#kin bullshit

[hiraeth-daydreams]

Living well with your aromanticism, not despite of it, gets easier when you notice that this world wasn't made for you. You are not restricted by expectations, you don't have to follow a pre-planned course of steps to what happiness should be at; being aromantic can bring upon you the will to mold your life to whatever shape you want, because you know fully well what's expected won't fulfill you. Instead, you have the power and time to find what does.

You can live alone, unabashedly happy, surrounded by the little things that give you comfort.

You can build meaningful, long-lasting relationships that have not even a hint of romance.

You can have fleeting relations with people that make you feel good and not deepen your bond.

You can have one-night stands and leave before the morning comes if it feels right for you.

You can be present in your family or community, helping and being helped by people you trust and feel like a gift of being part of.

You can hear stories from the mouth of your companions and elders, and tell your own.

You can find beauty where people don't usually care to look at, revel in how much wonder is within you.

You can do what people usually feel like they need a romantic partner to do, without the limitations or complications one would need to fit themself around; ranging for dates to caring for children.

You can pursue hobbies, engage with art and craftsmanship, explore nature, do research, fill your days with the joy of creation all by yourself, just because you can.

The world was not built for you, but it doesn't mean it can't fill your days with joy, or that you can never belong in it. There is so much more than romance.

[dissidiacloudstrife]

would you believe me if i told you i had to redraw zack like 3 times

Sephiroth | Genesis | Angeal | Zack | Aerith | Tifa

[captainspaulding]

spaulding rodeo clown wip

[void-does-not-sleep]

Genuinely don’t know what I identify as anymore.

I say I’m transmasc and I do prefer He/they pronouns and I’d definitely prefer to be born male if I was given the option. But on the other hand I also feel like I don’t tick certain boxes when it comes to being trans masculine? It’s hard to explain really. I do want a flat chest but would I really want a penis? I don’t think so. Also, thinking about being extremely hairy (like a moustache or hand hair/feet hair) makes me extremely uncomfortable. And on top of that I don’t think I’d wanna transition medically (apart from maybe top surgery or breast reduction at least) so no testosterone or bottom surgery.

My ideal body would just be a totally flat chest with preferably no nipples and no genitalia, just a small hole to pee out of kinda like a doll.

I also really struggle to see myself as human in general so identifying my gender has been such a struggle. It seems like anytime I think I have it figured out it only lasts a few months at most till the doubt and identity crisis hit again.

Maybe I’m just somewhere on the nonbinary/a gender spectrum? I can’t even tell anymore.

Xenogenders/neopronouns have been a thing I’ve been wanting to experiment with online to see if that would help with the “not feeling human” thing.

Life would me so much easier if I was a cat or a small floating orb of light lol

[nerdy-valkyrie]

Robot Brain: Ew, leg hair

Werewolf Brain: Fuck yeah, leg hair!

Mermaid Brain: Ew, legs

[nevadakincentral]

Self indulgent 2BDamned moodboard for Mod 2B with themes of "doctor stuff", syringes and blood

[blazingstar24]

And if I say that both Anakin and Thrawn suffered the same childhood trauma and it manifests in completely different ways that makes their dynamic very interesting, what then? The loss of a family member and how they reacted to it is crucial in their characters. It is the loss of Shmi that turns Anakin’s love into a possessive, obsessive, abandonment fearing mess. It is the loss of Vurika/Borika, that informs Thrawn’s view of himself and others as just assets to a larger cause.

Regardless if Anakin could or couldn’t have saved his mother if the council listened, Shmi’s death in his mind is framed as an event in that Anakin was too late, he wasn’t there. It is a loss that turns into this idea that if he doesn’t protect what he loves, someone or something will take it from him. We see this in the Rush Clovis arc, we see it in the way he immediately jumps to jealousy at Obi Wan in ROTS despite Obi Wan never having such a relation with Padme. For Anakin, loss is always framed as someone took something from me. Even platonically, we see this in the Rako Hardeen arc. And it is evident that this started after Shmi’s death because Anakin does not have the same sort of hatred for Maul who killed Quigon.

For Anakin, it will always be that someone took something from me, so I have to do something about that. And it’s why Palpatine can manipulate him so easily, because all Palps has to do is point at someone, give him a target to blame and say kill.

For Thrawn, yes it is slightly different as Borika isn’t dead. But it is a loss nevertheless. Thrawn on the flip side of Anakin, registers loss as something inevitable and thus why harbor deep attachments? Not to say he doesn’t care because we know he does. Thrass, Ar’alani, and Eli all speak to the fact that he does very much care and love. But in every instance, he does keep them at a distance, he pushes them away just as they get close. And it stems from Borika because the reason why he loses her is so she could serve the Ascendancy. It is not a choice she made and he knows this. And that informs why everything he does is for this goal, because all he knows is that everything, even things that caused him pain is supposed to be for this goal.

Where Anakin sought to justify the loss in blaming himself and then others, Thrawn justifies the loss by trying to give the pain purpose. If it meant something then he shouldn’t be upset. It is what it is. Yet, just like how Anakin’s possessiveness leads to his downfall by Palpatine, by pushing all his friends away instead of keeping them close, Thrawn leaves himself vulnerable and surrounded by his enemies instead. All those friends will serve the larger goal, the Ascendancy, but who is left looking to him?

Idk what I’m really trying to say other than yeah that’s some interesting character dynamics. The idea that both these characters are defined by loss as much as they are also defined by hope as their shining moments of good.

[saintadeline]

I just woke up from a dream where i was so certain i had just come to a groundbreaking realization about bloodborne and now that i'm awake it was really silly but i think this part of it still holds true so I made the exact image i was making in that dream. What this means is up to interpretation but it's interesting i suppose

[signofthestriking]

Legal disclaimer (/j) but I do not give a fuck what Ubisoft or canon say next season, Jacklust is forever

[silverjirachi]

BACK IN MY DAY WE CALLED IT KINNING

[godblooded]

the way i have no one to grieve with and it’s fucking killing me slowly.

[dissidiacloudstrife]

okay this one was on purpose

Sephiroth | Genesis | Angeal | Zack | Aerith | Tifa

[thevalleyisjolly]

As an archivist, thinking about the right to be forgotten in a specifically archival context, and the idea that not everyone wants their stories or their records to be made available to anyone/for everyone; that often, what a community judges to be the best preservation for their own histories and culture is not what is beneficial to outsiders, especially outside academics.

More specifically, thinking about this in the context of Lord of the Rings/The Hobbit/The Silmarillion/other Legendarium books as “historical” texts.  Thinking about maybe the “authors” not writing everything down because they understand the power of stories and how the telling of a thing grants a certain power over it, over how it is known and spread, and positions the teller as a figure of authority over what (and who) is depicted.

We already know that Bilbo is an unreliable narrator, that he changes things and leaves things out.  There were a few posts and fics years ago, when the Hobbit movies came out, about Bilbo befriending a young Estel in Rivendell and deliberately leaving that out of his stories at Gandalf/Elrond’s request.  What other things might he have left out, perhaps, out of respect for his friends in the Company and their desire to keep their culture and language private and closed? 

Pengolodh compiling the Annals of Beleriand from which came the greater part of The Silmarillion - but he was in Gondolin for much of the First Age, and would have had to rely on other sources to give an account of the rest of Beleriand.  Who did he talk to?  What might they have said and not said, and what might they have requested he include or keep out? 

Anyways, the Legendarium as an archive, something actively created and shaped by the different people in and around it, who both added things and left things out unintentionally or by design or on request. 

[nerdy-valkyrie]

Feeling aquatic, might start an H2O rewatch later

[local-robotgirlthing]

qbit art i forgot to post :>