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well the downside of being off T is that i realize i DO have emotions after all and they never stopped being intense and i never learned how to cope cause i was just numbing it out. ugh. lame
#hello darkness my old friend#on the verge of losin it and going back to old coping strats#looking foward to it tbh#i dont know if ill ever go back on T or not. rather not think abt it#wish people would stop asking and leave me alone. stop fucking telling me im trans all the time im going insane#just want normalcy#just wanna live a calm peaceful normal life#im not saying T numbs ur emotions but it did for me#i think cause i was on such a high dose for whatever reason#made me calm but like#if emotions range from 0 to 100#i only felt the 40-60 range#yakno what i mean?#i didnt feel the rage or the intense sadness#but i didnt get any sort of real joy or excitement or satisfaction in anything either#i dont know which i prefer to be honest#neither. both. depends#i crave the intense ups#makes me feel alive rather than just standing there in a storm#i want to be the storm#ramblings
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i feel like people are sleeping on the occam's razor situation of how buckwild it is to outright accuse a guy of being a clone of your friend even if you DO have a lot of circumstantial evidence. there's other options is what im saying. they could just be like. a guy. that's a sensible deduction. you should explore that deduction. ignore my shirt that reads I <3 RED HERRINGS.
i still think odile has the correct theory on lock but she's smart enough to know it needs like... a real smoking gun to be able to bring it up without sounding insane.
anyway. (mirabelle voice) i know its rude to speculate but has anyone else noticed the grieving? they seem to be grieving. does anyone have any thoughts on the grieving? i have some thoughts on the grieving.
#[isabeau voice] am i insane or does sometimes loop talk like they might have killed their whole family. is that just me? just checking.#nille design highly inspired by @kiwibrain's since its the one that imprinted in my mind. liberties taken since i didnt look @ reference#anyway i have a lot more thoughts on this? i guess ill hide them in the tags...? scroll down i suppose.#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat act 6 spoilers#isat loop#isat siffrin#isat bonnie#isat nille#isat fanart#in stars and time fanart#doodlebyte#----------------------------------------------------------------------#anyway the extra thoughts. are literally just my general thoughts on postcanon. (and thus are the context for all of my postcanon doodles!)#which is i think nille joins the party before loop reappears for a start (either from a period of nonexistence or just wandering around)#and that like. i think the party should be able to integrate loop as a completely new person. because they are! the secrecy isn't great but#They and Siffrin shuffle into different ecological niches in the party (eg. i think sif is more squeamish after it all but loop isnt)#and while it's not *exactly* what Loop wanted they get that beggars can't be choosers. and its pretty good#(i am glossing over how i think loop's reappearence drags both them and siffrin into a massive behavioural backslide and is likely a bit#distressing to watch go down. cycle of argument -> lovebombing -> normalcy -> repeat. etc etc. but since they are no longer literally#stewing in the worst pressure cooker of all time they do resolve it via productive conversation on their own time. its fine)#the party well-meaningly tries to deduce things from loop's vagueries and are able to pin down the DEAD FAMILY vibe pretty quickly.#but eventually the question of their prior identity falls by the wayside because well! they're just their friend loop! (also change belief)#as for how The Truth Come Out... this is what i mean by The Isabeau Torment Nexus(tm). which is that i think... isiloop should almost occur#BEFORE isabeau knows who loop is. he's just genuinely charmed by them eventually and tries to close the open end of the polycule#which FREAKS LOOP THE FUCK OUT because thats just too genuinely sick and wrong. and obviously w emotions high its not a great confrontation#ANYWAY told u i had more thoughts. if i were normal itd be a text post but.
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a nap in the sun
#pokemon#pkmn#oc#oc art#pokemon oc#trainer oc#orginal character#pokemon art#pokemon fanart#venusaur#pikachu#kanto au#oc: clementine#my art <3#artists on tumblr#digital art#thx u for all the kind comments on my last piece of oc art wahhh it makes me very happy!!!#i was originally gonna put them in virdian forest + make the piece darker but if a piece isn’t so saturated your eyes are burning i don’t#want it!!! lol // anyway!!! clem is the main focus of my … champion kids… au??? idk if au is a good word bc it’s just a part of#my personal hc/interpretation of gamecanon … just down the line yknow! last time i created an oc was my self insert sonic oc when i was a#whole child … 14 years ago actually which is insane to think about - but i finally (re)understand why yall would die for your oc’s cause#this is my bbg!!!😭🥺🍊🧡 this whole au is super fun for me - i really love exploring the idea of how the champions WE know would be as parents#& how they would navigate both the role as the most famous people in the pokemon world while simultaneously trying to raise a child with#some sense of normalcy? also how the kids perceive and KNOW their parents vs the perception the public has of them! clem is reds daughter#and i think his extremely complicated life and position in the spotlight would play a super interesting role how he raises a child -#especially a daughter!!! this is her taking a lil nap with both her parents pokemon!!! they’re definitely older now (evident by their#wrinkles lol) but they can still definitely beat any trainers ass but will also be available for their babysitting duties lol
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Norm here, everyone!
So, you may have heard some rumors about our visitor from Hexenwerk, Königsratte. It is true he's in serious medical condition - our staff experienced in parafictional individuals are working around the clock to keep him stable and find treatment.
That leads me to the reason for this posting - we're looking for help. We think we can treat Königsratte, but we need nutcrackers. Yes! Those decorations you all have. If you're in the area, physical donations are great*, but we're taking photos and artwork.
The key here is a story. See, Königsratte is from a story. We think that if we can support his story with our own, your own, we can help stabilize him again. Do you have a nutcracker that's been in your family? Did you see one at the store you jived with? Designing one in your sketchbook? We want to see it! Your submission could be the key to saving our visitor.
I've been authorized to treat this as a giveaway. If you're in North America, detail in your submission that you'd like to enter the giveaway, and after this is all over I'll contact one lucky winner for a free poster from our gift shop!
Our submission forms are all open, and all other social media output will be paused for the next little while. MISSI is here helping collect and collate all the submissions.
Thank you all for your help. We can't do this without you.
#office for the preservation of normalcy#holidays 2024#OOC: yes I actually do want you to send pictures or art of nutcrackers! Make up a story if you'd like.#OOC: obviously not taking physical submissions. That's just part of the kayfabe.#ooc: the drawing is real as well. KEep your inbox open!#ooc: to be clear pictures you find online are fine!
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EXTREMELY REAL MOMENT FROM HIRANO HERE
#'people actually want to kiss the ppl they like?? i thought they made that up??? um. ok now how much of a freak does that make me'#what if they made a character so aroacespec. im not joking this chapter (25) alone is such proof in my mind#im sure plenty of ppl read this and went 'wow the extent of his denseness or whatever is genuinely frustrating' but i have literally done#this many times. i am shaking hands with him emphatically he's literally me i love him. if you've never googled if smth you've heard about#your whole life is actually normal (followed up by 'is it wrong to. Not??') you simply will never understand him like i do#his combo of being super intentionally thoughtful and also never considering things like this are just peak. what a guy#cannot stress enough that this is just about the concept of ppl wanting to kiss each other at all. 25 chapters in#look sometimes you gotta sit down and try to solve a sexuality crisis via increasingly desperate google searches about normalcy. anyway#hirano to kagiura#hirano taiga#sitting around a table w your friends talking about their love lives and going wait they didn't make that up for movies?? also been there#took kagiura's 'i want to marry him i'm in love w him but i haven't even thought about kissing him until now oh god' thing to the next leve#he is SO lost. somebody help him
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what is the theory that ivan manipulated the event where till and mizi met the wagyein?
It's not a theory, actually! It's confirmed that Ivan orchestrated the whole event. The true reason as to why however is still unknown. The information provides more context to this scene, though:
During the earlier times of ALNST the most rational explanation for this scene was that Till ran after a flower crown (presumably Mizi's) and Ivan followed him in out of curiosity. Now we know that Ivan was conveniently just standing there because he was waiting.
Side note, I find it heartbreaking (and maybe a little funny, sorry) that Till most likely didn't notice Ivan in this scene. That's just like him, isn't it. Always too busy running after Mizi while Ivan trails behind, an ever-present shadow.
I'm not sure how Ivan manipulated the circumstances for both of them to end up there, but it is confirmed that everything was intentional. What strikes me most is how they describe this particular scene:
I can't copy down what they said word-for-word (Patreon info), but they described Ivan watching "creepily" as Till and Mizi are faced with danger. We know that Ivan was familiar with the Cerberus wagyein beforehand, enough to touch its teeth and even to rest himself inside its maw. To Ivan, the wagyein is not dangerous, but to Till and Mizi, it could be. Ivan prepared the wagyein, led them there, and watched "creepily" from afar as Till fell on his knees, seemingly injured.
The closest I can get to making sense of Ivan's "scheme" is that he wanted to see how other children would react in a dangerous situation. Ivan's always been an observer, after all, and he's learned to survive by copying the more "normal" behaviors of his peers. This situation occured when Ivan was still young and had not yet developed his more charming mask, so perhaps he staged this encounter to study a situational response, to learn and mimic the emotion of fear. And what better subjects for the experiment than two of the most expressive and reactive humans of their batch? It helps that he was already fixated on Till beforehand, too. I think Ivan became irreversibly obssessed after this incident, especially since it's framed as a turning point in Ivan's life, comparing Till to the stars.
This is just my attempt at an interpretation, though. It could very well be for another reason. He most likely chose Till and Mizi specifically for personal reasons, not just for reaction. I'm still not sure on the purpose behind the whole thing.
The team wanted to capture Ivan's "dark emotions" through the shot of his stalking, which could relate to his more sinister intentions. His gaze can be read in a few different ways, though. Curiosity, interest, fear, etc. Maybe that's why they decided to redraw the shot in ROUND 6.
I think this better sells the feeling they were trying to convey.
#ivan u fucked up little guy.#also okay i just wanna clear this up#i know i make a lot of posts about ivans darker side and his more problematic traits#but this isn't me trying to villainize him or reduce him down to “toxic yaoi”#I HOPE YOU GUYS KNOW ALL MY TOXIC YAOI POSTS ARE LIGHTHEARTED.#i just want to clarify that ivan was always intended to be a darker and complicated character. even since his debut in round 3#the way i refer to ivan (“twisted” “creepy” “obssessive” etc) are literally the direct words used by q and v themselves to describe him#but despite that id like to emphasize that i don't see ivan as a villain or a completely bad person. hes complicated#there is no normalcy in this world they are living in. none of the characters know what being truly normal is#this isn't me condoning his actions#but it has to be acknowledged that alnst is fucked up in nature. we can't expect perfect relationships from people who are born to die#plus ivan has a lot more layers past the “dark” parts. he's constantly battling himself and his desires#especially at the end of round 6 where he performs a myriad of conflicting actions (kiss strangle peck smile)#thanks to the r6 production notes we now know that ivan was going through a rapid internal conflict#“sure and unsure at the same time”#there is sooo much to ivan. his low self-esteem. his desire and possessiveness despite knowing till will never love him#his VEHEMENT insistence that till will never love him vs his desperate persistence in trying anyway#uh i need to shut up i think#anyways sorry. just wanted to clarify my thoughts on him in case people think im. yk.#in short. hes a fucked up little freak and he fascinates me. this poor tragic child. i love him.#SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY#alnst#alien stage#alien stage ivan#alnst ivan#asks
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#byler#mike wheeler#will byers#elmike#el hopper#stranger things#kydraws#reddit link jumpscare /hj but i couldnt find another place to link im too sleepy 😩#some notes! due to misconceptions ive seen:#in my mind this is meant to be a mike centric piece representing him feeling torn between his feelings for will and the sortve#the comfort of normalcy he has being with el? (+ societal pressures).#the painting replaces the sword here to symbolize like the *thing* setting things off in mike's mind if that makes sense#the want and hope that the painting was a gift from will (the one he wants to be with) yet dealing with the conflicting feelings#of the painting actually being from el (obviously this isnt the case but lets say he fully believes will's lie about it being from her)#which is why both will and el are touching the painting but will has the paint on his hands (as well as having more of a grasp on it)#this is not meant to be a humorous piece! idk why i saw ppl implying this is meant to be a joke or mean towards el bc its absolutely not om#aand the from el tag was just mean being in a goofy mood lol wanted to add more cheesy symbolism#oh oh! and you can absolutely view this with bi mike in mind 😌💗
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do you ever think about how in the literal very first scene with Rebecca, we learn that Unit Bravo had no idea she even had a kid
she chose UB and The Agency over the detective so consistently, so frequently, that her team didn't even consider that she had some kind of life outside of them, with someone waiting for her at home
#twc#Rebecca I am obsessed with your brain#like N and F especially are so moved by the ideas of family and normalcy and having a home to return to#i just want UB to really sit with the idea of what the detective missed bc their mom chose to be their handler#twc rebecca#the wayhaven chronicles#wayhaven#Rebecca's grief and fear and sense of duty melding into one giant nightmare creature of work-life imbalance#I've been contemplating what a rebecca & mc relationship would look like if rook hadn't died#much to consider#the rebecca lore is making me insane the more i think about it#like if anyone was going to have any inkling of Rebecca's personal life it'd be UB and theyre like 'child?? dead husband??'#she trusted agency sitters enough to watch the detective but never let even hinted her own team that she had a kid !!!#idk im rambling now
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I imagine that nanami, out of all the sorcerers ever, is so Normal that it circles back to being crazy— i kept thinking abt how gojo says that "every jujutsu sorcerer is some kind of crazy" and started thinking abt nanami and how much he just yearns for a normal life but cant do that because his sense of justice and fulfillment in sorcery is much too strong for him to be in a normal life and caused him to go back and like—yeah no i can see nanami having that special type of crazy, that even other sorcerers would claim is weird KJDFGKSR
if the "crazy" people say ur crazy, then babygirl ur a special one 💖💖
cuz i can see him being like—so dedicated to the idea, that he actually looks fucking nuts abt it. he talks abt his being a sorcerer in terms thatll make you think he's in some kind of freelance work and YEAH SURE HE KIND OF IS I GUESS but also like in vague enough terms that were it not for the fact that the people he usually talks too are sorcerers too, youd think that hes like—a freelance financial advisor, or a freelance bodyguard or, someone who helps run a martial arts/gym space, or a stunt man trainer/choreographer, or something—
like—"my last job? the client was quite happy with the results, there was minimal damages to the asset i was assigned to take care of, and minimal personnel required. overall, I'd say it was one of my smoother jobs."
and you'd think like "oh okay, he's probably some sort of hired security. maybe he was helping transfer some important item to a storage facility"
and in reality—it was actually a cursed object that started to go fucking haywire and attracting crazy cursed spirits to the area. the client was happy because the windows caught it early before any big damage happened to the area—just a couple of broken doors and windows, and like 3 destroyed walls which is actually on the LOWER END of collateral damage concerning curses. ESPECIALLY considering that there was such a large number already gathered there. and nanami's a bit of a self sacrificial bastard (beloved), so you bet ur ASS that he took a direct hit, and broke multiple bones and made the executive decision to not get anyone else involved because DAMMIT if he misses an episode of the great british bake off, he doesnt know what he's gonna do. he cant risk extending the mission too much, he cant let prue leith and paul hollywood down—
every single person he's worked with has, at some point in time, wondered why he just hasnt become an assistant manager instead—the threat to ur life is SIGNIFICANTLY LESS, and there is some overlap between what he did in his salaryman years and what the managers do. HELL, you can even see him training some of the newer managers (with ijichis approval and permission ofc) (hell sometimes ijichi assigns the newer ones to work with him to secretly give them training) (he always fesses up after the mission tho fdkbjgk)
and then while they're chillin in the breakroom, shooting the shit and drinking coffee, someone mentions his salaryman past. and dear LORD the pure vitriol and venom that started spewing out of his mouth when given the opportunity to shit talk having a regular job—if he didnt have such good control over his CE, he wouldve spawned a Special Grade from how much he DESPISED his old job JKHFDLKJhgbLS
and considering the similarities between that old job and being a manager, yeah no—everyone understands why he doesnt become a manager instead LJKSDfhLGJkSDFKLh
#GODDDDDDDDD this is just a cool thing to explore abt his character#i can see him like—casually sensing a curse at the back of whatever restaurant hes at and like#standing up#quickly exorcising the thing#and then going back to his meal like nothing happened#because nothing will get between him and his goddamn peace alrite LJKFNGLKSJN#i can also see gojo like—slowly finding him more and more crazy when they get together and time goes on because like#ofc the man would get roped into his domesticity and normalcy like#does not give a shit that gojo is the pillar of sorcery—the SECOND you step foot into my house we are not doing ANYTHING related to that#the work-life balance is crazy#gojo appreciates it alot—finally he can get like a full 8 to 10 hours of sleep#just JKHDSFKLgHDK a lot to explore here :33#if you want to elaborate on this you have my blessing :))#wynn's story ideas#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#wynn talks#nanami kento#gojo satoru#jjk headcanons
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Thought posed:
Danny does the college stuff and interning for stuff at Wayne Enterprises while living in Gotham, but he doesn’t catch the Bats attention because he simultaneously is both Just Normal Enough while the Bats are Slightly Out Of Step of normal long enough that things with Danny don’t catch their attention. (Gotham as a whole is a huge ‘well this might as well happen’ place and after however many years…the threshold is a bit off for weirdness. Pair that up with normal Batdrama and role-code-switching and minor things are likely going to be subconsciously overlooked if not clocked as Dangerous.)
(Does Danny know the Bats’ IDs? … He would deny it if asked. Not his circus business though. He does think it’s smart that they at least try to cover their faces, unlike when he played the hero. He meets Clark before Superman and feels like he’s on the Office or something.)
Danny moves on with the astro-stuff (whether an astronaut, an astrophysicist, or whatever else) in another city and catches the attention of another hero as Not Normal, What’s Up With That Guy?? (two parts coincidence, one part Danny’s willingness to trust for the better, one part Uncanny) and they track his history to Gotham/WE and decide to ask the Batclan if they knew anything.
They find out nothing really is wrong with Danny (…the JLD was not called or conferred with, unfortunately for all) but it does spark the reeducation refresher of the Gotham Clan for Human Weirdness (that also educated the rest in just how messed up Gotham can be).
#and then at the end Danny shows up in space or whatever idk#part as just a normal thing he does that didn’t catch attention before#part because the heroes were not subtle and Danny wants to fuck with them#Danny’s stuff is more background to the reeducation of Gotham vigilantes’ perspective of normalcy#I figure that with enough time some things that were Big News is now not and therefore doesn’t reach far#especially is Gotham had a period of not being able to rely on anything but itself#adult Danny Fenton#he’s in his 30s#two decades dead and a year or two off of finding out he’s functionally immortal#GIW not really an issue#governmant agencies may be watching him to use him for nefarious purposes (saving money on budgets with this overpowered space weirdo)#I’m on the astronaut Danny fenton tag again#lol#dpxdc#ao3#op#Danny stared at Clark for 20 seconds without blinking during an interview and the déjà vu sense clocked him as alien#Clark was concerned when his interviewee spaced out mid word. saw him later when he saved him from a car later and the guy just…sighed?#the only thing he says as he walks away?#goddamnit wes. every effing time. should probably look into that.
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choreman is the beautiful love story between two men who are so deeply morally fucked and repressed and who have been through hell together but who are still both. at their core. deeply boring and uninteresting people. their ideal date is going out to a nice restaurant together and sharing a bottle of wine. they go home every night to a picture perfect apartment that they clean together every sunday afternoon and read medical journals next to each other on the couch. they play video games together on the weekends semi-regularly and it’s the closest either of them ever get to having a hobby. on special occasions chase gets foreman a new tie and foreman gets chase a new cologne and then they have sex in missionary and fall asleep at a reasonable hour.
#they yearn to be normal and they could achieve normalcy in each other#i mean. theyre both fucked in the head so theyd definitelh both WANT to have crazy kinky sex together#and do exciting things#but i think what theyd most value in each other#is that they understand each other’s desire to just be regular and boring#and to be at peace with each other#they both have stressful jobs they dont need that sort of constant excitement/stimulation in their personal life#choreman#robert chase#eric foreman#house md
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winter kiss
#bakudeku#LAST NIGHT i had a dream that bkdk went on a first date and it was so cute#it made me wanna write a fic BUT IDK HOW JFHDJHF#SO I WILL JUST TALK ABOUT IT HERE#(also i rlly wanted to draw deku in fluffy warm clothes)#ANYWAY the concept of deku asking bkg on a date and them both just indulging in a moment of normalcy that's just.. simple and tender..#MAKES ME RLLY EMOTIONAL#bc they never really get the chance to just be normal teenagers#and the world they live in has become so dangerous and so chaotic#SO BOTH OF THEM GO ON THIS DATE and they have a nice time#but it's bittersweet too because they know they might not get another moment like this#bc they never know what tomorrow will bring#SO IT'S A HAPPY MOMENT but one that is fleeting#like snow :)#ANYWAY if u read all of that thank u JFHJFHF#rikkivoid#mystuff
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although bruce has a dramatic flare big enough to put any broadway actor to shame, and he gets made fun of for it a lot, i think dick is a secret HUGE admirer of it. doesn't matter how many times he mocks the deep gravely voice of i'm batman, i think dick gets a huge kick out of it and thinks it's secretly so cool. especially!! when he was robin!! and his voice hadn't dropped yet and all he could do was dreammm about was one day getting a deep voice like bruce's and getting to use his own cool voice when talking to criminals to intimidate them. just like practicing the mimic in the mirror and playing audio recordings to himself, trying to master the pitch but his vocal cords literally unable to, and just waitinggg and hopinggg that one day he would get to sound as cool as his #1 hero
#and like obvs as nightwing he has perfected the mimic of specifically im batman#and its funny now a little bit bc dick's voice is deep now but he doesnt do that thing that bruce does to that scale#but its like the nostalgia of it all and the normalcy of it#and he doesnt mimic bruce bc he thinks the im batman is funny but literally just as a 'hey u used to do this a lot and still do so i am#going to copy this specific thing you do bc i rlly like u and want to emulate u as much as possible#but in a way that it comes across as more endearing and funny so we both dont acknowledge how much we are intertwined'
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I really like the idea that Sparda and Eva never actually told the twins about Sparda's exploits, the legends and fairytales that followed him throughout his life, because more than anything... he just wanted to be their dad. Not this larger than life figure, whose expectations hung heavy over their heads. Just their father, who was slightly embarrassing and had a habit of accidentally hitting his head on that one chandelier.
#i have soft feelings about eva and sparda just wanting. to give the boys some semblance of normalcy in their childhood#dmc
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Freaky ahh heavenly demon 😜
#mxtx svsss#svsss#scumbag self saving system#scumbag villain#scum villian self saving system#scum villain#ren zha fanpai zijiu xitong#scumbag system#scum system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#shen jiu#luo binghe#luo bingmei#bingqiu#classic bingmei#he’s just a maiden in love#binghe got the thighs AND the winning personality. what more could anyone want?#SQQ: some normalcy would he nice#POV: NYY taught LBH how to text 🤫
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The good thing that would come out of Dick adopting Damian would be the comedy of Bruce's first grandchild being his biological son.
#this is just for the funsies#if you want a real and serious opinion about dick adopting damian then that's for another post#bruce became a grandpa but at what cost?#bruce: I gave you plenty of grandchildren why can't any of them get a normal family and do the same for me#alfred: master bruce you should be the last person talking about normalcy#(specially when referring to forming a family)#dick grayson#damian wayne#bruce wayne
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