#itd break him

[shoezuki]

Gepard is a Silvermane so he must necessarily see corpses, horrors every day, every day n every day, like, he spends 6/7 days of the week on the front so he spends his life seeing dead people n things like that so I was wondering l: Geppie can't be sane, it's not possible ?? Even the most imperturbable woman or man cannot stay sane while living this kind of thing all the time, in my opinion he must have periods of acute depression and lots of nightmares n sleep paralysis, stuff like that idk n he hides it or takes loads of antidepressants

What dya think about it

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ur right ur right like no way gepard is 100% ok. i think he like is very fucked up by all hes experienced and he only seems to have it all together cuz like. its how he copes. he avoids the reality of what hes experienced by putting himself entirely into being the captain and not really acting or living much for himself. i imagine that like. he feels he cant fall apart or be impacted by The Horrors cuz hes The shield of belobog. so he puts himself entirely into that protective role both to ignore his own traumas and justify some of what hes experienced. especially in terms of any time he would doubt cocolia or what they were doing like. he was absolutely dodging the cognitive dissonance by just putting himself into being captain and following orders 'for the greater good'

i hc that outside of his job hes basically a mess. a shell of a man. he cant be outside of his job/title much because he cant sleep at night and he gets stuck in his own head. he struggles with taking care of himself or really doing anything for himself

[just-null]

wrestling to be the first to greet you (they broke into your house)

[frostedpuffs]

i need adrienette to be closer than ever actually. they're both traumatized af i want them attached at the hip and a little obsessed w each other. i want them slightly unhealthy and codependent. they've been through so much shit together and now that they have each other i want them to sink their claws in and never let go

[sharpiedoodleee]

need more fics where Ghost is obsessive. where he’ll kill for Johnny, where he *does* and he does it well. where hes fucked up and unhealthy but does it so casually, so without a thought. too used to a fucked up life to know the difference anymore

[neon--nightmare]

dude i have so many thoughts on fresh gaining emotions and how hed be so much MORE dangerous with them than without….. i need to write them down sometime

fresh pre-emotions: murder is unradical bro i ain’t a killer!!! torture is swagtastic as long as i’m the one doin the torture hahaha <3

fresh gaining emotions, unable to cope with anything as he never learned how in his short few years of life, has 0 support system because he’s a torturous parasite who’s whole personality he projects is a complete facade, takes advantage of any deeper connection while seeing it as a weakness/a reason he’s ‘better’ than those he manipulates, and is at risk of being killed or replaced by a “new better” version of himself if he slips up even once or ever shows a hint of weakness: WILL panic, freak out, and try to kill you if you make him feel anything in a desperate attempt to feel in control of himself again and make the emotions go away

he needs someone to help him through it but is so SO resistant to loving and being loved, self-sabotaging every chance he gets until he’s all alone again. he doesn’t want to be happy, and he believes he doesn’t deserve it even without every outside circumstance against him. he’s so tragic and he wears glasses that say YOLO on them

[domesticated-whores]

god almighty (non-religious), i wish i wasn't low empathy. it sucks so much when a friend is not okay but you can't find the right script for how to handle that right now and you can't make yourself care as much as you feel you should. maybe if i was less tired and generally depressed myself, or if there was an active problem that could be solved, then i could actually figure out what to say. i can listen to venting fine, but i'm not about to promp it or anything because i don't really know if it's prying or prompting sometimes.

like, darling, i don't mean to just not answer you but you're clearly in a bad mood and not lending yourself to a normal conversation structure because of it, and i don't know what to say so i'm not saying a damn thing. sorry you aren't doing well, i wish you were and stuff, but i also don't naturally have the pieces that make me able to respond to that shit so i've elected to simply not.

[notpercieved]

Sometimes i think about the fact that Jing Yuan has no one he can lean onto and be completely vulnerable, you know those situations of "i look for an adult, but it turns out im the adult" situations? Thats him

Im not saying he has no companions, he does, old and new, but there always feels like a gap inbetween them, a bridge no one nor him wants to cross, either its from his fear of losing more people in his life without realizing or his title as a general

His position doesnt help him in that aspect either, because if the people sees their leader waver it would shatter the trust, he always has to be multiple steps ahead all the time and put a front that he knows what hes doing no matter if he does or doesnt

Hes not alone, and yet he keeps everyone at arms length, surely itd get lonely eventually?

[thinethorninyourside]

I need more fake dating aus that don't result in them falling in love.

like, fake dating trope except it actually works.

because imagine how funny, let's say, Pandora x Regulus x Barty fake dating would be.

just. the reactions of everyone else. would be so flabbergasted.

even in the skittles alone. dorcas would probably know it was fake dating so she'd be trying to hold in her laughter whenever one of them does something remotely romantic.

and Evan. Evan wouldn't get to know cause of barty. so he would be. so confused. and so scared.

it'd be hilarious

(might lowkey write a texting au of this)

[eggmansplatformboots]

he will not be getting over it

[redux-iterum]

I had a thought, has Fireheart even talked to Brindleface about letting Cloudkit know about his kittypet origins? Fireheart just kind of promised his sister without laying out any groundwork. He never said "I'll talk to Brindeface about it" he literally just "I promise he'll know you". Does Cloudkit even want to know his bio mom? Does Brindleface want him to know? Especially given in her mind Cloudkit *is* her kit.

It's sort of an unspoken thing. Brindleface is aware that trying to hide Cloudkit's origins is going to be an impossibility - his appearance alone would make that difficult, let alone having a kittypet relative in the Clan who's notorious for not hiding difficult truths. She loves Cloudkit very fiercely and considers him her son in all but blood, but she does intend on letting Fireheart reveal that secret to him when it's appropriate. They haven't talked about it much, but since Fireheart's going to be his mentor (as was agreed upon when Cloudkit was brought in), she's willing to let him handle sharing that particular information.

[inamagicalhallucination]

i dont get when ppl say "atsushi would be horrified" at something thats probably just another tuesday for him

[jessenitrogen]

he done got squishmallow'd

[isaacathom]

i have genuinely so many thoughts about how the book Lieutenant Hornblower was adapted and how most of the changes work, when accounting for the fact it must necessarily leave Bush's POV in order to work as television, and how those changes end up fucking over Bush's character in the movies, and how he was further pilfered by the series' decision to maintain characters like Styles and Kennedy. There is so much going on in there. Unfortunately, I don't yet own a copy of Lieutenant Hornblower, and having to constantly borrow it from my library is a faff and prevents me using post its to mark important passages. :(

[thepartyishere]

I've said this before but please consider: transmasc Dazai who wants Kunikida to be his girlfriend but can't have that until she realizes she's a girl. He's getting very tired of waiting for her egg to crack.

[squarebracketsmileyface]

does jay ever get confused or surprised by his own emotions or actions? i feel like its even worse whrn you dont even know why youre acting like this, because you cant explain ky to yourself, let alone other people

I think so. I know he definitely doesn't really realise he's doing some of it in the moment, especially when he's angry. Like, he just lashes out without even thinking about it, then refuses to let himself feel like he's in the wrong in the moment, because that'd mean "losing" in some way, so he usually doubles down. But like, yeah, I feel like a lot of the time he doesn't expect to react as severely as he does? Like, he's fine fine fine fine, until he's not and he just flies off the handle and can't really do anything about it until he's landed again, and then he can start trying to pick up all the pieces, y'know?

He definitely beats himself up when he settles on "oh I fucked up" after he does something (and tries to get Alex to beat him up over it too lmao, uh, anyway 💀) yeah, if you asked him WHY he did something? Chances are he'll bullshit you about the explanation. Like, I feel like hell make it sound like he knows why he did it, but then if you actually start prodding past the made up, surface level shit he came out with, you'd realise really fast that he doesn't know why he did something.

Either that or sometimes you'll get a massive flood of every single reason he can possibly think of for why he did something? Like you know in Sorry, It's Locked chapter three, when Tim kisses him and he freaks the fuck out and runs away, and then after that he kinda gives Tim just this massive flood of every single thing that lead up to that moment of him panicking and trying to run away.

He's all or nothing, 0 or 100, nothing in between. Either he knows every single thing about why he reacted how he did, or he doesn't have the foggiest, y'know?

[doggerell]

anyone else miss their partners ex?