#literal definition of gay panic

[weighty-ghosts]

[drfirefly08]

how maekabane became a thing

[during their stay in okinawa, after the takaoka situation]

hiroto: i really thought i was gonna die there

karma: yeah...

hiroto: i uh.. actually had one thing in my mind the whole time

karma: oh?

hiroto: i was thinking of how i didnt get to confess my love..

karma, suddenly sad at the thought of hiroto liking someone else: ah, really? you have a crush? who?

hiroto, nervous: i.. well. uh. you. actually.

karma, in disbelief: what

hiroto: its you, idiot

karma, incredibly flustered: i- wha- uh- me? you.. like me??

hiroto: yes dumbass, it'd also be nice if we can be boyfriends

karma, on the verge of passing out: BOY- BOYFRIENDS?? US?? UH I UH SURE

hiroto: ..cute

[mudblccd]

 ۪    ՞ @ncginis sent a parcel ╰ ➛ unprompted ／  𝑎𝑙𝑤𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑎𝑐𝑐𝑒𝑝𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 ִֶָᐟ

❛ peyton, peyton... ❜ she sing songs as she steps closer to them. ❛ i heard a little... something, ❜ nagini licks her lips, a smile tugging at the corner of her lips. ❛ would you like to share with me, too, how you'd like for me to kiss you? do tell. you know i would rather hear it from you, beautiful. ❜

𝐄𝐘𝐄𝐒 𝐖𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍 ⎯⎯⎯⎯ shock evident on features as peyton stares at nagini for a moment too long , a blush forming cross cheekbones ❛ i have nooo idea what you're talking about ❜ voice higher pitched with denial , laced with humour as peyton tried to play it off ; A SCHOOL GIRL WITH A CRUSH , it was obvious ; has been the entire time she's been with the other woman . she was . . . she was incredible , in every way a person can be ⎯ just being around her made peyton fumble ❛ i ⎯ hm ⎯ where did you hear that , exactly ? ❜

[on-the-clear-blue]

Little idea wiggling about in my brain...

So like *holds Danny and Billy up by the scruff of their shirts* these two bastards won't leave my brain, and for punishment I will make them kiss...

Just, the Rock of eternity technically is Shazam's (the wizards) haunt? He has been dead for a long time, living only though his champion, what if Ghost King Danny gets slapped with a post it note that reads like

"Daniel, you're required to assist the Champion of Magic as the High King of the Realms, even Pariah helped the previous Champion Black Adam."

And Danny is like, "Sure, why not, Magic is real and so are ghosts."

And like....

Sparky Danny meeting Literal Sun Beam Billy, they are both 14, it's puppy love at its finest. Danny doesn't know what to do with gay panic and Billy is just straight up "This man is my soul mate, he shall be mine." (Call iy Zeus bestowing more than just lightning)

The leauge is very concerned why Captain Marvel seems to have a seeming underage partner.

Superman squinting very hard and trying to figure this out: So...just how old is Phantom?

Billy, unaware how bad this looks: Oh I don't know honestly, it's kinda hard to tell with beings from the Realms! Though he died when he was 14!

Superman, gripping the table (which cracks a little) :And how exactly long has he been 14?

Billy, taking out his phone and flipping out pictures: Like I said, I don't really know how old he is, but there is Egyptain hieroglyphics of him! Look!

Superman, blinking at the very real looking pictures: Ahh. Fun cool cool cool...a-and how are you again Cap?

Billy mindlessly swiping the photos, excited to show off his boyfriend:Never said it, but he is definitely older than I am.

(Danny is older by a month, Billy calls him an old man for it.)

Billy gets to live full time in Danny's haunt in the Zone, Danny built him like the best house, Tucker and Sam get to meet Billy and they just are flabbergasted that Danny "I can't get a girl to date me or else she ends up wanting to kill me" Fenton has a boyfriend that has been going steady for a few months.

My brain sees like, Maddie and Jack are 100% backing Danny, they are fully supportive of their bi/gay/pan son, but in no way would they support him if he was a ghost, like they are organizing Amitys first ever Pride parade, but there is a shoot ghosts on sight order.

And just the reveal is like...

Danny gets finally tells them he is a ghost: if you start shooting me, your shooting the only Gay person you know, not very ally of you mom and Dad.

Maddie mouth open in horror: Oh no...Jack are...are we homophobic?

Jack sharing her look of fear: Great Scott...Dann-o a-are you sure...its...it's a life style right? Y-you chose this?

Danny, trying very, very hard not to laugh: It's not a life style dad! I didn't choose to Die!

Anyway, thank you for coming to my brain word vomit, I haven't slept in 20 hours.

[cryptidstealingyourcreditcard]

i propose a redo of race to the edge, but this time with a mature rating. imagine:

(spoilers for rtte)

actually being able to see characters deaths and wounds

more depth into snotlout and spitelouts relationship- it’s clearly not a healthy one

more depth into hiccstrid and other couples

specifically, queer couples and characters- we know gobber and snotlout are gay/bi respectively, but we never get more info on that subject

actual blood and wounds

let!!! them!!! say!!!!! fuck!!!!!

more clarification on which dragon fire hurts which dragons, and which ones don’t

blood!!

ruff and tuff clearly have things to say that are not age appropriate, let them say it

could go more in depth with the scarier side of the dragons

show the effects of characters getting wounded!!!!

just. everything about dagur.

could go more in depth with fishlegs’s anxiety?

on that note, all of the gang’s mental health- hiccup clearly overworks and blames himself for everything, astrid has obvious anger issues and pent up rage, snotlout pretends to think he’s better than everyone else to mask his cripplingly low self esteem, fishlegs 100% has anxiety or some kind of panic disorder, ruff is already canonically frustrated with being “a woman in a man’s world” and doesn’t feel appreciated enough, and tuff doesn’t seem to value his own well being very much- not to mention that he literally has hallucinations sometimes

and dagur definitely has something that causes him to be in a constant state of mania

gustav and his parents- he said his mother only notices he’s gone after the third day????

at least one person on berk has (consensually) fucked a dragon. give me some background on that.

at least half of the riders cursing like sailors

being able to show sicknesses better- the time astrid caught the scourge of odin, the time astrid got deathly poisoned, plus the time astrid went blind (astrid sure does get beat up a lot damn)

just give me all the things we couldn’t have as kids!!!! blood!!! gore!!!!!!! death!!!!!!! cursing!!!!!! gays!!!!!!!!! abusive relationships!!!!!!!!! kissing that doesn’t look awkward and forced!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! monster fuckers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! come on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that is all, thank you for your time

[cowpants147]

I neeedddd more Foxes on TikTok content! Them doing their own versions of trending videos and challenges like the "dress up as something that starts with your first initial challeneg"

Allison, looking ethereal dressed like a literal Greek God, glammed to the heavens: I'm Allison, I'm dressed as Aphrodite and it's the onw year anniversary of my boyfriends death so I better be the drunkest tonight.

Renee, wearing a real leather F1 jacket/jumpsuit that Allison for some reason has in her closet with a blow up steering wheel in her hand: I'm Renee, I'm a race car driver and I think Nicky might be the drunkest.

Andrew, dressed exactly the same as normal but has a stethoscope around his neck and a piece of paper saying "Aaron" duct taped to his chest just stares into the camera for 30 seconds until it's obvious Allison will not be leaving without an answer: when Kevin starts puking I'm leaving.

Once everyone has given their answer the video enda with a pic of Nicky and Kevin passed out in a bathtub together.

Or the Trauma Dump Candy salad video which goes off the rails immediately and PSU makes them take down 3 hours after posting

"Hiiiiiii, I'm Nicky and I'm a gay teenage father of two and I brought Nerd Cluster Gummies"

"I'm Aaron and instead of going to rehab my evil doppelganger locked me in a bathroom w a blanket and a weeks worth of canned food and I brought Reeces"

"I'm Allison and my parents didn't even yell at my brother when he got expelled from boarding school for having coke in his room but I got kicked out of the house when I showed up to my deb ball with a black eye and a busted lip after playing (and winning) an exy game. They didn't even ask if I was OK. And I brought cherry flavoured Twizzlers"

"I'm Neil ans whenever I burn something while cooking I have a panic attack cause I start to think about burning my mother dead body in a ditch on the beach and I brought ... Andrew what are these called? Oh, I brought sour patch kids"

"I'm Kevin, I grew up in a cult and I brought raisins" except he's body tackled by a blonde blur before he gets a chance to dump the raisins into the bowl.

Them posting stupid shit to popular sounds:

Aaron, sat on the couch, study notes laid out around him, energy drink cans littering the place: I want to sit back and enjoy my my evening when all of a sudden ...

Camera flashes across the room to Neil just minding his own business: ... I hear this aggravating, grating voice

***

The "My Shalya" sound over clips of Neil absolutely violating people.

***

Zoom up of Kevin in full Queen Day sttess mode on the sidelines of practice with the sound "yes I'm a drama queen, but it's not by choice" playing over it and when it gets the "it's genetic" part the video zooms out to show Wymaxk next to him with the exact hand on hip, stressed look on his face

***

Renee doing the "actually I do cuss a little" sound while she's getting her gear on to spar with Andrew and when it reaches the "probably fuck" portion of the audio the clip switches to her taking Andrew downnnn. And then there's a beat drop just cause.

***

Another edit of Neil but with the "am I the drama? I don't think I'm drama" sound.

***

Upperclassmen scrolling through news articles or flipping through sports news channels rhag are reporting on them while miming along to "is this fucking play about us"

***

Some teammates, probably upperclasmen, definitely Nicky also miming along to "I'm sorry, not everybody fits in the bad bitch genre, it's a genre, not everybody fits on the he roster" while dressed in full exy uniform, with the caption "when you're coach only recruits the most traumatised bitches"

And forcing teammates to do "day in the life" "what i eat in a day as a member of the most fucked up exy team" and "ootd" videos.

Andrew (bribed with alcohol, ice cream and ten dollars) does a What I Eat in a Day as depressed mother of 3 whose forced to play stickball. There's no sound, its just the picture carousel style w block letters next to pics of his food:

Breakfast is a massive mug of hot chocolate with half a can of squirty cream and marshmallows.

Breakfast 2 is a big bowl of whatever sugary flavour cereal that's overflowing w E Numbers and almost illegal food dye you guys have in the US.

Snack 1 is a chocolate bar.

Lunch is a slice of pizza, fries and then there's a hand forcing salad onto his plate. Andrew adds a note to this pic saying "I'm allergic to green, Kevin's trying to kill me"

Snack 2 is a an energy drink and a cigarette

Dinner is a pint of ice cream

Midnight snack is just a pic of Neil which Andrew thinks is an obvious coming out without coming out vibe but everyone is immediately worried about Neil's safety and there endals up being a Reddit thread about Andrew being a cannibal.

Then they post a follow up video of Kevin reacting to this and he just watches on in despair saying "no. no. Andrew you have a nutritionist!"

[unsteddie]

University AU

Bi-Sexual weirdo Eddie Munson approaches Robin in a gay bar. It's her first time and she's so excited. She's looking around all excited with hair she definitely cut herself, wearing a cool blazer that's she's decorated with chains and pins and stuff. And she just looks cool and fun. And listen he knows he's probably not her target demographic, but he sees her blush as he approaches.

The second she hears his voice, realizes he's not a woman, she loudly complains about being hit on by a man in a GAY bar. Prompting her friend who has been leaning against the bar getting them drinks to turn. Eddie's mid apology, because that's fair, when he sees him and just shyits right the fuck up.

Cool girl, sure whatever, this man is an angel. So he immediately switches to hitting on Steve, asks him to dance and Robin says "oh, Steves not-"

But Steve cuts her off with a quick "sure." And shoves the drinks in her hands. He leaves Robin with her mouth hanging open as he follows what is probably the prettiest person he's seen in real life to the dance floor.

(Robins fine, she uses Steve's drink to charm a very pretty girl who she dances with and has a great time that night.)

Steve doesn't even speed run his sexuality crisis, he sees it coming for him and is like 'nah, I'm fine actually. I just like pretty people and curly hair.' and the crisis pouts and moves on.

I'm thinking there's probably drama. Like Steve's all in, because he's a sweet romantic idiot. But Eddie panics and is like "you don't even know what you like in men, you can't just decide I'm it."

Which Steve totally can, but Eddie scares easy, he is the opposite of Tom Petty in this regard.

So they split up with the understanding Steves gonna date around a while and keep Eddies number. And like three months go by and Steve doesn't know if he's allowed to call yet because he hasn't managed to get past the date part to the sleeping with other people part because he doesn't like anyone as much as Eddie, but Eddie said he should try some stuff before commiting to the first man that asked him to dance.

Eddie is beating himself up because it's for sure too soon, like crazy too soon, but maybe he loves Steve? And he literally yelled at him to go sleep with other people?? Why did he do that??

I have a little scene in my head where Gareth see Steve in a club and calls Eddie like "dude, he's here, with a date. Like a really really hot date." And sitcom style shenanigans ensue with Eddie running interference on Steve's date long distance via Gareth.

Like they've been apart probably twice as long as they were kinda together and they're being so dumb about it.

[conflictofthemind]

Take Me To Church-Gate

A few weeks back, I received a tip that Noah and Finn came into Atlanta for a couple of days to rehearse a scene alone together that never ended up being filmed. This was around the time of the convention that Finn ended up missing in early June (and we initially theorized was for the playground scenes).

I since received confirmation of not only this, but that the rehearsal in question was for a scene at the UD church set. The filming never went through because Noah got an eye infection / sty, so the shoot was rescheduled for early August. If you've seen me mentioning looking forward to August, this is what that was about.

The Eye Infection:

Let me link this post to begin with, barring the 'James' stuff who has proven to be false. I heard about the eye infection and my alarm bells rang immediately - I have a friend myself who wears contacts occasionally and whenever they get sties, they're always caused by the contacts. When has Noah worn contacts before in the show? When Will is being possessed by the mindflayer in Season 2.

The church is an interesting location, because it most definitely has to do with Henry as well. When the original countdown for TFS was being posted, there were images of a church - a location that may have been changed during development. The characters most likely go there as part of the continuing Henry investigation.

And we know Henry was exorcised at some point, but it failed. The sign going into the church is also a likely clue to this, referencing Mark 9:29 - a verse about a failed exorcism.

Conclusion for this part: Will very likely becomes possessed again while in this church. My source tells me they usually only do big rehearsals like this for scenes involving action, too.

My opinion is that Will was never fully exorcised either. I mean, he still has a clear connection to the mindflayer with all the tingles on his neck and the possible literal psychic connection he has to Vecna as well.

It's Byler, Too:

I suspect that Jamie has some part in the scene as well (given they scheduled it during his latest block on set), but the focus is on Will and Mike - being the only two other main characters on set at the time, and the only two rehearsing.

But going back to the church thing.... I wonder what kind of symbolism is created by bringing two gay characters who both have a lot of internalized shame into a location that is honestly the source of said shame? It's honestly not even symbolism. It might just be referenced in plain text. Looking back at that church sign:

"This kind cannot be driven out by anything but prayer"

"This kind" really evokes the dehumanising language used by homophobes to refer to gay people. And the driven out by prayer part, well that really evokes conversion 'therapy' practices of praying the gay away. So what if this is where Will and Mike finally admit their love for each other, and kiss. And what if that is actually what's able to drive the 'demon' away - gay love.

Especially during the Satanic Panic arc we are sure to see come full circle with the reckoning of the Hellfire Club in Season 5.

An arc which Mike is surely at the centre of as well, being not only a Hellfire Member in the past, but being family to the new disappeared child in town.

And it's not like Mike's love is what's been shown to us time and time again as the way to break Will out of his mindflayer trance. Oh, wait.

Consider it incredibly fanfic-y, but it's on the table now. An action scene at the church involving Byler where Noah is wearing contacts - Will becoming possessed just like Henry again and being made to fight Mike as not only part of the plan to get all of the Wheelers, but also as something that would break Will's spirit permanently. They're all alone with nobody to help save Mike. But the plan is thwarted through the power of love, and in a place that represents a lot of shame for gay men (especially in the 80s) - they finally come together. And it is love that frees Will from his trance. Whether through a confession or true love's kiss. It would be so dramatic and atmospheric.

Additional evidence:

Jopper's Season 4 reunion and kiss inside the Russian church, of which this would be a parallel.

The whole idea of "we kissed, as though nothing could fall. And the shame was on the other side" from David Bowie's Heroes - the shame being in the actual church from the rightside up, but they're alone together on the other side / in the Upside Down.

It is also very likely that this scene is from Episode 5 or 6. I've asked and nobody seems to know which episode it is from, but following the logic of Episode 4 being when the characters enter in groups into the Upside Down, and here Byler are all alone, it is definitely after some time has passed and groups have split further. They're definitely not having any kind of confession in the first half of the season, so this timing sounds positive.

Multiple rehearsals. Noah contacting his acting coach recently for advice. Them even having to cancel an entire shoot because of a sty indicates close-up shots for sure.

Anyway. I'd really love to see people's thoughts on this. I feel like there's even more I could get into in follow-up posts, especially if other people chime in with their thoughts. I have been buzzing about this scene for weeks now. I want to start another gate for old time's sake, so please use #churchgate if you want to make your own posts about this!

[myunghology]

VIVID BAD SQUAD — with a girl crush! ( fem. reader if you couldn't tell, reader is mentioned to be known all over the school / aka. pretty popular due to their looks and smartsss! the reader in an and akito's sections are the same, but the one's in kohane and toya's aren't. )

i. kohane azusawa — you were classmates in miyamasuzaka. definitely left a lasting impression on her during the first day of school, blushed from how you approached her immediately despite not knowing her, too. lunch buddies!! feels bad for your friends since you've basically left them all alone to fend for themselves to be with her TT. but she's sooo thankful you're there, you may or can be a bit mean to people who try to talk shit about her for being shy, but that's just for her own good. it's so obvious to everyone that you love her so much but kohane herself can't see it. these lesbians bro... good for them. good for them

ii. you definitely had beef with akito when you two first met alongside with an. you probably still do until now, you really don't get along. to the point you've almost gotten into a physical fight with him just to defend kohane. whenever kohane goes "well, akito-kun said..—" you and an both cut her off before she even completes her sentence, saying, "SO WHAT?!" akito calls you both, 'kohane glazers'. as a joke, don't worry. please don't hurt him anyway, toya personally thinks he deserves it. starts giggling to herself once she finds out you've already paid for her coffee, right after complaining that you shouldn't have, by the way.

iii. has a full on gay panic when she sees you. which is every single freaking day because you're classmates.. adores how you can be so confident about yourself and not be so arrogant at the same time. kohane's literally your princess, which is your nickname for her on your phone's contact list! she needs saving because she literally can't take eyes off you in class, and whenever you catch her looking at you, you just respond with a smirk on your face. and she DIESSSS. definitely has a playlist dedicated for you with the main song being flaming hot cheetos by clairo.

i. an shiraishi — her soul literally LEFT her body the first day she saw that you two were classmates. this girl had wanted to befriend you so bad since forever, but couldn't get the actual chance to because so much people were already swarming around you EVERY. TIME. she saw you. it made her eye twitch, best believe akito and mizuki teased her for it in their first year. now that they're classmates in their second year (well not mizuki) and with you nonetheless, oh brother.. akito occasionally gets a head smack by a book from an whenever he says you aren't all that, and he shuts up immediately.

ii. definitely tried convincing your homeroom teacher for you guys to be deskmates. if it doesn't work.. well! let's just say she is yanking pulling your current one out of their desk just to sit beside you. just kidding. maybe not. only if it's akito. and all of your classmates are like she wants that damn cookie so bad wtf.. and if that doesn't work part 2, then she WILL be clinging onto you during recess and lunch, let's face it, u're never gonna get rid of her <33 definitely giggles to herself and tells kohane all about her experiences through chat with you during those free moments in class. maybe even misclicks and sends it to the vbs gc and toya seens and replies with a 'that's nice, shiraishi".

iii. everytime this girl gets flustered i guarantee you she literally hits the person right next to her. she slaps and hides behind the person and starts giggling like a little kid before jumping around, as long as you aren't there. is a "[name] can you help me with this?" type of person for attention. but she actually does need help, let's be honest. in special times, you're actually the one who initiates helping her <3 as long as you aren't busy, then you're good!

i. akito shinonome ��� i smell jalosi (jealousy). 50% because you're literally perfect and 50% because of how much people are hogging your attention. THIS GUY DOESN'T EVEN KNOW if he loves you or if he fucking hates you. akito literally starts getting red once you offer help when you see him struggling in math or english. you definitely helped him with his english essay but didn't wanna show you because he made it about you. ughhhh twerp. he's so weak when he's in love someone kill him. EXECUTE THIS GUY NEOWWWW. nene definitely accidentally found out because she was arranging papers to give it to the teacher and was like.. "huh this is familiar.. WAIT..."

ii. unconsciously buys you lunch. this guy probably bought you cup noodles and a sandwich before because you were too busy to eat. he'll grumble and complain under his breath about why the teachers are bugging you so much to the point that you can't even eat lunch dude. you repay him by giving him free english lessons but it usually doesn't work because he spends most of it's time by just staring at you.. bro's cooked if you give him a practice assessment. he does go into grinding mode once you get mad at him for paying attention.. even toya thanks you personally for that bruh

iii. literally excuses you once he notices you get uncomfortable from all the crowds. "oi, she's busy. go elsewhere." and just drags you out. he's realllyyy helpful too. you don't even have to ask, because he's already carrying all of the binders that were on your hands just seconds ago. HE DOESN'T EVEN SAY ANYTHING IT'S ANNOYING and it makes you panic whenever you see them GONE as if they fell down without a sound. looks out for you in any possible way he can and you don't even notice?? literally fixes your pens, notebooks, books without you looking when it was just a mess earlier from you stressing and crashing ouuuutttt...

i. toya aoyagi — another one who helps you whenever you need to carry stuff. he is suchhh a sweetheart towards you even though you two are in the same grade. toya is your number one glazer you could do nothing wrong in his eyes bro just doesn't care. you both could be studying together but he gets a slide for looking at you the whole time because he's already covered the topic you're talking about. unlike SOME ginger.. he usually invites you out to lunch together if akito is somewhat busy, and he likes bringing you to the weekend garage as well <3.

ii. instinctively pats your head. brother doesn't even know WHERE he got this habit he just has it. he could cheer you on doing something random with a "nice one!" and when you come back he'll Pat your head. someone who has extra everything in school supplies. literally the classes' own bookstore at this point became what. so obvious that he's rich, the type of lover boy who'd give you his most expensive pen if you ever ask for one. and once you return it he doesn't let ANYONE borrow that pen ever it's crazy. probably also the campus crush along with you but is horribly oblivious. your class is doing his moves for him bro trust it either goes batshit or the opposite.

iii. toya doesn't wanna be mean or anything but mizuki has noticed this about him whenever someone's confessed to him. if ever you're in the same room, the girls confession to him will just come in one ear and exit out the other because he only looks at you whilst doing so. and he feels bad every single time, because how can you be so distracting to the point that he can't even hear his own classmates confession for him. by the time he realizes, the girls body was bowing down right in front of him, handing him a box of chocolates?? like what. the most she'll get from him is a muttered "thank you.." and not even a confirmation if he likes her or not. even though she could already tell from the way he looked at you.. but it would be nothing to be sad about.

@myunghology — kohane listens to clairo, an listens to girl in red, akito listens to iyaz, toya listens to daniel caesar when they're in love trust me bro.

[ponyrepress]

Kabumisu is soooo something to me. Kabru literally did not have to do All of That. Keep him alive for a week, sure. But. Gestures. Tailing after him, even. Knocking him out for his own good, which is kinda mirrored by Mithrun slapping him out of a panic attack. There's a weird sort of mutual footing to be had there. Kabru even somewhat drops his excessive use of charm around Mithrun on account of the guy not giving a fuck. They're both sole survivors of nightmarish shit. Crushing sense of responsibility. There's weird mutual attachment. Kabru was so deadset on not letting the guy give the fuck up on everything after expiring his purpose he managed to help give him a will to Keep Going with the help of the Canaries. They're like if the base definition of "partners" was gay was a qpr was some secret third thing. Understand me.

[magicpotatothoughts]

TGCF reread new finds #1

Xie Lian actively and consciously knows that he is attracted to HC the MOMENT THEY MEET in the Ox Cart. Like it’s not just blank gay panic, he knows.

His beauty was deadly like a sword, sharp and mesmerising. Xie Lian only met his eyes for a moment, then lowered his eyes in defeat.

MATE, normally wouldn’t you continue to be mesmerised and can’t peel your eyes away? That is, UNLESS YOURE WHIPPED. XL knows that SL's looks affect him to this degree. Defeat is the key word here.

Also

The distance between them had closed too fast. he suddenly didn't know what to do[...]Xie Lian blanked on the spot. He watched as the tall and slender youth walked away with his giant bag of junk as if it were the most natural thing in the world to do, and it made him mutter inwardly, Forgive my sins.

Making a rich young lad carry your things? Making him sleep in your crappy temple? That doesn't warrant the weighty thought? FORGIVE WHAT SINS Xie Lian??!!!

Many village girls saw (HC) and blushed [...] Xie Lian didn't know what they were going to ask, but felt instinctively that it must be stopped at once, and cried, "No!"

Jealous jealous boi! XL WAS POSSESSIVE after ONE night spent together at Puqi Shrine. Didn’t XL just say to SL that he will have no problem in the love department because girls will throw themselves at him? Yo, why are you cock-blocking? Everyone says HC is insane, no XL is equally insane for the other!

Also, when HC revealed that it's his real skin after the Banyue arc, XL instinctively poked him. Then

He looked at his own finger then hid it away, betraying nothing of his thoughts.

What thoughts XL ?!! Explain yourself right now!

Jumping back to OX CART scene, Xie Lian's character development was foreshadowed when they were talking about the gifting of ghost ashes.

Book 1: Xie Lian sighed. "It certainly is painful to think about, to have given everything for love and lose everything in return."

This is what Xie Lian is most afraid of! Like even thinking back to Xie Lian pushing Feng Xin away in Book 4, he definitely operated under that mindset. Love is a risk, it's something to be feared. Even now 800+ years later, he still feels that way and doesn't allow himself to get close to anyone. It just hits so much harder thinking that he operated under that for so many centuries.

Then Hua Cheng says

"What there to be afraid of? If it were me, I'd have no regrets giving away my ashes"

Which I think really changed the way that Xie Lian thought about love. Book 5 Xie Lian completely operates with Love is empowering and isn't something to be afraid of.

TGCF isn't about XL realising his feelings, literally from Book 1 it's about him wondering if it's worthwhile to act on them.

Three things, is this person worth losing cultivation over for?

He needs the reassurance that this person must reciprocate his feelings.

Then HC changed his perspective on love from FEAR -> EMPOWERMENT.

XL is soooo self-aware (unlike SQQ from SVSSS and WWX from MDZS), he's an unreliable narrator in the way that he doesn't reveal everything to the reader, especially his own feelings until he was absolutely sure that there really was both a physical and romantic attraction. I wanted to make this post to dispel the assumption for XL it was easy to forego 800+ years of cultivation. It was not? He ABSOLUTELY thought about it carefully.

[canichangemyblogname]

What in the cognitive-fucking-dissonance??? THEE woman who started the edgy “gay panic killing of a fictional gay man” joke movement is SHOCKED that she attracts and is attracted to homophobes?

You literally joked that if you were Tommy’s boyfriend (Buck), you’d shoot and kill the man for flirting with you. That is a hate crime. That is literally THEE definition of “gay panic.” You’re not the fantastical “wizard spells” blog; you’re the I use “it’s just a joke, bro”-as-a-shield blog.

Y’all literally have anons “keep tabs” on 911 fans who support ABC’s recent decision to add more queer representation into the show, sending y’all asks about what those fans are saying about the show and their favorite characters. And you’re SHOCKED to attract the same obsessive behavior? You’re SHOCKED that you attract toxicity? You’re SHOCKED that you attract other blogs that joke about homophobic violence?

Wizard spells, right? Oh, shit. Actually, it’s a joke about gay panic killing. But it’s still just a joke, right?

Wizard spells, right?

Actually— capital punishment. For the crime of *checks notes* going on a date with a man and cutting the date short. Didn’t know that death must be the legal consequence for not continuing a bad date.

Still just a joke, right?

Oh, look— I finally found the “Wizard spells,” among *checks notes* fantasizing about black and brown people murdering a white man, more guns, and… torture. Weird fantasies, man.

But still just a joke, right?

Wizard spells, right?

Well, I found “curses” and “voodoo” on this next list. Right alongside joking about death by firearm (again), death by execution/capital punishment (again), and—would you look at that—joking about death by AIDS. Joking about a gay character… dying of AIDS. Original.

How is THIS ^^^ is a step too far for y’all when it’s literally the EXACT same joke? This blog’s violent fantasies and this blog calling Tommy a predator is a step too far, but when you did the same, it wasn’t? Where do you think “edgy” jokes lead? Why do you think so many other blogs on here kept telling you that an “edgy joke” isn’t ever actually an “edgy joke”?

This is the culture you have created. You attract these personalities because you encourage their beliefs and behavior. But rather than own up to that and look critically at how your supposed “jokes” have created a toxic and hostile and truly obsessive and frightening culture, you’d rather ONCE AGAIN all call this a “ship war.”

There is no ship war. Shut up about the ship war.

There *are* fans who are posting genuinely homophobic and frightening things because they cannot stand that 911 has added another queer couple to the show, and then there are fans who support 911 ABC’s move to expand representation. There *are* fans obsessed with fan fiction fantasies, and then there are fans who simply support canon, on-screen queer representation.

This is so VERY obviously not a ship war. This isn’t “BoBs” vs “Bummys.” This is people who are unable to come to terms with the fact they’ve sold themselves a lie: shipping doesn’t do a damn bit of difference for representation and your obsession isn’t coming true— making it genuinely unsafe to be queer in online 911 spaces.

There is no ship war. “Engaging critically with the internet” means recognizing a pattern of behavior. There is no ship war, but there is a subset of the fandom who refuses to take accountability for what they have encouraged. *You* are the only ones excusing homophobia as “rage bait” and “edgy jokes,” and that’s ultimately the issue. The character is kinda irrelevant when the issue is how you and your followers have so frequently relied on real-world homophobic stereotypes to justify your hate and OOC characterization of a queer character.

911 fans who support the addition of another queer couple and who support Buck’s bi arc have been receiving harassment for months, with other blogs calling them predators, groomers, pedophiles, the n-word, the f-slur, several slurs for women and lesbians, being told to kill themselves, among other things. And you’ve been called—what?—homophobic, racist, sexist?

I know that buddie-stans have also been called out for calling black women “sassy,” for using the mammy trope in your writing, for hypersexualizing Eddie, for harassing the actresses who played previous LIs with misogynistic hate, for writing character-bashing that relies on misogyny, and for NEVER calling this out. Now we can add “vile homophobia” and “frightening violence” to the list.

It’s everyone else’s fault but your own, and yet y’all are the only ones attracting these blogs.

[kalied0skull]

Drawing request

Steve and Sodapop in the truck getting absolutely high on weed together

it took me longer than I'd like to admit to finish this drawing ... but it's here !

now playing : Sunset — OTE ♪

they're high as fuuuuuuuck on dat good kush from iceland , straight after work !!!

i dunno if this detail is important but soda is in fact laying with steve's jacket on his lap , he stole that thing at some point in the night and yeah :3

anyways rambling under the cut as per usual !

AHHHH this was so fun to doodle 💀 although it did take LITERALLY FOREVER to get the drawing to look good to me, soda was a pain in the ass to capture properly for some godforsaken reason but i DID IT and I'm really proud with how it turned out

my ass was not gonna color the rest of the car so ignore the fact it's just... blue... but also ! it's mostly there so i could practice lighting, it's not often i do night time art :D and it was super fun to just try it out really simple in a art request doodle (it looks okay, not my best work, but it's a first timer too)

anyways whenever it comes to soda and steve high i can only think a few things:

they get gayer, they get quieter, and they get gigglier. because if there's one thing a high does, is it FUCKS WITH YER BRAAAINNM MAAAANNN... hehehe

steve's having a gay panic anytime he looks at soda, and soda can't stop staring. he's over there admiring steve and staring and batting his lashes and steve's going "ohfuckheslookingatme ohfuckhesreallypretty ohfuckithinkiwannakisshim" and neither of them ever do anything

anyways it was really funny to envision this drawing and it was even sillier to actually make it! it's not my best work.. but it definitely goes into my favorites :3c

[moss-in-my-shoes]

-Tim Wright Headcanons-

Tw: horror and self harm imagery!!!! 18+ ONLY.

The most normal out of the three men.

He’s probably had about fifty jobs at this point, every gas station in a twenty mile radius has probably hired Tim.

He can’t ever keep it though, not when he’s disappearing for weeks at a time and ghosting them whenever he, Jay, and Brian have to run away from Alex/The Operator.

Bro just wants to live a normal, mundane life.

Feel like he’s unlabeled when it comes to sexuality, he’ll date any gender as long as they’re not a bad person, but prefers men.

Thinks Hoodie is annoying and Jay is reckless.

Is also super intimidated by Hoodie and that messes with his head, gay panics about it a lot.

Is neutral about Masky and his existence, but when Masky is in control, it’s like blacking out for Tim.

He wakes up disoriented, sore, and feels like he needs to smoke seventeen cigarettes.

Masky is slowly becoming more and more Tim and Tim is slowly becoming more and more Masky.

It’s starting to scare him.

Met Brian when he was very young, before he started going to the hospital, but they rekindled their friendship in high school and college.

Definitely smokes a pack a day.

Actually liked Alex up until Marble Hornets happened, but was more obvious about not liking him with his mannerisms and attitude later on.

Hangs onto Jay when they’re investigating to make sure he doesn’t get himself killed.

Unaware that Brian also does that to him.

Wanted to be an astronaut as a kid.

Definitely over-diagnosed and under-diagnosed at the same time.

Is still getting all the pills they need because of it.

Loves orange only because Jay likes it.

Honestly hates alcohol, it tastes like piss to him, he makes that “this shit nasty” scrunched face- but this dude literally smokes the cheapest and most disgusting cigarettes on the planet.

Resting bitch face all the time. He has it when he’s happy, when he’s angry, when he’s sleeping, mf gets tan lines in his eyebrow creases because he’s always got attitude.

Ocarina of Time fan, has beat it a few times and has a keychain of Epona.

Masky fucks up his tough guy persona by acting like a rodent.

Had a puppy when he was little, he doesn’t know what happened to him though.

Moths follow him everywhere, even in the daytime, or if there’s no light around him, there’s still moths.

Is a bit of a pretentious asshole when it comes to music, like he thinks he’s slightly better than you if you don’t listen to a certain selection of artists.

“Name five of their songs” lookin ass bitch. He doesn’t mean to be mean though? (Maybe).

Helps Jay take his T shots, he’s desensitized to needles, but can see how nervous it still makes Jay. Alex used to help Jay, but Tim took over when Alex went insane.

Is the only person who can actually touch the Operator when being attacked. Hoodie and Jay collapse, (Jay first, Hoodie second), but Tim can actually stay upright for long enough to actually touch it.

Tim describes it as what a dead channel on a Tv sounds like, vibrating under his skin, and what it would feel like if maggots ate his bones.

Jay and Brian made him stay in bed a lil longer after that particular incident.

Hasn’t cried in five years.

Wants to be a farmer now. Just taking care of animals, chasing after ducks and chickens, shoveling hay into a barn, driving a tractor. It’s all very appealing to him. (And if Jay and Brian were there, he wouldn’t complain).

Wraps an arm around Jay whenever they’re in public and keeps an eye out for Brian.

He’s obviously very gay for them I’m sorry, how am I supposed to not headcanon him being hella gay for those two???

Has a bunch of self harm scars, mostly from breakdowns where he couldn’t calm down unless he tore up his arms.

He thinks they’re ugly, but Hoodie always wants to run his hands over them, he only lets him if he’s Masky.

That’s it for now! Bye!

[blacknedsoul-blog]

An unnecessarily detailed analysis of Lenore's face when she realizes how gay she is

(Someone thought to tell me that I wrote "incessantly" instead of "unnecessarily" the last time I did this? Didn't they? You people are terrible).

These two vignettes make me crack up. Partly because it's always funny to see Miss "I can pick fights with the Deans, but thinking about my crush makes me nervous UwU" panic, but also because it's impressive how many things have just clicked in Lenore's head at this point.

Like, this girl must be feeling like when you finish a puzzle. A very gay one.

What she knows so far

At this point, as far as Lenore knows, she and Annabel have not seen each other again. There was a goodbye, and she is aware of how much that hurt her. For me, there are two possibilities:

In this flashback, Lenore has realized that she is in love with Annabel, but it is an unrequited affection.

She interprets these feelings as "oh, I'm attracted to her because she was my only friend and she was painfully ripped out of my life. Yes, friends. Very good friends.

Personally, I prefer to interpret it as the second option (you will see why).

On the other hand, it's impossible not to see how willing Annabel is to give and receive affection when it comes to Lenore: in this scene, she tries to say goodbye with a kiss,

And when they're in the closet, she literally throws herself at her.

And I want to point out one thing: Lenore doesn't remember a romantic relationship, but her body seems to: she instinctively strokes her hair when she cuddles her, even though Annabel didn't ask her to. They have done this before. There is a familiarity to this interaction.

Finally. Lenore learned chapters ago that she burned down her house, stole her dead brother's clothes, cut her hair to look more like a man for…something. She doesn't know what yet, but it had to be something important.

And she remembers it when Ada opens her mouth.

(parenthesis: that comment also makes me laugh a lot, like, Ada, dear, if you knew the CRAZY things this woman has done for love).

Please, appreciate this gay panic

If Lenore had any doubt about her feelings for Annabel (assuming option 2), it has been completely erased: she is in love with her. There is no acceptable way to rationalize this as anything else. She was in the past and she definitely is now. That's what draws her to her, that's why she desperately wants to confide in Annabel, that's why her affection seems familiar.

As if that were not enough, Annabel has that ring on her. Not only has Lenore just been hit by the reality of her own feelings, she has just realized that her love is reciprocated, this is not a one-sided crush, they are going to get married. Suddenly, these invasions of her personal space are understood for what they were: an attempt to have a physical relationship on the terms one would have with a romantic partner. Because Annabel was not her friend.

She was her fiancée.

Also, because Lenore is too pure a cinnamon roll for the world, she must be wondering how much she hurt Annabel with this: how she dodged her attempts to show affection, how she doubted her, and, the icing on the cake, that comment:

And all this mental cocoa is perfectly condensed into the expression she has in these two vignettes.

Honestly, the scene is perfect as it is, with no dialogue, but you can almost hear her thinking, "I…I did…I told my fiancée we're friends, blaze".

[serqphites]

HEAR ME OUT….

Lee harker x single mom!reader 🤯🤯🤯🤭🤭🤭

STOP BC I COULDN’T IGNORE THIS UNTIL TOMORROW (yes it’s 2:40 while i’m writing this rn) you have given me such bad brain rot with this 😭

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okay so let’s say you have a daughter around the age of 3. things had been rough before meeting lee, life pretty much being put on hold for you as you couldn’t go anywhere without your child.

you met lee in your local store, just minding your business when your daughter decides it’s time to play matchmaker!

despite calling for her as she runs and runs further away from you, she still doesn’t listen until she finds herself hiding behind a very stiff lee harker’s leg.

girly is stressed LMAOOO, like where the hell has this random child come from and oh my god why is her mother so beautiful??

“oh my god i am so sorry!” you’re trying your best to remove your daughter from lee’s leg, but apparently your child has super strength and forgot to tell you.

“no no-“ GULP, “you’re fine” you’d honestly think someone was holding her at gunpoint and forcing her to smile, why is she just showing off her teeth instead of smiling with them?

i can SMELL her gay panic.

once your daughter eventually lets go, you continue apologising profusely as you begin walking away.

“wait!” lee calls out, her voice shaky. she does an awkward little jog over to you, her arm extended towards you as she waves a small elephant teddy in the air.

oh yeah that’s when you decided to get her number. the baywatch jog to hand deliver the toy to you reallyyyy did it.

fast forward a few months and things are going great! lee comes over every friday after clocking out and doesn’t leave until she has to. your weekend sleepovers are consistently the highlight of her week.

she’s definitely… interesting when it comes to your daughter.

“sooo, this is your room.”

and your kids just sat in her bed like “ya.”

yeah you dragged her out of there. “lee you don’t need to talk to her like she’s a suspect, just be normal”

“that was me being normal” and she hits you with the :/

she defo sends you money for stuff like sitters and daycare to help with your part time job. it also frees you up for date nights!

(lee keeps tabs on the babysitter and every single person who works in the daycare your daughter attends, she came to stand on business)

when things start to get really serious between you two, lee decides to move you into her cabin! this cutie even changed her study into the cutest little forest themed nursery you’ve ever seen.

“lee it’s perfect! thank you” you’re literally on the verge of sobbing and she’s just stood in the doorway like 🧍‍♀️🙂

lee does become better around your kid, acting more loving towards her and not being as afraid of her LMAO

also she’s so fucking overprotective.

lee never asked why you were a single mother, she didn’t really think it was her place. it took you quite a while to open up to her about it, her holding you as you finally let out all of your emotions for the first time since falling pregnant. men fucking suck.

NSFW:

jumping straight into it, it turns her on so much that you’re a single mother.

i can picture her sat at her desk that’s now in the corner of your bedroom, her fingers hooked into the loop of your jeans as words of adoration spill from her lips.

“i think you’re so strong”, “it’s so hot that you did that all by yourself”, “you’re so amazing”.

before you know it she’s trailing kisses down your stomach, one hand coming up to rub the center of your chest as the other undoes your belt buckle…