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deep-spacediver577 · 2 years ago

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*Hugs Skulker*

*Surprise hug*

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k-yujin · 1 year ago

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read the tags !! // officially quit

#⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀#ok first of all why am i writing in tags you may ask #well i find it less awkward to express in my tags rather in the actual post it self since im one hell of an awkward piece of shit hihi #ANYWAY TO THE TOPIC OF ME QUITING #this has been very long due #like i mean everyone has to have seen it coming #specially since i dont post as frequently and j lost most of my motivation #one. because school is my current priority #two. is my personal life !!! i’ve been vry vry busy keeping up with irl frends and also my family #but the main reason had to be my lack of motivation as in its non existent #next topic !!!#i will be deleting most of my asks and random posts soem of which are memorable to me will be rbloged to my personal acc !#ah and yes will i be coming back?#probably will be lurking time to time but who knows i might actually come back on joshuas bday solely to post a joshua mb HAHAHAHA #ilovemyman frr #I WAS SUPPOSED TO POST THIS ON THE DAY JOSHUA ACTUALLY POSTED ON HIS IG #ok im getting sooooo off topic #but like hooray my last theme is actually jjong toram HAHAH #i actually quited before november like the end of oct but i was too lazy to make a post about it hehehe #but luvi knew ofc :>#anyway if were close moots frel free to add me in discord not like im actually really active #@stariaz. 🤓#who knows i might actually take this back if suddenly the little devil inside me decides to revive itself #anyway this is user k-yujin offically(?) signing off 🤓🤓#ALSOOO DOESNT MEAN I QUITED PPLCAN USE MY STUFF W/O GIVING CREDS !!! (ehem ehem my dividers 👁)#please give creds or i will literally come alive #i still have someone who acts as my eyes here even though j wont post no more #guys i have to wake up at 5 am gud night 🤩#also i cut my hair 😶#thabks for 3.4k though 🫵🫵

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tullycicero · 5 months ago

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the funniest part of being in dark academia spaces etc online is that you do really begin to see how like fake all of it is when people are posting and reblogging pictures of your own university (and romanticising your own degree) and they've all just been... desaturated to high heaven like no the shortcut to your lectures doesn't look like that - nothing weirder than seeing people look up to what is essentially half of your life as an aesthetic pinnacle and meanwhile there you are doing studying the classics in an old british university and that is not the vibe

idk it just makes me laugh, seeing photos that can literally include the outside of my own student bedroom being romanticised when i can see very clearly that the sepia filter is blasted to 100 and there aren't tourists everywhere

#like this isn't to sound braggy #like oh i live the real dark academia life #im so lucky to have my degree and my uni #its more a remark on just how fake aesthetic spaces are #and the people who curate them are so aware of that #but those who consume it aren't necessarily as aware #and that it creates this lie that lifts up certain subjects and institutions #without a recognition of how different experiences of that subject or place can be #but the lack of recognition of seasonal change is also very amusing #but it is both funny and sad the obvious manipulation of reality #that said #the reason i am in dark academia spaces is because it motivates me when i feel tired of my degree #to remember my own passion for it #and how lucky i am #and how hard i worked to get here #and that this is my dream #and the desensitisation to the wonder of these places and lifestyles #is a real problem #and we should all live with a little but more sparkle #classics #classics student #classicsblr #latin student #oxbridge #dark academia #seeing people aspire to what you have #as someone who also aspired to it #is inspiring #KEEP GOING #you can make it

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keeps-ache · 8 months ago

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i should learn to make hash browns

#just me hi #the diner style is my favorite :>#that and sonic tots. i love those sm #oh and there's a gas station that makes these little fried potatoes with cheese in the middle! 15/5 would recommend !!#potatoes...#also i wanna learn to make alfredo pasta #love it v much but the restaurant i liked it from filed for bankruptcy and thus exploded hfbsh ;w;#that and chicken pot pie #the frozen ones you can just pop in a toaster oven are GREAT #but i don't want to company to explode one day and i be left chicken pot pieless. it would be utterly devastating hfhs #and in that vein - menudo as well. best food on the planet nothing else to say nothing else to compare #i always put So much lemon in though hfsh - one day i'll just be eating lemon juice with some seasonings thrown in lmao :)#anyway can you tell i'm hungry. i'm hungry hfbvshf #//but in other news oh my lllllllaaananndndnsnssssjhdhbshf #fighting for my life against my lack of motivation for anything rn #poking my brain with a stick. with another stick. and another stick. and another. and another #maybe if i use more sticks it'll start to do somethin i dunno lol #i COULD be drawing. or writing. but.. i'm not. ? ?????#why? that's the big mystery baby !!! :D [<- slowly dissolving into a goop (not the epic kind)]#i'm not feeeeeeeeeeeelin it and i think that's. it's. it's SILLYYY #it's just ridiculousssssssssssssssssssssssssss #preposteroussssss wwahauhauha #and my head feels a tad weird. is that a symptom or a cause? i will investigate further and gather more clues [<- will wait for it to go #away and then not think about it again] :3 #really though i hate how i get halfway through something and then Stop #like ?? hey ?? i was still using that ?? what's up ??#and my software will go 'oh this :) no yea i see that :) but it breathed around me funny dude :) no yea yea it's going into the #fridge (it won't return) :) yea nice chat dude see ya :)'#criminal. absolutely criminal. it should be the deaths sentence for this ! who's with me !!!#/lol but yyyea

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springs-hurts · 1 year ago

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It'll be alright someday...

Till then...I'll just focus on chocolates 🦆

#my life is disaster in making at this point #and yet here i am #it's me hi i'm the problem it's me #desiblr #c'est la vie #How am I supposed to learn #French #Bangla #Economics #History #There are so many subjects #And hobbies #I'm falling apart now #lol #Motivation #More like Lack of lol #I'm not trying hard enough like others #Life

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leejungchans · 1 year ago

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peeks in hi

#just popping in to say imy all <33 and that the svt thoughts asks ive been getting lately are really making me miss writing #and being more active here </3 i’ve never once forgotten ab the remaining reqs from my 2k event and i have every ask saved 🤧#life’s just been kind of … since when i started the event and i’m only probably going to be busier when my semester starts #bc i have my first teaching placement starting oct but! i really do hope i can put out more stuff and be more active here 🤧#idk why exactly it’s taking me so long but ig it’s a mix of lack of motivation/insecurity/general unhappiness #but just know i still read every single kind comment you leave on my work <33 and sincerely tysm <3333 #and ty if you’ve still been sticking around and checking in on me <33 i really do appreciate it and better things will come for this blog 💖#in the meantime feel free to send more svt thoughts bc i genuinely love getting them and they’re really nice motivation for me! 😽#sol speaks

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jasonntodd · 2 years ago

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#i’m thinking of unhiding the mods w conversions #the sims outfits abd hairs #but nothing else bc going back to MR rn really fucking pisses me off #*ME #i’m genuinely upset and mad but there’s nothing i can do about it rn #it does make me sad having to hide my mods bc buff shep is so important to me #and ofc not just me but to so many ppl in the community bc of the lack of body diversity in the game but damn #ugh #i havent moved past some feels about them and i need to move on before unhiding all of them #but i’m so upset that s fun thing for me is no longer fun and makes me so fucking mad #😭😭😭#but not knowing what i can/can’t release has put a damper on things and motivations as much as that sucks 😔😔#i mean life has to come first too so that’s another factor bc modding was def taking up too much of my time everyday #bc i clearly don’t have a concept of healthy boundaries #i’ve been so busy and so ugh and AHHHHH #sorry i’m just so tired and sad recently and so i’m really negative and harsh on myself and thoughts rn #just kill me now pls #personal

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radioactive-cloud · 27 days ago

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spent most of my day in the dark empty cold apartment because russians think it's a great idea to launch missiles and drones at power facilities alongside the regular people's houses they have as targets and my feeling-like-shit thing i have going on only intensified

#the power cuts are longer today as they probably will be the next few days and it kinda makes me want to claw at the walls of my room #i feel like a lonely sad caged animal who has nothing meaningful to do #but also i have things i need to do but i lack the motivation for it #aka my thesis which i'm putting off writing and try and fail to make some progress at each and every day #this is literally the worst and i hate this and i hate myself #and i've started reading the fic and it's just like two years ago and the time flies so fast it scares me #and i will be 22 soon and i don't want this because i have no idea what i'm doing in life and who i am and if there is a future at all #and i feel stuck in this body in this room in this apartment in this gray city with these thoughts running over and over in my mind #and i just want this to stop #the power is expected to be back in twenty minutes and then after two hours it will be gone again so this is great #and tomorrow it will probably be just the same fucking thing and i will hate every minute of it

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lntrusiveknock · 2 months ago

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get this IN my head and heart:: the idea that i am born to be more is only an illusion and i was literally born to fail! yes now find gratitude instead of entitlement to this idea coined by a group of people with whom you Dont Fundamentally belong.

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somelonelybitch · 2 months ago

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sometimes i feel like im depressed without the unhappiness

#hear me out #I lack motivation to do simple things like get out of bed at a reasonable time and brush my teeth #I’ll do it but it’ll be at 3pm #I just want to stay in bed all the time #I can feel numb #I might delay my self care or even neglect it #I’m having my first meal at 4pm if you can even call it a meal #I’m not looking after myself #but I’m not sad #I don’t feel that overwhelming sense of doom and despair that’s associated with depression #and I have happy moments with family and friends #or when I’m lost in a book #but life recently has very much felt like I’m floating without living #depressed without the depression #please tell me I’m making sense

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kanatashinkaifr · 5 months ago

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god i have too many interests and too little motivation. i have a minimum of 10 unplayed otome games on my switch, 10 more on my PC, a whole fucking collection of horror rpgs i need to play, multiple otome routes that i can read online at any given time, an entire bookshelf of unread classic lit and manga, and like, 7 ongoing art and sewing projects. send help the adhd demons r taking over.......

#audhd boygirl vs the perils of life (lack of motivation)#i literally have gilberts ENTIRE route in my notes app but just. havent fucking read it.#ghghh whats even the point in taking these pills if they do like nothing. they not make me NOT bad. not GOOD.

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parasiticstars · 5 months ago

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I cleaned my blog

#not to sound like im attention seeking #but im attention seeking.#whats the point of making and posting my art if it gets like 1 note #like im not expecting 2 get popular or wtvr but im already drained afs and drawing is a slog and my life is a mess and #im not even motivated to do my one (1) hobby #damn #I should just learn how to make mid ass ai porn. that'd get attention.#like what IS it abt my art thats lacking? not js from an anatomical perspective-- what is it thats so unappealing?#the fact that its traditional art? the fact that its derived from anime? is it just some bad luck juju shit whatever that I carry that make #everything I try OKAY but never good? god punishing me for not dying when I shouldve?#maybe js the fact that I dont even practice bc of aforementioned how much I literally hate drawing at this rate? the world will never know #idk man im tired and im close to just deleting my blog #and myself #BTW I AM N O T FISHING FOR COMPLIMENTS #I genuinely want advice on my shitty doodles so theyre less shitty I am dead ass. cadaverous posterior even.

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relicsongmel · 7 months ago

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Just spent over an hour searching for the static Ho-oh in the overworld and suddenly Ryuji taking literal years to reunite with his family makes sense to me now

#mel's musings #forest for the tree #the joke is that during his deadbeat era he was off doing the exact same thing. hunting for legendary pokemon to show his daughter #at least my ho-oh was stuck in one spot. HE on the other hand had to find that bastard roaming. makes sense it took so long #denise's dad is an enigma to me. he's not a bad dude at his core but he has VERY misguided ways of showing he cares #case in point: trying to make dena happy by helping her meet the pokemon she's been fascinated with since childhood #except this idea was born from him just straight up abandoning her and her mom. which is THE root of almost all her Issues™#he also lacks emotional maturity and is utterly incapable of seeing things beyond his own perspective sometimes #when his arguments with jen reach a breaking point he takes it as a sign she doesn't love him anymore #rather than recognizing they're both impatient by nature and not the best communicators and probably got married too young #and instead of analyzing his own feelings or talking them out with her (or you know. going to therapy) he just. leaves #his decision IS motivated by love in a way. because he thinks she'd be happier without him. but it's mostly just insecurity and fear #and he does feel bad that little dena got caught in the crossfire. so he tries to make it up to her in his own way #dena's conflicting feelings about his re-entry into her life is a WHOLE other can of worms to be honest #because she doesn't even realize how angry she is with him until she sees him again. she doesn't forgive him right away #but she's at least willing to give him the chance to prove himself again. bc that 10 year old girl who wanted her dad back never died ;_;#why is it that every time i try to be funny on tumblr dot com i end up writing emotional ass meta instead. how does this always happen #this was supposed to be a joke about dena's ho-oh hunt going about as well as her dad's. like father like daughter or some shit yk #ANYWAY that ho-oh sucks and i hope he lands on a stealth rock. good riddance #mel plays scarvi

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adambomb82 · 10 months ago

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hahahahahahahha uhhhhhhhhh

#man i am not feeling great #like ohysically fine but mentally #hooooooo boy #i need a creative outlrt i think #i miss playing music eith my friends #or collaborating creatively with other people #i feel a lack of motion in the creative aspects of my life #music isnt necessarily hard to listen to but i feel very over saturated in terms if music #too much too fast #i want to finish my mobile synth rig but that costs money #i have a funny feeling ill get all the stuff and then eint be motivated to actually make music with it #i have also been feeling exceptionally lonely recently #im concerned i wont find someone #im just tired and want more meaningful connections in my life #but also im savoring my independence currently.#its nice to be so free and independant #no one to answer to and no one waiting for me #but also i crave that #once again i miss you #i hope youre doing well #i hope youre happy #this too shall pass

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cosmicdreamgrl · 11 months ago

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#as fun and somewhat cathartic gifmaking is (it helps take my mind off life for a bit & that's nice)#i think i've slowly begun to realize why people feel frustrated with this site as of late #what is the point of people following you if they're not even going to support anything you make?#(not referring to the people who're on breaks for personal reasons or whatever)#and by that i mean reblogging posts #because likes don't do shit #don't get me wrong it's not the lack of notes i'm upset about #it's the mentality #people want content of their faves but don't want to spare it any kind of love or attention #and then wonder why ccs have lost the motivation to make anything/anything super intricate or complex #look at yourself #it's your fault #it had to be said #i've kept it in but not today #steph.text

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koizan · 1 year ago

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I think the fact that I’m allergic to my own cat actually does a really good job at capturing how I feel about my entire life as a whole but for now I’m gonna eat some pasta and maybe the sense of accomplishment from cooking something for myself for the first time in months will help delay me inevitably feeling worse about everything until a later time

#everyone loves me but no one can help me #everyone likes me but I am always alone #everyone thinks I’m great and yet I’m still completely unequipped to handle the real world #all my friends are busy and/or physically distant #my family is physically distant but when they’re here to take care of me they’re awful #every time I find something I could pursue I’m horrifically lacking in some aspect #I know exercise would help but there’s always some Problem in the way #I’m constantly lacking energy and when I have it I lack motivation #my education is the only thing I have going for me and that has been failing me horribly #I’ve never been sure about anything in my life except in regards to my reproductive system #I’ve got no emotional permanence and regret every single decision I’ve ever made #I’m kind of able to talk to people but mostly I really really suck at it #literally all I can do is lay in bed feeling guilty for feeling lonely and helpless #no one ever handheld me through life and I was fine without it #but now all I need is to be handheld #shit ass existence #wish I had the courage to just quit whining and grit my teeth and do SOMETHING #but I know the part of me that would just rather make excuses and feel bad about myself is always gonna win #I wouldn’t normally want to post something like this but I’ve never crashed this bad and like idk #part of me thinks it would help if someone could relate which I’m sure plenty do #but in a way that’s just even sadder #if everyone feels this way then what the fuck is wrong with society #but then again… I’m probably just seeking external blame for something entirely my own fault

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