#kpop isn’t important and everyone will be fine

[woovalin]

this whole taeil situation has really been stressing me out and I hope it’s ok if I can say how I feel about it here.

I am just absolutely disgusted by him. Every time I think about the situation my heart breaks for the victim/victims involved. As a young fan hearing that the victim was a minor just distresses me so much. Recently I’ve become very very aware of the many many horrible things that happen to young girl and women and everything is pilling up into a bit of fear and anxiety.

like many others upon hearing the news my initial reaction was just shock that the news was abt him. I’ve been and nct fan for about 4-5 years and admittedly taeil was one of my favorites. It’s hard and distressing to learn that someone I admired could be doing

something like this, especially being close to the age of the victim.I know that there was no way I would have known about what he did but I can’t help but feel immensely guilty and naive. I feel disgusted by myself for having supported him. It’s so heartbreaking and gut wrenching to hear about these awful awful things that people do to young girls/children especially after learning abt the nth room situation. It makes me think of the fact that we live in a world where things like this could happen to any of the people around me and it’s scares me. I’ve been learning a lot about the rapidly increaisng violence against women all across the world and especially in Korea and I pray for the safety of everyone in the world. My heart goes out to the victims in all of these situations and I pray for them, I hope all victims get the justice they deserve.

being into kpop since 10 yrs old has taught me a lot of this about what people can really be like. I feel like I used to be really naive as to what people could be, I used to think who idols are on the surface are who they truly are but I’m always proven wrong. I tend to look for the best in people and think of them as good ppl but It’s something I feel like I can’t do anymore. No one truly knows who these people are behind closed doors and for me continue to think that all idols are these good ppl inside out by default is stupidity. I’m sure that there are idols that truly are good ppl but there is no way of truly knowing becuase at the end of the day I’m just a fan. I don’t know these ppl and they don’t know me. It’s all a huge reminder that at the end of the day these are grown men who are aware of there actions and the consequences.

I want to continue to support the idols and groups thst I like but I feel like I have to step back from it all for a while especially NCT. I don’t think I have it I me to listen to songs with him in it anymore. Ik it’s stupid but I feel bad for wanting to step back because i still want to support the other members but i think it’s best if I do take a break to sort things out.

Ty for a being a safe space during this time. I felt like I really needed to have my feelings and thoughts out. Writing abt it here has helped with my anxiety towards everything. If yoy feel uncomfortable posting this or reading it all the way through I totally understand and no worries I just needed to write my feelings out in a safe space like this and I hope that’s okay.

hi love, thank you for writing out your feelings, as i’m sure most fans feel the same way you do and need to vent about it. i wanna say that you’re not stupid for wanting to take a step back and take a break from all of this. you take as much time as you need; no one is going to be mad at you for it, and you need to prioritize your mental health as well. kpop is only a small part of our lives and there are much more important things to focus on, so let that thing be yourself in this instance.

you mentioned that you feel disgusted having supported him, and i understand that completely, although there’s no way to have known. and i wanna reiterate that while this isn’t about us and more so about the victims, and while we’re keeping them in mind, as fans, being upset is totally valid. it feels like a stab in the back, finding out that someone we supported for so long and invested all this time, money and love into, turned out to be a completely different person than who we thought they were. and we can blame ourselves for assuming that he was a good person by default, which anyone would assume, but it’s no one’s fault that the outcome and the truth were the complete opposite. we’re naive and don’t know, never knew, and will never know these people on any level except through a phone screen. we just automatically assume that these strangers we watch on our screens are at the very least, decent human beings, but who wouldn’t assume that, seeing the way they act on camera? which again, is naive bc they bring us so much comfort so you automatically want to believe they’re good people. but as we’ve seen, it can always be a front to cover up what they’re really like.

anyway, i think it’s important for you to take a break if you need to and that’s more than okay. and the most important thing is really to focus on the real issue at hand here, and try our best to help the women being targeted by people like him. staying informed and educating ourselves in order to properly address what’s going on and do our best to help the people who need it!

you don’t have to keep up with everything if you don’t have the mental or emotional capacity at the moment, and that’s okay. i understand wanting to take time and create space between yourself and the rest of the group and kpop in general. i will be doing the same for a little while. i think it would be good to ground yourself and clear your mind, until you’re comfortable enough to be able to get back to enjoying the music and content that we’re used to. and i also think it would be best to step away and come back with a better understanding of things, so that we can create a safe distance and boundaries between being so emotionally attached to our faves, and everything else (our real life priorities) that’s separate from being a fan and supporting celebrities to that extent again.

sorry for rambling, but thank you for your thoughts on this, i’m glad you felt comfortable venting to me and i hope i comforted you a little! take care of yourself first and foremost, and i hope you feel better! hugs 🫂 <3

[aestheticpearl]

✩ ‧₊˚ ✩𝐬𝐚𝐤𝐮𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬 ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

✧·˚feat: kayson mayer, jonah, xanthus claiborne, andrew marston, issac rhoades, elias, zaros athat'lin, luca pearce, rowan

✧·˚summary: this is basically just my headcanons of what kind of music each character listens to and their favorite albums since saku only really listens to soundtracks and can’t really tell what they would like (that is a joke btw i know you also listen to some kpop)

✧·˚a/n: music is a very important thing to me so i hope i did everyone justice and feel free to add your opinions as well!

kayson mayer ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

favorite albums:

you never walk alone - bts . fine line - harry styles . hard to imagine the neighborhood ever changing - the neighborhood

okay hear me out, i definitely think kayson would be a kpop fan, not like a kpop stan more of a “i enjoy their music” more than anything. i feel like kayson isn’t huge on music but he love the slower stuff when he’s not at practice or trying to get pumped up for volleyball. he seems to have more of a moody taste in music in contrast to his more up beat personality, but i mean we all gotta cry over something.

jonah ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

favorite albums:

HIT ME HARD AND SOFT - billie eilish . currents - tame impala . brat - charli xcx

this bitch definitely loves billie eilish. only man i know that definitely cries to ‘what was i made for?’ besides kayson maybe. he fucks heavy with tame impala, but not in the master manipulator why that other man fuck with it. he loves having them on in the background of streams mostly. hyper pop king, loves charli xcx and he is having a brat summer. he is definitely on tiktok so much and is very much influenced by what’s trending on the app.

xanthus claiborne ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

favorite albums:

THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT - taylor swift . firebird suite - igor stravinsky . preacher’s daughter - ethel cain

LISTEN OKAY xanthus is the kind to never admit that he would listen to taylor swift but god damn it he loves her new album and her slower stuff she is his guilty pleasure artist for sure. okay he loves classical music but like classical music don’t really have ‘albums’ per say so i chose his favorite piece. firebird suite is something that he has adored the story that is told through the music, same with ethel cain’s preachers daughter. he loves how the music is telling a story more than anything.

andrew marston ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

favorite albums:

something to give each other - troye sivan . being funny in a foreign language - the 1975 . harry styles - harry styles

do you feel the rush andrew? sorry. i think honestly he has always loved troye sivan, might be the repressed gay in him but who knows. a full really fond of being funny in a foreign language, loves how raw the whole album is and enjoys the slower ballads. loves the debut album of harry styles, it’s just so soft and sweet he really likes listening to it.

issac rhoades ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

favorite albums:

cry - cigarettes after sex . laurel hell - mitski . did you know that there’s a tunnel under ocean blvd - lana del ray

bro is depressed. like i don’t know what you were expecting with him. he knows that most of the songs on the cry album are very sad but some are very sweet and he like the mix of the two. mommy issues up the wazoo so of course he listens to mitski. lana del ray is new and a bit more positive of a listen, it’s almost like someone special came into his life and change the outlook of it a bit.

elias ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

favorite albums:

who really cares - tv girl . star boy - the weeknd . positions - ariana grande

something about this tv girl album just screams elias to me and i think he would really enjoy this album the most out of the others. of course he loves the weeknd just look at him, he is a starboy and a party monster on the weekends. this bitch loves ariana grande’s positions album so much he created a stan twitter just to defend it against the haters.

zaros athat'lin ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

favorite albums:

the rise and fall of a midwest princess - chappell roan . MEGAN - megan thee stallion . GUTS (spilled) - olivia rodrigo

was it casual when you fought my claim? he loves chappell roan and will definitely tell you he listened to her before she blew up which in his defense he did but he doesn’t need to keep telling people that. loves megan thee stallion her new album is what he listens too before he insults the fuck outta earis. loves the range of emotions he feels when listening to olivia rodrigo, i’m convinced he’s just a teenage girl.

luca pearce ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

favorite albums:

songs - adrianne lenker . teenage dream - katy perry . MAP OF THE SOUL : PERSONA - bts

soft baby child loves soft songs that can put his ass to sleep in less than fifteen minutes. katy perry is his favorite, teenage dream got him through college and continues to make him romanticize the crap out of his relationship, as he should! he loves kpop, i just feel it in my bones that he loves persona and how happy the album is.

rowan ✧·˚ ༘ * ༄

favorite albums:

louder than bombs - the smiths . AM - arctic monkeys . the game - queen

he loves music that you could find in an old vinyl record store and these albums capture his taste perfectly in my opinion. a bit of indie here and alt rock there and you’ve got a rowan playlist that he will put on anytime he drives you anywhere.

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this is where i would put my glittery divider but i can’t add anymore photos lmao

.love always <3 pearl

.masterlist

[jentlemahae]

(hi it’s fashion anon from last week, sorry for the long ask again) fashion and music go hand in hand so i’m tired of people dismissing it. lots of people make good music but amazing styling makes you stand out from the rest so making fashion connections is important as it can help you rise to the top. zendaya herself said that she used to just show up to random red carpets dressed really well so she would be on every best dressed list to get her name out there which led to casting directors noticing her.

yes, being an ambassador doesn’t automatically mean you have good style. but in fashion circles bp are known for their style. they’re not talking about other idols the way they do bp (esp jennie). they have global fashion campaigns, they’re on magazine covers across 4 continents. they’ve got deals in 3 sectors (fashion beauty jewelry). they’re here to stay.

the issue isn’t that other idols are in fashion now. being upset about that is so trivial and dumb. we should want success for idols bc they work so hard. the issue is that people have been dragging bp for years for working in fashion but are now celebrating when their favs do. antis have been saying “bp only have impact in fashion not music 🤪” then getting angry when knetz (rightfully) praise their impact in fashion and dismissing it. pick a narrative and stick to it. stans won’t allow bp to be praised for anything.

again, bp aren’t the first ever but they’re the first group to have every member works with a separate brand. and they’ve had huge impact and now brands want to try to replicate that with other idols. it’s not that deep. give credit where it’s due.

another issue is *** fans are obsessed with being number 1 at everything. they’re already turning it into “who did dior want more”. jisoo had an entire collection and lipstick shades inspired by her. dior love her, she’s gonna be just fine. so ***** also being at dior changes nothing. they’re both gonna be successful and they both deserve to be.

not everything has to be a competition all the time. like lisa and * at celine. they brought in a huge crowd at pfw. lisa called him oppa and they partied together after. they’re clearly friendly w each other. but dumb twt stans just argued over who brought in the crowd and who’s more influential. maybe it doesn’t fucking matter. they don’t care and neither should anyone else.

i’m happy that *** are working with the brands that suit them and i genuinely hope they do really well. but these petty fights over who’s more successful are boring, immature and embarrassing.

ohh absolutely agree with everything! fashion can be a powerful tool to use to get ur name out there but honestly i think it's trickier to master than what most ppl believe, and the pinks are all great at it! and i think mostly thanks to their personal style, bcs they haven’t been exactly blessed with great stylists lol :) the pinks have had a massive impact on the intertwinement of kpop with luxury fashion, and i think everyone knows that but not all like to admit it :] some stans are adamant about turning everything into a competition and always want their own faves to come out on top so they won't ever give bp their due credit but what can u do 🤷🏻‍♀️ it’s so frustrating but honestly i don’t think those ppl will listen to reason any time soon :| i wish the best to *** with their new fashion endeavours but i wish these fights would stop bcs it’s veeeeeery annoying and embarrassing

[tenderlyrenjun]

so, on top of the explicit I-suck-at-writing/shut the fuck up messages from the universe (my followers), there’s also 🥁🥁🥁 subliminal messages that make me, personally, just feel awful - (1) everything about 00 line; if you were a writer for them in January 2019 to about November(?) 2020, then it was a no-go; it was a bad time; if you had a single thought about Jeno’s shirt rip at the first tds, also extremely morally bad and everyone made you feel bad; I still feel bad about looking at him and it’s been 2 years and he’s been shirtless since then; (2) twitter people migration to tumblr, this one just makes me feel awful to be a y/n-rps writer (and I’m not even a real writer!!!) because shipper-rps writers hate y/n-rps writers in a way that makes me feel really really bad and I get it!! I deserve to feel bad; (3) “you’re not a real fan if you don’t do (x), (y), (z)”; to be quite frank, I do nothing and contribute nothing overall to the entire fandom space; I am literally a waste of space and honestly that’s a deserved feeling!! I just take up unnecessary space and complain when kpop shouldn’t have any affect on my emotions whatsoever; also, I have no kpop friends lol; it always fails, and that’s my fault because I do suck and I don’t shut up and I have a bad personality and I have autism, which isn’t to say that people who have autism don’t have friends and are extremely lonely, but also, I’ve read the stats, it’s hard for people with autism to have friends and I get that! I’m okay with it; I kinda just resigned to knowing that I won’t have special-interest friends and that’s fine; we all need alone time. another point to this being my fault is that I come on way too strong and that no one owes me anything; I keep talking like people owe me things - friendship, follows, likes, reblogs, comments, but I get it!! I’m not likeable and I don’t do anything meaningful and I’m really just a waste of space, so yeah, I get it.

and yeah, I think that sums up stuff, not that it matters. it’s just how I feel; it’s really not important and does not matter, in, like, the grand scheme of things

[kpoptrashlord-007]

Advice On Gaining Notes

Just wanna share a bit of advice to any writers that happen upon this...

Tags are the most important way to get your work out to viewers!

More people will find your fics if you use tags that people are searching for. Take a look at the top fics within the fandom you plan to write for and see what tags they are using and do something similar. 

My suggestion would be to add the pairings (such as idol/character x reader/oc, show/band x reader/oc) as well as the genre (idol/band/character/show genre).

When I look up fics, I very specifically look up these types of tags:

“ateez fluff” , “changbin x oc” , “hxh x reader” , “billy hargrove smut” , etc 

Broad tags like “kpop x reader” , “yandere au” , “anime angst” are a good idea, too, and tags such as “skz reactions” , “kny series” , “kdrama oneshot” allow readers to search for the specific format they want to read.

type in different tags and see what Tumblr recommends as “popular”

Others might be different in what they search, but in general I’ve found that when a fic doesn’t have these types of tags, they get less notes because less people are finding them. 

As a side note, put the most important tags first (within the first 5) and also include alternate spellings / names for the people you’re writing for within the first 30 tags. 

Final notes that might help...

Many people (myself included) skip over fics that are blatantly not meant to be in the tag they’re looking for. 

i.e, please don’t tag BTS in your EXO fic, or Chisaki Kai in your Dabi-centric fic. Tumblr isn’t like AO3 - tag the main lead / relationship, not the other main characters that feature in the fic. 

People search for both Seventeen and SVT so why not use both? Some people look up stage names while others use the idol’s real name. You have plenty of space so test out different tags and see if it helps.

While not necessary, creating a blurb at the top of your fic that includes the summary, word count, genre, pairing, and any warnings will let people know at a glance if it’s a fic they’d be interested in reading. 

Clearly state when a fic contains dark content - it’s kinda fucked up to spring it on people without warning. It isn’t everyone’s cup of tea. Please be mindful of others. 

Lastly, please please please use a read more! if your fic is longer than 500 words, or if it contains sensitive and/or explicit content (including triggers!). It’s the courteous thing to do, and might stop you from being blocked as some people will block authors that clog up a tag.

Some people will argue that smut and yandere fics shouldn’t be tagged under the general/broad tags (such as “miranda lawson” , “mcu” , “loona”). It’s up to you if you choose to add them to your fics. 

IMO it’s fine, as people who don’t want to see such fics can use the in-built filter to optimise their online experience. But that also means you have to add tags such as “yandere vaas” , “smut” , “mafia au”. That way the filter will pick the fic up and hide it from those who don’t wish to see it!

I assume these tips work for member x member or character x character stories too! But I don’t read/write those types of fics very often so I’m not 100% sure how best to tag them!

Feel free to add onto this as I probably forgot something! 

[kpopxx]

Spy Games [Chapter 1] : More Than It Seems

Characters: Twice Momo, Male Reader

4579 words

Authors Note: This is literally the first fiction writing I have done since I was a little kid writing stories about a town full of hamburgers. I was inspired to try my hand at writing by the plethora of amazing kpop smut writers out there right now, but by @lockefanfic​, @nsfwtwicecatcher​, @nsfwflint​, and @ggidolsmuts​ in particular. If there are any similarities between my writing and theirs, please forgive me as I’ve spent more hours than I’d care to admit “researching” their work. 

One thing that amazes me is how the hell everyone cranks out thousands of words with such frequency, as this post isn’t even 5k and it took forever to write. I can’t begin to explain how much respect I have for all the authors out there who can write so much and maintain such high levels of quality.

As a new writer, I welcome any and all feedback! Feel free to drop me a line if you have any critiques, or if you just want to chat!

***

“Coming up on the target now.” 

“Roger that, remember the office is on the top floor. Let us know when you’re inside. And remember, no elevators...” teases your handler, Choa.

“Thanks for the reminder,” you reply sarcastically.

You survey the skyscraper against the night sky--it would be impressive if it weren’t one of a hundred just like it downtown Seoul--and wonder what you had done to deserve getting the short end of the stick. Of course, you knew there was a reason to avoid the elevators: they sat directly in front of the building’s concierge and the cameras in the lobby, while the stairwell lay in a remote part of the first floor. The logic behind your impending hike didn’t make the reality any less abhorrent.

“Meanwhile, Seolhyun gets to infiltrate an organization in the Caymans. Just my fucking luck.” you grumble to yourself.

“Oh, stop whining, you big baby,” says Choa, reminding you to keep your thoughts to yourself.

You sneak past the lobby and towards the back of the floor you find the entrance to the stairwell in a poorly lit area.

“Beginning my climb.” you report, shaking out your legs as you prepare to go up.

“Sir, I-I’m getting some interference over comms,” chimes in the timid voice of the girl you knew to be your newest team member, Yoo Jeongyeon. “It could just be local chatter, but I want to make sure it’s not someone trying to listen in.”

“Probably nothing to worry about, but we’ll let you know if there’s anything you need to worry about.” Choa assures you. 

As you climb up the stairs, you wonder why anyone would want to listen in on this particular mission. This was a run-of-the-mill operation to investigate money laundering at an accounting firm. You’d infiltrated foreign governments, broken into and bugged the offices of billionaire CEOs, and tailed enemy agents. You could understand people wanting to hear those comms, but this? Either someone wanted something to listen to as a sleep aid, or this mission was more interesting than it looked.

A tip had come in through one of the new girls at the Intel Desk reporting that there was some fishy activity related to organized crime going on at the accounting firm. This was routine and you’d gone on dozens of similar recon missions before: break in, find suspicious intel, get out. But if someone wanted so badly to hear what was going on, the new girl may have stumbled onto something worthy of a promotion. Hayoung, you think her name was. Her chestnut, shoulder-length hair along with her well-endowed physique reminded you of a young mother, but her mature beauty belied her young age. You had caught yourself more than a few times fantasizing about her in your off hours…

You stop mid-way in the stairwell, scolding yourself for losing focus. Too often over the course of the last year you found yourself fantasizing about the women in your life. Sure, before the incident with Eunha you had sexual thoughts about your coworkers--you were surrounded by beautiful women, after all. But recently you noticed that your life was increasingly preoccupied with sex: both in your thoughts and the real-life exploits you carried out. 

Much longer than a few minutes later, you reach the 63rd floor out of breath and sweating, wishing more than ever that it was you and not Seolhyun lounging on the beach. You take a moment to compose yourself before peeking out into the office floor to see if the coast is clear.

“We may have a problem, boss. Jeongyeon looked into the comms disturbance and someone much more sophisticated than the average joe is definitely trying to tap in,” Choa says. “Jeongyeon’s kicking their ass right now blocking their access, but there’s only so much she can do alone. Eventually we’re going to lose control of this channel.”

“Dammit. I knew something was off with this op,” you grumble. “If they want to listen in to whatever I find, it must be important. We’ll go dark. Recon says this should be a quick in and out anyways. I’ll tag you once I’m out.”

“Be careful. Signal us if anything goes wrong. Just don’t do anything stupid.” replies Choa. 

“What do you think they pay me all this money for?” you tease, wanting to put her nerves at ease. “See you on the other side. Over and out.”

You could hear the concern in her voice. Even though keeping you safe was part of her job, you knew she cared about you. You also knew as well as she did that anything could go wrong even in the five minutes it would take you to break in, especially when it appeared that someone knew exactly what you were doing.

You switch off your comms link and head out the door and into the office.

It looked exactly as you expected--rows and rows of non-descript cubicles, with a princely office lined with glass walls occupying the far corner. Jeongyeon had retrieved the floor plan by hacking into the building’s security database earlier in the week, and you knew after her effort tonight in detecting and fending off the comms interference that Choa would want you to acknowledge the work the new girl had been putting in. She certainly was more skilled than the five previous team members you’d fired after Eunha, but you found it difficult to bring yourself to praise her. The Ops Officer position she occupied was a sore point for you, after all.

You deftly pick the lock on the corner office door and immediately sit down in front of the terminal on the desk, logging in with the security bypass Jeongyeon drew up. 

Again your thoughts drift to Eunha. Eunha was your longtime Ops Officer--highly skilled, you trusted her more than anyone. It also helped that she was your fiance. It made you sad to think about her; about what could have been, what should have been. Over the past year, you were constantly reminded of her absence by the utter incompetence of her replacements. You suppose it was nice that at the very least, Jeongyeon didn’t give you many opportunities to bemoan her performance in the same way--to remind you of Eunha.

You shake your head, compelling yourself to rise out of your funk and get on with the mission.

As you scroll through files, you stop on one with a familiar signature. Reading its contents, your eyes open wider--suddenly you understand why someone would be interested to listen in to your communications. You quickly save the file to your flash drive and stand up to leave, only to be startled by a figure in the doorway.

“Care to tell me what’s on that?” comes a familiar voice from the darkness that you knew to be Hirai Momo’s. Momo was an agent for a foreign espionage agency--you had as friendly a rivalry as you could have when working for different governments. 

“What was the point of trying to hack our comms if you were just going to show up and ask me that?”

“I had no intention of coming until you decided to ghost your girlfriends,” teases Momo. “Besides, I like showing you how much better I am at sneaking around.”

Momo flicks on the light and she comes into focus. The Japanese government made a good decision when they hired her, you think. She was built for the job of a seductive spy. Her perfectly toned legs had a lovely sheen all the way up to her short skirt, while her cleavage suggested that her tits were ready to burst out of her tight, patterned blouse. Where most of your attention was drawn, however, was her lustrous blue hair, which fell to her shoulders.

“I may actually need your help with this, once you see what’s on it,” you say, nodding your head at the flash drive.

“Oh, so you’re willing to give it to me? I thought I was going to have to fuck you for it,” she says sarcastically. You knew behind the humor was more than a nugget of truth, though. Sex had been the primary vehicle for information trading with Momo over the years. You decide to test your reading of the situation.

“Just because I need your help doesn’t mean I’m giving it for free…”

Momo brings her thumb to her mouth and bites gently as she ponders your not-so-subtle proposition. She takes her turn to look you up and down, making you feel more than a little self conscious in her gaze of judgment. After so many years in the dangerous world of espionage, there were only a handful women who could make you feel so small. Then again, Momo was no regular girl. 

Once she’s satisfied she has properly appraised your worth, Momo lets go of her thumb and straightens her blouse.

“Fine,” she says matter-of-factly, “let’s get to it,” unbuttoning her blouse as she walks towards you.

You are surprised by the lack of fight she put up, but you thought it best to keep that to yourself. Her tone reminds you of a business meeting--that is, if you hadn’t seen her pull her top off as she approached you. She sits in your lap on the chair, wrapping her arms around your neck as you meet her lips for a kiss. Momo’s mouth was familiar to you, introduced to you many times throughout your career. It seemed like every time you ran across her you had sex. One thing you adored about your relationship with her was that it was absolutely without strings attached. You fucked for work, but just because it was part of the job didn’t mean you both didn’t enjoy it. 

Momo, however, was loath to admit the pleasure she got out of her liaisons with you. Call it pride, call it being professional, whatever--Momo refused to act like sex with you was anything other than work, no different than working in a spreadsheet.

You feel her reach down to your pants, quickly unbuttoning them as she sinks to her knees in front of you. You smirk--her eagerness to please you betrayed her air of ambivalence.

Momo wastes no time getting down to business. You are certain the Japanese trained her very well in tender foreplay, but it seems she doesn’t care much for subtlety at the moment. Instead, she utilizes a more direct method to extract your pleasure--one that must have required its own fair share of training--as she spits on your cock before immediately forcing it as deeply in her mouth as she can take it. One, two, three bobs is all it takes for her to reach the base of your cock, her nose buried in your pelvis.

“Fuuuck me, that’s good,” you groan as you hold her head in place for several seconds, and Momo replies in turn with a cough that spits a healthy serving of saliva on to your cock. You release your grip on the back of her head to give her a chance to breathe, but she surprises you when she simply continues to work her mouth on your increasingly saliva-drenched cock, swirling her tongue around your base. Most of the other women you had slept with in recent months would be gasping for air by now, but Momo’s demeanor was cool, calm, and collected. Almost as if she was reading your mind, Momo paused her slurping and pulled her mouth off your shaft--but not forgetting to continue stroking it with achingly deft corkscrew motions.

“What’s the matter? Girls in your department not able to take care of your cock like a real woman?” Momo clicks her tongue and grins. “I’ve told you for years, you’d never be treated so poorly if you came to work for a professional outfit like ours.”

“Shut up and suck my cock.”

Momo shrugs, and gets back to the task at hand. Slobbering even more as she takes you into your mouth again, you pause to thank your lucky stars that you had a job that paid you in part to fuck women like Momo. You gaze upon her face, which has become just as messy as your cock. Momo’s sloppy blowjob has not only left liberal amounts of spit on your cock, but on her face as well--with strands of her blue hair plastered to her cheeks. Even though you thought it impossible, you feel your cock get harder at the sight of Momo’s messy face.

For several minutes, Momo continues inhaling your cock as you find yourself nearing the point of no return, you yank Momo’s head off your throbbing cock in order to prolong your session. A bit too forcefully, it seems, as Momo falls over onto her side.

“What the fuck!” yelps Momo as she picks herself back up, glaring at you. “I suck your cock and you thank me by throwing me on the ground?

“I didn’t mean to, I’m just not ready to cum yet. We both know you would’ve ignored me if I had asked you to stop.”

“I guess you’re right about that,” Momo replies sheepishly. You knew from previous run-ins with her that she loved nothing more than swallowing cum. Even though you had just denied her that favor, you were already thinking about how to make it up to her in a few minutes.

“How about I repay your kindness? Get up on the table and let me eat you.”

“Let’s skip the pleasantries. I’ll get up on the table, but you’re going to fuck me.”

“Someone’s eager to see what’s in this thumb drive,” you tease, inadvertently reminding yourself that this was a transactional liaison. You suspected that Momo’s interest in you extended beyond her desire for the information at hand, and part of you yearned to take her outside of the confines of work. You’re skeptical such a day would ever come, however, given how ambitious Momo was. 

You knew her story--she applied for a job in the Japanese spy agency several years ago, making it all the way through the process before being cut at the very end. She ended up receiving an offer shortly after one of the other finalists died in a ‘training accident’, but Momo lived with a chip on her shoulder ever since. She lived and worked with a pathological drive to prove the agency wrong in their original decision to cut her. Already the youngest lead operative in her country’s history, she had an eye on the directorship and seemed destined for it. So, you supposed, it was nice to be able to fuck her before she became famous.

Momo hops on up on the desk, hiking up her skirt to reveal a delicious-looking blue thong that matches her hair. She looks behind towards you with lust heavy in her eyes as she pulls her thong to the side, revealing her glistening pussy--already dripping, you noted.

“I don’t have all night.”

More than happy to oblige, you line your painfully throbbing cock up with her pussy and you can feel the warmth radiating from it. You take a second to appreciate Momo’s incredible physique as your hands graze downward from her upper back, to her hips, and finally to her ass. As you rub it, you cannot help but appreciate how sublimely taut it is. 

“Jeeze, you act like this is the first time you’ve seen a woman naked,” Momo jabs, interrupting your reverie.

You are starting to get annoyed with Momo’s demeanor. It was nothing new, really--she always carried an air of superiority--but it nonetheless grates on your nerves to see her be so dismissive. You are mature enough to understand that at least a part of this aggravation had to do with the fact that you knew Momo slept with plenty of men for work. Not so mature, however, to be able to stifle the primal urge deep inside of you that wanted Momo to see you as the best of all her lovers. More than ever, it seemed that sexual vanity mattered a great deal to your self-confidence.

With a renewed sense of purpose and your cock in hand, you enter Momo slowly with a long stroke until you fill her to the hilt. In unison with your initial insertion, Momo lets out a whine that crescendos as you bottom out.

As you begin to thrust in and out Momo settles in and widens her stance ever so little, which has the added benefit of allowing you to go even deeper into her warm, wet pussy. Momo was not a girl of surprises. Her face was gorgeous, capable of angelic beauty and fiery lust. Her body reflected the many hours she spent in the gym with ample breasts, insanely tight abs, and a toned ass to match. Her pussy feels exactly as sublime as her beautiful face and incredible body suggested. The perfect combination for a woman who used her body to seduce and take advantage of brainless men. You decide to push out your mind the realization that at this very moment, you are in fact one of those men.

You wanted to make sure Momo felt each and every drive into her hot flesh. Momo continued to moan quietly, each breath punctuated with a new thrust and the sound of your skin meeting hers.

“Looks like someone’s gotten real quiet all of a sudden,” you say, noticing her haughty attitude had subsided as pleasure took you both over.

“Oh, get over yourself,” Momo says, looking back at you with rekindled determination in her eyes, “you’re no better than half the guys I’ve been with. I’m here for the file, not for whatever you call this.” She cooly turns her head to face front again, leaving you seething.

Your twinge of annoyance was now a bubbling boil.

You slow down before withdrawing your cock from her warmth--Momo lets out the faintest whine of disappointment, betraying her dissatisfied front.

Just as Momo turns her head again to complain, you quickly slam your cock deep inside her. Momo yelps, and you notice her eyes bulge as you move your hips in a circular motion with your cock filled to the hilt, scraping deep inside her pussy. After several seconds of this you grab a makeshift ponytail out of her hair and yank backwards, causing her to gasp and arch her back instinctively. As much as she bothered you with her air of indifference, you had to admit that the image in front of you was the stuff of dreams.

Taking advantage of the highly erotic sight before you and the increased leverage offered by your grasp of her hair, you began to truly fuck her with quick and powerful strokes.

“Take it, Momo,” you grunted, beads of sweat beginning to form on your forehead.

Momo said nothing, emitting only breathless gasps from her open mouth. You noticed that their intensity was gradually increasing, so you increased the speed of your shaft penetrating her young, sinful body. You knew she was enjoying this, but you wouldn’t be satisfied until you broke her facade. You wanted her to lose herself to you.

You speed up even more, and the volume of your skin slapping together increases as her pussy drips wetter and wetter, mixing with your leaking precum. You are slamming your cock into her now, and Momo has to grab on to the table to steady herself. Slowly but surely her pretense was crumbling.

“You want it, don’t you Momo? You want more?”

“Fuck yeah,” Momo gasps hoarsely, struggling to speak with her hair being pulled, “Give it to me...o-oh...fuck, give it to me!”

Satisfied that she had succumbed to her pleasure, you relax your grip on her hair slightly and lean over to growl in her ear.

“I’ll give it to you. I’m gonna make sure you remember this, make sure every time you’re with another man you wish it was me.”

Momo acknowledges your promise with a deep groan, giving you great pleasure as you resumed fucking her gorgeous body.

Your eyes drift downward to her glorious ass, now shining with sweat and jiggling violently with each crash of your cock inside her. Inspired by the sight, you release her hair and put one hand on her hip and begin striking her ass with your other. Momo shrieks in surprise, but quickly looks back at you with lidded eyes while biting her lip to tell you she wanted more.

Again you oblige, and it was quickly becoming clear that lust and pleasure were staging a coup of Momo’s senses. She’s making lots of noise, but nothing intelligible. Nothing but guttural moans interspersed with high-pitched squeals. You continue spanking her ass, alternating cheeks--noticing a deep pink beginning to form on both. She’d most likely be dealing with soreness for several days after this, you think.

“You wanna cum, Momo? Cum for me, I know you want to.”

“Mmmmm...Ah, ah, AH! Unggghh,” comes Momo’s response.

“Come on Momo, fucking cum baby...cum all over this cock,” you shout, sincerely hoping there was no one working in an adjacent floor to hear.

“FUUUUCK!” Momo screams eloquently, suddenly dropping her head as her body begins convulsing. You knew what to expect having slept with her before, but you are nonetheless surprised to see how completely overtaken her body was by pleasure. Her upper body jerks spastically as her legs tremble with your cock plunged deep inside her pussy, all the while letting out a high-pitched whine that turns into a soft whimper. Just a few minutes before she was defiant and happy to throw insults at you...now she was a mewling, writhing mess incapable of speaking. The dark, primal part of you is satisfied by her tacit recognition of your talent.

After a short while, Momo begins to compose herself and lifts her upper body from the table. You take it as a sign to slowly resume taking your cock in and out of her. You decide to give her now glowing pink ass a rest and caress her back, tracing long lines with your nails.

“Mmmmm, that feels good,” Momo says, her eyes still closed, “you fuck me so good.”

You slowly begin ramping up the pace, rolling your hips with each stroke. You want to make sure your cock pleases every inch of Momo’s pussy, and make sure it craves you when she’s alone at night. 

After several minutes of this tender, softer version of lovemaking, Momo comes back to her senses. She arches her back again and turns her head to gaze in your eyes as you continue to take her. She begins to move her ass back and forth on your cock in unison with your own strokes.

“Oh my god, you feel so good in my fucking pussy! Every...fucking...stroke!” Momo gasps, the final words punctuated by the force of her majestic ass crashing against your cock.

“You’re a bad girl, Momo,” you tease, “you like being taken and shown who’s boss, don’t you? You like me grabbing your hair and slapping your ass?”

“Yes!” she gasps, “Yes I love it! Mmmmm...I want you to fuck me until you cum. Fuck me until you cum!”

There was no command in the world easier to follow.

Satisfied that you had fulfilled your vain, immature desire to see her acknowledge your skill as a lover, you now focus yourself on extracting pleasure from the young woman beneath you. You settle into a pace with rough strokes, fiercely pounding her over and over. Your pleasure rises with each thrust, aided not only by the mindblowing caress of her pussy, but by the incredible sight of Momo on all fours before you moaning with each strike of your cock inside her.

“Fuck Momo...I don’t think I have much longer, I’m gonna fucking cum so hard!”

“Yes,” comes the response from Momo, “Yes, yes! Fucking cum baby, I want your cum so bad!”

A few more thrusts and you can feel the point of no return coming. For a brief moment you contemplate cumming inside Momo, to truly claim her. You quickly reconsider, wanting to give her what she truly wanted--to swallow your load.

And so, you quickly withdraw your cock from Momo’s now sopping wet pussy and she instinctively turns around and drops to her knees on the floor. Stroking your cock with great fervor, her mouth wide open begging for what was to come.

“Please give me your cum, please, please! I want it...I need it! Cum for me!”

Your head tilts backward as a long groan escapes your lips. Your cum explodes from your shaft, shooting long, thick ropes of semen into her mouth and onto her cheeks and nose. Over and over, your cum splashes on her beautiful face until you finally reach the end of your orgasm, panting and exhausted. Momo’s face is a pornographic picture of lust, her eyes rolled back in pleasure as she swallows the mass of cum you deposited in her mouth.

“I fucking love your cum,” Momo says as she wipes the remaining cum off her face with her finger and promptly brings it to her tongue before swallowing it down as well.

“I’m glad we were both able to get what we wanted,” you say, struggling to catch your breath.

“Speaking of getting what I wanted…” Momo says, nodding her head to the part of the floor where the USB drive now sits, evidently thrown from the table during the session that had just taken place.

“Right,” you say, suddenly remembering you’re here for work, “make a copy and let’s get out of here.”

“Great,” says Momo, still on the floor with a satisfied smile of content on her face, “Hey, I meant what I said about having you join our team. As much shit as I give you, we could really use someone with your talent.”

“Thanks, but I think I’m better off staying put. Don’t think the Korean government would let me live if I tried defecting.”

“Probably true,” says Momo as she begins picking up her clothes, “Never hurts to ask, though.”

***

A few minutes later, you and Momo had both gotten dressed and copied the file onto a drive for her. Momo disappeared into an adjoining hallway and you set off to traverse the stairwell again. As you prepare yourself for the descent, you also steel yourself for the repercussions of giving the intel to a foreign spy agency. With the information you saw in the file, you knew the Japanese would have to be looped in sooner or later. If it was going to happen eventually, you thought it made the most sense to entrust that intel to the agent on the other side you knew would make sure things got done correctly. As logical as it seemed to you, however, you knew it wouldn’t be taken well back at the office.

You click on your comms link, now knowing there’s nothing to fear. 

“Hey Choa, I’m on my way back to the rendezvous.”

“Oh thank god! That took forever, I was about to call for a tac team!” Choa sighs with audible relief, “I take it you got everything you needed?”

“Got more than I needed, actually,” you say, nervous about Choa’s reaction to what you say next, “Listen, there’s one small thing you should know...”

“You did WHAT?!”

[apollostears]

BROWN SUGAR [ k. seokjin ]

group: bts

pairing: jin x black!fem!reader

creator: maya

warning(s): swearing

request: jin with a black s/o (headcanons)

writing for jin is such a struggle for me, so i apologize in advance for the shortness and lack of in-depth detail 🥺

jin was in for a culture shock when he got with you.

obviously, he knew about black people but he never really knew any on a personal level, so meeting you and falling for you was completely unexpected. you guys met at an award ceremony, you being invited there, and having the opportunity to meet plenty of your favorite idols. the global sensation kpop group being one of them.

jin adores everything about you. from the way you talk down to the way you walk, he worships the literal ground that you walk on.

he's also the type to defend you against any cultural stereotypes that are thrown your way because of the relationship you two hold. you have become his number one priority and he makes it his mission for everyone to know that.

jin is pretty private about his life but he jumps at any chance to show you off. whether you hate it or love it, kim seokjin is about to let everyone and they mama know who he with.

speaking of, his parents love you. it took some slight adjusting, with two different cultures and backgrounds merging, but they saw you for you and loved how happy you made their son.

despite his impossibly busy schedule, he makes time for you and vice versa. y'all have a routine to make sure that you guys have adequate time to communicate with one another.

when it comes to visiting, more often than not you're seeing him and it's not something you mind because it gives you an excuse to visit such a beautiful country and see your friends.

now, onto the mushier stuff

jin is a simp for you and anything you do. modeling for a perfume or something beauty related? mans is getting billboards put up all over seoul.

performing in the Savage x Fenty show? he’s there, front and center.

same for movies and tv show premiers, ambassador work, etc.

y’all are such a fine ass couple omg!!! he’s handsome and you’re gorgeous, people are always tryna cop a pic when they can.

jin loves to cuddle with you. it’s one of his favorite things to do, especially with the distance between you guys.

when you’re around, it’s designated“y/n and jin” time. nothing is more important to him then spending time with you.

he cooks for you!!!! you could just be minding your business and then jin comes in talking about your five-course meal being ready like y’all French.

but he also adores when you cook for him. it brings out the domestic partner in him.

speaking of domestic, he’s a family man and he wants kids, so be prepared to have them. i feel like he’s the type of man to know whether their partner is worthy of marrying him, quickly. in translation; if y’all together more than six months, he wanna marry you.

PLEASE match with him!! he doesn’t care if y’all are ten thousand miles apart, jin would absolutely adore the days that the two of you coordinate outfits w one another.

he shows you off to the guys A LOT. you could breathe and he’d be like “isn’t y/n so perfect?”

especially when you have some big project coming up, all those boys hear about is you and what you’re doing. which, they don’t mind bc they like you it’s just that jin talks a mile a minute 💀

so all they hearing is “aukebtlyltddd and sxiakoskdnrfn, you know?” and they’re sitting there like 🧍🏽‍♂️

kisses you like it’s the last time. it always makes u sad that this is your relationship w him, never knowing when you’ll see him again, but it’s sooo worth it from the way he looks at you while you’re crying like you’re the most beautiful thing in the world.

sings songs for you bc you always pester him about his confidence in himself and that he has such a fantastic voice!!

sends you random videos of himself that hold no rhyme or reason; just that he misses you and wants your attention.

refuses to sleep until he sees your face. whether you’re going to bed or he is. if y’all can’t ft atm, videos suffice:).

jin becomes your biggest protector and advocate and he makes sure you know it every single day.

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[soobirou]

s/o gets into an argument with them

anime-kpop-stan requested: Can you make a txt angst where them and there s/o is arguing and they used something that you used confidence to tell him and he used that against you? Sorry if it doesn’t make sense

anon requested: Can you make a txt angst where them and there s/o have an argument pls AND DONT FORGET YOU NICE KEEP GOING

pairing: txt x gn reader

genre: angst

warnings: none i think ?

word count: 536

a/n: thank youto the both of you two for requesting!! it’s not that long,,and i left a blank section in some of the quotes so everyone can fill in what’s relatable to them. but i hope it’s satisfactory ?? oh and enjoyyyy :D

＃soobin

in arguments, it’s you who does most of the yelling

while soobin is either trying to figure out a solution or getting annoyed by the whole argument

but today he could just not take it

“you know what yn?! just because _____ happened to you doesn’t mean you get the right to use me as your human punching bag!!”

not only are you hurt, but soobin’s hurt knowing that he was even capable of saying something like that

is pretty hesitant after, trying to figure out what he can say or do to make it seem like this whole argument never happened

pls make up with him :(( he’ll give you free kisses for a full year

＃yeonjun

arguing with yj is probably annoying for the both of you. like he’s upset and yelling, you’re upset and yelling

it’s just a whole mess

after taking a few hours to be apart and calm yourselves down, the both of you realize that having these small arguments isn’t worth it

“oh..is this about ____ ? because last time i checked, you’re not the only one with that problem!!”

after you’ll have to give him some time to cool off and clear his mind and after he does, yeonjun will feel so bad about it

he tries so hard to make it up to you over the next few days, even if you assure him that everything is fine

＃beomgyu

arguments between you and beomgyu are pretty rare buttt

he’ll usually just something weird that makes the both of you laugh

“what is it with you y/n?? you may have _____ but that doesn’t make you anymore special than anyone else!!”

give him a few minutes to to really understand what he just said

already can tell that telling some sort of joke is only going to make the atmosphere even more awkward and uncomfortable

if you start to cry though he’ll hug you so tightly and press small a kiss on your head or in your hair

before telling you that he didn’t mean to make you cry

＃taehyun

i can’t remember where i’ve seen this,,,but taehyun will call you out on serious stuff if you’re wrong abt it

this is how most probably all of the arguments start

and usually they’ll end with you two agreeing to disagree and moving on

“why do you have stubborn just because _____?!!”

he feels so guilty abt it,,,like it’s just tearing into him

which is why taehyun would want to have a talk about it

esp seeing as he views communication as a very important aspect of a healthy relationship

“please forgive me y/n. i really didn’t mean to hurt your feelings like that”

＃hueningkai

you and hueningkai get along suppeeerrr well, so it isn’t often that an argument happened between you two

more like it never really happens

but today he just happened to snap due to the stress of preparing for a comeback

“okay i got it y/n!! just because you weren’t babied you whole life doesn’t mean you have to push this onto me!!!”

not only are you surprised but kai’s shocked at his own outburst

queue instant regret

“y/n….i’m so sorry, i didn’t mean to yell at you like that” he’ll say before pulling you close to him and wiping away any stray tears

[whenfatecollides]

Hi ! I've been getting into Dreamcatcher lately since everyone's been saying if you're a lesbian you're gonna like dreamcatcher, and i do ! i was just wondering from someone who obvs knows them better, do you think they're naturally so close to each other or it could be a bit more... fan service stuff bc I'm always worried about getting into groups who just queerbait all the time, idk how to say this and im not trying to attack DC but there's been a lot of talk abt it in kpop lately

I get where you’re coming from, but with time you’ll see that they’re genuinely close

dc have gone through a lot as a group (some of the members have been together for abt 8/9 years now), specially the ex-minx members (jiu, sua, siyeon, yoohyeon, dami) who had to overcome an unsuccessful debut and decide to stick together despite a rough start. there’s a lot in the member’s own story that makes you wonder if there really isn’t a force in the world out there who brought them together because so much happened, to some members more than others, that literally put them right on the path to become a dreamcatcher member. it just had to be the seven of them. 

for starters, yoohyeon auditioned for a few companies and mbk accepted her. she went the first day and quit that same day because of how she was treated by the staff. she said that from that experience she wanted to quit on the idea of becoming an idol, but she really loved to dance and sing. which led her to meet sua at a dance competition before they auditioned for hfe. sua had been training to become an idol since 2012 and hfe was the one company who accepted her (I can’t imagine sleeping on that much talent). this led them to debut together and even become roomates.

siyeon had a close songwriter friend who introduced her to the company, she auditioned and got in. similarly, jiu’s vocal teacher referred her to the company, she auditioned and got in as well. as for dami she had wanted to become an idol since elementary school, one day she participated in an open audition at her school and hfe called her for an audition.

with gahyeon, she actually went through a few companies before landing on hfe. she was an fnc traineed for a while, she got in both yg and sm, but left since they weren’t going to debut a group any time soon. similar to dami she participated in an open audition at her school and she got called for an audition.

and handong had some interest in kpop when she was in high school, but when she got the chance to go to korea for university her dad made her promise she wouldn’t try to become an idol, it was literally The condition for her to go to korea, she wasn’t meant to audition according to her parents will. but one of her uni teachers told her about hfe’s audition and she just went for it anyway asdkjhs (her relationship with her parents is fine now). it was just meant to be.

they’ve also mentioned quite a few times that they didn’t just instantly click with each other like that (some members having a cold impression of sua at first, siyeon admitting it took her quite some time to get close with handong, jiu saying she was skeptical about the adittion of handong and gahyeon but soon realised they made the group stronger), they worked on their relationship over time and they wanted to make things work with each other which itself is really important and shows the kind of loving and supportive enviroment they wanted to build for each other (I go a little bit more in depth about their overall story in this post). they’ve made sure to build a really great sense of teamwork with each other since the beginning, from the fact that they had about 2/3 months to prepare for dc’s debut (minx still performed on october 2016 and dc debuted january 2017) alone, they really had to make a conscious choice about it all. honestly one of the things that makes me sure that dc are close is that they don’t hide the negative feelings they sometimes have towards each other (which are normal), they've spoken a few times about silly things that they’ve argued about and have even mentioned that they don’t get the other members involved in the quarrels they’re having with another member to not create more drama than necessary. but you can really see that they love and take of each other in the little things too, not just the (sometimes) fanservice. and by this I mean things like, sua calling handong in the middle of her vlive to go get food for her, dami letting yoohyeon sleep in her bed and going to the living room because she didn’t want to wake her up, siyeon falling asleep on top of yoohyeon and yoohyeon not having the heart to wake her up as well, among many many many things.

but truly they’ve gone through a lot of hardships over the years, including having a member be away and unable to participate in comebacks and group schedules for a whole year (not because of health issues or anything like that, but because of the covid situation that made it impossible for her to fly back to korea), and they got out of that situation being even more appreciative of that member when it could’ve easily been something that could have made them turn on each other. it was a situation that brought them even closer and appreciative of one another. they really want to be on this path together.

as for the queerbaiting bit, I’ve made posts about this before and as I’ve said, it doesn’t matter whether or not it’s fanservice because at the end of the day they’re respectful and caring, and they’re only normalising same sex attraction. they never make you feel gross for that attraction either, they’ve never pulled a ‘no home though’ moment, they continuously sing songs directed at female lovers without changing the pronouns, continuously accept marriage proposals from their female fans, and even when a fan was dubious and said “but we’re two girls” jiu said that it didn’t matter and that love is love, and they’ve said many times that it’s okay for female fans to be nervous around them (aka attracted to them). 

and not that it’s anyone’s business but the members themselves have dropped many hints over the years, from not specifying the gender of their ideal type

“Dreamcatcher Handong, “even if they’re not good-looking, a warm-hearted person is my ideal type.” “My idea type, erm... a warm-hearted person. A person not necessarily need to be good-looking, if they’re warm-hearted they’re a good person” ©

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Handong: For me, firstly, kind. It would be great if the person has a good personality and is tall.

Gahyeon: For me, because I’m still young I don’t have a definite ideal type. Just someone who smiles prettily and is fun. Ah, if the person has a good voice, it will be good. I like to talk on the phone. ©

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Jiu: I wish to have someone I can chat non-stop with, and who is also knowledgable and has a good character. I’ve never really thought about an ideal date, but what’s most important is that the atmosphere has to be comfortable!

Yoohyeon: My ideal type is someone who’s like Peter Pan, someone fun-loving and positive! My ideal date location would be Paris, France. It’s a really romantic city! Really look forward to spending time there with the one I love.

Gahyeon: I like someone with a beautiful smile, and someone who can really take care of me.   ©

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to lowkey admitting a same sex crush (she went to an all girls school as far as we know)

to being uh very straightforward about it

among other things 🐒 I’ve been into kpop for quite a lot of years now and I never experienced a group make this as comfortable as they do honestly. that’s why I say that it doesn’t matter if it is just fanservice, they’re still changing things for the better. but that being said, take your time getting to know them~ I think it’s better that you see it for yourself rather than have someone tell you really

[leejeongz]

nsfw a-z SEUNGHUN (CIX)

requested: yes, by anon

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

his only priority is you. he gets that things can get a little… spicy, when he’s left to do whatever he wants to you, so taking care of you afterwards is the most important thing for him. you are getting endless amounts of kisses and cuddles and he’s gonna ask if you need anything… like… a lot.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

he LOVES your hands. they’re so pretty to him. so pretty when they’re close to his face, or wrapped around his dick, or gripping onto the sheets. he l o v e s them. his way to make sex more romantic is to hold hands where possible, yet another reason why he loves your hands.

for him, it’s his neck. his neck is super sensitive and, alongside his abs, is his favourite place for you to kiss and tease him.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

if he can’t cum inside you (which he always wants to do) he’ll make you either swallow it or will finish on your tummy. if any gets on the floor, he’s getting you to lick that up, you better not waste his cum, you’re his (pretty) cum slut after all.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

you once agreed to filming you pair while you did the deed. he kept it for himself to watch and gets off to it most of the time, it never gets old.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

i don’t want to put a number on it but he’s definitely not a virgin, far from it. he knows what he’s doing and there’s not much he hasn’t done before. he knows what he likes and he certainly knows where the clit is.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

this man loves morning sex, so spooning is perfect for him. it’s slow, sensual and romantic and you can put in as little effort as you want. he can also grab your neck or your tits or even :D both :D from behind, without him being in an uncomfortable position.

he’s also a fan of standing doggy, even though he’s really tall, he can still find the perfect height and angle to pleasure you at while wrapping his hand around you to rub your clit :).

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

he can be a little goofy in the moment but that’s just him being him. it makes the whole situation feel a lot more personal and romantic. he likes to giggle about little things but is also very mature and serious at the appropriate times.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

completely shaved. he thinks it’s more convenient for you when you're sucking his dick (don’t forget the balls) and thinks it looks hotter from his perspective. it’s also a better way to see how much of his dick you really took. he shaves most of the time but honestly, i kinda see him also wanting to wax it to keep the hair away for a longer period of time.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

most of the time, he keeps the sex as romantic as possible and does all the cliche things like holding hands, exchanging kisses and sweet nothings even when it’s getting a little rough, he even lights a candle and puts on music sometimes.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

he likes to take his sweet time and edge himself A LOT. he imagines a lot of stuff but most of the time relies on pictures, videos and free stuff online. honestly, i can see him being someone who films himself, he finds it enhances the experience a lot more (and fuels his exhibitionist fantasies ofc).

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

exhibitionism- obviously not in the illegal way. he just likes the possibility of getting caught. he likes sneaking around with you but also giving other people a show. this mostly happens on vacation (if you agree) by pressing you against windows in hotel rooms late at night and fucking you from behind or making you suck his dick in front of the window.

quirofilia (i googled the name lmao)/ hands- he knows he has nice hands and that you like them, especially wrapped around your neck, but he also secretly has a thing for your hands too. handjobs are so underrated but not by this man, he cannot get enough. he likes watching you paint your nails, he likes when you let him pick the colour even more because he imagines what would look the best when they're dragging along his skin.

CHOKING (borderline breath play)- idk if this is a kink but b o y he loves to choke you. there’s nothing he likes more than fucking you in missionary but spicing it up with his hand tightly wrapped around your neck. but he’s not your average choker, he likes to see you struggle (if you both trust each other that is and with a safety gesture). of course he knows that breath play is dangerous, so he wouldn’t take it to the extreme, but hearing the change in your breathing is so HOT to him.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

he would do it anywhere lmao he’s not shy of people seeing.

but he really likes the sofa in the living room, it’s comfortable and still in your own home because he knows not everyone is up for fucking in places you might get caught, but still isn’t as “basic” as a bed. there’s also not that much space to “get lost in”since he’s not much of a manhandler, it encourages either of you to sit on the edge most of the time, providing easily access 😜

but as i mentioned above, he loves showing off to anyone who wants to watch. friends houses and hotels are his favourite places to do this.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

i don’t think he’d be turned on by random things, but there are definitely certain things about you that turn him on. like when you put your pen in your mouth while you're thinking or when you lick your fingers after eating food. anything that resembles a blowjob, he’s there begging for some head. or if he looks at your hands while they're holding onto something that looks even a little bit like his dick, he is so ready for a quick handjob.

if you accidentally touch his dick or “accidentally” back up a lil too far when spooning, you’re getting fucked there and then, i hope you’re proud of yourself :p. (but not without him teasing you a little bit beforehand for doing so.)

let’s be real tho, this guy looks at his naked self in the mirror and gets turned on by that… imagine being THAT attractive only seunghun smh

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

there’s not much he wouldn’t do, anything that made you happy made him happy. that being said, i don’t think he’d ever be comfortable with slapping anything that isn’t ur ass. especially not your face, even if it does turn you on or whatever

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

HE LOVES TO RECEIVE. he would do a n y t h i n g to feel your lips wrapped around him whenever, wherever. he just loves getting head. he likes it sloppy and kinda slow, with lots of spit and eye contact. but he expects you to clean the floor afterwards, you made the mess since “you were the one who made him cum” so you clean it, with your tongue 👅gOd he gets so cocky when he hears you complaining that you can’t take it all or when you have a sore throat after sucking his dick, so you do it all the more for some amazing sex hehe. the man loves fucking your face, pulling back and grabbing your chin whenever he’s even just slightly bored,kissing you, then pushing his cock back into your mouth.

he’s not gonna eat you out if you ask him to, he’s going to do it when he wants to do it, when he can SENSE that you want it. he’s pretty good with his lips and likes to give you gentle kisses down there since he knows you’ve probably never experienced that before (given than most men have no fucking clue lol).

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

usually slow, sensual with a healthy sprinkle of fast and rough. the slow pace is also considered a tease, he knows you want it harder, but you’re not getting it.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

sometimes they are just what he needs. if he’s horny and there’s not much time to spend dragging out everything, you can bet ur fine ass he’s taking you to the nearest private space and having his way with you. sometimes even just spotting a location to do it in is enough to let his imagination run wild and soon enough, you’re there, getting railed

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

he was born to take risks. whatever you want to do, he wants to do too, no matter how risky it is. he’s not shy to bring up anything that he wants to try either and is very open about what he likes. gets most of his ideas from things he’s done before, but he knows they’ll be better this time because they’re with you.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

2-3 rounds. there’s nothing stopping him on occasion, he actually shocks you how many rounds he can go for without a break.

all last around 20 minutes and he never skips foreplay hehe.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

if you wanna use them, he’s not fussed. but his ideal sex does not involve any toys. he believes he can do everything you need to be satisfied so why would you need toys? but if you want to introduce them to activities every once in a while, he’ll go along with it, just for you.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again… THE BIGGEST TEASE IN KPOP.

he sends you numerous texts describing what he wants to do to you when he knows you're busy, sometimes, if you’re lucky, he might even treat you to a whisper in your ear when you’re in public, something along the lines of “i can’t wait until we get home” followed by a sweet kiss against your cheek. and he loves winking at you. just an innocent wink to everyone else means so much more to you and he knows it gets you wet almost instantly.

your neck is his fav place to tease you, whispering against it and pressing light kisses against it until that alone makes your eyes roll and you moan quietly. that being said, he likes when you tease him too, only he knows he can get away with punishing you for it.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

BIG ON DIRTY TALK. “that’s it baby, just a little bit more” “i know you wanna cum, but you’re not going to until i say, right?” “don’t stop, honey, don’t stop” he will say anything at any time, no filter, just whatever feels right.

he’s a little bit of a moaner, quite loud too, but you’re gonna have to do something extra special to get one of those.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

things got real boring real quick when you realised seunghun was engrossed in the tv while you were sucking his dick so you decided now was your chance to show him who was really in charge here.

your figure was now blocking the screen in front of him as you straddled him, there were no distractions for him.

“i was-“ you cut him off mid sentence with a finger pushed against his lips. you took it off and used that hand to guide his dick towards the pool of moisture that had been in between your legs for a while. he smirked slyly and let you continue, enjoying seeing this side of you for once.

although you’d done it many times, you still weren’t used to his size and the way it felt and your face was not hiding any of that. he chuckled slightly, leaning up as he did so with a hand resting on the small of your back so you didn’t fall.

“go on baby, you can do it, take it all” he spoke, the smirk becoming more clear on his face. he added a wink, knowing it would fuck with you too.

“fuck you, seunghun” you let out, lowering yourself another inch onto his length, almost all the way there now. he leaned back agasint the headboard once again, knowing he still had control, but it was fun to see you thinking that you did. his hands now rested on your thighs which were tense and hard, there was no way you were lasting in this position, he thought to himself.

you had finally gotten to riding his dick properly, an activity you did almost every day these days. seunghun had already managed to have you put on a blindfold, called you cute numerous times and was surely on his way to changing position, claiming that you should “let the expert take over”.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

l a r g e. both length and girth… above average. girl you’re so lucky to be getting that dick 😭 but good luck walking for a few hours (days) after because he knows how to use it too.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

probably the highest out of anyone on the entire planet lol.

he would have sex 24/7 if he could.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

he simply does not sleep. most of the time, he’s eager to stay up with you, cuddling or just getting on with you day. don’t get me wrong sometimes, he needs to sleep after, and then it’s only after you do, but it’s rare.

[thirstybtsthoughts]

To the people giving you shit about this blog:

Really? They are grown men who have sex and watch porn. I know that the kpop fame machine encourages an extremely bizarre fan culture where idols are forced to lie about dating, only having the fan base as significant others, being virgins and being LBGTQ (if you think every kpop idol is straight you're crazy). If, however you actually believe any of that you need to go outside, take a deep breath and interact with the real world.

Is there a fine line with thirst fantasy fandom? Of course. And this blog never goes over that line. None of this thirst is sent to any of the members because that would be creepy and if continued might be considered internet stalking (YMMV depending on country).

Also, and this is VERY important: no member of BTS has revoked their consent for their very real life images and very legal identities in this fashion. If say Seokjin or Namjoon or Jimin, or any of the others made a public statement that they did not want fans doing this then I have every confidence that this Lovely Lady would respect that as they would have revoked their consent. And she has never given any of us reason to think she does not respect the rules of consent.

So instead of going after her, why don't you go after true and deluded fanatics who stalk them, hack their phones, do everything they can to get and spread very private information of theirs, who threaten the lives of any woman who could possibly have any sort of non work related relationship with them (remember JK's tattooist friend). Maybe go after the psycho fans who made Big Hit (or whatever the new name is now) feel they need to follow the ethically and legally questionable hiring practice of only hiring married woman (do they just fire women who get a divorce???).

Are there problems with kpop fan culture? Absolutely! Is there a very troubling comparison between kpop fandom today and the US/European fan culture before strict stalking laws were put in place in the mid to late 90's? Yes. And just like the US and Europe it'll probably take a few very public dead celebs before they change things.

However she is none of these things and if sone of you can't tell the difference then you aren't exactly the sharpest tools in the shed of life.

Sorry for the length sweetie but I got Bothered on your behalf. 🌹

** Also all of this goes for female idols as well. Just because this blog doesn't thirst over female idols doesn't mean other blogs don't and doesn't mean they don't have their own scary delusional fans to deal with.**

Thank you so much 🥺, everything you've said is so on point, and yes you know me so well, there are boundaries that I most definitely wouldn't cross 🥺🥰.

The hate used to bother me when I first received it but now it doesn't faze me, I just laugh at it and delete it. And really, the hateful messages are rare. I just brought it up on that long post because occasionally people ask me to stop sexualising the guys, they even try to say it nicely, and I wanted them to know that I've seen their asks and they won't be able to change anything about the way I talk/fantasise about the guys 😁.

This ask, as lovely of you as it is, isn't something I would have normally published as this really isn't a topic that I want to talk about in depth on here. I personally don't see the point when this blog is very obviously what it is. I just want to go about my day and continue my thirst as casually as I can lol.

I'll publish this because you wrote it all out and have been so nice 🥺 (lovely lady??? omg I blushed ALOT 🥰🥰). But to everyone reading this, I don't really want to start a whole conversation about it because we all know the obvious, which is exactly what this fab person has said above 😁.

[stayinzencity]

check out the other works written for The BBH Day Event hosted by @supermwritersnet ♡

member: birthday boy baekhyun (yes he's 29 now- it's for the alliteration)

pairing: none 

genre: humor (idk what else to call this)

word count: 1.3K

warnings: sehun doesn’t wear a seatbelt (car safety is important!!), kpop references galore, suspension of disbelief is required to read this, there is no actual plot

summary: baekhyun doesn't remember what day it is. then he does. chaos ensues.  

a/n: i sleep wrote half of this. idek what this is. please don't take this too seriously.

He only has one eye open, his head propped up by his hand and it's too early in the day for Baekhyun to be sure of anything, but he's pretty sure he isn't sitting with his friends.

He'd walked into the lecture hall and flung himself into what he'd thought was his usual seat, but he was sitting next to someone he'd never seen before. 

On second thought, perhaps he did know him. Wasn’t it Chanyeol’s friend? Kim Myungsoo?

Speaking of Chanyeol… Baekhyun twists around to check if the rest of his gang was seated somewhere, laughing at him. Yet they were nowhere in sight. Was this even the right hall or had he gotten that wrong too?

"Excuse me." Baekhyun makes an attempt to get Myungsoo’s attention, however he’s too absorbed in his work to notice. Baekhyun tries again with a louder voice and waving a hand in front of him. "Excuse me!"

This time Myungsoo turns towards him, taking out an earbud and giving him a questioning glare.

"Sorry to bother you,” Baekhyun says with an awkward laugh. He runs a hand back through his hair. “Could you tell me which class this is? I think I might be lost." He apologises again. Just to be safe.

The student sighs and pushes his book towards Baekhyun so that he can read the title. Baekhyun rubs his eyes and tries to focus on the words. Oh. His name was Kyungsoo. And Baekhyun was in fact in the correct class.

Maybe today was bunk day, and that's why there weren’t as many students. Or maybe for once Baekhyun had arrived early. 

This morning he'd woken up, noticed his roommate had already left, and hadn't checked the time as he rushed to get to class. He wasn’t even sure what day it was. Was it the third day of May? Or was it still April?

Suddenly, his friends pop up from the benches in front of and behind him. “Happy birthday, Baekhyun!” Oh right. It was May 6. 

They place the ice cream cake before him. Twenty nine candles were arranged haphazardly on it. His face was on the cake.

At least the cake wasn’t on his face. Yet. There’d by cake flying soon if this went anything like the usual birthday celebration. 

However they were still in the lecture hall. Which was equipped with cameras. That were (un)fortunately working. So maybe the caketastrophe wouldn’t happen. For now. It was always possible that they had something else planned for him outside. Maybe he should stake out in the campus until it was safe.

Someone screams. Soda splashes over him and soaks his clothes. 

Kyungsoo hadn’t escaped either and if looks could kill everyone around him would be dead. Especially Chanyeol who was behind the spill. 

It wasn’t entirely his fault since someone had tripped and bumped into him which had sent the cup in his hand flying. But Kyungsoo did not seem to be in the mood to debate technicalities.  

Baekhyun wakes up when the alarm ring ding dongs. 

He checks the time and the day. It was May 6. And he’d be on time to class if he hurries.

But did he really want to be there? His so called friends were waiting for him to arrive so that they could sacrifice him to the birthday demons. Maybe it be wiser to sneak away while he could.

Also how did he forget his friend? Does Kyungsoo already know somehow? Is Baekhyun going to live to see tomorrow?

With these thoughts racing through his head, he runs out the door, straight into Jongdae. Literally. Head banging, air knocked out of his lungs, man on man. Jongdae shoves him off. His sinister smile makes its appearance.

That was Baekhyun’s cue. He doesn’t wait for whatever Jongdae was about to say and tunes out the screeches as he runs for his life.

At one point he realised he was heading towards the campus. Was that the right choice? He’d be found there, for sure, but maybe the cameras would give him the protection he needed until the day ended. Or would it be better to hide somewhere they had less of a chance of finding him?

“I’mma shake it, shake it, shake it, like it was my birthday.” A car comes around the corner blasting a song at an obnoxiously loud volume.

The front window rolls down and Chanyeol pokes his head out. “Get in,” he shouts.

Kai sports his evil grin from the driver’s seat and Sehun lays asleep in the backseat. Which was definitely not safe. At the moment Baekhyun did not have the time or will to point that out.

Of course, Baekhyun doesn’t get in. He sprints into the woods. Which almost seem to appear out of nowhere. Wasn’t there supposed to be a park there?

When he finally stops to catch his breath, there was no sight of his pursuers. Also he was off trail, and very lost. Plus it was getting dark.

He slumps against the tree and slowly slides to the ground. He was going to perish all alone, he thinks as he becomes one with the soil on the ground.

Someone sticks a flashlight in his face. A security guard peers down at him. “Hey! What on earth are you doing here?” It definitely isn’t a judging look he’s giving Baekhyun. “The park is closed for the night.”

Oh. So Baekhyun hadn’t wandered into a forest where the wild would chew him up and spit him out. It was a park like he'd first suspected.

The light was getting awfully bright. Soon all Baekhyun could see was white. He closes his eyes.

When he opens them, he found himself in a laundromat. There was a woman doing aerobics? Zumba? Where was the door?

Baekhyun walks out and finds himself in front of an apartment complex. There’s a group of boys serenading and dancing. He’d take the time to appreciate their performance, especially since they were being nice greeting everyone hello, however he didn’t have time to spare. His friends were after him. Who knew where they’d come from this time?

Somehow Baekhyun wanders into a warehouse. It’s raining inside even though there isn’t a cloud outside. A group is performing some kind of angsty interpretive dance. There’s mud, sweat and rain. One of the guys rips his shirt open and starts laughing diabolically.

It’s definitely time to leave. One of the doors leads to a room where what seems to be a sing/dance off is taking place.

“Tell me your wish. I’m genie for you, boy. Tell me your wish.  I’m genie for your wish. Tell me your wish. I’m genie for your dreams,” the girl group sings.

Meanwhile, the boy group sings, “It’s your birthday. It’s your birthday. It’s your birthday. It’s your birthday. Now make a wish.”

Slightly flustered, Baekhyun contemplates making a wish. Getting the day to end sooner so he doesn’t have to endure this?

The performances are fine- he hasn’t forgotten his friends are still after him though, even if he hasn’t seen them since he run run run himself into the woods. He is currently convinced all of this is a fever dream.

“Cheer up, baby!” A cheerleader cheers. Baekhyun has no idea how he ended up in a gymnasium.

Someone hands him a paper, he signs his autograph and hands it back to them, before he hurries out.

He finished high school years ago, and he did not want to go back to those times.

There was a group of five boys performing outside on the lawn with sprinklers on. Baekhyun was once again felt the temptation to stay.

How much longer until the day ended? He might actually escape this time.

Hands grab him from both sides.

“I don’t think so.”

© 2021, stayinzencity

[newcaptainofsquad9]

I Can’t Handle You Being Back~Chou Tzuyu x black! fem! reader {3}

Parts: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7

Pairing: Tzuyu x reader

 Summary: A few weeks have passed and you’re already set to make your debut with Twice during their comeback for Cry For Me and I Can’t Stop Me. Things with Tzuyu haven’t gotten better, and it’s about to get worse when the company forces you both to do a live together with the other foreign members. Can you and Tzuyu get through it?

Genre: Angst, Idol-Verse, Romance, Slow Burn, Hurt and Comfort, Best Friends to Lovers

Warnings: None, just a lot of tension and awkwardness between y/n and Tzuyu. ya know your usual angst

Word Count: 2, 750

Writer’s Note: Ok, so this chapter gets a bit juicy and there’s going to be a bit of jealously, along with a hint of romance, but that’s all I’m gonna say. Hope ya’ll enjoy it and please comment! I want to hear your thoughts and feedback. This took me like a month to write it, I’m not sure how I feel about it so :/ yeah.

 Onces, Netizens and the overall Kpop community in general were lit a blaze with the reveal of Twice’s new member: me. Of course now being in a whirlwind of what is Twice’s schedule, I didn’t have time or the energy to read comments, dms or messages that I’ve gotten from them (thank God). Jihyo was also a factor in keeping me on my toes during long dance practice days, even though she wasn’t as hard on me as she was with the others. They weren’t too hard on me either, usually laughing at my mistakes and helping me if I missed my timing or not. The pressure was on: not only from the Korea public and Kpop community as a whole but because of Tzuyu as well. Her eyes would always be on me, then they roll as she waited for me to fix whatever I did. Even during my photoshoots for the album or promotional media, she’s got her eye on me. We haven’t even talked much since she blew up at me weeks prior. I’m not sure how to fix this really. 

I decided now to ignore her, which is easier said than done, due to how close we are during performances. (She literally rests her head against my shoulder during Cry For Me, damn you JYPE!) Right now we’re back stage at Music Bank, awaiting for our rehearsals for our I Can’t Stop Me stage and she’s seated directly to my right, all that’s keeping her from me is my phone, along with Jeongyeon seated between us.       

“Y/N, check out this meme,” Jeongyeon said as she practically shoved her phone in my face.

I chuckled lowly; Jeongyeon nudged me. 

“That’s the only reaction I get?” she whined. “You always laugh at Chaeyoung’s.” 

“Well that’s because she doesn’t use ancient memes,” I said. “The cereal guy is like five years old!”

“So, are you calling me old Y/N!” Jeongyeon said. “That’s disrespectful to your Unnie.”

She nudged my shoulder a few times with a sly grin and furrowed brows. 

“No,” I groaned. “Your taste in memes are old.” 

“Who’s old?” Nayeon said as she squished herself between me and Jeongyeon. “You better not be talking about me Jeong.”

“You said it not me,” Jeongyeon said with a snicker.  

Nayeon didn’t waste any time in smacking her arm, making her laughter rise while I get up to avoid their playful conflict.

“How about you both make out already,” I teased. 

The words make both idols separate with the quickness; their faces red as they sit up straighter.

“W-Whatever Y/N,” Nayeon said. “I should be telling you and Tzuyu doing that since all you both can do is eye each other.”

Now I’m the one recoiling, Jeongyeon did the same as Tzuyu’s attention is on Nayeon with a stare. Jeongyeon nudged Nayeon and pushed her back onto her feet. 

“Everything was fine until you came along,” Jeongyeon whined. “Also, your make-up’s smudged a bit.”

Nayeon’s hands fled to her face, shock over took it in a matter of seconds. 

“Look at your face!” Jeongyeon said as she erupted into another round of heated giggles. I smiled to entertain her, but stop immediately as Nayeon throws us a deadpanned look this time.

“You’re still a grandma,” Nayeon said as she walked away from the couch and towards Mina, Jihyo, and Momo, who held Boo in her arms. 

“Ya! If I’m a grandma then what does that make you!” Jeongyeon yelled back. “Great grandma!” 

I shook my head and returned back to my phone, my finger itching to open up Instagram yet I’m restrained by soft hands. Tzuyu’s next to me, close but not as close as Jeongyeon was. Her face in taunt, but not in the anger she aimed at Nayeon; this look is of warning. 

“Don’t,” she said. “Didn’t Jihyo unnie say not to.”

“I-I just wanted to message someone back,” I said. “You hardly talk to me, why are you doing this now?”

Tzuyu rolled her eyes. 

“I just don’t want you in a mood where you can’t focus,” Tzuyu said. “You mess up so easily.”

“Wow, thanks for reminding me,” I said. “I just have to check something with someone.”

Tzuyu pulled her hand away from my wrist, yet she doesn’t return to the other end of the couch. 

“Who?” she said. 

I side eye her for a moment while I open Instagram; my direct messages are 100 +, forcing my pulse to pound in my ears. The second I tap the arrow that brings up the messages, the swarm hits me:

How come out of all the Sixteen contestants, they bring back the worst one.

You won’t be a real Twice member. This has got to be a PR stunt from all the “cultural appropriation” allegations.

K-Pop isn’t for you, go back to America.

Who told you K-Pop was for you, you black bitch.

The negative messages began to build, and build, out-weighting the small clump of positives ones that came through. My hand tightened around my phone as anger and fear boiled up inside me: angry at myself for taking on this opportunity and fearful because of the hate. I expected this so, why am I feeling this way?

“Y/N?” Tzuyu said as she nudged her shoulder against my own. “Momo Unnie!” 

Momo’s head whipped around to the couch, Boo sniffing every where from his position in her arms. Tzuyu’s voice also got the attention of Jihyo, Nayeon, and Jeongyeon as well. They flocked over to us immediately. 

“Y/N, are you all right?” Jihyo asked as she knelt down in front of me. 

I broke from the trance that the hate comments pinned me in and glanced up at the concerned faces of my bandmates, including Tzuyu this time. Her eyes cut to Momo, as Boo continued to wiggle in her arms. 

“Unnie! Could she hold Boo, please?” Tzuyu whined. 

Momo blinked at Tzuyu but did so anyway and placed the wiggly dog in my arms. 

“Whoa, there,” I said as Boo sniffed down my brown blazer. “Hey there, Boo right? God you’re such a good boy aren’t you? Yeah?” 

Boo sunk down in my lap licking my fingers as I pet him with my other hand. Nayeon was right, Boo really is a great stress reliever. Any dog is, gosh it’s been so long since I’ve petted or actually owned a dog. 

“Are you ok now, Y/N?” Momo asked. “Boo really likes you, he could barely stop moving when Sana first held him.” 

“Are you nervous about the performance?” Mina said as she walked to stand behind the couch with Sana, Chaeyoung, and Dahyun behind her. 

“Yeah, being up there with you guys is extremely nerve wracking,” I said. “And I read a few of the comments online.”

“Y/N,” Jihyo groaned. “You shouldn’t have done that.”

“I know, know but the public’s perception means a lot, right?” I said. “The Knets are already giving me a headache.”

Mina frowned and placed her hands on my shoulders, then gently squeezed. 

“You’ve been practicing so hard with us,” Sana said. “You’ll do amazing!” 

I nodded, still taken a back by the comments but Boo’s yipping and the encouraging words from my band-mates eased my worries (even if it’s just for a little bit).  

“All right girls!” a manager said as he stormed into the room along with my own manager, Miyoung who signals me towards her. “You’re going on in five!” 

I rise, Boo whined as I did and Nayeon held her arms out to take him. 

“Aww, Boo, Y/N will be back soon. OK?” she cooed. 

I handed him to her before stepping over to a free corner of the room with Miyoung. 

She gave me a tiny grin as she rubbed my arm, giving me a once over. 

“You all right? It seemed like the girls were consoling you over there,” she said. 

“I’m getting there,” I admitted. “I’ve been practicing choreography for weeks and I just saw--”

I paused at Miyoung’s face; it contorted in concern then exasperation. 

“You read the comments, didn’t you?” she asked. 

I glanced down and nodded. 

“I’m sorry I wasn’t trying to let it get in the way of the comeback.”

“Hey, no Y/N,” Miyoung said. “You don’t deserve any of that. JYPE’s even taking the legal action against a lot of the comments, surprisingly.” 

I blinked at her words.

“He’s actually keeping his word,” I said. 

Miyoung nodded. 

“And you’ve got a V Live to do after the performance once you return to the dorms,” she explained. “A welcoming type thing with the other foreign members.”

I hesitated at the word foreign, that means being close to Tzuyu. It also means being close to Tzuyu on camera. 

“Is that all right?” Miyoung asked. 

“Y-Yeah, I just don’t know how this would go.”

Miyoung brought me a bit closer as she wrapped her arm around my shoulder. 

“Well you’ve got Twice in your corner,” she said. “And if anything or any one of them bother you, even another manager, come to me. Brittany insisted I keep an eye on you.” 

I deadpan while my mind wondered back to how Brittany was ready to fight JYP in his own office if things grew awry. 

“Y/N, c’mon!”

I turned toward the door to see everyone geared up and ready to perform, eyes steady waiting for me; Tzuyu even with a tiny grin on her face. 

“Go on,” Miyoung said. “Have fun, don’t think too much of it.”

***

I messed up the shoulder move; I know I did and the playback remained in my mind throughout the drive back to the dorm and as we all settle into our rooms. 

“Y/N it’s OK,” Jeongyeon groaned as she slumped against her bed. “You were off by a nanosecond. The only person who noticed was you.”

“Exactly! The Netizens will tear me apart even more when they notice and--”

“And that’s not important right now,” Mina said as she entered Jeongyeon, Momo and I’s room with Sana on her arm. 

“V Live time!” Sana sung. 

“Good,” Jeongyeon  said. “Keep Ms. Worry away for a while. Mina let me play your switch while you guys are live.”

Mina shrugged. 

“Sure, but you’re going to have to get it from Chaeyoung,” she explained. “She’s playing it in my room.” 

“Ugh, you and your girlfriend,” Jeongyeon said as she rose from the bed. 

I perked up at the term.

“Girlfriend? You guys are dating?”

Mina nodded. 

“Of course we can’t be official,” she said. 

“I know,” I said. “Things aren’t as liberal here as they are in America. I-I can’t believe those ship videos were right.”

Mina blushed a bit. 

“That’s the only fan discourse Chae and I keep up with mostly.”

“You kept up with ships Y/N?” Sana asked. 

“N-No! I was just curious that’s all! Anyway, let’s go get this live over with.”

Sana giggled as she led Mina and I to her room where Momo and Tzuyu sat in pajamas, holding stuffed animals tightly. 

“Y/N! Don’t worry about the performance, you did amazing!” Momo reassured. 

“Let’s hope the Netizens agree with you,” I groaned and plopped down beside Momo  and Tzuyu on the floor. 

“I thought you were supposed to stop worrying about the Netizens,” Tzuyu said. “It almost got in the way today.” 

I turn toward Tzuyu and crossed my arms. 

“So you noticed my screw up too?” I said. 

Tzuyu rolled her eyes. 

“Almost is the key word,” she groaned before she reached up from the bed next to us and grabbed a few stuffed animals. “Now which stuffed animal do you want?”

I blinked at the choices Tzuyu presented: a purple flamingo with oval shaped eyes or a pink alpaca with a square shaped eyes and a rather odd expression. 

“I’ll take the flamingo,” I said. 

Tzuyu handed it off as Sana gasped. 

“He suits you Y/N,” she said. “Two cuties and wow, I didn’t know you hung out with Sooyoung Y/N!”

“Who?” Tzuyu asked. 

“Joy!” Sana squealed 

“Sana what are you talking about?” I asked as she leapt on the bed and showed the phone to us. 

We both peered down at the picture in front of us; I remember this one (sort of) from a few years back when I co-wrote a few tracks for Red Velvet and hung out a bit with Sooyoung, we were at a beach some where in LA. I’m sure her fans didn’t pay it much mind but since I’m an idol now along with her, I’m not sure how anymore. 

“Look, lot’s of fans speculate you’re both dating now!” Sana said. “So, is it true?” 

I’m the one rolling my eyes this time, Sana tossed a flirty grin my way and wiggled her eyebrows. 

“No Sana, why are you being so ridiculous right now.” 

“Come on Y/N,” Momo said as she nudged me against the shoulder. “Sooyoung is pretty hot. You sure you didn’t--”

“Unnie, don’t,” Tzuyu warned. “Y/N said she didn’t so we should just leave it at that.”  

“Tzuyu’s right, we should start the V--”

Mina was cut off by Miyoung and a few other managers step into the room. 

“Sorry we’re late!” Miyoung said. “We brought snacks!”

Momo’s eyes grew large. She nearly snatched the plastic bag from Miyoung, pulling out a large bag of BBQ Lays before passing the bag to me. I reached in and pulled out a green tea flavored Kit Kat (it’s been a minute since I’ve had one). 

“Thank you, uh are you sure we can eat this on camera?” I said.

“Yes Y/N,” Sana said through a giggle. “Gone are our Sixteen days, plus this is our chill V-Live time, fans love to see us just kicking back and having fun.” 

“Everyone huddle in!” Miyoung instructed. “Make sure you’re close so the viewers can see!”

Momo squeezed herself closer, and to my surprise Tzuyu did the same; she hasn’t been this close since Cry For Me dance practice, her perfume is too strong. It made me a bit light headed, or is it just the feeling of her close again? Probably both. 

“Here Y/N,” one male manager said as he handed a phone off to me. “Hold this so you guys can keep up with the comments .”

Miyoung rested her phone up on a stand before looking to us. 

“You guys ready?” 

Everyone nodded, all but me. 

“Y/N?” Mina asked as she slipped a hand on my shoulder. 

“As ready as I’ll ever be,” I said and put on my best smile. 

“That’s all we can ask for,” Miyoung said. “Now, we’re live!”

The moment she pressed record, everyone around me perked up to flash their own smiles. 

“Hi Onces! We just wanted to hang out with you guys and welcome our new member to you officially, Y/N!” they said in unison. 

I waved and smiled enough to reveal teeth. 

“Hi Onces! I’m glad to be here!” 

My eyes couldn’t help but flock down to the phone in my hand, even with the other four members reading it as well. There’s a part of me that told me not to, but I had to stop thinking like that. I’m a member of Twice too, no matter what they think or say.

The oncoming comments read:

Hi Y/N!!!

So pretty!!

Hi from Brazil!!

Why is she here? Why couldn’t Nayeon take her place?

She doesn’t belong in Korea with the beauty of Twice.

Do you guys name your stuffed animals?

My heart hammered and thumped painfully hard in my ears; instead of stare blankly I chew on my Kit Kat in silence. 

“Well I haven’t named this one yet,” Sana explained. 

“Manager-unnie!” Mina called, waving to Miyoung. “We can report this comment here!”

“I got it,” Tzuyu said as she took the phone from my hands. 

I watched her through a mouthful of chocolate as her brows stay focused; she turned back to the camera with determination as she handed the phone over to Mina. 

“Y/N belongs here,” Tzuyu declared to the camera. “And if you don’t want to watch her with us you can leave.” 

I almost choked at her words; I heard that correctly, right? I was dreaming, right? Tzuyu must have picked up on my stress and looped her arm around my own; she didn’t pay it much attention to it as she fell into more easy going questions with Momo, Mina and Sana. I did as well, soon enough.    

[khiphop-discussions]

Maybe Unpopular Opinion:

A LOT of the non-Korean Kpop (and k-music, k-dramas, k-culture, etc) fans who call others Koreaboos are projecting like CRAZY.

I'm not saying there's not A LOT of Koreaboo shit that has and still does go down BUT there's was SOOO much more at play in how many people got labeled or had the suspicion attached to them.

How is that people can watch these vloggers, influencers, and random fans with accounts ALL the time and hyper consume anything about Korea (including people who are marginally involved with topics relating to it) but some how everyone else is always the Koreaboo or you suspect them of being one? Like you're to the point where you're hyperanalyzing people who aren't even idols/"real" public figures just based off the fact that they are slightly related to Korea/kpop etc but your overconsumption of ANY and everything related to Korea is beyond reproach?

There's an idea in Psychology that some of you may know. The idea that everybody has a "shadow side" or "shadow self" and those are the qualities that they hate in themselves and try to repress or are somehow fearful that they possess. So because of that hatred or fear (or other "negatively" tingled emotion) every time they see or think they see that behavior in someone else, they have a strong reaction to it and hate or dislike that person or just generally feel bad things. I think this applies to a lot of people like that who seemed like they were giving out "koreaboo" passes like candy.

I think every rational, non racist person who is into Kpop or K-music or anything related to Korea has this fear or hatred of being a Koreaboo now. Personally, I'm very fearful of it. So I think a lot of people DO have these really strong reactions to anything "Koreaboo" or that seems like it.

I know this might be a REAL hard pill to swallow but there is a very fine line between "normal consumer of Korean goods and imports" and "Koreaboo". It's very easy to cross over the line because if you're not Korean, you don't understand nuances and the full history and scope of what racism, "fetishism", and discrimination is in a Korean context. Not to say that there isn't A LOT of people who just don't care no matter HOW on the nose it is. There DEFINITELY is. But I also think there's people who walk over the line but their egos are too big to check themselves and realize that some (if not all) of the things people are telling them is valid. They can't admit to themselves that they do/did something Koreaboo-ish or that they committed a racist action. And because of that same thing, they are acting like the people who just never cared in the first place. Again, I'm not Korean but this is a similar process that happens in the Black community so that's where I'm speaking from.

So anyway back to The Point: I feel like a lot of people need to make sure they introspect really heavily to make sure they are not harboring these same views/habits/etc as the people they are calling Koreaboos. This is a problem in EVERY movement tbh. People learn the language and learn how to spot it in others but not always themselves. Some also don't WANT to do the work because they feel like they are beyond reproach. That's a problem. (This is going off on a tangent but I also believe this is why you get so many people who are really high up "activists" but then they'll eventually get exposed for holding really contradictory views either on the same or similar but different issues i.e. Black activist who are still wildly sexist etc)

[springmachinery]

The super detailed eyebrow guide Part 1

Hello everyone, this will be my first post on this blog. Let’s cut to the chase, the first thing we will be talking about is eyebrow styling. There is no one “ideal” eyebrow shape that suits everyone and likely you suit a couple of eyebrow styles yourself. There is no absolute “wrong” answer when it comes to eyebrows, it greatly depends on what kind of vibe you desire to give off: cute, professional, sexy, mature, innocent, anything goes. These will just be some tips that might help you to figure out what works for you, just remember that it is very difficult to make an absolutely accurate guess without seeing your full face, this is ideally a self-help resource.

First of all, you will often see the basic styling guide that goes something like this:

However, I found that this wasn’t absolutely helpful to me. What about thickness? The height of the brow? How arched should I go? Some girls look amazing with perfectly straight brows, right? Is this the only arch that looks good? It’s hard to find info on all of this so let me start:

The thickness of the brows

Think of it this way: The eyebrows are supposed to accentuate what is already there or balance it, as such it is important to follow the lines of the face to create appropriate harmony. Faces are complicated and you may even suit a different type of eyebrows when you have more weight on you, I know I do. Along with that, when it comes to eyebrows, the eyes are the most important determinant, but not the ONLY determinant. Some faces need more softness/sharpness so you add the appropriate eyebrows, at other times, you want to play exactly into the type of features that you have. 

Would you say your facial features are more elongated, narrow and have a certain lightness? None of your features stand out, rather they all work together, no facial feature is too large. Then go for a thinner brow. Think of celebrities like Taylor Swift 

Or Charlize Theron

Heather Morris 

Hyuna ( kpop idols rarely rock completely thin eyebrows, but you can see that among them she has a thinner variant)  

Another point to present is the “chubbiness” vs “dryness” of your face. The more “dry” your face is, meaning the less facial fat and roundness you have, the more likely thin brows suit you. Let’s look at Halle Berry - the thinner her face became, the more she suited thin brows. 

And the midpoint:

One thing to notice is that her eyebrows were never TOO thick - her balanced features would simply never allow for it. Look at someone like Charlize with thick eyebrows, it just didn’t suit her. Her features are simply too delicate for that.

Are your features larger, heavier, more "in your face" - especially the eyes? Consider a much thicker brow like the following ladies. The brows need to follow the lines of your face, if your eyes are very “strong”, they deserve an appropriate assistant! Lucy Hale

Sofia Vergara

Sofia Loren

Lilly Collins

Aisha

Look how much better Beyonce looks with thicker brows, these eyebrows are not that thin to begin with, now imagine how much less flattering thinner eyebrows would be for her face:

The same can be said about Lykke Li, her face is much more balanced when she sports thicker brows due to her beautiful heavy features. 

Notice that many of these women have either rounder or wide cheeks, even if their faces may not hold onto more flesh, that’s the bone structure. That is a trait that suits thicker brows, on the other hand, the ladies in the “thin eyebrows” category often have slightly narrower lines and sharper bones. The thin eyebrows soften them up. 

However, there are some exceptions to this. If all of your features a very large or maybe even your forehead is smaller than you’d prefer, you may go the complete opposite route and take thin brows.

A youtube Anncy is a beautiful example of someone who made the right call going for thin brows instead of thick ones. Larger brows would wear down her face and perhaps take more space away from the rest of her features. When you have large features, sometimes it is difficult to juggle proportions: adding large eyebrows can take away either from eyebrow height or forehead length so if you recognize yourself in this, consider going for thinner brows even though your features are large. The only image of thick brows on her I could find offhand is this  but I felt it would be unfair to put them with the other ones, as I feel the lightning and angle isn’t equal or as flattering, but hopefully you get the point. 

Another example of this is Angelina Jolie. She goes for much thinner eyebrows than you’d expect from someone with features as large as those. 

Big eyebrows would simply be too much competition for the rest of her face:

However, many people don’t fit any type perfectly and that’s also perfectly fine. Most are in the hybrid category, so they have to pay attention to various features.

Kerry Washington is one such example. Her features are larger, yet her eyes are very delicate. Her face is narrow, but there is much fleshiness to it. She goes for a brow that isn’t too thick or too thin. They’re narrow to follow the longer line of the face, yet not too thin to harmonize with the roundness of her features, cheeks and chin. 

Megan Fox has fairly small features and yet she looks better with thicker brows? Why? Because her face possesses a certain sharpness, particularly in her features, that needs thick eyebrows to balance them out. This also has to do with her coloring and contrast, but that will be its own category in a following post. 

Also, while it may seem like blondes suit thinner brows and brunettes thicker ones, that may not exactly be it. I put the example of Lykke Li who shows that a blonde can perfectly rock thick eyebrows, and Hyuna and Halle, as an example that brunettes can also look beautiful with thin ones. I’ll go more in depth about this in the Coloring section. 

Arched vs Straight eyebrows

The arch of the brow depends on your overall features and the style you want to convey. A longer midface may suit straighter, longer eyebrows to add width to the face. Straight eyebrows also make you look younger and more cute. They can also help the forehead look wider. An example of this is Yoona, this girl has a longer midface and the brows add a vertical line that breaks apart the length of the midface. The straight brows also suit her cute and youthful appeal.

Mina from Twice is another good example of this. The straight brows add balance to the length of the face.

I would suggest straighter brows to people who’d prefer a cuter look usually, however many sexpots, so to speak, go for this look to balance out their features. Look how much width these straight brows, that extend far out, allow Jessica Alba’s longer face.

Straight eyebrows, depending on how dark they are, can also add drama and make the face seem more symmetrical and lifted, especially if the ends of the brows point up - that’s why they’re popular with models. Notice how symmetrical and compact, or even wide, a lot of these faces appear due to this effect. Additionally, these faces appear more dominant or modelesque and may even photograph better, which is why you may want to try them out. 

Let’s look at Nyane, her straight brows with a slight elevation towards the end point out the beautiful symmetry and sharpness of her face. When they are arched, there is too much sharpness. Even if they were shaped differently, the elevated arch would take away from a more balanced look.  

On the other hand, for the e-girl or cute girl look, the straight eyebrows don’t point up, rather, they point down. Look at the classic e-girl Belle Delphine for that. For the cute girl look, choose either an end that points neutrally or down. Beware that an eyebrow that point down may make your face appear less lifted, but many faces can handle it pretty well. It’s all subjective and not everyone wants the lifted look.

As for arched brows, they definitely bring up the sex appeal and make your eyes appear lifted. This is great if you want to go for enhanced sex appeal or have a negative canthal tilt (downturned eyes) that you’d like to change. Arched eyebrows are a classic and they add that “wow” factor to the face, in addition to that, it’s also a great choice for those who have a baby face and want to stray away from that. It’s great to add that arched eyebrows can break up a wide face and add “length”, it can also shrink the forehead and make the eyes appear larger, but that will be further covered in the placement section.

Gigi Hadid has beautiful eyebrows that make her eyes appear huge due to the high arch point. The eyebrows are her best feature and certainly add something to her look. Pay attention to how babylike her face would look without those eyebrows, if you’d cover them, her face would seem so much softer. The arched brows are exactly what make her face model like. It’s that extra something.

Aishwarya Rai is famous for her sex appeal and beauty and her eyebrows play up that aspect - she often lifts up one or both brows in photos to get an even more pronounced arch.

When her eyebrows are straighter, she loses some of that seductiveness.

Anne Hathaway has beautiful downturned eyes, however, in case one would like to “lift” the area up, so to speak, they could try out this type of style. The arch of the brow is exactly above where her eye ends and goes down, making for beautiful harmony.

Eyebrows can also be more sharply arched or have a more rounded arch. A sharper arch can add more dimension to the face, as well as sex appeal, while the rounded one can accentuate femininity (look Gigi and A,R, or someone like Sofia Vergara). Marylin Monroe, in tune with old Hollywood beauties, sported a sharper arch often, as did Olivia Wilde, to suit her sharp features.  

Naomi, is also an example of beautiful arched eyebrows, that mix up both the rounded and sharp aspect by going to no extreme. This can suit you really well if you have a mix of sharp and round features like she does (high cheekbones, elongated face + full lips, rounded cheeks etc.)

If you can’t decide which eyebrow to go for, consider the mix of the two: where the eyebrows bottom line is more straight and the top of it is arched. It is often seen on women with cat eyes that want to add softness but also show off that allure. Notice how the bottom of Barbara’s eyebrow here is straight and the top is arched - this is also great if you have difficulty with shaping your brows as it is forgiving for filling in + it looks very natural.

All of this said, it is up to you if you want to add sharpness or softness to your face - there is no right call and a lot of it has to do with what your style and taste is. Many of these women have tried out all types of arches and found that each look “sold” something, a particular essence. It is up to you to choose what you like, however, I hope this guide helped you in discovering which eyebrows suit what style. 

I wish to also address more finely tuned details of the eyebrow such as:

-Eyebrow placement (Low and High placed)

-The placement of the arch and its effects on the look you are portraying

-Having eyebrows compliment individual features (close set eyes, wide set eyes, broad noses etc)

-Coloring of the eyebrows

and perhaps some more. Stay tuned! 

[indylgc]

Q4 2021 CHARACTER UPDATE - PLAYLIST VER.

no parallels - hands like houses [ “this is happiness; to be everything at once.” ]

this is the song the lyrics on indy’s theme are from, and one i feel overall suits him really well. to me, it’s a song full of adventure and about finding happiness and freedom even with the burdens that come with the human condition. indy himself is pretty free-spirited and naturally has a pretty optimistic and sunny disposition, so it has a lot of his energy. there are also lots of references to nature, which is also something very important to indy. there’s a lyric that goes “we're domestic and we're discontent, and we're grinding our gums raw,” so it’s not an entirely happy song, just as indy isn’t an entirely happy person, but it suggests that an adventurous spirit and throwing caution to the wind is how you really enjoy life, and indy fits that bill pretty well!

are you gonna be my girl - jet [ “well it's one, two, three, take my hand and come with me because you look so fine that I really wanna make you mine.” ]

this makes the list because it’s one of indy’s favorite songs (along with geronimo by sheppard, which didn’t make the list for the sake of redundant descriptions.) jet is an australian band, just like indy is a kid from sydney, australia himself. this song came out in 2003, a mere two years after indy was born, but it’s a song that was present in his childhood, and throughout his entire life, indy has been a fan of older rock music. then again, indy listens to a lot of different music (except for much kpop, ironically...) but he’s sentimental and songs that were important to his life growing up are usually some of his favorites.

surfin’ usa - the beach boys [ “everybody’s gone surfin’, surfin’ usa.” ]

indy is not actually surfin’ usa, he’s surfin’ australia, but the concept is ultimately the same. indy’s identity is “surfer boy” before just about anything else. he's even got the stereotypical blond surfer dude hair, and he still has the dawn patrol and world surf league apps downloaded even though he's been living in korea for more than two years now. he used to surf all the time back in australia; it was his Thing™ and his passion. it's one of the things he misses most now that he's in korea. he skateboards now, but it just isn't the same as the ocean breeze and sand between his toes. early in his time in legacy, he would get anxious being inside for so long. he's more used to it now, but still feels most at home as surrounded by nature as possible. unfortunate.

canyon moon - harry styles [ “you gotta see it to believe it, sky never looked so blue.” ]

this song gives hippie vibes, and there's even a line about "hippie music" in here, which is part of the reason why it was added to the playlist. indy's mother may be a scientist, but don't be fooled; his parents are also both conservationists and definitely hippies. they named their son indigo march lee. enough said...but really, this song also speaks to indy's love of nature and homesickness for australia, because even in a city like sydney, the sky seemed bluer and the air seemed fresher. he got to visit australia again over the holiday break, which was great, but getting back to korea and legacy leaves him with some mixed feelings: both new motivation and relief and new sadness in leaving australia behind again.

here comes the sun - the beatles [ “here comes the sun, and i say it’s alright.” ]

i call indy "sunshine boy" a lot, so this song seemed fitting to add based off that much alone. i compare him a lot to the sun in his bio too, and i do think it's a fitting comparison. he's almost always smiling brightly, trying to cheer everyone up, and a very warm person in all ways. he's a very optimistic person, and while he's not always as internally sunny as he appears, overall, he's the kind of person to be confident everything will end up okay eventually. his main goal in becoming an idol, and in his life in general, is to make people happy, so here comes the sun (indy)!!

dwyw - stand atlantic [ “take me closer to the sun, you can cut off both my arms.” ]

this song is darker than any of the others on the playlist, but even the "happiest" characters need at least one! part of the reason this song is on this playlist is because stand atlantic is an australian band. the "take me closer to the sun" line is also where i got the title of indy's playlist. to me, this song relates to indy's pushover tendencies, and how he'll sacrifice anything to try to make and keep other people happy. he's also gullible and easily taken advantage of, and puts up with a lot without ever standing up for himself. while he seems confident and unshakably cheerful, there are moments where he has a lot of self-doubt, and this song explores that.

sunny - sunmi [ “you can call me sunny, sunny.” ]

ah yes, back at it again with the sunshine references. like mentioned before, indy is a very bright and warm person, not so unlike sunshine. it's a running motif in the background i wrote for him, too, and he tries to embody the sun in everything he does. aside from that, this song is also adventurous and makes lots of references to the ocean, the beach, and paradise, all things that are important to indy too. it's adventurous and fun, as is indy, and even the vaguely tropical and upbeat instrumental has his energy to me. it's just fun and cute! so is he.

work this body - walk the moon [ “i will work this body, i will burn this flame, oh in the dead of night and in the pouring rain.” ]

this is another really upbeat and fast song with a driving beat where the instrumental alone gives me the Vibes. overall, this song is really relevant to him though; the "work this body" part applies literally in the fact that indy is a dancer, and the "burn this flame" part makes me think of indy's stubborn insistence on remaining optimistic and happy for everyone around him. he may not have a lot of ambition, but he does work really hard, and he's been beaten down by lots of people based on his lack of skill and talent. part of him is really determined to prove everyone wrong in that regard, so he uses it all as motivation to improve, and the lyrics of this song go along with that.

with you - superm [ “like the ocean gives away the breeze, i wanna ride your wave and be your tide.” ]

more fresh, bright, nice instrumental indy vibes, but of course, the lyrics apply too! to me, this song is kind of a soft ode to indy's relationships, especially #aussieline. it's another song with a kind of adventurous spirit, about throwing caution to the wind and enjoying time with someone, whether that's a friend or romantic interest. maybe it leans more romantic, but indy is really soft and affectionate with his friends, so the parts about holding hands etc don't have to be romantic for him. it's also here for ocean references! always! indy would also like to clarify that this song does not make him think about jiahn, which is obviously false, otherwise he would not need to clarify it.

boogie up - wjsn [ “hey, shake that, boogie up!” ]

this song is pretty straightforward and is about exactly what you would think: boogieing up. that is to say: dancing. 80% of the lyrics are about dancing in the summer heat, which is another indy vibe. this one is just fun, which indy deserves bc he suffers a lot for the good kid he is asdasdgdsg there's very little depth to it. just a song for a kid dancin in the summer time, the vibe. there's not much to say here so all i'll do is repeat myself and nobody is going to read to the end of this anyway so i'll just hit 100 words this way, thank you thank you <3