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I feel like a lot of criticism of the good doctor comes from people who've never actually watched it
"My parents now think autistic people can't live by themselves". Well... I'm sorry to hear that, but Shaun does just fine on his own? A big part of season one is him not wanting a stranger to help him with things when his mentor/father figure tries finding him an aid or something. He only gets a roommate, his best friend and now wife, after she crashed at his place.
"He's such a jerk" he's... literally very sweet? The only person I can think of who he was purposefully rude to was his abusive jerk of a father, which... was deserved lmao
He usually tries to connect with his patients, and there are some very sweet moments.
#im not saying theres no valid criticisms#of course there are#i just feel like... some people say things about stuff without actually knowing about it?#i know a lot of people have issues with the show and with shaun and thats fair but#hes like. the character ive related to most ever in media#i started watching the show because apparently its one of the more medically accurate medical dramas#came out of it seeing myself in a character like never before#and such a great character too#i love him very much#ive never seen someone have. ? emotional outbursts like that#like ive had#where you breathe so hard you cant actually breathe#hit myself in the head#and when lea joins him in moving his hands and jumping around together when excited.....#i would die if someone did that with me rather than just giving me a weird look or laughing or calling me a bird#anyway. a lot of the criticism can be disproven if you actually watch the show#much like misako LMAOOOO#the good doctor#im so sad its goinh to end after s7 ;-;
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to moving forward
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#yuji itadori#gojo satoru#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itadori yuuji#megumi fushiguro#jjk spoilers#satoru gojo#jjk manga spoilers#hina.comic#before any1 says anything i KNOw his birthday is in december ik ik ik this is just 2 show some post-battle bonding after the trauma#its winter in canon n megumi's birthday has passed and he spent it being piloted like a mech so they need to celebrate Now!!#also this was technically a request lmao anon wanted megumi birthday angst hehehehhe i hope u like it <3 bc it KILLED ME DEAD#im going to collapse remember when i said this wasnt harder than the hydrangeas im having second thoughts#page 8 made me want to bash my head in#could have stuck with one flashback image could have left them monochrome could have done literally anything 2 ease the workload#but noooo the chronic overachiever in me would not allow it#rule of threes i had to include all of them and they Had to be in colour it wouldn't have hit the same if i had kept it monochrome#i needed it to look how childhood memories look i needed it to look oversaturated and hazy and fond but unmistakably Gone#it may have killed me but im so proud of this rn like from an art style perspective these megumis and yuujis r top tier by my standards#personal favourites r the first and last panel of crying megumi like not 2 pat myself on th back but expression?????? hello??????#enjoy your cake megumi you've earned it <333 sorry fr hurting ur feelings it will happen again#oh my god i can sleep tonight bless <333 and i met my 3 day deadline NICE im so good at what i do
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you're in the habit of denying yourself things.
if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.
but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?
what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.
and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.
you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.
so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.
it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.
sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.
oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.
#warm up#this isn't good#writeblr#this is complicated by the fact i can't stand up too long or i fuckken pass out and <3 hit my damn head <3#but i did take a deep breath and buy myself the stupid rice cooker#and!!! a very cheap sushi kit!!! i have been wanting to try making sushi for literally YEARS#the kit was only like 15 dollars!!!! and i haven't purchased it bc?!!??!?!?!?!!?#..... i didn't get the mixer tho that felt. like a lot. like too much.#on my list is a kitchenaid. one day when i get a check and i have paid off my student debt#and medical debt#i will put that first little bit of cash#into a kitchenaid 5qt stand mixer (with attachments)#i really do just go into their refurbished section and stare lustily at each option#but yeah i feel guilty about the rice cooker even tho i know for a fact this damn thing is gonna be a lifesaver#oh shit also fuck i forgot to mention . poached eggs
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One of the reasons why I love Steddie is how sweet Eddie was with Steve in the forest scene. That’s what got me into this ship. It was nice to see someone being patient and kind to Steve like that and it coming from someone like Eddie who viewed Steve so differently means a lot.
I loved how he told him how much Dustin looks up to him, making Steve smile and even after that wanting to joke around a little to make Steve laugh as well.
It was such a nice change, because all the other scenes we just see him bickering with someone or people making him seem stupid when he asks questions. Eddie didn’t make fun of him for not knowing Ozzy like he probably would have prior to things and instead let it be and called Steve cool. I love them.
#I know it shouldn’t be taken to heart how Dustin was like with him#But it just bothers me sometimes#Or even Nancy’s comment how it explains everything bc Steve hit his head#Implying there’s something wrong with him even as a joke#I just take things personally sometimes because I see myself in Steve and I’d love to be given that patience too#steve harrington#stranger things#eddie munson#steddie
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BRO LITERALLY DOXXED HIMSELF TO THE CYCLOPS. he was asking to get jumped come on
#ATHENA WAS LITTERALLY BEGGING FOR BRO TO SHUT UP AND HE WAS JUST LIKE:#“HEY CYCLOPS IM THE REIGNING KING OF ITHACA AND MY NAMES ODYSSEUS BET YOU CANT FIND ME”#my art#epic the musical#epic the cyclops saga#odysseus#odysseus of ithaca#odysseus epic#athena#athena epic#eurylochus epic#out off topic but people that sent doodle request on ask im not ignoring y'all ok#it's just that my grandpa fell down on the kitchen and hit his head so now ive been a bit busy taking care of him#he's good btw nothing happened to him it was just a cut#but the gdi head always bleeds so much it was so scary#plus i felt another artblock starting so I had to doodle something silly and funny to kinda motivate myself lol#AND PLUS i started trying animating and turns out I KINDA HATE-LOVE IT#it's SO MUCH WORK TAKES SO MUCH TIME IT CAN BE SO BORING AT TIMES#but also once you kinda check how its looking overall it feels so good and fun??#anyways ill probably get to those asks around the weekend when ill have some free time :)
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Doodles of loser behaviour (he gets kisses)
Another loser behaviour (he gets kisses, again)
they bring Roberto a headache on a daily basis
#merylvash!! merylvash!!!!!!!! (yelling loudly on the top of my lungs)#you know when you actively avoid something because you know you'll inevitably fall into an endless spiral of it once you trip and fall?#that's me with meryl (points at girl crush)#it's too late... i've started another obsession I cannot turn myself back onto anymore. sighs. girl crush hits hard.#heads up tho my take on meryl is a bit ooc. like ''the most studious student that definitely has a wild college life'' kinda take.#i think she can handle them both. ''in a fight?'' you may ask. schrödinger effect ensues#trigun#trigun stampede#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#meryl stryfe#vashwood#vashmeryl#mashwood#myuminjiart
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springtrap says the EVIL sex word because hes so so SCARY and evil and PURPLE AAAAA!!!!!! AAAAAA!!! SEX!!!!!!! MOUMMY!! HEEELP!!!!
#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#springtrap#purple guy#william afton#springtrap fnaf#you all should listen ta the hit album 'sex in minecraft' by joel varg#a classic if i do say so myself#GRANDMA HAS DIED BUT I STIIIIIIIILLLL HAVE SEX IN MINECRAAAAAAAAAAAFT#what is up w/him and grandma first the ghostbusters album now this#glitchtrap#vanny fnaf#this has been stuck in my head for forever#this is what insanity looks like :\#oh well already knew thattun#i wasnt supposed ta draw this taday. it was supposed ta be. something else.#weeeeeereeeerrrrghgh#bye#suggestive#i guess#spacie scribbles
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I'm just so happy for Logan honestly he finally found a bitch insane enough to match his freak
#the rate that I started shipping poolverine is giving me whiplash#poolverine#Deadpool#deadpool and wolverine#wolverine#was it casual when you grinned up at me as i bled into your mouth#was it casual when you hit me on the head with a fire extinguisher so you could steal my self sacrifice moment#was it casual when you broke down that reinforced metal door trying to stop me from sacrificing myself#was it casual when i used your skeletal adamantium remains to kill space cops#was it casual when both of us wanted to stay in that car#was it casual when#no it fuckin wasn't#and all of us knew it#logan howlett#wade wilson#ryan reynolds#hugh jackman#deadpool 3#deadpool 2024#he's gone through so much relationship heartbreak#mostly romantic which absolutely fuels the deadclaws agenda anyway#it's nice to see him enjoy being with wade#being with (stabbing. clawing. bleeding on. being bled on by. etc.)
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trailblazer makes a wikihow on how to become a raccoon
they commission gepard to do the art
#im doing the reqs out of order now apparently#this one hit me like a truck#i couldnt get the vision out of my head#therere defs more steps i just had to restrain myself#honkai star rail#trailblazer#tiny itty bitty#march 7th#dan heng#gepard#he put himself in as a bystander#doodle#my art#this took a stupid amount of time#gepards artstyle is so far out of my comfort zone omg
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zero's pressure
#running out of gas. running out of money. out of time. out of energy. i'm running out of everything#and ofc my solution is to. avoid it. ignore it. do nothing productive.#zero's pressure turns into zero pressure#i'm trying to be kind to myself. i really have been trying. but it's hard when youre still headed to 0 on everything with no solution#because of yourself#i cant get a job. my art doesnt bring enough. i cant keep producing new products on the regular. i cant finish major comms on time#what CAN i do?#vent#just some adhd things#and maybe anxiety. and bad stress management#sorry for being so raw on main. its therapeutic even if it doesnt really lead to anything. it does force me to confront my feelings ig#i tend to get a burst of motivation after hitting a low like this but its a constant cycle that in the longterm really doesnt improve.#ill probably get some products done and do some quick comms. just one of those alone can cover gas for me#anyway some positivity to toot my own horn: i love the palette of this piece. went harder than i thought
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me overhauling my pinned links instead of writing fics and rb things in my drafts

#that’s my bad 💯#but . i simply forgot how to write words in a decent manner therefore . pain anytime i look at my fic drafts#rmbr how i said i would give myself a deadline for my gojo fic#:3 well that’s not happening :3#i’ll try but i know i can only write when inspo hits 😭 and rn i got nothing omg#MAN I JUST NOTICED THE FIRE IS JOGO’S HEAD!:&/‘?:&/&/$/$/ LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO#personal
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Been rewatching osomatsu san hehe
Love this guy
#have a track record of loving blue dudes#lowkey wanna draw self ship art sasfjsdjgfdj#but trying to decide on a persona design makes me wanna hit myself with hammers 😔#there's too many guys in my head for one design but the guys aren't stable enough for individual designs#sighh my life is so hard /hj#karamatsu#ososan#osomatsu san#mr osomatsu#ososan fanart#ms paint#osomatsu san fanart#karamatsu matsuno#my art
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"observant but clueless elphie pov sorta kinda character study of glinda" is really my calling card huh. wonder how many of them i can get away with tbh lol
#technically ive written more glinda pov#but im such a sucker for using elphie's head as a way to explore glinda's character#hits every time if i do say so myself!#wicked#gelphie#thoughts
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Role-reversal as a concept is really simple imo BUT things like change of environment and plot-related stuff personally makes this fic so fun for me to write :)
So I ended up writing a bunch for what was supposed to be a simple concept, wanted to compile my word vomit so far and, hey, maybe this might be enjoyable for people to read too, who knows (ᵕ,—ᴗ—,).
(⚠️ long post ahead!)
Timeline:
10 y.o - Ace swaps with Sabo before he sails off to sea, while Sabo goes back to Dadan's. The day after the explosion, Ace is found drifting on a piece of wood near Shimotsuki village by Marco who had been around the area with some members of the crew.
15 y.o - Ace eats his devil fruit on his "birthday" (the day the WB found him).
17 y.o - Sabo sets off to become a Revolutionary.
18 y.o - [2 years before canon/Luffy sets out.] Ace gets his first bounty. It's been 1 year since Sabo entered the RA, and it's also when he finds out about Ace. (<- we are here)
※ Some time when Sabo was 14-15 years old, he became aware of the Revolutionary Army when he first heard Garp mention his son in relation to it during one of his drinking sessions with Dadan. He went to a library in Goa's Town Center after the fact, saw some information and connected the dots, then confronted Garp about it when he visited next.
※ Garp doesn't know that Ace is alive prior to his wanted poster, but had heard a rumor of a kid on board Whitebeard's ship. The rumor came later than when he first heard of Ace's incident in Goa though (both did not seem connected), and it isn't rare for Whitebeard to pick up a stray, so he hadn't pressed on anything. He will later confront Whitebeard on Ace's whereabouts in the future.
※ Ace isn't allowed to be off the ship when he was younger in case of any danger from enemy pirates but made a habit of sneaking off on his own without any of the crew knowing sometimes. He'd spend his time in the mountains or making friends with the forest animals (for reasons unknown to him) after getting bored of being in towns. The crew had been lax about the rule until an incident when he was fifteen, resulting in Marco forbidding him from getting in fights for a while.
※ Sabo met the Revolutionary Army by tracking them down. Word of mouth by the marines made the job easier, and he found himself joining after getting involved in a coup of a kingdom in East Blue.
※ Sabo is not the Chief of Staff, nor is he anywhere close to being one at this point in the story. He initially judged Dragon for not being present for Luffy but understands that the risk of being connected directly to the leader of the RA would be dangerous. He'd share letters and drawings from Luffy with him at times, where Dragon would keep them in a drawer despite Sabo's playful insistence that he should pin them to his board.
** This is a personal headcanon but I believe that (in canon) Ace still felt some guilt for not taking Sabo with them instead of letting Outlook drag Sabo back to High Town resulting in Sabo running away and getting blown up by the Celestial Dragon, and that Ace would have resorted to unhealthy coping mechanisms because of it- except, Ace is a fire logia, and he can’t get drunk because he’d just burn all the alcohol away.
In this fanfic I kinda took that headcanon for Sabo and because he’s not a fire logia, he has an easy time drowning himself in his own misery. This gets progressively worse especially after he sails off on his own, when Luffy's not there with him.
(Everything below this was made before I started chapter 2, and they’re all just how I put together my thoughts so I could write ch. 2 & 3)
The Plot (up to ch.3):
Summary; In which I provide you with sea routes?? because why not:
(Kind of a bastardized version of this from One Piece Novel A, where the boss of an island under WB’s territory gets outed for being involved in slave trades.)
** “Feltor” is an island I made up and carried over from the original version of the story, but the region I specified in chapter 2 “Las Camp” is canon and was said to be one of Whitebeards’ territories. “Port Marina” is also made up, except it’s kind of a nod to Port Chibaralta.
Rumour says Feltor has been used by slave traders as a rendezvous point between ships.
Logbook received by the RA from Sabaody confirms that a “merchant ship” from Feltor frequently docks in the shipyard before being sighted near Sabaody’s lawless zone (Human Shop location).
Sabo & Koala go to Feltor to steal their logbook. The logbook records should tell them about the location (slave trader's base / Port Marina) the first ship came from before they transport passengers over to the "merchant ship".
I actually didn’t realize how stupid the route was (like wouldn't it be easier for all of this to be in the Grand Line instead??? ugh) and was too stubborn to change anything, but I got rid of the discrepancies and end up a happy writer because of it yippee ;_;
Of course this isn't all there is to it. I haven't written up the rest so the notes for Port Marina stays in their notes.
(This part is genuinely super self-indulgent. I need to have it make sense in canon worldbuilding and that’s why I write at a snail’s pace orz Moving on - )
Emotional Process??:
Chapter 2 was hard for me to write because I couldn’t keep track of how Ace and Sabo feel towards certain things (their main conflicts, what they wanted to do, what they feared or hoped, etc.), so I made a mindmap of their thoughts about stuff like that:
I tried putting this into text but how I put it [above] was easier to understand 😵💫 There’s a bit of dialogue that’s for the next chapter but don’t worry about that lol. If you can read through my atrocious handwriting then all the power to you :’)
This is genuinely not supposed to be a long fic and was supposed to be 4 chapters long, but that didn't go as planned lmao ⚰️ My target for now is 6 chapters (2 chapters + an epilogue, hopefully).
(If you've reached this far, here's an experimental draft of Chapter 1 that didn’t go anywhere, but I still consider it part of the story):
Eight years have passed since Ace was shot at the age of ten, when he gripped Sabo by his shoulders and told him to be free. It’s been eight years since he had worn Sabo’s clothes to act as a lousy decoy and sailed under his pirate flag - “Just the letter S on some crossbones? Come on, Sabo,” - and it’s been eight years since Sabo’s brother died because of it. Growing up without Ace had been a challenge he didn’t think he’d face. They saw his ghost sometimes, young minds longing for a voice gone too early, and it existed in the forest they used to hunt in and the room Dadan had for the three of them, now two. They seldom stayed in the treehouse anymore- too many precious memories they didn’t dare disturb- but Sabo’s heart was stronger because of it. Colder, sure, but there was something about seeing bent nails hammered clumsily into the treehouse’s flooring and childish drawings on the battered wall that served as a reminder for what Ace had left, and before long, it hurt too much to bear. So Sabo stayed at Dadan’s, and after a while, Luffy followed him too. It got easier to breathe as Sabo got older. Holding on to Ace’s memories and Luffy’s permanence by his side gave him some sliver of strength to continue, and if it wasn’t for them then it was his rage for the world above all else. So he joined the Revolutionary Army at seventeen, and it’s been one year since then and eight years since he’s known hate like he was born out of it.
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The second truth came close to the first; That the world was rotten to its core, and it was why his brother was dead in the first place. Because Ace's death made no sense. He was someone whose dreams were greater than anyone Sabo's ever met, someone who would stand tall and grin in the face of danger, someone who was destined for the world beyond Goa and the East Blue. Ace whispered wishes in his ears, Sabo remembers, to be someone greater than his father. Maybe he can be his mother's pride, too, someone she won't regret giving up her life for. Ten years of living, five years of wishing. A life cut too short. (From Ace’s demise stands Sabo, this turncoat noble, the boy who was handed everything on a silver platter from a young age just so he could shove it all away, and, what, his dream is to write a book? That's all?) Luffy was the one to bring what was left of him back around, in the end. It had been a week since they'd heard the news about Ace, and Sabo had spent most of his time in the forest to think, as he called it. Sunlight pierced through the canopy of leaves above him where he swung his pipe against Luffy's outstretched punch. It made the boy stumble, and soon enough, his arm snapped back and made him fall to the ground. “14 - 0,” Sabo exhaled. The metal pipe felt rough underneath his grip. He was distracted; His mind was elsewhere. “Luffy, this isn't really-” “No!” Came the petulant reply. Luffy got back up as fast as he went down and resumed his stance. “Next round!” And maybe it was frustration, or maybe it was something more harsh, because Sabo could remember throwing his pipe down and sitting cross on the ground instead of parrying Luffy's attack. Sabo ignored how the punch missed him by a whole two inches and how Luffy tumbled forward in surprise because of it. He mussed up his curls instead, and he didn't really get what was making him feel this trapped, this suffocated, but all he knew was that he just wanted everything to stop so he could think. “Sabo?” But he couldn't really ignore Luffy completely, could he? Slowly, the blonde lifted his head up, and through the beaming sun rays piercing through the canopy, Luffy's frown fixed itself like a picture on his face. “What's wrong?” Everything, Sabo wanted to say, but Luffy knew that already. “Just tired,” he said instead before burying his head between his knees. “Oh.” He could feel Luffy settling down on the grass next to him and the boy leaned on Sabo's shoulder like he was worth relying on. “I'm sad about Ace, too,” Luffy said after a beat. The mere mention of their other brother felt like ice nowadays. It froze Sabo, and maybe this was what he feared, this talk with Luffy. “.... I don't think we'll ever stop feeling sad about Ace.” His little brother had nothing to say to that. He only pushed himself more on Sabo’s side. The morning was still young with birds chirping in their homes, and it filled the silence that lapsed in between them like some kind of healing balm. But that wasn’t enough. Sabo knew his wounds, and this one in particular was heavy and deep, something that couldn’t possibly be reconciled in just a week after losing Ace. (And the second truth, really, was that it was unfair of him to blame the world for Ace’s death, when he was the one who led Ace down that path to begin with.) “Don’t you blame me at all?” Sabo found himself asking after the quiet started to feel unbearable. “If I hadn’t tried to leave, he would still….” “Sabo’s stupid,” Luffy said instead, and before Sabo could react in any way to that, “Ace saved you so you can be happy. Why would I get angry about that?”
Aaaand that's it! I really like thinking about this fic! Sorry it's a bit much but thank you for reading until the end!
#AU:desiderium#watch as the post-clarity hits from posting this and i delete everything out of embarrassment#jk. maybe?#looking back on this made me go wtf but i recognize that people actually do like my stuff (bonkers)#so i hope that this is enjoyable to.... at least one person aside from myself#i didn't like how I wrote the draft that I shared but I liked how I worded *some of it. it's still part of the fanfic in my head anyways#portgas d. ace#ace#revolutionary sabo#sabo#one piece au#my art
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awesome games for girls
#rain world#rainworld#that one among us post about hitting each other with chairs#i dont really consider myself a shipper but i do find it funny that at i have at least some hand in starting the artificer / hunter spark#because im sick in the head and all red murder creatures are girls to me#i was a lesbian hunter knower from day ONE#same with arti i sense the vibes like a bloodhound
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dead wife flashback trope but it’s just L during the helicopter scene: straight up giggling under white sheets in early morning, hours before they have to go to work, running full force in the dead of night back from the industrial task force kitchen with stolen snacks, laughing and trying not to trip in the handcuffs. Dusk and the sun is just peeking through L’s hair, and he catches light staring, little ghost of a smirk on his face!!!
#do you see the vision#ugh#I think it’s safe to say the majority of DN nation is tired from the trauma that is the last week of December#myself included#too tired to draw#not tired enough not to keep rotating them in my head#death note#lawlight#January hit me like a truck
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