#kpop ppl scare me

[themmatennant]

death wish

imma start commenting mean things abt taylor swift under posts about her to see what happens

[bombuni]

guys im nervous … im seeing ateez soon and im the type of person who shakes ass and jumps everywhere at concerts. everyone’s been too serious in the pit like pls have some fun and shake some ass for mingi u know he wants to see it😓

[dokjaism]

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[linogram]

and all the advice assumes that i have clothes strewn abt my room and trash all over the place and that if i pick up just those things, my room will be like 90% cleaner, when i have those things under control and the next advice is just "everything needs a place" which is good in theory, but doesnt help me when to me "on top of the clutter of my desk" = "a place"

every time i get the motivation to clean my room im immediately reminded of how i just dont have enough storage space for all my stuff and then i lose the motivation

[itzsana-kiddingmenow]

𝙨𝙖𝙣𝙖’𝙨 𝙜𝙪𝙞𝙙𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙬𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙎𝙆𝙕:

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙬𝙤 — 𝙡𝙚𝙚 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙝𝙤:

𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙𝙨: 491

𝙖/𝙣: i know ppl were waiting for this chapter eheheh

𝙩/𝙬: rough tickles, minho cries a bit

𝒍𝒆𝒆: minho

𝙡𝙚𝙧: reader

𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒍𝒊𝒔𝒕: @someone-who-loves-kpop-saranghae @jeonginsdiary @leeknowstan33 @v--143 @wereallgonnadieonedaybutnottoday @inkytornpagess @lajanaa @a-wild-seungberry @channieissocute125 @soap143 @seungsluvv @skznccmlee @moony-9

𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐜 𝐢𝐬 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠! 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐞? 𝐤𝐞𝐞𝐩 𝐬𝐜𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐛𝐮𝐛s 🐇

what a brat 

just wreck him wherever 

the fact that you even manage to get the upper hand on him says a lot

and he’s definitely gonna get you back so might as well make it worth the fight 🥰

softly wrecking him does wonders 

get him everywhere just drive him insane 💗

“a—AH!!” Minho shrieked as your arms slid around his waist. “You scared me!” He whined. 

“Sorry!” You giggle, pressing your fingers into his stomach by accident and watching him tense up. “Oh? Did that…tickle?~” 

“N-No! Let go of me, brat!” Min started to squirm and try to twist out of your grasp as you gasped. 

“Now, that’s not nice.” Fingers dug into his sides and Minho was struggling, his lips sealed and face turning a bright red as his lips turned upwards at the corners. 

“mhmhnnmhmm!!” He giggled quietly. You managed to twist both of you onto the couch, where you were seated on the backs of his thighs. 

You only continued to try and tickle him into submission, his ears turning a light red and practically radiating heat. 

Until your fingers were in his armpits. That’s when he broke. “GAHH!! NAHAHAT THEHERE!!” He exclaimed, bucking upwards and finding himself at your complete mercy. 

“You’re such a brat! I need some way to make you stay, kitty cat…” You tease, and he turned even redder, suddenly squealing when your fingers slipped to the tops of his ribs next. 

“AHHHAHAHAHA!! YOUHU SUHUHUCK!!” He screamed, trying his hardest to stop his hysterics but failing.  

Minho began to cry tears of mirth, shoving his arms back to try and grab yours and kicking your back with his socked feet. 

You turn around and grapple his foot. That was enough to get him begging. 

“PLEASE!! NOT THERE I’M TOO TICKLISH THERE!!” Minho began to shriek as you slowly peeled his socks off. 

You shushed him as he began to kick out aggressively, and you managed to lock your legs around his ankles. “You ready?~”

Your fingers scribbled all over the arch of his foot, and to your delight, he lost it, emmitting a high pitched squeal before descending into hysterical laughter. 

“NOOAHHHAHAHAHAHA—!!” Minho squeezed his eyes shut, a wide smile stretching his face as he pounded the couch cushion with his fists in ticklish desperation. 

“Does it really tickle that bad?” You asked in a ‘sympathetic’ tone. 

“YEHEHEHEHES!! PLEHEHEASE LEHET GOOOHOHOHOHO!!” Minho let out another bout of uncontrollable cackles, the soft scribbling of fingers over his sensitive sole driving him absolutely crazy. 

“Mmm…why should I? You’re just too adorable to handle~” 

“PLEHEHEHEASE IHILL DIHIHIHIE!!” 

You decided to let up for a break; Min clearly needed one. 

He panted and slumped onto the couch, still giggling a little and wiping the tears off of his face. 

“Youhu suhuck!! Ihim gohohonna get you back so hard…”

You gasp. “Don’t sass me!” One poke to his knee was enough to get him to shut up. 

[kisseobie]

hun i honestly cannot find anything with ppl talking shit about you. i mean it’s good to know but like where in the hell did those anons get that info 🤨 ????

i honestly think maybe people deleted whatever they were saying or most people are blocked from seeing it, not entirely sure but i’m thankful my anons made me aware of it so that i can at least attempt to address this controversy. i hope you don’t mind me using this ask as my response to whatever “shit” people have been talking about me and/or my blog 😭

1. if people are upset about me writing nsfw for seobsoul, i could honestly not care less. the argument i have seen in most kpop nsfw writing discourse for idols who have recently turned 18 is that it somehow “doesn’t matter” that the people typically writing these works about these idols are literally in the same age range, sometimes even younger than said idols, for example, seobsoul. i have never written nsfw for seobsoul before they turned 18, and i don’t even think i started writing fanfiction for p1harmony before seob was 18 😭 do these people honestly think that we don’t see that they write for intak in the same way i write for seobsoul? people started writing smut for intak when he turned 18 as well, but it’s suddenly a huge issue when someone born in the same year as seobsoul writes for them too. mind you, intak is a total of 2 years older than jongseob and shota!!

2. i have nsfw warnings on my page for a reason. if people who don’t like nsfw for seobsoul choose willingly to snoop around on my page, that’s their prerogative. i clearly have different opinions on this topic than they do and that is ok! nothing i have written towards jongseob and soul has ever been predatory so to paint me as a weirdo is silly imo. if a p1ece is attracted to a member that is the same age range as them, why do they have to wait “a year or two” to write smut about them? that doesn’t even sound genuine in the slightest 😭 waiting to write smut doesn’t equate to not having sexual fantasies about them at their current age, it just means you’re scared of how people will react. i however, am not because why the hell would i be embarrassed of natural attraction to men my age?

3. “regardless their age, you don’t know these idols so you shouldn’t be writing smut about them” .. to this i say: there are bigger issues in the world. there are real predators on this planet and you genuinely think that me writing smut about boys my own age is the end of the world? fanfiction, including smut, will always exist. fanfiction is an outlet of creativity and i have never claimed that the things i write would actually happen in real life.. that’s the whole point of writing, at least to me.. to create universes based on people you love, and to share them with others who love those people as deeply as you do. however, i do understand that fanfiction will always be seen as a morally grey topic and i won’t sit here and attempt to explain my side in a 10-page essay. i will say though, that if you don’t agree with nsfw seobsoul writers, just block them and move on lol

anyways .. p1harmony comeback soon guys who else is excited :3

[ramblngz-of-a-lunatic]

I can't be the only one who's into dark coquette, kinderwhore, pastel goth, and gothic lolita fashion.

Aren't we all expressing feminity as a way to heal our inner child and/or as a statement?

Like I want to be cute in a threatening haunted doll kind of way, but also cute things make me feel safe.

I want to scare men with the crazy shit that leaves my mouth while there's bows in my hair.

You're telling me ppl dont listen to goth rock, riot grrl, lana del rey, and kpop?

Don't you wanna be creepy cute in all the ways?

Why are all these things separate to others, but tied in my mind?

Why don't you guys get it?

Rb or interact if you relate

(pls I need to find my ppl)

[delicateimage]

I used to never spend money AT ALLLLLL and I’d just have it to loan to my parents when they needed it so I used to always have a consistent amount of money so I didn’t worry about a job too much but now I’m spending a lot of it on gifts and going out more and stuff so now I feel like I’m in poverty (I didn’t spend THAT much money but yeah it’s still way less and I cry myself to sleep about where all my money went) so this is like the first time I’m actually considering getting a job but I’m so tired from school now idk how that’s going to happen… and I hate being perceived by people… and I haven’t had a job like… ever not even baby sitting or lawn mowing bc I was so sheltered and privileged and I hated people even more than I do now… but I think I should atleast start getting some job experience because what if I’m suddenly 25 and my resume is literally a blank stained sheet of toilet paper,,,, embarrassing

When I wanted to kms Atleast I had a focus for my life like wtf am I doing now

[melonminnie]

Twtptflob and headcannons I have for them 😇🫶🫶

jeremy used to eavesdrop on peoples convo then proceeded to bother them till they told him the full story of what happened

Dion would leak people’s information if it was a modern manhwa

Lant is actually crusty and gross and he thinks showering every two weeks is enough

Fontain is one of those give me a hug guy and that weird ass cousin nobody likes that wiggles his eyebrows and gives you weird smiles when your obviously disgusted by him

Baby achille was given the cutest baby title by his mom and she’s show him around to everyone till she accidentally dropped him in his head because a monster appeared

Maria would buy teddy bears tear them open then add food in them sew them together then cut them in half at her yea parties and force people to eat that

Charlotte is the definition of an annoying sibling who has to know everything and everyone to the point it’s embarrassing to be seen with them

Jeremy as a kid would ask girls what they’re Roblox username was so that he can add them 😱😱

Griselda has a collection of those tiny animal toys in her room for no reason

Cassis baked a cake once and burned down the batter

Sylvia is one of those people that gushes abt his brother none stop to the point you tell her to shut the fuck ur or you’ll murder him in his sleep

Jeremy as a kid had a gang which consisted of people that didn’t like dion ( one two years younger and one three years )

Dion had an emo phase and hated everyone and everything

Roxana comforted Jeremy once and gave him a cupcake :D!!!

Lant only has wife’s cause he acted like a gentleman till they got married and he’s canonically a man child of a husband

Sylvia carried her dead friend body once cause she got killed somehow and she kept falling while carrying the body 💔💔

Cassis owns two cats

Dion is apparently allergic to orange juice cause he said so (also he hates cheese and any flavor of cake that isn’t chocolate)

Jeremy hates sharing his food with anyone and would throw tantrums when asked to share

Griselda and charlotte like kpop (real)

If Maria had a daughter she’s comb her hair so roughly to the point of tears

Dion told Roxana that he likes someone so Roxana murdered that person

Child dion would cry in his room and tell himself he’s run away from this hell but now he’s hell itself 😣

Jeremy ‘accidentally’ scared a bunny so it ran and jumped so fast it hit the face of the driver that was driving the pedelian carriage so he fell face forward and almost ended up dead

Jeremy and Roxana were bored so they decided to bake a cake together Jeremy made it taste decent to their liking and Roxana was crowned the best decorater in the agriche 😣

Roxana was one of those Twitter girls that ppl used to ask pics for when they needed to trick someone so she’d help them out 🤗

rischel has a huge ego for god knows what

Ty for coming to my rant 😇💕💕💕

[pixlpxie]

do your friends know that you are into kpop smut? what do they say about it?

(im thinking about telling my irl kpop friends but im scared if they think im weird or something bc i know they dont read fanfic and smut, i feel like its better to keep a secret 😅)

Babe my friends think I'm capable of committing the most heinous crimes I could tell them that I have cartels and I am actually a mafia boss killing ppl they would believe me, I'm not even joking they told me themselves. So, me being into kpop smut is the least shocking thing they know about me, they know I'm a pervert through and through lmao smut aint smth theyre shocked 😭😭 ngl they can kinda enjoy me being like this tho they learn new stuff from me every day☝🏻 so if you think they are the types to judge, don't tell them its not worth it. But if you know they won't judge you even if theyre not into it, go ahead and tell them its so fun to thirst over your kpop boy and watch them get horrified💓

[transgods]

91, 90, 67, 64, 61, 48, 38, 25, 23, 11, 10

10. any unusual fears?

i don't have that many fears at awl in general i think but i get so anxious i can't sleep if i have to share a bed w someone i don't like trust aha also i used to be deathly afraid of stingrays as a kid like to the point where vaguely stingray shaped things like. the pool cleaners used to scare me. like id swim in a pool and if i saw this thing

under me i would literally just exit the pool and refuse to get back in until it was removed. idk if im still scared of rays now tho

11. favorite myth?

collapses to my KNEES.... if no one got me the epic of gilgamesh got me. its The story. to me

23. what's popular with the people around you that you can't seem to get behind?

irl its kpop... all my friends r into kpop but i am just not rockin with any of the songs ive heard so far but im honestly ok with this. the ticket prices...... i will stay listening to my established range ty DGFGHJHJK and hmmmmmm i think online it'd be like. dnd or in an extension of that bg3 like im sorry but i just. maybe its not for me

25. do you collect anything?

YES the uhh nano/petit/mini bricks/blocks theyre basically mini legos and way cheaper than lego. ive gotten pretty much every aquatic animal from petit bricks theyre sitting on my shelf i love them :') extremely good activity to do when my hands get twitchy

38. what is your love language?

its definitely physical affection i am thee cuddly bitch of all time. second is words of affirmation tho. why are u asking me this u gay or smth?

48. you get to give a one-sentence note to yourself from a decade ago. what does it say?

kill yourself NOW! im kidding but idkkkkkkkk it might be surprise that i made it another decade or smth. not sure. past me is a bit of a mystery

61. do you believe in/follow any superstitions?

AWAAHHH off the top of my head im blanking bad but i dont eat bananas on lunar new years. or when theres like an exam. neither does the rest of my family. idk why

64. what's the best thing you can cook?

oh wow i love thematic continuation. its banana bread LMFAOO it might just be my favourite thing i can cook though

67. what's your favorite obscure piece of media?

HM i do not consider this obscure but ive literally never met someone else whos into this but the graphic novel/comic series called saga..... literally excellent idk

90. weirdest habit?

hmmmm i don't know whether this counts as a habit but i paint my nails just to pick off the polish otherwise i would probably ruin them altogether. hands need enrichment

91. what's a common misconception people have about you?

at this point i dont even know anymore i got too much stuff im juggling to work out exactly who is perceiving what.. i do think ppl think im smarter than i actually am tho eek

[ventismacchiato]

is it just me or is anyone else scared to change their wallpaper to a kpop idol bc they could judged for it and get called weird or sum 😭

who’s we soobins been my wallpaper for months now ☝️ most of the time ppl will think it’s ur bf unless it’s like a stage photo or smth

[woovalin]

this whole taeil situation has really been stressing me out and I hope it’s ok if I can say how I feel about it here.

I am just absolutely disgusted by him. Every time I think about the situation my heart breaks for the victim/victims involved. As a young fan hearing that the victim was a minor just distresses me so much. Recently I’ve become very very aware of the many many horrible things that happen to young girl and women and everything is pilling up into a bit of fear and anxiety.

like many others upon hearing the news my initial reaction was just shock that the news was abt him. I’ve been and nct fan for about 4-5 years and admittedly taeil was one of my favorites. It’s hard and distressing to learn that someone I admired could be doing

something like this, especially being close to the age of the victim.I know that there was no way I would have known about what he did but I can’t help but feel immensely guilty and naive. I feel disgusted by myself for having supported him. It’s so heartbreaking and gut wrenching to hear about these awful awful things that people do to young girls/children especially after learning abt the nth room situation. It makes me think of the fact that we live in a world where things like this could happen to any of the people around me and it’s scares me. I’ve been learning a lot about the rapidly increaisng violence against women all across the world and especially in Korea and I pray for the safety of everyone in the world. My heart goes out to the victims in all of these situations and I pray for them, I hope all victims get the justice they deserve.

being into kpop since 10 yrs old has taught me a lot of this about what people can really be like. I feel like I used to be really naive as to what people could be, I used to think who idols are on the surface are who they truly are but I’m always proven wrong. I tend to look for the best in people and think of them as good ppl but It’s something I feel like I can’t do anymore. No one truly knows who these people are behind closed doors and for me continue to think that all idols are these good ppl inside out by default is stupidity. I’m sure that there are idols that truly are good ppl but there is no way of truly knowing becuase at the end of the day I’m just a fan. I don’t know these ppl and they don’t know me. It’s all a huge reminder that at the end of the day these are grown men who are aware of there actions and the consequences.

I want to continue to support the idols and groups thst I like but I feel like I have to step back from it all for a while especially NCT. I don’t think I have it I me to listen to songs with him in it anymore. Ik it’s stupid but I feel bad for wanting to step back because i still want to support the other members but i think it’s best if I do take a break to sort things out.

Ty for a being a safe space during this time. I felt like I really needed to have my feelings and thoughts out. Writing abt it here has helped with my anxiety towards everything. If yoy feel uncomfortable posting this or reading it all the way through I totally understand and no worries I just needed to write my feelings out in a safe space like this and I hope that’s okay.

hi love, thank you for writing out your feelings, as i’m sure most fans feel the same way you do and need to vent about it. i wanna say that you’re not stupid for wanting to take a step back and take a break from all of this. you take as much time as you need; no one is going to be mad at you for it, and you need to prioritize your mental health as well. kpop is only a small part of our lives and there are much more important things to focus on, so let that thing be yourself in this instance.

you mentioned that you feel disgusted having supported him, and i understand that completely, although there’s no way to have known. and i wanna reiterate that while this isn’t about us and more so about the victims, and while we’re keeping them in mind, as fans, being upset is totally valid. it feels like a stab in the back, finding out that someone we supported for so long and invested all this time, money and love into, turned out to be a completely different person than who we thought they were. and we can blame ourselves for assuming that he was a good person by default, which anyone would assume, but it’s no one’s fault that the outcome and the truth were the complete opposite. we’re naive and don’t know, never knew, and will never know these people on any level except through a phone screen. we just automatically assume that these strangers we watch on our screens are at the very least, decent human beings, but who wouldn’t assume that, seeing the way they act on camera? which again, is naive bc they bring us so much comfort so you automatically want to believe they’re good people. but as we’ve seen, it can always be a front to cover up what they’re really like.

anyway, i think it’s important for you to take a break if you need to and that’s more than okay. and the most important thing is really to focus on the real issue at hand here, and try our best to help the women being targeted by people like him. staying informed and educating ourselves in order to properly address what’s going on and do our best to help the people who need it!

you don’t have to keep up with everything if you don’t have the mental or emotional capacity at the moment, and that’s okay. i understand wanting to take time and create space between yourself and the rest of the group and kpop in general. i will be doing the same for a little while. i think it would be good to ground yourself and clear your mind, until you’re comfortable enough to be able to get back to enjoying the music and content that we’re used to. and i also think it would be best to step away and come back with a better understanding of things, so that we can create a safe distance and boundaries between being so emotionally attached to our faves, and everything else (our real life priorities) that’s separate from being a fan and supporting celebrities to that extent again.

sorry for rambling, but thank you for your thoughts on this, i’m glad you felt comfortable venting to me and i hope i comforted you a little! take care of yourself first and foremost, and i hope you feel better! hugs 🫂 <3

[n04hfiction]

hi, if you don’t mind could i get a romantic matchup?

i’m 5’2 and i’m pretty average when it comes to weight. i have messy medium auburn/black hair, it’s kinda wavy, and i wear glasses. i don’t think i have a specific style, i’m definitely very eclectic, but i think i definitely dress more masc. the same could be said abt my music taste it’s definitely all over the place as well but i definitely listen to indie and kpop more than anything.

i love love love anything that’s horror related, best believe if a new horror movie is abt to come out i’m going to see it, i also have a strange interest in bats, jellyfish, sharks, and ferrets. i’m very into reading and writing, though i’m too self conscious to share any of it, and i love singing. i’d consider myself an ambivert but i’m more on the introverted side of things. i’m usually really quiet and i don’t speak much, i enjoy sitting in silence w the ppl i love. it takes me a while to warm up to ppl but once i do the whole quiet thing kind of just disappears and i become very loud.

my main love language is physical touch and i absolutely adore hugging ppl but i am very picky w who i touch and who i let touch me. i’m also a sleepy person so i’m constantly whining abt how tired i am or i’m just constantly sleeping. i can be really cold one second and really sweet the next, it’s kind of a hard thing to control. i’m genderfluid, bisexual, and i’m pretty sure i fit somewhere on the asexual spectrum (idk yet i’m trying to figure it out 😭).

i’ve been super into psychology for abt six years now, so i’d say it’s a special interest atp. i love learning languages and even though i only know two at the moment i’m trying to learn portuguese and italian and hopefully i’ll be learning more. i absolutely adore stuffed animals especially when they’re soft enough for me to sleep w. i’m very big on iced coffee and anything spicy. i also really enjoying anything that has to do w hair, be it dyeing or cutting, just anything.

hopefully this is enough bc lord knows i’d keep going, thank you!!

hello!! i ship u with karl!!

yall will watch a horror movie and he will cling to you the whole damn time xD but when you ask him if he’s scared he’ll be like “what what are you talking about :3”

encourages you heavily to share you creative works to like the internet or smth, he loves giving his feedback :)

cuddles with karl are just sjsjsjjs. especially cuz your like 9 inches shorter than him xD

[lqfiles]

wanted to know if it was a safe space to be an anti did u see her lyric ab wanting to be born in the 1830s “without the racists”……….

i learned that i blog i follow that writes anime fics had been actively fueled by her music to write one of my fav fic series and idk how to feel ab it

i have sm reasons to not like her sometimes im just a little scared telling ppl cuz idk how they’ll react cuz so many swifties behave like deranged delulu kpop stans 😭

—🪼

OH I SEEN THAT 😭😭😭😭😭 my question is just.. why was that the best and most appropriate line she could come up with 😭 i’m not gonna call her racist or anything but i’m just wondering, was she in the studio writing that like “oh this one’s a bangerrrr” no shade but the lyrics that i’ve seen come from this album are just soooooo ????? i saw this one about “touch me while your bros play gta” or smth HSJDKSHDK I HAD TO STOP FOR A SECOND.. once again no shade but from what i know swifties praise her lyricism a lot and this is not really making me go “okayyy lyrical genius”.. i wanna ask why else you don’t like her but i’m not trying to get the both of us attacked here.. she got fans on here too..

i honestly dgaf about her but imagine my surprise when i figured that like 80% of dreamzens are swifties hsjdkshdk every birthday edit being a ts song.. i just have to sigh like the chokehold she has on dreamzens is kinda crazy 😭😭😭 i’m more of an RnB lover which is probably why her music just doesn’t do it for me ever.. i’ve tried i swear but i just can’t lmaoooo DONT WORRY this is a safe space for this info 🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽🫶🏽

[nubinublado]

So weird vent but the whole drama with James Somerton is making me think about this more and more and I just gotta write it out at this point.

So, he deletes comments, i know this because he deleted one of mine. It was on the shipping video responding to the end or it when he started taking about RPF. I believe he made a point about how companies often have their idols queerbait cause #straight women are more comfy with male idols having sex with other men because it "doesn't count" so the idol maintains virginity (NOTE this is me paraphrasing by memory i was literally going rewatch or read the transcript but it is completely gone now holy shit).

But ya, because i'm a huge bts fan i wanted to give my thoughts on what he said about kpop and those problematic games on variety shows would make idols play that were designed to make them accidentally kiss. My comment was basically (again paraphrased from memory)

"Ya it's sucks that idols have to do queerbait-ey things," note the I meant talking about the aforementioned games not anything that would come down to cultural differences like the standard of how affectionate men can be with each other, "especially considering there have to be closeted idols who are queer (but we shouldn't be speculating ppl's sexualites) who are scared to come out because it would jeopardize their careers (not to mention they live in a very conservative country) but then all of a sudden they have to almost kiss their friends/groupmates"

In my comment I wanted to emphasize a fuck the industry cause in general I don't like the whole accusing real ppl of queerbaiting cause even in seemingly cut and dry scenarios like what I've described that person could still be queer and in an even shittier position than their straight counterparts who have to do that crap.

But I digress. Cause I swear the comment wasn't inflammatory at all I didn't name any idols or groups. Just a typical opinion that was left open to discussion. And it confused me on why he deleted it. Now I never tried to get an answer b/c I am of the belief that getting blocked or having a comment deleted is a hint and you should take it. But I'd be lying if i said that whenever that James comes up I don't think "what about that comment bothered him so much?"

Maybe I made a massive typo and accidentally said that we should speculate idols sexualities and I accidently called for a campaign of outing celebrities in a youtube comment section

Maybe I was too unnuanced with the whole no speculation point. Like, if an artist puts queer imagery in their work in a "if you get it you get it" kind of way towards queer fans. Is it problematic if queer fans pick up on the clues, does coming out only count if straight ppl can understand it etc etc. But still I feel like he could have just replied instead of deleting the whole thing. Again wasn't an aggressive comment very much open to discussion.

But he just deleted it. I wasn't mad just confused, still confused. Now that he's been figuratively exposed at every single angle I'm even more confused.

Like ya, it is tempting to say "oh I just wasn't misogynistic enough how dare I suggest that the industry is the real big bad" or "he thinks assuming sexuality is ok because then he can't brush off criticism by just assuming it's coming from a (straight) woman"

But, I dunno I have more integrity than that. Maybe it is a bad take. Still open to discussion it over 3 years later lol.

I've gone back and fourth between whether I should post this or not. But seeing that he's now deleted the video despite neither Hbomber or Todd in the shadow mentioning it their videos has sort of pushed me to archive its existence in some way even if it's just for a petty reason lolol.