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is it normal to live about 2% of your life in reality and the rest in your little mind with your little characters playing out little stories?
#i dont think its normal#just daydreaming#maybe?#maybe its more than that but hey...#if its not diagnosed then i dont have to think about it (applying this to myself and myself only)#maybe im going mad#hmm#meh thats a problem for future me
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As much as i love Dungeon Meshi, i do think that given Ryoko Kui's attention to realistic worldbuilding there ought to be a companion series called Dishes Meshi where they spend 2hrs washing and drying and packing away. Alll the goddamnfuck dishes they just made
#EVERY TIME i make something even slightly fancy for dinner im like#HOW ARE YOU WASHING ALL THOSE DISHES IN A DUNGEON ?? DO Y'ALL REALLY ONLY USE 1 BIG PAN?? HOW?#where is Chilchuck being like 'jfc Laios‚ you couldn't have let this bowl soak while we made the gyoza?? now it's all dried on...'#where is Marcille going 'Ok gang. We need to stop somewhere soon to wash each of our 2 outfits. and our 173 dishtowels'#On second thought maybe Marcille just does it all with magic which makes me mad fucking jealous#if this is already covered somewhere in the Adventurer's Handbook or the later manga chapters I'll feel real dumb but Ah Well#dungeon meshi#i am attacked by hundreds of crows
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personal happiness or what the fuck ever
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#xmen#xmen comics#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#professor x#magneto#jeans here too but ssh#snap sketches#i havent posted anything in what feels like forever and i GUESS i have to remind people i do draw sometimes. whatever.#aka in my brain i have at LEAST a five-page doujin where this gets incredibly nsft but i dont have TIME for that these days do i#so for now we get just. these scribbles. ill be able to make something exemplary again someday i swear <- optimistic#i think im going to close my comms off for the rest of december once i get through the batch i have now#which ... doesnt sound hard since the amount i have will probably take me to the end of december anyway 💀#i just need everyone to believe me i have better visions for yaoifying issue 309 .... the opportunity is right there...#like wdym the dream sequence is gon end on a panel of erik's eyes as he reinforces the idea charles needs happiness like scott and jean's..#call up your ex. right now charles.#what got me peeved about this issue is i have no idea what color eriks outfit could be vjaeLVKEJARK its like.#is he wearing a lab coat over a suit .... i think thats the intention ... or maybe it is a trench coat....#idk shit for me to figure out if i ever get the time to explore this thing again#LIKE UGH IM SCREAMING i have Such Visions that i dont have time to execute and theyre killing me#maybe ill just write them down idfk <- trying to write fanfiction ends even worse for me than trying to draw#anyways. im gonna drive myself mad good night everyone#i have to go to a christmas party tomorrow night. later tonight. whatever.#BYE
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you dream of devouring your friends whole
#the 'it' and 'that' sif is referring to is the act 3 loop hangout but i enjoy being vague in dialogue it feels natural. tee hee.#serious time means everyone gets noses btw. sorry about the slow metamorphasis back into my usual style from my mimicry#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#isat loop#isat act 5 spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#isat siffrin#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#sifloop#YES IM TAGGING THE SHIP. THUMBS UP. READ INTO THAT HOW YOU WILL BECAUSE IT WAS ON MY MIND WHEN DRAWING IT AT THE LEAST#aaaaaanyway. my personal reading of loop is. how do you say... flowey-esque. to invoke a fellow antagonistic timelooper. since imo#they do seem even fuuurther gone than sasasap sif was when we saw them. and BOY DOES LATEGAME ISAT SIF HAVE SOME INTRUSTIVE THOUGHTS#so uh. who's to say what happened in there. since we know start again isnt quite congruent as loop never beat the king.#i wouldn't blame them for going maybe a little mad. just a lil#it is important to me that loop is. perhaps a bit haunted. AND THAT THEY GET THROUGH IT!!! but they are haunted#lucabyteart#anyway uhhh. probably should put a cw for implied cannibalism??#cannibalism mention
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Im gonna be so real people who pounce on any message of hope or anyone who speculates about anything other than the absolute worst-case, "we are all doomed, doomed you hear!" scenario while all this is going down and the fed gov is totally upended are pissing me tf off!!
I get it these are powerful emotions its an incredibly difficult and politically dangerous time right now but we're also barely 3 weeks in folks. The admin has ALREADY backed off two hugely unpopular initiatives and is currently testing the checks and balances.
Like WHY is it so important to you that i affirm to you that we're all definitely going to die in gitmo concentration camps within the year. WHY is it so necessary for you to naysay even entertaining the thought of midterms. WHAT do you want me to say?
"The experiment is over" "we lost our democracy" "there won't be any more elections so why bother thinking about midterms" "whats the point of these federal judges the admin is just gonna ignore them" "fascism is already here"
Like ok??? And???? Why fold so easily? Why even give them the satisfaction of admitting defeat in this, the opening salvo? There is so much left to be saved, there are so many excesses that CAN be stopped with effort and focus.
I feel burnout and defeated like 10 times a day since the inauguration but THIS is the test. There will ALWAYS be an opportunity to take up truth and responsibility and justice, every second of every day, for the next four years. I just can't with anyone who thinks that now, after everything, is the time to check out even more and totally abdicate power
#ranting mostly to myself directed at my groupchat lol#as a fed worker im like. look buddy however you feel reading about it EYE am LIVING it and im not going to give up or give in any time soon#so. you know. maybe call your most local city councillor and ask them what they're doing for immigrants and trans kids#if you're done shaking & crying#and getting mad at me for refusing to be a coward
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~ a little something about Dazai slowly moving you in without you knowing ~
"Osamu, can I borrow a comb or something? I can't seem to find my hairbrush..."
You call out as you rummage through your duffle bag you brought to spend the weekend at his place. you do this as much as you can, it's lovely to spend time with the one you love... And also because he loses all sanity and rationality if he goes a few days without seeing you. You've been there before, and it's a nightmare for both you and anyone interacting with him. Poor baby!
He perks up, staring at you from across the room, chin resting on his palm and his eyes half-lidded. He's thinking about the day he hid that from you, along with a few other garments. He calls back, sounding scattered.
"Mm? Oh, you can borrow anything you want! Mine's behind the bathroom mirror."
"Okay!"
You open the mirror, and the shelf has not only your hairbrush, but one of your hair clips too. You tilt your head, calling back out.
"Nevermind! Found some of my stuff. Guess I left them here last time, heh."
He jumps at your new finding, quietly cursing himself for not hiding that before you came over. Dazai sighs deeply and immediately hops off the stool, beelining it to you. He clears his throat, playing dumb like the demon he is.
"Well, I think you should still use mine. Please, yours looks all old and yucky. If you keep using it all of your hair will fall out and you'll be bald and hate yourself for the rest of your life and nobody will want you! Except for me, of course~"
"... Um, I don't think so?"
"Well I do! Now, come on, let's get these silky locks in check."
He spins you around and immediately starts combing out your hair, humming a little tune to himself as he does so. He makes a mental note to hide the shirt and pajama shorts he kept last weekend too, that's for when he's alone at night. He also needs to make sure you willingly start leaving things, otherwise you'll freak if you're missing half your stuff. He's so gentle with you and having the time of his life, lightly dusting his fingers against the nape of your neck. He stifles a giggle behind that little smirk plastered on his face when you squirm a bit. He'll make sure you do it plenty of more times before you leave later. Maybe you'll finally beg like he's been wanting you to!
"There. All done."
He presses a soft kiss at the top of your head and you flash him a sweet smile. He could honestly pass out right there. And if he fell down, he'd be at your feet, and then he could be at your knees. Oh! And then you'd fuss over him and never leave his sight. And then... So so so cute...
You get a thoughtful look on your face, and turn to face him fully, popping his delusional little bubble.
"... Come to think of it, I feel like I always lose stuff at your place. You'll gather it for me if you find it, Osamu?"
At the mention of his name, he feels his entire body heat up. He blinks twice and tilts his head innocently. God, you look breathtaking when you're confused. He'll have to take a photo sometime for his album. You love posing for those, and he loves looking at you.
"Sure, but why don't you just... Leave things here from now on? You're here alllll the time, might as well just keep stuff here for safe keeping. I'll be the noble keeper of your things!"
You raise a brow, huffing into a laugh.
"Yeah? Is that what you want to be?"
His voice then becomes softer, needier, and dead serious. He stares right into your beautiful eyes, drowning himself in them. He mutters.
"For you, I'll be anything you want me to be. Afterall, I'm nothing more than a boy made of clay~"
You blush at that. Really hard. Amazing! he thinks. He reaches for your soft face that feels hot to the touch, cupping it inbetween his bandaged hands as he delicately rubs circles on your temples with the pad of his thumb. You wish you could look anywhere else right now because you're falling apart under him and he knows it.
"When you move in, you can do anything you want with the place. Especially with me."
"... Shouldn't we talk more about this another time?"
"Mmm no, not really."
He replies, his Hazelnut eyes go a little darker as he looks down at you.
"Hm, I think we should, cause you're too fast for me. You're like a Hare." You giggle as you say that, eyes twinkling.
"I like bunnies. I like you..."
He mumbles, going straight for your lips before you can say anything else.
Needless to say, you didn't get very far into the discussion after that. He wouldn't let that happen. And that's okay! He can adapt! He thinks he IS being a little pushy and a little too fast for your taste. He's sooo sorry, he'll take it slower next time. In between the sloppy kisses and the very indecent ways he uses his hands to toy with you, he desperately whispers in your ear one last time before he devours you fully.
"... We're staying together forever and ever, yeah?"
"Mmphhhmm..."
#im gonna be honest he's a straight up DOG in this#and i'm sorry about that. but lovesick yandere freak patheticzai wouldn't want anything less than the truth#he wants u to move in and u wil!!!!!! eventually.... after some convincing.... and distracting...#he's disgusting i cannot say this enough#this isn't smut but it's....... mad suggestive...#i like to think he sees u as a bunny maybe even calls u that sometimes#i need to go lie down#patheticzai#bungou stray dogs#dazai x reader#osamu dazai#bsd dazai#dazai x you#osamu dazai x reader#bsd x reader#dazai imagines#gn reader#dazai fluff#osamu dazai fluff#yandere dazai#yandere
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been playin spearmasters campaign help me
#art#rain world#rw spearmaster#spearmaster#trypophobia#maybe??#no mouth they breathe thru the holes on their neck lol#also my screen has been freezing during one section of the campaign nd im so mad#its probs my mods but i dont wanna go thru all them grr
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#BROOAKAKAKALALALALALALAAALALALALALALALALALALALAALALalalallaalalallalalala#UR FUCKING KISIJ GMENAKALALALAJAKAKAKA😻😻😻😻😻😻#BRO OKOKOAKAKALALALALA#HOSHINA IS DEF MY FAVE FROM THIS SHOW😋😋😋#BRO LOOKAT HIMMAKAKALALALAKAKAHAGDGSVWVNWJAKAA#BAKTBARVAKTBALR ALR AKR GRRRRARGH BARKABRKBARK😻😻#HES SO HTOABABANAJA HELP EM I CAN TBRWATHE#😭😭😭😭😭#HES SO FUCJIGN HOT BRUH#HIS WAIST FUJCKKKKKKKKKKK MEEEEEKWKALALLALA#HES SO …. 😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫😵💫#BROOAKAKKAKA#BRO I WANNA FUCK HIM SO BAD ITS U REALJAAKLALAALLAAL#😻😻😻😻#USE THAT ON ME NEXT ME NEXT !!1!1’-&-&-&-@#GET MAD AT ME OOH OOH PICK ME PICK ME !!!!1!1!1!1#😋😋😋#HIS BAAAACK FUCK ME#maybe its just the compression shirt … NAHHH ITS HIM FR🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼#I WANT HIM SO BADJAKALALALA#ok lemme chill#BUT NAHHH HES SO HOT RUCJAKAKALALAHDHSHASHGSGAHAHAHAJAJAJAKA#😭😭😭😭#im going mental actuallt#[‹ moshi : thirsts ›]#soshiro hoshina#kaiju no. 8
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a few more heartsteel crossover doodles.. this time of the Oh They're Boyfriends variety :3c
#persona#heartsteel crossover#akeshu#ryomina#souyo#art tag#i wanted to do a bit more but im tired this week#adding colour wasnt even part of the plan#but i guess it just happened#always making more work for myself#so it's only rough... i did not tryhard this time#anyway i think akeshu and ryomina are pretty similar to kaynez and settphel like WOW#not so sure about the other two tho#bruhhh just realised the shading is waaaay too dark on renren's forehead he looks like he's PLOTTING#maybe he is idk ask him#akechi was supposed to be just mad at his leash#but then i had to go in and add more huh#that was supposed to be the singular point of me making this in the first place#but noooo we had to go and do more like why cant i stop myself#(bc i love my blorbos)#omg i forgot to resize these so they're HUGE
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i think the japan update of the f1 silly season post may in fact be the thing that kills me. this is all for you all.
#im quietly loosing my sanity#i think ive been writing this since a very solid 4pm and it is now 9#the race has not happened yet#it is on sunday#today is thursday#the post is already too long#and i accidentally got stuck down a nico rosberg youtube rabbit hole and had to go on lestappen ao3#this is what i get for not writing the whole thing in a mad dash at 2am#not a tag#from saph#f1#im loosing my sanity so much that my brain registered disturbia by rihanna as by brittney spears#tho maybe thats because i got stuck down the nico rosberg rabbit hole#katya said i need to go touch grass and hes probably right
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it wouldn't even matter if he did "shit on you behind your back" when you "never say anything back." the thing it absolutely boils down to is that you knew him when he was a minor and he has come forward saying that because of your influence and power, he felt uncomfortable around you. any POSSIBLE comeback other than an apology ends there. slur or no slur, any other response to that is bad. or, is it just that someone underage you've hurt in the past telling the truth about you only scares you when you know they have the public influence to protect themself?
#never mind the fact that the podcast was like a month ago. maybe more#bro really dickrides xqc that hard??#listen. real talk. I am not saying that dream groomed tommyinnit before it even gets misconstrued as anything close to that.#bc I feel like someone will willfully misread this post to that angle#im just saying that going after Tommy specifically when the extent of his shittalking was saying he was scared of you as a kid#isn't a good look. if this was really the point he wanted to make he would've made it about jack#who shittalked him the most.#so he has to be full of shit. because its clearly not about what he's making it about.#he's seeing Tommy go after big creators and getting scared about what he might say next.#why he decided to initiate that and shoot himself in the foot is beyond me bc now Tommy is going to retaliate#and its probably going to get pretty ugly.#yeah yeah blah blah relevancy publicity stunt I know. but Tommy specifically is such a fucking choice.#I know hes one of the most famous dsmp members so it makes sense but I just. I dont know.#there's something else going on.#sorry I got mad again lol#discourse#dream situation#mcyt
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i just have beef with tales of the hidden city cause it's like ... would you rather have Second Hand Embarrassment The Episode, the episode that's about fucking Racial Profiling towards an already heavily adultified black-coded character, nuclear family propaganda that comes down to "well he made us so we should be GRATEFUL to him" (seriously what the hell even was that), or leo vibing for 11 minutes 😭😭😭😭
#personal#donnie vs witch town is really important for his character but i have to COVER MY EYES for half of that episode#im just like Noo. noo stop it stop it STOP IT MAKE IT STOP#mikey being like that towards splinter makes me seriously mad though like .... draxum ruined his life#he is NOT obligated to THANK him for essentially forcing children onto him and modifying his body without his consent#even if both of these things were technically unintentional they are RESULTS of draxum's decisions: ones that were already malicious#especially because splinter's body dysmorphia disabled him and put him in a state of SERIOUS depression#''well its a good thing he created us'' having children is a morally neutral action#and he should not be forgiven for being your dad! this is a given#mikey i love you but draxum was a VILLAIN do not try to spin this sympathetically for him#i wish people would talk about splinter's trauma seriously more#maybe im overthinking it but they took this episode's emotional conclusion seriously so im going to as well. this is not a message you-#-should give to children. i think it's a harmful one actually.
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Can someone who is NOT a zionist tell me why Jewish people have so much conspiracy and hate? when did it start and why? how and why did it spread?
Preferably someone who is jewish or really knows what theyre talking about answer
#it might be silly to ask#but i see all these conspiracies like from every angle and its been going on for so long like#why!#how does it spread#like was it one guy who made another guy mad and you can pinpoint exactly when antisimetism conspiracies started#or is it bc religion?#or did it happen in 2 totally unconnected places? but how would it spread#im sorry im really high rn and i read that post#and like i know of the stuff said. not all tho i learned something new#but i realize i dont know why#like whats it mean that im ashkenazi dna on my moms side#maybe thats seperate convo idk#it really hittjn#hope it all make sense#oh shit i forgot to write tags#jewish#jewblr#jumblr#antisemitism#history#ashkenazi#question
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I'm g.gonna throw up why are they like this..
#ace attorney#pheonix wright#kristoph gavin#krisnix#←technically. but it doesnt have to be if u dont want it to be ajdhjsvd#ANYWAYS. THAT KRIS LINE /ALWAYS/ STOOD OUT TO ME BC IT FELT SO. OOC??#like at first i was like 'ok well maybe he is jusr a little silly like that' but still!!!#AND THEN I FIND OUT ITS A WRIGHTISM!!! AUGRHRHRGGRGRGRGRGR!!!!!!! NICK RUBBBED OFF ON HIM IM GONNA GO INSAAANE#worsties EVER oh my GOD#Kris would be soooo mad if he knew where he got this fromm#aj:aa
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the quietest week in tusla was the week Darry bundled all seven boys up in two cars n drove them all a million miles away to the nearest beach. On contrast, the most disruptive week in tusla was the week immediately followin.
#apparently its difficult to get up to mischief when u are all sharin the smallest cheapest rooms that will house SEVEN boys#came home sunburned n full of godawful ideas cooked up in the eight hour drive between tusla n any significant body of water#dallas is burned to a goddamn crisp#n SO fuckin mad#soda came home with this gorgeous tan that is servin to do nothin but piss dallas off more#johnnys got freckles hes never seen before in his life#ponys also burned#tomato twins#two bit fell asleep with somethin on his chest n has god awful tan lines#they all almost drowned#twice#theyre all already beggin to go back next year#darry is EXAUASTED#he needs a vacation from the vacation#he comes home n collapses face down on his bed starfish style n is out like a LIGHT#the truck broke down three times#all three times Steve got out to look n just sorta banged on shit until it started again#ponys watchin him just beatin on it goin i thought u were a mechanic#n steve kicks it real hard n its starts again n he goes well. its on now aint it.#the outsiders#ponyboy curtis#sodapop curtis#darry curtis#dallas winston#steve randle#johnny cade#two bit mathews#makin these instead of actual fics bc im so burnt out rn#but one day maybe#i can see this bein a multi chap thing
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A lil guy !
#honkai star rail#dan heng#genuinely have a million things i wanna draw and then zero energy#so dan heng in a hoodie#now i gotta go get dinner sooooo maybe that will give energy and then i can draw more of what i actually wanna draw#but i kinda spent like ... hours ? talking to my mom earlier today#since shes been in the hospital for many many days#so i was catching her up on whats been goin on and showed her silly lil videos#and telling her how hyped i was for summer hrid and she (very patient with my fe talk)#was like you always tell me about banners being bad so it must have made you REALLY happy to say the whole banner is good#and im like yeah and i had multiple people on multiple sites like hey salmon/moeblob did ya see the banner#and she was like thats so cool that people acknowledge who you like and im like yeah it is p cool#and then i told her how mad i was at the absolutely criminal act of limiting how you can watch clue (1985 hit movie)#like i told her yeah sure i own it twice on dvd and once on itunes and that the only way to watch those#are either desktop or ps2 and how i dont have access to my itunes email#and i dont have it on my laptop so i sadly would have to rebuy the movie on itunes under a new acct#then i said how i loved that it was free to watch with ads on yt and id watched it twice that way#but then recently wanted to watch it on there but laptop and hoo boy you have to buy or rent it now#so i v angrily was like fine whatever ill do the thing and leave my room and go watch it on my moms tv#while she isnt around and use her amazon prime where it should be included except ! IT WASNT!#YOU HAVE TO HAVE PRIME TO BUY OR RENT IT NOW TOO!#HOW ARE THEY DOING THIS AND WHY ! who in the world is watching this movie so much that isnt me that they have to charge for it now#on all platforms unless you straight up pirate it#and hey why would i of all people be needing to pirate a movie i own physically two times and digitally once#this is literally a personalized attack to me#and my mom was like i understand how you feel cause yeah thats really weird to do to a 1985 movie#and im like yes exactly i have morals and principles that make me opposed to this and its v maddening#and she said she understood and its ok next time we are having power issues and i have to shut down#that if i really wanna watch it i can rent it on her amazon account and i looked at her and shes like oh you feel v strongly about this#and i do! I HAVE HAD IT GIFTED TO ME TWICE ! I BOUGHT IT ONCE! WHY DO I HAVE TO RENT IT FOR MORE MONEY!
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