#killua finds a real family

[wolfgiselle]

Summary: Gon wasn’t incredibly good as guessing the ages of children. He supposed the boy was no longer a toddler but only just. Stunning sapphire eyes blinked at Gon, catching the fluorescent lights overhead. The child had fluffy silver-white hair and was wearing oversized clothes that were painstakingly familiar. Gon had no idea what had happened or why, but it was abruptly clear that the little boy was Killua.

A strange nen attack reduced Killua to the age of a child and it was up to Gon to protect him while trying to get him back to normal.

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Review: Aww. I love baby Killua. Killua deserved to have an actual childhood. Fanfictions that allow him to experience the comfort and safety of one are my 'life elixir' - even if that means he has to be de-aged. He's the character that got me into Hunter X Hunter in the first place, and his and Gon's relationship was what kept me watching.

It was so heartwarming to read about how much a part of Gon simply wanted to run away with Killua and raise him the way he deserved. Or how much he wanted to hold little Killua tight and never let go.

It was heartbreaking every time Killua made clear how fucked up his life and family were. It was in the way he said he didn't know what safety was, constantly misinterpreted every kindness, and repeated over and over again that ‘a good assassin doesn't need...’ so and so etc... Let's not forget the bruises, the scars, or the clear malnutrition. It hurts to even read about a child going through so much.

The fact that they actually have to make him feel safe to turn him back - and that it's considered a possible impossibility pains me.

This is definitely one of my favorite de-aged fics. 

[verysanebsdfan]

Helloo 💗💗

Idk if ur taking hxh requests now but could you do hcs on how it'd likely go when Killua's family eventually find out abt his s/o?? How each family member is likely to react and how they even found out abt that anyway, and all that since...

I DONT THINK ITD GO WELL BUT I COULD BE WRONG

Have a nice day by the way <3

Hello and thank you for requesting<3

I doubt it will be accurate but thats what headcanons are for ig? Either way i tried <3

Also i made this gn!reader

Tw: a little foul language i guess, murder mentioned in a silli way >_<, its really bad so it needs a warning too

○ oKi imagine Illumi somehow saw you on a date or just hanging out ykyk, and told it to the rest of the family cuz Killua is the fav child?! fuckin snitch

○ Alr so lets be fr, it would really depend on your strenght. Are you strong asf and good influence on Killua? Sure, it could be arranged. But are you weak, or bad influence, or have some flaws that they dont like? RUN.

○ So lets say you are not the worst (ily yall dw), i have a strong feeling that Kikyo, Killuas mom, would despise you. She'd be like those moms on socials like, "nuh uh you arent his first kiss, i was, and he is still my baby boy" and "i cant let anyone steal my boy, he is mine, not yours blah blah" girl, grow tf up.

○ And lets be honest, it wouldnt be much better with Illumi :((

Oh? Kill has an s/o? hm...once they have a disagreement, he will kill them anyway

○ STFU U ILLUMINATI >_<

○ Next up would be Milluki

○ Imagine not having a real s/o, Milluki (i aint better)

○ Either way, he wouldnt be happy but what can he do? You arent the favourtie child Milluki.

○ I dunno what to say, really, but Kalluto wouldnt really give a flying shit.

○ Alluka would adore you omg >_< AND you're gonna be her sister in law?! RIGHT? RIGHT? Same with Nanika, adores you. But if you ever hurt Killua....id recommend killing yourself quickly before they find you. (pls dont kys and dont hurt killua)

○ I wanna include Zeno cuz he slays sm. Supporting grandparent fr. Much better than Kikyo and Illumi.

○ Now on to Silva....

○ I can sorta see him be okay with it, i mean, if Kill is happy and wants to get stronger, and return home, why tf not.

○ But be careful, a little slip and *funeral music starts playing*

○ Overally pretty chill on the outside at least

○ So if you were cool and strong, you would probably live (hopefully)

Guys im sorry its badddddddddddddddddd but i tried, I am on a vacacion so my brain kind of got fried its so hot here wthhhh

[lovelykil]

I don’t know if you still do killua stuff so feel free to ignore this but killua with a really like loyal s/o hcs? Like as in doesn’t let anyone get too close other than him and maybe Gon!! Have a nice day and take care 🔥💕

headcanons─

: ➛ killua

hc; very loyal s/o

note; hey chat guess who's back 😜, yall miss me or what 😈

he won't admit it but he definitely loves this about you, he doesn't have to worry about anyone coming too close to you—

you'll end up rocking they shit if they DID get close to you anyway.

he's obviously very loyal to you, he walks away from any girl who isn't you or avoids conversing with anyone beside you, so when he realizes he's scored and found someone who is just as loyal as him he's RELIEVED

cause lordd knows this boy has horrible jealousy issues.

you always stay loyal to him even when he's not around, always keeping your distance from guys or girls and keeping talking to a minimum before hurrying off somewhere probably to text him about the interaction you just had with someone.

one time actually,, you had the misfortune of getting into a conversation with a random guy as you were trying to find your boyfriend those chocolates he adores.

the guy opened his mouth first which was innocent in the beginning.. you thought he was just asking where the item he desired was but eventually you saw right through the teen. His flirtatious comments and touchy hands made your eyes twitch.

can't you just get some damn chocolate without a thirsty idiot in your ear?

you let out a deep, and annoyed sigh which caught the guy's attention, bringing him to a halt to look at you. You glared at him while he looked at you, "I have a boyfriend." You stated.

the guy stared at you then looked around the store, "I don't see him around. You're practically single now." He cooes, his figure growing terribly too close to your own. You take a step back as your face scrunches up in disgust.

was he for real?

you sigh again this time pulling out your phone to look up something, the idiot in front of you watches in curiosity and then smirks momentarily.

"oh? Giving me your number? Bet, let me get my pho—"

"you aware of the Zoldyck family?" You interrupt him and show him the various articles of the famous assassin family. The teen stops and reads your phone,

"uh, yeah sure? They are assassins right?" He asks in a puzzled manner as his eyes fix on yours. You nod briefly, taking back your phone. "famous ones at that." You go on.

his eyes move around, confused as to why would that even be relevant to getting your phone number. "and why does that matter?"

"I'm dating one, Killua Zoldyck." You glance over at him. His eyes grew wide, suddenly taking a step back away from you in shock.

you smile at this and snicker, "you talk to me again and I'll call him." as you shake your phone in the palm of your hand with a sweet but cold smile. Your threat was enough for him to scatter away in defeat and fear.

what an idiot. You thought as he fled.

when you finally retrieve those robots chocolates killua has loved for years, you call him to tell him about your day.

by day you just mean that one interaction you had.

"this dumbass guy from the store was flirting with me."

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ"well hello to you too?"

"you wanna hear about it?"

ㅤㅤㅤ��ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ"nah, I already know what you did"

"oh?"

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ"you threatened him didn't you?"

"mmmh yeah I did, told him about youu."

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ"thought so, anyway are you coming back I miss you— I mean I want my chocolates..."

"yes I'm coming don't tell kurapika about this."

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ"like I tell kurapika anything."

"whatever bye assholeee"

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ"bye y/n."

he's much more comfortable and calm in the relationship with you, not having to overthink as MUCH that he's not good enough or you'll leave.

the only guy you do allow and killua is pretty okay with being around is his bestfriend Gon. Killua knows he won't do anything really he trusts him and he trusts you.

so gon is safe !

other than that, you are completely smitten with the silverette you don't ever think of any other guy besides him.

I mean why would you?

[hellodaydream1111111111111111]

Illumi’s relationship with Killua is a fantastic example of an adult being codependent on a child to the point of obsession.

His reasoning is that If Illumi is around Killua and he trains Killua he’s bound to get attention from the parents. Killua was probably the only person to show Illumi love, as least when he was a toddler and Illumi clings to that because as long as Killua is family it’s fine. Illumi needs Killua to function because Killua is basically his purpose in life (which I’m assuming is self appointed with some nudges from the parents.) Illumi thinks Killua is better than him, not because he’s doing anything but he’s just simply better than him and he’s infatuated with that, he wants to be Killua and I wouldn’t be surprised if that’s where his ability to change into other people comes from. Illumi’s love is smothering because it’s obsession stemming from projection, he doesn’t know how to process his feelings and his feelings on Killua would be complicated even for someone who did know how to do that. It’s a mix of obsession, love, admiration, jealousy, hatred and most importantly dependency. Illumi is an unstable individual but he likes to know things, he doesn’t like the unknown so he treats Killua as a lab rat to figure out his own emotions and when Killua is gone he finds someone similar (According to 1999 and I believe the manga) Killua and Hisoka make the same dish, Killua compares himself to Hisoka. And while I don’t think that Illumi and Killua’s relationship is incest it’s definitely bordering it. The real issues is that Illumi is an attention deprived adult who struggling with emotions.

The fact that Killua and Hisoka are constantly compared is actually horrifying to think about, it makes you wonder what the hell happened to Hisoka.

[recents]

something i really appreciate abt killua’s trauma is that it’s so clear to his friends once they find out what’s actually going on but it’s still genuinely a source of conflict for him. they’re like “your family literally chains you up in a torture dungeon. there’s a torture dungeon in your basement and they starve and electrocute and torture you in there. you should not feel bad” and he’s like “yeah but my family’s circumstances are different. we’re different from other families.” and his friends are like Bro. it’s insanely real. he’s 14 btw

[luffyvace]

Kurapika fluffy relationship headcanons :)

i felt like doing some for him so here i am

finding fluffy ones for him isn’t hard but i just wanted to add to the ratio

gn reader! :)

so before i start i want to say that i’m going to do this in a scenario where you met at the boat taking you to dolle harbor

(if you don’t remember it’s the island that leads the entrance exam—aka the island where the old woman asks the main four if you’d rather save your mother or you lover. look it up-)

anyway

you two met on that boat

he looked pretty friendly to you

so you struck a conversation

even if your not the most social- the other guys sure didn’t look friendly

plus you were interested in the book he was reading

which is what you talked about

eventually you got each other’s names and some small introductory facts about each other

so you guys became friends :)

he saw how strong you were during the yellow wolf thing’s test (forgot they name- not gonna look it up)

or if your not strong you were smart enough to figure out that this was a test

or not- again. then maybe he helped you out/protected you

”hey thanks!”

”it’s nothing, just watch your back next time :)”

you travel with kurapika, leorio and gon for some time and get to know the 4 of them decently by the time you make it to the actual exam

fast forward to around the time your getting closer to finishing the exam

leorio has picked up on the fact that kurapika has a crush on you by now

he offers him advice but kurapika decides to do things on his own

fast forward again to after he courts you

(if you want hcs that go more in depth on him crushing or trying to court you just ask)

relationship time!!

i’ll clear this up right here and now-

no he wouldn’t involve you in his spider killing business

ik everyone says that 😭

but it’s true we all just kinda collectively agree he wouldn’t for your safety

especially since your his s/o

now your the closest person he has to family besides friends

and he definitely wouldn’t want to risk that

so no, he wouldn’t involve you the same way he wouldn’t involve killua, gon and leorio

if you get held hostage along with gon and killua he would internally panic

this is kurtapika tho so of course he still stays calm and rational

they’d better not hurt you

but just like gon and killua they left you go :)

he gives you a very very tight hug after that.

he loves reading and would love to bond with you over books if you do too

recommending authors to each other

reading in silence next to each other

sharing your thoughts after finishing the same book

its comforting

kurapika is a pretty good cook

even though he doesn’t do it often he was taught from a young age by his mom

so he’s real good with seasoning

kurapika likes savory foods, a little bit of sweet too

occasionally salty

but he won’t mess with spicer ones

if he does the shopping he won’t come home with spices

you’ll have to buy that

his first instinct wouldn’t be to give massages

but if you ever asked for one he’d realize loves to give and receive them

if your not strong he’d teach you how to defend yourself

probably some basic nen too

he likes cuddles more than he’d like to admit

if you ask he’d blush a little then lay down and wait for you to snuggle up next to him

hes also real good at keep the place clean

he wouldn’t bring up dates since he’s busy a lot but if you suggest one when he has some time he’d be more than happy to go on one with you

he’s a very loyal, honest and communicative lover

on the last one though he’ll shut down and walk away before coming to talk it out later

it kinda sucks but it’s a habit of his so you’ll have to talk to him about it if you want him to put forth effort to stop

he respects and supports most decisions you make as long as they’re safe

he probably told you about his family back when you were friends

like how he did with gon killua and leorio

you can try to comfort him about it but he kinda reacts how he did when he told gon and the others

”only killing all the spiders would be able to put me at ease”

even then as we saw when he heard they “died” he’d still be drowning in a indespicable emptiness 🤓

on a brighter note

if you compliment him his reaction is kinda cute

”oh..! thanks y/n :)”

continue to do it frequently and he’ll do it back to you

it becomes you guys’ thing.

his love languages are quality time (as much as he can) and acts of service

overall he’s a 9/10 lover <3

[decembercamiecherries]

I'm a big fan of your works and the "Double-Edged Crown" fic from cyberflamingo! I was thinking, do you have any fic recs for killugon that have great writing and an amazing balance between romantic/sexual tension and angst? Please you can include your own works too, I probably haven't read all of them yet, and really you're incredible. I have a feeling that you may know what to recommend heehee ~

Ahhhhhhhhh thank you so much, I'm so very happy to hear you like my fics!!! Also I totally agree with you about @cyberflamingo's works they are absolutely captivating and incredible reads~~~

Hmmmmmmm in terms of fic recs with great writing + tension + angst, I would go with these - but also all the fics by any of these authors are worth reading:

To Summon a Witch by cyberflamingo - god!Gon and witch!Killua in a really unique fantasy au - another incredible read by this author, it has just as many intense feelings as the ones in Double-Edged Crown

starlight and star-crossed by Quintessence (@storybookprincess) - post canon memory loss au - Quintessence is an excellent writer especially with fluff/angst

your heart on the line by luftballons99 - post canon au that deals with a lot of Killua processing everything that went down between him and Gon - cool nonlinear storytelling that deals with Gon and Killua at various stages of their relationship but be warned the angst is real and it CAN hurt you like I've cried over this fic before but it is worth it

Ruin Our Friendship by @xyliane - high school fake dating au - I am and will be forever obsessed with xyliane's writing style and this fic has all the angst and pining that comes from fake dating tropes plus the idiocy of high schoolers

Not Selling Any Alibis by xyliane - secret identity assassins + roommates aged up au - warning this fic is Mature and not finished but it does not matter because the emotions I feel when I read this fic cannot compare to most completed fics

one hundred by wartransmission - post canon au about Gon and Killua traveling together again and eventually getting together - another not finished fic but it is so good okay I've read this fic so many times it's embarrassing

Wayward Souls by @driftingglass - fantasy au with mage!Killua and courier!Gon - the magic stuff in this au is super neat plus this author's writing style is just lovely

I actually have a hard time rec'ing my own fics because I see so many imperfections in them (cries) BUT these are the fics I've written that I think fall best within the categories you're looking for:

Waiting on You - modern college au with Zoldyck heir meeting and falling hard for the waiter Gon despite knowing his family would never let them be together

Graffiti - modern au with ex-mafia member Killua gets thrust back into the underworld when gang member Gon comes looking for him, they bond over shared losses while Gon does everything in his ability to woo Killua

Words That Water Flowers - modern high school au in which Killua has the unrequited love hanahaki disease which is slowly killing him, Gon is determined to find out just who it is that doesn't love Killua back

The Hearts of Stars - fantasy au in which people's 'hearts' are physical objects that you can give away, Killua gave Gon his when they met as children and Gon finds him again years later

[romanticizingacademic]

gon and killua from hunter x hunter are sirius and james and i will die on this hill. i only just finished season one but... oh my god. james/gon being sirius/killua's first friend, showing him that he can be more than his family, doing everything to get him out of the house where his parents abused him, james/gon being innocent and so full of love he was raised with like be so for real. and them finding happiness in each other despite all the danger and trauma around them. i could talk about them for hours

[aspoonofsugar]

What are your thoughts on the yorkshin arc? My main issue is the arc never really lingered on Kurapika's feelings that much. I honestly didn't feel much for it. We were shown how angry and vengeful he was, but we never really got to see or feel just how hurt Kurapika was over losing his family, friends and home.

Maybe it's my own perception problem. This may sound mean but Kurapika just seem to be this badass arrogant cold-blooded chain bastard. After killing Uvo, he remained stone-cold. He wasnt bothered. He doesnt feel guilty at all. Was he supposed to be like this in the manga?

I still like it overall but i kinda wish it was more emotionally compelling just as Chimera Ant Arc. Chimera arc was super long so it has it's highs and lows. But I would say the highs of Chimera ant are higher than Yorknew.

Hello anon!

I love the York Shin arc tbh :)

I think it is not fair to compare it to the CAA, though, because imo its role in the narrative is more similar to the Zoldyck short arc for Killua, the Celestial Arena's arc for Nen, Greed Island for Gon and the Election Arc for Leorio. These are all set up arcs, where you are not expected to see all the conflicts solved.

The zoldyck arc introduces the main family members and dynamics, but it does not solve them

The Celestial Arena introduces nen, but it doesn't show its most interesting powers or applications

Greed Island sets up Gon's flaws, but it does not really deconstruct them

The Election Arc sets up Leorio's arc and potential as a politician, but it ends with Leorio losing the elections

Similarly, York Shin doesn't solve Kurapika's arc, but simply introduces its major themes together with the Spiders. It is the current arc (the Succession War Arc), that is supposed to give Kurapika and the Spiders the major characters development. Exactly like the CAA does for Gon and Killua. Notice, for example, that it ends in an anti-climax (like many HXH arcs that postpone conflicts). There is no final showdown between Kurapika and Chrollo, really.

That said, I disagree with with your reading of Kurapika as stone-cold. I would say the arc actually makes clear he is going through a huge emotional turmoil. Here are some examples:

Kurapika gets angry at Uvo and Pakunoda because they refuse to betray their comrades. That is because they go against Kurapika's ideas of the spiders as inhuman monsters. Senritsu even comments on this by saying how deep down Kurapika is starting to have doubts about his revenge, as he sees the spiders as humans.

He completely loses its cool and basically runs after them recklessly in a way that makes him easy to find. He is 100% ready to give in to his anger and to foolishly die in a 1 vs 3 fight. The only reason he survives is that Gon and Killua let themselves get caught.

In general, Kurapika is shown clearly suicidal, as he feels that without the Spiders he has no real reason to live. He even says so, which is why Gon telling him to look for his comrades' eyes helps him.

In the end, he temporally gives up his revenge to save Gon and Killua because he realizes that saving his friends that are still alive is better than avenging his dead ones. We even get a little foreshadowing of Pairo there.

Finally, Kurapika is so consumed by everything he literally sleeps for days and everyone is worried sick for him

So, his behavior is not really something I would call cold. Quite the opposite really. He is angry and desperate and at the same time the person he hates the most is really himself. So, he is sacrificing his life and his sense of self in a revenge, which will only lead to his death. I have written more about his arc here, if you are interested.

In short, I understand you expecting a more emotional narrative, but York Shin is not a climatic arc and in general Togashi's style tends to show in subtext much more than saying :) I am expecting more emotional outburst in the current arc, though, even if so far it is incredibly complex and a lot of time is given to explaining everyone's strategy.

Thank you for the ask!

[lyrainworld]

Based of OG Ace Attorney cover, here's Leorio Paradinight crossover!

It was part of the HxH Game crossover event I 've decided to take part in.

If you want to learn more about this au, please click read more

About this au, some things are changed some stayed the same but just so you know, characters are kind of based on:

^Phoenix Wright - Leorio, aspiring defense lawyer, he wants to protect those whom people are averting their eyes from. He more or less willingly gets mentored by the stupidly smart brat Killlua who seems to know any law term and norm. They banter a lot but actually become decent friends.

^Maya Fey - Gon, a spiritualist of a world-renowed family Freecss with traditions. The rumors say they can contact the true spirit and connect with the netherworld. Has been saved by Leorio and Killua both, joins hands with them afterwards

^Edgewotrth - Kurapika, got mentored by the Zoldycks on how to become top prosecutor. He's utmost driven to not let any true criminal go unpunished. Gathers renown until the day he'll be able to catch Phantom Troupe and bring justice to the fallen, has a companionship with Killua bordering on sibiling bond

^Mia Fey and Franziska mix up - Killua, he has a pivotal role in leading Leorio's carier and actually becomes his mentor after triyng to cut off his ties to his inheritance as the Zoldyck heir, a true tycoon of the prosecution world. During trials if he decides to participate he takes on a role of a consultant.

As you can see, though Leorio is the titular attorney, Killua is the glue connecting everyone in here. But that just leaves all the more unresolved conflict because he hides the truth of his heritage. He found Leorio by chance and he got impressed by him after a second third take with the attitude he has, how it's not about money but bringing the truth to the table, pretty much opposite of the Zoldycks. I'm not good at writing but I'll try to say few things about their cases? It's more or less basing of "The Trilogy"but with the spin of HxH characters being themselves, it sure would reflect in the plot,

-A case about mysterious animal being spotted, the legendary Chimera Ant! Gon is a huge deal on this case because his spiritualist power call back to the wilderness and all the instinct one gets from it.A lot of logic/belief topic going on here and killugon spotlight

-A case of murder on the "Hunter X" movie plan, it's related to Gon because he was there to meet the main hero, Kite, his godfather. He gets roped into the investigation and is considered suspect for some time before

-Another case in which Gon is the main suspect. Since he's from family of spiritualists, vibing with the nature and otherworld. So when there's a case against him Killua is determined to find his innocence. Even if it means going against Kurapika. That's also the case that showcased Leorio and Kurapika's banter and whatnot so major old marriage leopika vibe

-There's a huge final case in which member of the PT's is murdered and who would have guessed, Kurapika is found bloodied on the crime scene. This is a very turnaround case because the one responsible for prosecuting it, is no one else but Killua after he disappeared (made a tactical retreat) from Leorio's side. Perhaps family pressure? Illumi blackmailing him? Being ashamed of 'tricking' Gon and Leorio and leaving Kurapika to deal with everything alone? All of the above, because now he stands against everyone he grew to be fond of. Eventually, the true killer gets found giving a chance to mend strained bonds, by joining hands in catching the real culprit all along that was hiding among the witnesses. The fake group member [wink] -Ps, Netero's just playing along for the trial's sake even if he's got the truth like way earlier, he's not naive, but likes seeing 'entertaining trial' as long as it's goes the right way eventually

-Leopika & killugon featured, all aged up, imagine lots and lots of banter and sexual tension in the court

That's it, thank you for reading my thoughts <3

[alexsiple]

i love love love how your gon comic conceptualizes leaving for gon. gon (his name is literally gone) is defined by an openness and interest in the world that necessitates leaving a part of it that matters a lot to him and the people in it. his family. whale island is a destination stop for fishermen to fish and set up shop before going to their actual homes. you can live there but you aren't supposed to remain there. it's a place with a concrete liminality. and it's almost funny that ging and gon, blessed and cursed with the same wanderlust, intuitively recognize this. the leaving is cyclical. ging left, came back and left again just as gon, in following in ging's footsteps, left, came back, then left again. he's come back but he will leave again. no one with an eye for fish ever stays on whale island. whale island isn't a place that you stay. and in your comic, gon is reconciling that fact with everything that comes tied up in it: how it exposes him to wonders, how it exposes him to dangers, how leaving is his inheritance from his absent father, how leaving detaches him from people and how all of that weighs on him. but unlike ging, gon has killua. and because he has killua in whatever malleable form killua takes on to be with gon, killua keeps pace with gon even if he can't be the way he is or if gon can't always access him. so if gon is leaving, has to leave, then killua is arriving, will meet him where he's at, always and forever :,)

ahhhhh... what a wonderful ask to receive! mhm. i think a lot about how ging romanticizes his need to leave and how it's essentially the same as his need to desire and live for desire. and how gon manifests similar feelings, though arguably in worse ways. pointing out how whale island is more of a transitory place is very apt, thank you. yes, that comic is a lot about how gon does have killua and how important this is- ging and gon are very similar in ways that i find fascinating (nature versus nurture?) but, also, gon is someone who loves killua and has a goal that involves a singular person- his father. whereas ging is not really doing it for anyone but himself, as far as we know. gon and ging both flit around selfishness and selflessness (very important concepts for these characters in particular imo), and we obviously know much more about gon, but it's interesting how these acts differ for both of them. and your take on how killua molds himself to gon's pace is so well-said! i really love how his arc up until election arc involves meeting gon where he is, yes, but now he's asking gon to meet him where he is, in a sense, though there's a lot to unpack there... people often like to jokingly? say that killua is the real protagonist of hxh, but i feel that killua is simply a character who is always arriving, and gon is often leaving, and though killua is often leaving with him, even the show is trying to catch up with gon sometimes, and so we're left behind with killua... not all the time, but especially in chimera ant and election arc, i felt this, lol.

and ah, i do feel that killugon is forever for these reasons. i think that killua is someone who understands gon in this way and admires these things, as most characters do (though for killua it's deeper, of course lol). and most characters admire these qualities in ging, too! so much to say about cycles and family! but gon now has to confront the consequences of leaving, i think, as part of his coming-of-age, if you want to look at it all from this angle. i wanted to capture these thoughts i often have about gon in that comic; i feel like people misread him sometimes. he is a character in love with adventure! now that he has finished one, how will he leave it behind! what will arrive, now! hxh is so fucking good, man. sooner than later i'll finish writing my gon freecss analysis essay and talk your ear off some more lmfao

[i-heart-hxh]

Hi...Can I ask, what are your KilluGon fav moments? And what are your fav personal headcanons about them? Also, do you have any fav ships (from any fandom) that the dynamics remind you of KilluGon? Thanks if you want to answer....

Hello!

Thank you for asking! This post will get way too long if I answer all your questions, so here's a post where I talk about some of my fav HxH moments (4/5 of which are KilluGon related), and here's my Headcanons tag to see some of the headcanons I've posted or approved of previously. I'm sure I'll revisit similar questions to these over time as well.

I haven't had anyone ask about ships that remind me of KilluGon though, and it's a fun question to answer! I think KilluGon is very unique, so these might not be incredibly similar, but I'm focusing on ships that give me a similar feeling or have commonalities that I think are worth mentioning. I enjoy all of these ships to varying degrees!

I'm going to stay away from ships from big, currently popular shounen series that people typically bring up in comparison with HxH (JJK, HeroAca, etc.), both because the ships I've come across in those don't actually remind me of KilluGon very deeply, and also because it's more fun to recommend ships/series people may not have heard of already!

Reki Kyan and Langa Hasegawa (Sk8 the Infinity)

I'm all but certain these two were based off Gon and Killua in part--the personalities of the two and dynamic between them feels fairly similar, and the antagonist of the series, Adam, also strongly feels like he's based off of Hisoka. The series itself is less serious/dark than HxH so the intensity isn't the same, but they definitely have a similar strong friendship basis and mutual adoration to Gon and Killua.

Suletta Mercury and Miorine Rembran (Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch from Mercury)

Suletta is straightforward, somewhat oblivious, and grew up isolated from others (a bit like Gon), and Miorine is confident, tsundere, and trying to escape the influence of her rich and powerful family (a bit like Killua), and the two hit it off quickly and find joy and inspiration to keep going in each other. The degree to which they influence, support, and adore each other feels familiar. There are some later developments (spoilers) that remind me of Gon and Killua as well.

Yuki Sanada and Haru (Tsuritama)

Yuki, who has severe anxiety, ends up having his life transformed when the strange and overly friendly Haru appears suddenly. There's a real cuteness, joyfulness, and closeness between them that reminds me of Gon and Killua, and the way they help each other understand the world differently and change each others' perspectives as well.

Maru and Kiruko (Tengoku Daimakyou / Heavenly Delusion)

I can't say too much about this ship because I don't want to spoil any surprises, but let's just say in at least one major way it's not how it appears. Maru (the blond one) shares several commonalities with Killua, though he's at least a bit more straightforward in his emotions like Gon; while Kiruko is somewhat more tsundere initially (due to understandable past reasons). Their bond reminds me of Gon and Killua in that they travel all around together and develop a very close friendship and devotion to one another, and while one is more openly affectionate the other holds back more initially.

(This series contains some mature content, including a depiction of sexual assault, so please be careful when checking it out, but it's fantastic!)

Shindou Hikaru and Touya Akira (Hikaru no Go)

These two are rivals and obviously Gon and Killua are not, but at the same time there's a certain intensity and degree of being obsessed with each other than reminds me of KilluGon, as well as things like their bickering and the degree to which the series revolves around their connection. It's been a long time since I read the manga so I admittedly can't remember all the details, but I feel like it's maybe a few steps closer to Gon and Killua than, say, Hinata and Kageyama from Haikyuu (though that's also a great rivals -> friends ship that has some commonalities with KilluGon). It has a strong canon basis and I remember really enjoying how their bond develops!

Riko and Reg (Made in Abyss)

Riko is an adventurous, plucky girl who goes on a dangerous journey to find her missing parent, while Reg the robot boy supports her on their adventure (and semi-secretly adores her). Reg is also voiced by Mariya Ise, Killua's seiyuu, so it's hard not make the comparison! The personalities of the two are definitely similar and their bond feels familiar.

(Made in Abyss looks cute but it contains a great deal of upsetting/potentially triggering content, please be careful if you decide to watch or read it! It's amazing, but definitely not a series that will appeal to everyone.)

I hope people looking for similar ships might enjoy checking these series out!

[masochist-marmot]

Killua Zoldyck deserves better

I have been watching Hunter x Hunter (2011) alongside the wonderful Media Club Plus podcast (that's 95 episodes and no more, so you can expect spoilers but beyond that point I'm in the dark), and I have thoughts I need to scream into the void.

TW: references to child abuse and canon-typical violence

Killua is the best little murder boi and he deserves so much better. I want to adopt him and show him that he deserves love that isn't dependent on how well he can shut everyone out emotionally (and rip people's hearts out, I guess). The show does such a good job demonstrating how an abusive home will leave its marks on you and undermine everything you do and every relationship you try to have after leaving. As someone who grew up in an emotionally abusive household, I recognise the overwhelming and disproportionate fear response you get when faced with conflict. The inability to defend yourself and even the ones you love is very real, even if I've never been put in mortal danger at the hands of a cat boy. Yet. A girl can dream.

Getting Illumi's pin out could have felt like a cheap cop-out if we hadn't seen Killua struggling with the effects for several arcs and then gruesomely reaching into his own head to remove the physical manifestation of (and allegory for) the trauma response. The fact that he didn't even notice the pin before that moment is also fitting, since you usually become blind to the origin of what your body and mind determines as an incredibly vital survival reflex. Recognising and dealing with it is hard, and it's gruelling, and it usually takes years of therapy and and environment that doesn't require you to uphold your maladaptive reactions. Since this is shounen, we can't have Killua undergo years of therapy to recover, so this emotional character moment was super effective at making me tear up and cheer. It was satisfying. In a true shounen fashion, the power of Killua's love for his best friend has prevailed over his family-induced trauma.

Speaking of best friends, and this may be controversial:

Killua deserves so much better than Gon. Killua is so single-mindedly loyal and devoted to this oblivious boy who takes him for granted at every turn. I choose to read this relationship through a queer lens (Killua is in love with his best friend who barely even thinks about him), but it's not necessary for my point to stand.

So, obviously the friendship is not completely one-sided. Gon quite literally walked into Killua's assassin mountain home to drag him away from his abusive family. (An interesting side point: Killua chose to subject himself to the family's punishment, even though he could have walked away at any point. He had been programmed to believe he deserved it, which is very common in abuse victims.) Killua feels like Gon is the first person who valued him outside of his family, since he hasn't been allowed to make friends. Of course he's going to devote himself mindlessly to him. This is also quite common in abuse victims: you latch yourself onto whoever shows you kindness, because you fear that no one else will ever love you if they leave.

Meanwhile, Gon is completely absorbed with his own goal of finding his dad (who would deserve a rant of his own) and generally doing whatever he finds fun or interesting. He expects Killua to follow him but also seems entirely fine with the idea of parting ways. The fact that he's so blind to Killua's unhealthy devotion to him means that he will keep putting Killua into danger and uncomfortable situations (you know, since he says he's fine with it) without any regard for _why_ Killua is fine with it. I'm pretty sure Killua would be willing to die for his "best friend", and if he does, I swear I'm done with the show. This friendship is not balanced. It's not even codependent, since only one party is dependent on the other.

Now, I'm well aware that these are literal children (and moreover, literal shounen characters) whose emotional and character development is not done. I also love both characters dearly and their relationship makes for some good television. But I stand by my thesis statement: Killua Zoldyck deserves better.

PS. Go listen to Media Club Plus, they're great at delving into themes and characters.

[gab-has-adhd]

What are your Illumi head-canons/ what do you think of Illumi as a character?

Hello 🌸

I had listed my favorite headcanons about him (and about Hisoka as well) in the past; the list is here!

This list might or might not be outdated and might possibly lack a few more recent headcanons I have developped over time. Although I can't really think of any aat the moment hahaha, it's almost 2 AM for me and I had a long, tiring day, so my brain is pretty much scrampled egg now 🥴

To keep it short enough, my personal views of Illumi is that he is a desperate case, who's far too horrible to deserve redemption. He's probably heavily traumatized, but at the same time he's either unaware of his trauma(s) or he is in complete denial. Which sounds... maybe more plausible given the fact that Illumi seems to not even realize Killua hates him and that he has basically traumatized his little brother. His views on what love and affection is supposed to be are completely skewed. He gives an immense importance to family and family values. I'm pretty certain he was kinda a momma's boy when he was younger (might still be). I also think that, being the first born, Illumi must have suffered a *lot*. I mean, he was Silva and Kikyo's first child after all. In a way, he might possibly have been a guinea pig. I don't know how Illumi's assassin training was or what it was specifically, but it must really have been *bad* to turn him... like that :'))

One of my recent new headcanons is a theory I heard from NewWorldReviews, and one I cannot believe I didn't even think of sooner; Illumi might have needled himself. Since we know, from Shalnark, that manipulators can use their powers on themselves... Illumi needling himself to render himself expressionless (possibly harnessing emotions he couldn't control all that well?) and to turn himself into a "flawless" killing machine sounds like a very Illumi thing to do. And this needle somehow eventually began to malfunction or to just be less efficient, and I want to believe that this is because of Hisoka's influence.

Oh, yeah, about Hisoka, I 100% believe Hisoka is the very reason why Illumi "strayed from the path of the assassin" (as Tsubone said). There are just... too many things at this point. From the very beginning the two are introduced as a pair; they have matching outfits, they are both terrible persons whose only friend (or what is closer from a friend) is the other. There are so many details highlighting the very deep nature of Hisoka and Illumi's relationship, and I feel too tired to write them all down, but I did this little thing a few days ago that feels very on-point:

Illumi freaking out when witnessing Nanika's power is, to me, the real Illumi, and the whole emotionless shtick had been a nen-induced facade to be able to focus properly on his job, and on helping the family. Hisoka is very actively turning him worse. And I will die on this hill. 🌸

Illumi's odd behavior aboard the Black Whale (i.e using "Boku" instead of "Ore", asking specifically for a room with a shower, etc) had been read, to some as a possible sign that this Illumi is a disguised Hisoka. This theory was fun but has since then been mostly refuted, since the moment Hisoka actually appeared om the boat. To me, I think this strange behavior from him might be a sign that... Illumi is once again being influenced by Hisoka. He is pretty much becoming more "frivolous", seemingly less focused on just doing his job n stuff. Even if he could have boarded the Black Whale to reach the Dark Continent and possibly find more Ais (maybe he was somehow able to discover that Nanika is from the Dark Continent? Maybe it is something known of the Zoldycks?? Maybe it's linked to Zzigg???), I still cannot help but to find it funny that from his last appearance in the Election Arc to his introduction to the Phantom Troupe, Illumi went from "I want Nanika's power at all costs" to pretty much helping a bunch of gangsters to hunt a clown down through a giant boat... this sounds pretty silly lol like make up your damn mind babyyyy, I thought you was going to hunt down Killua and Alluka, I thought you wanted to gain control over Killua or smth???

Again, he might just be here for the calamity Ai. Or. Or Hisoka might have called him for help after getting his ass kicked by Chrollo. Maybe Illumi is a double agent. Maybe he's here to help Hisoka with his revenge. Maybe the only reason he joined the Troupe is to infiltrate them, to kill them more easily. Maybe he's just another traitor, and he took advantage of Chrollo being so enraged he becomes completely gullible.

After all, Zoldycks don't kill each other and Hisoka is part of the family now. 🌸

YES, I KNOW, I know the mariage thing has yet yo be a widely accepted fact, but honestly, I fail to see how it could just be Illumi using Prenup and Engagement Ring as metaphors or silly analogies, when the Illumi we see has always seemed like a rather straight-to-the-point kind of guy. He has never seemed like the kind to play with words. And this might also just really be a twisted game between two equally as fucked up individuals, but still. I want to believe. This cruise is their honeymoon, and the Spiders are going down. I want to believe. Let me believe. :')))

Okay I wrote way more than what I expected so I'm going to stop here 😭 I am very, very eepy.

Thank you for the ask! It's fairly extremely rare that i get sent anything, and it warms my heart to be asked about stuff like my headcanons about a characters that had been living rent-free in my brain for 2 years :)))

[As always when I write this kind of post, reminder that headcanons are what they are, and you are allowed to disagree, but if you do, don't come yelling at me 😅]

[blueopinions49]

Healthy/Unhealthy Type 1

Healthy Social 1 

Rob Stark (1w9 so/sx)- In the search for a more fair and just Westeros. Maintains his anger in check and looks for morality in grounded and in bringing others up. 

Kitana (1w2 so/sp)- Depending on which timeline we are on we can see how she embodies the idealism of E1. In MK11 we see her in the search to unite outworld and restore honor to Edenia. In her arcade ending we see her restoring Edenia and forging a bright and fair future for outworld. 

Nakia (1w2 so/sp)- She subverts all of the stereotypes of E1. The enneagram 1 is known for their more “traditional” and restrictive views of moral however with Nakia we see a. fully integrated 1 to their 7. Her view of the world comes from a need to find joy and help others. 

Unhealthy Social 1 

Betty Warren (1w2 so/sx)- The need to maintain a status quo were her and others suffer due to what's moral and right seems to be her core desire in the movie. She changes eventually and decides to pursue a career where she can channel her rage into productive actions. 

Abuela Madrigal (1w2 so/sp)- While I understand fully why she is the way she is, her continuing the generational cycle of trauma instead of deciding to talk about the past leads her to stifling others. Neglecting Maribel and banishing Bruno. Her eventual change in the end promises a better future for everyone in the family. 

Zaheer (1w9 so/sp)-In search for full liberation of the nation he ends up indulging in full anarchism. His desire to see the world as free and just sets him on a path of destruction. Probably the best example of an E1 who has fully disintegrated into 4. Fully detached from a grounded sense of morality.

Healthy Self-Preservation 1 

Elijah Mikaelson (1w9 sp/so)- His desire to preserve his own sense of morality always comes into question when it comes to Klaus. The desire to see a fully redeemed Klaus can cause him allot of problems however, he always is just in his decision making always looking for the best results for everyone. 

Nancy Thompson (1w2 sp/so)- While I consider typing her as an SO6 too her desire seems to fall more on E1. She has a strong sense of morality and justice. Always in the look to help other whiteout letting her own sense of self righteousness get in the way.

Matt Murdock (1w9 sp/so)- Yes, he has a whole struggle with his sense of morality and defines good and bad however, Matt is generally a great example of an Sp1 who struggles with his idealism or perfection and morality and its realistic applications in the real world. 

Unhealthy Self-Preservation 1

Shirley Crain (1w2 sp/so)- Branded as “Perfect Shirley” for good reason.  Shirley is complete denial of reality and constantly repressing her true emotions makes her act as morally superior than her siblings. While not deciding to deal with her inner turmoil. 

Julien Slowik (1w9 sp/so)-Full detachment of reality and embraces the worst traits of the sp1. He choses to make his own personal believes others problems and internalizes his rage. Eventually channeling it into self destruction. 

Nina Sawyer (1w9 sp/so)-Her struggle to integrate towards 7 turns into a full downward spiral were identity and her perception of reality go out the window. Her need to be both the black swan and white swan end up tearing her sense of self apart. 

Healthy Sexual 1

Biscuit Krueger (1w2 sx/so)-Perfection through interpersonal connections seems to be her main drive. When she becomes Killua’s and Gon’s mentor she help them expand on their already developed powers. Using the base knowledge of their abilities so each of them could expand on them. 

Batman (1w9 sx/sp)-His struggle to define himself as a symbol for Gotham can be seen as unhealthy sometimes. However I believe he is closer to a healthy person with his own personal struggles. However as time goes on in the comics we see a Bruce who is able to foster community and have excellent children.

Kate Sheffield (1w2 sx/so)- Strong sense of morality and a desire to see things change makes Kate a force to be reckoned with. She is able to express her anger and discomforts in ways that aren't damaging or hurtful to others. 

Unhealthy Sexual 1 

Ra’s Al ghul (1w9 sx/so)-In look for a true successor he ends up exploiting both his  daughter and grandchild. His believe that there is a need for the league of assassins to make the world better place is also kind of disjointed. 

Mona Wasserman (1w2 sx/sp)- I considered typing her as an SX2 however I believe her need to maintain Bo near her and constantly demean her fell more into SX1 traits. She is the good guy in the relationship and her overbearing nature is but a need. Even contracting the only person who he has had an emotional connection with.

Tywin Lannister (1w9 sx/sp)- Perfection through his children makes him hyper obsessive man who will deny reality and neglect those same children emotionally if it means it's what's “better” for them. His cruelty towards Tyrion knew no bounds.

[soft-mafia]

Fixing Milluki without making him skinny(🫣)

(I haven’t posted anything in ages I know I’m sorry but I’m working on a fic right now😭)

So, we’re probably never going to get an official ability for Milluki and he’s probably going to be nothing but comedy relief(😭) I decided to get creative and do it myself. Along with a few redesigns and adjustments. I replaced his pink button down with a white one and a red tie, I thought the combo looked nice. Nothing else really changed about him since the focus would be more on the weapons he uses rather than his current outfit.

What I found interesting was on the new nen chart Milluki is the only manipulator to lean into specialization.

So with the ability I tried to make that as accurate to the chart as possible.

His main ability is robot/drone manipulation. He is in full control of any robot or drone that he creates, they’re all installed with a self destruct ability so when a target gets too close or successfully breaks one of the robots(which is only possible if they’re using nen), the robot self destructs on Milluki’s command. He mass produces these robots(see the robot on the left; they all look the same as in the picture bc let’s be real he’s way too lazy to make a new version of robot.)

He has over 5000 of these androids and he controls them like an army, they raid areas when they’re sent off on a mission and 97% of the time they’re successful but that other %3 they had to self destruct. The force of the explosion when this happens is equivalent to a nuclear bomb, so necessarily only one robot is needed to explode.

On an extremely rare occurrence, when Milluki creates a robot, it has a VERY RARE chance to be sentient, with full thoughts feelings and emotions. Every time this happens Milluki destroys any android that displays sentience due to one of these sentient androids falling in love with him in the past. He doesn’t know what else a sentient robot is capable of and he does not feel like finding out. Milluki doesn’t know why this happens, it could be a nen anomaly but it’s due to his low percentage of specialization.

(He’s the only person who can destroy the robots without any of them self destructing.)

However, his ability isn’t that good at physical combat, so when needed he creates other weapons that he charges with his aura(see the gauntlet above)(he has two of these I was too lazy to draw the other) the gauntlets are his main choice of weapon because they’re practical and easy, but he also has giant mech and weapons similar the yo-yos he made for Killua, except these are bigger, made of a slightly different material, and are covered in spikes.

He’s very prominent in the underground auctioning community as a lot of his weapons are traded and auctioned around. A lot of his weapons are purchased by skilled nen users who use his work.

Despite his accomplishments, Milluki is still considered a disappointment to the family due to his “childish interests”(anime, video games, etc.). As a kid he used to get emotional about it but now he doesn’t care as much, so he spends his off hours drinking and occasionally going out to clubs. On those nights he always comes back hungover and a little bit hostile. This doesn’t help change his family’s feeling’s about him.

Surprisingly he treats the butlers with respect and doesn’t ask too much of them and lets them take secret breaks in his room. He’s friends with the chefs(mostly to get food), he sneaks them alcohol, and had a secret relationship with a former butler, however when they were discovered Silva fired her.(killed her, but Milluki never knew she was dead so he thinks she’s just gone).