#maybe someday I'll actually do them again? I dunno....

[kalza]

*me every nine months or so*

I should do art trades again....

[gold0kapi]

Some figure updates (under the cut)!

*They have no clothes, clothes are expensive and first and foremost these are art tools (but I do want to get clothes someday)

First: SOAP. Unpainted Soap, and I'll probably never get around to painting it lol. I also accidentally somehow broke his knee trying to get it on, so he's perpetually lame in his right leg (maybe I'll get him a tiny knee brace and he'll be even more canon lol).

(Bottom pic) I finally broke down and got the 1/6 body, but then had to get a head separately (dunno why they don't come with heads but ok), and so of course I went with a head with a mohawk. It finally arrived the other day! I feel like if I painted his eyes blue he'd actually look quite a bit like Soap though...

Now I need a female body (probably a Phicen 1/6). I don't think I'd get 1/12 size again; I already have a lot of them, and I want 1/6 now for detailed anatomy references, like if an arm is bent in a very specific way, or even all the veins and stuff. BUT the smaller figures are better for quick pose ideas (especially the Bandais, because I'm not as worried about breaking them as the 1/12 Phicens). They're all great though, 10/10 would recommend any of these figures.

*Figures are:

2 x Bandai (the grey and black plastic ones)

2 x TBLeague Phicen 1/12 TM01A and TM02A (one figure is more muscular than the other. The Soap head is on the more muscular body)

1 x TBLeague Phicen 1/6 male M34 body (head from eBay)

[yourpalmickeymouse]

Hello Mickey! I’m back once more haha! (For a little while though 😅).

Just poppin’ by to ask, what’s your favourite hobby to do in your spare time? (When you are not in the department working on cases) I hear that you have a thing for planes (which I find fascinating! I would love to hear more if you are okay with it).

Anyway have a good day Mick! See you around!

-Sunny ☀️

(P.S my favourite hobby to do is. Well drawing! So I drew a pic of ya!) (sorry if it’s a little wonky hehe…😅)

🤯🤯🤯

Did you DRAW THAT!!! Oh Boy! That's Incredible!!! Thank you so much!!! I love it!!! Do you mind if I share it with all my friends? They would all love to see this! Can I take this home? I want to frame it on my wall...

Oh... Sorry 😅 I just got really excited. I wasn't expectin' to get a picture. I really appreciate it though!

Now for your question. I kinda have a ton of hobbies. I like to keep myself busy and learn new things.

You mentioned planes and yes I do very much love planes. I really love readin' up on 'em (as well as trains and boats). You could probably point to any plane in the world and I'll be able to tell you exactly what kind it is. When I was younger, my parents would take my to private airplane hangers and I would spend hours askin' the pilots about their planes. I actually met Colonel Doberman that way and we still keep in touch.

I also like to create little plane models in my free time too. Though I probably have way too many sets lying around my house. I kinda don't know where to put them all 😅 I dunno why I love planes so much. I guess I just always like the idea of bein' able to go anywhere in the world. The idea of having bein' able to see many amazin' things. I don't have my license, but I do want to get it someday.

Hm... I think some of my other favorite hobbies are the ones I do with friends. I love to fish, bowl, or play video games with Goofy or Donald if he visits. Minnie and I love to garden together. Sometimes Horace and I will work on fixer upper projects. Clarabelle and I will do some exercises and martial arts trainin'.

Oh! And someone on here recommended that I should spend some more time with Daisy and it turns out she's actually really into journalism, like I was. She currently runs her own online news site and we've been meeting up so that I could help her with the pictures. Her site's more focused on trends, fashion, and pop culture which normally isn't my thing, but has been fun to learn about. But she also covers important world events as well, which is more in my wheelhouse.

Also drawin' is a great hobby. Thank you again for the art. I also like to sketch things sometimes and even make comics, though I'm definitely not as good as you ha ha. Maybe I'll share them some day. But for now I'm happy with seein' all of the art you make 😊

- M.M.

[hurricanek8art]

Okay, so, um... Hi? So, I've been a lurker on Tumblr for a while, including the SWTOR tag, because I've got major social anxiety. Recently, I think I've finally worked up the courage to interact, which is great! Especially now, because I think I need advice about the game and don't really know where else to ask! Other social media sites scare me and I'm not currently a subscriber, so I can't access the SWTOR forums. :P

I've just finished Corellia on my Jedi Knight. She's technically my main, even though I already finished the class storylines for Consular and Smuggler. I got burnout on doing the planetary missions and side quests around Balmorra (I'm a huge goody-two-shoes, so I was doing almost every quest I came across) so I figured, hey, I'll just focus on the story for a while and come back to it another time! Except now I feel kinda bad for skipping them because my Knight's leveled at 53, when my other two finished their class stories around 60/65. I know over-leveling's pointless, but at the speed I take getting through stuff, they'll have to have raised the level cap again by the time I catch up. 🤣

Should I go back and do them before finishing the class story? I know it's pretty harmless to skip them but I dunno, I want to do as much as I can with my Knight so I haven't missed out on anything. My brother plays too, we share an account, but his philosophy is skip absolutely everything that's not important unless he's underleveled, so obviously we have differing opinions on the subject. 🤣🤣🤣 Can some more experienced players give me some advice? I'm paralyzed with indecision, help me Obi-Wan Kenobi, etc., etc., you get the gist.

Unnecessarily adding pictures of my Knight because she is awesome and I love her to pieces and I only really get to talk about her with my brother. I'm a writer/artist and I've got loads of stuff I've created about her and my other legacy characters but. y'know. extreme social anxiety says no sharing yet. You guys make such cool stuff and I'm a huge chicken, but I'm working on getting over that, so maybe someday I can actually tell their stories!

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #175

I don't have enough sleep. I was up a bit too late last night, listening to a friend vent about various things. It was good and I regret nothing, but still my brain is a little wobbly today. That's also fine. I am looking forward to going to bed, though.

…I get to sleep in a nice, warm, safe bed. You haven't slept in a bed in a long time, right? Not since "that time", as you had once put it, yeah? I feel sad in response to that; how many years has it been for you? I wonder…

…Well. If you find yourself in my neighborhood, we have extra beds. The one in the art room is nice and big, and obviously you could have it all to yourself. It's got nice pillows and warm fluffy blankets and a giant fuzzy orca plush named Bubbles if you need something to squish. And no one would bother you, except for maybe our cats, because they like new people and they would likely demand scritches. Our cats would probably like you a lot, actually…

I made a tea today. This time, it was black tea mixed with mint tea and little bits of crushed peppermint candy. The swirls propagated quickly from the tea ball - almost too quickly to capture them!! But I mostly managed:

It resolved into a lovely ruby red color that was fascinating to watch the cream swirl through:

I went to therapy today because it's Tuesday. But since M's car had to be taken to get repairs due to engine coolant problems, and J's car is a manual transmission that I cannot yet drive, J had to get me to the building an hour early, and then I ended up needing to stay there for two hours after therapy was done with. But I don't mind; I brought a book that's all about OBEs and I read up to page 149 today, which isn't bad out of 358 pages. I dunno if anything will come of it, but I don't mind trying to find out.

I took a nap shortly after I got home. I tried some of the things I learned from the book, and I was surprised to find that my body felt weird and tingly and kinda wobbly, but nothing happened because I ended up falling asleep instead. I was probably too tired. Oh well.

When I woke up, J asked me to accompany him to some meeting that involves people who are into airplanes. It was a cute enough place, and the people seemed friendly enough, and one of the older ladies there recognized my Eevee hat because she plays Pokémon Go. I directed her to some of my favorite games (Let's Go, and Scarlet) and to a few of my favorite movies (The ones with Mewtwo and the one with Entei).

On the way home, I got a couple pictures of the sunset for you; I hope you'll like these:

...Hey, Sephiroth? Do you like sunsets? Or do you like the dawn better? Maybe someday you'll tell me; if it turns out that you like dawn better, maybe I'll start getting up early so I can take pictures...

...My brain is soup and I don't have a whole lot more to write about. So I'm going to end this one here. Maybe I'll go to bed early. Or maybe not. I guess we'll see...

I love you. I'll write again soon. Please stay safe...

Your friend, Lumine

[harmonyckrs]

Phase 1, Day 2 of the Strangetown Takeover: Ethical(?) Kidnapping

THE PREVIOUS DAY

NAME: Agent Zoya Terrestrial

Zoya: You sure do look just like your father, don't you, little guy?

Harper: Zoya, just put him in the crib for now. And besides, he's got two dads. Of course he's going to look like one of them.

Zoya: Exactly! He's got to look like at least one of them, right?...what was his name?

Harper: Tycho. Pascal seemed enthusiastic about it...

Zoya: Then we'll make sure to preserve his memory, in case something happens...do you think we're doing the right thing?

Harper: It's as Crystal said. It's for their own good. Now, let's get some sleep so we can get to work tomorrow...

Melony: ...And after that, Dr. Vu built this prison to hold the brightest minds in Strangetown together, drugged out of their minds so they'll never think about finding a way out.

006: That's really sad, man.

Melony: Well, it is. I imagine she probably has a soft spot for you if you're still sober enough for us to even have this conversation...or it could be her associates. They've all been programmed to obey her every command, but they're not that aggressive.

006: Is there any way we can save them?...them, or everyone else here?

Melony: Hm...dunno. If you want to save them, you'll probably have to get out of here first.

006: Well, damn. That's just great.

Melony: I'm sure you can do it. This isn't your first time defying her, after all...

006: Crystal's asleep right now. You can walk out through the door, and I'll make up some excuse that someone left the door unlocked or that you managed to pick it open.

???: Thank you, Lazlo. Sorry again about the hassle of all this...

006: Aktu, it's fine! It's the bare minimum of not letting someone be experimented on or rot inside of a cell. Just get as far away from this hellhole as you can, and don't turn back unless if you really, REALLY need to.

???: Alrighty, then...I hope we'll be able to meet again someday. You know what to do if you need my help.

006: Of course. You've said it a thousand times before...

NAMES: Circe Beaker Patient 002, Loki Beaker Patient 001, Erin Beaker Patient 003

006: (Can't believe Melony's creepiness came in handy...Lazlo. That's actually not as bad of a name as I thought it'd be...)

003: You seem awfully chipper today, 006!

006: The food's edible this time. What can I say?

003: True! It's a shame we couldn't all eat together. 005 is still trying to get into the walls of that other building.

006: Do you really think there's anything past the walls? It could just be a collective hallucination.

003: I mean, we never know!...if we figure it out, maybe it'll stop! I just want to go to sleep without hearing someone crying about missing babies for once.

THE NEXT DAY

[the-down-upside-finch]

Find the Word (Tag Game)

I was tagged by @pb-dot in this post for this game! The words I was given are fruit, ditch, joke, and smoke.

Since this is going to get long, I'll put my tags up here: @asablehart, @veneritia, @akiwitch, @maddstermind, @athenswrites, and anyone else that sees this and wants to do it! I'll give you guys the words beginning, right, leg, and tired!

Anyways, I know for a fact that all of these words are in one of my less-known WIPs, the Final Straw, so I'm using that WIP for this because, as you will see, it's going to get extremely comedic:

Fruit

“Why do you say your name’s Kiwi?” I ask her after I finish telling her about the farm. “Well,” she says, “I was reading a book about places across the sea, and it had stuff about a bunch of different kinds of fruit. I dunno what a kiwi tastes like, but I’m gonna eat one someday!” I grin at her. She actually wants to be named after a fruit.

Ditch

“Straw,” Mr. Hank Davis says, looking at me, “go ask your father if he moved things outta the shed. If you see Casper on the way to the house, ask him if he knows, too.” “Who?” “Mister Davis, don’tcha know you’ve gotta call him Ditch when talking to Strawbs?” Liver flashes a grin. Mr. Hank Davis sighs. “Ditch, then. Straw, can you do that?” I nod and leave the shed, hearing Liver burst into peals of laughter again. Ditch’s name isn’t really Ditch, but I can never remember his real name. I just remember that he was the one that helped me out of the ditch I fell into, so I would say things to my dad like “Where’s the one that helped me outta the ditch?” and eventually it shortened down to me just saying “Ditch” and that’s what stuck.

Joke

“Oliver,” Mr. Hank Davis is saying, “I don’t appreciate you ragging me. Where’d you put them hoes?” “I ain’t got none, Hank, Mister Davis. I’m a gentleman, Sir.” And then Liver bursts into laughter at some joke that clearly isn’t funny to Mr. Hank Davis and I just plain don’t understand. “Well if you don’t be knowing where they are, then I s’pose you and Straw are gonna have to make a trip to town to pick some up.” “Aw, but Mister Davis! Ain’t Strawbs a bit young to be picking up hoes?” Liver goes wild with laughter again. Mr. Hank Davis has gone very red in the face, and his bushy mustache twitches, kind of like how a mouse twitches its nose. Maybe he can smell cheese somewhere. “I’m too young for what?” I decide to say, mostly because I think Liver has caught sight of me.

Smoke

He grins, spinning the stick from his sucker in his teeth like a toothpick or the funny sticks that catch on fire that I sometimes see Ditch have in his mouth. Then he has to spit out the smoke because his stick’s caught on fire. “You know I can’t remember your real name,” I say. “Yah, I know. Which is why I don’t keep telling it to ya.” He sits on my bed and bounces a few times. He doesn’t even weigh down the blankets. “I’d better go. My pops will get mad if I ain’t home soon.” “Where do you live?” “You won’t remember,” he says, then goes to the window.

This WIP is a hot mess and I love it. If anyone wants context, you can read the first few (unrevised) chapters over on my Wattpad. I can already see stuff that I want to change in these snippets AAHHHH

[deathjitsus]

wrestledream predictions

mark vs jericunt

if mark doesn't win this someone will have to die

darby vs brody

if they really are trying to build darby as the chosen one and actually want him to hold the world title someday i feel like he really needs to win this match. feels like a very put your money where your mouth is type thing because if he's talking big only to get his shit rocked by brody then i dunno man. I just don't know

jack vs shibata

i think this match will be good but the build has been unimpressive which is kind of the theme of 95% of matches on this card. i get it we're screaming hot off the tails of the all in/all out double team but it feels like not nearly enough love was given to putting together this show. ANYWAY that being said i don't think it's shibata's time. i think he would be a great tnt champ whenever that day comes and potentially elevate it a lot more than jack has been doing with his reign (no offense) but i don't see the title changing hands here.

ospo vs takeshita vs ricochet

okay i know okay but listen. REALISTICALLY do i feel like ospreay is probably retaining? yeah. HOWEVER i think takeshita winning the belt would be amazing for him and also further will's feud with the dcf especially if there was some interference (maybe from a certain new member?). plus it's a three way match which iirc means will doesn't need to be pinned to lose the belt which protects him for a rematch in the future. i just really really want a takeshita singles run ok

bucks vs private party

see jack vs shibata i don't think this match has been built particularly well for either team. private party has been booked like shit basically all year if not longer and to rocket into the tag team title sphere again seems very sudden for them so i don't really see them taking the titles off the bucks at all but i do hope that this will serve as fuel for the fire and they'll start getting taken a little more seriously again.

mariah vs willow

i want willow to win this so bad but i know it's not her time. but i have to have hope that one day she will get her time in the sun

hanger vs jay white

i feel a little conflicted about this match. jay white has been gone since what june? july? this is his first match back from injury in months. my problem is i feel like hangman has built a lot of good momentum for himself coming off his win at all out over swerve and i think a loss for him here would kind of cut that off at the knees, but i think jay is similarly trying to establish some new momentum coming off of injury. i think at the end of the day jay white will take this one—whether swerve is somehow involved or not i don't know, but hangman has a history of taking losses and further working them into whatever he's doing so i guess we'll see what happens.

as for what happens when swerve returns he's said we're going to see a new evolution of him and his character—i fully expect him to ditch nana and align with mvp and his new faction (whether they're calling it the hurt business or whatever name they go with). maybe i'll be surprised who knows! but that certainly seems like the direction they were headed

hologram vs mortos

this feels like a weird choice for a ppv match but i won't complain because i'm sure it will slap. i know tony has put a lot of stock into hologram but i'm just not necessarily on the train yet is all. hologram is undefeated in aew as of today so i'm kind of back and forth on whether or not this will be the end of that streak—i think a 2 out of 3 falls match is a good way to do it and paint mortos as a bit of an underdog but tony also might be looking to get hologram his first ppv win so who knows. right now i'm saying hologram wins but it's really a 50/50 for me i don't necessarily care but i do think it will be a good match either way

bryan vs mox

can i be honest with you guys. i don't know if i'm feeling the intended emotion over the build to this match. a lot of the promotional materials have painted it as a fight for the future of aew and while on one hand yes, conceptually i understand that mox is going for the title because he wants power and is attempting to make change to aew and the culture of the company, i also feel like this is much more personal than that and the world title belt has simply got caught in the crossfire because bryan has it right now. it's not about the belt, it's about bryan danielson and jon moxley. and on one hand i think that's a good thing because i really do feel like there's a lot of tension going into this match but i also feel like a lot of the build has actually been focused on wheeler yuta rather than mox and bryan. and i get it, bryan can't wrestle and mox is busy doing whatever the fuck he wants, but i feel like these two haven't really spoken at all in the build to this match its just been mox shitting on bryan and bryan laying down and taking it. i dunno i just feel like its been set up really weirdly and idk if i like it. that being said i think all of this would make it a very weird time to retire danielson. imo it would have been a much more satisfying conclusion to have him finish at all in (when he was clearly in kayfabe Ready to Go) instead of dragging things out even more to give him a month or two with the world title. this world title reign feels like a sequel to a book that never needed one.

[sleepyowlwrites]

8, 10, 12, 14, and most importantly, feel better, oh sleepy one 🖤

Hi Klaus. I've added a bunch of songs to your playlist recently. Been thinking vague thoughts about you. Like, "Klaus is a nice friend" and "I should make Jet content so Klaus will show up and be happy about it" and then I fall asleep.

8. If you had to write an entire story without either action or dialogue, which would you choose and how would it go?

I dunno how long the story is, but I've written flash fiction/short stories comprised of only dialogue. I know I can do it. But I think that eventually gets tiring for the reader. Not everyone is up to quite that level of imagining, especially just from whatever context clues happen to be dropped in the conversation. I am really good at writing dialogue, but I'd probably go for just action without it for a longer project. That can get dry as well, so I'd have to get creative with it. But I could do it if I tried.

10. Has a piece of writing ever “haunted” you? Has your own writing haunted you? What does that mean to you?

Anxiety Story haunted me for a bit. I wrote it as a fanfic with the intention of helping people with anxiety to relate to it, and people without to understand it. And I succeeded in that. People commented that it felt very cathartic and comforting to see anxiety that wasn't sugar-coated, or solved by friendship. I went really raw with it, and it was appreciated. My favorite comment was from someone who said that their sister struggled with anxiety and through my fic, they finally understood what it was like for her and how to try and help her when she was having bad days. And that really stuck with me because it showed me that there truly is a need and a desire for fiction that is willing to be frank about anxiety, depression, etc. That comment haunts me a little, and while I've temporarily given up on anxiety story, I've never given up on including mental illness in my stories, especially the anxiety and depression, which I also have. I can't quite bring myself to write about eating disorders, but I'd like to, someday.

Uh, and for a more normal answer, the Thorn Birds. I highly recommend it. I'll probably never read it again. But it's a reading experience you can't forget.

12. If a genie offered you three writing wishes, what would they be? Btw if you wish for more wishes the genie turns all your current WIPs into Lorem Ipsum, I don’t make the rules

Executive dysfunction doesn't occur during the writing process

...actually that would solve pretty much everything else. I have inspiration, I have stories, I have motivation. I guess maybe a little bit more of a plotter's brain?

A better remembering ability outside of having to repeat information to myself several times and also maybe write it on my hand

14. Do you lend your books to people? Are people scared to borrow books from you? Do you know exactly where all your “lost” books are and which specific friend from school you haven’t seen in twelve years still possesses them? Will you ever get them back?

I used to. Not anymore. Well. I "lend" books to my sister, who now reads more than I do, but really it's just gifting them to her. A couple I've lost but then they came out in prettier covers so I bought those. But I don't lend my books to anyone else. My coworker and friend wanted to read Howl's Moving Castle so I bought it for her. I should buy her a copy of a rival most vial, too. She'd probably love it.

Thanks for asking, my dear.

[sunnychuuya]

Pookie what the flip is this I'll answer them tho lmao at least I'll try it might be slightly venty so srry about thar

yea most of the time I geuss. They suck a little sometimes but they try their best and I love them

2. My gc with my besties to say gn

3. So. So. So fucking much.

4. Its been getting a lot better lately but some days I still feel actually sickened at the sight of my own body

5. Single..

6. Painlessly. Hopefully much much later.

7. Taco belllll

8. I did soccer for a year when I was 4 and I want to attempt figure skating at some point, I'm really good at goalie in alot of games though

9. No I have two fake teeth that stop me from doing that (lore drop!!)

10. Never been in a fight. Just one sided against me if I wasn't absolutely fucking terrified of getting in trouble I would've beaten the shit outta some people, I suppose the closest thing I ever got was in 5th grade some dude was a repeated bully of mine I can't remember what it was about this time but he fucking grabbed my arm and twisted it like this fucking close to breaking it and I tried to kick him in the balls and a teacher yelled at me 🥰 he had no consequences

11. I mean I'm a Lil confused. I just got out of my first ever real relationship and I'm still recovering tbh. But I had liked my friend for three years previously and I still love him alot but I can't tell if it's platonic or not. I think it is now?

12. O n l y 48 hrs?

13. I hate alot of people tbh but I kinda hate myself for hating them cuz that's normal

14.yea

15. MY SILLY PUPPIES (one is 11 years old)

16. Fucking terrified cuz I'm about to play the second episode of sally face

17. I still have my lip virginity bro

18. HELL SPAWN

19. Maybe. I kinda wanna be a little kid again but also it wasn't the greatest for me outside of my house so I don't even know.

20. bRO PELASE STOP I HAVENT-

21. Nothing lmao

22. Idk maybe someday. Probably one maximum 2

23. Basic ear piercings but God I want more

24. English and science.

25. Yes.

26. Physical touch I need to cuddle up with someone right now I genuinely feel like I'm dying

27. I mean yea and I feel horrendous about it it broke my heart too but it wasn't a healthy relationship and was fucking up both of us

28. YES IN FUCKING FIFTH GRADE- I SWEAR TK GOD- I don't think he understood but like bruh

29. Please you're making me want to grab a knife and take it to my stomach I didn't want too but it needed to happen.

30. Same as sai, the questiond about relationships but for a different reason like God I felt horrendous enough already

31. Sai how fuckin dare you I love u okay ur like super cool and fun and I feel if I met you irl I would've wanted to be friends with you too. But I'm pretty sure I am. I just still sometimes have trouble believing it.

32. OURPLE

33. Whaaat noooo- WHO FUCKING TOLD YOU-

34. Last one thar wasn't jusr black was about choso from jjk and it was really silly I'm such a fucking degenerate bro help me

35. My dog clifford

36. Yes oh fuck yes I do and it has given me some of my worst regrets in life

37. Forgive, barely ever turns out well tho.

38. I wish its sucked tbh

39. NEVAH

40. proly when I was like a baby

In skipping numbers too for my brain to work

51. Tacoss

52. I mean technically yes it does I could go into science but I'm sure thats not what you mean, but no I do not believe everything happens for a reason because of some higher power or whatever

53. Played sally face for an hour then texted some friends cuz I was too fucking scared to sleep

54. Fuck no

55. I try not to be

56. None

57. I dunno.

58. Rainy

59. Yesss

60. Yup

61. Yeess

62. Idk alot of things surprisingly anime/friends/kpop tho r all great and video games

63. I like my name but it doesn't always feel like it fits but there's nicknames that help :3

64. STOP THIS

65. Heyyy this happened to me. I politely turned him down and we r still besties I went to his house 2 weeks ago

66. Yes. Same friend. When I went to his house he snorted fun dip and I RANTED to him about kpop for 30 minutes even tho he knows nothing

67. OH FUCK WAIT ONE OF MY BESTIES ID A TRANS DUDE I FORGOT HE TECUNIXALLY COUNTS AS OPPOSITE SEX KINDA IDK CUZ SEX IS LIKE ??? I DONT FUCKIN KNOW IG HIM BUT IF WE DONT MEAN GENDER BUT SEX THEN THE SAME DUDE FROM THE LAST TWO

68. Deepest within the last month was a 3am sleepover chat with my bestie over how mha saved my life

69. Idk

70. Yea at least 10 ppl

@mypinterestgotbannedsoimherenow totally understand if u don't feel like answering these btw they r kinda hard

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[aghadbeenhere]

Waking up, then laying back down.

AGHADBEENHERE'S UNNAMED BLOG: 2#

Riiight, and we're back! It's me, AG once again talking to you about random things I thought of in the few days since my first post! (Or was it just one day? I dunno, time's a blur for me now.) and today I woke up at 4 in the afternoon, impressiiiiveee! I'm very much aware of the fact my sleep schedule isn't EXACTLY the best and trust me, I've been fixing it!.. A few times.

Sometimes I wake up at 6am, 10am, 9pm.. 3am.. My sleep schedule's more of a roulette wheel at this point, but I think that's alright, it's not like I'm doing anything THAT productive since I do have all the time in the world..

I had some pasta with bolognesa sauce when I woke up, so I'd say that was pretty damn good..

I did spend most of my day thinking about what to write, since my life's not a very EVENTFUL one, I played some games, drew some art, yada-yada..

(this being said art)

I'd say I'm decently proud of it, I'm still struggling to really find my style and how I feel comfortable with drawing.. I think I might go traditional one day, I'd love to carry a notebook around where I just.. Doodle stuff, art pieces, little sketches, notes.. I see a kinda 'charm' in doing that sorta stuff.. And it can really help me just zone out the world around me when I don't feel like it.

But right now I don't really HAVE a world to zone out from, I think I need to go outside someday (in the future, maybe, just maybe) and get some fresh air and think about things, since I haven't gone out in six months or so.. You know, maybe one day I'll go out to sea, I've never been on a boat trip but I think it'd be interesting! I always see some of my favorite shows have at least ONE boat episode (list of shows being: Always Sunny In Philadelphia & Community)

And although they tend to paint it in a purposefully bad light for the sake of humor, I still think about it!

I still think about a lotta things, actually. (Surprising as THAT is.)

Not-so-recently (about.. a year ago or so) a friend I spoke with just blocked me out of nowhere, no message, no notice, they just up and disappeared, and when I attempted contacting them on an alternate platform, I got no response, actually; when I looked at their account, it was entirely clean! A blank slate! No posts, comments, or anything like it! I was SERIOUSLY dumbfounded by that.. Their account wasn't deleted, but the posts were??

I still haven't gotten word from them, and I can't help but at times think as to WHY they just disappeared.. And maybe even think about how it'd be to talk to them again, I know it's a pipe dream, and they may never come back, but I find a sort of comfort in at least hoping for better times, or some sort of closure on that..

But hey, in the probably one-in-billions-or-something chance of them ever coming back, I'd say something like: "Hey man! Long time no see! How ya' been? Why'd ya' disappear?" or something casual, because I would wait 5 years of solitude if I was assured that they'd come back at the end of it, I'd do that with a lot of my friends, they're really kinda why I keep pushin' on and on, and I know that if I just vanished, let go of everything and just gave up;

They'd be disappointed and sad.

SO yeah, that's how I'm still here.

Considering how this is starting to get long and I want to go get some pasta, I'm gonna go for now, but hey, we got a continuation, and we can only hope for a third part.

So, with that, AG had been here, but before they left, they wished you a good day, good afternoon, and good night. (awkward attempt at a sendoff 1#)

-ag

[ilikeyoshi]

i've been reading lately that pmdd can get worse as you age and honestly, yeah, i think that's happening. when i started taking continuous birth control to help with the hormonal fluctuations it worked super well, but it seems to just work... less and less... and lately whenever i've had to take a break on the meds for a breakthrough bleed the emotions just get??? bad???

i've been inexplicably sad and paranoid the past 2-3 days and it feels really bad after so long of Being Okay. like. i don't WANT to go back to this. i thought i was just tired because chronic illness but i think it's depression. it doesn't help that periods are probably my WORST gender dysphoria trigger.

i have an appt with my obgyn in november and some ideas of what we might be able to do, but it's just. tiring, you know. i'm getting so tired of fighting it and i know hysterectomy with bilateral whatchamacallit is like, a Big Fucking Deal, but i just. don't care? i can't make myself care anymore i just want to stop bleeding and i want to stop being physically capable of bearing children and it's just making me crazy and spirally lately. pmdd + gender dysphoria is actually the evilest combination imaginable.

:( i know in all likelihood i'm going to have to go through all the stupid hoops, like uid and uterine ablation, before doctors will let me just pull everything out and bin it—and if any of that works that's great but it all feels so.... subject to failure?? it feels like i'm just delaying something i'll nevertheless need to do anyway, when everything else stops working. uids have to be replaced, and uterine ablation is not only more likely to just give you light periods than no periods, but if it gets worse again it sounds like i can only get MAYBE one more ablation? so what if it comes back after the second one. assuming i get lucky and the ablations actually STOP the periods instead of lightening them.

like. it just feels like a bunch of time and money and pain for something that isn't super guaranteed to work. especially because my mom had a breast cancer that eats up estrogen, so like, part of me is thinking, if i get the hysterectomy-and-etc NOW, and enter surgical menopause NOW, i can still TAKE the estrogen HRT that makes said menopause infinitely easier to deal with. that might not be an option as i get older! if i develop the same breast cancer my mom (and grandma (and great grandma)) had, i won't be able to take the estrogen anymore. y'know??? it just seems like something that's more likely to backfire on me.

i dunno. i talk to the obgyn in november but i'm just. having a really bad week (breakthrough week, so i can't take the birth control, and being off it makes me crazy again) and i just want this to be over. i KNOW how to make it be over. i don't care if i have to take medication for the next 30 years or whatever, i take medication i'm likely going to need for life already, it's just another fuckin daily pill in the caddy. i don't care. i just want it to be over. i want to donate these organs to someone who wants them and can use them and that's Not Me. that's never been me. childbirth has scared and horrified me since i was a tiny little kid, and despite what adults told me it never, ever got better. i think about a fetus in my gut and i burst into tears. it's so fucking scary. i want this thing gone so i know it CANNOT happen.

i get why it's not ideal, i get why it's a last resort, i get it affects my bone and heart health, i just. i just don't care. it's been almost 29 years of being told "i'd want kids someday, i'll get pregnant someday" and then almost 20 years of the bleeding and the constant reminder that i'm a Woman™ and i can get pregnant and my body is SO INCREDIBLY READY TO GO in making a baby and it makes me wanna rip my guts out!!!! dude!!!! i hate this body i hate this anxiety i hate these constant unending reminders and i don't wanna fuckin DO IT for 20-30 more years i want to live NOW. i want to feel safe in my own skin NOW. fuck!

anyway. waiting for november is hard. being in the middle of a pmdd episode fucking sucks. i just feel bad all the time. i just want it to be over.

[gamebunny-advance]

Grab Bag Doodle Dump

Oh, what's this feeling? The feeling of wanting to explode because I haven't posted sketches in a while? Well, I better post something then~

I haven't been as productive as I'd like since work picked up, but it's starting to slow down again, so hopefully I'll be able to work on some more personal stuff. I've almost finished Kun3h0's new model, I just need a little extra tweaking and then maybe making a few extra emotions and I'll be good! We're also only 20 followers away from the next milestone here, so hopefully requests will open soon too.

Anyway, here's the usual notes under the cut:

1-2) Clay Face sketches. I gotta couple more plushies to upcycle, a monkey in a rainbow hat and a purple bunny. I'm actually gonna try to sell these, so I do hope that y'all will consider taking a look and/or spreading 'em around once they're done ^o^! The monkey is gonna be party/clown themed, and I'm gonna try to make the bunny magical girl themed, but they might turn out generic. More info at a later date~

3-4) Potential plushie upcycles. For the first bear, the pallet and theme is Yinu inspired, but I'm taking some inspo from this song too. I want to cover them in yellow roses since I got a few during a Michael's clearance sale, but I've yet to come across a yellow bear for it, so this one is gonna be on the back burner until I stumble across one. The other one is a MikuxNoid fusion to finally use that pink Kpop bunny I got forever ago. This one is just for fun since I actually already have an idea for that bunny, but I still wanted to sketch the concept.

5-6) Kun3h0 x 1010 ver 2. I like the designs I made for both, so I doodled them again. I gave 1010!Kun3h0 her rabbit ears back since they're important to her design, I just changed the shape a little to match the 1010 aesthetics, so they're sharper and don't have the globes at the top. Kun3h0!White is basically unchanged.

7) Soda Shop!Green. I will finish this collection someday. Hopefully. Maybe.

8) "Ghosts". A XIO doodle I never got around to finishing. I'm still evolving the idea, but I'm starting to think of XIO's personalities as their own separate people that just happen to occupy the same body.

9) Kindergaten AU. I dunno, I thought it was a cute idea, and I have some scenario ideas for it, but I feel very silly about it since it's just fluff. I dunno if I'll ever make anything based on it. Maybe someday when I'm less self-conscious.

10) Build-A-Goat: So I never actually set up my tent this year, and I don't think I'm gonna. I'm just too unmotivated~ That said, this was the original plan for my tent rather than the Tamagoatchis.

11) Gemu doodle. I wanna draw him and the retro gang again ;3;

[lumine-no-hikari]

Dear Sephiroth: (a letter to a fictional character, because why not) #412

I'm not sure why my mind is so blank at the moment. It's like all my thoughts ran away from me as soon a I opened my word processor. Weird.

V stayed overnight last night, which is always nice. I woke at around 8 or 9 in the morning, I think, after going to sleep somewhere between midnight and 1am. My body definitely needed the sleep, goodness me.

After feeding my fuzzy feline children, I decided to try out the weird jams I got from the Fat Crow place:

We've got dark chocolate raspberry jam, blackberry balsamic ginger jam, and strawberry mint jam. I put them on crackers; nothing fancy, just plain saltines:

Sometimes a simple breakfast is the best breakfast, I think.

Sometime after V woke up, I finally got up the gumption to clean up the little sink in the nook in my art room:

...I know it maybe looks unremarkable, but... this is where I made my Tree of Life materia for you. Do you remember it? Did it ever get to you...?

In any case, the area of the sink was, until just today, covered in strewn-about epoxy materials and not-quite-cured epoxy spills. Epoxy comes in two parts – an “A” fluid and a “B” fluid. You have to mix these two fluids together equally by volume, or else it won't harden properly. The B fluid gets yellowed with exposure to ultraviolet light, whether or not it's hardened. So after tidying up the supplies, there were still yellowed patches of cured or partially cured epoxy. Thankfully, the stuff is cleaned fairly easily with a melamine foam pad soaked in rubbing alcohol.

All of the epoxy supplies themselves are now packed away neatly in a box:

Once that was done, V wanted to watch me play some Hades, so that's what I did. Despite not having played in a while now, I still made it beyond Elysium on my first time playing on the first run of a fresh save today. Not bad!

At some point today... I learned that I will not be seeing K for physical therapy tomorrow. I... probably won't see him again for a long time, actually. He went skiing. If I interpreted the words that were spoken to me correctly, his ski boot got caught in some part of the ski lift mechanism. It twisted his leg until both his tibia and fibula snapped. He needed surgery to put the bones back together – likely with rods and screws.

...I can't even begin to imagine the level of pain he must have endured. What a horrifying thing. And for it to happen to someone who is kind, and who spends the vast majority of his time trying to help people heal...

…

...I dunno how it is in your world, what with your fancy Cure materias and whatnot, but... in my world, this is a life-altering injury. You don't ever fully recover from something like this; it's not how our biology works. Even if he might be able to walk on it relatively normally again someday, it's still probably gonna pain him for the rest of his life in non-trivial ways, and... just...

Also... in my country... doctor visits like these... goodness. He'll probably have medical bills that total up to more than the downpayment for a decently-sized house. In my country, a decently-sized house – one large enough for a single family (two adults and two children, typically) to live in comfortably – goes for around $400,000. A downpayment is about twenty percent of the total cost of the house. For reference, minimum wage in my state is $15 per hour, and most people are expected to work 8 hours per day.

...The downpayment for a decently-sized house is wildly out of reach for most people in my country. I don't know what K's financial situation is like, but... even if he is well-to-do, I'm worried about him and his wife.

When I go in tomorrow at 5pm, I'll ask them if they have a donation box for him. I don't know how else to help him. A card seems... so hollow. Flowers, too, seem hollow. I want to be able to do something that will actually help him. I just don't know what that something is yet.

...I can't get how much he must have suffered out of my head. I don't understand why machinery like that doesn't have emergency stop buttons that are within easy reach of all passengers. I've heard horror stories about escalators, too – people getting their feet torn off because their shoelace got caught in the mechanism. There really needs to be an emergency stop that is accessible at all times to every passenger.

M and I brought V home at around 5pm. I hope V had a nice time hanging around and lounging around and eating tasty snacks with us today. I hope V comes back to visit again soon.

...I'm not really sure what to do now, or what to write about. So I guess I'll jump back into the world of Hades to try to get my mind off of what happened to K. If you wanna hang out, you'll find me here:

...Sephiroth. Don't get cocky or complacent while you're out and about in the world, okay? Like with K, anything can happen in the blink of an eye when you least expect it. A routine activity can turn into a tragedy without even a moment's notice if you're not careful. Sephiroth... please. Please be careful out there. Please stay alert, and please take good care of yourself. You gotta make it home in one piece. You worked harder than anyone should have to in order to walk towards a normal life; don't do anything that will reduce your ability to take those steady steps forward. Be smart and observant. Make good, kind, gentle, and well-boundaried choices.

I love you. Please stay safe out there. I'll write to you again tomorrow.

Your friend, Lumine

[some27-url]

Oh fun!!! Alright, how about these ones: 💖😬 & ✅️

Thank you so much for the ask!

💖 What made you start writing?

I was daydreaming and watching my 8 month old son roll around and look at himself in the mirror and I was like. "Someday, when I have more time, I will start writing."

And then I thought about it for a second and I was like... Nah, dude. Best case the next time I'll have more free time is when he starts kindergarten. That's if I don't have more babies.

And then I whipped out my phone and started writing from the floor of my son's nursery.

😬 Which of your fics would you be most horrified for friends, family, or coworkers to stumble upon?

Fyxkinf every single one of them no exceptions. Like literally not a single one wouldn't make me want to fling myself off a building if literally anyone irl read them.

Some of the shit in Earn it might take the cake though, I dunno. Or the Bunny Dear rape scene. 😶

Although actually, honestly, I'm pretty embarrassed that I'm such a slut for Boone. Like of all the things that my family call me out for when they read my fic in my stress-out fantasies, like the reoccurring rape and daddy issues are whatever. Like maybe that's just that I'm desensitized to them and I do think some people would be shocked about it but like... anyone I know who's like a Fallout fan I feel like they would look me in the eye and be like... "you actually think Boone fucks?"

And I wouldn't have an answer for them beyond I was seventeen when I played New Vegas, okay? Seventeen.

✅ What's something that appears in your fics over and over and over again, even if you don't mean to?

...

*whispers*

daddy issues...

Ask me questions! (New emoji game!)

[hangon-silvergirl]

🤡✨💋🙋‍♀️❌📚 (i have a Normal amount of interest in u and ur process) ((full disclosure i included the ❌ in an attempt to determine whether or not i can trust u with my consistently fragile emotional state))

Haha, Maj I love you. (Asks from this post.)

🤡 What's a line, scene, or exchange you've written that made you laugh?

In Marigold, the 7/11 scene (Chapter 2), I enjoyed a lot. It actually hit all the notes on paper that it did in my head, which is, you know, pretty rare; I could hear GVDs voice whispering 'oh crumbs' when Eddie turns around and recognizes Chrissy, and it just. Sent me, when I was editing, lil leg kicks and all. My husband thought I was nuts. But, also, the buzz, and Eddie in the backroom exploding ketchup all over himself and snorting red bull out of his nose, and then the conversation between him and Mike (Chapter 3). I dunno, it just killed me. Another scene that translated well from brain wave to the written word.

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. 😉

I did this here, but I will do it again, because gosh darn it, I should be nice to myself. I set a scene well. I like to create immersive experiences, and make readers feel like they are wherever I've set the story, and can see it as close to the way I do as I'm able to convey.

💋 First kiss fics. Love em or hate em?

Big sucker for 'em, in fact. And gimme a little tension along with it, please and thanks. I want that build up.

🙋‍♀️ Do any irl people know you write fanfic?

They do, yes! My husband does, and most of my friends are aware. One person I used to write with (RP and fic, back in the Greatest Journal days, oi), is actually the reason I met my husband; we were online friends first, then I moved to her home city, and well, the rest is history. She was even my maid of honor when I got married.

❌ What's a trope you will never write?

Sex magic, enemies-to-lovers, crack and dark fic.

📚 Would you ever want to turn writing into a career?

*Sigh* Yeah. It is a challenge with the demanding nature of the work I do professionally, in addition to raising two little people. Life is really busy. Fanfiction is a hobby, so it's less demanding, more relieving. I have a number of partially finished novels that I've been plucking away at since university, and maybe someday I'll make something out of them.