#uh i need to shut up i think

[shakingparadigm]

what is the theory that ivan manipulated the event where till and mizi met the wagyein?

It's not a theory, actually! It's confirmed that Ivan orchestrated the whole event. The true reason as to why however is still unknown. The information provides more context to this scene, though:

During the earlier times of ALNST the most rational explanation for this scene was that Till ran after a flower crown (presumably Mizi's) and Ivan followed him in out of curiosity. Now we know that Ivan was conveniently just standing there because he was waiting.

Side note, I find it heartbreaking (and maybe a little funny, sorry) that Till most likely didn't notice Ivan in this scene. That's just like him, isn't it. Always too busy running after Mizi while Ivan trails behind, an ever-present shadow.

I'm not sure how Ivan manipulated the circumstances for both of them to end up there, but it is confirmed that everything was intentional. What strikes me most is how they describe this particular scene:

I can't copy down what they said word-for-word (Patreon info), but they described Ivan watching "creepily" as Till and Mizi are faced with danger. We know that Ivan was familiar with the Cerberus wagyein beforehand, enough to touch its teeth and even to rest himself inside its maw. To Ivan, the wagyein is not dangerous, but to Till and Mizi, it could be. Ivan prepared the wagyein, led them there, and watched "creepily" from afar as Till fell on his knees, seemingly injured.

The closest I can get to making sense of Ivan's "scheme" is that he wanted to see how other children would react in a dangerous situation. Ivan's always been an observer, after all, and he's learned to survive by copying the more "normal" behaviors of his peers. This situation occured when Ivan was still young and had not yet developed his more charming mask, so perhaps he staged this encounter to study a situational response, to learn and mimic the emotion of fear. And what better subjects for the experiment than two of the most expressive and reactive humans of their batch? It helps that he was already fixated on Till beforehand, too. I think Ivan became irreversibly obssessed after this incident, especially since it's framed as a turning point in Ivan's life, comparing Till to the stars.

This is just my attempt at an interpretation, though. It could very well be for another reason. He most likely chose Till and Mizi specifically for personal reasons, not just for reaction. I'm still not sure on the purpose behind the whole thing.

The team wanted to capture Ivan's "dark emotions" through the shot of his stalking, which could relate to his more sinister intentions. His gaze can be read in a few different ways, though. Curiosity, interest, fear, etc. Maybe that's why they decided to redraw the shot in ROUND 6.

I think this better sells the feeling they were trying to convey.

[sluckythewizard]

[PUT INTO PLACE, TIED DOWN AND ARRANGED, AND IS NEVER THE SAME, AGAIN.]<-listen to my favorite songs. VAMPIRES ARE WONDERFUL ARENT THEY. THE FLESH IS SO MUCH MORE DURABLE. SO MUCH STRETCHIER THAN HUMANS. THE STRESS DOESNT KILL A VAMPIRE THE SAME WAY IT DOES A HUMAN. YOU CAN TAKE THEM APART THREAD BY THREAD AND LEAVE THEM WIDE AWAKE WITHOUT WORRY OF THE BRAINMATTER SPOILING UNDER VINEGARY AGONY.

[mcthmancometh]

baylor dawson 💋

💋: did you ever lock lips? did you want to?

“Me? I’m not exactly Baylor’s type,” August scoffs, arms crossed over his chest. It’s ostensibly the truth. Everyone knows Baylor is a ladies’ man, often to great success. He goes after girls who are gorgeous, and popular, who will make a pretty trophy to brag about to his friends so he can move onto the next one, and August is exactly none of those things. But, well, the thing is—

It went a little something like this.

Almost exactly a year ago. Baylor, home for winter break, throwing the rager to end all ragers to celebrate his homecoming, the first Baylor Dawson Extravaganza Misty Mountain had seen in months. August, desperately searching for some sense of normalcy in a life that only seemed to be getting more turbulent by the day, somehow ending up there even though the two girls who used to drag him to those sorts of things weren’t exactly around to do it anymore (one of them being dead and the other acting like August went and died along with her). It was a shitty, stupid idea, and August spent the better part of two hours getting progressively more drunk as he tried and failed to track down a single friendly face. He was just about to give up and head home when he went out the back door and practically tripped over the man of the hour himself, sitting on the back deck all on his lonesome.

What are you doing here? Baylor had asked, brow furrowed, but he sounded more confused than anything. His words were slurred and his blinks were slow.

August had frozen the second they made eye contact, going full deer-in-headlights, and when he did manage to find his voice again, the truth had tumbled out: Looking for a friend. But I don’t think she’s here. So I was just leaving.

And then Baylor had said, Want some of this? and offered out the joint in his hand. August had stared warily at it for a long minute, then, with no shortage of caution or trepidation, he’d made his way over and sat down. And, for the first time in their lives, August and Baylor had had an actual conversation.

Well — Baylor did most of the talking as they passed the joint back and forth. He went on and on about school and football and his issues with his parents and his insecurities and damn near verged on an existential crisis while August listened and wondered why the hell Baylor was telling him all of this and what the catch was.

You get it, though. Right? Baylor had finally asked.

Yeah, August had replied. Because weirdly, he did.

And then Baylor had kissed him.

And August had kissed back.

He has no idea how long that went on — it wasn’t exactly just a kiss, but it wasn’t exactly more than that, either — but then there was a loud crash from somewhere inside the house and they’d jerked apart and just kind of blinked at each other in startled confusion for a minute.

Baylor had gotten up and said, You should go. And he hadn’t sounded pissed, or sad, or — anything, really. Just kind of resigned. He went inside. August smoked a cigarette and then he went home.

He hasn’t seen Baylor more than in passing since then, the few unavoidable encounters passing with a subtle but intentional lack of eye contact from both parties. Baylor hadn’t gotten into any of the multitude of reasons August shouldn’t tell anyone about it, but he hadn’t had to — August had immediately added it to the pile of shit he fully intends on taking right to the grave. (And who the fuck would he even tell, anyways?)

“Besides,” he adds, “I doubt the guy even knows my name.” And that part, at least, is the complete and honest truth.

[shooks-stupid-stuff]

egodeath: the disappearance of one's sense of self, or the removal of one's ability to distinguish themselves as an entity separate from their social or physical environment.

[mango-mya]

I would make this a whole comic but. I am very sleepy, I am going to ummm sleep!

[dreamtydraw]

Entering depressed dreamty wave era of the month, I’ll excuse myself for being moody, I randomly feel like crying on the floor.

[le-agent-egg]

ok this’ll be the raunchiest i’m gonna get on this blog for a HOT minute but since i’ve been doing nothing but being a hater recently i’m gonna say it. hooray more bitching about fanon ishimondo

i am soooooooooooo fucking sick of top mondo bottom taka shit. like yeah have your headcanons and such but it always feels so fucking infantilizing. kiyotaka “shorter by a couple inches” ishimaru is automatically put into the role of “bottom” because…? like yeah the first 72 jokes about him having childbearing hips and a literal stick up his ass were funny but the 73rd? now it’s a bit stale.

and also just… yeah making him a bit of a perv is kinda funny sometimes but either make him a slut or make him your uwu soft baby who doesn’t know anything about sex and needs his big strong boyfriend mondo to guide him 🥺🥺🥺

and just fuck me the way taka is reduced to “slut” in some fics is GRAHHGGG JUST WRITE YOUR FUCKING OCS AT THIS POINT HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THATTTTTTTTT

and this is just me scratching the surface with taka. i’m gonna talk about something else but i’m putting it farther because it’s a but triggering

now MONDO on the other hand. mondo mondo my boy my princess what did they DO to you. look me. dead in the eyes. and tell me that you think mondo “rejected 10 times because he yells when he gets nervous” owada is. a confident strong macho top who knows a ton about sex because of all the sex he’s had guys he fucks bitches and has sex and he’s a top and confident and- SHUT!!! UP!!!

not to sound like an ass and i know this might be a bit long winded but i feel like by forcing mondo to be the confident top you’re… kkkkkinda erasing/invalidating his trauma…? mondo’s so nervous all the time because he has absolutely terrible self esteem because of… you know… so i feel like by making him super confident and an angry sometimes (and tbh borderline abusive in some fics) top is… kinda invalidating that.

plus are we forgetting his line of “you’ll start spreading my legend” 🤨 sure buddy your “legend”

plus the whole “oh the bigger (literally) person in the gay relationship has to be the top” feels. kinda homophobic in a way. like if you wanna make taka the woman just say it ffs. taka isn’t oblivious to sex and stuff oh my god he 110% knows more about sex than his lame ass boyfriend does. ugh

tldr for here uh mondo should be getting fucked in the ass lmao

now this is just a couple problems i have but i’m gonna put a little break for some other big big problems i have with this. so. tw for sa.

one thing that i was talking about with a friend semi recently that infuriates me to no end is how certain people on ao3 (which to be fair i won’t name because i’m not a total ass) interpret taka as an sa victim only to. how do i put this. write him like a submissive slut like 2 fics later. as someone who has gone through some form of assault myself, something about headcanoning taka as a victim, yet also as someone who’s just an innocent baby who doesn’t know anything about sex, but ALSO as lowkey slutty (only to mondo tho) feels SO SO ICKY. you can write taka as an abuse victim, but don’t like??? do weird shit with him later as if that headcanon only applies to one specific fanfic??? this is again really incoherent and barely scratches the surface but. what the fuck. yeah don’t like don’t read fiction doesn’t affect reality until you’re literally writing taka fantasizing about being r*ped.

and mondo sometimes just… he’s written so controlling and even straight up abusive sometimes. like it goes beyond “he would not fucking say that” because mondo isn’t just written as a hot macho dom, he’s literally just. mean. if you’ve seen me ranting about booktok you’d know why i have such a big problem with this. it feels so gross.

anyway yeaaa i might make a followup for this later but sorry for ranting about fictional characters having sex on my blog

[shirogane-oushirou]

no promises anymoooooreeeee i'll appear online when i appear online 😭 every time i say "ooh i think life is almost done being overwhelming!" it. becomes even more overwhelming in the dumbest ways. all i can manage rn when i'm not stressing myself into a shut-down state is staring at the wall while listening to youtube essays + mindlessly crocheting.

i might queue up ppls art and fics w/o commentary in the tags... i want other ppl to see what all of my cool friends have made, but i genuinely can't think right now with this monstrous brain fog. i'm really sorry, just. yeah. maybe i'll think of some way to make it up later!!! once the dust has settled!!!! but until then i wuv u and miss u. smiles.

[venting in tags including familial manipulation and ableism. i. didn't mean to write all of that, thiss was originally going to be a main blog post but. aaaaaAAAAAA!!!!!

also no need for replies or anything, i'd turn them off for just the one post if i could kjsndkn, i just needed to get things out and go eep jsjndsfdn ok bye bye bye bye!!!!]

[st4rsinthenight]

quick question that TOTALLY won't result in anything at all /j /pos,, which kitty would you be in this situation?? ((you can pick either one, the text at the bottom doesn't apply here!! (*´▽`*)))

★...hm, well— I believe:

In short, I would be a combination of both.

..though, in more analytical terms of what I would do in this situation to come to the conclusion of what silly cat I would be.

One cat is laying on it's back, seemingly confused or relaxed while the other is clawing at the glass to get out.

Now, what I would do in this situation is that— I'd for the first three minutes be confused and wonder 'what in the copbacabana' ..or whatever the name of that cop themed restaurant from 'Tales Of The TMNT' is called.

I dunno, maybe denial would start to set in, as it would be surreal to randomly form into a tiny little kitten. I would be more relaxed if I got turned into the size of a tiny little kitten— well, relaxed on the communication part. At least I would still have my voice and could protest against said pissed off evil witch. Though I can see myself growing non-verbal due to the overwhelming puzzlement that will take a toll on me, so, me talking could be hollow thought as well.

Now, as a cat— unless the witch is an animal whisperer, the advantage of me using my words to verbally rebel against or question the witch as to why I am kitty would be pretty much gone. And then I would grow overwhelmed and just start clawing at the walls.

So, to sum it up:

— |★| First, confused and clueless. — |☆| Second, in denial of my situation. — |★| Third, begining to claw at the walls unsure as to what I am doing and mewing persistently to get the witch's attention. ★

[thesoupisburning]

posting this for posterity bc the stupid tag isnt showing up. uhhh i'll alt text it in the morning when im not dead tired. just wanna go to sleep but this thing is bugging me.

[splendidbadger]

Tfa bulkhead 💜💚

Hes such a sweetie i love him i kiss him. I kiss him I kiss Prowl I kiss Ratchet I kiss Nanosec I kiss Masterson.

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

i know that when carlo suddenly decided that he needs to marry guy made a whole list in his head n like had a deadlines n shit. like it was some kind of a task he needed to do

[bowtiestash]

i really find it interestin that you can kinda clock an artist's age based on how self-deprecatin they are lol

[jackass-jones]

Persona romance routes are all pretty bad but damn they really hit rock bottom with p3p femc route like the misogyny is very blatant and it’s almost hilarious like look at the Shinjiro romance. When you do his social link he’s like very clearly respectful of Kotone as a leader and explicitly says stuff like "oh yeah you’re clearly the best fighter we have, I don’t really know much about fighting like you do, I hope I’m not dragging you down, you’re doing a good job as leader just remember to take care of yourself, everyone looks up to you I know you can rely on them" etc. like he has faith in her leading abilities. But then when you romance him he’s like got dialogue like "bwah bluh i gotta look after you because you’re a GIRL and you need to stick by me, a big strong MAN so you don’t get hurt" and "don’t wear that revealing outfit in front of other guys 👺" and it’s like. Does he respect her or not and also like it doesn’t make sense for him to look down on her for being a girl cuz he literally has never not been led by a girl leader during his time in sees and Mitsuru in particular really has her shit together when it comes to being responsible and a good fighter and she’s always known the most about Tartarus

It’s also like. Idk maybe its just me I’m not a girl so FUCK IF I KNOW but to me the appeal of romancing Shinji is the fact that he’s sweet and sensitive and gentle and has respect for you despite the fact that he acts all scary. That’s like, what made me like this character in the first place. But the writers seem to think what women want is for a BIG STRONG MAN to protect them because they are just DELICATE WOMEN who are inferior in every way it’s like. Shut upppp thanks

[weirdal1997]

ayo chat i have a deltarune au i never made a reality(mainly abt the secret bosses´ insanity stuff like that) and whenever im bored or some shit i write a piece of dialog from that and (sometimes) draw it or code it to make it look real. i sometimes look at it and think ´damn that´s fucked up´ ...uh- yeah it´s rlly fun to do tbh highly recommended tbh

here are some examples from long ago ig

also stupid ramble ahead so be warned ooo

yh its abt my babies

yes there´s trauma

am i cringe and unoriginal? absolutely

i might remake a random ahh scene for the sillies and stuff

oh and btw it was called Story Of The Discarded or smth idk

i used to work on it but now im using it as practise material only

or i just completely forget abt it there´s no inbetween

not sure if i´m ever gonna make it a thing though i already have my game(the one on the top, Sorrow)

anyways yeah my very epic rambles

cya

[almostvermin]

okay now that im actually confronting it this makes a whole lotta sense that im going to continue to ignore