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Babe, are you okay? You’ve been listening to “You’re Losing Me” on repeat for two hours.
#just kidding he hasn’t asked if I’m okay since#uh. i don’t actually remember#might have been before the relevant taylor swift relationship even began#when WAS the last time he asked if i was okay#maybe even before our daughter was born? no…that can’t be right…#i ask him if he’s okay all the time#our other partner asks both of us if we’re okay… (triad)#i wouldn’t marry me either. well…actually…maybe i would? hm#maybe i would if i could support myself#i think…neither of them will ever marry me. even though my bf chose deliberately to have a kid with me#if my daughter didn’t need me i honestly might just die
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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it
#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL#AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP#yep that was meee :3#man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did#but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying#I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious#I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep#then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh#I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking#so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital#luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point#so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like#I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do#and I was scared it might make things worse#but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack#luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone#and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there#I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city#bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there#so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by#I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before#I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches#so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die#cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome#but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug#but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication#now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf#sleep.txt
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people who do STEM or administration as a career full time and continue to do art as a hobby, I am scared of you but like in a hot way. youre like if we were allowed to have cold drinks in winter. i look at you and think of miles morales with his two cakes. do you want to make out sometime
#i say all of this positively bc i just! i cant help admiring it!! even if its mundane or not a big deal to you i seriously cant wrap my head#around it.. this is in no way at all meant to be condescending or anything. whenever i look at someones bio and theyre like oh im working#as a lab assistant biologist pharmacist realtor etc im like woag.... thats insane.. and then i peep your art tag and it knocks my socks of#how?? what lives do you lead??? im so curious. i seriously want a peek inside your brains someday. or at least shadow you at work lol#i cant help but feel sad when someone says smth like well i have to support myself and art cant do that for me. or maybe you were#pushed into pursuing a 'safe' career bc i hear it a lot. all of my relatives have the same story working as nurses and OFWs for the family#i think for me its not about missed potential but rather its being sad about making a decision to put your happiness aside to get by#ive tried so hard to do it but it didnt work out. i guess watching you guys do it is fascinating to me#or maybe youve made peace with your decision or actually like what you pursued but im still amazed!! it makes me wonder what made#you pick one over the other in that case.. is it like putting time for two different things the way you would for a schedule?? hmmm#im doing graphic design so i dont really interact with ppl in other faculties even humanities like sociology or childcare... so i cant help#wondering what it must be like as someone whos pursuing visual communication both as an interest and career#i seriously wish i could do smth like a desk job or even admin and maybe ill try that if this doesnt work. or i could look into trades#but dyscalculia already makes it hard to do things like cash and mental math so i get overwhelmed if i think about this too hard#yapping
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alright!!!! kitchen CLEANED ‼️ carry on PACKED ‼️ now i just need to do my homework and then maybe take a really really really quick (4 hour long) nap before dinner/online class. then i will grind on the silly silly why did i decide to do this animation meme/animatic until 3 am hits and i've gotta hit the port. the AIRport :3
in exchange for my incredible unprecedented productiveness i made this little doodle just now. i'm actually a liar i did this in school but still
#honestly killer could be doing fuck knows and i wouldn't even know. still love him though#at this point???? at this point i dont even keep up with his characterization i will not lie#horror and dust are my favorite children im sorry killer. you'll get your time to shine when the seasons change#which is probably soon idk man whatever i love them all ewually :333#anyways killer's just not sleeping in that one. bro's had the longest streak of no sleep he aint breaking it now#erm ACTUALLY he's looking at the viewer and therefore breaking the fourth wall and thats soooooo cool#triglycercule what are you on#why are they all sleeping in the same bed#well obviously because they didn't wanna deal with multiple#but also they cannot be bothered to cuddle close together#dust kicks too much. horror steals too much space. killer sometimes just sits up for several periods of time#worlds craziest sleep#killer actually could be sleeping in that one but i just dont know#but triglycercule didnt you draw this and therefore should know what he's doing?????#idk man killer's an enigma i cant control him 💀💀💀 he does his own shit whatever#i lov making killer so crazily abnormal its so silly#who cares about canon (i do) ok well still im having FUN doodling#shut up and get back to rereading askdusttale and horrortale and something new#alright........ (pitifully limps away)#i tag some things rants when its actually art but i just dont want my art tsg 2 be littered with doodles#maybe thats bad. maybe i should start tagging properly#ok rant tag removed........ iGUESS this is art#euaghhhhhh but its just a DOODLS!!!! IT DOESNT DESERVE TO BE CONSIDERED GOOD ART WORTHY OF THE TAG#but triglycercule art is art no matter if doodle or not. stop belittling yourself for naught!#i hate when i get inspirational and supportive on myself man can i just suffer without some knowitall up my ass#i sound insane rn what am i doing. the bit is not funny#and i changed my mind this is a rant again not art#tricule rant#see it WOULD be both if i wanted to do dual tags. but i dont
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man the bear SS3 EP6
#the thing that it’s almost impossible for older people to find new jobs#that corporates would just kick you out at any moment#the age limit on most job requirements makes my blood boil like the wdym you don’t hire people over 35. do people die at 40 or what#Tina job hunting and getting rejected over & over breaks my heart like#I know people over 40 getting fired during covid and they were being thrown into the void#bc every place just wants passionate young people with lower salary base#and the fact that some people just. don't have dreams#mikey stays in a family restaurant and tina works routine jobs#neither has that kind of fire or passion in what they do. they simply want to feed their family and be with people they love#I like the way that it’s not depicted in such a negative light as it usually does in media#It’s not positive either. it’s just neutral. natural.#maybe having big dreams is just not for everyone and that’s okay. It doesn’t mean you're soulless zombie#but the way mikey talks about carmy is exactly the same way I thought about many people I know#I get it. part of me would do anything if it could support myself and loved ones#but man at the same time I’m jealous as hell and would give anything to be one of those people#who know exactly what they want with dreams to chase after#that’s the dream. the dream is to have dreams.#delete later
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i haven't played minecraft in years, but with the armadillo winning the vote, i think about how wolves don't really have much going on in terms of their utility. like anytime i tame a wolf, i end up just kinda keeping them sitting at home.
i think if mojang really does feel like wolves are deserving of armour, with the addition of armadillos, they really need to update wolves to be more useful as companion mobs, because personally... i never feel the urge to bring a wolf with me when im going out to do things, especially if it involves combat.
like, what do dogs do best? fetching stuff and digging, right? like i wish that i could just mill about with a wolf and they track a scent or something and start digging into the dirt and then proceed to bring you that item. like it could range from rarely digging up iron nuggets to digging up vegetables or whatever, yknow. combine the fetching stuff with combat and you wouldn't have to manually pick up stray arrows or items from mobs your wolf kills.
the only other thing i wish you could do with wolves is automate their health in some way, like give more utility to the bowl item so you can place it down for them to eat from so you don't have to constantly manage their health by looking at their tail. just minor quality of life stuff i guess.
idk, that's just my thoughts. i do like wolves in minecraft, they just feel rather lacking with the way some new mobs have so much going on, like the sniffer and allay and so on.
#id like to play minecraft at some point but sadly i dont think my current computer can run it due to not supporting opengl#but yeah. i usually keep this stuff to tags but i figured my thought process wouldve ended up with more than 30 tags#so thusly just. lone post of my thoughts.#but back on subject. i kinda think about how you could automate like... mob farms with wolves. but i run into dead ends#like how do you specify which mobs to have your wolf ignore. and how do you target them in the first place without attacking them#like. maybe the scope? like you zoom in on the mob you want attacked. idk. thats a tough one to figure out.#cause like it has to be something that can be easily executed. and easily managed.#like im imagining going to a pig pen and letting a wolf in to go kill and then bring back the items#but like you dont want the wolf to kill all of them... and yeah ik theres more efficient ways to farm mobs#i guess i just want it to be a bit more player involved. add some fun to it.#i like going around and doing things. automation is kinda less of my thing in most cases#especially with the complexity of some things right. like having a simple easy option would just be nice to have i guesz#its just all about how you go about executing it in gameplay#anyway thats all my damn brain power#minecraft#tagging that for myself for if i gotta find it later
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Also bonus doodle just for u Melon ;3
(Melons edit, not part of og submission: I ran out of room in tags, BUT ty ty ty ty I loved this sm 💕💕💕💘💘💘)
#if Dream had honkers Cross and Epic would definitely-#censored#beep beep beeeep beep#I think I think you know#Nightmare will get back pain#don't worry he has the MTT(mettaton)#or they're just useless and he needs someone else#Epic could definitely be the one/j#don't worry the MTT(mettaton) is irreplaceable#maybe#...?#...#so anyways-#hehe cookies in cream#Nightmare Dream was just trying to be supportive#...is complimenting honkers even considered supportive#Nightmares honkers were so big even Dream noticed#actually I should stop myself before I start ranting#who would wanna read about Nightmares honkers being big anyways...#submitted#NOT melons art#sunnymainecoon#JAGSJAHJAAUAYHHH SUNNY. I WAS JUST THINKING OF SOMETHING SIMILAR TO THIS OMFG#dw the mtt will help support nightmare so he doesn't get back pain#cross and epic : so.... dream.... can you ALSO suddenly get a huge chest...? 👀#frozen!nightmare#frozen!au#dreamtale frozen au#frozen!dream#frozen au
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Yesterday I've been doing some proper physical exercise for the first time since last year and I'm just imagining how proud my f/os would be of me🥹
#it was just a 20 minute beginners home workout and I can feel every muscle in my body now but I think they'd be so happy I pushed through!#I've had particularly Heinz and Maximilian on my mind I think they would be sooo happy that I'm trying to take better care of myself💖#Heinz because he's always there anyway of course but I kind of imagine Max is probably overall the fittest out of my f/os#he seems like the kind of guy who'd want to be an example for his soldiers and always hold himself to the same standards as them#he'd be so supportive and cheer me on and be proud of me every time I get myself to do something😭💖💖#I've never particularly enjoyed doing sports (aside horse riding but in the past year I didn't have time anymore for that bc of uni😭😭)#so I didn't really do anything anymore after I finished school#I started doing simple home workouts last year but in winter my mental health went a little📉 and then I had no motivation to keep going#dunno how long I'll go through with it this time but better than nothing I guess#again with the home workouts lmao bc driving to the nearest gym ain't worth the time for me and I'd need some basic fitness first anyway#I'm doing it mainly for health reasons but this time I'm also motivated to actually get a bit stronger#I don't mind looking like a stick figure and I'm overall content with my body (maybe it could help me to look a bit more masc tho?👀👀)#but I know especially for my posture and such it would be good if my muscles were just a tad bit more developed#my mum was proud of me too when I told her about it hehe :) she works in healthcare she's always a little concerned#she's just a little worried about me getting health issues when I'm older that could be avoided by taking proper care of my body now#I get where she's coming from but it's not easy but at least I'm motivated to try again now :)#selnia talks
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I have Got to get more transgender
#100% секретный дневник левы НЕ ЧИТАЙ#transmasc#trans ftm#transgender#i like 2 say i'm very trans already but unforch i am Not Really. mostly boring ftm Guy Ever#so tempted to cut my hair again but my sense of what i look like is already so fuzzy i dont think it'd help..#want to dye my hair anyways. at this point i'd take whatever color i can get if not purple LOL#it's almost everything i could want and yet ... still me. still the same life. stuck.#soooo high functioning like you wouldnt believe EXCEPT istg i need an emotional support human who will guide me through tasks#such as 'pay with your Moneys Card at the Store'#or... idk that's it really. maybe go grocery shopping without feeling like i'm not meant to be there also#or like. exist in general maybe#reasons why not emotional support Animal: creature cannot understand capitalism. and also is not as necessary as a service dog specifically#idk! every time i come on here i fall apart (in text) and then pull myself back together for another day of ... this i guess.#i'm not even having like crying breakdowns or anything to go along with it i'm just held inside this shell of a body. typing away again#i'm soso tempted to make things worse. progress wouldn't matter anymore... at least maybe it would feel real that i'm like this#i wish my face fit on my body right. and also that i did not look quite so much like a vaguely gnc lesbian#like at LEAST let me look butch as hell but no. curse of sad hair & uncertainty#miss my little mullety thing from that brief period in october... miss my short hair from back in 2017 ...#just dont feel satisfied with what i am now. in general.#top surgery is literally Within my reach but i'm not sure about cost and i need to wait because of doing guard now......#my list of do i want t i kept for the past month turned out to be a bunch of maybes#partially cause i got sick. partially cause it stopped being shark week and i forgot about it#as always happens...#still unsure in my new(er) name. only heard it once#didn't feel the same way as with my old one? but idk. just don't know.#missing guard also but feeling conflicted about not having time for other hobbies...#since winter season is over i've had so much time to play guitar! that's insane! mostly cause i stopped playing for unrelated reasons...#just tired again. wonder if i need more sleep than what i always get. kind of restless.#there's nothing else to say i guess. just wish i could be a person the way everyone else seems to be.
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a good cry always does wonders
#sorry for the vent ! feel free to scroll past !#had a nice conversation w my bf today#let out a good cry#and idt ive ever loved him more#was anxious about sharing lots of things w him bc i didn't really know how he'd react#or was afraid of disappointing him or smth but#he could already tell#i never used to fully grasp what it meant or felt like when ppl would say: someone who knows u better than u know urself#but today he rlly showed me just that#he's been hinting smth at me for the past few months that he thinks maybe this one thing i'm trying out isn't really for me#bec i guess he could really see that i was just trying to force it#and when i was sharing how i felt today and couldn't really voice it out#he tried to help me w it and asked if i was feeling x way and y way#and it was exactly that :( he said it was cos he's been noticing it from me for a while#and he was so sweet with the way he responded too#all love and support and not in any way disappointed at all#and idk i just feel like wow. isn't that such a special thing? to have someone know and respect u like this#i appreciate how he didn't push/pry at me the months before (bc he knows i don't really like being prodded unless i share it myself)#(i like to keep things to myself for a while to give myself the chance to handle it before involving others)#and idk i'm feeling a different type of soft today#and like a huge weight was lifted off me#lovebug#i talked so much again
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absurd how in my adult life i've gone from "cannot leave the house without a full beat, elaborate eyeshadow, winged liner, curled hair, cannot risk my true form being perceived" to "i know if i washed my hair this week I'd feel less like a piece of shit, but i can't be assed to do it so the people at the grocery store are just going to have to fucking deal", and at both points in time, i was in the depths of a depression hole, had back pain, no job, and a horrible fixation on a specific video game
but hey, things are looking up!
this time i also have tinnitus, am 8 years older, and look like shit! :D
#squirrel speaks#maybe if i make the whole cast of bg3 as amigurumi dolls i'll feel better#maybe i'll finish this iona i've started (she's already looking adorable) and then make a shadowheart#her hair should be an awful lot of fun to make; esp early game#i do have a bunch of fine chains laying around from pulling apart old thrifted costume jewelry too; i could make her headpiece#the only ones i don't think i'd be able to make are karlach and wyll because their horns would need some sort of support#like some armature in their heads with air-dry clay on top of a tinfoil form? which... doesn't make for a huggable plush#but i could make a human wyll; i think i have yarn that's fairly close to his skintone#and i could just add his scars with embroidery floss; maybe paint a safety eye to look like his stone eye..........#or just use the same technique i use for elf ears to make karlach's horns and make them soft and bendable instead#can you tell i'm trying to distract myself from feeling like a sack of crap
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so my friend and i are currently chatting about how i just discovered me referring to weed as "pot" makes me sound like a suburban mom even tho i didn't realize it was an "old-timey" term (??? it sounds just as normal as "weed" to me???)
and i just realized the reason i say pot is specifically because 1. watching kids in the hall (and other things from that era) and 2. talking about pot with the kids in the hall (the ones i know irl still use that word)
so for everyone's information i do NOT sound like a suburban mom for saying "pot" i sound like an old canadian gay man!!!!
but anyway that conversation moved on to talking about weed and the kids in the hall and now i must bring a poll to tumblr
(even if you have smoked before this is about placing yourself in the hypothetical situation i'd be in bc i've never been stoned before and my friend and i were joking about how my first time getting high would be with one of the kids in the hall lmao)
also in your opinion is saying "pot" weird???? literally so confusing to me like damn i guess all my interactions with weed are through the lens of 1. media from the 90s or 2. people who were young adults in the 90s
#as someone who honestly could have my first time smoking weed be with one of these poll options here's my personal take#just on the 3 i know irl bc i have no idea how the others would be#i think scott could be fun if i had a good reaction. but bc there's a chance i wouldn't#my take is that scott would be a person i'd smoke with after i'd done it a few times. bc otherwise he might stress me out#(or i'd stress myself out bc holy shit it's scott thompson)#bruce could be fun but i feel like he'd get very dad energy about it. which like maybe that's the vibe you want#but personally i think bruce would be so supportive it would circle back around to stressing me out somehow lmao#paul bellini tho? he has the ultimate chill stoner uncle vibes. he would be very fun to get high with but also if i had a bad reaction#i know he'd understand and like be able to deal with that without making it into a whole thing. like he's just the genuinely cool uncle#deadass i don't have much of an interest in weed but like thinking about my social circle it would almost definitely be paul#even realistically taking into account my non-kith friends and people my own age i'm like no it had to be bellini lmao#i should let paul know i've cast him in this role#anyway let me know your thoughts especially if you'd choose one of the other three#and let me know if i sound like a suburban mom or an old fag (affectionate)
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i wish my mum would ever take my word before anyone elses
#“you're not struggling you always got good grades!”#“you must be misremembering it”#and then we look at the grades and my lowest was a 1 cause you cant get a 0#i'd just barely scraped by in everything or failed#maybe a couple 8's in specific subjects at most#who's misremembering it now?#“i dont want to put you on adhd meds because they could cause depression”#ive BEEN depressed with 0 support#at least this time we could be ready#man idk im just sad ig#i wish she would believe me ever#“oh miss ****** said” what about me? what about what /i/ have to say?#do i not know myself better that someone who taught me the subject im best at for 1 year#who i never ever talked to about anything personal?#how would she know?#but no#of course everyone else knows best#alex says shit#vent
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Contemplating the concept of "potential" when it comes to intelligence and realizing how heartbreaking Logan's "Dreams come true, that's news to me" line in the Crofters Musical.
#screaming into the void#definitely not okay today lads#i'm finding myself grieving my intelligence and contemplating if it was ever there to begin with#when i was younger i excelled in science so everyone assumed that i was a gifted kid despite my very obvious struggles in math and spelling#i was told over and over if i could just apply myself to other subjects the way i did with science#then i would do better in those subjects and reach my full potential#my identity was hung on my intelligence for me by the adults in my life none of them even considering a learning disability#now as an adult it all feels meaningless#especially having been forced into going to college where it was made very quickly and abundantly clear that I wasn't actually gifted#i was just average#that was absolutely devastating to me and it's a thing i struggle with and i want to be angry about it but i dont know how to be#i was told over and over in childhood that i could be anything when i grew up that i could do anything if i just put my mind to it#then recieved little to no actual educational support for any of it especially when i discovered writing#and i dont know if i was never as smart as i was told i was or never even had the potential i was told i had#or if i just didnt have enough support#i dont believe in myself anymore and i dont think i was ever actually believed in by the adults in my life either#i think they would have supported me better if they had#or maybe they just didnt know how to#my dad has wondered and questioned me about where my drive ans passion went and i dont have the heart to tell him that#it evaporated when he told me i wouldn't be successful as a writer when he told me that i would only be successful by going to college#when he constantly questioned everything i did and made me doubt myself over and over again#i dont know how to combat this feeling of worthlessness that comes from feeling lied to about my intelligence as a kid#i dont know how to comfort myself in the face of realizing i probably didnt have all then potential i was promised i had#and even if i did at one point have it i lacked the support necessary to nuture and grow it#how does one grieve being promised the world only to find out that was never truly an option?#how does one become comfortable with learning and growing again when it's been made to feel unsafe#and a threat to their frail sense of identity?#how does one find peace and contentment in an ordinary life when they were promised so much more?#not just promised so much more but expected to be so much more and now feel the weight of expectation on them?#i feel like i was promised the world and told that it would be easy to conquer and when it wasnt it was due to my own fault and failings
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I don't know WHY, but till the end of the episode i totally believed we would see the Gullet (and Jace) go down in the Finale. Even just seeing an arrow fly through the Sky during the battle, a fade to black after seeing Jaces Face, foreshadowing of what WILL happen at the start of S3 would have been enough for me. I thought it would start and end with the death of a Son😭
#Instead we got horrible Dialogue#i dont wanna call it “fanfic”like bc i read GODLIKE fanfics#but wtf did they do with alicent#i loved the rhaencient dynamic as in “there was love. maybe there is.but there is no going back ans we both fight for our rights”#WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHE WOULD SELL AEGON TO NYRA#HUH#and why would helaena hate riding -#also sunfyre is confirmed dead huh ;)#same as me#Hotd#hotd spoilers#hotd finale#i couldnt help myself but cringe at some parts#“a son for a son” Jaehaerys would like to know your location#not like anyone would remember the beheading of a fuckin child huh#i loved the changes the made in season 1 i could support them#but what happend *gestures vaguely* here
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writing sanji/nami canon divergence where luffy doesn't assemble the crew until they're at their timeskip ages and nami got her money stolen by arlong multiple times and reiju never helped sanji escape from germa so he's still there at 19, reiju just helped his cells become more accommodating and shit.
and nami, who's taken to trying to get all 100 million berri in one go so arlong can't take it from her, is trying to steal from monarchs/warlords that no one will be upset by (because maritime warlords are basically the same as pirates, right?? right????) is planning on stealing from germa and infiltrates the fleet via the prisons, meets sanji, and hahaha no she definitely doesn't relate to feeling trapped because of circumstances outside of her control and odds that will never be in her favor at all
and then she ends up befriending sanji on various thieving trips, and when judge tries to set a trap for her using sanji, she takes him as a hostage, not realizing that judge won't give a fuck and won't give her any money even if she did return his son
so now sanji and nami are sailing and she tries to find an island to dump him on with a little of her private stash, but before she does, he cooks her a meal and holy fuck okay nevermind she's keeping him
and sanji, who has never heard of the baratie, uses nami's ship as the basis for a traveling food-truck-style business where he distracts people by cooking them the best food they've had in their life while nami robs all the island's nobility blind. and eventually, they fall for each other.
(listen. we've all seen how sanji is when he's calm around women and i think, without zeff, while he would really value treating women well because of his mom and reiju, i highly doubt it would manifest with the same desperation and spectacle that it does in canon)
nami is trying to ignore the fact that her progress towards her goal has slowed down noticeably, even with their partner act, all because she can't get her fucking priorities straight. after mutual pining with an added layer of "oh god this isn't safe i can't afford to feel like this what the fuck do i do i'm getting attached" sanji tries to confess.
nami tells him to get the hell off her ship. he does so, but not before giving her the key to a trunk of his in his room; inside is the profits from his side of the business. he's been saving it to try and combine with her own efforts so she can buy back cocoyashi.
after she discovers it, she runs back on deck to try and find sanji, but he's already left in her boat's dinghy. hence she's trying to chase him from island to island so they can makeup and he can come with her to free cocoyashi, but sanji has made a beeline for the baratie and demanded a job there, since he's more than qualified due to...basically running a miniature version of the baratie all on his own. zeff's found it funny that there's basically a mini-him running around the east blue doing the same damn thing he's been doing, and lets him join up as a line cook.
while nami's been looking for sanji, she meets luffy and zoro, who have joined forces like in canon. she agrees to let them use her ship until they find sanji--after that, they'll part ways. freeing cocoyashi has always been her dream and her dream alone. sanji's the only other person she really feels comfortable letting see it.
this plan lasts all of 1 island before they go to the baratie, nami and sanji make up, and luffy meets sanji and now LUFFY wants to keep SANJI
and sanji's like "well, i'm afraid i'm already spoken for as the cook on someone else's ship. if she'll have me?"
and nami is like "oh my god you stupid bastard i'm going to fucking kill you you can't just say shit like that. also i didn't clear out your room yet so i guess there's space, that's the only reason i'm letting you back onboard."
and luffy's like "that's not true! nami's been going to islands trying to find you. that's why we teamed up!"
and zoro's like. "yeah, it was mushy. don't care for it but the witch doesn't get to lie about it and play cool"
nami promptly punches them both and somehow in the chaos of sanji quitting the baratie after only being there for two weeks, nami and sanji don't notice their stowaway (luffy) and then zoro tries to fight mihawk and it's not like nami can just leave him there to bleed out, maybe nojiko can help patch him up or something after she hands arlong the cash.
the rest of the arlong arc ends up similar to canon with some allowances for the changes in nami and sanji's relationship--while i'd love for sanji to kick arlong's ass, i genuinely luffy needs that moment to solidify his and nami's relationship. however, i do think sanji is there when nami delivers the cash to arlong, who tries to spin it like nami had to earn all of it herself and if it was a collaborative effort, then the funds collected are rendered moot. sanji holds off arlong long enough for luffy and zoro to arrive from town with usopp in tow, managing to destroy nami's map room before bringing the fight back to the terrace and passing it off to luffy and engaging with arlong's henchmen back-to-back with nami instead.
anyway, in the aftermath of the arlong arc, sanji and nami both decide to join up with the strawhats, and canon moves on from there.
#anyways making myself wretched about straight people for a change who am i /j#(nami very much gives bi and...maybe greyace to me? and sanji gives bi?)#and normally i ship them with completely different people because of uh. (sweats in canon)#and then i was like 'well in what universe would i be invested in sanji and nami? what would make this compelling to me?'#and the thing is#both of these characters are self-sacrificial as all hell and givers#despite their best efforts to seem otherwise in nami's case#and i think sanji's quiet caring we've seen him do occasionally with vivi and conis (he gets loud too don't get me wrong but ykwim)#would actually do wonders for nami if it wasn't doused in misogyny and chivalry#considering nami's main arc at the start of the show is learning how to ask for and accept help when she can't handle things on her own#if sanji could respect and support her independence without putting her on a pedestal they would be genuinely fantastic together#(which i know is like...captain obvious analysis)#but still!#one piece#oli oscillates#sanjinami#apologies for the ramble this silly idea would just not leave me a lone and trying to write the initial confession from sanji#WHEN I KNOW IT DOESN'T GO WELL#IS MURDERING ME
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