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Small summary cause this session fleshed out Raha's character & some plot hooks for Lorelai, so I wanted to share!
Party got attacked by a monster hunter Sashja, who turned out to be Raha's childhood friend (& Ex) on a contract to capture Lorelai (more on that later) They reconnected & he spilled a lot of beans about Raha's childhood from when they lived in the same village much to the party's delight (like the one time he got bit by a crayfish or licked a hallucinogenic toad)
He also has a pet companion named Nara who is a Displacer beast he raised after having to kill her mother for a job (He felt so bad about there being a kitten but what can you do if it's attacking people). Unfortunately despite encountering Fell Brambles in passing before, he has never heard of anyone finding a cure for it, and is rather upset at finding out Raha is infected.
Lorelai's contract was to capture her alive & unharmed and to deliver her back to someone in Berdusk...when shown the contract, Lorelai recognizes the name of the housekeeper as the facilitator and her mother's handwriting...it appears her mother wants to see her, & Lorelai isn't sure if its to reunite or to pay retribution... She is deciding if she will go through and face what happened with her family
As compensation for Sashja decidedly not getting paid for Lorelai's contract, party offers to help him with a different one, which he accepts in hunting a Basilisk in the area, which he wasn't planning on doing since it's not recommended doing it alone. Party learned that the hard way as it kicked our ass, petrified two party members who had to be Greater Restored, but also managed to knock half the party prone with one Singular tail swipe, like a strike in bowling
At the end, before departure, Blythe gave Sashja one of Poe's feathers so he could summon him to deliver a message to her if he manages to uncover anything related to Fell Brambles to help with Raha's condition. He naturally agrees, as they parted on good terms and he does consider him a close friend despite how long they've spent apart.
They part once more, but both are glad to see the other is happy having found their place in the world, albeit opposite than the they anticipated.
Their relationship is fun to me because it is meant to be as the natural progression of people that spend so much time together that they believe that romance is the natural progression, but learn that they are incompatible in such a way. Sashja is someone who is very extroverted and does require a lot of communication and open-ness, and while Raha's quiet reservation is fine and dandy for playing or being friends, it caused a lot of tension when in a more intimate setting, where Sashja had no idea if enjoyed their relationship or not. Ultimately, neither is at fault, and both have their methods of communication, and it was just not feasible for their personalities to mesh in a romantic setting, so they went back to just being friends.
I wanted to write different relationships for characters, all of them without a specific bad guy and just matters of different perspectives, where each person is entitled to their experience, and approaching it from an adult and mature angle. I don't know if it always reads that way but that's what's important to me :}
#blythe#raha#i like them to be complex people and dont think an ex is suddenly a bad thing an a normal progression of relationships#i ddid enjoy writing Sashja so maybe he'll come back. i left a door for it#and opened a door for lorelai development...
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ace attorney x pokemon teams! (mostly investigations characters but with phoenix wright)
warning! yapping incoming!
these were all formulated with everything up to aa4 + investigations 1 and 2 in mind as i have not played past that yet! i've already made raymond shields/eddie fender's pokemon team so that doesn't show up here- but it exists!!
before i go into the teams, in this universe the prosecutor and defense attorney badges have been replaced to look more like these pokemon (this is important for later)
now, the investigator himself:
his doublade was given to him by his father before his passing. yes, it is a sword pokemon referencing his last name, but it also has outstanding defensive and offensive strategies. it used to be a defense attorney's pokemon, so it only makes sense that it's a good defender, too! miles himself has proven to be skilled at both as well. (also if you look at my other post about ray's team, his aegislash is related to miles' doublade!)
his gallade was also given to him back when it was a kirlia, but from manfred von karma instead of his father. it is yet another blade pokemon, and similarly to doublade, specializes in both offense and defense. it can defend others with its arm blades, but it can also use them to deal devestating blows very quickly
skarmory is another sharp mon, given to him by manfred. i have less reasoning for this one compared to the other blades, i just think it looks like a mon miles would own. i see it as his fly mon that he uses when it's more convenient to fly via bird than with a private jet (as long as it isn't raining)
his ninetales was also a gift from manfred, given to miles when it was a vulpix. it's very intelligent and fits the whole elegant thing he's got going on
it's hard for me to explain with words why he has an espeon but i mean. of COURSE he has an espeon. yk?? back in elementary, he found three abandoned eevee with larry and phoenix. they each decided to convince their families to let them have one, and miles' later evolved into espeon
finally his dartrix! it was given to him by gregory when it was a rowlet. not only do they have the same hair and similar fancy neck accessories, but they are both extremely precise with their attacks- until they aren't. dartrix spend a lot of time making sure they look their best and get distracted if something about their appearance needs fixing, and that feels very miles edgeworth to me
he also has some pet pokemon!!
the rockruff and shiny sinistea were his and his father's pets, and the persian was from von karma.
as you've probably noticed, most of his mons were given to him or passed down from his father figures. the only exception is espeon
next, that man...
he has a pidgeot that he mega evolves, and while i could say it makes sense to be there because it's a common route 1 bird, i'm going to be completely upfront and say its only actual reason for being on his team is the matching hair lmao
his sylveon was one of the eevee he found with miles and larry. it's the perfect eeveelution for him!!! picturing feenie with a sylveon is the cutest fucking thing ever i love them <3
arcanine are very loyal and protective, and they aren't the kind of mon to shy away from danger- very on par with phoenix. it also parallels miles' ninetales
he got his goomy shortly before the feenie trial, and it's the whole reason he got sick in the first place (he didn't realize just how germy goomy were)
yet another mon i can't quite explain the placement of, he has a cinderace. do you see the vision.
lastly, togedemaru. silly spiky hedgehog mon. need i say more.
next up, the butz-
his smeargle makes art with him and they each help each other hone their skills. he got it as soon as he set his mind to becoming an artist, and they've been inseparable since
he has a magikarp and a feebas because he thinks gyarados looks super cool and strong and milotic would be perfect to have as a model for his art. he can't evolve his pokemon to save his life though, so it's doubtful they will ever achieve their final form. he still loves them, though
there is ONE pokemon he's managed to evolve, which was his umbreon. it was one of the eevee he found with miles and phoenix. the one mon on his team he could evolve was the one that only required a strong friendship. speaking of, you may or may not have noticed that miles, phoenix, and larry's eevee all evolved via friendship......
his wimpod is not only just as cowardly as him, but it also spits out poisonous liquid when startled. that liquid happens to be very smelly, and when something smells... well, you know the rest! he really wants it to evolve into a super cool mon, but despite its inability to do so under larry's training, he still cares for it
he has a luvdisc that he brings around on his first dates for him and whoever he's with at the time to "discover" together. he does it to bring good luck to his relationships, as it is believed to bring about everlasting love between couples who see it. this, however, is obviously fiction, considering his relationships last for a couple months at best, despite his efforts
even in the depths of night, when no other bird dares to take flight!
she has two corvid pokemon. corvisquire are known to use tools (cough cough little thief) and murkrow love anything shiny. i considered giving her a tinkatuff for a short time, until i remembered that she would probably hate that entire line for opposing the corviknight line lmao
floragato is mischievous, dexterous, and likes to pull pranks every now and then. they are GREAT friends, and their antics oftentimes raise poor dadworth's anxiety to a dangerous degree. also, fun fact, kay is a cat person!! ...well, she's more of a bird person, but she does still like cats!
her gengar was inherited from her father. similar to floragato, it is mischievous and likes to pull pranks. it is also very stealthy and likes to hide in the shadows
frogadier is a ninja pokemon, so of course kay would love it! they are very skilled climbers and possess many cool ninja-like skills kay would be obsessed with. they train frequently together
finally her zorua, another mischievous mon. it can create illusions and disguise itself, and that would make it a great team member for the yatagarasu!
lang zi says: HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWL!
LOTS. OF. DOGGIES.
as i was making his team, i was concerned having only dogs/wolves would be a little boring or too obvious. after some reflection, i realized lang would 100% only have canine pokemon on his team so i stopped worrying about it
these mons are fierce, loyal, and care for their pack. they all fit very well! they can all howl at the moon with lang and bark at anyone who gets in the way of his investigation. except lycanroc. dusk form lycanroc don't really bark, but lang and the rest more than make up for it
oh? what's this? i'm giving luxray to yet another one of my favorite characters? yes, yes i am. and what're you gonna do about it?! i am unstoppable!!!! i know luxray is more of a lion than a wolf but that shiny is just too perfect. it's still sort of a 'pack' animal anyway so the luxray stays!! i like to imagine it's a bit of an outcast when it comes to other luxray because it acts more 'dog'-like than the others. lang noticed it was rejected from its own 'pack' and took it in in a heartbeat. while unable to exactly howl or bark, it does its best and lang still sees no difference between it and the rest of the pack (lang zi says: trans rights!)
he's also raising a houndoor pup which i think is adorable <3
detective gummy time, pal!
i completely forgot about this until a few days ago, but jake marshall gave him a cactus to talk to about all of his problems. in this universe, the cactus he gave gumshoe was actually a cacnea
he has a yamper nicknamed missile, of course! it's not really fully his since it's a police dog, but they have a really close bond and it's practically his at this point
he has a gumshoos because.... gumshoos.... gumshoe.... get it............. really though they are both very determined and not easily gotten rid of, and both can withstand being very very hungry, which gumshoe has to do often because miles keeps docking his pay. he never lets his mons go hungry, of course! just a lil thing they have in common (poor scruffy)
his fidough helps him make dough for noodles so he can cook homemade ramen. this helps him save money when he needs to and he can spend quality time with his lil guy in the process!
his magnemite acts as his metal detector in universe and is a police mon. like yamper, it's ended up being more of gumshoe's pokemon than the police's
palafin. palafin. pal. afin. ....... outside of the name though, it's very loyal and will do whatever it takes to help out its friends when they're in trouble. when it really needs to pull through, it will! just like gummy <3
make way, foolish fools! it's fran time!
obligatory vine whip mon, a shiny servine. it whips its foes relentlessly and is very prideful. due to its pride, it doesn't like to work with others and takes a long time to warm up to people and pokemon. very franny like, if i do say so myself
she has a shiny gardevoir that was given to her as a kirlia by her father, and it was given to her at the same time as miles' kirlia. she mega evolves it in battle
her shiny starmie is a symbol of her being a prosecutor, and she specifically went on a mission to find a shiny. i think she'd be a shiny hunter in this universe! feels very in character for her. i like to think her shiny obsession started when manfred gave her the shiny kirlia
her shiny galarian rapidash is also very prideful and fearless, and is one of the reasons she is referred to as a "wild mare" by others. she preferred the shiny, so she GOT the shiny
her alolan ninetales was given to her by manfred at the same time as miles' ninetales (both were vulpix at the time), and they are very close. it is a very calm and collected mon, and it helps franziska feel more at ease when the pressure of everything starts to get to her
the alolan persian was yet another mon given to her by her father at the same time as miles' persian. it's one of the many prideful mons franziska has, and it's also very hard to work with- unless your name is franziska von karma, of course!
(last few! spoilers for aai2, in case you haven't played it yet)
now, debeste team for debeste prosecutor!
he has a kricketune to conduct for, and they play music for his quaxwell to dance to. they like to put on shows for others to marvel at (their performances leave much to be desired, though.) he and his quaxwell both put a lot of effort into their hair (canon!), and a part of their morning routine is spending hours in front of the mirror together to perfect it. they also both put a lot of effort into their work, even if their prosecuting and dancing skills.... leave a lot of room for improvement
his leafeon has MATCHING QUESTION MARK HAIR OH MY GOD. i knew i wanted to give him an eeveelution because he 100% had an eevee, and when i saw leafeon. i nearly exploded.
he has a bulbasaur because "its pokedex number is #1, that means it's the best pokemon!" he gave it an eviolite and makes sure it's always carrying it
the cubone cries VERY often just like him, and i like to think that once sebby comes to terms with his father being horrible and lets a lot of that baggage go, the cubone grows from the experience, too, and evolves with him (im not crying theres just something in my eyes i swear)
he's got a deino, and to be completely honest, it's there because of the matching hair. what can i say, it's too perfect to pass up!!
prepare for the goddess of law's righteous judgement!
yes, she has a legendary virizion- shiny, at that!! i figured if anyone would have a legendary on their team it would be her. it's a sword of justice, after all. it's also the most intelligent of the swords of justice trio. ALSO. in pokemon reburst, the swords of justice are captured by GREAT GAVEL. as in verity gavelle. anyway-
dragonair are known as the "divine pokemon", and in this universe the blue gems on justine's clothes are meant to represent the blue crystals on dragonair
the flowers worn by yellow florges are the 'lion lilies' in this universe. they are protective and devote themselves to what they see as important. for florges, this is its flowerbed, and to verity, it's the law
leavanny care deeply for younger pokemon and are very parental. they would both do anything it took to protect their children, even if it meant going against the goddess of law herself
her shiny delphox.... i'm just gonna leave one of its pokedex entries and a segment from justine's fandom page here:
"it leaves burn marks in the ground with the flame at the tip of its wand. long ago, people used the shapes of these burn marks for divination."
"when gavelle investigates crime scenes, she sometimes swings her gavel, hitting the floor and leaving marks."
lastly, her bronzor is based on the yata no kagami. the badge judges wear in japan is based on it, and it's also the basis for verity's japanese name, mikagami, which means water mirror. the mirror is a symbol of god-like wisdom, honesty, and the truth. bronzor are said to reflect the truth, being based on the yata no kagami and all. they were literally made for each other. it's the perfect mon.
nowaynowaynowayyyyyy! it's mr monkey man!
he OBVIOUSLY has the do no evil monkeys on his team, he's literally the three of them stacked in a clown costume (his simipour is evolved because LOOK AT IT. they are the same)
speaking of clown, he has a mr mime. no need to elaborate
his alolan meowth is the one that becomes an armrest instead of the regular cat. alolan meowth are selfish and manipulative, and become hysterical if things go south for them. sound familiar?
his slakoth is there to keep up his silly harmless guy persona, but it later evolves into vigoroth to beat the absolute shit out of him once his true nature is revealed
thanks for coming to my tedtalk <3
if you have any suggestions for the current teams or teams for characters i haven't created yet, i'd love to hear them!
#ace attorney#pokemon#ace attorney pokemon#aai2#aa investigations#ace attorney investigations#miles edgeworth#phoenix wright#larry butz#kay faraday#shi long lang#dick gumshoe#franziska von karma#sebastian debeste#eustace winner#verity gavelle#justine courtney#simon keyes#simeon saint#my raymond shields/eddie fender team is already posted!! if you wanna look at it i used the ace attorney pokemon tag for it :DD#this took SEVERAL HOURS to write out and multiple days of team brainstorming#how the hell wasnt i diagnosed with autism sooner what were my parents thinking#not putting shinx or luxio on sebbys team took so much restraint you really have no idea#also just found out fender calls eustace “weiner kid” in the official translation im losing my shit thats so fucking funny#sorry knightley fans i swear i tried but all i could think of was rapidash and that one alolan horse i forgot the name of#i will almost certainly have a team for him in the future tho#in the meantime if you have any ideas for his team (or someone else's!) i wouldnt be opposed to suggestions!!#there are 2592 WORDS MY GOD#ive never written this much for anything not even for essays#this was so incredibly long if you read the whole thing tysm ily
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#was just thinking#its very hard for me to relate to characters#its hard for me to find characters that look like me or dress like me or like the same things i do or behave like me#i like that i dont fit into stereotypes and all that. but cmon girl#i feel like i have the same weirdness of tao of heartstopper#and some of the goofiness of pav of across the spiderverse#but i also have so many interests and peculiar traits#and. like. i would like to see someone like that on tv or in a book#very random rant but yeah i think about it sometimes#leo scrive
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Everytime someone draws laios with the usual anime chiseled abs an angel dies
#dunmeshi#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#laois touden#laius thorden#laius touden#me grabbing the fanartists rabid and foaming at the mouth: DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THIS SHIW AT ALL. ITS ABOUT DESIRE AND CONSUMPTION AND#EATING AND HEALTH AND HOW HEALTH IS RELATED TO THAT!!! AND THE MANGAKA SPECIFICALLY DRAWS THE CHARACTERS TO REPRESENT ACTUAL BODY SHAPES#BECAUSE THATS ALSO A HUGE PART OF IT!!! IS RECOGNIZING THAT BEING HEALTHY ISNT ROCK HARD ABS!!! THATS ACTUALLY NOT HEALTHY!!! AND SO HE#WOULDNT LOOK LIKE THAT!!! ROCK HARD ABS IS FROM DEHYDRATION AND A VERY CERTAIN DIET!!! THATS NOT HEALTHY?!!#laios touden
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Poppy for N2 au, it took me so long to make her design cuz I didn't really know what I wanted to do only because I feel like her design is pretty perfect.
But then I just thought about fun outfits to give her or outfits that I would find comfortable if I was wearing them and it all came together.
Poppy here is pretty much the same as here movie counterpart, as nothing really changes on her end of things other than having more insight on Branch through his brothers, and through Lief. Shes also a bit more understanding a bit earlier on because of it but it doesnt do much to change her own character arc I would say.
Bonus
Part of Poppys design was based off a design I had made for previous rulers of Troll Village/Tree
Namely Queen Protea who I designed as Poppys grandmother

Named after the Protea flower which part of her design is based off :D
In the context of this Au Protea was the one who conceptualized the tunnels while her son, King Peppy, was the one to follow through after her death
#my art#dreamworks trolls#trolls#trolls 3#trolls au#trolls band together#trolls branch#trolls poppy#trolls oc#trolls oc lief#trolls oc protea#its really hard to mess with poppy at least in the context of this au cuz like i said nothing really changes on her end#whats changed in this au was just stuff on Branchs side of things#Poppy can witness these things but she herself isnt really changed by them#she of course would have more insight on Branchs life through his brothers and the addition of Lief as a character#but idk if that would fully change her approach with him other than what ive displayed#where shed try to relate to branch rather than trying to force him to relate to her#which would then most likely make her more understanding going forward than she was in canon#im still figuring her out#also since im in the tags and nobody really reads this#i feel brave enough to say#that secretly#ive been kind of sort of#posting a fanfic of this au under the name not the only one#on ao3#and thats where Protea comes from#its not well written in the slightest#but its just for fun and practice so in my mind it doesnt really have to be entirely#but i am having fun with it#so if you see this and check it out please be so very nice to me please
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i love all of the wotakoi characters and think they're all relatable in their own ways, but if i'm being honest..... if i had to pick a character who resembled my personality the most..... it would unfortunately be.......... kabakura
#text#wotakoi#wotaku ni koi wa muzukashii#wotakoi love is hard for otaku#i say 'unfortunately' because he is unfortunately a bit.#dysfunctional.#i love him but oh god he can be so difficult and i say that as someone who is equally difficult#incredibly stubborn#super conscious about his image to the point that he maintains it at home#cannot share interests with others because he is so particular about everything#also the fact that despite all that and his 'scary' personality#he's actually really bad at saying no to people#again i love him but why did god have to give me the battles of the most stubborn and troubled characters#its the same as when i realised i relate to jeff winger on community#tarou kabakura#my relationship reminds me the most of hironaru and i find both of them very relatable as well#but yeah ok kabahana. i can see a bit of my relationship in them too. minus the fighting.
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#The Atypical Family#I haven’t enjoyed/ been so moved by a drama in a very long time ❤️#just finished it I cried so much & SO hard haha#I was completely immersed and engaged from beginning to end which is rare (12 eps is a good length too)#I didn’t expect it to have so much depth and be so touching going into it I just wanted something different#mental illnesses complex interesting characters complicated -toxic- family relationships fantasy fated lovers found family...#well written and WONDERFULLY acted!!#the whole cast was amazing but the two leads were just outstanding wow#never saw either of them in big roles and now I’m a huge fan of both#Chun Woo Hee I’m so in love with you#I’m usually more touched by the female lead (actress/character) but the male lead actor was acting his ass off and made me SOB many times#his scenes with his daughter Ina oh I was a MESS and of course the lead couple scenes together <3#I also haven’t been that impressed by romance lately in shows but theirs was truly beautiful (and again: really well acted)#I could relate to parts of most characters: Dahae Donghee Gwiju Ina..#a poetic emotional rollercoaster and my favorite drama this year so far (by far)#now I want to carry on watching Queen of Tears (mainly for my Queen Kim Jiwon I’m her number one fan) and watch Lovely Runner too#but it will be hard to beat this one and I highly recommend it!!#deserved more love & attention#my mom loved it too it standed out to her and she watches ALL the kdramas lol#forgot to mention the magical OST I see you by the oh so great Lee Sora and her bewitching voice <3#I also haven’t been so moved by an ost in a long time it added so much to the atmosphere of the drama & really transported me into its worl#korean drama#2024#shots#cinematography#jang ki yong#cheon wo hee#Claudia Kim#park soyi
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I feel like a lot of criticism of the good doctor comes from people who've never actually watched it
"My parents now think autistic people can't live by themselves". Well... I'm sorry to hear that, but Shaun does just fine on his own? A big part of season one is him not wanting a stranger to help him with things when his mentor/father figure tries finding him an aid or something. He only gets a roommate, his best friend and now wife, after she crashed at his place.
"He's such a jerk" he's... literally very sweet? The only person I can think of who he was purposefully rude to was his abusive jerk of a father, which... was deserved lmao
He usually tries to connect with his patients, and there are some very sweet moments.
#im not saying theres no valid criticisms#of course there are#i just feel like... some people say things about stuff without actually knowing about it?#i know a lot of people have issues with the show and with shaun and thats fair but#hes like. the character ive related to most ever in media#i started watching the show because apparently its one of the more medically accurate medical dramas#came out of it seeing myself in a character like never before#and such a great character too#i love him very much#ive never seen someone have. ? emotional outbursts like that#like ive had#where you breathe so hard you cant actually breathe#hit myself in the head#and when lea joins him in moving his hands and jumping around together when excited.....#i would die if someone did that with me rather than just giving me a weird look or laughing or calling me a bird#anyway. a lot of the criticism can be disproven if you actually watch the show#much like misako LMAOOOO#the good doctor#im so sad its goinh to end after s7 ;-;
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as tagged by @thitiponqs : tell me who i'm most like of my favorites. vibes only we are all internet personas to each other
stuck to drama characters i relate to. here's visual aids:
i'm quite late to this. please go ahead and play if you want !
#i am a known Akk Person#its the easiest and probably most correct answer here#but all of these have some. me. in there#rowan lore#i made new gifs for lee wan and surprisingly also akk#i tend to gif the characters i directly relate to on their own without their friends or partners .... uh... a bit less#like. most of my eclipse gifs that have akk in them dont have him alone#but i have lots of aye gifs#lets not examine what that says about me :>#also that yutaka gif is very old. all my bokushoku files are on my external hard drive so i didnt go get it#but it looks soooooo. different. LMAO
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been trying to figure out what exactly it is about aventurine that feels perhaps relatable, or what it is that makes me want to study him like a bug...
and camr to the thought that he's pretty pessimistic for am optimist...but also ob the other side of the same coin, he's optimiaric for a pessimist. kinda both at the same time,.or depending on the day or how you look at him maybe.
he's an optimist becuase he knows he's going to win. he always wins. he has always won his gambles. he knows it will happen again and again. his luck, or gift, or blessing, or whatever you want to call it ensures that. but he's also a pessimist becuase he knows that "win" also always comes with some kind of suffering for him. he wins all his gambles, but at what cost? a lot, actually. so is it really a win? he knows he will win, but he also knows he will be used, abused, sacrificed, broken, or in pain. he expects those to be a consequence of his winning luck, to the point of making sure it happens and becomes self-destructive because of it. he acts calmly like it's ok and is the outcome he wants and calls that a win because it's what he plans and expects. he bets on it and it happens.
but at the same time, he's slowly breaking and seems to want it to end. he tests the limits of his luck to see if it's a real "gift" or if it is all a coincidence and has an end. he probably wants to meet the end to end the pain and suffering, but knows his "luck" won't allow it. he wants to be against the luck and see if he can win. a whole contradiction it itself. his luck kept him alive so many times and continues to do so. it will always do so, unless perhaps his end is the goal. what if he bets on losing this time? bets in meeting his end? he needs to get lucky enough to achieve that goal. flip his lucky fate by turning his luck around, make his end the final lucky win.
but it seems like he either lost for once and didn't meet his end....maybe his luck truly does intend on keeping him alive...or he changed his mind in the end and got lucky enough to get out of meeting his end once again...
he's still a bit of an enigma to me and i'm not sure exactly what happened. but he's for sure a complex and amusing character (even if I still want to put him into a snow globe and shake it as hard as I can) and this whole penacony story is too complex for my soggy trashcan brain lmao but i'm enjoying the ride
#hsr#hsr aventurine#hsr spoilers#kinda spoilerish tbh#lee text#i could be very much misinterpreting him but this is just my brain trying to work things out so its not too deep#its a ramble for brain to try organizing thoughts#this quest left more answers than questions#like. FIREFLY?! is she even real! what is she who is she. why did they leave us on TO BE CONTINUED there!#also not to be a rock nerd but aventurine is a very pretty rock. i enjoy that pretty rock#also i reread this and its basically a nonsensical ramble and doesnt really make sense#its vague and doesnt really grasp him. hes too complex to fit neatly into my rotten worm brain so dont mind me and my rambles lmao#am too sleepy to use brain. make me do dailies and go to bed#ah. a thing i forgot to add to my ramble: hes always been alone ever since his sister left him. he only has himself to rely on#hes a very lonely character who doesnt have anyone to trust or rely on. no true friends. everyone uses or betrays him#perhaps hes afraid of this and further chooses to not trust and rely on anyone too much. he only has himself in the end#that part of him is very relatable. i also find it hard to trust and rely on anyone and am forever alone.....
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I'm so heavily anti-advertising that all pitches sound goofy silly to me/I can never take them seriously, so I have no idea how I'll manage to to advertise my game even if I do finally finish it soon-ish lol...
#Especially how so much modern media advertising is like... getting people excited about random tropes and stuff like#''Do you love enemies to lovers? Do you love sad stories that make you do a heckin CRY? Do you love big stupid dumbo muffin cake#sinnamon roll babies who are too good for this world? Have you ever wanted to read a blah blach blah" whatever stuff and it's like#... i cannot type that... I couldnt do it.. I couldn't even think of how to do it ghbjhbjh#I am such a literal person... Like I love when an advertisement is just like 'This product works well. Look at it. Buy it if you want. Ok'#You know what makes me want to read a book or watch a show or play a game? Reading a detailed plot synopsis or the full wiki page#for it and then deciding 'yeah I wouldnt mind sitting through seeing the events I just read about happen in more detail' lol#OR aesthetics. since I do often watch things JUST for the set/costume design. Sometimes I will watch stuff literally#just because I saw a picture of a costume in it that looked really cool and I want to sketch costume looks whilst watching#But aside from appearance like... little bullet point break downs of things that are in a story just ... do not do anything to me at all.#And i just hate 'selling' things to begin with. I don't want to have to convince people to like something.. they should just... like it...#LOL.. like.. just be born liking it. just like it automatically please. Dont make me beg to you like a weird little freak. So many commerci#als seem weirdly desperate and manipulative. Like those Truck/Car commercials that will have like a freaking dog crying and#a war vet in a wheelchair with the american flag in the background and a family hugging around a christmas tree or some shint and its#just like oh my GODDD... shut UPP.. you could literally not be MORE blantant about just trying to prey on peoples emotions to build#some sort of fabricated positive association with your product/brand.. begone.. Or brands having their own twitters where they post#~~relatable content~~ as a means of shallow audience endearment GGGRR..... ANYWAY.. hhrgh...................#Maybe that's something I can ask playtesters I guess like.. I feel like I don't know my own audience very well because I am not#much of a media person?? ironically.. Like I do enjoy MAKING media. But I've never been in a fandom. I've never read fanfiction. I've never#spent much time in those spaces. I've just never really had the inclination and don't personally derive much joy out of stuff like that#(since I'm already so focused on my OWN world and projects its like.. hard for me to even find the time and mental energy to expend on#others). Even when I finish a movie or game and really like it.. I just kind of like...move on? and don't really dwell on it much? At most#I will get into the worldbuilding of a piece of media and read the wiki for a while or watch Lore info or critical analysis videos. But I#never really care for or attach to the characters or the plot itself very much. So I feel like.. the way my brain works. I'm just not as#good at approaching things from that angle? Kind of like how if you're a lifelong vegetarian whos never eaten meat - you might#struggle to write an ad for fancy brand of steaks bc you'd be like... idk what meat eaters are even looking for? whats the selling point??#Which I'm not saying that I wouldn't play my own game. i AM definitely the audience for it. But it's more like.. I would play it for my own#very niche specific reasons that I think are different from what MOST people might want to play it for. So I need to somehow#tap into the minds of the Majority who play things for Normal Reasons than pure lore collection or whatever lol.
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im kind of not fully happy with my ocs rn you may notice i havent been posting with them ... im not sure whats not working but its quite frustrating
#i think some of the ocs just dont have well defined personalities or characters Or are very onedimensional . and its throwing me off the#whole bunch bc im trying to think about how they related to eachother and how theyd think and interact but its hard when some of them just#dont feel very fleshed out . so i suppose i need to go through and figure out what exactly i want from everybody
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hi guys i'm alive, i survived my drive.
also look at this keychain shaker i ordered 🥺 the artist was kind enough to check their supplies and had one more so soon it shall be shipped to me and i'm so excited
#i got home and just#'nobody talk to me until wednesday please'#'unless its very important or food related'#bc guys in person interactions im so drained#i've just been laying in bed for like 40 minutes#i will do some writing today#not going to push myself too hard tho#but glad to be able to rest#and wanted to share#X — OUT OF CHARACTER
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Ohh im obssesed



#uprooted#uprooted naomi novik#solya#marek#my main playlists dedicated to them :]#idk why they cought my attention in 2018 and since that year they have had a special place in my heart. sometimes throughout my day-#i realise im obssesed with them and they're not just some random characters i like. ive dedicated a lot of time on them#i wonder how my interest in them will be when i get older. i certainly know that i will miss them if i stop thinking about them#you could say they have seen me grow. i knew them BEFORE quarantine. they were with me DURING. and AFTER#they have been through so many phases of my life. its so strange.#they changed so much too...except Marek. he still looks the same I imagined him in 2018. solya is definitely different tho#but i do think i have a different more in depth understanding of both characters#even if the words i read in 2018 are still the same now that i look back at the book. they were so many things unsaid but if u looked-#closely you could understand them. solya and marek as individual characters have so much depth...even if its not explicitly said#or maybe its just me reading between the lines too much. i wish i just knew more about them. this is getting so long-#but I got a bit nostalgic. is crazy how i was just a child and somehow even tho solya was just the total opposite of the type of characters-#i like there was something in him. something that made me look at him. and i think thats actually so in character of him#i think that in the book even if someone didnt like him. it was still hard to look away because he stood out from the rest.#there was definitely something about him that attracted people. or else how would have he gotten so far in his schemes?#I may be overanalyzing it. but i love the Falcon so much. and i do like marek a lot as a character. i find him very interesting. i know he-#did bad. terrible. things i like him as a character. not as a person.#i wish i could have seen what was going on in that damaged mind of his...#analyzing his behavior its so entertaining to me. i love making up scenarios where he is at his worst. im not gonna lie#marek suffering and then finding comfort in not comforting things is one of my favorite headcanons.#his obssesion with his mother is also a very important part of his character (ofc) and i love imagine him doing things related to that#thinking about the ways their personalities connect and make them have a very toxic bond keeps me up at night..they made each other worst#and we actually never see that in depth in the book. everything is so subtle but my crazy brain can find the signs in any part#i will stop this rant here. i feel its so long and if i made any spelling mistake i apologise to my future self (probably my self from-#tomorrow) because i know i won't be able to fix the misspelling and that will stress me SO MUCH.#future self please dont stress about it. just be happy. and enjoy thinking about these insane characters
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graaaa being weird in public sorry (on my own blog) teehee
#vent#RAAAAAA does anybodybelse like . Hate a lot of mundane shit in fiction . like just characters being friends or like going to a cafe or like#idk like. going to clothing stores. because i literally cannot do any of that#not even disabled.i just dont have the social skills or confidence or energy every day to do anyrhing outside of my room besides going to#classes. anyway im think about this rlly hard because i read a really normal dbz fic and felt very Othered#LIKE in fiction you dont often see ppl doing everyday stuff. you only see major plot points or fightihg or training or romance or whatever.#its already Out There types of things that ppl dont really do unless they are a main protagonist#as soon as thta character becomes Yeah this is Jessica from my ENG101 class i suddenly feel totally wholly ostracized#imo one of the biggest important things about lit is reading experiences you cant relate to in order to learn and expand your horizons but#but fic isNot lit & i only see 'normal' portrayed in fic because its self indulgent for the author & therefore i see 'normal' as a fic#trope that solely exists to make me feel like a caged animal#i cant even relate to queer experiences because of how deeply closted i am and how ive never ever irl been in a community like that#Rrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa#its not like i even WANT to see fic that verbatim recounts my edgy loner isolated lifestyle. Just stop with the starbucks or quaint#breakfast scenes PLEASE#It hurtsowww Nobody tells you this but pain actually really hurts. and everytime you write 'normal' another bunny/kitty is turned intosyrup
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a song that i associate with my muse meme!
AHH, hey, ramone!! thank you for sending in this prompt :D since you sent in three of the mic's, i shall now be treating you to three songs that make me think of blamore when i hear them / that i associate with it. an explanation of why i chose them will be in the tags <3
hozier - who we are.
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icehouse - crazy.
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depeche mode - personal jesus.
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#IT WAS PROBABLY NOTHING BUT IT FELT LIKE THE WORLD: musings.#asks - answered.#ooc post.#okay but ESPECIALLY heavy on the last one because it literally all about the idea of someone that people can turn to in hard times-#like a god or a prophet who will listen to your plights and help you + who you should believe in. and i say this because one major theme-#to blamore's character is the concept of being a false prophet and someone who essentially unfortunately takes advantage of people's-#longing for things to get better in gotham. bc i feel like a lot of people there have either been failed by the system by other's or-#possibly both and this is so that blamore can get people to voluntarily want to consume the 'seeds' it distributes in order to uhh...#well purge gotham of its undesirables basically as terrible as that sounds. but yeah that depeche mode song? it's such a good one for-#him and definitely has helped me before to write things related to him since blamore does sometimes believe in its own hubris.#but as for the second one by icehouse that one i associate with it because although it doesn't exactly consider itself to fully identify-#with the label of being a 'man' i feel as if blamore will still talk about itself that way sometimes. its relationship with its gender-#is honestly a little bit complicated NGL because him using it/its pronouns as well is something blamore adopted recently even-#though he'd always sort of felt like disconnected and/or like it didn't really align with how he saw himself completely. BUT yeahhh#i honestly could start a whole discussion about that but i shall do that another time perhaps ahah. anyhow though besides that-#elephant in the room ever since it has transformed into this half-human half-plant monster being... although it does love any partners-#it has very much (trust me) i feel like it does wonder why they chose to be with him more often than he'd like to admit.#so that's where the whole 'crazy' part comes in and as for the hozier song that song is about how you kind of have to carve through-#this 'darkness' to rediscover ourselves and who we want to be as a result of going through a rough time or just something tough in-#general and that is SO freaking fitting in my opinion for blamore because it definitely had to completely reframe the way it thought-#about itself when it transformed. and he also had to figure out what he believed in / what his values were now which can be suchhh-#a messy process TBH but this isn't the first time that blamore's had to rediscover itself as life is honestly kind of this ongoing-#process of losing yourself and trying to find yourself again you know? but yeah. i hope you enjoyed my explanation here tehe <3#and also that you enjoy the tunes!!
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