#maybe someday I'll actually do them again? I dunno....

[kalza]

*me every nine months or so*

I should do art trades again....

[gold0kapi]

Some figure updates (under the cut)!

*They have no clothes, clothes are expensive and first and foremost these are art tools (but I do want to get clothes someday)

First: SOAP. Unpainted Soap, and I'll probably never get around to painting it lol. I also accidentally somehow broke his knee trying to get it on, so he's perpetually lame in his right leg (maybe I'll get him a tiny knee brace and he'll be even more canon lol).

(Bottom pic) I finally broke down and got the 1/6 body, but then had to get a head separately (dunno why they don't come with heads but ok), and so of course I went with a head with a mohawk. It finally arrived the other day! I feel like if I painted his eyes blue he'd actually look quite a bit like Soap though...

Now I need a female body (probably a Phicen 1/6). I don't think I'd get 1/12 size again; I already have a lot of them, and I want 1/6 now for detailed anatomy references, like if an arm is bent in a very specific way, or even all the veins and stuff. BUT the smaller figures are better for quick pose ideas (especially the Bandais, because I'm not as worried about breaking them as the 1/12 Phicens). They're all great though, 10/10 would recommend any of these figures.

*Figures are:

2 x Bandai (the grey and black plastic ones)

2 x TBLeague Phicen 1/12 TM01A and TM02A (one figure is more muscular than the other. The Soap head is on the more muscular body)

1 x TBLeague Phicen 1/6 male M34 body (head from eBay)

[yourpalmickeymouse]

Hello Mickey! I’m back once more haha! (For a little while though 😅).

Just poppin’ by to ask, what’s your favourite hobby to do in your spare time? (When you are not in the department working on cases) I hear that you have a thing for planes (which I find fascinating! I would love to hear more if you are okay with it).

Anyway have a good day Mick! See you around!

-Sunny ☀️

(P.S my favourite hobby to do is. Well drawing! So I drew a pic of ya!) (sorry if it’s a little wonky hehe…😅)

🤯🤯🤯

Did you DRAW THAT!!! Oh Boy! That's Incredible!!! Thank you so much!!! I love it!!! Do you mind if I share it with all my friends? They would all love to see this! Can I take this home? I want to frame it on my wall...

Oh... Sorry 😅 I just got really excited. I wasn't expectin' to get a picture. I really appreciate it though!

Now for your question. I kinda have a ton of hobbies. I like to keep myself busy and learn new things.

You mentioned planes and yes I do very much love planes. I really love readin' up on 'em (as well as trains and boats). You could probably point to any plane in the world and I'll be able to tell you exactly what kind it is. When I was younger, my parents would take my to private airplane hangers and I would spend hours askin' the pilots about their planes. I actually met Colonel Doberman that way and we still keep in touch.

I also like to create little plane models in my free time too. Though I probably have way too many sets lying around my house. I kinda don't know where to put them all 😅 I dunno why I love planes so much. I guess I just always like the idea of bein' able to go anywhere in the world. The idea of having bein' able to see many amazin' things. I don't have my license, but I do want to get it someday.

Hm... I think some of my other favorite hobbies are the ones I do with friends. I love to fish, bowl, or play video games with Goofy or Donald if he visits. Minnie and I love to garden together. Sometimes Horace and I will work on fixer upper projects. Clarabelle and I will do some exercises and martial arts trainin'.

Oh! And someone on here recommended that I should spend some more time with Daisy and it turns out she's actually really into journalism, like I was. She currently runs her own online news site and we've been meeting up so that I could help her with the pictures. Her site's more focused on trends, fashion, and pop culture which normally isn't my thing, but has been fun to learn about. But she also covers important world events as well, which is more in my wheelhouse.

Also drawin' is a great hobby. Thank you again for the art. I also like to sketch things sometimes and even make comics, though I'm definitely not as good as you ha ha. Maybe I'll share them some day. But for now I'm happy with seein' all of the art you make 😊

- M.M.

[hurricanek8art]

Okay, so, um... Hi? So, I've been a lurker on Tumblr for a while, including the SWTOR tag, because I've got major social anxiety. Recently, I think I've finally worked up the courage to interact, which is great! Especially now, because I think I need advice about the game and don't really know where else to ask! Other social media sites scare me and I'm not currently a subscriber, so I can't access the SWTOR forums. :P

I've just finished Corellia on my Jedi Knight. She's technically my main, even though I already finished the class storylines for Consular and Smuggler. I got burnout on doing the planetary missions and side quests around Balmorra (I'm a huge goody-two-shoes, so I was doing almost every quest I came across) so I figured, hey, I'll just focus on the story for a while and come back to it another time! Except now I feel kinda bad for skipping them because my Knight's leveled at 53, when my other two finished their class stories around 60/65. I know over-leveling's pointless, but at the speed I take getting through stuff, they'll have to have raised the level cap again by the time I catch up. 🤣

Should I go back and do them before finishing the class story? I know it's pretty harmless to skip them but I dunno, I want to do as much as I can with my Knight so I haven't missed out on anything. My brother plays too, we share an account, but his philosophy is skip absolutely everything that's not important unless he's underleveled, so obviously we have differing opinions on the subject. 🤣🤣🤣 Can some more experienced players give me some advice? I'm paralyzed with indecision, help me Obi-Wan Kenobi, etc., etc., you get the gist.

Unnecessarily adding pictures of my Knight because she is awesome and I love her to pieces and I only really get to talk about her with my brother. I'm a writer/artist and I've got loads of stuff I've created about her and my other legacy characters but. y'know. extreme social anxiety says no sharing yet. You guys make such cool stuff and I'm a huge chicken, but I'm working on getting over that, so maybe someday I can actually tell their stories!

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #175

I don't have enough sleep. I was up a bit too late last night, listening to a friend vent about various things. It was good and I regret nothing, but still my brain is a little wobbly today. That's also fine. I am looking forward to going to bed, though.

…I get to sleep in a nice, warm, safe bed. You haven't slept in a bed in a long time, right? Not since "that time", as you had once put it, yeah? I feel sad in response to that; how many years has it been for you? I wonder…

…Well. If you find yourself in my neighborhood, we have extra beds. The one in the art room is nice and big, and obviously you could have it all to yourself. It's got nice pillows and warm fluffy blankets and a giant fuzzy orca plush named Bubbles if you need something to squish. And no one would bother you, except for maybe our cats, because they like new people and they would likely demand scritches. Our cats would probably like you a lot, actually…

I made a tea today. This time, it was black tea mixed with mint tea and little bits of crushed peppermint candy. The swirls propagated quickly from the tea ball - almost too quickly to capture them!! But I mostly managed:

It resolved into a lovely ruby red color that was fascinating to watch the cream swirl through:

I went to therapy today because it's Tuesday. But since M's car had to be taken to get repairs due to engine coolant problems, and J's car is a manual transmission that I cannot yet drive, J had to get me to the building an hour early, and then I ended up needing to stay there for two hours after therapy was done with. But I don't mind; I brought a book that's all about OBEs and I read up to page 149 today, which isn't bad out of 358 pages. I dunno if anything will come of it, but I don't mind trying to find out.

I took a nap shortly after I got home. I tried some of the things I learned from the book, and I was surprised to find that my body felt weird and tingly and kinda wobbly, but nothing happened because I ended up falling asleep instead. I was probably too tired. Oh well.

When I woke up, J asked me to accompany him to some meeting that involves people who are into airplanes. It was a cute enough place, and the people seemed friendly enough, and one of the older ladies there recognized my Eevee hat because she plays Pokémon Go. I directed her to some of my favorite games (Let's Go, and Scarlet) and to a few of my favorite movies (The ones with Mewtwo and the one with Entei).

On the way home, I got a couple pictures of the sunset for you; I hope you'll like these:

...Hey, Sephiroth? Do you like sunsets? Or do you like the dawn better? Maybe someday you'll tell me; if it turns out that you like dawn better, maybe I'll start getting up early so I can take pictures...

...My brain is soup and I don't have a whole lot more to write about. So I'm going to end this one here. Maybe I'll go to bed early. Or maybe not. I guess we'll see...

I love you. I'll write again soon. Please stay safe...

Your friend, Lumine

[the-down-upside-finch]

Find the Word (Tag Game)

I was tagged by @pb-dot in this post for this game! The words I was given are fruit, ditch, joke, and smoke.

Since this is going to get long, I'll put my tags up here: @asablehart, @veneritia, @akiwitch, @maddstermind, @athenswrites, and anyone else that sees this and wants to do it! I'll give you guys the words beginning, right, leg, and tired!

Anyways, I know for a fact that all of these words are in one of my less-known WIPs, the Final Straw, so I'm using that WIP for this because, as you will see, it's going to get extremely comedic:

Fruit

“Why do you say your name’s Kiwi?” I ask her after I finish telling her about the farm. “Well,” she says, “I was reading a book about places across the sea, and it had stuff about a bunch of different kinds of fruit. I dunno what a kiwi tastes like, but I’m gonna eat one someday!” I grin at her. She actually wants to be named after a fruit.

Ditch

“Straw,” Mr. Hank Davis says, looking at me, “go ask your father if he moved things outta the shed. If you see Casper on the way to the house, ask him if he knows, too.” “Who?” “Mister Davis, don’tcha know you’ve gotta call him Ditch when talking to Strawbs?” Liver flashes a grin. Mr. Hank Davis sighs. “Ditch, then. Straw, can you do that?” I nod and leave the shed, hearing Liver burst into peals of laughter again. Ditch’s name isn’t really Ditch, but I can never remember his real name. I just remember that he was the one that helped me out of the ditch I fell into, so I would say things to my dad like “Where’s the one that helped me outta the ditch?” and eventually it shortened down to me just saying “Ditch” and that’s what stuck.

Joke

“Oliver,” Mr. Hank Davis is saying, “I don’t appreciate you ragging me. Where’d you put them hoes?” “I ain’t got none, Hank, Mister Davis. I’m a gentleman, Sir.” And then Liver bursts into laughter at some joke that clearly isn’t funny to Mr. Hank Davis and I just plain don’t understand. “Well if you don’t be knowing where they are, then I s’pose you and Straw are gonna have to make a trip to town to pick some up.” “Aw, but Mister Davis! Ain’t Strawbs a bit young to be picking up hoes?” Liver goes wild with laughter again. Mr. Hank Davis has gone very red in the face, and his bushy mustache twitches, kind of like how a mouse twitches its nose. Maybe he can smell cheese somewhere. “I’m too young for what?” I decide to say, mostly because I think Liver has caught sight of me.

Smoke

He grins, spinning the stick from his sucker in his teeth like a toothpick or the funny sticks that catch on fire that I sometimes see Ditch have in his mouth. Then he has to spit out the smoke because his stick’s caught on fire. “You know I can’t remember your real name,” I say. “Yah, I know. Which is why I don’t keep telling it to ya.” He sits on my bed and bounces a few times. He doesn’t even weigh down the blankets. “I’d better go. My pops will get mad if I ain’t home soon.” “Where do you live?” “You won’t remember,” he says, then goes to the window.

This WIP is a hot mess and I love it. If anyone wants context, you can read the first few (unrevised) chapters over on my Wattpad. I can already see stuff that I want to change in these snippets AAHHHH

[sleepyowlwrites]

8, 10, 12, 14, and most importantly, feel better, oh sleepy one 🖤

Hi Klaus. I've added a bunch of songs to your playlist recently. Been thinking vague thoughts about you. Like, "Klaus is a nice friend" and "I should make Jet content so Klaus will show up and be happy about it" and then I fall asleep.

8. If you had to write an entire story without either action or dialogue, which would you choose and how would it go?

I dunno how long the story is, but I've written flash fiction/short stories comprised of only dialogue. I know I can do it. But I think that eventually gets tiring for the reader. Not everyone is up to quite that level of imagining, especially just from whatever context clues happen to be dropped in the conversation. I am really good at writing dialogue, but I'd probably go for just action without it for a longer project. That can get dry as well, so I'd have to get creative with it. But I could do it if I tried.

10. Has a piece of writing ever “haunted” you? Has your own writing haunted you? What does that mean to you?

Anxiety Story haunted me for a bit. I wrote it as a fanfic with the intention of helping people with anxiety to relate to it, and people without to understand it. And I succeeded in that. People commented that it felt very cathartic and comforting to see anxiety that wasn't sugar-coated, or solved by friendship. I went really raw with it, and it was appreciated. My favorite comment was from someone who said that their sister struggled with anxiety and through my fic, they finally understood what it was like for her and how to try and help her when she was having bad days. And that really stuck with me because it showed me that there truly is a need and a desire for fiction that is willing to be frank about anxiety, depression, etc. That comment haunts me a little, and while I've temporarily given up on anxiety story, I've never given up on including mental illness in my stories, especially the anxiety and depression, which I also have. I can't quite bring myself to write about eating disorders, but I'd like to, someday.

Uh, and for a more normal answer, the Thorn Birds. I highly recommend it. I'll probably never read it again. But it's a reading experience you can't forget.

12. If a genie offered you three writing wishes, what would they be? Btw if you wish for more wishes the genie turns all your current WIPs into Lorem Ipsum, I don’t make the rules

Executive dysfunction doesn't occur during the writing process

...actually that would solve pretty much everything else. I have inspiration, I have stories, I have motivation. I guess maybe a little bit more of a plotter's brain?

A better remembering ability outside of having to repeat information to myself several times and also maybe write it on my hand

14. Do you lend your books to people? Are people scared to borrow books from you? Do you know exactly where all your “lost” books are and which specific friend from school you haven’t seen in twelve years still possesses them? Will you ever get them back?

I used to. Not anymore. Well. I "lend" books to my sister, who now reads more than I do, but really it's just gifting them to her. A couple I've lost but then they came out in prettier covers so I bought those. But I don't lend my books to anyone else. My coworker and friend wanted to read Howl's Moving Castle so I bought it for her. I should buy her a copy of a rival most vial, too. She'd probably love it.

Thanks for asking, my dear.

[hangon-silvergirl]

🤡✨💋🙋‍♀️❌📚 (i have a Normal amount of interest in u and ur process) ((full disclosure i included the ❌ in an attempt to determine whether or not i can trust u with my consistently fragile emotional state))

Haha, Maj I love you. (Asks from this post.)

🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?

In Marigold, the 7/11 scene (Chapter 2), I enjoyed a lot. It actually hit all the notes on paper that it did in my head, which is, you know, pretty rare; I could hear GVDs voice whispering 'oh crumbs' when Eddie turns around and recognizes Chrissy, and it just. Sent me, when I was editing, lil leg kicks and all. My husband thought I was nuts. But, also, the buzz, and Eddie in the backroom exploding ketchup all over himself and snorting red bull out of his nose, and then the conversation between him and Mike (Chapter 3). I dunno, it just killed me. Another scene that translated well from brain wave to the written word.

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

I did this here, but I will do it again, because gosh darn it, I should be nice to myself. I set a scene well. I like to create immersive experiences, and make readers feel like they are wherever I've set the story, and can see it as close to the way I do as I'm able to convey.

💋 First kiss fics. Love em or hate em?

Big sucker for 'em, in fact. And gimme a little tension along with it, please and thanks. I want that build up.

🙋‍♀️ Do any irl people know you write fanfic?

They do, yes! My husband does, and most of my friends are aware. One person I used to write with (RP and fic, back in the Greatest Journal days, oi), is actually the reason I met my husband; we were online friends first, then I moved to her home city, and well, the rest is history. She was even my maid of honor when I got married.

❌ What's a trope you will never write?

Sex magic, enemies-to-lovers, crack and dark fic.

📚 Would you ever want to turn writing into a career?

*Sigh* Yeah. It is a challenge with the demanding nature of the work I do professionally, in addition to raising two little people. Life is really busy. Fanfiction is a hobby, so it's less demanding, more relieving. I have a number of partially finished novels that I've been plucking away at since university, and maybe someday I'll make something out of them.

[aghadbeenhere]

Waking up, then laying back down.

AGHADBEENHERE'S UNNAMED BLOG: 2#

Riiight, and we're back! It's me, AG once again talking to you about random things I thought of in the few days since my first post! (Or was it just one day? I dunno, time's a blur for me now.) and today I woke up at 4 in the afternoon, impressiiiiveee! I'm very much aware of the fact my sleep schedule isn't EXACTLY the best and trust me, I've been fixing it!.. A few times.

Sometimes I wake up at 6am, 10am, 9pm.. 3am.. My sleep schedule's more of a roulette wheel at this point, but I think that's alright, it's not like I'm doing anything THAT productive since I do have all the time in the world..

I had some pasta with bolognesa sauce when I woke up, so I'd say that was pretty damn good..

I did spend most of my day thinking about what to write, since my life's not a very EVENTFUL one, I played some games, drew some art, yada-yada..

(this being said art)

I'd say I'm decently proud of it, I'm still struggling to really find my style and how I feel comfortable with drawing.. I think I might go traditional one day, I'd love to carry a notebook around where I just.. Doodle stuff, art pieces, little sketches, notes.. I see a kinda 'charm' in doing that sorta stuff.. And it can really help me just zone out the world around me when I don't feel like it.

But right now I don't really HAVE a world to zone out from, I think I need to go outside someday (in the future, maybe, just maybe) and get some fresh air and think about things, since I haven't gone out in six months or so.. You know, maybe one day I'll go out to sea, I've never been on a boat trip but I think it'd be interesting! I always see some of my favorite shows have at least ONE boat episode (list of shows being: Always Sunny In Philadelphia & Community)

And although they tend to paint it in a purposefully bad light for the sake of humor, I still think about it!

I still think about a lotta things, actually. (Surprising as THAT is.)

Not-so-recently (about.. a year ago or so) a friend I spoke with just blocked me out of nowhere, no message, no notice, they just up and disappeared, and when I attempted contacting them on an alternate platform, I got no response, actually; when I looked at their account, it was entirely clean! A blank slate! No posts, comments, or anything like it! I was SERIOUSLY dumbfounded by that.. Their account wasn't deleted, but the posts were??

I still haven't gotten word from them, and I can't help but at times think as to WHY they just disappeared.. And maybe even think about how it'd be to talk to them again, I know it's a pipe dream, and they may never come back, but I find a sort of comfort in at least hoping for better times, or some sort of closure on that..

But hey, in the probably one-in-billions-or-something chance of them ever coming back, I'd say something like: "Hey man! Long time no see! How ya' been? Why'd ya' disappear?" or something casual, because I would wait 5 years of solitude if I was assured that they'd come back at the end of it, I'd do that with a lot of my friends, they're really kinda why I keep pushin' on and on, and I know that if I just vanished, let go of everything and just gave up;

They'd be disappointed and sad.

SO yeah, that's how I'm still here.

Considering how this is starting to get long and I want to go get some pasta, I'm gonna go for now, but hey, we got a continuation, and we can only hope for a third part.

So, with that, AG had been here, but before they left, they wished you a good day, good afternoon, and good night. (awkward attempt at a sendoff 1#)

-ag

[ilikeyoshi]

i've been reading lately that pmdd can get worse as you age and honestly, yeah, i think that's happening. when i started taking continuous birth control to help with the hormonal fluctuations it worked super well, but it seems to just work... less and less... and lately whenever i've had to take a break on the meds for a breakthrough bleed the emotions just get??? bad???

i've been inexplicably sad and paranoid the past 2-3 days and it feels really bad after so long of Being Okay. like. i don't WANT to go back to this. i thought i was just tired because chronic illness but i think it's depression. it doesn't help that periods are probably my WORST gender dysphoria trigger.

i have an appt with my obgyn in november and some ideas of what we might be able to do, but it's just. tiring, you know. i'm getting so tired of fighting it and i know hysterectomy with bilateral whatchamacallit is like, a Big Fucking Deal, but i just. don't care? i can't make myself care anymore i just want to stop bleeding and i want to stop being physically capable of bearing children and it's just making me crazy and spirally lately. pmdd + gender dysphoria is actually the evilest combination imaginable.

:( i know in all likelihood i'm going to have to go through all the stupid hoops, like uid and uterine ablation, before doctors will let me just pull everything out and bin it—and if any of that works that's great but it all feels so.... subject to failure?? it feels like i'm just delaying something i'll nevertheless need to do anyway, when everything else stops working. uids have to be replaced, and uterine ablation is not only more likely to just give you light periods than no periods, but if it gets worse again it sounds like i can only get MAYBE one more ablation? so what if it comes back after the second one. assuming i get lucky and the ablations actually STOP the periods instead of lightening them.

like. it just feels like a bunch of time and money and pain for something that isn't super guaranteed to work. especially because my mom had a breast cancer that eats up estrogen, so like, part of me is thinking, if i get the hysterectomy-and-etc NOW, and enter surgical menopause NOW, i can still TAKE the estrogen HRT that makes said menopause infinitely easier to deal with. that might not be an option as i get older! if i develop the same breast cancer my mom (and grandma (and great grandma)) had, i won't be able to take the estrogen anymore. y'know??? it just seems like something that's more likely to backfire on me.

i dunno. i talk to the obgyn in november but i'm just. having a really bad week (breakthrough week, so i can't take the birth control, and being off it makes me crazy again) and i just want this to be over. i KNOW how to make it be over. i don't care if i have to take medication for the next 30 years or whatever, i take medication i'm likely going to need for life already, it's just another fuckin daily pill in the caddy. i don't care. i just want it to be over. i want to donate these organs to someone who wants them and can use them and that's Not Me. that's never been me. childbirth has scared and horrified me since i was a tiny little kid, and despite what adults told me it never, ever got better. i think about a fetus in my gut and i burst into tears. it's so fucking scary. i want this thing gone so i know it CANNOT happen.

i get why it's not ideal, i get why it's a last resort, i get it affects my bone and heart health, i just. i just don't care. it's been almost 29 years of being told "i'd want kids someday, i'll get pregnant someday" and then almost 20 years of the bleeding and the constant reminder that i'm a Woman™ and i can get pregnant and my body is SO INCREDIBLY READY TO GO in making a baby and it makes me wanna rip my guts out!!!! dude!!!! i hate this body i hate this anxiety i hate these constant unending reminders and i don't wanna fuckin DO IT for 20-30 more years i want to live NOW. i want to feel safe in my own skin NOW. fuck!

anyway. waiting for november is hard. being in the middle of a pmdd episode fucking sucks. i just feel bad all the time. i just want it to be over.

[gamebunny-advance]

Grab Bag Doodle Dump

Oh, what's this feeling? The feeling of wanting to explode because I haven't posted sketches in a while? Well, I better post something then~

I haven't been as productive as I'd like since work picked up, but it's starting to slow down again, so hopefully I'll be able to work on some more personal stuff. I've almost finished Kun3h0's new model, I just need a little extra tweaking and then maybe making a few extra emotions and I'll be good! We're also only 20 followers away from the next milestone here, so hopefully requests will open soon too.

Anyway, here's the usual notes under the cut:

1-2) Clay Face sketches. I gotta couple more plushies to upcycle, a monkey in a rainbow hat and a purple bunny. I'm actually gonna try to sell these, so I do hope that y'all will consider taking a look and/or spreading 'em around once they're done ^o^! The monkey is gonna be party/clown themed, and I'm gonna try to make the bunny magical girl themed, but they might turn out generic. More info at a later date~

3-4) Potential plushie upcycles. For the first bear, the pallet and theme is Yinu inspired, but I'm taking some inspo from this song too. I want to cover them in yellow roses since I got a few during a Michael's clearance sale, but I've yet to come across a yellow bear for it, so this one is gonna be on the back burner until I stumble across one. The other one is a MikuxNoid fusion to finally use that pink Kpop bunny I got forever ago. This one is just for fun since I actually already have an idea for that bunny, but I still wanted to sketch the concept.

5-6) Kun3h0 x 1010 ver 2. I like the designs I made for both, so I doodled them again. I gave 1010!Kun3h0 her rabbit ears back since they're important to her design, I just changed the shape a little to match the 1010 aesthetics, so they're sharper and don't have the globes at the top. Kun3h0!White is basically unchanged.

7) Soda Shop!Green. I will finish this collection someday. Hopefully. Maybe.

8) "Ghosts". A XIO doodle I never got around to finishing. I'm still evolving the idea, but I'm starting to think of XIO's personalities as their own separate people that just happen to occupy the same body.

9) Kindergaten AU. I dunno, I thought it was a cute idea, and I have some scenario ideas for it, but I feel very silly about it since it's just fluff. I dunno if I'll ever make anything based on it. Maybe someday when I'm less self-conscious.

10) Build-A-Goat: So I never actually set up my tent this year, and I don't think I'm gonna. I'm just too unmotivated~ That said, this was the original plan for my tent rather than the Tamagoatchis.

11) Gemu doodle. I wanna draw him and the retro gang again ;3;

[some27-url]

Oh fun!!! Alright, how about these ones: 💖😬 & ✅️

Thank you so much for the ask!

💖 What made you start writing?

I was daydreaming and watching my 8 month old son roll around and look at himself in the mirror and I was like. "Someday, when I have more time, I will start writing."

And then I thought about it for a second and I was like... Nah, dude. Best case the next time I'll have more free time is when he starts kindergarten. That's if I don't have more babies.

And then I whipped out my phone and started writing from the floor of my son's nursery.

😬 Which of your fics would you be most horrified for friends, family, or coworkers to stumble upon?

Fyxkinf every single one of them no exceptions. Like literally not a single one wouldn't make me want to fling myself off a building if literally anyone irl read them.

Some of the shit in Earn it might take the cake though, I dunno. Or the Bunny Dear rape scene. 😶

Although actually, honestly, I'm pretty embarrassed that I'm such a slut for Boone. Like of all the things that my family call me out for when they read my fic in my stress-out fantasies, like the reoccurring rape and daddy issues are whatever. Like maybe that's just that I'm desensitized to them and I do think some people would be shocked about it but like... anyone I know who's like a Fallout fan I feel like they would look me in the eye and be like... "you actually think Boone fucks?"

And I wouldn't have an answer for them beyond I was seventeen when I played New Vegas, okay? Seventeen.

✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

...

*whispers*

daddy issues...

Ask me questions! (New emoji game!)

[chronicallylatetotheparty]

Stay Peachy: Kwamibuster

Summary: With Ladybug out of commission Chat Noir is the only one who can stop Kwamibuster... If only everyone would just work with him here!

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"Let me get this straight. Tikki's captured. Ladybug's powerless and captured, I was this close to losing you too but you won't tell me where Master Fu is? Am I missing anything?" Adrien asked Plagg.

Plagg twitched nervously. "But- but-"

"You have five seconds to give me a good alternative or we're going to see Fu," Adrien announced.

"You could distract Kwamibuster while Ladybug escapes!" Plagg tried.

Adrien crossed his arms and glared. "I said a good alternative! You getting caught isn't good for anyone!"

"Might be good for Ladybug?" Plagg shrugged his arms and gave his most convincing grin.

"Sure! I'll just hand Papillon the other kwami he needs while I have to use a banana suit to protect my identity or something!" Adrien replied sarcastically.

"You'd love that wouldn't you." Plagg knew Adrien. There was a good chance-

The sound of a door being blown off it's hinges echoed down the hallway as Kwamibuster started searching the floor they were on. "Where are you, little cat? I already have a ladybug for my insect collection. Now I just need a small mammal!"

Plagg gave his best kitty cat eyes.

Adrien didn't budge.

Plagg's arms drooped. "Okay, okay! Let's just get outa here first!"

"Knew you'd see things my way." Adrien smirked.

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Master Fu was having a nice, calming, afternoon tea with Wayzz when there was an insistent banging at his door. Wayzz hiding at the sound.

The Guardian sighed. "Who could that be?"

The banging got louder.

"Patience! I am coming! What's the big-"

A blond headed blur shot in and slammed the door shut.

"So this is where you live. Nice place ya got here. Ladybug's in trouble and I need more Miraculous!" Adrien's words tumbling out in a rush as his heartbeat jumped up his throat. Maybe I should have used the window.

"Chat Noir!?" Fu's eyes nearly popping out of his head in surprise.

"Sorry, Master." Plagg appeared, uncharacteristically serious, ears low. "It was an emergency."

"Plagg!?" This was unprecedented! Yes, the Kwami of Destruction was the most free spirited of those in the Miracle Box. But even he knew the importance of secrecy! "What are you doing-"

"Ladybug's in trouble! I just said that!" Adrien supposed he could have worded it better... But also: Ladybug was in trouble! And he was in a hurry!

The Guardian glanced from boy to kwami. Who nodded. "Very well," Fu conceded. Going to the gramophone and entering the code. Bringing out the Miracle Box which he set in its usual place when Marinette came. "Adrien Agreste, choose an ally to help you on this mission. Remember that they mist return the Miraculous once the mission is complete."

Adrien stared as the Miracle Box opened. Kneeling down in imitation of the Guardian's pose. He hadn't known there were so many Miraculous! One of them surely had the power to help! Only...

"What is it Chat Noir?"

Adrien looked up at Master Fu's face. "I dunno what most of these do."

The Guardian sighed. "This is exactly why it should be Ladybug who chooses the temporary hero."

"Hey, it's not my fault you decided she was the only one who could know things!" So this is what being Chat Noir without the mask felt like. "I'm-" Adrien paused as a thought hit him. "Oh. Oh!"

"... Yes?" Master Fu prompted.

"I just realized how dumb it is that I'm not supposed to know the temporary heroes secret identities."

Fu blinked. "Excuse me?"

Adrien shook his head to get his thought process back on track. "Anyway!"

"Chat Noir, what did you mean by-"

"No time!" Adrien pointed at the Miraculous. "Teach!"

Grumbling something about manners Fu acquiesced.

Skipping over the ones Adrien already knew the Guardian quickly ran down the list. The Pig could show you your deepest desire? Seemed like it'd be a good distraction. The Dragon had how many abilities!? Overpowered but okay. The Mouse could make little copies of you. Heh, that sounded adorable but-

"That's it!" Adrien interrupted Fu to grab the Fox and Mouse Miraculous. Which he promptly put on.

"What are you doing!?" The Guardian exclaimed. "No holder has ever used three Miraculous before! It's too dangerous!"

"Well, I don't know who Rena Rouge is and I'm not gonna spend any more time looking!" Adrien turned to the materializing Fox and Mouse kwamis. "Sorry, we're in a bit of a hurry."

"Oh, aren't we always? Name's Trixx."

"Mullo!"

"Alright. Mullo, transforme-moi!"

Multimouse took a moment to adjust to the unfamiliar magic of his new suit.

"I really don't think this is the best course of action," Fu said, attempting to dissuade the young boy.

"Relax, Master! I'll keep him out of trouble!" Trixx announced.

Multimouse nodded as he opened a window. "Thanks. Now, c'mon Trixx, Plagg. I'll explain the plan on the way!" So saying, he launched himself skyward.

Wayzz finally emerged from his hiding place, floating towards his holder.

Fu looked at his kwami. "Oh, I hope he doesn't collapse on the way."

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"True or false? Ladybug has disguised herself as Mr. Banana!"

Marinette was not having a good day. First, Chat Noir's kwami almost reveals her identity. Then, Tikki got captured! And now that tomcat was nowhere in sight. Marinette had barely escaped from Kwamibuster the first time and now she was cornered mere meters from the exit!

"Uh, stay peachy?!" Marinette ran for it.

But Kwamibuster leapt over her and grabbed her wrist. "You can't get away from me!"

"CHARGE!"

From the doorway came a whole swarm of kwamis! Flitting about Kwamibuster and distracting her enough for Marinette to get away.

"You can't get away from me!" Kwamibuster chased after them as they sped off. "You're no match for Kwamibuster!"

"Ladybug!"

Turning around, Marinette saw Plagg and a little guy holding onto his ears. She blinked, this was the first time she saw the Mouse Miraculous in action.

"It's me!" he declared, grinning. "Chat Noir! Or Multimouse, I guess."

"Chat Noir!?" But that meant- No, no, she could panic about that later. "Well, then you must need my Miraculous." Marinette reached for her earrings.

"Uh, no? Why would you think that?"

"Because... Nevermind. What's the plan?"

Multimouse winked. "You'll see. Make your way back to the roof!" And zipped away before Ladybug could ask more questions.

"... A Chat Noir plan. This oughta be interesting."

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"I will capture you all!"

Kwamibuster laughed maniacally as she shot her beam at the Plagg reskins. Made by Multifox with his Mirage. And that wasn't the only part of the illusion.

"I have to say. I think Ladybug will be impressed," Plagg stated. Floating directly above the supervillain so she would need to crane her neck straight up to spot them.

"It has to work first," Multimouse replied. Still standing on top of Plagg's head. His small army made their way into position.

Now!

Multimouse's invisible doubles launched their indestructible ropes at Kwamibuster. Becoming visible as they wrapped her up like Gulliver on Lilliput.

"What!? What's going on!? Oof!" She toppled none too gently.

Wasting no time Plagg zipped down.

"No! You can't beat Kwamibuster!" She freed her blaster hand.

"Mullo, Plagg, unify!"

"Aha!" Twisting upwards she aimed the beam at Multimouse.

"Cataclysm!"

Adrien's power touched the tip of her barrel and the rust spread from it to her pack. Freeing Tikki as dark mist transformed Kwamibuster back into Mme. Mendeleiev.

Adrien merged himself back together as the akuma flew past him. "Uh, Ladybug!"

A red blur shot out and caught the akuma before it could get far. Ladybug releasing a white butterfly in its place.

Multimouse grinned. "Perfect timing as always, My Lady."

"I dunno about that." Ladybug looked around at the destroyed rooftop.

"You think it'll work without a Lucky Charm?" Multimouse asked, following her train of thought.

Ladybug looked at her yo-yo. "The akuma was purified so it should." Throwing it skyward with a little more strength than usual she called out the words. "Miraculous Ladybug!"

The cure swept around them as Ladybug's yo-yo fell back into her hands.

"Knew you could do it," Multimouse praised. "Now, I've got some errands to run-" he tapped the two Miraculous necklaces "-so you take care of Mme. Mendeleiev."

He half turned. "Oh! And sorry about my kwami. No idea what he was doing at that primary school."

"It was a- lycée, yeah. Lycée."

"Right!" He grinned. "A lycée." Totally not a collège. Giving Ladybug a two finger salute he leapt off the tower. Mme. Mendeleiev's insistence on the validity of her scientific discovery fading behind him.

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Adrien held out his index finger to shake the kwamis' hands. "You were both a big help! Thanks."

"You weren't so bad yourself, Chat Noir," Trixx grinned.

"Yeah!" Mullo agreed. "Usually Plagg's holders are no fun but you ran circles around that kwami snatcher!"

Adrien blushed a little at their praise. "Hope we can work together again someday." The kwamis waved as they reentered their Miraculous.

Master Fu closed the Miracle Box once Adrien placed them back inside. Returning it to its hiding place. "It is quite impressive that you withstood the power of three Miraculous long enough to accomplish your task."

"... Actually it was super easy. Barely an inconvenience."

The Guardian blinked. "What?"

Adrien nodded. "Yeah, I don't think occasionally using two or three Miraculous at once is all that dangerous. Maybe if you wore a whole bunch of 'em. But why would you do that?"

Fu processed that for a bit.

Adrien sipped from his tea, awkwardly. "... So does this mean I finally get Guardian training?"

Master Fu nearly slipped as he sat back down. "Huh?"

"I mean, I already know where you are. And we've seen that if Ladybug is compromised it's better if I know what to do," Adrien reasoned out logically.

"I... That is... Uh..." Fu looked desperately at Plagg, who was gorging himself on cheese.

"Hey, don't look at me. Kid's got a point." Plagg swallowed another wedge of Camembert.

Fu slumped with a sigh. Clearly outmaneuvered. "Where should we start?"

"Potions!" Adrien exclaimed, eyes sparkling. This was going to be fun. He could feel it!

[spookyrobbins]

dialogue game part 3.

PS. thank you for indulging this, I really appreciate it.

1) "stop. don't... don't touch me like you still love me "

2) "I really can't leave the two of you alone, can I?"

3) "tomorrow. you and I. 6 AM . I'm taking you for a morning run. and you're not allowed to complain. not a word."

4) "you don't want to let Arizona drink bourbon, trust me"

5) "do you ever think that if we had been ordinary people, we would've lived our happily ever after? no heartbreak, no major trauma, no planes falling off the sky? just us and our ten kids. forever."

6) "after what I did to you... I couldn't manage to look at my reflection in the mirror without feeling like I had to throw up for months. and I couldn't look at you either. because I love you and I hate myself for hurting you. that's something I'll never forgive myself for."

7)"those fucking shoes are going to give me a heart attack some day, I swear to God."

8) "do we really need that many sprinkles?"

i defs did the last one wrong lol but here you go, these are very fun !!

1) "stop. don't... don't touch me like you still love me "

“Arizona-”

“Stop. Just… No. Don’t… don’t touch me like you still love me.”

“Arizona, I-”

“You left! You walked out - you don’t get to come here a week later and try to make yourself feel better by swooping in and… and… just no, you don’t get to do this. You can’t do this.”

“I just want-”

“I never thought of you as cruel. But I also thought we were better, so jokes on me, huh?”

2) "I really can't leave the two of you alone, can I?"

“Mommy, look, Mama helped me with my project! Isn’t it awesome?”

“It is certainly very, er, sparkly. I’m sure it’s the most awesome project on… the Battle of Bunker Hill? I really can’t leave the two of you alone, can I?”

“It is very historically accurate.”

“Calliope, I really don’t know how seriously I can take you in that wig. I’m not sure white is your colour.”

3) "tomorrow. you and I. 6 AM . I'm taking you for a morning run. and you're not allowed to complain. not a word."

The night before: “Tomorrow. You and I. 6 AM. I’m taking you for a morning run. And you’re not allowed to complain. Not a word.”

“Arizona, what the actual fuck? Are you trying to murder me?”

“Calliope, that was a mile and a half. At a 12 minute pace. I normally do like 5 miles.”

“Yeah, well, I bet your mom dropped you on your head when you were a baby or something.”

“Nope. My dad did drop Tim once. Now, up and at ‘em, soldier. Trust me, it’s better you do this with me than starting with the Colonel next month. I’m a lot nicer and a lot cuter.”

“My athletic skills rest in other areas. Like yoga. I’m very flexible.”

“I’m well aware.”

“Maybe we could go practice some, hm, yoga?”

“After another mile and a half, sure thing.”

“I hate you!”

“Love you too, babe!”

4) "you don't want to let Arizona drink bourbon, trust me"

“Where’s Arizona?”

“Oh, she’s up with Karev. I think they’re doing shots of the bourbon that a patient’s father gave them.”

“Wait, bourbon?”

“That’s what I said, is your hearing going, Torres?”

“Aw crap. You don’t want to let Arizona drink bourbon, trust me. It’s not… not great.”

“What? Does she get more perky? Or let me guess she starts singing Disney songs?”

“No, Mark, she’ll probably try to fight you. Something about the bourbon really brings out the Marine brat. Oh crap, Arizona, do not arm wrestle Alex!”

5) "do you ever think that if we had been ordinary people, we would've lived our happily ever after? no heartbreak, no major trauma, no planes falling off the sky? just us and our ten kids. forever."

“Do you ever think that if we had been ordinary people, we would’ve lived our happily ever after? No heartbreak, no major trauma, no planes falling out of the sky? Just us and our ten kids. Forever.”

“Aw, c’mon now, that’s what makes us interesting at parties.”

“I was being serious, Calliope.”

“I dunno. Probably. But for the record, this right here, being here with you and Sofia and baby, that feels pretty close to a happily ever after in my books.”

6) "after what I did to you... I couldn't manage to look at my reflection in the mirror without feeling like I had to throw up for months. and I couldn't look at you either. because I love you and I hate myself for hurting you. that's something I'll never forgive myself for."

“I didn’t think you cared. You… you just shut down and it’s like you turn into this shell of a person! You broke me, Arizona, and I didn’t think you cared and now you want me to believe that you do?”

“I don’t even know what there is to say to you. I don’t… I never want to hurt you, but that seems like that’s all I do these days. After what I did to you... I couldn't manage to look at my reflection in the mirror without feeling like I had to throw up for months. And I couldn't look at you either. Because I love you and I hate myself for hurting you. That's something I'll never forgive myself for. I can’t ask for your forgiveness because I can’t forgive myself. I don’t deserve your forgiveness. I don’t deserve you. I… I… I should go.”

“God damnit, you don’t get to do this! Or have you forgotten that we’re married? You don’t get to just burn everything down and walk away. That is not how this works. You ruined everything and I am so mad at you and I want to hate you. Believe me, I really do. But… but I can’t, so we are going to work through this, got it?”

7)"those fucking shoes are going to give me a heart attack some day, I swear to God."

“Jesus Christ! We need to put a bell on you or something!”

“Kinky”

“Don’t you have a surgery or something, Teddy?”

“It’s not my fault heelys are quiet, Calliope.”

“Those fucking shoes are going to give me a heart attack someday, I swear to God!”

“Those ‘fucking shoes’, as you put it, are awesome and I won’t listen to you spiel about risk factors again. Now, are you coming to lunch with me or not?”

“Does lunch mean something else?”

“Oh my God, Teddy, go away!”

8) "do we really need that many sprinkles?"

“Are you sure about this, Sof? Do we really need that many sprinkles?”

“Yes, Mama. This is how Nana makes it. Don’t you know how to decorate a cake?”

“I just don’t think you’re supposed to use three bottles of, erm, why are there so many dinosaur sprinkles?”

“Because I like dinosaurs.”

“Isn’t the cake for Mommy though?”

“Mommy likes me, so she’ll like the dinosaurs.”

“Can’t argue with that logic, I suppose.”

[salvador-daley]

Confession: I've got major depressive disorder, all of the anxiety disorders, anorexia and some weird ass addictions like addiction to self harm and some normal ones like addiction to alcohol and I had an experimental treatment with a drug called Ketamina (it's actually a horse tranquilizer lol) and I experimented pure happiness for the first time ever. Anyways I'm all better now I've been in recovery for almost a year and a half but I still crave that feeling. Sometimes y do experiment a type of happiness but it's never the same because it's not pure like it was with the drug. I know I'll never feel that way again unless I buy it but I'm already an addict so I'm stuck between never feeling pure happiness ever again or add another addiction to the list and become poor because it's expensive.

Be nosy: Do you want to have kids one day? Why or why not ? (You don't have to answer if it's too personal)

Love you and your work <3 <3

Firstly, let me say that I love you too, sweet anon. I do. And I want good things for you. You’re going to be ok.

Secondly, of course you will experience pure joy again someday. How do I know? Because I too have been in that dark place (recently, as well). How often will you feel that feeling? Once, maybe twice in your life. Three times if you’re particularly lucky. I think there is a perception amongst us depressed folk that the non-depressed walk around being all sunshine and light all the time. Believe me, they don’t. Times are hard. Life is fucking tough right now. It’s ok to feel mostly shitty most of the time.

Go easy on yourself. Show yourself a little compassion. Give yourself a fucking break. It’s all gonna be ok in the end, I promise.

Do I want kids? I dunno. They seem like a lot of work and I’ve already got two cats who poop around the clock. I’m probably too old to have them now anyway. 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Anyway, here’s a Robbie to brighten your day, dearest anon. I like to think of him as my personal therapist. Looking at his little face is like dipping my whole brain in a bucket of calamine lotion. Ahhh... 😘😘

[do-angels-dream-of-starry-seas]

Day 3: How do you feel about dating/romantic relationships?

April 3rd: How do you feel about dating/romantic relationships? Have you dated in the past/are you currently in a relationship/do you eventually want one? Do you feel that your experience of autism/stereotypes around autism and relationships impacts this?

Something that some of you may or may not know is I am actually asexual! So even if I don't feel sexual attraction, I still desire a romantic relationship. Though trying to find a girlfriend doesn't help when you don't want to date (what the fuck is dating culture, allistics explain) XD.

I have had a "boyfriend" before, but it was like those playground relationships you had. And my experiences back then were also not very good, as my autism and heteronormativity somehow convinced me that I want to kiss a boy right now even though I'm only 8. My time then was not good.

Not in a relationship rn, but I do want one someday (maybe in some day's time, I'll be bold enough to do one of those dating events, I dunno). But again, the idea of dating for me is so confusing? Offputting? Whatever the feelings I have, all I know is that trying to socially interact as an autistic person is so daunting and weird: is my date looking for a serious relationship like myself? What do you mean I can't ask them if they want kids or not so soon, these are important questions to know if you're going into a relationship!