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rbtlvr · 2 days ago

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smth ive been thinking abt for a while now is the whole... thing abt the isat party being the same ppl as the sasasap party. and the wording of that i guess?

and it just always feels a little weird to me, like because theyre the same people loop is wrong for grieving them or something. which i absolutely dont think is what anyone is Actually saying but i have a lot of thoughts about the subject anyway kla;jfldksjfk

like. when it comes to stuff like loop feeling like they 'killed' their party, thats one thing. because adrienne has confirmed that there is only one timeline and it just rewinds to the beginning every time. so if loop feels like their wish killed their party, then why is that any different from any other loop resetting? how is that any different than any of isatfrins loops resetting? (answer: its not)

and there are points to be made depending on your view of the differences between sasasap and isat (like. the layout of the house, the strength of the king, that kinda thing) and whether you think those differences are a result of the universe rewriting things for isatfrin to make it easier because of loopfrins wish, or if they arent actually differences, just things loopfrin is remembering things differently

because in the former case, like. yes time was technically 'just' rewound, its not an entirely new reality, thats canon regardless. but if things were rewritten to that degree upon time rewinding then. like. there is a point to be made about them not really being the same people, even if just slightly

BUT. for this post i am operating under the assumption that it was just Memory Issues on loopfrins part, regardless of what i actually believe to be the case in canon, for simplicitys sake. which in this case would mean the parties quite literally are the exact same people due to how the timeline works

but like… the isat party still isnt loops party. because theyre siffrins party, and loop isnt siffrin anymore (imo they stopped being 'siffrin' a long time before they officially became 'loop', but thats a whole separate post). they still lost the people they knew, all the experiences they had with them, because - like loop says in twohats - none of those things happened to loop. they happened to siffrin

the party doesnt know loop. doesnt recognize loop. doesnt remember any of the experiences they had together as happening with loop

and like, that feels a little bit different to me than siffrin being sad that none of the party remembers the things they talked abt during the loops (like. family runs and stuff like that. i think theres definitely things he is very glad they DONT remember. looks at end of kingquest). which is absolutely valid to feel sad about too, because they still lost those experiences with their family. but its different, because at the end of the day, siffrins family still recognizes him as siffrin, as their friend. and loop doesnt have that

idk. i just have a lot of emotions and thoughts abt complicated grief. the people you love are right here but they dont know you. you lost them but you also didnt but also you really did. yeah

#talk tag #isat #isat spoilers #isatposting #i have been wanting to make this post for A While but i keep being worried that ppl will see it as me like #vaguing??? the ppl who make posts abt the parties being the same ppl. which its very much not #i agree w that. they are. again depending on ur view of the differences they might be slightly different ppl but still #i just. like i said in the post. have lots of feelings abt complicated grief. and grief in general #which could mean nothing <3 #and also loop. i love them <- least surprising thing for me to say. ever

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woolydemon · 2 years ago

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let me be insane for a moment, is that ok (thinks abt Scooby Doo/Ace Attorney crossover)

#ive Actually been thinking abt this one a whole lot #bc i love scooby and i love attorney #and basically heres the lowdown #Klavier knows Mystery Incorporated hes familiar with them hes in fact Besties with them #esp Daphne they are BESTIES in all caps #as 2 purple fashionable bikers 💜 they understand each other on a deep personal level #anwyay the reason klav does know them is bc hes collabed with the hex girls #and during the collab concert stuff there was a monster issue #yadda yadda it was taken care of by mystery gang #anwyay this is just giving reason for klav to be like ''oh dw i know some experts that can handle this''#when another situation occurs where theres like. idk a murder done by a monster #and klavs like oh dw i know detectives that specialize in these exact types of situations #then arrives a bunch of hippies in a van with a dog that may or may not talk #prob not bc that doesnt make sense for aa BUT this doesnt mean that there cant be scooby dialogue bc. Shaggy is a Ventriloquist :]#which is real and its funny when scooby talking is completely unrelated to it sjhdkfjfhf #anwyay i dont really have anything else #besides apollo being like !?!?!?!??? with everything going on with the mystery gang #also being like ''prosecutor gavin what do u mean u know these ppl ''#im prob not gonna do anything with this idea its just a concept i like to think abt for funzies akdhdkfj #rando thoughtz #also yes i am making it aa4 cast centric BC KLAV HAS TO BE INVOLVED !!!#its much more interesting for the hypothetical situation i already stated !!

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puppppppppy · 7 months ago

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learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

#experiencing some BIG FEELINGS OVER THIS REVELATION #listen i have never ever been bothered abt not seeing someone in a while or making time to talk to them bc in my mind its like not thst muc #time has passed. i mean it with every fibre of my being that when im like 'oh its ok even though we havent talked in a while and have our #own things going on it doesnt mean we're not friends anymore since we left things on a good note 8 months ago' i sincerely believe that #and for the longest time i just thought everybody makes peace with it at some point and not automatically assuming the other person doesnt #wanna talk to me anymore or smth. my longest lasting friendships are with ppl who work the same way i just thouhght that was normal #whatever organ everybody has that makes them reach out to their friends and plan hang outs i probably dont have it #i was already hesitant to ask out Alex bc i spend almost every waking hour doing smth that isnt talking to ppl unless they happen to be in #the vicinity. and at first it was bc i planned on making sure i had everything set up so i dont get stressed out and do it one at a time #but then i find out theres a friendship decay mechanic? and after dating and marrying someone you lose -10 friendship points for every #day u dont talk to them?? actually ive probably been losing friendship points this whole time without knowing bc of this?????#and i notice a lot of my own habits are also reflected in how i play bc ive been avoiding getting close to pierre and marnie since its more #of a professional relationship. like i know theyre npcs but im approaching it the way i would in real life its fucking nuts #i think its a little relieving im playing /as/ a character than myself bc as im playing im just making up little interactions in my head #than approaching things the way i would myself so it takes a bit of the stress off trying to put myself in there as a spectator. but well #being in a relationship demands a certain amount of energy even more so when theyre things that already take up energy on its own #like making time to talk to your partner and make sure they know theyre loved. i dont always have energy to put all my mental focus into it #and this is true for real life so im not really bothered by not dating anyone. but when its a game and i want my character to be with someo #and i know its fully optional and i know i could just apply the same logic to this i dont /want/ to. sometimes i want to experience #the same things other people do at least to a certain degree without the same emotional andmental stakes #no offense krobus #yapping #stardew #stardew valley #puppy plays sdv #sdv #this game has me by the ankles man

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bacchuschucklefuck · 5 months ago

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if talking abt my friends after looking at another artist's work is gauche then Im about to take a hard left babeyy if chris grace's dropout special speaks to u and u like dnd actual play then u should watch metanoia blues live on twitch every sunday at mimzalot and also available on youtube at metanoia blues

#not art #ngl chris grace as scarlet johansson is a sleeper hit I just got bulldozed by it after my brain is done processing #but also it does remind me so starkly of a few moments in season one of metablue. when bruno chides willow for potentially endangering #the town and you hear this knowing bruno is black. and then the piece of DoTA thats the way warfred is about tarek and then willow #actually all of willow jenkins. I want to say if u jump in noe u can safely start from s2 but s1 is so dear to me #and luca too... like. the way that he's stripped of context by his amnesia but that doesnt mean the world forgets along with him #Ive been thinking a lot abt like. my general apathy towards high fantasy and western folklores outside of specific bits #and that bit of chris grace as scarlet johansson with brenna thats like. you cant be chinese but you can be chinese coded #took a while but that got to me. rung me like a bell. shit man #like yeah I can make someone who looks like me but how do I bring into it the whole context of me. does this game embrace that #anyways metablue actually does it and is awesome and you should watch it for me. personally

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silverislander · 2 days ago

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i'm thiiiiis close to just blocking the whole j/v tag and/or the individual tags for both characters :)))

#and like. i do like them actually. i would have been happy to see them get together #(honestly if we get right down to it im a 'j has two hands' truther but thats besides the point)#but theyre doing that thing again where its Fucking Everywhere drowning out content i actually want to see. im irritated #i cant open the main tag anymore without seeing those two and almost nothing else and its been Months #'ummm this is the gayest thing ive EVER seen!' you just watched two women fuck on screen.#'c/v are TOXIC and so you CANT ship them' 1. wrong #2. whoooo gives a fuck. i dont care and i know you dont either #3. theyre the only canon couple who never literally tried to kill each other #'ohh theyre just Better Written!' not a new argument and not a good one either. convenient how men are always just better huh #levi.txt #yes this IS brought on by that 'i hope jakey dies' post but also its been sitting in my drafts for a month. this has Been on my mind #tldr i really just think the whole thing is a great microcosm of fan misogyny/lesbophobia #no matter what lesbians/wlw do were always going to have this impossibly high bar of moral purity/quality to reach in comparison #gotta be on screen/not queerbait but not explicit. not boring but not toxic. etc etc #and even when smth gets close its STILL never ever going to appeal as much as the possibility of men and The Implications #this is one thing im not gonna be nice abt anymore sorry. im normally pretty patient but yall get mean levi for one post #im so beyond tired of this shit in damn near every fucking fandom i join its been over 10yrs and nothing has changed #i feel alienated in just abt every popular fandom bc nobody will ever shut the fuck up abt white boy of the month no 579 #it happens every time i get into smth that doesnt primarily have a fanbase of other wlw #and even then its not guaranteed that it wont eventually turn into that!#and im INCREDIBLY tired of people acting like wlw are all crazy bitches ruining everyones fun for pointing it out #anyway i might delete this later ive just been having a lot of feelings abt it #dont argue w me you cant change my mind. if you disagree simply do not interact w this post for both our sakes

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frankiebirds · 5 months ago

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REID AND SEAVER GOING TO GET INDIAN FOOD TOGETHER AT THE END OF 6X24,,,,hear me out

#“hey is anyone hungry?”#while looking specifically at her. boy you damn well know you werent asking anyone else #thinking reid and seaver would be cute together was NOT what i expected to happen to me watching this season #as a raging lesbian. and knowing how the fandom generally felt abt seaver #but. theyre cute. sorry. it's not my fault theyre doing this shit by themselves #ashley seaver #spencer reid #reidxseaver #reaver #??? is that their ship name #literally thought ive seen so many people going 'shes soooo mean to reid!'#and then there's. one (1) moment in one episode where she treats him the exact same way nearly every member of the team has treated him #and the rest of the time i felt she actually got along with him noticeably WELL #been waiting this whole season for her to do something worse than be underwritten and slightly bland #and it never happened. i wouldnt say i LOVE her because again. underwritten and slightly bland #but all my problems with her are problems with the writing #and i think she had a lot of potential and it sucks she wasnt given room to show that #criminal minds #not fic #criminal minds rewatch #criminal minds s06e24 #criminal minds 6x24 #supply and demand

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pikkish · 10 months ago

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Yeah we've already talked about how outright stupid the lore n writing for modern Doom is, but tbh I can understand why they had to do something with Doomguy, why they had to make him The Specialest Boy instead of Just Some Guy. Do I like how they did it? No, I would've taken it a different direction. Do I think that hugo could've done it well even if he took it in the direction I would've? No, I have minimal faith in his story writing. But realistically, how many times can a guy singlehandedly accomplish the impossible before you have to acknowledge he's very much not Just Some Guy who happened to be at the right place at the right time? I think that, with how every single other person on the Phobos UAC base were killed in Doom I, doomguy stopped being Just Some Guy the moment he decided to do anything other than just lie down and die.

#pikspeak #im sure this is old news what with eternal being 4 years old now but. idk ive been thinking abt it.#i dont like the 'you were a chosen one from the very beginning!' trope too much #makes it feel a little like what the character actually does doesnt really have any significance #like if they were the chosen one who was going to win from the very beginning then why does it matter.#its the whole free will vs predestiny argument and. idk. i just think it could be done better.#no modern doomguy cannot be just some guy anymore but. it couldve been done a lot better. let him have been just a normal guy who had the #option to be normal and die but chose not to and through his own actions made himself significant #then again. maybe it wasnt the moment he didnt stay down that he became significant. i do like the idea of blazko having something to do #with it. i do like the idea of blazko having picked up the spear having something to do with it.#but still. 'youre actually a god and you were going to be this powerful Always' is just. not appealing. let him have some influence in his #own power. u dont even need to take the thing w the divinity machine out. just make him a separate entity from davoth instead of davoths #clone/destined counterpart. let dg make the decision to rise to davoths level instead of saying he was always there from the beginning.#sigh. i couldve written eternals story so much better. and yet. somehow i am still repeatedly drawn back to it. sighing smh.

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phagodyke · 4 months ago

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this is like my fourth or fifth consecutive bad gym session I might as well just kill myself

#was fine when it was bc of my wrist injury just frustrating that i was so limited in what i could do #but its mostly better now and i still feel like im not doing anything near what im capable of i dont fucking know whats holding me back #both physical limitation and also i just have no grit at the moment. lost my mojo :-(#well ik itll take a while until my wrists are fully functional again and i probably am still healing so its partly that #and just a lot on my mind lately. im usually fine at work but for some reason the gym makes me ruminate n i get so frustrated n miserable #by the end of a session and ppl start to annoy me bc they act like they can read me n make wildly wrong assumptions abt how im feeling #and then im reminded that even ppl i consider good friends consistently do the same no one actually knows me at all i guess #and it makes me feel very unloved and upset but whatever its all on me bc i cant communicate in ways other ppl can understand #and i dont trust or feel safe around other ppl so i just alienate myself and fold myself up around the immense distress it causes me yayyy #and ill be thinking this shit at like 8:30pm halfway up a wall and demotivate myself and slip and graze an elbow or whatever #ughhhhhh. and then i cycle the whole way home until i get thru the door and start sobbing idk how many times this is now #i have a stupid headache and im going to be so fucking tired at work tomorrow im going to bed.#its fine really. im not actually depressed anymore i dont think. these are just my regular old wounds ive had since the dawn of time #and i just have this dumbass fucking brain that for some reason instead of giving me endorphins and a high from exercise as a reward #just makes me really sad instead. maybe im just not eating enough around when i workout idk like it could be low blood sugar #and i am mildly worried abt some things bc well. they could be very very difficult for me to deal with if they happen. and if they do #happen well thats good in other ways but i have to be prepared to take some major fucking hits. ive only recently started to feel like ive #mostly recovered from how fucking shite this summer has been after the mental damage done in may/june. i cant spend another season there #can i just catch a fucking break like forever please. and a shoulder to cry into im so touch deprived its unreal who even cares anymore #fine reallt tho i promise just worked myself up innit. ugh. anyway gn #.diaries #.vent

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arolesbianism · 5 months ago

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Thinks abt comic Siffrin. This could be a playground I think. If I felt like it. If I so chose.

#rat rambles #stars posting #I do also just enjoy the concept of other siffrins that existed before loop as well #either just the one extra or potentially even more if you wanna get funky with it #Im leaning more towards the one option but the many option is more funny #idk I just think it'd be a bit fucked up if there was another siffrin who made a desperate wish and just got completely whiped for it #bonus points if that sifs version of things was quite drastically different than loop and current sifs versions were #like a whole different party than the other two #thatd be fun #I do enjoy myself some timeline fuckery that leads to disturbing implications and several layers of tragedy #I already have three stories with that as a major element so it was only a matter of time before I look at isat through the same lense #the lace loop meetup would go crazy (theyd probably hate eachother)#speaking of lace I dont think Ive actually been like. posting abt her story huh.#well just know that Ive been working on that story a lot along with a billion other projects that have been keeping me busy #isat is actually the reason Ive been working on lace's story again since the two have a decently large amount in common #still very different stories like fundimentally but timeloop that takes place near the end of an rpg esc adventure is present in both #although the timeloop that lace is in is no longer the main focus of the entire story #well it hasnt been in a long time but Ive been actually fleshing out what the story is actually act more recently #and I keep going back to isat to get back into a creative mood anytime I feel like Im stagnating too much #which brings us back to the actual point of this post. yay.#anyways I need to go to bed even if Im half tempted to try to write smth with my current 3rd sif idea

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itsalwaysdark · 6 months ago

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i just fucking hate having ptsd all of it. so many stupid fucking things send me into fucking hysterics it sucks and i hate it and i dont want itttt anymore i dont want it.

#i literally like. i didnt tell u guys bc it was embarassing #but i had to hype myself up to eat a fucking orange the other day. like i was shaking and crying and i nearly threw up.#bc it fucking reminded me of All that and also bc its one of the only foods i got to eat outside ofm my one meal a day #while i was living there. bc my coworker gave me oranges sometimes #and one time she gave me a whole bag of cuties which was wonderful of her i miss her #but i pretty much like. bc during m-f i had a meal at work #and i could get something from the vending machine if i needed to #but on the weekends i had to either order food (which would always make me insanely nauseous bc of. the money stuff. yk) or just eat #what i had in my room bc i couldnt use the kitchen bc the roommates would be mad at me #and they might kick me out and id be actually fucked. its so crazy looking back that i genuinely the entire time i fucking lived there even #b4 the breakup the entire time i was in terror that theyd evict me. bc i wouldnt have been able to do anything abt it #i mean thats why i didnt like. leave him after he . and stuff. both bc i thought i didnt deserve anything better and bc i was terrified #theyd evict me and i wouldnt have any way to get home. it was terrifying #but ya. so for a couple weeks i rationed myself One orange per day lol. and on weekends that was all i was able to eat rly #idk. i hate ptsd. basicalllyyyy is the gist of ittt. and i keep thinking abt random fucking things they did to me #me when they jokingly tell me to starve myself when i literally have a fucking eating disorder. and when i told The Only Person i knew in #that fucking house abt it he told me i was being dramatic and i was just being greedy and etc. and then later when i got off work today i #saw on their fucking whiteboard in the kitchen i wasnt supposed to use Eat more <3 as one of their goals. while i went to sit in the garage #for the weekend eating a single fucking orange a day. god #idk. ive gotten better with eating i still have the scale but i ws able to go months without using it until the medical call the other week #and i havent used it since but. everytime i think abt all that itmakes me want to go back to it. i cant tho everyone would notice #i do still eat a wholee lot less than i did b4 washington but idk. idont remember if i even ate today i probably should but i dont feel #hungry but i cant even fucking trust that bc i Starved myself for so fucking long im too good at ignoring hunger. and i never was super in #touch with my body but im constantly numb now. idk.#ed ment #a2t #i ws gonna say more but it ws tmi + tag limit anyway. its just insane that my fucking ed wouldnt have happened if it werent for him and it #graduated i wouldnt have been isolatedinever wouldve had an ed. like 50% of my ptsd would be Gone if i just hadnt joined that discord. lol

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dullahandyke · 8 months ago

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Yknow I initially introduced 'sora busts blackquill out of jail and drags him on an illegal adventure against his will while he tries to both keep up his eeeeevil persona and take care of ? sora because this kid the same age as athena and he doesnt know this world' to keyblade revolutionnaire bcos I think its rlly funny but know what actually it fits. I'm facade of positivity and I'm facade of cruelty, the self-sacrificial suicide brothers.

#accidental nephew acquisition but he acquires you entirely on purpose and now you're being stalked by assassins #i also have thoughts about like. i dont think simon would have had the opportunity to find info on athena until he saw her in court #and itd b real juicy if he met sora first and then athena and was like what the fuck youve become like this kid i met #but idk where id go w it and also i think this is set like. after 5-3 maybe During 5-4 or near enough to it #so he has been against thena in court so like the impact is lessened but still there #sora busts a gruff prisoner out of death row and the prisoner has a phd in psychology + is projecting his niece onto her #and then he actually is similar enough to his niece that it fucking works #also i think sora should also feature heartless despite being set in quadratum so simon can be a party member #so he can punch things in the head and go WHAT THE FUCK??????#kind of attached to their friendship now. so cutes #ive been treating the 'sora in aa' side w more levity than the 'thena in kh' one #bcos soras disappearance in kh is weighing on everyone and ppl r worried abt thena but she didnt publically evaporate #plus mid-aa5 theres not... a whole lot thena does??? like the blackquill suicide plot and robot takeover can still happen #so due to capcom misogyny her immediate disappearance doesnt cause any problems aside from Hey Athena Isnt Answering Her Phone

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softshuji · 1 year ago

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y'know it's a night when hal sits and eats cereal in the dark room at 1.30am.