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my secret santa gift for @witchy-boba !! and my first foray into a college au
#maybe more some day... perhaps#do not ever hold me to that tho hehe#BUT THIS WAS SO FUN!!!#let me make more gifts... i like having prompts for things that I wouldn't normally do...#klance#vld#my art
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you know what fuck you [loopifies your figure drawings]
original normal drawings under the cut lol.. for the art-heads
#i love the bottom two poses for loop perhaps i will make full illus of them some day#silverstarsart#isat loop#in stars and time loop#in stars and time#isat#loop#i did these to figure out how to draw loop's silly nakey body bc i usually struggle#but these look good af... so maybe i just need to get messier?#overworking things is a common problem for me so that makes sense#i also used the fritzies more strategically instead of just as an afterthought -#whenever a curve or angle looked too naked human i added a fritz to break it up#and that definitely helped!#i also love how i did their head. it's very negative spacey. maybe a bit too much for basic loop but#i'll absolutely be using the negative space technique for my bodycrafted loops
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Luka is very good at keeping himself composed on stage, mostly with the help of maintaining track of his heart rate, but during Mizi's attack in ROMH he seemed to slip up, not only was the red background a tell-tale sign of Mizi's violent intentions but it was a more symbolic way of showing Luka in quite visceral fear. Even if for only a second.
I'm not convinced Luka will be as continuously calculated as he normally comes off, it all seems too fake to me. Because it is. It’s a similar case to Ivan who can't feel, isn't normal, isn't human enough so he makes a persona to blend in. So Luka, whoever he is, makes this version of himself to cope with what he has to live through, pretending like he's on top of it all to survive in this world.
So in round 7, I think something drastic will happen to make him 'snap' in a way.
It's safe to say that we don't know Luka. We don't know who he really is. We don't know his real desires. But we do know one thing--he is scared. he is afraid of the aliens. That's why he appeases them--being their trophy. He's only kept around for his purpose as an entertainer and nothing else and he's very aware of that. He knows very well that a dented trophy will be discarded; with that mindset, he's been able to get so far, and he's scared of losing. That's why he holds any little thing he can get his hands on close. And an important extension of that fear is his fear of losing power.
Till should be the more likely in this position, given he's such a rebel. But isn't that just too predictable? Keep in mind, that Till is a strong person. Even after all he's been through, even after he's been beaten into something more manageable for the aliens--He still hasn't lost his spark. Till is a raging storm. subdued but nonetheless a force to be reckoned with.
Round 6's effect on Till is greatly ambiguous for now but at this point when the time for round 7 comes, Till has been put through so much hell. Whatever Luka does to provoke him probably won't work, he and Luka are equally talented individuals and will make for an intense battle, and at the end of the day, the numbers won't lie. Exactly that is what Luka is ready for but scared of--a worthy opponent for the throne. Someone capable of stripping him of his power. (Is fear what makes Luka so dismissive?)
It would be so aggravating that this 'pest'. who is so indignant, so rebellious (in a way Luka envies.), could so easily destroy everything Luka has worked for, disregard every pain Luka has been through to get to this point, and Till doesn't value this throne as much as Luka does, and Luka doesn't want to feel the pain of death anymore. If his facade is as destructible as I think it is, that will be what ultimately brings out Luka.
This idea may be flawed. Luka is so perfect, too perfect and confident and experienced for something as little as that to break him, just think of all the training Luka went through to get to this point. I'm positive he's very aware of what playing unfairly will lead to. But isn't there always room for a wild card?
Just remember what happened to Hyun-woo.
What happened here isn't fully explained (and probably will be in round 7) but imagine Luka: "Trophy child, goody two shoes" Luka possibly killing another human. Whether by accident or not, what happened?--what and how did Luka feel in the moment for the repercussions of whatever happened to be that bad?
A Luka that is secretly greatly insecure, pliable, and defensive enough that in a spur of emotions, he can’t help but lose his cool in a way he hasn’t in a while because he’s afraid—just to try and prove he is still valuable. That is the type of character I theorize we'll come to see in round 7.
#I wonder if Hyunwoo dying was because whatever happened between them occured after heperu stopped lukas heart. maybe it made him more#sensitive? and when hyunwoo got rough with him for some reason it drew him over the edge perhaps?#i rlly dunno what could prompt luka and hyunwoo to fight honestly if hyuna wasnt involved#those two were basicallt friends? brother type relationship so like eh idk#alien stage#alnst#this is so random but i just wanted to yap about it for a second its been wracking my brain for days#i think we just have 1 too many enigmatic characters#i think this is the plot twist vivinos will go for because#“senior beats the rookie” well it's too predictable and quite cliche#and after everything i dont think till is in the right state of mind to give a shit.#i also just wanna weasel some way into making till survive this so uh yes!#can we also consider just how much tills fame may have increased after round seven.#think of it like alien stage getting more popular because of doomed yaoi. thats alien stage universe.#ivan literally has fangirls. and look at us:#just sayin'...#harharharharhar#also i know there might be someone thinking: but what about the rebellion? for one. mizi and hyuna may or may not be goners#but in general i dont think they can do ANYTHING for till or luka atp#isaac and dewey? maybe#alnst till#alien stage till#alien stage round 7#it just feels plain to me to see a luka that doesnt want to be another one of those corpses elevating the throne. he wants to show that he#is more valuable than that 'punk' who'll do nothing but dishonor this throne? maybe. we'll just have to seeeeee#alien stage luka#alnst luka#luka alien stage#till alien stage
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woah, all of the sudden i feel like i want nothing more but to turn into a soggy piece of dead wood, and its even worse bc its seems like this time its exaggerating all my worst qualities on top of worsening my regular mental health struggles-
... remembering that its been a month since the last time .... no, no it cant always be that, the majority of my deep dives into mental health hell and public annoyance cant be all that, what am i, nothing but a enzyme and hormone controlled meat puppet that i have no control over? haha no its just me actually getting wors-
cramps.
#ganondoodles talks#personal#tmi perhaps but#as if my regular gender dysphoria wasnt already bad enough#and as if periods didnt make it even worse#no now i also feel like im just a stupid animal that bends to some stupid hormon shit like i have no agency at all#maybe thats just me#but while meltdowns are the pinnacle of feeling posessed to me#realizing i have been 'like that tm' bc its period time makes me feel so .. extra stupid#like man those feelings felt so real and still kidna do but also man what the fuck#.......also i feel like i am proving those misogyni guys right by being weird and not like myself a few days before the cramps start#even without being cis#feels like shit all over! yippie! angry at myself for not realizing it#also angry that even if i remember i cant do anything against it#i jsut gotta waste days and weeks and so much time just to feel even more shit and awful about myself for not beign what i want#argh
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It is truly fascinating how the common tumblr narrative around John and Paul somehow makes the guy who literally got violent multiple times over people insinuating he was queer appear more "on board with the whole gay thing" than the guy who said some awkward/dated stuff in interviews a couple of times.
#im not trying to defend paul here btw. or tear down john#i just find the reading of john as like the Self-Accepting King between them.... myopic#i mean. it touches on the whole Was It Reciprocated Thing really#the idea being: If We Assume Paul Reciprocated He Is MORE Repressed Than John Because John Hinted More Heavily That He Wasn't Straight#but like..#that's Exactly why some of us think.... maybe Paul IS straight 😭😭 or at least it's not nearly as big of a deal to him than it was to John#(perhaps because he's bi but treats it more casually than John ever felt capable of)#any reading of John and sexuality that concludes something LESS fraught than Paul's mostly benign slight weirdness/curiosity#seems to me.... like McLennon tunnel vision#like because John never gay panic attacked PAUL all that ugly stuff he did can be set aside.#also. look at the way people think about India#and the Get Back convo about it. it's all like JOHN'S NOT IN DENIAL. HE WAS CLEAR. HE WANTED IT. HE WAS ALL IN.#Was He?#anyways. i am becoming chatty these days.#as always people are welcome to discuss this with me even if we disagree#fiona.docx#jp speculation#discourse
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[zombie au] when ur.when ur brotherturns into a z.when ur brother turns into a zombie and u spend the next several years of ur childhood braving the most fucked up shit ever so u can find a cure and it gets to the point where ur killing parts of urself just to pick up the pieces of ur brother with shaking, cut up hands and glue him back together but at that point ur just going to end up bringing him back to a world that's not worth living in
#qkdraws#id in alt#mob psycho 100#mob psycho#mp100#zombie au#ritsu kageyama#mp100 ritsu#shigeo kageyama#mp100 shigeo#mp100 mob#btw even tho i like to draw mob snarling and being a bit feral i do wanna make it clear that he's Very rarely like that#i just enjoy it when he Is so i draw it <3 hope thishelps#he's usually more like the top right. chill as fuck. not a single thought in that head#mob only gets aggressive when ritsu's in trouble#in the top left one he's actually snarling at tome. bc of uhm.reasons <3#dw she didn't hurt ritsu. mob just Thinks she did and he's going mad abt it#wanna write that part eventually. maybe. some day perhaps#anyway yeah.uhm. i think im cookin w this au#im cookin Smth. might not be edible but im cookin and u can't take that away from me#mob doesn't just have eye bags cuz he's a zombie and owahh zombies gotta look scary#he has them cuz in this au it's REALLY hard to fall asleep when ur zombie#but ur stillhuman and u still require sleep to live. which is why sleep deprivation is like the leading cause of zombie death in this world#and that means ritsu has to be Super careful not to let mob go too long without sleep#he's always tryin to get the poor guy to Rest. even when ur exhausted beyond belief it's Rly hard to sleep when ur a zombie#ur brain's been rewired n shit man. it fucks up a lot of systems#ritsu has eye bags bc he's .tormented.by the entire earth#quite literally everything is against him.for a very long time#and he's fuckin exhausted man.he's fuckin tired#fun fact if u raid my inbox about this au ill kiss u on the mouth
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once again posting to say… hi…
#i’m still around i swear#i see the tags… i will respond to them as soon as i feel capable promise#i haven’t posted an edit since july. that’s nuts actually#i might maybe perhaps start posting regularly again come january#i do kind of miss it here tbh#i was looking through my blog for some drawing refs to practice w the other day & was like. hm.#maybe i should start making stuff again.#we’ll see. idk.#i only have class 3 days a week next term so i’ll have more free time#in theory anyway….#well. yea. idk.#i do need to finish that mbz edit that’s been sitting in my drafts for a while…#n e way#myart#rainyrambles
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This is my favorite image ever I think
#burger#guys oh my GOD I had a burger the other day after not having one for like ? almost a year I think? nearly fainted#it was so glorious and amazing#bacon cheeseburger save me…save me bacon cheeseburger…bacon cheeseburger….#I love burgers but only like once a year#like if I eat them on a regular basis I find them disgusting#I have to limit myself#okay I really don’t know why I’m talking about my burger eating habits rn MOVING ON#anyways#JINNNN🫶🫶🫶#the Jin fixation is soooo crazy rn#obsessed w him tbh#since atlas is so obsessed w spin-offs they NEED to give me a Strega spinoff#like I do NOT need to see the phantom thieves for the umpteenth time GIVE ME STREGA PLEASEEE PLEASE PLEA#no hate to the phantom thieves still love them 🫶 I just need them to MOVE and make room for some other cast members 🫶#IM JUST SAYINGHGGG#still love them tho#all I’m saying is atlas has soooo many cool side characters that perhaps they should oh I don’t know maybe focus on them a little more#please#for my personal sake#they should make a Strega spinoff and in the title screen say “for tumblr user gio-cosmo’’#come on atlas I’m waiting 🤷♂️🤷♂️🤷♂️#LMAOOO#persona 3#p3#jin shirato#persona 3 reload
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With the release of From The Rehearsal Room - Tokyo to Ramin's youtube I finally, finally, continue and finish this side project I'm doing.
Initially, I used AI to mastered it because the first version I got from bilibili were not in good quality but I wasn't satisfied and I found the much better quality. But with Ramin uploaded it to youtube, I re did all the mastering just with audacity for both Part 1 and Part 2. The Part 2 is still from the better version I found from bilibili, by the way.
What you need to do is just download the file and put it on your music player. The metadata is all completed as if it's whole legit album. Enjoy, guys!!
And I'm being weird so all the lyrics that are put there are from my listening although I still use what I found online but I still listened and compared. They made few ad-libs and changes and I notice because for the songs that I wasn't familiar, the lyric that I found online and what they sang was slightly different. Perhaps they sing the newer version of the lyrics or mistakes? Even each Sheytoons songs they sing one in both parts differ from the ones I found online.
Another sample from my favorite:
Source and Credits Part 1 | Part 2 (Ramin's upload) Album cover Photos
Vocal & Guitar: Ramin Karimloo, Hadley Fraser Piano: Ryohei Mori
#from the rehearsal room#ramin karimloo#hadley fraser#more to come probably idk we'll see#i should've also continue that eight letters project *sigh#sheytoons#edit: the lyrics hehe#add: tbh after i read steal our moments lyric so many times i even transcripted this mostly myself#bcs this is the only one among all the songs in this session that doesn't have the lyric online because they sang this so rare like soo rar#why am i starting to feel this song is about sierra lol sorry but my inner shipping heart can't resist#i even consult chatgpt (i know why idk but just asking really)#aren't all sheytoons songs written when ramin was in LND? written exactly in his dressing room in adelphi theatre???#and tbh most of sheytoons song are mostly about observing women but who idk it could be different#one of them could be about mandy and the other could be about rosalie because i know at that time she and hadley were dating already right?#or it could be some random lady#steal our moments: perhaps it's about a fleeting or secret relationship#the first verse is that the girl is full of life (house full could mean fulfilling life) but she is lonely and sierra lived alone in london#the singer and her share dreams and memories and then she plays her game of make believe could indicate that both of them are actors#every night and every day this is what we do: that's their work. they're on stage together every day every night. and ofc spending time tgt#and then the reff is about the singer doesn't want keep living like this bcs it makes him guilty maybe? he's tearing his soul apart#the singer can't stop thinking about her so he prays that things work on in the correct way even though they can't do anything about it now#so yea :D#fish noodle couple
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“Blood Moon, Blood Brothers,” Phases of the Moon Knight (Vol. 1/2024), #4.
Writer: Tom Waltz; Pencilers and Inkers: Ken Lashley and Brian Level; Colorists: Dono Sanchez-Almara, Erick Arciniega, and Antonio Fabela; Letterer: Cory Petit
#Marvel#Marvel comics#Phases of the Moon Knight#Moon Knight comics#latest release#Moon Knight#Khalmeziir#Khonshu#this story was a bit more plot heavy but what I’m taking away from it is parallels with Elias + Marc + Randall???#because the incredibly complicated fatherly and brotherly relationships in Moon Knight comics are the surest thing#to send me up the wall in the best way possible#there’s something there with Khalmeziir losing his identity as a father#he says it’s due to disowning his son but it also reminds me of how Marc felt disconnected from his (admittedly already complicated)#identity after becoming Moon Knight? The persistent theme in the early volumes that Marc had died#and perhaps had stayed dead and perhaps that was best so that Steven and Jake could live well as well as so Moon Knight#could be a righteous executor of justice#but there’s also Khalmeziir being the one to bring his son to justice for all of the latter’s blood lust which just#reminds me so much of Elias’ criticisms of Marc chasing after bloodsports and combat as well as introducing such pursuits to Randall#Marc had only sold his soul to the metaphorical demon of mercenary work/killing and committing war crimes for cash#but if Elias could see how far Randall and Marc ended up falling…would he have been tempted to act as Khalmeziir did?#Marc describes Elias as the gentlest man of peace possible so probably not#…but that’s a description coming from an incredibly guilty son who (in some continuities) might feel his wild dog days#partially contributed to his father’s death sooo#in any case…what a what if#maybe it’s for the best Elias never knew what ultimately became of Randall
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A Noisy Chicago Apartment Ghost
Here's a little spooky story of something that really happened to my girl and me a few months back when I was still living in my apartment in Chicago (Specifically July 11th through the 14th, so not that long ago!)
Chicago is a place with a lot of old buildings, not sure if that means more ghosts? But I'm also the sort of person that if something spooky is going on, I'm usually the one that's most likely to experience it, and surprisingly my little girl did too!
We were living on the fourth floor of an apartment in Edgewater that was so old I had to sign a waiver that I knew the walls had lead somewhere in the paint omelet the landlord coated the interior with. There was something else there, something I couldn't see, but it made itself known by throwing things, mostly. Most would think, "Are you sure it didn't fall?" But most of these things were sitting on a flat surface, sometimes for months before they were suddenly flung with force across the room. Whatever it was didn't like my cat, as several times I'd see him run out of a room then something be thrown out of the doorway at him. I lived alone, and he very well couldn't have done it if it was thrown after he was out of the room!
This is a photo I took of the hallway just before I moved, which is where the most recent spooky things happened. To the left is the bathroom, to the right is the walk in closet my cat claimed as his room, and the far back is where I had my bed. My computer desk and girls were against the opposite wall, so I had my back to this area. Around the time it happened, most of my things were in boxes, aside for what I needed on the daily, so if something was out of place it was pretty easy to tell.
One thing that's nice about working from home is I could have my baby girl chilling with me, and she'd often be snuggled with me while I organized video shoots, booked talent, or worked on preproduction. So one day early in the afternoon I was buy working away on something when I heard a loud sound behind me. Imagine someone holding a leather biker's coat above their head and dropping it to the ground- it sounded exactly like that. Owning a leather biker jacket, that was the first thing I checked and it was still on its hanger. In fact, nothing was out of place, which is pretty strange since that was a rather loud sound- but not a thing had been moved! So I just added it to my mental list of weird things I can't really do anything about and went back to working.
The next day, around the same time, I heard something get thrown into the bathtub. I'm half wondering if this time I'll actually find something or it will be another mystery sound- and I find my makeup case thrown from a shelf into the bathtub. No reason. I put it back and again add it to my mental list of things I can't explain and just have to accept happened. Third day, around the same time, I again hear a sound in the same area of the hallway, just outside the bathroom door, but this time it sounds like something plastic got dropped. I rush over, worried that something like my live crickets or isopods got flung (and subsequently LOOSE) in my apartment- but again, nothing out of place.
At this point, it's become a daily thing at around the same time. Was their a reason this started? Are they upset I'm moving? Whatever the reason, on the fourth day I've notice the trend of something weird happening in the hallway behind my desk around the same time. Today, the fourth day, I was holding my baby girl.
Scoria is sweeter than pie and she lives to play, explore, and love her family. Absolute sweetheart. She was wandering about in my arms, but then stopped and started staring into the empty hallway. She periscoped up, just staring, and I couldn't see anything! Then she hooded up bigger than I'd ever seen her hood before, like something scary was there and she was trying to intimidate it. There was nothing new in the hallway, again, it was pretty empty since most things had been packed away for the upcoming move, so it wasn't as though she were misidentifying something unknown. Whatever she saw, this tiny little gummyworm thought was dangerous- and she was going to protect us.
Thinking back to the prior three days of things I couldn't explain, and the possibility of ghosts in my mind, I honestly wonder if she saw someone I couldn't. And what the heck do you do in that moment? I did the only thing I could think to- I talked calmly to her, asking her what she saw, and what was wrong? After a few more moments she relaxed, her hood melted down, and she looked at me as if to say, "Everything is okay now Mom."
And the weird things in that apartment completely stopped through to the day we moved. I honestly wonder if my girl scared a ghost? Experience with the paranormal has taught me that most ghosts use to be people, and the beliefs and fears they had in life go with them into the afterlife. So if whatever was in my apartment use to be a person afraid of snakes, well now they were a ghost afraid of snakes. Even little teenie tiny gummyworm snakes. There's a surprisingly high number of people afraid of friendly little gummyworm snakes. And I guess this ghost was one of them!
I certainly appreciate my baby girl squaring off with this thing I couldn't see or do anything about. Somehow she could? I guess? And she was my brave little girl, who would protect her family from whatever scary thing she saw. This is just one of so many reasons I love her more than words could ever express.
( @yeetntve you liked my other post so I tag u so u can see the story.)
#ghost story#ghost stories#unexplained#halloween#haunted#Actual photos of my apartment#The other photos weren't taken at the time as I was just living my life and not prepared for that#But I tried to show how she looks hooded up#Though that day she went full Dorito which I don't have any photos of#My brave baby girl#I love you so#I wish I had more photos of that apartment for visual storytelling elements#I still have that leather coat maybe I can take a photo and add that later#often haunting activity is symbolic but I don't have an explanation for this one#So#Perhaps#snakes keep away some spooky ghosts#Just the ones of people who were afraid of snakes in life#I GUESS that's a takeaway here XD#That and baby snakes can be very brave protecting their family#Baby girl raised up and hooded between me and whatever scary thing she saw#This tiny little baby ready to protect both of us#And she did#she did <3
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I say all this but I still do take pride in my Islamic upbringing and have used many of its values to kind of inform how I approach people and the world. Which kind of makes this whole thing worse because!!! So many religions and governments fucking hates Muslims!!!! We even hate ourselves because we started forming sects!!! Literally one of the foremost forbidden things the Prophet and the first Caliphates said NOT to do after their death!! Yet we can't talk about dismantling religion without also including Judaism and Islam, two very persecuted religions, but in such a way as to not contribute to white supremacy and fascism or the half dozen other chud groups or ideologies or countries that want us dead.
Do you see my issue? I do genuinely believe we need to remove religion from the world but I don't know how to currently conceptualize religious-based persecution within that belief. So the belief in removing religion from the world gets pushed to wayside in favor of wanting to protect religious minorities.
#lunar lectures#Does anyone perhaps have some readings on this?#I'm literally so stuck and lost on this shit#i will admit tho#im not exactly convinced religious based persecution exists in a pure form#at least not in the current day#with how centralizing religion is#is impossible to remove it from geopolitics etc#therefore trying to conceptualize just religious based persecution is fruitless#cause your can always look at it another angle or maybe even more macro#that doesn't necessarily focus the differing religions
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What if Tommy had different personality? Perhaps a personality like Sam, cold and ruthless. Well since I'm too curious, and my motivation and imagination came back, I decided to draw Tom :D
Now black butterfly is a represent death ( at least that's what Google said ) so since he killed 5 important people trough out the game, I added the butterflies :D
Without the bottom text thingy
I hope you like it 😎
#mafia definitive edition#drawing#my art#tommy angelo#such a great day to be an artist#now i kinda like this#but at the same time i somewhat dont like it#and idk why 😔#now thanks to Pinterest#i can get some ideas :D#and draw something perhaps more diverse#since my English teacher told me too#IM FREE FROM SAMMY#MAYBE#I might draw Sam Trapani again tho.#sam trapani
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y’all already know this by now, but this is an official post to say i’m on semi-hiatus/hiatus for the time being. i might decide on an official day to come back later to help get me back into the spirit of being here, or i may pop in occasionally if i’m bitten by the writing bug; regardless, i just need a good, zero-pressure break to rest and handle the internal and external issues happening in my life. i could ramble about it, but i won’t this time :’ )
all that said, you can message me on discord at ‘ waitforspring. ’ and that’s with the period! i still wanna keep in contact, and i might even feel up to writing a few, little things on discord, too. just keep in mind that i may be slow to respond at times — i’m known to be a snail, and i don’t think that’ll ever change asdfg
i miss y’all, and i want you to know that whether it’s a day or a month or a year, you deserve to rest. you deserve to take time for yourself. you deserve to focus on different parts of your life, and you deserve to use your time how you want. remember that, and please take care of yourselves, friends 💜
#get ready to ramble | ooc#i’ll try to remember to reblog this a few times so everyone sees it#though i’m sure it’s not all that necessary#it’s more important to me that y’all know where to contact me tbh bc i may miss tumblr notifications if i’m not paying as much attention#as i was before#anyway i love and miss y’all 💜 and i hope that maybe we can just hang out and chat and watch things together perhaps 💜#for now i’m heading out to finish getting ready for bed bc i got some busy days ahead#good night and pls take care 💜💜💜
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. not snz
on healing and on fear (tags)
#(typed this up at 3am and scheduling for later) no one needs to read this 🙏#today i went back to the site where i got injured back in may to partake in a sport which i haven't touched at all since the injury#and i think what struck me was the realization that#i don't know if i'll ever be able to stop being scared again :')#for a time climbing was very special to me...#it was one of the only ways i could feel myself improving so tangibly when improvement is usually so difficult to track#i liked seeing myself get better at something 😭 i liked going with friends and puzzling over the same problems... i liked having something#to look forward to after work. and perhaps having something to look forward to sounds simple... but for me it meant so much :')#for the first couple months after the injury i couldn't wait to get back into it#and then one day i woke up and i was just afraid#the fear feels so much more tangible now that i know i am not overreacting... it's awful knowing that in a way i was right to be afraid#i always knew there were risks associated; i have always been cautious#but i had just been starting to learn to be braver 😭#and fuck... today i stood there and looked at the wall and thought. how can i ever not be afraid again?#how can i go back to how things were before? when i loved this? when i could tell myself that - despite the fear - it was meaningful to try#i wanted to come away with the takeaway that i could take things slowly and get back into climbing - maybe precisely because#i remember so keenly how i loved it - but how could it ever be the same?#😭 i know this is just part of growing up but#in some ways i am tired of growing up... :') in some ways i just want that joy as it was then#delete later probably#i suppose i haven't lost anything but typing this made me sob for something i couldn't quite name
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Russel t Davies: anything can mean anything
#im bringing death to death#like ok……….#i wouldn’t care abt her mom being ordinary because I WAS FOR THAT FROM DAY 1!!! BUT LIKE…YOU HAVE TO BUILD SMTH AROIND IT IF ITS GOING TO#COMPELL SO MUCH OF THE STORY#like ok. she’s important because she’s important. is there perhaps. a reason this particular mystery is SO much more important than others#I ACTUALLY LIKE THAT CONCEPT. BUT YOU HAVE TO DO SMTH WITH IT#maybe if ruby was a story diety of some kind….perchance…..ANYWAY#warlock wartalks#AND 73 YARDS AND MS FLOOD IS? ok#dw spoilers#I liked the doctor stuff I like when he feels guilty and does bad things :) yay#MAYBEEEEE still meta theory hope w ms flood idk
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