#this too shall pass

[sydsixxftm]

I had so many friends and fans who were worried about my absence. I love you all! Thank you for the support over the years! I can happily announce that I have completed college and I have moved on to my career in a field I am passionate about. Do not worry about me. I am surrounded by love and success

Why Did Syd Sixx Leave Porn?

TW for SA I originally wasn't going to say anything, because of how painful the situation is. I didn't want to speak out at all at first because of the social pressure not to speak up on these type of things.

In February of 2024 I was vaginally raped by a trans woman. She was homeless, I opened my home to her out of trans solidarity, and she raped me in my own bed.

After the she violated my body I couldn't have sex or even touch myself for about 4 months. I made the decision to leave the porn industry because it was too painful to keep going. Even with my own intimate partners in my personal sex life I began to have panic attacks when touched.

Not only was the sexual assault damaging to my 6 year long career as an adult performer, it ruined my sense of self. I was so dysphoric and suicidal. My entire world, everything I knew, was ripped away from me.

When I had mentioned being raped by a trans woman, I was met with multiple dogpiles telling me to detransiton, death threats, and other harassment. I tried to be very clear that I do not view all trans women as rapists, but they attacked me viscously anyways. I spiraled into a deep depression.

I left the porn industry behind because I couldn't force myself to keep going. And honestly? It was the best decision I have ever made for myself. For the first time in my life I am developing a healthy relationship to sex and a healthy relationship with my body. My dysphoria has also improved since leaving modeling behind. The porn industry was keeping me in a cycle of psychological abuse. Studies show that being a sex worker is more traumatic than being a EMT, being an ER nurse during covid, and even worse for the mind than being a troop who saw combat. It's no longer worth it to be to let myself be sexually abused for money. I can look back fondly on some of my performances. but overall... the sex industry is nothing but abuse, rape, and death. I watched it chew up and spit out so many trans people. I've watched the industry push young trans people to suicide attempts. I can't ever go back. I don't hate sex workers, I hate the sex industry.

Side note: yes I'm still upset about the how toxic the trans community is to survivors of rape by a trans woman. There is a SERIOUS issue of intracommunity sexual violence that we cannot even address without being called a transphobe and told to detrans or to unalive myself. You should be ashamed about the way you treat survivors in your own community

[orgasming-caterpillar]

"fuck it we ball" is for stress about the future "it is what it is" is for stress about the past and "this too shall pass" is for stress about the present thank you for coming to my TED talk

[gh0sty-exe]

hey… so guess what podcast i got into after tma.. i think i’m only on season 3 but i’m vibing for the most part. but i had to draw the scrunglies in a similar style to my Jon piece. my eyes hurt from staring at this yellow for too long 🥲👍

[arthur-lesters-right-arm]

"This pain will linger with me still, I pray this too shall pass."

Found an old gold lighter (though I have no memory of ever buying it) and thus naturally I had no choice but to engrave it into Arthur Lester's This too shall pass lighter. Divine intervention at its finest. I have yet to put any lighter fluid in it but alas

[theglowingeyeballz]

I cannot put into words how much this podcast means to me

[obscurescholar]

"Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day."

— Alice Morse Earle

[sonandheirofnothinginparticular]

[nariothernick]

[3amcloudss]

this mf saved my life & has no idea.. 😩❤️

[dogpawsswapgod]

me

[elijasz]

okay, i promised a mutual some malevolent fanart, so here you go, people. I haven't traditionally done lineart, then colored digitally in a long time and I have to say I really enjoy it, especially now that I understand how to make the colors vibrant

[cryptifrog]

"C'mon one episode before bed"

The episode:

[this-too-shall-bleed]

soo another for the series of vaguely comforting john enjoying arthur play piano?

this one did in fact kill the fountain pen, by the way

had to break out my rotting microns

just the ink

[emmainabox]

this too shall pass

[sleepy-bebby]

[permafusion-stevonnie]

Happy Pride Month, y’all.