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IT GETS EASIER
The day you died, the world wasted no time in telling me that it gets easier. “Life moves on” “You’re young, you’ll find love again” “You’ll be back to normal one day” “You think of them less and less often as time goes on” “It gets easier” “It gets easier.” And they were right. It does get easier. I save my thoughts of you for special occasions now. I only think of you when my heart beats - always to the echo of your name. I only think of you after each step I take - waiting in vain to hear your footsteps beside me. I only think of you on the days that end in “y” - tallying them on a calendar only the grieving own. I only think of you when I breathe - how it felt to lay on your chest and match mine with yours. I only miss you at mealtimes sitting on the couch using a tray table Looking at the empty seats at the dinner table is too much it was built with a family in mind. I only miss you when i make tea Making enough for two out of habit What’s left over sits in the pot Growing cold I only miss you on the days the sun rises. Seeing the light come in through blinds. You were always the most beautiful to me In the soft light of daybreak Like the sun knew you were a gift. I only miss you on the days the sun sets When the heaviest weighted blanket Is the absence of you at my side Where do I tuck my cold toes now? I wish it still smelled like you. So they were right. Of the 24 hours in my day I only think of you when my heart aches When my dreams break While the world turns While my soul yearns It’s getting so much easier -Easy was loving you. Losing you was Herculean.
#my writing#personal#grief#just posting old pieces from years ago#i promise i'm okay!#suicide loss#suicide grief#mental health awareness
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so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi prime defenders spoilers#jrwi pd spoilers#jrwi pd#william wisp#vyncent sol#THIS ONE IS FUUUUCKIN OOOOOLLDD RAAAHHHHH i made it like. a year ago. but didnt finish it for so so long bc i just wasnt happy w it.#BUT LIKE A CENTURY EGG the decades of being encased in salt n lime n ash have done WELL to bring out the flavores of this piece#i sorta recently cleaned it up and posted it onto twitty. didnt tag it bc it was SO OLD AND SCUFFED(i see so many MISTAKES NOW)#that i didnt want to expose it to the open air just like that#if i show smth to my small circles then it shall only be understood in those small circles.#open air and open interpretation from minds i cannot predict are NOT something i enjoy the thought of. usually. i am brave tho#BUT EVERYONE ON TWITTY WAS SO NICEEE i was like damn... i guess it IS good enough to be enjoyed by the masses...#lets work on being nicer to our art together. THAT BEING SAID. i really love my colors here HELL YEAHHHH#FIRST TIME IN A WHILE COLORIN THESE BOYS.... i dont use proper color enough..I ALSO RLY LIKE MY BACKGROUNDS HERE#i LOVE when the bg is hyperrealistic (i frankestiened stock photos) and when the subjects are all flat colored n cartoony#recently rewatched Making Fiends and they do that similar thing!! soft shading! lotsa details! almost painted? ill paint one day#ive already rambled so much abt the art im runnin out of ROOm to ramble about WWWIILLIAM GODDAMN WWIIIISP. its been a minute since i saw-#-this episode..but i DO remember the funny smoke trick that will did to his funny brother. EVERYTIME U GIVE AN ORDER. THAT BRINGS HARM-#-INDIRECTLY OR NOT. YOU WILL HEAR THOSE SCREAMS. YOU WILL FEEL THAT PAIN. OHHH WHAT A COOL PUNISHMENT THAT IS#its still an olive branch in a sense! a final chance for big bro bell to show that hes NOT an irrideemable piece o shit. and if not#well. to the wolves of psychosis with him!!! i really think william did the best he could here. if i was in his shoes i have no doubt i-#-woulda done the same. IM ALSO GLAD THAT VYN DECIDED TO STICK AROUND N SUPPORT HIM! thas character development baybe!!#i loooove prime defenders.. its been so long since i watched any eps of it but i KNOW it still has such a grip on my heart..GOTTA rewatch i
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Sideron (they/he/she) is a rogue mastermind but somehow still "struggles" with their harnesses 🙄
#dnd#dnd art#suggestive art#ttrpg art#digital art#artists on tumblr#my art#oc#original character#satyr#sideron#rogue#bard#ocs#this is an old piece from a year ago but never got around to post it here#anywas here's sideron they are a slutty little lvl 10 roguebard who i play in a 1on1 curse of strahd campaign#he's one of if not THE most evil dnd character I have and she's just soooooo
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Why do they say dragon is luffy's father but doesn't look much like him... I mean it is true but why point it out... in that way he doesn't look like garp either
#i thot we were gonna get baby luffy but no.... old man luffy.....#also the opening is so intense 'dreams save all of us' and the arc starts with luffys dream i might throw up#zoro and brook staying behind to protect them from the government.... yeah.... VEGAPUNK AND DRAGON??? ACTUALLY FLABBERGASTED#maybe vegapunk is part of the rev army but then he modified kuma on the behalf of the gov??? thats so cruel.....#talking tag#watching one piece#episode 1094#the fucking opening..... dream save all of us like okay damn it goes hard#incredible how they just take the hit from the laser.... minor injuries that's all... seraphim jinbe has mr pink's power???#how come sanji hasnt immediately jumped on the seraphim like god. and nami not being able to hurt children yeaaahhhh ROBIN GO OFF!!!#zoro conveniently being the only one who doesnt see the seraphim..... come on....#york what an icon i wish thay were my job too. eat shit sleep amazing#900 YEARS AGO???? EMPTY CENTURY TIME!!!!!!!! LETSGOOOOO D LORE D LORE D LORE#episode 1095#and that is IT for today. yesterday i watched like 5 today we are measured.#<- this is when you find out i stack episodes on my posts even if i dont watch them one after the other...#i am sensitive rn and the preview has ohara and robin crying i am not making it out of this one folks#YEAH YEHA THE KINGDOM (OF THE D I AM SURE) VS THE WORLD GOV usopp hitting his head against the floor akdjka#clover and noland have to be related the flora on head has to be genetic or smth#also now they showed lulusiq being obliterated we can assume imu was responsible for destroying this advanced kingdom right#THE BOOKS FROM OHARA MADE IT????!!!!! DRAGON IN OHARA??? THEY HAVE THEM??? BUT THEIR BASE BURNED????#luffy calling the robot robo ace. should i end it all rn be honest. and the robot turned on. nvm someone was in there#vegapunk meeting with luffy knowing dragon oof also ohara was in the west blue???? wow#episode 1096#that giant was the one in dressrosa??? hierjudin??? omg dragon without his tattoo... 33?? damn he is 55 now...#OMG JAGUAR D SAUL GIANT FROM ELBAF????? VEGAPUNK DIDNT JOIN THE REVILUTIONARIES??? SELL OUT!!!#dragon pacifist???? god this lore. sanji didnt know about ivasan??? the books are in elbaf... with saul.... omg.....robin ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️#jinbes face reacting to vegapunks fruit ajdjsjs did vegapunk cut off his head? is he stupid?? -luffy#vegapunk wants to make wikipedia.... omg lucci already too... the robot attacked marie geoise ✍️✍️✍️#episode 1097
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So. Navalny is dead.
My condolences to his wife and children. And may those influenced by his work carry on the fight for a better Russia.
Even if he wasn't perfect, he was an important voice in the Russian opposition movement and gave hope to many, and his imprisonment, as well as his treatment while in prison, was completely unjust.
Rest in peace.
#misha's text posts#misha's leftie thoughts#i've vaguely heard of it a couple days ago but now that i've been fully catching up it's finally setting in#and it actually made me cry. damn.#i didn't even follow his work that much but hearing some of it from time to time definitely played a role in my political journey#it's those early seeds of 'but what if we tried something else?' back before i even got into politics#when i was only 14 years old in 2018 and i was wondering what a navalny presidency would be like#before i had any understanding of the current system or how awful said system and You Know Who is#just the thought that perhaps there is an alternative we could try... or at least that there should be#and -of course- navalny exposed corruption in the government. and i heard about that#another piece of information for me to keep in the back of my mind#and just him being an actual real critic openly challenging the government even though it put him at risk. that mattered
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The asswiping continues............
#work things#it's been 3 weeks :)#everyone has a different idea as to what exactly caused this mess#but none of us can do anything to actually figure things out#bc bureaucracy ofc#look I'm not saying bureaucracy is inherently bad but when upper management is so disconnected from what's actually happening#that they don't even know WHAT INSTRUMENTS WE ARE USING#that's a big fucking problem.#just the other day the ceo himself came down to check and ofc it was a 'designed and tailored' lab tour#the ceo finally realized how old our instruments and equipment are#like if you people won't squeeze out some money to buy new instruments we may be fucked in the future#for reference one of our key pieces of equipment is connected to a computer that's running on fucking WINDOWS 2000#windows 2000. I used that system 17 years ago along with fucking cassette tapes.#jfc.#oh also that windows 2000 computer is connected to another computer that's running on WINDOWS XP. lmao#oh the memories :)#there are a bunch of other things that sucks ass but I'll save that for another day or there's going to be too many tags on one post
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bro this post... i disagree with so many things in it
#is op one of those people who don't use tag for organization purposes...#or like at all#and just reblog whatever. couldn't be me#'tumblr isn't for people to root through unlike instagram' ok so tell me why insta people get an aneurysm if someone likes a post from#two months ago and why tumblr still circulates post from 10 years ago#like yeah i reblog things i think are neat but ALSO. i label them with tags and my thoughts both because i want to and because#i want them to be findable later. either for myself or other people. and it was always like this? at least for me#if i still had my old blog (rest in pieces) and someone wanted to relive my free! phase? they could! that's why i tag it all!#there's nothing nicer than seeing that someone's clearly going through a tag on your blog#also iirc tumblr isn't a social media website. it's a micro (?) blogging website. which is why replies were added fairly recently#and so were messages and before that you either reblogged a post back and forth or used asks/fanmail lol#'i don't check out my blog' PITY. I DO. IT'S NICE#shrimp thoughts
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hm i have no energy to write anymore, but should i start a side blog for my card readings and ghost stories? im so estranged from life and my home, i cant get comfortable without being connected like i was before i moved, even reading cards is hard to do now.
#i just want to feel sound again but i cant seem to do that without old things around me and distance from modernization#i feel lost without my ghosts around i dont like new houses i feel so far from everything i understand#and being sick i feel even worse too#i dont even have a cemetery here i can walk to to recover#or recharge rather#lots of haunted places just not this time of year#they shut down before dark usually and i dont think they do the ghost walks#but in Lunenburg i felt great it wasnt necessarily haunted but it was all just so old and it felt right#but mike Flanagan posted the season 2 plan for mc and talked about soulmates#and thats a concept im very close to and im absolutely certain i have to find the place i was buried#it was by the sea looking west and it was prior to around 1850 but thays about all i know#that long ago that cemetery might not even be there#especially if its the canadian east coast our bodies may already be lost to the ocean#but i still have to find it somehow i believe i will some day but im missing a piece and that piece is the person i buries#or at least his coffin#i dont think he was in it. i feel like he was lost at sea and the only solice i have and the mist of any of these memories is that i died#quickly after i lost him#and yet its been 25 years and i dont know where he is in this life time and im terrified he isnt here#but that one blog post is all im holding onto to believe soemhow we'll still meet before we die#i just don't want to have such a small amount of time with him#i dont feel any of the things i do when im in a place bound to the earth#its confusing and it aches and i just want to have my instincts back#but anyway its not like i can talk about any of this without someone assuming i need medication#which i do but not for that🙃
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all that struggle just for [redacted] to die at the end :((( love does not prevail :(( your loved one was doomed from the beginning. they were always meant to die because they were meant to be your lesson, your cautionary tale. your dream is to become king of the pirates because to be king means to be the most free. to be king means you have the power to protect the ones you love. but for all the considerable strength you have, all the powerful foes you have fought and won against, all the powerful allies you have amassed, [redacted] still dies. because the narrative demands a loss from you, a low point in your hero’s journey so you can learn your lesson and build your way back up. so ….. unfortunately!! [redacted] has to fucking die!
#I’ve moved on from black sails posting to one piece posting and because this thing is 20 years old I know who dies at marineford :(#currently queening out with the king of queens in the secret queer club of pirate prison#insanely good queer rep in the midst of insanely bad queer rep#like just 10 episodes ago sanji was crying screaming throwing up when he landed himself on gay island#then the ep I’m on now follows revolutionary leader frank n furter who ate the hrt hrt fruit and gives t shots to ppl that ask#makes a gay haven in the walls of alcatraz to protect queer people that find themselves in prison#explicitly says things like gender is a construct and that queer people exist beyond and outside that binary#anyways I’m sad [redacted] dies
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... *VIOLENTLY SHAKING MY PAST SELF FROM 10 YEARS AGO* WHAT WAS THE FUCKING DREAM???? WHAT WAS IT???? WHY DIDN'T YOU FUCKING TYPE IT OUT YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!! OHHH MY GOD I'M GONNA SCREAM LMAO.
#see this is the typa bullshit i have to put up with with my past self#i was too self conscious about this being my otp and now i dont even have a point of reference to look back on besides vaguely worded...#...posts i was trying to be socially acceptable about bc people i knew irl followed me on here and i was too scared ppl would hate me...#...for posting about delicious puppetfuckery on main#(i very much did share it on occasion tho but itS NOT ENOUGH!!)#I NEED ALL THE PLUSHY DETAILS GOD DAMN IT#Cori.exe#Post.exe#ughhhhhhhhhhh#this is suffering#to know that cori from 10 years ago had all the e%plicit brocal at their fingertips#and saved maybe one image#and now its all gone#and now i gotta diy bc that time period of the hs fandom is over and none of it is archived#i hate this#i go thru my old posts just to see whats left of brocal in my blog and this is the bullshit crumbs im left with#vent#'that was the best. whoa.'#you fucking piece of shit asshole fuck you you deserved all the shit u went thru for that line alone
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LOVE YOURSELF GENTLY
Love yourself gently. You will be the longest relationship you will ever have. You are a child of this universe and you are worthy of happiness. You are allowed to love the way you feel things deeply. Your love and compassion doesn’t have to be limited to a person. It can mean loving the color of someone’s laughter. The texture of someone’s kindness. The nostalgia of going back to places that caused you so much pleasure and pain. Set aside love for your failures too. The events that shaped you into becoming who you are today. Embrace your shortcomings for they serve as a lesson in the place of your fading memories. Forgive yourself for everything that caused you so much pain. It was a brutal process but you survived. Self-hate can only generate more worry in your life. You don’t have to carry it forever. Love your body. Admire it. Cherish it. Romanticize it. The freckles on your skin are constellations. The formless birthmarks on your skin are kisses made of stardust. Unique - only meant for you. The scars on your body are both everything you’ve become and everything you walked away from. Notice the way that your body is working hard to keep you alive; like electricity lighting up a whole city on a cloudless night. Love your existence. The little things that make you who you are. The poetry that you write. The instrument that you play. The way you put your watch on your wrist as you face another challenging day. The way you express your being and your heart to others. These little things that make you undeniably you. Love yourself gently until you finally feel like home.
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For the last several months I've been resisting the siren call of machining while enjoying the new-to-me channel Pask Makes, with its woodworking and tool production.
But yesterday I watched two videos from Adam Savage in a row, with all their semi-chaotic plotting, layout work, and winging it. I now desperately need access to a machine shop and I'm being so brave about it.
That said, I have just downloaded FreeCAD to get as close as I can digitally to that thought process without the metal shavings, blue stained fingertips, and sulfuric lubricant smell. Or at least as close as I can for free.
#started writing this post and had to pause for about an hour to search desperately for the name of my Intro to Machining Technology teacher#i'd thought of him and gotten to the point of being *pretty* sure he'd vanished from linkedin before#i confirmed he's definitely not there (or at least not the account that connected with mine)#and another person with his first name overwrote my memory of his last BUT this time i managed to find the right search terms#that pulled up his spot in the school's whitepages directory#so i emailed his school account knowing full well he probably doesn't have access anymore as an old adjunct#i certainly don't - it was almost ten years ago#but if he does or there's some email forwarding possible he's gotten a thank you message#because that was one of the classes i loved the most from my community college and tbh my whole school experience#anyway this isn't just impulsive yearning to machine#if I'm doing it right the project after next will have a lot of assets that parametric modeling would help#including vehicles if I'm brave which i need to be if I'm really using it as an environment artist portfolio piece#specifically they might require nurbs which would need me to download and practice with the silk add-on#which i think common sense dictates should happen after i understand how to use the vanilla toolsets#so gaining that familiarity might be what we're up to some stream soon#ramblings#tag you're writ
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the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.
three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.
two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.
their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.
one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.
i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.
i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.
and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?
you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.
a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.
someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.
#writeblr#warm up#this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru#but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist#ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school.#like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it.#was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes.#but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create''#when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work#part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just#like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent.#speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r#ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week#this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice.#''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism#imagine if we said that about literally any other profession.#''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt?#u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky''#we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY#''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''
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i remember when i was a kid i used to be so confused about why women mad scientists were never bald when the baldness seemed so important to the mad-scientist-look. to help fight against this here is a drawing i made of a balding mad scientist woman when i was 14
#ok it wasnt That long ago but my art has improved so much in the past few years i felt the need to distance myself from this piece somehow#i obviously dont dislike it by any means but the idea of being misunderstood by strangers on the internet is so upsetting to me#i just need Someone to know i Can draw better than this bc its the honest truth.#the idea of a world that all has an idea of me and its not a bad idea its just Not the Correct idea is a true nightmare scenario for me.#also while the art is old i just put the watermark on there now bc it felt Wrong to post art unwatermarked somehow#me tag🍭#art tag🍭#<-no way ive posted so much lately this tag has finally started to autofill for the first time...#siro dont tell entire life story in the tags of literally any post challenge (fail)
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So a while ago some friends were talking about fans who claim the Same Coin theory is canon. And I made the mistake of saying:
Do you know who also has tons in common with Bill? Mabel. Yet nobody claims Bill reincarnated as Mabel. …wait now I want a "same coin but it's Mabel" AU. Funniest Bill reincarnation option. The all-seeing arsonist is making macaroni glitter art. The omnipotent tyrant is crying because a unicorn called her a bad person.
And then I overthought it for two months.
So—AU where after death, Bill's soul shoots 13 years into the past and reincarnates as Mabel. I'll call it ✨ Sparkly Coin AU ✨
Don't leave yet. Lemme show you why it works. Behold the eerie amount of parallels in their personalities, dialogue, behavior, mannerisms, tastes...
I could have kept going but my attention span ran out. All right, we all on board now? Convinced we could segue from one personality into the other? Great. Now here's why you should be interested: the juicy post-Weirdmageddon angst potential.
As long as a small fringe of the fandom still thinks Weirdmageddon is Mabel's fault, why not amp that up x100 and have some fun with it?
Is everyone sold now? Great. Let's get into the details. I've got 8 more pieces of art under the read more.
So the AU starts the instant Bill dies. Thanks to invoking his deal with the Axolotl—one way to absolve his crime, a different form, a different time—the Axolotl gives him a new shape and shoots him thirteen years into the past. Apparently, the Axolotl thought it would be very funny to stick Bill in the family that defeated him.
Which probably made for a jarring transition.
(It's fine, she's like 10 minutes old, she probably can't even tell who she's looking at. Not being able to tell who she was looking at is what got her into this situation ayyyy)
When Dipper & Mabel come back from Gravity Falls complaining about this triangular jerk Bill, their parents mention that Dipper's name was nearly Bill. See, after they knew they were going to have a boy, one night their mom dreamed about a visitor—some kind of magic pink salamander??—calling her child "BILL." Then at the next sonogram they found out they were having twins, the girl must've been hidden at a weird angle the first time, and they wanted matching names, so they thought, Bill and Bell. But they didn't really like Bell; but eventually they stumbled on Mabel, so to keep the names matching they switched from Bill to Mason. Isn't that the darnedest thing?
(Of course, Mabel and Dipper assume Bill harassed their parents to try to trick them into naming a kid after him. To be a jerk.)
When Bill meets Mabel, he's unaware that she's his future self—Bill's notably bad at doing things like, say, double-checking to see whether he's going to die anytime soon—but like... he can tell something's up.
Naturally, before visiting Gravity Falls, there were echoes of who Mabel used to be—but nothing anyone would be able to identify without context. All her Bill-ish quirks either smoothed out with time (see: how between second grade and fourth grade Mabel went from being the "freak" to the popular girl in class), or else they were accepted by her family as Mabel-ish quirks.
After they meet (and kill) Bill, they have the context to understand some of Mabel's behaviors... and unfortunately, some of Mabel's latent Bill-ness starts surfacing after she's been directly exposed to her prior incarnation.
The part of the Pines family familiar with Bill thinks the worst case scenario is that maybe Bill's survived and is slowly possessing Mabel; but far more likely, they think this is just some weird way of trying to subconsciously process last summer. Mabel doesn't think she's being weird, you guys are being weird, stop giving her weird looks. They get attacked by one triangle and now she can't wear yellow or pick up macrame as a hobby??
(It's not all red flags and uncomfortable triangle imagery, though. When Stan asks her what she'd like as a gift for some important event, she shyly admits that she thinks she's starting to outgrow her plastic gem jewelry and maybe she's old enough to get her first piece of real gold jewelry, if that's not too expensive? And Stan's never been so proud of her. Thirteen years old and already thinking about buying gold!)
But of course, the real fun starts when Mabel finds out.
That's the face of a girl who's just discovered that she tortured her great uncle. Now imagine running into the brother she possessed.
But I've already spent a million words and thirteen images on this post. If enough folks are interested in the AU maybe I'll expand on it later. Let me know what y'all think.
#mabel pines#bill cipher#gravity falls#gravity falls au#gravity falls fanart#sparkly coin au#my art#my writing#(here's that AU I've been taunting y'all with)
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the thrill of the show - jungkook (cam couple +18)
pairings :bf!jungkook x gf!reader
summary: your boyfriend Jungkook comes up with the idea of starting your own cam channel with the excuse of making some extra cash
warnings: live sex (cam couple), tities, a lot of titties! unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it, guys), bj, doggy style, he cums in her tits, they are so in love
wc:2k
a/n: this is my first fic, it took me a while to muster up the courage to post anything here... also english is not my first languaje so excuse my mistakes, be nice!!
"You want us to do what!?" you say, almost choking on your coffee.
"I said, ‘why don't we start a sex cam channel’?" repeats Jungkook on a Thursday morning, while both of you are having breakfast before leaving to the gym.
“Have you gone mad!?” you say.
"Come on, babe, it'll be fun! we get to do what we love and gain a bit of extra money from it. I know how bad you wanna change our couch" your boyfriend says, pointing at the old beat out red couch.
You nod. He was right. You have been dreaming about changing that hideous piece of furniture since you moved to the apartment a year ago. That thing was uncomfortable as hell. Always ended up with sore knees after being fucked on it.
"I give you one chance, one, you hear me?" you state, putting one finger up, "and if I'm somewhat uncomfortable with the whole thing, we immediately cut".
"I wouldn't do it other way, love" coos your boyfriend, giving you a quick peck, "I'm gonna go sign up on the site and set my camera" says disappearing through the kitchen door.
That is how you ended up in this situation, lying in bed with your boyfriend, only wearing a black lace set of lingerie.
"Baby, don't you think you went a bit overboard buying all of… this?" you say pointing at the two — very expensive looking, one might say —softboxes directed at you both, and the 27”-inch new monitor displaying your almost naked image.
"Not at all love, we need to have the best equipment in order to succeed" says Jungkook with a grin, "shall we begin?" he says signaling to the 'start live' button. “You do the honors, babe”.
You reach for the laptop and click on the button, "Here goes nothing" you say, going back to bed.
"And now we wait for people to join us" says Jungkook, placing his hands behind his head and leaning against the pillow "oh look! we have our first viewers!” says excited, “We are Jungkook and y/n, this is our first time doing this so please be good to us".
[imyourdaddy94]: why are they just layin in bed? booooriiingggggggg, imma get out here if you don't start doin something
[punish__me]: you look cute, but I won't subscribe if all you do plan to do is just cuddling
[sugar.tits88]: hey guys, you know this is supposed to be a live sex channel, right...? im leaving
"No, no, guys!" says Jungkook sounding alarmed, "we are fun, please, stay!" he turns to you, placing one hand on your neck and other one on the small of your back, "let's show them how fun we can be".
He starts kissing you, and you reciprocate. You were feeling shy at first, but as the kiss progressed, you started to get more onto the idea of being watched by strangers on the internet.
Your right hands grasps the back of his neck pushing him closer to you. Jungkook breaks the kiss, looking at the chat again, and smiles to you.
[imyourdaddy94]: show us her tits!
"They want to see your tits, should we show them?" says Jungkook placing one hand on the small of your back and going upwards. You nod, giving him permission.
Jungkook unclasps your bra, helping you sliding it down your arms, showing everyone your large, round breasts. He starts planting small kisses on your neck, going all the way down, grabbing your big breasts with his hands, massaging them.
"Can I?" says Jungkook with his lips close to your nipple, ,"would you let me suck your pretty tits?, he asks. The feeling of his warm breath hitting your sensitive flesh is driving you crazy
“Just do it already Jungkook!" you whimper, raising your voice. You need his mouth on your nipple.
[sugar_tits88]: uh, she's feisty...i like her
You hear the sound of the tips filling the room. You are getting that couch. Your boyfriend chuckles at your tone, lips closing around your left nipple, while pinching the other one. "Oh God Jungkook, don't stop!" you moan.
"My girl loves having her pretty titties sucked, right?" he says, while he keeps sucking at your breasts, switching between nipples. Mouth on one nipple, tattoed hand pinching the other. you let out a needy moan, enjoying the feeling.
Your hand travels south, palming his length from the outside of his black Calvin's.
"I wanna suck your cock" you say panting.
"You want to stuff your pretty mouth with my cock? Is that what you want?" he asks, already knowing the anser.
"Yes, please!", you plead.
"Alright then. Could you take my cock out for me, love?" he asks, going back to taking your nipple in his mouth.
You take his cock out and start stroking it, from the base to the tip. "Mmm...so big..." you say, loving the feeling of your boyfriend's big cock in your hand.
[punishme__]: look at that thing!! its fucking huge!! subscribing
Jungkook releases your nipple with a loud pop, giving your tits one last squeeze. He proceeds to lay on the bed, stroking his cock at a steady pace, tattoed hand going up and down his shaft.
"What my baby wants my baby gets” Jungkook says with a chuckle, "come here", says palming the space next to him. "I don't wanna brag guys, but her cock-sucking skills are amazing" he chuckles.
Strangers watching you getting your tits sucked made you so horny that you want to give them your best performance. Getting on your knees, you grab his cock by the base, and start pressing small kisses at the tip.
Feeling his cock twitch, you start giving long licks up and down his shaft. You hear him whine, and you wrap your lips around the tip, licking all the pre cum. Jungkook moans, reaching for your nipples and pitching them, “that’s it babe, keep going, wanna fuck that pretty mouth of yours”.
You take his whole length on your mouth, trying to avoid the gag reflex. Jungkook starts bucking up his hips, fucking your mouth, “look at you, taking all this cock in your pretty little mouth. Bet you love having people looking at you while you suck me”.
You moan, nodding, mouth full of cock. “Fuck love, if you keep going at it like that I’m gonna cum in your mouth, and I want to fuck you first” he phants. “On your hands and knees babe, facing the camera, let them see those big tits bounce” Jungkook demands, and you obey.
Getting on all fours, you place yourself facing the camera, watching the lewd image that the both of you portray through the monitor. Jungkook gets behind you, reaching for the hem of your lace panties.
He bends down and start giving small kisses at your back, while tugging at your underwear. Panties off, he kneads your ass checks, “Ready babe?” he asks giving your ass a loud smack. His hand gets to your pussy, placing one finger inside your needy hole “you are so wet y/n, it is all for me? Or is it because people are watching you?” he says, adding another digit.
“All for you, it’s all for you", you state.
"Liar" he says, taking his fingers out of your pussy and licking them clean. “You taste so good baby”.
[badgirlie444]: eat her out!!!
��They want me to eat you out…but I think we’ll leave that out for another time” he says. Grabbing his cock by the base, he gets closer to you.
“Please Kook, want your big cock inside me” you plead, “want you to fuck me numb”. He starts rubbing it up and down your needy slit.
“Like I said before, what my pretty girlfriend wants, she gets” he says entering your pussy with one hard thrust. You moan at the feeling, big cock filling your needy hole.
“God, you are so tight” he moans between thrusts, “such a tight pussy, taking this big cock so well”.
Moans mixed with the sound of the tips coming nonstop fill the room. Your sweaty bodies making the lewdest sounds.
“Harder, please, want you to fuck me harder” you plead, tits bouncing, pussy clenching around his big cock “I want to feel your cock as deep and hard as you can, I need you close”. He starts thrusting harder, cock hitting near your cervix. “That is how you like it mm? such a dirty girl”, he says, giving your ass another slap. You moan in response, just enjoying the feeling of his cock pounding into you.
[cckaddicted]: look at those tits bounce!!! I love you guys
Jungkook grabs your tits on his hands and motions you to get back on your knees and lay against him. Hands pinching your nipples while keeps thrusting inside your needy pussy. “C’mon baby, moan for them, let them know who’s making you feel this good” he coos at your ear. You moan loudly, lost in pleasure.
His right hand leaves your nipple and reaches for your clit, rubbing it slowly. You cannot stand it anymore, you need to cum, “I’m close baby, please make me cum” you implore, hips bucking against his.
He starts rubbing your clit harder, applying more pressure on the sensitive bud, “my dirty girl wants to cum, mmh?” he surprises you with a hard slap to your needy pussy, that sending you over the edge.
“I-I’m cumming Kook, p-please don’t stop, please!” you cry, cumming on his cock while he keeps up with his thrusts. “That’s it love, cum, I got you,"he coos "you feel so good clenching around my cock” whispers your boyfriend next to your ear, as he keeps stroking your clit, helping you ride your high.
Once you get back to reality, you feel his thrusts getting sloppier, and you know he’s getting close to cumming, needy hands grabbing onto your flesh.
Left hand still pinching your nipple, he places two tattoed fingers inside your mouth, and you suck them as if it was his cock. “Baby I’m close, you feel so good, I’m gonna cum, god, I’m so close” he says between moans. “Where do you want me?” he asks you, feeling his release getting closer and closer.
“Tits” you answer.
He takes his cock out your pussy and gets up to stand next to the bed’s edge, and you feel your pussy clench at the feeling. You already miss him, wishing he could be inside you forever.
You, who are still on your knees, crawl on the bed, putting your tits at the same height as his cock. “That’s it, love, press them together for me, would you do that?” he asks, hand stroking up and down his shaft, putting more pressure on the tip.
You press your tits together, looking at him in the eye. God, he’s so handsome. And all yours.
“I’m so close baby,” he whines as he fastens his pace. You kneel a bit, getting close to hiim, and put your tongue out, licking the tip.
That sends him over the edge “I’m cumming, give me your tits”. After a few more strokes you feel the warm spurts of cum landing on your tits, ”I’m cumming so hard”. He keeps stoking his cock, getting all the cum out. He slaps his cock against your tits, smearing all the cum, and you get your tongue out to clean him up.
“That was…something” he says between pants. You laugh as you get up, giving him a passionate kiss. Your cum covered tits press against his chest.
Once you are a bit more relaxed, you decide to look at the chat. Jungkook reads a few of them out loud, happy with the aftermath of your little show.
[cckaddicted]: that was so hot! you have one new subscriber
[gddgirl4]: I hope you guys don’t mind I got my vibrator out for this I came so hard
"Thank you so much monsterdick74 for the tip! Thank you all”, he replies to a few more comments, making small talk. He tells the chat that this was not a one-time thing, and that you are planning on doing more live streams more often.
“Same time tomorrow? What do you guys think?” he asks the chat. Everyone is excited, and the subscriber count keeps going up. “That was all for today guys, see you!” pressing on the ‘end of live’ button, you see the chat disappearing, going back to being only you two.
“Well, I guess we’ll have to do this again tomorrow, right babe?” you say, filled with excitement.
“I gues we finaly getting that couch” he says, laughing.
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