#kinda want to write a oneshot of this
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while on the topic of physical affection headcanons
just thinking about that study I read awhile back that said humans sleep much better when near another person. Imagine Harry having a nightmare, so Severus comes in after hearing him scream, and he wakes him up and comforts him for awhile. Severus gets tired of standing so he sits down to hug Harry and Harry falls asleep on him, so he just lays down with him cuddled up to his chest with Severus' arms wrapped around him and then he ends up falling asleep as well
then they both wake up wondering why that was the best sleep they've had in years 😭
#harry potter#severitus#harry james potter#severus snape#I am so soft for them#kinda want to write a oneshot of this#or just put it in the fic#physical affection...delicious#the things I dream of having
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༊*·˚ pretty boy | peter parker
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for you, peter is the literally definition of pretty. his big brown puppy eyes and his perfectly structured face, his lean but muscular built, his cute little pout when you don’t give him a kiss before he goes patrolling.
he is just so so very pretty.
you don't know know how long you have been staring at him for, but he didn't seem to notice. too busy focusing on his science project, and his concentration is very hot.
his long slender fingers moving carefully and slowly to put the pieces together and your attention only zeroed on them. such, such pretty hands.
the weight of your stare was starting to make peter nervous. peter gets flustered very easily. and with you? you didn't even have to try.
peter suddenly put down the components for his project and turned to you, “i know i'm hot but can you please stop staring at me like that?” he mumbled, as a soft blush appear on his face. his tone was confident but you can sense his nervousness.
he tried focusing on his project again as you chuckled, the kind of chuckle that sends tingles all over peter's body, “sorry pete, but you are just so very pretty.”
wow. okay he didn't expect that.
peter chocked on his saliva, his body hot all over, nearly dropping the pieces of his homework.
“baby, you can't just say things like that.” he looked at you, eyes wide and soft. and it makes you grin.
“it's the truth.” you shrugged, “you're my pretty boy.” you know you're testing his limits, but it was fun teasing peter.
peter's mind malfunctioned. he's trying to ignore you, but the way you said my pretty boy is replaying over and over in his head.
“damn it.” he quietly swore, putting down whatever left of his project and turning to you.
your eyebrows rose in a teasing manner as a smirk finds its way to your face. “what?” you innocently asked, but you know exactly what you're doing, and he knows it too.
peter chuckled as he walks to where your laying at the bed. the sound send a shiver up your spine and now you're the one who's nervous.
he leaned closer to you, you could feel his breath on your lips as you both took a moment to admire each other. peter was staring at your eyes to your nose and your soft lips, bringing his eyes to connect with yours again and you could feel your stomach doing flips.
“and you're my pretty baby.” he whispered softly before cutting off a whine that rose up your throat with his lips.
his lips were a little chapped, but it fits your perfectly. your hands move to tangle on his hair, giving it a little pull making peter groan into the kiss. he leaned back, his warm hands move to find comfort on your waist as he brings you onto his lap.
peter felt like his heart was about to burst. every single sense of his is override and all he can focus on is you. you. you.
his home.
reblog for a kiss <3

#⋆⋅☆ hana’s writing!#i don't know if i wanted to go with nervous peter or confident peter so i kinda combined the two <3#i just wanna make out with him dude#is that too much to ask for?#peter parker x you#peter parker#peter parker x reader#peter parker x y/n#peter parker imagine#peter parker fluff#peter parker fanfic#peter parker oneshot#peter parker blurb#tasm fic#tasm!peter fluff#tasm!peter x you#tasm!peter x reader#tasm!peter imagine#tasm fanfiction
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i wanted this to rhyme like a dr seuss story but lowk some of them don't make much sense so i apologize!! working on other katsmas stuff now, will hopefully get them out soon <3
grinch!bakugou once celebrated christmas, just once, in his life. though truly, it was only because of you, the perfect girl he'd envisioned as his future wife. he remembers it oh so clearly, that day, so grim and dreary when his punk 8 year old self felt the most bleary. stupid shoto todoroki, with his stupid calmness, had stolen your heart with ease on christmas eve.
grinch!bakugou doesn’t recall how you stared at him in agony when he’d threw a heartbreaking fit over the cruel laughs that had pierced him. he never saw the angry tears in your eyes, the hurt that you couldn’t speak. your quiet sorrow made him believe you were just as weak.
grinch!bakugou spent most of his life on a tall, lonely hill, avoiding the world below, hiding from all the chill. every few weeks, when couraged dared to grow, bakugou would venture to torment whoville, that idiotic little town, to spread his own woe.
grinch!bakugou hated when little eri strolled into his cave and begged him to come to her town to celebrate christmas. he hated it even more when she whispered with a grin, that you’d be there too, at the whobilation as you'd always been.
grinch!bakugou not so subtly quizzed the precious girl about her “interview” with you, in a twist of a swirl. he’d scrunched up his nose when she shyly quoted your words, “he was a gangly thing, katsuki. i almost fell out my seat when he threw the christmas tree.. nobody knew he had such muscles.” if only you could see him now! all grown and spry, with jacked arms and thighs that could surely defy. bakugou's pride swelled, though he’d never admit, he'd certainly show you, just wait, just sit.
grinch!bakugou who had an internal wrestling match with himself before deciding he’d go.
grinch!bakugou never hated shoto todoroki as much as he did this day, when he came upon him, the mayor of whoville, standing besides you in his usual cool sway. you, his darling, love, and lady. and believe it or not, bakugou was quite shady, throwing grunts and growls of curses toward the man.
grinch!bakugou couldn’t believe it when the whos around him began cheering at his participation in the whobilation traditions. when he’d harshly judge their puddings with a scowl, they cheered. when he rode around in the chair of cheer as the crowned cheermeister of the year (an odd affair), they cheered louder. when he won the sack race, you cheered too loudly, by mistake, joy bubbling from you, making his heart start to shake.
grinch!bakugou’s festivities were cut short when todoroki handed him a hateful “present” to cause pain, to remind him of his past days as a measly 8 year old strain. his scowl grew bigger still when half and half proposed to you with an abnormally large diamond ring with an icy thrill, along with a brand new car. whoville truly believed the brawn was going to blow up into the stars.
eri thought for sure that he’d blow them all away, but the grinch had his own role to play. he didn’t like the spotlight, not unless it was for praise, but this time, he took it-- much to their daze. with a sharp nail, he scratched the shiny new ride before grabbing some mistletoe, standing with pride. he flocked up next to you with almost cheeky eyes, and bent over, yelling to all of the town, "KISS MY ASS WHOVILLE!"
that's when chaos began.
the great christmas tree, right in the square, caught fire, ablaze with a fiery flare. but that was just the start of grinch!bakugou’s plan to steal christmas away and ruin the the whos' year.
in a manner so vile, he dressed up as santa, sneaking through homes with a wicked smile. he swiped all the presents, the food, the lights, the furniture too-- and the evil did it with delight.
the next morning, whoville awoke with a cry. the town was in shambles, with no gifts left to buy. while eri’s father, aizawa, stood filled with shame as the mayor accused him at fault, eri climbed the eerie mountain once more, calling bakugou’s name.
she pleaded with him, "save the town, please do!" but he'd come to a realization before she arrived. however, her kind words still reached him, and his heart grew. so down he came, with a sleigh full of loot, riding through whoville to present their belongings.
the whos cheered with relief, but then you cried out, “wait!” you took your ring from the sleigh, and handed it to shoto, sealing your fate. "i’m sorry, my dear, but my heart belongs to another," you said, and then turned to bakugou, who also, turned around, before realizing you meant him!
grinch!bakugou, surprised, paused for a beat. though quickly, a wicked grin spread across his face, his joy complete. with a cruel cackle that rang out, dark and sly, he wiggled his finger at an astonished todoroki who'd sighed in defeat.
grinch!bakugou wrapped an arm around you with a loud, proud shove, still laughing in the mayor’s face. his true love was love. “i guess,” said the crowd, “he’s not changed that much, but perhaps he's found a soft touch.”
#kinda wrote this super messily aaaa#i wanted to make this a bit more detailed but i didnt wanna write another oneshot lol#🎀🎄 ˚₊ 🍫 katsmas 2024 ₊˚ ⊹#k.b ♡#bakugou katsuki#bakugo#katsuki bakugo#katsuki bakugou#katsuki bakugo x reader#bakugou x reader#bakugo x reader#bakugo fluff#bakugou fluff#mha x reader#bakugo x you#katsuki x reader#bakugou katuski x reader#bakugo katsuki x reader#bakugou katsuki x reader#bnha x reader#💭🎀 dolly writes ᶻᶻ ﹒ ○
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cheng weimin and shao yuanyuan abandoning cheng xiaoshi at the tender age of 8 years old gets even more fucked up when you think about how they know about the photo diving ability and that bahati is a school related to abilities
like okay listen. one of you has the ability to go back in time by clapping your hands while looking at a photo. presumably you know that abilities are passed on to children. they can activate at any time, perhaps during traumatic moments like with the twins. one of you went to teach at a school for superpowered kids so presumably you know how this works.
and you think you can just abandon a kid with unactivated powers?? leave him with trauma ripe for awakening abilities? what if it wasn't the bridon photo that triggered it huh? what if cheng xiaoshi, at the tender age of 8, cried so hard wondering about his parents and then he accidentally claps himself into a random photo (IN A PHOTO STUDIO! A SHOP ABOUT PHOTOS!! WHERE HE LIVES!!!) with no one to guide him? what if he gets stuck there??? as a kid???
like okay yeah lu guang discovered his ability at 7 years old but apparently someone was there to help him. and also his ability doesn't like, harm him physically. he's not possessing someone or anything. so we're all just lucky cheng xiaoshi never discovered his powers until he was an adult because like. if he discovered that as a kid, lonely as he was?? he'd be so fucked. oh my god. just thinking about it gets me heated like what the fuck cheng weimin. shao yuanyuan. what the fuck. what if your 8 year old kid with abandonment issues got stuck possessing some random person and he doesn't know what's happening. he doesn't know anything. his parents left him and he's not even himself anymore and he's not home and how does he fix this, how does he go back. the horror of it all.
#mine musings#liveblogging link click#link click#link click spoilers#syy you're still one of the most interesting characters but wtf girl#every day i think about how cxs has such a strong heart like. my god#i can make this more fucked up actually because imagine if what triggers this is the earthquake news#bc we KNOW cxs was so distraught by the news that he cried to ql wondering if his parents were caught in it#so imagine a scenario where he's watching the news he sees pictures of the earthquake and he's thinking of his parents#and accidentally. claps there#like. oof. TERRIBLE way to find out your powers. mayhaps worse than how it happened in yingdu#sorry i'm trying to write a horror lc fic so my brain is leaning towards this kind of thinking these days#actually wait what if i write this as a closed loop oneshot au kinda thing#like what if 2008 cxs accidentally dived as chen xiao holding the camera......... thinking of his mom.........#and then flash forward to S1 earthquake arc and cheng xiaoshi Remembers this#wait no he can't dive as chen xiao so i guess he'd dive as the cameraperson from the news#unless cctv footage rules apply#if someone else wants to write it btw feel free#i'm not staking claim or whatever. ideas are free on this blog
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Thk gang’s takes on women as a concept
Fadel: respects women and won't hesitate to help them if they need it. Won't stop him from shooting them if required and treats them indifferently during missions.
Bison: he does not actively think about them and for the most part he regards them on the same level as men during missions. Outside missions, he drinks his respect women juice everyday and won't hesitate to shoot someone about it.
Style: big supporter of the fact that women should do whatever they want and while not attracted, has an aesthetic appreciation for them. Has definitely been hit on by women who mistakenly think he is a lesbian; he takes it all in good stride and has the numbers of his most loyal customers saved along with their car type. They all go out for drinks occasionally. The aunties love him.
Kant: is not attracted to women but will do anything for the mission. Has a big appreciation and respect for single mothers and he is mothered by Babe's friend's mothers and the market aunties who tell him to eat well and settle down. He is on a forum for single mothers where they exchange parenting and financial tips and everyone in the forum thinks he is a teen parent whose baby daddy went to jail for 5 years after appearing in his life suddenly without contact for years. He has not corrected them yet; and every so often out of nowhere Bison gets chills down his spine.
#i mostly just analysed the gang's interactions with women and extrapolated from that but#you can see the devolvement into headcanon territory#i only included the 4 here if you want more people please do mention#and i hope you like it and it fulfiled your expectations#this was fun to write and i want to write a oneshot on kant and style's part especially#kinda nervous posting this and feedback would be appreciated :)#incorrect quotes#thk#incorrect thk#the heart killers#the heart killers incorrect quotes#thk fadel#thk bison#thk style#thk kant#wow these are a lot of tags#sorry for that
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I’m in trouble boys
#high school frenemy#writing#thai drama#bromance#saintshin#thai school 2013#ao3#coming soon#someone send help#I can’t stop#the fics write themselves#i need to sleep#I have work in four hours#but i cant#the words#they have to escape#if I don’t write I’ll die#please let these be oneshots#I can’t survive another long series#I am the queen of accidental series fics#just like a couple thousand words and it’ll be fine#let me have this#I don’t want to die yet#i have to finish it#I will post something soon#but not now#right now it looks kinda like a bush fire#full of heat and passion but also destroying everything in its path#and my heart is burned to a crisp already
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I keep thinking about Veryn occasionally asking Astarion to stay with him when he sleeps for a while (since he’s only half elf) because he likes the company and craves the body contact. He might’ve thought it was a little silly to ask the first time, assured Astarion that it could be brief enough and he was welcome to return to his bedroll whenever he was ready, but Astarion obliged and eventually he does come to enjoy it.
And after a while, Astarion begins to ponder the whole nature of sleeping—which he doesn’t need to do—and even dreaming, which he hasn’t really properly done, either. Not since he was mortal, and even then it’s not as if he has any human influence in his lineage. What is it like for a human to dream, to slumber so soundly for so long? Veryn doesn’t need to sleep quite so much as a human, and yet still he spends hours of his day so vulnerable by necessity. In the world Astarion came from, such a thing seems unthinkable. Unbearable. Like a death sentence, actually. How lucky they are to have stumbled upon one another, then, so Astarion can hold this vigil sacrosanct.
It starts to really bother him, thinking about Veryn asleep all alone night after night, so perilously ripe for a plunging blade or well trained arrow. Lost to a dream and blissfully unaware of such jeopardy, how strange, indeed.
Astarion finds himself watching Veryn as he rests, holding him fast, wondering what those dreams are like. Hoping with each soft exhale or flutter of lashes that he’s somewhere in there, too.
#bg3#astarion#astarion ancunin#tavstarion#baldur's gate 3#bg3 thots#veryn#asteryn#male oc#male tav#bloodpeach#🩸 🍑#I kinda want to write a oneshot Astarion POV of this but idk if I ever will so the idea lives here for now
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Kdj was starving.
His meal was mere steps away from him, but he couldn't. This was not prepared for him. Someone unworthy has already claimed this one.
But he was starving. He could feel his insides threatening to claw their way out of him the next second he chooses to remain stubborn to give in.
Let us eat. Let us eat- came the haunting voices from deep under, and kdj shivered as he felt their breaths scrape at his skin.
“Kim Dokja.”
Now, this was what made kdj's whole body tremble.
How could he even let someone else leave their lowly mark on such a perfect creation? This meal's voice felt like dripping sin, a rushing deep river of a sweetness he could have had for himself if not for the ‘morals' he has upheld.
Morals, my ass.
Those who desperately longed to satiate more of their desires had not been designed for such a foolish concept. There was no such thing in their world.
But kdj was not from there, was he now? He has not completely signed himself off. He has not been the one to adhere to so-called rules that have not even been officially written. He wouldn't even follow them if they were.
“Kim Dokja?”
This meal made a fool out of them with just his beauty. His perfect strides as he came closer, and that most ever enticing scent. Kdj could already taste him in his lips. He could feel his sanity, his moral ground (if that still exists) turn into fucking dust as it easily slips away from him.
“Hmm, Joonghyuk-ah? Is there something you'd like to talk about?” His words flowed out like a song to lure in its chosen prey.
There was a glint in the other's eyes, one that kdj could feel even if his eyes had been shut tight. One that he would immediately recognize no matter how much the beholder would attempt to hide it.
Ah.
Turned out he wasn't the only one craving for something to devour.
#orv#joongdok au#joongdok#kim dokja#yoo joonghyuk#idk what this is#joongdok oneshot#ig???? tho i kinda want to continue this one#omniscient reader's viewpoint#save me from this brainrot pls#umm#implied#or maybe#mild ns*w#wanted to write something different TT
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Genuinely intrigued by the potential of Peri and Irep's dynamic but only in a platonic way so I end up not vibing with the fandom's portrayal of it 😔😔😔
(No but listen LISTEN they were kinda-almost-friends when we last saw them in FOP, yeah? Now they're enemies, with both actively fighting each other, and Irep going so far as to try and kill Peri's parents. What happened? When? What influenced it? Did they ever become friends, or did it nosedive the moment the cameras turned off? What about Sammy? How do Irep's parents factor into this? Could it ever be fixed? There's just so much we haven't seen, and romance just feels like too easy a solution to me. Let their friendship be easy to break, fragile. Let them have to work to keep the connection. Fairies and Anti-Fairies are literally made to be opposites, so what happens when two genuinely and truly become friends?)
((and yeah I guess a lot of this could factor into a romantic angle but ALAS the fandom seems to be leaning heavily into the funny toxic yaoi angle 😔 I don't mind it! By all means, please have your very harmless fun! But it ain't my jam :P Perhaps I'll have to write a oneshot myself...))
(((see tags for more rambles i guess. whoops a bitch spoke too much in there as he always does)))
#i'm banned (self inflicted) from writing long fics until i finish this one i'm working on#and honestly I might keep the ban afterwards i am SO BAD at working on long fics. never finished one ever#oneshot guy thru and thru. but painfully. disastrously. i have so many long fic ideas...#anyway I like to think that they did become friends#and then not friends. and then friends again. and then not friends. and then-#and sometimes it was Peri's fault but a lot of the times it was Irep not feeling like he was allowed to be Peri's friend#and doing something to break it off#but Peri would keep trying to be his friend or Irep would realize that he still wants to be#but one day. Peri just gave up#he was tired of this back and forth. of never knowing if he was gonna be friends with this guy tomorrow or not#so he stopped trying. decided that if Irep wanted to be friends again HE would have to be the one to try and repair it#and also give him an apology maybe. not for breaking off the friendship again just for all the fucking murder attempts#(''if i die you die too dumbass-'')#unforch this happened to line up with Irep finally reconnecting with Anti-Cosmo and Anti-Wanda again#and with them discouraging being friends with fairies + peri not trying to fix it this time... it. uh. kinda broke it off for good#('maybe not for good. maybe there's a chance. maybe Irep would-... ugh. it's not worth thinking about...')#Sammy's still friends with both of them though. It is Not Fun#gives Sammy my childhood experience of my two fighting friends wanting to sit with me at lunch but refusing to talk to each other#okay damn this post got long af. did not realize i had thought about this so much until i practically dropped a fic down here#anyway. actual tags? actual tags#fop#fairly oddparents#the fairly oddparents#peri fop#irep fop#peri fairywinkle-cosma#uh. do ppl search irep's full name... augh#irep anti-fairywinkle-anti-cosma#congrats elkniwirep your name fucking sucks. it's awful#a new wish
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I should write some fic though... it's been quite a long time. Maybe something little and cute or silly to dip my toes back in the water. Hm, tomorrow perhaps...
#now should i:#revisit some of my old bookmarks from the ace attorney kinkmeme#(pro - crack/funny and a familiar fandom. con - i may've not gotten around to those bookmarks already for a reason)#attempt some dracula handholding fic from that one prompt list#(pro - finally write for drac and i've had the idea for a while plus i could do it via asks to outsource some specific character combos#con - always get very nervous about a first fic in a fandom and it's worse if it's not my first interaction with said fandom)#or just do some other fic challenge or something?#dont think i wanna continue anything i got going since i just kinda want to hop back in with something small#so my various half finished oneshots as well as partially published fic must keep waiting methinka
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Every once in a while I think about the ship I've been obsessed over for close to two years now and feel like I'm ascending to another plane of reality. Like sometimes you just encounter a ship that hits every single mark and is perfect in every regard and you're left stunned how something like that can even exist
#Anyways I'mma put the actual inane ramblings in the tags#Medic and Engie make me so ill every time I think about them for a while I feel like tearing into things and biting people and throwing up#How something like that can exist completely defies me#I don't know how something that perfect can exist#I'm typically a multi-shipper and while I still kinda am I honest to god don't really care to write other ships#Not cause they ain't good (they are pretty damn good) but because Engiemedic is just on another level#Like dammnnn!! that's why I've spent so long writing a fic about them!#I can't fathom it honestly how characters like that can exist#They're like a slightly warped reflection of themselves#They're both intelligent mentally ill lunatics with no morals whatsoever#The only thing is that Engie is marginally better at hiding it#If you go into headcanon territory than WHOO!! OHH DAMNNN#Like what gets me the most about Engiemedic is how they're so similar#They think and exist on the same wavelength#In tune with each other. Their neurons braided like wires#If I start talking about how the machine and the flesh are not opposites but rather one in the same we gonna be here all day#I just can't...believe the ship exists#Like man how does this happen#You want humour? Goofy wacky experiments and silliness of them violating several conventions#You want angst? Hell yeah they've got plenty of it#Fluff? Buddy I start wailing and sobbing if they accidentally brush hands while working on stuff#I could write about them for ages and not get bored they can fit in every circumstance#They make me SICK they make me CRAZY I love them so so much#They would do anything for each other#I look at what they have and I can feel like I understand what love is#I need to write more oneshots and minifics about them they're so flexiable and fun#Can't wait to do parallels with them in these upcoming chapters#Either way GODDDDD I love these two so much I could go on for hours about them#especially if I'm allowed to talk about headcanons#sp-rambles
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it's almost time. when? idk, when i stop being a coward LOL
#would be kinda funny if i waited to post it on 4/20 like haha happy bday curt *lights blunt*#genuinely can't bring myself to hit post tho been staring at it all day#it's so much scarier than posting a oneshot i want to do this right and i want to do the way i see them in my head justice#posting my writing never gets less nervewracking for me#like oh hello strangers and friends i just poured my heart out onto a page and now i'm offering it up with shaking hands#and i'm trying very hard to be normal about it because it's not that deep but also i care very much SJDGJK#but i think i'll post it before tonight i just feel NAUSEOUS#still need to write an end note anyway#i'm fr just yapping to stall atp LMAO#dog coded bucky fic#johnslittlespoon yaps#i'm also like what if it doesn't live up to expectations. LIKE YEAH WHAT IF. the world goes on. but i will be so hard on myself bruh
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Initially I was planning to write this in third person, but the ISAT demons took over and now I'm writing in second person from Siffrin's pov.
I'm having the time of my life over here actually I love writing this traumatized little shit.
#maxisrambling#isat#in stars and time#havent written in second person since my first ut phase i forgot how hilarious it can be#esp with isat's writing style#im working on a small what if wip for shits and giggles#to get a feel on how to write siffrin#its a 'what if the loops worked a little differently' kinda thing#idk how much im gonna develop it story-wise (shooting for a oneshot rn) but if anyone wants a snippet just lemme know /lh
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Humans are Space Orcs x Marvel
Hear me out: humans are space orcs situation with those fighting rings but Wade Wilson ends up in one of those situation. They always think humans are space orcs, that they’re crazy. Wait until they see what Deadpool can do.
#I just watched Deadpool 3#this was kinda floating in my head after#I kind of want to write a Oneshot of it#Deadpool
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my adoring fans do u guys prefer shorter fics (1-3k) that come out more frequently or longer fics (4k+) that take longer to put out
#i know that that's not really a long fic by any means#but it's long TO ME. because i've never passed the 8000s in one chapter#this isn't a “what should i do” kinda question it's just. what's more favored#because i do like my lil oneshots. but i know that shorter fics can leave people wanting more n all that#and i love my longer fics. but the time i take writing/editing them is so much longer than i'd like it to#idk!#genuinely just wondering#follow up question do we like multi-fic series or multi-chap fics more what's the move#because i do both and i feel like the series is a lot better for my sake
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7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos
#normal Saturday morning behavior#redacted spoilers#redacted audio#redacted sam#Seven.txt#rp audio stuff#well. crying over one singular blorbo in particular. Sam's still got me in an emotional chokehold#and i'm too sad to even make a stupid little joke abt how i wouldn't mind if it was a physical one too. ayeee *insert sad eyebrow wiggle*#no but seriously. i have so many feelings abt him and i can't even say it all bc some of it isn't public info yet#eh fuck it i'll just draft this until the audio goes public and then i'll post it once it's no longer Exclusive Info#bc i dont wanna leak Early Access stuff but i have to get this out of my system rn and the new audio is part of what sparked these thoughts#which is funny bc i. literally haven't even listened to it yet. i'm not Ready 😭#where's that tiktok screenshot that's like. 'hyperfixation so bad that i can't even engage with the source material' bc that's me rn#like bro Sam only won the poll like. 2 or 3 days ago and Eric is Already dropping a new Sam audio?? hello? Mr. Redacted i wasn't prepared#anyways i was spoiling myself by perusing the comments last night trying to get a feel for if it's gonna be more angst or comfort#and i saw a comment that absolutely shattered me. and it reignited all my sad thoughts about Sam's eventual. uh. y'know. death.#apparently they plant a tree together or smthn in the new audio (which already has me & my beloved 10y/o orange tree feeling some kinda way#but to the individual in the comments who brought to all our minds the image of Sam sitting beneath that tree in 30 or so years time#when he's decided that he's ready to die and sits out there waiting for the sun to rise..................... 🥲#i'm gonna need u to compensate me for all of that unexpected emotional damage /j /nm#i'm Still not over what he told Darlin' while they had their talk about the future up on his roof together. that audio killed me#then yesterday i was listening to my Sam & Darlin' playlist while cleaning. and Malibu Nights by LANY came on. which i always skip bc Sad#but i let it play and just started crying. standing in the middle of the room all disheveled and holding a broom. as one does.#iirc that song is one that Eric himself said is applicable to Sam which is why/how i found it and put it on the playlist. and god. g o d#hm. i hope that wasn't Patreon exclusive info. i can't remember if it was a public post where he said that or not. hope it's okay to share#but if we can take that song as like. unofficial canon for Sam then that also confirms my idea that he used to drink to cope#which makes the opening lines of Fix What You Didn't Break by Nate Smith even more applicable. i should go edit that post actually#anyways i'm just. feeling a lot. and i love Sam very much and i don't want him to die. but i want him to do what he wants at the same time#Alexis took so fucking much from him. he deserves to live - and end - his life on his own terms. ... i think i need to go write something#*casually fishes this post out of the drafts 3 and a half days later* hi so uh. i wrote a 4k oneshot :) and will hopefully post it tomorrow
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