#loving me despite my changes

[intherainbowfactory]

Most recent writing (thing-ish):

Pile 1: For Your Eyes Only

(This is a pile for things that I'm not averse to people seeing.)

A Day Off With Fluttershy [file under MLP, fluff]: | 1 | 2 |

I, Spy (ao3 link)

Starry Knight [file under MLP, semi-graphic depiction of violence, death... isekai. lol]: Death

CAR [file under MLP, nosleep]

Soldier TF2 and Medic TF2 in... Roughing It! [file under TF2, dnadispenser contest, implied death]: The First Part

School Projects [file under wild_card]: A Poison Tree

Minty Python's House of Horsefeathers (fimfiction link)

Pony Rituals [file under MLP, uhhhh idk fluff?]: The Whole Dang Doc

Rainbow Factory (same as below): Showing Off

Miscellaneous: Winter's Stare

Pile 2: Destroy Before Reading

(These are only here for posterity and archive purposes and so I can keep track of them. Highly recommend you do not read.)

Prototype [file under MLP, death, injury, dessication, body horror, etc.]: What Did I, How To Learn, After The Talk, The End For Him At Least, How To Learn & How To Know

Rainbow Factory [file under MLP, Rainbow Factory]: Exposé, Experimentation, Introductions, What are you..., Some kind of uh...

The Amazing Hero's Journey of Vinyl Scratch [file under MLP, bad idea and bad execution that doesn't even fit the original bad idea I had]: The Calm

Something Something Bon Bon = Changeling [file under MLP]: Doing Something Nice For Lyra, Sweet Dreams, Sweetie Drop, Fear is Power, Ponies are Cute!, They would know / Now they'll all know

Miscellaneous [file under haha yeah the contents of these posts are not indicative of the author's mental state. also, they're not well written (c'est la vie), cringe]: I'm sorry They won't Live to See - the Promise of Eternity, Some more lies I want to get out of me

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Turtle Takedown Teamwork.

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[kagoutiss]

din’s champion

[ganondoodle]

you know im unable to shut up when i have any opinion on zelda (though i try and have thus far succeeded at not commenting on any other concept from the darn book)- i find most totk ganondorf concept art worse than what we got to insulting even (of those i have seen) ..... this one though

much more the one in the background than the one up front, still at least he has the collar and the weapon we saw in the first trailer of things that never happen in the end (like so much else)

[deoidesign]

Thinking about vampires, death, life, and the space they occupy in between

[beatriceportinari]

The manticore, origami, one square sheet of paper

[jellinuy]

toji with prompt 5 pretty please

( deadbeat dad /j. )

౨ৎ incl. toji fushiguro.

౨ৎ a/n. i KNOW what my bio says but i'm multifaceted. literally so in love with this deadbeat and i hope it shows.

The second time Toji ever felt love was when he looked into Tsumiki’s big, brown eyes for the first time.

Then the third came with a small head of black hair and the name he’d chosen long before he'd known whether his kid would be a boy or a girl: Megumi.

From then on, life was a journey for him.

Growing up, Tsumiki was much calmer than Megumi, who would fuss and cry at every little thing. His papa wouldn't read to him long enough? He'd bawl his eyes out. He couldn't reach the fridge handle because his legs were too stubby? Waterworks. His toy was missing after he'd been the one to misplace it? He'd throw a fit.

Toji would honestly curse himself for even thinking he could fall asleep for more than 20 minutes before his son would toddle into the room, promptly disturbing his dad's nap by pouncing onto his stomach or latching onto his arm.

You, however, found it pretty funny.

"Shit's not anythin' to giggle about," Toji would grumble at you, his beauty sleep interrupted as you laughed, glaring at Megumi as he clambered onto his father's chest, bouncing his bottom up and down and beating on him with his tiny fists.

There have been multiple instances where Megumi's been in a good mood, though. You'll never forget the pictures you took of him napping, holding his big sister's hand in his smaller one as they both rested on top of Toji's large chest, his hands cradling both their heads while he snored.

Toji is so bad at not cursing in front of his kids. It's a horrible habit, but he can't seem to grasp the fact that 4-year-olds aren't supposed to be saying the same unsavory words that roll off his tongue so easily.

"Fuck!" he'd let it slip a few times when he accidentally hurt himself, and in typical kid fashion, they were always around to hear something they shouldn't.

"Fuk?" The fact that Megumi was the very picture of innocence while such a filthy word came tumbling out of his mouth (and paired with a smile!) rattled his father.

"What's 'fuck'?" Tsumiki asked, barely much older than her brother. Toji could only pray you didn't hear that.

"Wh— not so loud! Don't repeat that shi— that stuff. Yer gonna get me in trouble with Mama."

(you indeed did hear and he got his ass beat later)

Calls Megumi and Tsumiki 'rugrats.'

He didn't realize just how little time he'd have for romance with his kids around. Every single time Toji leans in to press his lips on his yours, no matter where you two may be, they come running from around the corner (apparently, they'd been watching for a while), darting between your legs and making fake retching noises as they giggle at the scowl on their dad's face.

Toji's the kind of dad to lose one kid in the store, turn around to ask the other kid where their sibling went, only to find them both gone LMFAO.

Stiffens up when he hears an "I love you," or even when he receives a hug from either one of his children. Hugs take some coaxing from you, but he doesn't dislike them (he'd never admit it, what with his tough guy persona, but Toji's kids make him so soft inside.)

[vesper-the-great]

I wanted to experiment with my coloring (I need to get more adventurous in that regard), so I just drew Akechi

Yup

He’s just there

Close up of his face + two silly expressions

[pnfc]

i haint watched the dang chibisode and idk if ill actually watch it with sound on sdfjk but i have a hurt feeling about them casually imbuing perry with speech for a one off gag because the idea that he needs to talk to communicate is fake. we had 4 seasons of wacky magic hijinks cartoon where perry never needed verbal speech to communicate. they couldve done this gag at any point in the show but they didn't, and the fact that they didn't felt significant. perry's muteness is such a core part of his character, to me, to the way i conceive of him/write him. i don't wanna overreact to a goofy little side cartoon (even tho i'm doing it anyway) but it's still the characters, and it still upsets me! ok that's it i've said my piece

[intherainbowfactory]

Bon Bon is a Changeling! chapter (3.?)

Finally, after many minutes of slinking through the shadows and the alleyways of Ponyville with an antenna keeping a listen out for trouble, I reached our house. Home sweet home. 

Huh. Bon Bon’s in the window. That means the lights are off. At least her mane looks its usual bobby bubbly best now that I fixed it…

I carelessly unlock the door to the little hovel I share with Lyra, though I’m the one who mainly pays the rent. Not that I don’t mind paying for the house, since, well, I do feed on her, and all. 

Aaaand that brings me back to what happened earlier. I’ve been running the events through my head for the whole rest of the night after I’d clocked out, and I still don’t get it. My hoof pauses at the doorknob. 

Really, how did I get from the Changeling hive to Sugarcube Corner during my shift? Wait… I was in my shift already when I was taken there suddenly and then back just as suddenly for no reason but I kept my disguise between the supposed teleports and— Gah! Brain fry!

I’m just getting worked up over it unnecessarily. Maybe if I relax and think it over I’ll be able to process it better. Maybe just a little lie down on the couch?

No, I gotta wait a bit before going in, so I can digest my negative emotions easier. Mustn’t touch any of Lyra’s love and spoil its delicate fluffy balance with all my slimy bad feels! And knowing how she keeps the place, there’s gotta be love all over the place.

(Seriously, she just leaves love lying around everywhere she walks! It’s like food that grows out of the ground! Agghhh, Lyra’s so cute, she’s giving me a heart attack! Lyra, Lyra, Lyra!) 

(No, damnit, get over your hunger! We have to go over our feelings!)

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Oh no! Not now! I immediately burst through the door to my room and ran to my special magic changeling stash under the floorboards, right in front of the mirror. The love had dissipated from the room, leaving just the cold. Rummaging blindly through a knapsack in the dim lighting, my hooves failed to find what I needed.

Please please please, I need the potion! I need it, I need it, now, now, NOW!

I found it, the little vial that was who I am, the potion that would stop my transformation into a vile freak! My salvation from the me that the changeling hive had denied…

But it was too late. My shedding had begun, and with it, a period of vulnerability as my disguise would smolder in a pink fire and eventually burn away, leaving me utterly unable to be myself. That means no Bon Bon for me to turn to, and no friends of Bon Bon, either.

And no Lyra.

Fear flooded my nerves, my head pounding as my brain tunneled through itself to escape like a crazed animal. Hunger from the tantalizing false promise of love gnawed at my rapidly deteriorating abdomen like a timberwolf tearing the flesh of a drone as the flames burst around my disguise, my negative emotions their fuel. I—I could only break down, my legs buckling as I started sobbing, gasping for breath between desperate howls.

I got a good look at myself in the mirror.

[paperstarry]

Excuse the light but look who finally got her hands on one of @mayakern 's stunning hand shirts!!!

I'm so happy it arrived safely AND that it fits perfectly 🥰

[salthien]

and tattoo #2, on the inside front of my bicep (photo angle was awkward). i. yknow. part of me feels like i have to justify myself here, explain my reasoning, but i don't think i do, actually.

[oneluckydragon]

So I decided to spin the wheel by @onefey since I saw so many mutuals getting really cute PMD Teams.

Meet hero Lucky (Girafarig) and partner Biggs (Wimpod). Never in my life have I considered a Girafarig as my potential PMD-sona but here we are despite it all. Even though I was skeptical at first I am now in permanent love.

Gotta think of an Exploration Team name now... hm.

[amid-fandoms]

i feel like the people who are back in the phandom right now, no matter when they first joined, are the ones that will stick to dan and phil for life. there is something so comforting in coming back to a safe space like that, one that kept you going in previous years or saved you from yourself on many occasions, and somehow doubling down on it a second time, with their little 'we came back for you guys!' in reply to us coping once again because of them, is wonderful. it's not quite therapy and it's not quite a family, but it's close and it's a community that is literally driven primarily by love. everything else comes second

[whenthegoldrays]

Yu Ji-hyuk: Well, Jiwon was murdered in the first timeline, but now that she’s back and armed with knowledge and has my help, she can definitely avoid her fate. I have zero doubt of that.

Yu Ji-hyuk: But I am a lost cause who can’t escape the fate of dying in the future in *checks notes* a completely avoidable car accident. She’s better off with someone who’ll be alive in 10 years.

Meanwhile, Ryu Sun Jae: I’m going to die in 15 years? Protecting Sol? And it’s already happened in three different timelines?? It’s my HONOR. Also I just found out that Sol likes me back and that I have a whole 15 years to love her :D

[lena-cant]

I started replaying fire emblem: path of radiance earlier this week after recently really only playing modern (awakening onward) FE for the past 5 years and it's really hitting home for me how much of modern fe's script is taken up by useless minutiae. camp conversations in por are the thing really hitting it for me. In more recent fe games, there's a lot of little bits of dialogue in the between-level hub but it rarely ever adds to our understanding of a character or interact with the story. It's just there because the characters are in the hub and therefore they need a sentence or two to say to the protag.

meanwhile path of radiance has these wonderful little conversations in the camp. they're not all like, peak fiction or anything but they almost always deliver on short nuggets of story that let you know how specific characters are reacting to what's going on in the story, or otherwise just something about them. I can count on my hands the amount of moments in three houses and engage where characters outside of the "main cast" of those games actually react to story events but they're doing it left and right in path of radiance.

this, along with the fact that most characters only have 3-5 supports means that the characters all feel sharper, more present, and like they're a part of the story. I'm not gonna pretend that every character in por is a masterful study or anything but even the weak characters in por feel less annoying than some of the strongest characters in three houses or engage because they're just inserted into the world more elegantly.

so much of the dialogue in the newer games just feels superfluous by comparison. xander doesn't have checks notes 12 romantic supports because the devs/writers felt that he as a character needed that much fleshing out. he has them because they needed him to have that many girls to kiss for the eugenics mechanics to work! part of the reason why characters in the newer games feel significantly more one note in comparison is that they're stretched thin. there's so much pointless shit they have to say, decided by quota before the writers even got their hands on the characters and it all builds up into a weaker end product

anyway this has been one elitist whinging about the new games that I like less