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mindfulstudyquest · 10 months ago

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the day i get rid of my crazy fear of failure and my procrastination, it will be over for you all.

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stargirl230 · 2 months ago

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moonlighting 🌚✨

i’m so rusty from not drawing for a whole semester (sobs) but its ok now because kaito's here

(no reposts; reblogs appreciated!)

#my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #fanart #kaitou kid #magic kaito #kaito kuroba #dcmk #u may be thinking: star didn't u draw this but slightly to the left like a few months ago #yes BUT its not my fault he looks so good in blue #and u know he's always plotting something #lol i had this sitting in my wips folder for months and final exams is what motivated me to finally finish it #took my last one this morning so now im freeee #for four weeks #enough time to finish some zine stuff and draw arcane!#timebomb has me in a chokehold. wdym theyre best enemies.#WDYM NOW I NEED TO LEARN FRENCH #also guys...i literally had a dream where i was working on this painting #and then i woke up to another week of academic hell with 0 (zero) time for drawing #withdrawal symptoms...#thinking abt all the drawings i could've made but didn't have time for is actually heartbreaking

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fanfic-gremlin-ft-trauma · 9 months ago

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If you have any zukka doodles you haven't posted, can we see them?

hiiii omg sorry for taking six business years to answer but here you go!!!

#atla #zukka #zuko x sokka #zukka fanart #atla fanart #my asks #wooooahhhhh these are a throwback #I drew these like middle to late 2023 #the first one was in august 2023… these boys have been in my brain for nearly a year. wtf #anywayyyyy hope you like eat well (also. exams are literally in 2 weeks so I will be more inactive than I’ve already been oops so take this

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moeblob · 11 months ago

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I am really tired of a situation rn.

#fe three houses #felix hugo fraldarius #me using felix on my angy days because he is my angersona? you bet!#anyway if you want to try to get someones money or something bc you hurt your own car banging into mine #can you try to be a bit more timely with it buddy come on you hit me on feb29 !#why am i getting your insurance company calling me today !#also i would like to point out i didnt do it and neither of us were hurt and i filed a claim with my own insurance comp #and also filed a police report bc he didnt even suggest calling the cops to the scene #so like yeah hey man maybe you and your insurance company can move a lil faster or smth #literally everything that happened the day of is - according to my dad - an intimidation tactic #i look like im 15 and he probably thinks he can take advantage of a new driver but ya know! tough luck!#im just really tired and stressed over multiple things not negative so getting this on top of it was like #bro .................... anyway my phone didnt pick up for some reason so i called back and then nothing got resolved #cause the person who actually called me wasnt around to connect the line to from the guy who answered #idk man just its a lot despite my v minimal energy #got a job interview on monday tho ! and then also next week is an eye exam #and you might be thinking isnt that a good thing to get your eyes checked? you are correct but i am horrified #there are two body parts that give me absolute anxiety and eyes are one of them #and i know my eye sight is declining and im just v anxious #its fine im going to be fine i just have to be anxious about it

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steelthroat · 6 months ago

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First time staying at the hotel of a theme park (against my will, but that's a long story) and... it's so weird??????

Like I feel like I am not supposed to be here, how do I put it... it screams luxury but I a... childlike/childish way????

And I feel restless, like something is wrong. Uncanny.

#this vacation is weird #maybe i feel restless because it cost me too much...#little rant here because i am still bitter about this okay...#look 8 days in spain and EVERYTHING: 2 hotels/3 flights/several museums/foods and drinks/souvenirs/transportation/small useless trinkets #cost us like € 800? more or less?#like okay could have been less but that’s a darn good price counting small useless luxuries and good meals right?#i feel no regrets spending that amount of money on *that*#i was one of the people organizing it #i knew where my money went before it went there so if something was a waste of money is my fault right????#BUT THEN #i was thrown into this other small 4 day vacation here at one of the theme parks in italy #first day we arrive fourth we go 2 days at the park and the only things we DON'T pay for are breakfast and dinner #fucking €600 #and I was occupied with my exams when the other person organized this trip so the moment they called me.and said #“okay already anticipated the money it's 600 per person :D”#i cried #liek i am not exaggerating i literally cried because wtf #600 euros I'd have stayed a week in france #I will never let someone else organize a vacation without my supervision ever the fuck again.#steel rambles #*cries* 1200 € for two peple and 2 and 2 days at the theme park+ 2 days of train is not fucking reasonable mate 😭

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redyarns · 2 months ago

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snippet (undertow, ch. 6)

IM TIRED OF THIS GRANDPA

#undertow #megop #transformers #peony speaks #GASPING FOR AIR CLAWING MY THROAT KICKING MY FEET #FIRST 3 SCENES ARE FINALLY FUCKING DONE OH MY GOD #IM NEVER DOING THIS AGAIN. ALL CHAPTERS FROM NOW ON ARE LIMITED TO 2-3 SCENES #fucking 5 scenes in one chapter WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING #oh my god im actually losing my mind #not to mention theres still a few things i want to tweak #AUGH #its so fucking jover man #the carpal tunnel is actually egregious #not to mention the sheer burnout???#like im gonna have to write something silly goofy after this chapters released #theres no way i can handle another one of these for at least a few weeks #oh my god im gonna pass out #literally why do i do this to myself??? why did i think this many scenes was acceptable #who in their right fucking mind would do this #anyway the fact that we're over 80k words but still nowhere near the end of the fic is diabolical #oh my god im so tired #u know im writing this when i have an exam tmrw?#i cant believe this #im hungry

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archerstreet · 2 months ago

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can someone tell me how to keep going if your hardwork does pay off but you don't feel anything when you achieve your goal just relief and numb again

#ive been having a bad week again since the exam ugh😭#im really really REALLY trying to study but a little head in my voice keeps saying what is even the point of working so hard #which is soooo ridiculous because it's bc i worked so hard that i got great marks #but like. i didn't feel happy like i thought would. i just felt like 'oh. okay. cool'#and then i just. didn't even have anyone around me to celebrate with #which is idk kinda dumb i guess it's just an online exam #but like see. there are technically total 8 exams to become. um to get my degree #and i just cleared 1 of them #like that was a full 100 marks paper i studied for of that level and i did it #ive just never done this before not since this course ive always scored JUST above passing (not counting the times #i literally failed twice lol)#so yeah anyway it is big for me. but why doesn't it feel like anything 😭😭😭#and why hasn't this motivated me to work harder😭😭😭#idk i thought i had gotten over the 'just do it. just do it!!! just. do. it.' phase i was getting so many things done #but it feels back to square one now #man that book about habits was so right don't have goals have habits because when you do achieve your goal #you'll be like well now what? and slip right back into bad habits again #that's exactly what happened #i used to think lol achieve my goal that's never gonna happen im a shit person and a failure #but like what the hell!!! i did!!! so now what😭😭😭#i think i need a hug #but ive never really hugged anyone except one person and she's 4 years away now #i think i need. my dad to tell me he's proud of me. but he's already forgotten about it so that's not gonna happen #man the day i stop craving external validation. it's over for yall #ugh yuck i used to hate the word validation it always sounded so desperate and needy and pathetic. guess it was just #another form of self loathing lol #im not even sad im like genuinely asking. im trying to solve it like a math problem. like does anyone have the answer

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averlym · 1 year ago

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miscellany (again),, tags in the last image by @pyrotechnicarus

#adamandi #vincent aurelius lin #quincy cynthius martin #ambrose wellington bassford #portia elizabeth harper #beatrix valeria campbell #bit of nonsense bit of sillies (ohhh she thinks she's so funny huh.. anyways the brainrot. out out out)#please don't ask me about them take them at face value laugh and move on or smth i keep worrying i've read them Wrong #these have been living in my head rent free for a week and i'm now evicting them politely #anyway i drew all these as scribbles in my sketchbook in-between exam week and today i wanted them out of my head. so digital it is #i've spent two hours on this haha as a. would you even guess. a break from the beatrix thingy i've been planning because that one's rendery #quiet little notes on this... um.. i have started drawing quincy (idk how!!!)#yknow after the last ambrose literal study. i'm kind of mad about the fact that doing an unintentional study Worked???#like. he's the ONE character i have a grasp of how to draw. everyone else is 'randomly whack until you get the vibes and vague structural #integrity'. can we talk about shape language real quick though because ambrose is oval beatrix is circle quincy is rectangle #vincent is square and portia is triangle. that's how it is in my head.#texture wise. vincent is charcoal and graphite. ambrose is traditional painting blended. beatrix is crosshatching and ink.#quincy is like... marker? and watercolour. portia is digital and cell shading. i can't explain any of the correlations they just Are #for the. oddly detailed quincent i Wasn't intending to draw i had to pull up the musical and re-reference them. could draw one then not the #other?? so i struggled with quincy until i Got them and then i couldn't for the life of me get vincent right.... is it something about like #drawing one character at a time? like there's only room in my mind to understand one set of proportions at any given moment???#a fun little fact was just that i began photo refs as always from hahnji jang's page (which has been? saved in my search autofill now??) an #i didn't even have to get a specific image of quincy being in angst. but for smiling vincent i had to purposefully find oh ms reporter #well! consider this yet another part in the trying to figure out how everyone looks like/vibes as/gets drawn as Characters #a secret little code i keep for the stuff i make now is that i need to have something about the drawn medium that makes it unique to itself #as like opposed to a gif or screenshot or photoedit. it has to have extra meaning. and this appears two ways: one is through Implications i #the more Finished stuff. (aka poster series?) and the other one is by engaging in Ideas (generally posts. or memes/incorrect quotes/etc.)#had a really really interesting convo with a friend irl about fanart and fandoms. they were really active for genshin and stuff and so the #experiences between large and small fandoms were fascinating to compare.. i think i prefer the .. intimacy(?) of just doing what i obsess #over instead of looking for the statistics and clout and notes now. the art i make feels more meaningful and intentional that way.

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butchnavi · 2 months ago

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forced myself to wake up and leave my warm cozy blanky at 3:30 am in the winter to speedrun my syllabus because they gave us 12 hours to prep for our endsem are yall proud of me

#not to mention ive baaaaarely gotten sleep the past few nights because its been back 2 back exams every day #forget afternoon naps i havent even been getting more than 4 hours at NIGHT #and i am a bitch that values sleep above all else #and i got no time to prep the syllabus beforehand because of all our never ending fucking assignments #including yk. the full fledged GAME they made us code from scratch in 3 weeks without teaching us anyyy of the required tools or languages #literally speedran an entire math course with everything from number theory and graph theory to fucking induction and combinatorics #in like. 4 hours and gave my endsem NOT EVEN 12 HOURS BACK AND IT WAS 50% OF OUR FUCKING GRADE #and now i have to do it againnn for the third exam in a row at 9:30 in the fucking morning #which btw i realized LAST NIGHT. because our datesheet said the exam was at 2:30 but theyre doing it in batches #so i dont even have the morning to revise and need to pull this shit #AND THEN EVEN FOR THE COURSES WHERE I SOMEHOW COVER THE ENTIRE SYLLABUS THOROUGHLY THEY WILL GIVE THE MOST OUT OF POCKET BULLSHIT #THAT YOUVE NEVER HEARD OF IN YOUR LIFE #and after THIS exam i have to speedrun linear algebra and teach it to a bunch of kids by tomorrow morning #granted that one is on me because i couldve said no but ugh #college hateposting #in other news my ex crush wore a suit yesterday and she looked so hot she almost made me relapse into lesbianism #but i digresssssss #x am rambles #man ive missed ranting about shit on tumblr i should come back here more often

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honeydots · 1 year ago

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i know im late but xanlow pocky doodle was a must....

#xanlow #fe14 #fire emblem fates #fe laslow #fe xander #PRETEND ITS STILL 11/11 #11/17 looks like 11/11 if you're lying #look ive been having a crazy week you WILL give me a pass #my prof changed the due date of one of my papers so i had to write an eight page paper in. one night. exciting stuff!#that on top two exams and other homework. busy week......#im so sad tho cause i was literally waiting in anticipation ALL YEAR to do a pocky doodle for them and then the time came and i spaced djfks #ive got a couple more xanlows that i was gonna post in conjunction w this one but i didnt like how they looked together so.#expect art in the coming days #also: natalia if you see this i saw your message!!! and so my song recc to you today is riot by the scarlet opera :D #dots draws

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whyoneartheven · 3 months ago

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suddenly I have realized my bad habit of procrastinating has become a nearly debilitating fear

#Like #for ex I had an exam due today #I meant to study for it over the week #But every time I sat down to do so I just got really scared and stressed and felt like I wasn’t going to be able to study enough???#And so I couldn’t concentrate and did literally anything else instead and it ruined my entire week bc I was so worried #And anyways I ended up actually studying for the exam for only around 3 hours. TODAY. And took it and sent it in just before midnight.#Which is a very bad habit that I have #I’m pretty sure I did well tho #bc despite the fact I was so worried I wasn’t ready for it that I didn’t GET ready for it #I do actually know the material pretty well #And now I’m sitting here with the knowledge that if I’d sat and just studied even ONE other time this week #I could easily have gotten a 100 #And now I’m realizing that I may have anxiety #Which I knew before but like. Now I KNOW #And also a really bad case of I Need To Be Perfect Or The World Will End And Everyone Will Hate Me #also the adhd isn’t helping #So yeah #That’s something that happened #I tend to put things off bc “im not ready” for them in general now that I think abt it. Huh.#evie rambles #Evie rants #It has become a habit of mine to vent in the tumblr tags #Sorry folks #XD

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opens-up-4-nobody · 4 months ago

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#oh lads. lads. lads. lads. im being sucked back into the world of academia #i dont even kno what happened. a week ago i was crying bc i was like: this is impossible. i simply cannot do this.#and then i went into the lab sunday and miraculously i was able to easily read some papers. like i dont kno how to discribe how baffling it #was. like reading papers is like pulling teeth and this was somehow easy. i think maybe it was bc i let myself get distracted and wander #thru it. and then after that i got so much done this week and i was tired but having fun. and like the thing is: i fucking love evolution #it's like puzzling out the code for life in both a metaphical and literal sense. its fucking incredible. and my project is also very #interesting. if a bit intimidating in its scope. ya kno. just in the way photosynthesis is generally intimidating #but i think i have a strain thats lost chlf which is really interesting and my advisor said we might have the money to try some crispr for #my cyano children. hypothetically. maybe. and i get to do some poking around in genomes. theres so so much to love there #how could i possibly want to do anything else? and yet. and yet. here at the end of the week im so wrung out and i kno i just have to start #again on sunday and i kno im gonna have to step it up in terms of reading if i want to make it through a committee meeting and proposal #defense. not to even mention a comprehensive exam. and what do i get at the end of all this? a lifetime of academia draining my life away.#bc what i do is so academic. so whats the point? its just so frustrating.#and on top of that ive got all this data from my old lab that i kno i have to work on. and i will. i will. but with what time?#anyway the point is. i can see a path forward now where i stay here and decide the pain will be worth it despite not knowing where im going #after that. im just so tried #but right now it feels like im gonna stay until someone kicks me out #but that doesnt exactly make me feel happy. ugh. but if i stay i want to get my old pi to come here and give a seminar. ill warn her how #intimidating the department is tho. we've had 2 talks in the last 2 weeks that were... not good. particularly the one this week #like she couldnt answer a single question they thru at her and didnt seem to kno her data sets. it was hard to watch. anyway. i just want #to see my academic mother again. send me back to the desert! let me rot in a field full of sage #but send me back to the hills of an older mountain range. where i can climb sandstone cliffs and lay in carpets of moss. except i wouldnt do #that bc of all the ticks and threat of lyme disease...#anyway. im still tired. still sad. and there doesnt seem to b a way out #unrelated

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dramas-vs-novels · 8 months ago

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Yeah... I remember seeing the architectural design majors at my uni having this breakdown each semester...

#love in the air #lita #rain #scriptwriting was the only course within my major famous for making people openly cry #because the professor would eviscerate you with her feedback #not to be mean; but she would look at the feedback you'd already been given by your classmates over and over throughout the course #and if you still hadn't fixed issues she'd really stab into them and rip you apart #she liked me though- i followed the syllabus due dates and no one else did #meaning day 1 i already had a treatment ready by the first class #and even though she told me the syllabus schedule didn't need to be followed; i chose to follow it #because it kept me a week ahead or so #So when I finished each 200+ page draft of my script I was finishing it a week early #which let me focus on other exams in other classes and manage my workload more easily #the only time scriptwriting made me cry was when i spent 6 hours typing draft 6 of a 214 page feature and my computer crashed #erased the whole thing #i'd been typing up the script based on hand notes i'd written on my previous draft so it was easy to recreate #but redoing it took 8 hours since my hands were so tired #but that wasn't the classes fault; that was my fault #i did really well in the class; you just can't take feedback personally and a lot of writers really struggle with that #i've lost so many friends because they claim to be writers who take feedback seriously #and then it turns out they're little bitches about it and throw tantrums after begging me to give them feedback #so now I will not give a friend feedback on anything they write #for the record- the way i was trained is not to be cruel or mean #you literally just go through it like 'here is what I had issues with as a viewer and here are some ideas on how to easily fix that'#always offer a solution #and for every complaint you have to give a complementt #so i'm not out there like gordon ramsey ripping into people; it's very gentle and kind #except when i gave M her round 6 feedback on her script and she STILL insisted Mt Everest was 3 billion years old in her story #AT EVERY STAGE OF THIS SCRIPT I REMINDED YOU IT IS AROUND 30 MILLION YEARS OLD GET IT THROUGH YOUR-#Watch

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loafbud · 1 year ago

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Just took my first biology exam and got a pretty decent score of an F! 🎉🎉🎉

#i already have an F in biology anyways #HERE'S WHY THO #learning the course material for me is manageable #WHAT FUCKED ME UP WAS MY ASS FORGETTING OUR PROF HAS US DO ASSIGNMENTS ON ANOTHER SITE #(and my missing a full week earlier on by forgetting- which just HAD to cover 2 chapters worth of content yaaay)#but also that this is the most disorganized course i have #our prof is new so idk if that plays a part in it #but like??? theres no regular updates like 'hey guys dont forget to do this and that!'#like i get it #its college #they emphasize self-discipline so really its on us #but like uggh #what fucked up my overall class grade too (which is already an F btw) is the missed hw #like???? just?? hw that was never included in the module???? like BAM SURPRISE 0 GRADE NOTIFICATION SPAM ON OVER 10+ ASSIGNMENTS U MISSED!!#absolutely wonderful #deadass wanna drop out of this course and just take it again in the next term #so i can get another prof coz i dont like how disorganized this one feels tbh #literally my only complaint about college #but again the blame's on me too for not actively looking so i take accountability #the exam itself was a breeze at the beginning and end #it was just 80% was of the fucking week i missed #my bad for not doing a study speedrun whoopsies I SLIPPED

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flamboyant-king · 1 year ago

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I had an Isaac run where it was so stressful my heartrate was at a 145bpm and it persisted for 6 hours. After that, like every day that followed, my heart would just suddenly shoot up to 120-140bpm for an hour if I so much as thought about something I've been stressing over recently. Everybody encouraging me to go to the ER. And I'm just like "Oh please I've actually always been like this, I'm fine." Had to chop down my Adderall dosage. But I swear I've felt like this since high school, but I guess the medicine enhances the feeling and that feeling was ANXIETY.

So, suffice to say, playing The Binding of Isaac™️ almost gave me a heart attack.

#and its not the adderall thats just inducing the heartrate #cause i only got prescribed adderall this year #dad got diagnosed with afib when i was still in school. he rushed himself to the hospital with mom while i was taking a test #i was like what the heck where did you guys go and mom said oh dad was having a heart attack or something and we didnt want to bother you #like WOULDNT YOU TELL YOUR CHILD OH MAYBE YOU WONT SEE YOUR FATHER AFTER WE GO TO THE HOSPITAL BUT FINISH YOUR EXAM BABY #that was like 2020 and we have a couple of those oxygen readers for your fingers and it measures your heartbeat #i out one on for fun im just sitting there at the dinner table and my heartrate was at 120 #like i didnt do anything we been stuck at home because pandemic and we just having a nice dinner #and my heartbeat was just thats my resting heartrate. they told me to try the blood pressure thing #average blood pressure but truly my heartbeat was just vibing at 120. mis padres were like oh no maybe you have afib too #babes youre too young to have that. and i jsut said oh is that what it means when im nauseous and have to lie down #i havent been diagnosed with anything. i suspect is tachycardia but no official thing #although i havent seen a cardiologist. what if we pay to get a screening and its nothing #i dont want to go thru all that and let it be nothing. lets wait until its a real problem #when my brother and his family visited just like what two weeks ago he was like #he was sitting on moms exercise bike and said it reads your heartrate #and it did you put your hands on the handle and it reads yer pulse #i told him like oooh let me try. hey brother my resting heartrate is 120 a lot. and hes like. what. get on this thing #and i get off the couch literally resting and lay my hands on the handles #and we see it go up. from 80 to 90 to 100 to 110 to 120 and hes a nurse and my moms a nurse and he says go upstairs and rest #dont hang out here with the kids. and im like ha i already told mom #he said sit there for ten minutes dont do anythingg and were trying again #he got mom to call our doctor and my doctor said to stop taking the adderall which is NOT IDEAL theres worse repurcussions to stop cold #so i cut mine in half. cause i had a dosage of 20mg and i almost fainted at work. we died the dosage down to 15 #but after all that i cut my 15 down to 7.5 cause hey i cant stop cold but i can ween myself #brother said i shouldnt be taking adderall if im not doing anything that requires focus. but im like i need focus to live man #look at how much ive been drawing...i mean its only in like hour long intervals but its productive #so theres that. i can feel my heartrate already up but i guess its just a thing with me...anywho #doodles #the binding of isaac

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adore-gregor · 1 month ago

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#holidays have not been what i hoped for so far 😔😔#well the first week was good but then i got sick 😭#and it's been so awful #having a cough is literally the worst i couldn't sleep it was so bad #and i couldn't even enjoy doing anything really because you can't properly focus on the thing bc ur coughing non stop #i hate it sm #and today it was gone all day only that now it is back altough not as bad as before but still #it always gets worse in the evening #like help i just want this to end #what made it even worse i had real plans to study and now i barely got anything done 😭😭#and now i'm scared for exams bc i couldn't follow the plan altough i still have more than 2 and 3 weeks left #in my mind i already think i'm gonna do badly bc i need to study more i'm afraid #and i'm also upset at myself even though it's not my fault i got sick but i keep thinking i still could have done more ughh #to make it even worse i coudn't play tennis for a whole week and i was so looking forward to playing everyday (and improving) 😢😢#i couldn't do any sports or see anyone i miss it sm #i hope at least in the new year i can do stuff again 🥺#it was just the worst cold/flu and idk why whenever i get it it's that extreme 😵‍💫#or idk is it normal that you can't sleep bc of it ... i just don't wanna get sick again ever lmao it's the worst #i guess christmas was still nice it wasn't that bad then and it was a lovely day with my family :)#and our tree was really pretty this year and i'm really happy with my gifts and also those i gifted 🥰#the week before was good i did play lots of tennis and i went on a christmas market with uni friend and to vienna for a trip with my mom ^^#but maybe it was too much sometimes i wonder if i do something wrong or if it is just bad luck like i did train a lot #and i played a tennis match for my club and won against a higher ranked opponent so yay 😁#and i played really well i feel like i once again really improved my level :)) but i did play kinda sick already so maybe that was rly bad😅#maybe i should stop doing that 😅 but i didn't know it's gonna get this bad i just had the worst headache and sore throat #well ig i should have known but i also always feel like i have to play and i love matches and like my team needs me?#who else would have won that? i'm one of the best at my team and the others who are rly good weren't there that day so i felt responsible 😅#honestly my mom possibly she is also quite good but it would have been close and i wasn't sure so i played 😅#but i have done this too often by now... playing sick i really can't help myself 🤦‍♀️

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