy had run a full blood panel with all three numbers. For months in advance, I stopped taking all the useless supplements the "family doctor" pushed on me, to make sure the guy had an accurate result. The first thing that happened when I came to the office - a tech weighed me and checked how tall I am. THAT IS NOT A GOOD SIGN. I waited, expecting to hear, You have an unhealthy BMI, here's a diet, you need to exercise.
What I got, after some very sincere (seeming!) discussion was: "You have Hashimoto's, your immune system is attacking your thyroid, and you're probably one of the 5% of people who can't convert Synthroid to every type of thyroid hormone you need."
THIS IS HOW I SELF-DIAGNOSED YEARS AGO, BUT I NEVER GOT ANYONE TO LISTEN.
I told the doctor I'd tried Armour Thyroid, and it was wonderful, but I couldn't tolerate an effective dose. (I tried so hard to tolerate it! I split my dose, I built up to it, I worked for months, but the side effects didn't go away. It killed the anxiety I've lived with all my life. Boom! Gone! And then I had to stop taking it and, like a nightmare, over about a week, all that mental anguish came back.)
He said: "It might be the binding agent." THIS ALSO JIBED WITH MY RESEARCH! "Let's try it from a compounding pharmacy. If that doesn't work, get back in touch with me, there are more things we can try." Ha-ha, and also, bonus round: "No, don't take sea kelp, don't megadose with iodine, that can make your thyroid stop working altogether." And! "I'm going to talk to your doctor."
I AM VALID! But, I've heard that before. And when the first thing doesn't work, I lose all my traction. I am hoping so hard. Armour Thyroid did help, but if I can't tolerate it, I'm setting myself up for another Flowers for Algernon where my crippling anxiety goes away and comes right back.
Machine elves seem like they like us. The seem to have the ability to create beautiful things with words, and they're so jazzed to teach us how to do it, that they try to create this information into our heads all at once instead of slowing down to explain. I'm a writer. Broadly-speaking, that is also my jam, so I'm in favour of the little guys, real or imagined.
My dude - or genderless construct, or however you identify - if you're watching me right now, thanks for giving my reality a nudge towards something better. Now, for god's sake, keep it up!
#machine elves#thyroid issues#most doctors are terrible#at least i have a diagnosis!!#and i'm so scared that's all i'll get#but hopeful#holdin out for a knight in shining Armour
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The danger is clear and present: COVID isnāt merely a respiratory illness; itās a multi-dimensional threat impacting brain function, attacking almost all of the bodyās organs, producing elevated risks of all kinds, and weakening our ability to fight off other diseases. Reinfections are thought to produce cumulative risks, and Long COVID is on the rise. Unfortunately, Long COVID is now being considered a long-term chronic illness ā something many people will never fully recover from. Dr. Phillip Alvelda, a former program manager in DARPAās Biological Technologies Office that pioneered the synthetic biology industry and the development of mRNA vaccine technology, is the founder of Medio Labs, a COVID diagnostic testing company. He has stepped forward as a strong critic of government COVID management, accusing health agencies of inadequacy and even deception. Alvelda is pushing for accountability and immediate action to tackle Long COVID and fend off future pandemics with stronger public health strategies. Contrary to public belief, he warns, COVID is not like the flu. New variants evolve much faster, making annual shots inadequate. He believes that if things continue as they are, with new COVID variants emerging and reinfections happening rapidly, the majority of Americans may eventually grapple with some form of Long COVID. Letās repeat that: At the current rate of infection, most Americans may get Long COVID.
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LP: A recent JAMA study found that US adults with Long COVID are more prone to depression and anxiety ā and theyāre struggling to afford treatment. Given the virusās impact on the brain, I guess the link to mental health issues isnāt surprising. PA: There are all kinds of weird things going on that could be related to COVIDās cognitive effects. Iāll give you an example. Weāve noticed since the start of the pandemic that accidents are increasing. A report published by TRIP, a transportation research nonprofit, found that traffic fatalities in California increased by 22% from 2019 to 2022. They also found the likelihood of being killed in a traffic crash increased by 28% over that period. Other data, like studies from the National Highway Traffic Safety Administration, came to similar conclusions, reporting that traffic fatalities hit a 16-year high across the country in 2021. The TRIP report also looked at traffic fatalities on a national level and found that traffic fatalities increased by 19%. LP: What role might COVID play? PA: Research points to the various ways COVID attacks the brain. Some people who have been infected have suffered motor control damage, and that could be a factor in car crashes. News is beginning to emerge about other ways COVID impacts driving. For example, in Ireland, a driverās COVID-related brain fog was linked to a crash that killed an elderly couple. Damage from COVID could be affecting people who are flying our planes, too. Weāve had pilots that had to quit because they couldnāt control the airplanes anymore. We know that medical events among U.S. military pilots were shown to have risen over 1,700% from 2019 to 2022, which the Pentagon attributes to the virus.
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LP: Youāve criticized the track record of the CDC and the WHO ā particularly their stubborn denial that COVID is airborne. PA: They knew the dangers of airborne transmission but refused to admit it for too long. They were warned repeatedly by scientists who studied aerosols. They instituted protections for themselves and for their kids against airborne transmission, but they didnāt tell the rest of us to do that.
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LP: How would you grade Biden on how heās handled the pandemic? PA: Iād give him an F. In some ways, he fails worse than Trump because more people have actually died from COVID on his watch than on Trumpās, though blame has to be shared with Republican governors and legislators who picked ideological fights opposing things like responsible masking, testing, vaccination, and ventilation improvements for partisan reasons. Bidenās administration has continued to promote the false idea that the vaccine is all that is needed, perpetuating the notion that the pandemic is over and you donāt need to do anything about it. Biden stopped the funding for surveillance and he stopped the funding for renewing vaccine advancement research. Trump allowed 400,000 people to die unnecessarily. The Biden administration policies have allowed more than 800,000 to 900,000 and counting.
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LP: The situation with bird flu is certainly getting more concerning with the CDC confirming that a third person in the U.S. has tested positive after being exposed to infected cows. PA: Unfortunately, weāre repeating many of the same mistakes because we now know that the bird flu has made the jump to several species. The most important one now, of course, is the dairy cows. The dairy farmers have been refusing to let the government come in and inspect and test the cows. A team from Ohio State tested milk from a supermarket and found that 50% of the milk they tested was positive for bird flu viral particles.
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PA: Thereās a serious risk now in allowing the virus to freely evolve within the cow population. Each cow acts as a breeding ground for countless genetic mutations, potentially leading to strains capable of jumping to other species. If any of those countless genetic experiments within each cow prove successful in developing a strain transmissible to humans, we could face another pandemic ā only this one could have a 58% death rate. Did you see the movie āContagion?ā It was remarkably accurate in its apocalyptic nature. And that virus only had a 20% death rate. If the bird flu makes the jump to human-to-human transition with even half of its current lethality, that would be disastrous.
#sars cov 2#covid 19#h5n1#bird flu#articles#long covid is def a global issue not just for those in the us and most countries aren't doing much better#regardless of how much lower the mortality rate for h5n1 may or may not become if/when it becomes transmissible between humans#having bird flu infect a population the majority of whose immune system has been decimated by sars2#to the point where the average person seems to have a hard time fighting off the common cold etc...#(see the stats of whooping cough/pertussis and how they're off the CHARTS this yr in the uk and aus compared to previous yrs?#in qld average no of cases was 242 over prev 4 yrs - there have been /3783/ diagnosed as of june 9 this yr and that's just in one state.#there's a severe shortage of meds for kids in aus bc of the demand and some parents visit +10 pharmacies w/o any luck)#well.#let's just say that i miss the days when ph orgs etc adhered to the precautionary principle and were criticised for 'overreacting'#bc nothing overly terrible happened in the end (often thanks to their so-called 'overreaction')#now to simply acknowledge the reality of an obviously worsening situation is to be accused of 'fearmongering'#š¤·āāļø#also putting long covid and bird flu aside for a sec:#one of the wildest things that everyone seems to overlook that conor browne and others on twt have been saying for yrs#is that the effects of the covid pandemic extend far beyond the direct impacts of being infected by the virus itself#we know sars2 rips apart immune system+attacks organs. that in effect makes one more susceptible to other viruses/bacterial infections etc#that in turn creates increased demand for healthcare services for all kinds of carers and medications#modern medicine and technology allows us to provide often effective and necessary treatment for all kinds of ailments#but what if there's not enough to go around? what happens when the demand is so high that it can't be provided fast enough -- or at all?#(that's assuming you can even afford it)#what happens when doctors and nurses and other healthcare workers keep quitting due to burnout from increased patients and/or illness#because they themselves do not live in a separate reality and are not any more sheltered from the effects of constant infection/reinfection#of sars2 and increased susceptibility to other illnesses/diseases than the rest of the world?#this is the 'new normal' that's being cultivated (the effects of which are already blatantly obvious if you're paying attention)#and importantly: it. doesn't. have. to. be. this. way.
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blorbos from my hospital š
#house#house md#hate crimes md#eric foreman#greg house#james wilson#hilson#(a little bit. more to come :3)#slugs art#I also intend to post horeman propaganda. and whatever the ship name is for foreman/house/wilson. i hope its 'horeson' lol#im a greater ppth polycule believer and house/everyone enjoyer#if it is not obvious most of my experience is in portraits and im fairly new to making ship art. and its a little bit so scaries#but my desire to see terrible middle aged doctors kiss each other is just barely able to overcome my art anxieties
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in the span of maybe an hour, clara oswald goes from, "I already know - don't say it." to, "people like you and me should say things to each other" and I'll never get over it
she literally gets pulled out of time the moment before her death and learns he's been clawing his way back to her for 4.5 BILLION years?? Just to save her??? I would also suddenly and urgently have words
#doctor who#clara oswald#12th doctor#twelveclara#you say goodbye to the person who's most important in the whole universe to you#things between you are left unsaid but not unknown#and then just before your heart stops beating - he's there??#but he's frantic and desperate and angry and not entirely himself and when you look in his eyes#you know it's been more than a few minutes for him#but BILLIONS of years???#(Clara's stronger than me I'd pass out or go catatonic from the sheer enormity of that realization)#of course you have to say something in the face of something so terrible and beautiful#and frankly he's too consumed by grief and anger to hear her#but I imagine whatever she said was both a confession and a plea to never do that on her behalf again#dw#i think even at the end clara doesn't quite grasp the sheer depth of his love for her until then#and she never wanted to die - but she didn't want him to do THAT; that level of devotion was unfathomable#god im obsessed with them#when is it my turn
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if chibnall was the one writing this season you lot would be talking VERY differently
#anti rtd#oomfs ur so right#s14 is the kinda mid that people think his era was#and yet#you throw in that razzle dazzle written by rtd and all of a sudden there's no criticisms!#or worse somehow#is how its a polite and gentle reframing of chibs criticism#like with him it was hey he ate this singular one thing But I KNOW CHIBS IS BAD HE'S TERRIBLE DONT WORRY I KNOW IT#and with rtd its oh i disliked this nonsensical and objectively bad writing but ummm guys i lOVED LOVED everything else i swear#its soooooooooooooOOOOOOOOO#it must be studied#but i knew yous were a lost cause when we had 14/15 running around calling men hot bc yes totally something the doctor just does#not ooc at allllll#bc this is how we know the doctor is queer now guys#dont you know it#i have like a million other complaints i miss being like oh hey that was mid/bad and moved on with my life šš#god i think 13 era killed me bc now i do care about u hypocritical losers#rip 15ruby i wish i cared and that you had any development#ncuti millie i would like to hang out with you though#15 maybe you'll cry less next season so that the emotional scenes have impact perhaps šš¾šš¾#ramblings of an insomniac#god i just remembered the whole real mum antics#fuck i need to go i gotta go!!!!#ps the ncuti conundrum where he's the most charismatic dr in nuwho whilst also being the worst actor is driving me nuts#idk if its the characterisation or his lack of ability in creating that inner psychology that connective tissue between his louder acting#which he's great at btw!#idk maybe that one monologue in boom made me go yes okay here we goooo#but then every other moment has been like hmmmnnnmtgodhd okay whateve#i think he needed more acting prep before he got this role bc he's got Something he could be Great but the subtle stuff is lacking#sooo hoping he can grow into that but it's giving perfect actor wrong time.... and if ur white ur not allowed to agree with me shush go away
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The thing about Doctor Who is that nobodyās doing platonic soulmatesļæ¼ like they are. Especially with angry redheaded women. Like the Doctor and Donna are the most spot on example of platonic soulmates. ļæ¼āļæ¼Tied together by destiny. They love each other so ļæ¼unfathomably much, devoted, would die for each other no hesitation, ļæ¼all without an ounce of romance. Amy Pond being the first face the Eleventh Doctor saw, and him telling her, āyouāre the first face this face saw, and you are seared onto my hearts, Amelia Pond, and you always will be.ā and her appearing to him right as heās about to regenerate. ļæ¼
#Doctor Who#doctor donna#donna noble#Amy Pond#The grammar is terrible but Iām high so#Iām really emotional about it right now#I really really really really really really really love well done platonic relationship#especially considering that platonic relationships have been the most impactful relationships in my life#And to see that type of devotion and love represented in such a clear and beautiful way#and being treated with the same amount of time and respect as the romantic relationship#makes me really emotional and makes my love feel even more valid in a way#11th doctor#eleventh doctor#tenth doctor#fourteenth doctor
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As much as I'm a Pharma apologist he is genuinely an asshole who acts completely unrepentant so something I think about for an eventual Pharma redemption fic is like. How do you write a redemption for a severely traumatized guy whose coping mechanism is to act like he doesn't care and the people who need to accept him don't like/care about him enough to go "hey it's okay everyone gets a second chance" and/or "wow Pharma is so radically different what caused that change."
But also like it's really hard to help someone who has no desire to/refuses to be helped and makes himself deliberately unpleasant to be around so like idk
#in the end i think what it comes down to is no one asked WHY#no one looked at pharma's before and after and went 'how did that happen'#even when other ppl talk about pharma's change it's always in such like a. passive way#'before he went mad and started killing patients' yeah and what made him go mad exactly?#everyone just kinda talks about pharma like 'yeah he used to be great then he started killing people'#i know he's a minor character but LITERALLY NO ONE ASKS WHY#and like let me emphasize multiple people say 'for most of his life he was a good doctor' or something#no one was like 'yeah i always knew pharma was a piece of shit'#(besides ratchet telling him he was always a terrible autobot but i think that was a heat of the moment thing)#pharma apologism#like it's just absurd how everyone goes 'yeah pharma went insane. pity' but no one ever brings up why#i know it's just authorial accidentally writing a deep character but not having time to acknowledge it#but like when i think of in universe explanations for why the autobots would be like this#the only explanations are that ppl either already hated pharma (not supported by evidence)#or that the autobots just really hate traitors. which seems more likely given like. how getaway was treated#this is basically the one time i understand autobot slander bc when i think about it i'm kinda like#yeah the average autobot is kind of sanctimonious and thinks ppl less moral than them are pieces of shit#whereas to contrast the decepticons are kind of just not concerned about morality and more about their dogma#accidental cross faction comparison in the notes
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pretty much every doctor who character who appears more than twice gets some sort of inconsistent or downright bad writing or gets sidelined for an entire story. it happens to all of them. the difference is merely in how often it happens (and sometimes if it's confined to a specific medium e.g. poorly handled classic who characters getting handled much better in audios... or vice versa, well-handled classic who characters getting poorly handled in novels)
#doctor who#ace is so ironic she gets handled so much better in classic who#than most other 80s companions#and then boom! the vnas#compare and contrast peri (handled terribly in the show and much better in some of her audios)#or adric (ahahahahahahahaha i too once had dreams of consistency)
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Every time Prapai gives Sky medicine, he's narcoleptic inside 5 minutes.
#fun story: in 2018 we went to interview ex-president jimmy carter#and I had a bit of an odd feeling in my throat#august 24 2018 i remember that date well#because that was the first signs of an illness that annihilated me#i blacked out for most of the month of september- i only have very sparse memories#i had a strange kind of pneumonia the doctor hadn't seen before#and over those 6-7 months they threw every single anti-anything they could at me#IDK if I slept so well because of the knockout effects of all the antibiotics and antivirals#or because I had a recurring fever and a chronic brutal cough for 6-7 months and was terribly weak by the end#but i was sleeping so deeply the more pills they added#and now i know i can function with a 102 fever on and off for months on end#everyone- family and coworkers- also made fun of me for insisting on wearing a mask but guess what bitches#when the pandemic rolled around i still had 2 unopened boxes from being sick a year before and those were worth more than toilet paper#lita#love in the air#prapai#sky#prapaisky#true facts: I don't remember writing one of my own fics#it was during the blackout month and i refuse to read it because i think it's funnier that i don't know what it's about#i also had to work- it was one of our biggest events that we do every 4 years#two weeks straight of 14 hour days with no weekends#and i was there every single day#i have no memory whatsoever and when we did the event again in 2022 the organizers kept saying 'oh wow you're alive!'#i like to say i had the BEST time because it's a tedious af event and everyone is surly by the end#but from MY pov i was trapped in dense fog and couldn't breathe; trapped in that twilight feeling when you're neither awake nor unconscious#and then when it passed I had a nice paycheck in my account without any of the mental strain of working for it
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someone whoās still obsessed with me after years of making me feel broken and worthless is posting again to make me feel bad before one of my only vacations in a year, right before my birthday. i know they want to ruin this time. iām trying not to let it.
what should i draw for my birthday this wednesday? š
#doctors note#i try not to talk about this here#ever#but my hand was forced. today was a terrible day and it just got so much worse.#oh well. this is my vacation#time to try to make the most of it!
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MY GOD WHY ARE MY FUCKING HANDS SO FUCKING COLD
#theyre not even a normal ācoldā!!!!!! its like i put them in ice for 2 hours!!!!!#i didnt do anything#!!!!!!#i just have a terrible blood pressure and thats why my hands are so cold and stuff; ive literally fainted bc of low blood pressure i think?#the last time it happened was 2 years ago but i still have most of the signs for low blood pressure thing#BUT MY MOTHER THINKS IM FAKING IT???? EVEN MY DAD WHO LITERALLY DOESNT DIAGNOSE ANYTHING IS LIKE 'oh yea theres probably smth wrong w ur#blood pressureā and my mom still doesnt believe us -_-#he says so!!! i say so!!!!!! even a doctor says so!!!!!!!!!#ich spreche
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got a post on my dash that was like only annoying nerds will like 73 yards. well. as an annoying nerd supreme.
#sorry i cannot fucking sleep so i decided to watch the new dw instead and you will hear about it before i disappear into the void again#LISTEN EVEN IF WE NEVER WILL GET ANSWERS TO WTF JUST HAPPENED (though i highly doubt that)#EMBRACE THE TERRIBLE WHIMSY OF THIS SEASON MAN#DREAM LOGIC! NIGHTMARE LOGIC! LITERALLY NEVER HAS A PIECE OF MEDIA ACCURATELY CAPTURED WHAT IT FEELS TO DREAM FOR ME#UNTIL THIS THANG#obviously the grander themes besides rubyās heritage are just. utter chaos in form of the supernatural mixing in with the sci fi#like not that that isnāt absolutely buckwild sometimes. or most times. but i think this is a really cool direction to take.#but also like cāmon man. we are in doctor who. you simply cannot expect that you will get all of the answers for something in one episode#sometimes#such a weird complaint when i assume most people watched previous seasons where that also happens a lot#like yeah this oneās a lot more cryptic and mind fucker-y than usual but thatās the point goddammit#like donāt get me wrong it wasnāt perfect i definitely think the criticisms about the run time and that it shouldāve been a 2 parter are#justified but the previous one? weird complaint imo. you can of course simply not like it but i am very into this.#my fave out of the season so far :P#oooh what a surprise the incomprehensible horrors fan liked the incomprehensible horrors episode. what a shocker#doctor who#sorry beegeethree and pathfinder gang
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the duality of misao being one of the few psychiatrists in arkham that has actually made progress with some of their patients and treats them like human beings, but also someone who does a complete 180Ā° later + EATS her patients and gaslights people who ask about them into thinking they were never committed there is currently making me go feral. like girlll why are you like this JSJSJ
#ALL POWER DEMANDS POWER AND SACRIFICE: musings.#NO SLEEP OF THE INNOCENT. NOT FOR YOU: character study.#and whenever i say it's making me go feral i mean it both puzzling as well as intriguing to me that misao seems to not be on ANYONE'S-#side even when it may seem like she might just care about her patients bc she not only gaslights any of the staff and patients who ask abou#them into thinking that the person was never there BUT also destroys records of them ever having been there which would take quite a bit#of effort on her part to do and that is just. wow but like i said here misao is probably one of the only doctor's throughout the years who-#have treated their patients with empathy (even if most of it is faked on her part JSJSJ) and even does thing's like keep a cupboard-#full of snacks in her office for them so that they could have something better to eat than the cafeteria food...#and that is why i believe that it honestly wouldn't be too far-fetched for misao to end up having a redemption arc because-#she honestly doesn't like a LOT of the staff there because they still advocate for the use of barbaric practices like ECT on fully-#conscious people and as a regular treatment when it should be done under anesthesia / while the patient is asleep and be a 'last resort'#kind of thing you know? plus she has heard them talk about her behind her back before bc they think misao's 'weird' sooo yeah.#she isn't COMPLETELY evil but she still does thing's like eat people which is heinous in and of itself but even more so when there's-#a power imbalance between you + the other person because some people in there i could imagine would probably grow to trust her-#as an authority figure buttt misao would fully intend to take advantage of that so she could eat. and that is uhhh TERRIBLE to say the leas#tw: mentions of cannibalism.#tw: mentions of medical malpractice.#tw: manipulation.#tw: mentions of a power imbalance.
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I wish I could tell every young person with a uterus (especially with bad cramps and/or dysphoria and/or depression, etc) that there is a decent chance they just straight up donāt need to live with that. donāt let the stigma surrounding contraceptives and the expectation that you should just ride it out and suffer win. for the love of god if thereās a chance you can lighten or even stop your period and itās symptoms all-together, unless thereās a legit health concern, your doctor should at least make you aware of that option. I want every young person to know that ābirth controlā is not just for birth control and it has the potential to make your life infinitely easier to live. do not give in to anti-pill propaganda im serious
#kibumblabs#I remember being in late high school and my doctor suggesting it because of how terrible my dysphoria/related depressive episodes related to#menstrual cycle shit is. and like. im not saying it was a flawless transition but good god im serious it changed my fucking life#not to the extent testosterone would but it was still like. a Big Deal#because I was like. what the fuck. Iāve been suffering through this shit for years. and no one told me this was a thing? weāre all just#expected to suffer? because itās āNormalā????#this whole time I could just. turn the bleeding off. or at least Down. turn off the debilitating breast soreness and swelling. etc.#anyway im not sure why im thinking about this but#i guess every time i hear someone (without any known health issues thatād interfere) like ah time for my monthly Week Of Pain And Misery#i want to shake them by the shoulders like. YOU DONT NEED TO LIVE LIKE THIS. PLEASE I JUST WANT YOU TO BE AWARE OF THIS.#and yes i know it doesnāt work for everyone or sometimes thereās side effects that make it not worth it or what have you#but for a huge huge huge amount of people. they just donāt know itās an option. because itās labelled Birth Control. and because thereās#this long-standing quiet fear mongering about it that makes it seem more dangerous and sinister and promiscuous than it is#similar in a lot of ways to other stigmatized hormone treatments. like. well. you know#doesnāt help that when you first get your prescription it comes with the worlds biggest list of Potential Issues (most of which are either#minor temporary or unlikely)#grahhghhhhhhhhh anyway. on a seperate but related note shout out to my fellow tboys who either didnāt have their periods totally stop on t#or (like in my case) they came back after like Years for whatever reason and that had to be dealt with via supplementary contraceptives#cw menstruation
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the vibe for may 23rd is noticing the roses have started to bloom. i left the windowless office with fluorescent lighting to go out into the sunshine and flowers.
#i took tomorrow off so this is my friday#look at that terrible lighting where i ate my lunch#bleh i was up there almost all day#except when i went downstairs and heard about the employee#who had quit and most likely called in a bomb threat to the office the day before#the one who got in shouting matches with the doctor#like bro you have been here nine days#i don't think you should yell at the doctor#idk i'm no expert#anyway#pretty flowers in my yard#dire straits#music#sunglasses#i guess also my face or whatever#the vibe for#brenna
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[crawls out of doctor who twitter, covered with blood] does anyone want any lemonade
#i said girl in the fireplace is bad and i have seen some of the most frustratingly terrible doctor who takes ive seen in my life#dr who#tenrose girlies i am not one of you but i stand strong in hating this episode i'll die on the hill 500 times over#10 era
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