#a hill i will die on

[phantasticphizza]

Guys, It Takes Two has almost 1 milion views! I know once we reach that milestone they're going to post part 2. They had the video ready this whole time! The golden pig told me.

[theeternalfool]

drew baby damian over philosophical cat memes

og pics

[17panicattacksinatrenchcoat]

enemies to lovers is cool and all, but what about lovers to enemies?

sometimes i just wanna see shit crash and burn

[imsodishy]

Basically; No Carver, you will not be seeing us on Sunday.

[chaotic-so3k]

There are two wolves inside me and one of them says "Don't be judgemental, let people enjoy things!" and the other tells me "Tea leaves and cream should never even be near each other and you should hate the english about it"

The second one is winning.

[worms-for-brains]

A hill I will forever dig myself into and meld into is the idea of fated love, but instead of happy endings, they’re forced to perish by each others hands, or lament the others death in every rebirth. From born hero and villain or peasant and noble.

[joiedecombat]

As a Mississippi native, I feel compelled to insist that Rogue is from the Delta.*

Get it right, Ross!

(Caldecott County is a fictional county so I have no actual proof, but trust me on this guys.)

[elleldoe]

If you asked me about him

then I'd tell you that, yes, he is cute.

But if you asked me on a deeper level, then I would tell you that it's him

who I will never stop talking about, him who I will never stop writing for, him who I will always defend because, while there are no excuses, there are explanations, him who had me in a chokehold for over a decade.

Because there are values that he stood by, lines he wouldn't cross, because there was undeniable cruelty, but there was never cruelty for cruelty’s sake, it was a necessary evil, a means to an end.

Because, throughout all his wrongdoings, there was self-awareness instead of self-pity. He had a goal and did what was necessary in his eyes.

Because there are layers and there's depth, and, even though most people will refuse to admit it, he was reasonable, he made sense, he played the cards he was dealt, and through the questionable morals and even more questionable decisions you can see where he is coming from regardless of whether you agree with him or not.

Because he is the calm through a storm and his honesty alone brings me comfort even if it was his actions that set the storm loose to begin with.

[masochist-marmot]

Killua Zoldyck deserves better

I have been watching Hunter x Hunter (2011) alongside the wonderful Media Club Plus podcast (that's 95 episodes and no more, so you can expect spoilers but beyond that point I'm in the dark), and I have thoughts I need to scream into the void.

TW: references to child abuse and canon-typical violence

Killua is the best little murder boi and he deserves so much better. I want to adopt him and show him that he deserves love that isn't dependent on how well he can shut everyone out emotionally (and rip people's hearts out, I guess). The show does such a good job demonstrating how an abusive home will leave its marks on you and undermine everything you do and every relationship you try to have after leaving. As someone who grew up in an emotionally abusive household, I recognise the overwhelming and disproportionate fear response you get when faced with conflict. The inability to defend yourself and even the ones you love is very real, even if I've never been put in mortal danger at the hands of a cat boy. Yet. A girl can dream.

Getting Illumi's pin out could have felt like a cheap cop-out if we hadn't seen Killua struggling with the effects for several arcs and then gruesomely reaching into his own head to remove the physical manifestation of (and allegory for) the trauma response. The fact that he didn't even notice the pin before that moment is also fitting, since you usually become blind to the origin of what your body and mind determines as an incredibly vital survival reflex. Recognising and dealing with it is hard, and it's gruelling, and it usually takes years of therapy and and environment that doesn't require you to uphold your maladaptive reactions. Since this is shounen, we can't have Killua undergo years of therapy to recover, so this emotional character moment was super effective at making me tear up and cheer. It was satisfying. In a true shounen fashion, the power of Killua's love for his best friend has prevailed over his family-induced trauma.

Speaking of best friends, and this may be controversial:

Killua deserves so much better than Gon. Killua is so single-mindedly loyal and devoted to this oblivious boy who takes him for granted at every turn. I choose to read this relationship through a queer lens (Killua is in love with his best friend who barely even thinks about him), but it's not necessary for my point to stand.

So, obviously the friendship is not completely one-sided. Gon quite literally walked into Killua's assassin mountain home to drag him away from his abusive family. (An interesting side point: Killua chose to subject himself to the family's punishment, even though he could have walked away at any point. He had been programmed to believe he deserved it, which is very common in abuse victims.) Killua feels like Gon is the first person who valued him outside of his family, since he hasn't been allowed to make friends. Of course he's going to devote himself mindlessly to him. This is also quite common in abuse victims: you latch yourself onto whoever shows you kindness, because you fear that no one else will ever love you if they leave.

Meanwhile, Gon is completely absorbed with his own goal of finding his dad (who would deserve a rant of his own) and generally doing whatever he finds fun or interesting. He expects Killua to follow him but also seems entirely fine with the idea of parting ways. The fact that he's so blind to Killua's unhealthy devotion to him means that he will keep putting Killua into danger and uncomfortable situations (you know, since he says he's fine with it) without any regard for _why_ Killua is fine with it. I'm pretty sure Killua would be willing to die for his "best friend", and if he does, I swear I'm done with the show. This friendship is not balanced. It's not even codependent, since only one party is dependent on the other.

Now, I'm well aware that these are literal children (and moreover, literal shounen characters) whose emotional and character development is not done. I also love both characters dearly and their relationship makes for some good television. But I stand by my thesis statement: Killua Zoldyck deserves better.

PS. Go listen to Media Club Plus, they're great at delving into themes and characters.

[beemovieerotica]

an actual heroic boomer trait is when they are faced with a major mega corporation that doesn't care for its consumers, these old folks literally mobilize and band together to start writing letters appealing to congress holding town halls to run the chain stores out of their town threatening legal action and screaming to whoever will listen. no it's not being a "karen" when your opponent has more money than god, it's looking out for your community. young people need to start fucking standing up to giant corporate entities too.

[wildflowergirlie]

lily JUNE evans supremacy.

[lotusketch]

“ M-a-m-a b-o-y. Mama’s boy, Mama’s boy… “

Sometimes I wonder when Spock thinks of his mother.

Perhaps after Pike’s death, knowing how Jim viewed him?

Or maybe on the bad days out in space?

Either way, he needs to get himself a therapist in the forever brought back then cancelled StIV

(Sorry for the bad quality, just give it a little tap to see it better)

[nevesmose]

I don't usually give unsolicited relationship advice on the internet, but everything you need to know about maintaining and expressing mutual love, support and passion in a long-term partnership can be learned from two movies:

The Addams Family (1991)

Addams Family Values (1993)

[17panicattacksinatrenchcoat]

journals are incredibly beneficial to me and i want to get back in the habit of working on mine in the coming year. i've fallen back on mine in the past few months and i've become kinda forgetful and out of touch with myself tbh ;-;

writing things down always helps me process things better, this is a hill i will die on

[puppetgutz]

I watched Ferngully recently and was reminded of a forgotten crush

[havesomeballs]

If I’d get 1 EUR for all the “Thomas/Manu must asap get/move over to a management position/come back as coaches” kinda comment I’d have a small fortune, but would be mad regardless because hey as we speak they are first and foremost active players, and still not even bad ones, not even on Bayern terms. Tho time and it’s passing can definitely go f themselves. What a terrible concept. They are not bloody mascots or your leadership talent pool.

(Also I’m getting thanks no thanks vibes re many of these ideas from Manu at least, which— good for him tbh. Like— don’t even get me started on how Bayern treated their coaches over the last couple of years. I’m not wishing that level of toxicity and disrespect on people I care for.)