#it's like... i dont even wanna do nice things for her anymore because i know nothing i do will feel as good for her as her own self-pity

[lilsnatch]

yall ever feel the mommy issues cropping up

[crushedsweets]

what do you think natalie and jack interacting would be like or. if they do at all or

jacks the only one taller than nat. ok i have words now

nat and jack met through toby, shortly after she was finally 'released' from the operator.

really it would just be nat and toby talking in jacks cabin, while jack listens. they never spent time alone together UNTIL toby and nat got into this massive argument and went weeks without speaking. this put nat on edge when she was at the barn that jeff usually crashed at, and she ended up also getting into a huge fight with jeff. so now she couldnt crash at tobys or the barn(when jeff was around) because she would get too angry.

so she went to the next place she deemed safe, jacks cabin. he accepted because he felt bad.

it was a really awkward night, but when she woke up jack awkwardly offered to make her breakfast because that's always how he was with his little siblings. she was kinda surprised, asked about it, and he awkwardly told her about how he used to cook a lot. she said smth about 'kinda ironic you dont eat this stuff then' and he just laughed. etc etc and they finally start actually talking.

natalies lack of filter and jack just accepting whatever the hell people say oddly works out...

she stays another night, she cleans up around the place because like. he sort of has like... echolocation and thermographic vision, so he gets around real easy and knows when there's stuff on the floor, but doesnt really see dust and dirt and whatever. he never even realized his place was kinda dirty and gets hella embarrassed and is like 'why the hell didnt anyone say anything' . he cleans a lot more thoroughly now. he gets so upset whenever he remembers all the times toby was there and said nothing LOL

theyre just.... so relaxed around eachother idk how to explain it. jacks always been pretty calm, and only got more quiet/distant after the sacrifice. natalie isnt super chatty but she keeps a decent conversation and he's oddly appreciative of her bluntness.

eventually they start talking about stuff they like. she shares that shes always liked stories, mentioned how toby tried reading to her bc she has pretty bad dyslexia but they thought it was cringe so she started listening to audio books, and jack was like holy crap. WHY HAVENT I THOUGHT OF AUDIO BOOKS. because hes always been a bookworm but cant read anymore on account of... well....

they listen to audiobooks together while doing their own thing. she'll be painting or something and he'll be cooking and it's overall pretty nice.

inevitably she ends up going back to the barn and her and toby reconcile, plus she doesnt really wanna live at jacks cabin cuz she sleeps on the couch and doesnt like to intrude more than she already has. but jack tells her she's always welcome

they never connect on a like, deep emotional level where they share trauma or something, but overall theyre just really good company

[thealtofvalleyxdoodles]

"Tell her her dress is pretty."

You were just an average babysitter. Nothing too grand-sure you loved kids, sure the parents paid nicely-but fucking hell, Joe Graves.

And Sarah-the cutest little thing ever! She's so sweet, little chatter box, sure, but it's cute, you think, hearing her rant about how cool her daddy is, and how he's got some of the coolest friends. When this happened, you just sat there, letting her talk-but one day, it happened in your front yard. So you played with her and her dolls-kinda. She forgot they were there and started waving her armsand hands around as she told a story that Joe told her, one about where had to swim in a big river. "Really, Sarah? Did you daddy say all of that?" "Yeah huh! Yea huh! He's so cool!" Sarah said, jumping up and down on her feet now. You giggled before saying, "Careful hunny. Dont wantcha falling now do we?" And Sarah shook her head. "Nuh uh. That would hurt...hey-Miss Y/n? Why don't you have a husband?"

you ch0oked on your spit. "Uhm-where'd you learn that word hunny?" "Daddy! He was talking his friends about you-" "And I told you not to eavesdrop anymore, Sarah." the gruff voice made the both of you jump. "Joe! Hi! Goodness, I didn't see you!" "I walked," he said simply. "I don't live far anyway. Besides, it's good for my health." You nodded your head, "True." Joe smiled at you, and you smiled back. Sarah huffed before saying, "Daddy! I was talking to Miss Y/n! And you said it's rude to inter-inner...I don't know!" Sarah pouted, crossing her arms over her chest in that cute little way only toddlers could. You laughed and said, "Sarah, calm down sweetie. I'm listening."

But Joe quirked a brow up. "You've never pouted like that before..." he grumbled to himself, watching Sarah go on her little taggant to you. He listening somewhat, but then looked at his wrist watch, "Sarah, sweetie. It's almost time for mom to pick you up." And Sarah pouted-again. "I don't wanna go to mom's! I wanna stay with Miss Y/n!" "Sarah...I'm being called in-you have to go to Lena's." "I'm not going!" Joe sighed and picked up his daughter. She started to fake cry. "Sarah! Enough! What the hell is wrong with you today?"

He felt bad for saying that to her, he knew it was probably a side affect of aging, but jeez...this was bad. You got up off the little picnic blanket and said, "I'm not going to tell you how to parent, Mister Graves...I'm just going to say, maybe it's because she sees how stressed and annoyed Lena makes you-maybe she's reluctant to go with her mother because of this." Huh. Good point-Sarah's was always a Daddy's girl. "Yeah-Yeah maybe..." but his daughter was (trying to and failing) glaring at him. "Sarah. Sweetie. We'll have a talk at home, okay?" Jeez-he already had to pull out the dad talk? ...Maybe Lena was right-Maybe he spent too much time at work and not enough at home.

"Say bye to Miss L/n." "Bye, Miss Y/n..." Sarah said sadly, waving to you even more so. You jutted your lower lip out before saying, "Well-here's the bag of toys she brought, Joe. Have a nice day!" Joe nodded and he took the bag, "Yeah-you too..."

but as he walked away, "Tell her her dress is pretty, Sarah," Joe said, smiling, "YOUR DRESS IT PRETTY MISS Y/NNNN!!!"

~~~~~ 𝕋 𝔸 𝔾 𝕊 ~~~~~

@spicy-seaweed @seconds-over-first @thebunnednun @staytrueblue @writing-with-moss and my backup blog: @valscodblog bc i can c:

[cinnanamii]

Ganjis 3rd year birthday letter and the heavy mischaracterization of the characters in game 3/just ranting about the birthday letter

(⚠️⚠️‼️THIS POST WILL BE DISCUSSING LEAKS/SLIGHT SPOILERS FOR GAME 3 OF IDV!! IF YOU DONT WANT TO BE SPOILED ON GANJIS 3RD YEAR LETTER OR GAME 3, SCROLL AWAY PLEASE! AND ALSO KEEP IN MIND, I AM NOT A GAME 3 EXPERT! IF I GET ANYTHING WRONG FEEL FREE TO CORRECT ME!!‼️⚠️⚠️)

Ganjis 3rd year letter was leaked recently (you can probably find post about it on tiktok and on discord servers) and I am so far beyond unimpressed and disappointed.

To start out this yap session/rant, I’m going to list the characters serial numbers, so that you can know who I will be talking about so that you can get a grip on what I will be discussing.

• 3-1-2 is anne

• 3-?-1 is aesop

• 3-1-4 is ganji

• 3-?-3 is Victor

The fact that netease decided to fill the letter with shock value racism, ruin annie as a character, and just ruined Ganjis character arc, and basically made Victor useless is so BEYOND me. This is a a lot, so I wanna start by talking about the blatant mischaracterization of annie and ganji in this letter.

To start off, they made annie so unnecessarily, hateful and racist towards ganji. It would make sense for annie to be afraid of loud noises, as they did introduce her as a timid woman, but making her afraid of ganji and becoming violent to him because of his accent is so beyond me. The whole reason why annie attacked ganji was originally because aesop manipulated annie into hurting him, not that annie got scared of the way he spoke? Plus, due to her timid and sweet girl type personality i could never see annie physically fighting/attacking ganji, it’s just not something that would happen. How could she ever have the confidence to do that, when she was literally scared of ganji? Then, on top of that, annie wouldn’t be provoked by his accent so easy? In her trailer, she was literally described to be like her mother, who was very nice, that being a trait annie had. So for her to just go attacking him so so EXTREMELY out of character for her.

Then, next screenshot I’m showing right now is the shock value racism randomly put in this for god who knows why?

“unfavorable impression” caused by 3-1-4’s accent? This is so ooc for annie, it feels like a poorly written oc/au. The antagonization of annie feels so unnecessary and just not needed. Game 3 might not have had a Hunter, but it did have an antagonist, that being aesop. The whole antagonization doesn’t feel right for her at all.

Then now, I wanna talk about Victor. One of the main things in game 3 is that they were not able to talk or communicate with each other. if they were able to do that, what’s the point of him even being here if they could already speak verbally? His writing was already kinda not the best, but this entire letter takes whatever relevance he had to the plot away. He needs to get something consistent, or else in this case his character is just useless. It’s completely unfair that aesop is able to get clear motivations and goals, but the other characters goals and aspirations just get handled horribly.

Game 3 was so unique in the way it functioned, and with the characters that were so similar, but so different at the same time. What could have been a group of compelling a deeply well written characters now feel like a dumpster fire or mischaracterization and the severe lack of coherence. All just from one letter too. This feels like a big fat slap in the face for me as someone who loved game 3, and all of the characters for game 3, ESPECIALLY annie, and if you loved game three, also this should feel like a slap in the face for you too.

**im aware that this is a leak, and it could be potentially false, but this has been on my mind practically ever since I heard of it, and everything is just so absurd.**

edit: the letter was updated and changed, a few things did change (examp; annie isnt racist anymore) but that dosent mean I don’t have issues with the letter, I’ll probably make an updated post eventually if people r still interested in this

[lover-girl-estxx]

Your Here

Part 2

*not my gif*

I was shopping for food and some things I haven't gotten from Texas yet for my hotel because as much as Mitch has been trying to tell me the past four days to stay with him, I wasn't ready for it and I liked my own space. "hey Y/n!" I see one of the local old lady's Sue that as pretty much the town mom "hi how are you?" "I'm good what brings you back to town?" "umm-" "is it Mitch?" she smiled and I chuckled "a bit yeah" "he's not with that girl Nicole anymore?" "um I don't know first I heard of her" "oh yeah they were all over town young little thing " "oh i'll have to see" I smiled lightly " okay well I'll see you" "okay!.....thanks for telling me my ex husbands dating someone" I whispered the last part.

I opened the bar door and Mitch was behind the bar talking to one of the girls at the high top, it was packed so I didn't look closely into it. "Hey!" I sat down and he came up to me "hey!" He smiled "which one?" I set two menus in front of him "you made them! Which one do you like?" "That's for you to say I like them both" “Here nicole which one do you like?” he asked the girl at the bar drinking her glassed root beer “umm I like the first one!” she smiled at me “ I think the first matches, they both look great!” I lightly smiled “thanks” she nodded “you gonna stay here for a bit? I’ll make you something ""no,no i’m okay i’m just gonna go back to the hotel ""you sure?” I nodded. 

I got in the car and sighed putting my bag in the passenger seat “so stupid” I whispered to myself putting the key in. It's been years I don’t hold him to anything we had our chance, I want him to be happy even if maybe that's not with me.

I unloaded my bags into my hotel, I got all my good toiletries finally I took a nice shower with everything I needed. 

Haylie <3: hows tulsa?

My best friends from Texas text came through my phone 

Y:its good…just odd i guess

Haylie <3: why's that

Y: he's got his whole thing i just feel like i’m overstepping

Haylie <3: Y/n he doesnt own Tulsa your not overstepping. If hes been reaching out your not k?

Y:yeah i guess i’m just overthinking maybe

Haylie <3: yeah you do that a bit 

I put my phone down tying my robe before hopping into my bed 

Mitch: u wake?

Y: yeah why?

Mitch: i’m at your door

Breathed a laugh “one sec!” I hollered and threw a shirt on and some shorts before opening the door “hi!” he smiled and I chuckled “hey mitch” he held up a bag of food “I brought food” “thanks wanna come in?” I opened the door more and he nodded and set it on the table.

I was sitting across from him eating from the Bred 2 Buck box “why’d you leave the bar the way you did?” “What do you mean?” I asked “you just,” he shrugged “you just did i dont know” he tilted his head and leaned forward “you don’t have to tell me” “that girl? Who-umm who was she?” “nicole?,” I nodded “shes 21 and shes 3 years sober and I’m her leader or I don’t know what you call it” he leaned back “okay….fuckin’ Sue” I whisper “she tell you she was what?” “your girlfriend” “well you do get jealous easily” “do not” I smirked he laughed “yes you do!.. you just were!” I laughed. “Our shows on!” he said turning in his seat.

| Mitchs POV |

She went over and sat in the bed “come on” I took my boots off got in bed next to her, I patted my chest she moved over and laid the back of her head on my chest. "you came to my dads?" I asked she looked up at me then back to the TV she nodded "yeah I did" "why?" "I wanted to make sure you were okay..and I missed you" she shrugged "I missed you too your a hard girl to find" "you tired?" "yeah of-of course got myself right I wanted to...show you I guess" she turned in my arm and wrapped her arms around my waist "is this okay?" "yeah" I said into her hair I wrapped my arms around her "well your showing me now and i'm very proud of you Mitch" I held her tighter "I'm sorry" she looked up and cupped my cheek "it's okay mitchy" she laid her head on my shoulder in my neck her thumb rubbing over my cheek, I leaned down and pulled her legs into my lap pulling the blanket over us.

"hey yeah i'm going to get dressed and head down to the lobby of my hotel cause my friend is still asleep," I hear Y/n whisper as she opened the dresser drawer "okay i'll call you back" she hung up the phone "hey" I rasped "hey sorry" "don't worry about it...do your work in here i'll get out of your hair" I put a hand being my head and yawned "you can stay!" "I gotta set up for the hoedown tonight" "oh yeah that's right" she sat on the bed "which I need a singer and I think everyone's tired of me" "no" she smiled and shook her head "come on your great....please?" she sighed " if wanna stop half way though can I stop?" I nodded and stood up "yeah i'll take over if you don't want to" "okay" "okay?" "okay!" "yes!" I smiled making her blush.

[princessbrunette]

controversial opinion : can i just say that i think topper is actually not THATTTTT bad yk 😭 i know he did some shitty stuffs & i dont rlly like him too for numerous reasons but i'd like to think that he actually has a good heart deep down inside yk. i remember when rafe was drowning sarah , she almost DIED but thankgod topper came right on time . sarah probably wouldnt be alive if topper wouldnt have saved her

maybe he just needed a good partner to fix him up a lil bit .... hmmmmm .....

i mean he might be. it’s all opinion based, and my opinion on him isn’t based on him doing ‘crazy’ stuff cos i mean…. i literally write for rafe ! his vibe just really rubs me the wrong way and i don’t like sarah with him. every ‘nice’ thing he does for her in my opinion doesn’t seem genuine in the slightest, always coming to her rescue as means to put on a display and ‘win’ her because he thinks she owes him something.

even the scene in season 1 when she changes her mind and doesn’t wanna sleep with him anymore and he gets super angry and flips out on her is just a red flag. in my opinion that’s not even something rafe would do bc whilst rafe is crazy he’s not a creep the same way topper is. even rafe is weirded tf out when he finds out topper was tracking sarah that’s how u know he’s a fuckin weirdo. anyway that’s just my take teehee

[star-of-the-underworld]

What Koiyan thinks of campers and vise versa (Cannon Campers) Interview Style

Percy Jackson:

uncle cousin????

he often begs me to make blue food because store bought blue food dont hit the same

tries to do sass offs with kacia but she has disney hades genes so he loses them quite frequently

quite tired of his dumb ass getting into trouble but as he is the protagonist, what am i supposed to do????

i dont interact with him much but hes a good kid

His Thoughts:

Niece cousin??????? the family tree is a circle at this point-

Best. Savory. Blue. Food. Ever.

Why cant their alters let me win a sass off just once 😭

She has contemplated putting a child backpack harness on me because of the shit I do

Whenever someone fronts they look so gods damn cool bc of the main host body and the physical changes are kinda hybrid like are so cool

Annabeth Chase:

shes a nice kid

often too analytical and blunt tho-

one time she said in the most eloquent way possible that i looked like shit and i stayed in my room the whole day bc of that

love you tho girl you the best at keeping this camp together

Her Thoughts:

Koiyan has been at this camp the longest out of all of the campers so she knows some things.

Her alters are pleasant beings.

She’s a bit sensitive, but I think it’s a good trait of hers to get all of her emotions out because of the trauma that caused them to have DID in the first place.

Somehow she can read even though she has the most godly blood out of all of us.

She’s an enigma.

Grover Underwood:

goat boi!!!!

one of my fave saytrs bc the others are creeps to me

sweet boi but he is often weary of me and tries to get out of situations with me in it and it makes me sad :(

His thoughts:

Scariest person I have met.

Their alters are sometimes unhinged and Klee most definitely scares me-

Once, I saw them transform into their headspace self and the crow feathers turned into SWORDS.

HER FEATHERS ARE ACTUALLY SWORDS

SHE CAN SNEEZE AND A FEATHER CAN SHOOT OUT AND TRANSFORM AND KILL SOMEONE.

Cool and scary at the same time so I kinda don’t want them to kill me

Luke Castellen:

Traitor.

but before then, he was a good kid

i mean he had the right idea, wrong execution

he comforted me during the time when i was really feeling down because of a prosecutor doing something.

i just wished he went down the right path

His Thoughts:

I kinda miss them.

Shes a nice kid and her alters are sweethearts, well as sweet as they can be.

The prosecutors are a piece of work though.

Wait what do you mean she has new alters?

WHAT DO YOU MEAN BILL IS BACK???

WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHES NOT FULLY FRONTING ANYMORE?????

Clarrise La Rue:

the fact that i relate to her is scary

we both have negligent dads and we both want them to acknowledge us and be proud of us.

and temper

we both have a temper

Her Thoughts:

Her brother got my dad on his side, respectable.

I don’t know them that well but I have seen her being belittled and mocked for her DID, which she cant control.

I will fight to make her safe because mocking someone for their mental state is not ok.

Niccolò (Nico) di Angelo:

baby brother!!!!!!!!

he is way to self destructive sometimes tho

hes one of dads favorites but i have no hard feelings about it

She’s lying. Shes crying about the fact she will never have the same fatherly love as her siblings do. -Macaque

sometimes i wish he could not look at me with contempt because i was the one that got reincarnated and not bianca

His Thoughts:

I love her but shes annoying

Tried to force me into force me into those slutty outfits and they had to restrain me to do so

I don’t know why she got a reincarnation system

Sometimes I want to find her torch of life and extinguish it for good when she gets too ‘mother-y’ and annoying

I wanna give her light to Bianca

Thats a bit too harsh but I do love her, just, not much

Wait, what do you mean she can hear this?

Wait Koiyan no- I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it-

Percy: I’ll go comfort her if Cory isn’t already doing that yet.

Zagreus: I’ll book another family therapy session again.

Will Solace:

my soon to be brother in law!

me and him have fun talking through our kazoos and trying to understand what we’re saying

we kazooified so many musicals-

His Thoughts:

Kazoo buddy!!!!!

She gave me my hell cat!

She’s amazing and so cool!

I wish Nico could see that in her though…

[wackoffwinter]

i wanna know about the entire cast for the swap au. how would ramona's dynamic with the exes act as?

Ok word vomit incoming. tldr at the end for basics just scroll till you see tldr in blue, the essay is for the real bitches who like lore

Obviously in my au knives takes gideons spot rather than a different ex of scotts like how other ppl do but i decided to make her the daughter of a rich business man (mr.chau) who is gonna pass the business down to her when shes 20 (in my au knives and scott “date” when she like 16/17 like in the books but a good chunk of the exes bullshit + everything before happens right when she turns 19 and she does like. a few chapters into the book and then at the end of the series around the canon gideon scott fight is when shes 20) ofc this also changes scotts age a bit but. lowk idgaf abt him rn hes like 26 at the start or so now instead of 24. roxie and wallace swap place unfortunately, i dont like wallace but i have to put him somewhere. roxie is a semi popular artist and ramona is a mooch who showed up to her apartment after a bad breakup and just never left but they actually have a nice apartment but theyre still in Canada(she drunkenly got on multiple buses and trains from nyc to Toronto at roxies place and survived dont ask how its that white girl swag).

todd takes kims place shocker i know. the twins,todd and ramona all have a band together they replace sex bob omb because they all attend the same college in this au

lucas lee and lisa switch. (yes todd,ramona and lucas beef still happens dont worry)

envy is the 3rd ex and is dating gideon. she has pyromancy psychic powers rather than vegan ones. kim is the first ex still hung up on how scott ditched her in highschool only to find out he was two timing her with lisa. the twins end up. Somewhere. Julie takes one of the twins spots (holly might take the other one. I dont know)

I hate it when ppl age down matthew patel to fit knives’ spot but its also kinda weird because of the whole age difference thing its Odd no shade to anyone who does but it icks me out so im not doing it. Matthew is this guy ramona dates but shes lowk using him for money and cheats on him multiple times (manipulating him to forgive her) before scott is even in the picture.

also in my edit we see she still dyes her hair but she only does highlights and streaks because shes too afraid of commitment in more ways than one.

tbh i need to develop this more but heres the skeleton of my idea also all the exes are friends and often hang out at roxies place but matthew is the last to join them but theyre all friends who dislike ramona lowkey but tolerate her.

if im missing anyone you wanna hear about send me another ask!

TLDR; all of ramonas exes r technically her friends but they do not actually fw like that until the end.

ramona(loser leech)<-->scott(manic pixie dream boy whos life i being tampered with by knives)

roxy->wallace (lesbian semi known artist roommate)

matthew->knives (not aged down,chump being used)

knives -> gideon (daughter of a business man whos passing it down)

todd->kim (whore drummer)

lucas lee->lisa (new actor. Whore)

twins-> stephen stills (in ramonas band)

kim->matthew (first ex)

lisa->lucas (second ex)

envy ->todd(third ex)

wallace->roxy (fourth ex)

julie + hollie-> twins (fifth and sixth ex)

knives doesn't want scott anymore but shes set on making sure he pays for what he did (cheated,lied, used her for money etc)

ty for being interested in my au! idk if im gonna keep doing stuff for it or yk have it as a little side project to keep me busy sometimes! also i did take inspo from other ppl to kinda Frankenstein this together

[ghostsandfools]

(This is a vent post, nothing to see here, move along people, nothing interesting going on I’m just sad again)

I dont like being sad. I genuinely can’t imagine what my life would be like if I didn’t completely mentally shut down every 2-3 days.

My dad has been home for three fucking days and I can’t take it. I hate him so sososososois much. It’s insane how much I can’t stand him-

For some ungodly reason he decided to take a four day weekend when he KNOWS we can’t afford it, and it’s throwing me off. Like, my mom and sister suck too, but that’s my usual amount. I already break down enough with them around, so it’s nice that my dad has a job so he can get the hell out cause he’s the one that makes me feel the worst. But now they’re all home and all getting on my nerves at the same time and I can’t take it.

I don’t wanna be mean anymore. I wanna be a good daughter, I wanna be a good big sister! My sister is only fucking six, but she gets on my nerves SO much, and every time I yell at her I feel so guilty because I know that one day I’m gonna move out and those will be the only memories of me she has and I hate that.

I don’t like being mean to my mom either. She sucks, but I feel like she’s just misguided. Like, if she made some changes she really could be a good person. But idk… I wonder what it’ll take for her to leave my dad. He’s lied, cheated, gambled, they don’t get along, I don’t even think she loves him. I just wonder what it would take. There are a lot of things I think he would do, if he was provoked in the right way, and I just feel like it doesn’t matter what he does she will ALWAYS find a way to justify it. And it’s kinda scary. I’m not very strong, I dont think I could stop him from hurt me or my sister or anyone really… But idk…

The worst part is that I don’t even remember any of it after. Like, I remember TONS of times when he’s belittled me, and lied to me, and not been a good person, but then I’ll try to think about it and I can’t remember. It makes me feel like I’m crazy. Like, why do I hate him so much when I can’t even name any of the bad things he’s done? But I know he has, but I always forget how…

I don’t think any of that was coherent, I’m really trying not to worry you guys too much. I’ll be okay, I may not be physically strong but I am mentally and I’ve got this. I didn’t really give any specific examples above, but I promise you all that I’m safe. My parents are jerks, but they don’t unironically physically abuse me in any way, so there’s no need to get all scared for me. Things are just taking a mental toll on me lately

[acceptingmyowncompany]

Because Who Can I Talk To...

This post has so much potential to be cringe a year from now. Shit even months from now. I need it out of my head though

A friend of mine joked about setting me up with her friend. We met but I didnt really make a move. Too shy. She's cute though. Nice, smart, witty. It became a bit that I thought was still funny despite nothing really coming of it.

We eventually followed each other on instagram, which is good but my friend isn't riffing the bit anymore. A mutual of ours is communicating with me more often than before. Energy is weird but I'm not trying to look into it. Come to find out she likes me and I can't help but feel like thats why my friend stopped riffing the bit and advocating for me/us.

Despite that, the girl and I are kind of... idk playing tennis. Maybe fishing?! Idk the proper analogy. We are posting things kind of trying to bait the other person into interacting with it. I shouldn't say we... EYE, 100% am and she did at least once. Eventually a real conversation starts between us and it's like... legit awesome. Like she's so cool, and we've been thru some similar shit and look at the world in a similar way. I make points and she responds basically finishing my thoughts. Im like wooow we have so much in common. It excites me in a way that I haven't been excited in a LONG time. I think I'm crushing on her now... I can't wait for her to come into town.

She comes into town and I get no sleep the night before. I'm running on fumes. I have no energy to talk to her, to be charming or funny. I'm just listening and yawning a lot. I got her cookies... didnt even present them forreal. She was here for a week and that was the only day I saw her. At this point I'm FUCKING SICK. It's another display of how my friend is no longer trying to help out because she didnt try to set me up with some hangouts. Doubts about her interest because if she was hoping to see me, again you'd think the friend would hit me about plans or invite me over. I dont take initiative. Don't want to be too thirsty. I hold my L and get kinda sad because I like the feeling. I like talking to her, but it's over...

Until... the day after she gets back home, she messages me randomly about One Piece. I'm hype af. She thanks me for cookies, I apologize for zombie. We're talking again. And talking a lot. We are in constant communication. We message everyday. It's not a constant flow but it's fairly steady. We go like this for like a month and some. She's my favorite notification. I look forward to her responses and suddenly they stop. Not all together. The frequency though. A few messages a day to one a day. Now the response coming a full day or two later. Which would be completely fine if like... I didnt see she's been active mad times or when I see her message elsewhere. I'm not mad, but it makes me think.

We aren't anything. She owes me nothing. I like talking to her. Do I like her? I don't have an answer. The level of bothered I am, would imply I do, but it could just be the engagement. The attention. The fact that she activates something in my brain that hasn't been safely activated in over a decade. I don't say this to minimize her impact. I genuinely think she's special. She told me some of her story and I just wanna protect her at all costs even though we're probably not that close. I think she's great but I also still don't know her. We have yet to find a comfortable real life flow. We have yet to establish any sort of chemistry. So it's like cool, yeah we can text and send paragraphs to each other, but can we hold a conversation. Can we go back and forth without prep time?! Until we can properly test those waters, on the phone or IRL then I can't fully say I like her. Just that I like messaging her.

The problem is... does she like me?! Does she like messaging me?! Did her life get busier?! Am I boring?! I don't know how she feels about it. I try to sneak in things in the convo to like indicate I think highly of her, but I get no read on that the other way around. My friend no longer asks about it, or riffs the bit. No convo about us. Its triggering. I was often left on unopened while my friend was texting the girl I liked right in front of me. Her excuse was "oh me and him aren't having deep convo so it's easy to message back. me and you are having more in-depth convo so it requires more thought out answers." The truth was, she was fucking him and they were both hiding it from me and thus TRAUMATIZED. She can do what she wants. She can have a guy in MD, or a guy in her DMs. Again, we aren't anything, but I'd hate to get my hopes up again, just to be being placed on the back burner while she's got other stuff going on. Shits embarrassing. It's easy to feel like a loser and shit.

And so I am at an impasse. I can't be emotional about this. I can't ask for more messages, but I do want more. I want to explore what we could be, even if it's just friends. Just so I can like know its just friends. I want to talk on the phone or play a game where we can use out voices to connect instead of seining one big message a day. How can I do that?! I want to let her know I think she's dope, and I have but she's just kinda been whatever about it. Maybe thats my answer I should probably take that as an answer. I'M JUST TIRED OF HAVING TO PLAY IT COOL. I want to talk about it with somebody that can help me. I wanna be excited about the potential. I wanna laugh with her and learn more about her. I want her to know I think she's cool and I wanna talk about the future together. I wanna do things to connect with her and show her I think she's cool. But then im overbearing. I'm thirsty. I'm doing too much. Scare her away. if she's got another dude she's talking to, im humiliating myself.

I basically wanna embrace that side of life. Intimacy and romance. Connection. I wanna show her my interest and feel her interest. The push and pull. It was cool when we were playing tennis. It was amazing to go back and forth. Idk what to do. I kinda wanna end the convo and she what'll happen. But what if I just hurt my own feelings. How do I pivot the convo we have right now?! I don't know. I've gone crazy and I hate it here lmao.

Anyways, this girls cool and pretty and I wanna get to known her better like talk more intimately and frequently but I don't know if I will or if she even cares to... but I just wish I could be blunt about this thought/feeling. Who know's what'll happen next.

[razberrypuck]

EP 101 LIVEBLOG

john design,,,,, sir where are your teeny tiny little glasses

RRRGHFHDG GILLION HUGGED JOHN THIS IS SO IMPORTANT TO ME HE DOESNT INITIATE HUGS EVER THATS HIS BESTIE

"you took that big daddy blast like a champion" gillion I love you

THE WIZARD

chip being so hospitable while the wizard freaks the fuck out

gillion: jayyyyy gilly has an ask! gilly has a question!

jay, deadpan: uh-huh?

lizzie I love you don't run away from this you mfer

queen <3

JAY GONNA RESCUE GRYFFON

chip: can we please just keep him 👉👈

"DONT make me look stupid silly wizard"

returning the silly wizard </3

alph-atross jsjfkehf

"which I didn't think was a bad plan but apparently I'm just a Hater"

CASPIANNNNNNNNN

"we're not letting that bastard go"

"well they're -- Jay said we're letting him go :/"

"I didn't hurt you. don't talk to me like I hurt you, for one" love u chip <3

caspian <3

"jay's the last fucking person I want to talk to right now" okay but you're the one associated with the murder of her sister, regardless of whether or not you did it. you know. one of two family members that cared about jay. the only reason she left featherbrooke to begin with. not really your jurisdiction liz.

"okay, FUCK you, 'it's none of my business.' like it or not, we're family. bound by that goddamn hole in the sea. talk to me like a person, or you're on your own" CHIP I LOVE YOU

"okay, then yell it at me. say it however you gotta say it-- make me understand why you're acting like this"

"it's me, talk to me." CHIP

oh im so emotional over them

"I'd rather just move forward and use my power to set it all right. because words do nothing but fill fucking dead air"

"no. but I might as well have." LIZZIE YOURE KILLING ME

lizzie: I don't wanna fucking do this right now. I don't wanna do it with you. I don't wanna do it with jay.

chip: tough shit. cause jay heard what she heard, and she's coming. if you talk about this with me, now...

lizzie: you'll, what, mediate?

chip: I can help her understand. but to do that I have to understand.

chip taking nothing but W's today

JSJFJSH HE WANTS THIS PIN SO BAD

DREYYYYYY

kira <3

"friends should not be on different sides" kira 👀?

"you're the last person I wanna fight ever. I'm coming over in peace. also with wizard" jdjdhfh

"I drop him. I don't want him"

WHY IS THE WIZARD SHAGGY NOW JSJFJDJHGUSO

casual conversation on a navy war ship

"kira, I'm...gonna trust you." "that would be nice"

"NAURRR D: WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT???" KIRA YOURE WONDERFUL

KIRA DO YOU THINK GILL LOOKS LIKE A BASTARD LMAO?????

kira being so concerned about jay going to the black sea that she's not even asking why she's a pirate anymore :((((

jayson? taking responsibility for letting the riptide pirates go? and taking off work bc his wife is sick? you're still the worst but this is a slight improvement

"kuba kenta" "the tiger man?" kira <3

RAFT IS THE BEYOND SECTION NOOOOOOOO

KIRA AND JAY I LOVE BOTH OF YOU

jay's so,,,,,, she cares about kira so much dude im losing my mind shes so important to me

"but if I could stop you from going, I really, really would, jay"

GILLION ON HIS GOOFY SHIT

GAVE EARL 20/20 VISION AND THE FIRST THING HE SAYS IS "GOD YOURE UGLY" JAHCJSJFH EARL YOU ARE WONDERFUL

oh lizzie :[

shay :[[[[

oh shit she was picked up by shadowbeard

"he was meaner than rose. strict. but over the years he softened." "but he still saved me. but he still raised me."

SHE MET CASPIAN IN SHADOWBEARD'S CREW,,,,,,,,,

did jayson kill shadowbeard. was he responsible for shadowbeard and bellamy's (ollie's brother) deaths.

THEY MET BC THE NAVY STARTED PUTTING TARGETS ON PIRATES THEY WERE RIVALS,,,,,,,

"she wasn't just some regular soldier, she was different"

AND THEY FELL IN LOVE. AND THEY FELL IN LOVE AND THEY FELL IN LOVE

SHE BROUGHT AVA TO SHADOWBEARD'S SECRET HIDEOUT AND THEY WERE INVADED BY RAFT OH NO

SHE KILLED SHADOWBEARD

"and I begged her not to. he was like my father, as stupid as it sounds." "it's not stupid." FUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK THAT HURTS

THE SOLDIERS LET HER GET CAUGHT IN THE CROSSFIRE???

CASPIAN SAVED LIZZIE MY GODDDD

and raft blamed the survivors.

she was about to kill shadowbeard and the soldiers open fired to get it over with.

"I didn't know you had a soft spot for anybody. I wish I could've seen that more." FUCK OFF CHIP YOURE GONNA MAKE ME CRY

ohhh lizzie :[[[[[

chip I LOVE you chip

"if you wanna do something, you can buy me some time" "aye aye, captain"

"ALSO ollie is shadowbeard's son, I just wanted to throw that out there-" JSJFJEJFHWUDUH CHIP

USING THE LUXBRIS PEARL SHARD TO FIND THE FUCKING PIN JSJJFFHEG GILLION

HE DIDNT WANNA CALL THE GODDESS WHEN HE WAS DYING BUT THIS IS THE TIME HE CALLS HER

HES CALLING THE SUN GODDESS THATS SO INTERESTING

"sort of?" THANKS SUN GODDESS LOVE U

IS THERE ANOTHER CHOSEN ONE

"not really" WHAT DOES THAT MEAN GIRL IS GILLION BOTH CHOSEN ONES? IS THERE NO CHOSEN ONE AFTER ALL? IS THE OTHER ONE OUT OF THE PICTURE?

"I think my will to try to do it from the inside died along with my sister" JAYYYYYYYYYY

"well...as long as you're the one controlling the chaos" "I'll be doing my best" IN LOVE WITH BOTH OF YOU

gryffon supremacy

MARSHALL JOHN HAS THE PIN

CHIP YOU BASTARD JDHFJDJF

" 'okay' I step of the ship and go home" JSJFJDNGGFH

"ARE YOU MY MOMMY TOO, SUN"

CHIPS JUST FUCKING WITH HIM

OHHHH GILLION

charlie: I open it up. what does it say?

bizly: "mommy loves you, too"

charlie: I hold it so fucking close to- I hold it so close my chest, I hold it so close to my chest-

grizzly: this is the saddest thing to happen this episode

gillion, in tears: you don't know how long I've waited to hear those words

"for the first time a parent has ever told me that they loved me" "oh damn bruh"

"just like a paladin to give the glory to a god"

anyway gillion has two moms now <3

"I don't think we'll be able to distract her, she's smart, she'll know what's going on- it just seems like a cruel trick." :[[[[[[[

NOOO GILLION OH MY GOD :[[[[[[[[[[ "no, that makes sense, why would she? why would she?" FUCK OFF

gillion and caspian <3

JDHFJDBVCJ CASPIAN IMMEDIATELY TELLING JAY WHERE LIZZIE IS

understandable jay

gillion fully trusting/being on jay's side is something that can be so important to me.

" 'trust her, chip. [to jay] aim for the hinges.' and I cast guidance"

ANIMATIC POG???????

OHHH MY GOD. OH MY GOD OH MY GOD.

JSHFJDJJE BIZLY AND CHARLIE BACKING OUT OF FRAME

"nobody died."

"that could've gone worse"

"...has anyone seen my pin" JOHN I LOVE YOU

AND THATS WHERE IT ENDS. god that was a good episode.

[skateisawesome]

i hate every aspect of my family!

but mostly i despise my selfish, rude, annoying anf disrespectful sister. i try so hard to be good to her and nice and everyone in my whole family just favourites her. they constantly choose her over me and she treats me in the meanest way ever.

she's my least favourite person ever and i hate that. i wanted so bad to have a good sister relationship and she just cant even be somewhat polite to me ever.

i really try so hard to be kind and nice to her, i include her in things and i share my stuff and i always think of her when i'm buying things or when i'm going somewhere. but not once ever has she returned that favour. ever. not in her fourteen years of life has she ever shown any form of kindness to me.

but its also my whole family. my parents buy her more things, they pay more attention to her. my parents actually love her more.

i hate her.

and my brother isnt around enough to make a difference to our family dynamics so of course he doesn't hate her.

i hate her.

i wish she could just once experience some of the horrible treatment that i get on the daily from my family.

so the story time as to why im particularly angry today is because its her birthday. i really dont like birthdays because mine is right around christmas and nobody can justify spending money when christmas is so close. all my presents are either combined or theyre shit. every year my parents ask what i want and every year they get me stuff i dont want or things that are nothing like me. then my sisters birthday rolls around and they get her everything she couldve ever wanted and then more.

plus my parents really love to get her things that i want. posters for my favourite tv show, records of my favourite singers and stuff like that. sure, she likes some of the same stuff but it's usually something that i love so so much and she only dabbles in.

it makes me so angry and upset. but its her birthday, i have to be polite and be kind to her. i want to scream and cry and yell at my parents "do you even know who the fuck i am? why the fuck can't you care about me"

these people are actually the reason i dont wanna be around anymore.

i hate this shit.

fucking hell i can't wait to move out.

[khaleesiofalicante]

Hi. So something happened in my life and I need a bit of advice. I hope you don't mind. Also it's a long story so if you don't wanna know, it's cool.

I had a crush on my best friend for like 2 years. I never confessed last year coz she was in a relationship with my other "friend"(who was a toxic bitch and a really shitty friend to me. We dont talk anymore and thr friendship is no more there). They broke up and I didn't say anything about my feelings because I knew she wasn't over her ex. Then this year starts. We were friends before but this year we jumped to the best friend train and became really close. At one point, last year, I had tried to confess, but when I was going to do it, she told me of the crush she had developed on one of our classmates. So I had buried my feelings six feet under. This year, we had become closer, and idk the relationship kind of shifted. We flirted once. I kept dropping hints this year. But she is a sort of person who doesn't really express their real emotions and what is going on in their head. Then my other best friend confronted me about my feelings for my crush (at this point I don't wanna confuse you so let's call her S.) She tried to convince me to confess to S but i didn't do it because one I was scared two I didn't wanna get rejected. Also, S dropped news on us that she was gonna leave the school next year and go to another school. Now, that was another clusterfuck of a problem and another reason why I decided to not tell her. Because we only ever met at school. Texted, yes but outside of school we didn't meet. Now, our exams are next week. So we got a study leave from beginning of February as this exam is pretty important. So obviously we didn't meet. We didn't text each other for a week or so but then I texted her about something and the ice broke. Then on we kept texting everyday about small mundane things.

Yesterday,i forwarded her a reel and then we got talking and idk somehow we started flirting,and the entire convo was toeing the line between flirting and light sexting. She jokingly said that it was now proved she could flirt well and me being the idiot I am, asked her did you just flirt with me to prove you could flirt well? Kinda sounded accusatory but she answered she flirted with me because she liked it (incoherent screaming)

And then she asked me if I liked her more than a friend. And i just freaked out because it was kind of known to my friends that i liked her so i just idk blanked out what to say. I regained my senses and asked her if I answered the question, what would happen? What would she do? She said if I didn't like her then it's fine and everything would go on as before. If I liked her, then well, there was a chance of her reciprocating. Anyways, to cut things short now, she also had a crush on me. It was a case of they fell first, other fell later (yes I know it's fell harder but I don't really know that.) So we confessed and we talked for a long time about what we liked in each other, when did we like each other and all. It was very nice. I mean, I was called hot and said to have a cool and hot personality by my crush, I was in heaven.

Even though I'm giddy af and very very elated, there is still the fact that she's moving school. And I don't wanna do online dating. Firstly, because I'm not into it and second there is a risk of us being outed. I told her as such and even she had similar thoughts.

Now I'm confused. What should we do? I like her a lot and want to be in a relationship but its not possible (i know you're thinking she could just decide to not change schools but that also can't happen. It could happen if we were in any other grade but for the next grade, we need to take admission in our school again. It's a thing in India for God knows what reason. And the deadline for taking admission in our school has passed and she didn't take admission so it's not possible) Being in the same school would be the easiest and safest way to be in a relationship. I don't know how to move forward now. I mean we talked today as well about our feelings and other stuff, but how long can we do it? I'm just so confused. I can't just ghost her neither can we not talk about us liking each other. she's already heartbroken at all this. I'm so fucking angry and sad at this situation.

So, this was the story. I know i kind of bombarded you with my personal life but i can't talk to anyone about this. Also, you're very wise, so i would appreciate some advice. Also, life is so fucking unfair. When I said I wanted my life to be like a fanfiction, I meant a fluffy fanfic. Not an angsty one. Serves me right for loving angst. Idk if you managed to reach till here, but if you did, thank you for listening. Even if you don't have any great advice or whatever, I would like a reaction. Because even with the clusterfuck, this is still a happy moment in my life and I'm ecstatic too. I just wanted to share my thoughts with someone.

Again,apologies for the long ask

Hello, love. Thank you for trusting me with this 🧡

Some thoughts about this under the cut:

First off, congrats on finally finding out that your crush likes you back! That's awesome news!

It's totally understandable to feel a bit overwhelmed with everything going on, especially considering the whole school change situation. That's a tough spot to be in.

I’m not sure if the new school is far away. But sometimes it doesn’t matter because I reckon at your age you don’t always have the luxury of meeting up with friends  any time you want (in terms independence/finance etc as adults do) 

It sounds like you both have some real feelings for each other, which is fantastic! But it's also totally okay to feel uncertain about what to do next. It’s so good to know that you are already having honest conversations about what this means for the two of you. That’s a good place to start tbh. Communication is key, as cliche as it sounds.

To be very honest with you, I would never recommend someone, especially a young person, to make decisions about education/work based on your dating life. So, try not to put too much pressure on your friend about changing schools (Even if it is not possible, let’s not get guilt involved here) because the whole this or that is not a decision she should have to make.

If I were in your situation, I would try not to lose hope just yet. I know things would  be so much easier and more fun if you went to the same school, but that doesn’t things are going to be awful now. They’re just going to be different. Online dating (with some meetings every now and then when possible) is not all that bad or difficult - not with all the cools things you can do with technology now - including have movie dates etc. 

But first, I want you to think about whether this is something you want to do. You said you don’t want long distance, so think about how certain you are of that. If you think this is a hard limit, then you need to communicate that to your friend. Maybe the two of you pick this up once you are done with school. It could happen - if you want it to. 

But if you feel like you want to give it a try, I would totally recommend you to do that. This is still a very new relationship and you are still getting to know each other (romantically) so try to not to immediately decide whether this is going to work or not. 

I think most people get stuck with “oh but this isn’t going to work out” and give up before it begins. I personally don’t believe in that. It’s not always easy to find someone you like who likes you back - someone who is a friend too. So, I wouldn’t worry too much about whether it will work or how it will work out. I’ll just give it a shot, enjoy it while lasts, and take it from there. 

It is really that simple - at least from my perspective. 

In summary, try not to put too much pressure on yourselves to have all the answers right away. Sometimes, things have a way of working themselves out in unexpected ways.

Hope you both get through the exams! Sending love! 💖

[avo-kat]

had a productive day at work!

did 0 zero work, but i removed the collar on two tshirts and i researched two things

first, the my little pony that i owned as a kid

after looking through https://www.strawberryreef.com/ im fairly certain that i used to own g1 snowflake:

i know for sure that i had a bright pink pony, white hair, normal pony, so no horns or wings, not a baby, not a bro, not skinny. i also know she didnt look down and had one hoof partially raised (because i loved rubbing that part haha)

i dont remember the cutie mark. so either it wasnt very distinctive or it was rubbed off. i did get her handed down from a nice german lady whos daughter didnt want it anymore. i had her in my 90s, so it was that old at least.

so now i just have to find a g1 snowflake thats affordable and that looks ok. (i know ive seen posts here about restoration but i honestly not sure i could do a good job.)

thats the only pony i owned and i thought about buying just any g1 that i like, but that doesnt sit right with me. i dont wanna start a collection, i just want to my pony, dammit lol.

aaaand i found the polly pocket i used to own:

thats a 1989 beach house with an outside shell design.

i used to play with this for ages, i was obsessed with it, i had so much playing with it. i kept moving the little figure around it and roleplaying in my hand. such fun.

my mother made me give away most of my toys when i was a teen because she deemed me too grown up and i reluctantly gave away toys to nieces and acquaintaces etc. i only kept 2 barbies and one baby doll and im still so mad at it.

i didnt even have a lot of toys! (my brother had way more crap, constantly.) i had a small but curated collection. still bitter lol. dont force ur kids to give away toys.

[yuukei-yikes]

love ur shinaya breakup tbh read all of it and it's honestly accurate i think the screaming match isnt necessarily ooc bc ayano has the capacity to get ANGRY and yell honestly i think it would be more like shintaro raises his voice and then ayano snaps and starts screaming and shintaro instantly is like O_O kind of just freezes bc THIS isnt the ayano he knows (the one he usually sees/i feel like he would know that this part of ayano is a real part of her but he doesnt like it bc some part of him still relies on her to be the usual "ayano" as a form of consistency in his life especially post str bc if ayano acts like ayano then that means things r okay and normal and he doesnt have to think abt the timelines where ayano died and STAYED dead and also specifically ayak) he doesnt know how to deal with that rn so after a bit of being yelled at he basically stops talking and ayano is like WHY ARENT U SAYING ANYTHING and shintaro is just like ermmm well uhmmm which pisses off ayano even more she just starts crying bc she's so overwhelmed and doesnt know what to do with herself anymore and shintaro is awkwardly standing there and then they just dont talk abt it or breaking up but they basically break up after that erm sorry for the long ask

YES YES YES YES YES YES YES god this ask made me so excited i fell off my chair no joke. bc i was reading and i was agreeing so hard i was excited. and i um fell off my chair.

IM GONNA BE HONEST I SAID "OOC" AS SORT OF A DISCLAIMER BC ITS KINDA A HOT TAKE IG.... i was like (looks around) i dont wanna be called out or something. but to me its totally in character. i mean ayano gets angry in canon. i love that its canon that she really plays the nice girl role in front of shintaro (and haruka&takane) but at home with mekatrio we see her a lot more vulnerable/able to be angry.

the way i imagine them is usually ayano ending in tears most of the time but when They Break Up like for realsies it's when ayano is just PISSED. shitshow gone too far mode. and i think it starts off from something completely stupid like always, something casual abt WHY WONT U HOLD MY HAND IN PUBLIC!! like something totally idiotic but like i said in the other ask its just all these bottled up emotions and eventually ayano just fucking explodes lmao. shintaro is totally shocked like u say but i think it's such a relief for him somehow because this is it. THIS is what he deserved all along. THIS is what he's been searching for. ayano being mad at him. ayano making him pay for everything. and he's like YEAH!! YELL AT ME MORE!! I DESERVE IT!!! I CAN FINALLY MAKE THINGS UP TO YOU IF UR ANGRY. and that pisses ayano off even more because WHAT are you talking about??? since when is this about what u deserve?? since when am i some sort of trophy wife you feel guilty for having??? i dont want that!! have you been doing this on purpose!?!?!?!? and she DUMPS HIS ASS

everytime theyve broken up before (on and off slay) it's by shintaro and ayano ends in dramatic tears while shintaro is just like angrily pacing around his room. when AYANO dumps him this time and for good, shintaro is in tears. he's such a mess. takane who's been comforting ayano each and every single time shintaro has made her cry and per her request playing this crazy relationship therapist, goes to her fully intending to do it again. like fully intending to comfort her and talk some sense into her thinking theyre just gonna get back together like always. but this time ayano isn't crying at all, she just breathes in relief and talks about the huge weight she got off her back. and takane's like ...ohhh... this time it's different.

usually, the procedure would be ayano sobbing to takane BWAA PLEASE TALK TO HIM and then takane going to yell at shintaro but this time it's SHINTARO who's like. PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU TALK TO HER.

shintaro on the other hand is such a mess. sorry to bring takane into everything💖 but having him sob in her arms is like the icing on the cake bc his thing with her is not THE problem but one of the (many) problems and shintaro REALLY doesn't learn. he is despaired over ayano and crying on takane again, just like back then. and he loves it in an insane way. because this is so comfortable. this is familiar. it is so so painful. he is so heartbroken but it is so familiar. its not more painful than having ayano by his side because ayano's company terrifies him. her survival is one in its kind in all the timelines, and it has been so terrifying to see something new after seeing the same for so long. especially because the something new is her going out with him of all things?? he has so much regret and self loathing and guilt and FEAR OF LOSING EVERYTHING BC NOW ITS NEW AND IT'S NEVER BEEN NEW AND THAT'S SO SCARY to work through that he cannot enjoy it, he's terrified of it instead and acted the way he did essentially so it'd end the way it'd end. and yeah he's whining about wanting her back and he really does but it's like... you know, the same as back then. lol.

so like ayano, he is also relieved. but in totally different ways. does that make sense. erm. hehe

[staggersz]

What are your headcanons for the girls? Gwen, Amy, and Donna. What's their sexualities? Crushes? Attitudes? Reactions to life post the basement? Anything else you can think of that you wanna share?

i’ve been WAITINGGGGG for this question YIPPEE

Gwen

I feel like she’s only like. Almost a year and a half younger than Finney so she’d be in the grade below him. She’d be one of Griffin’s best friends. She protects him (Amy does also) when it’s just them in 8th grade.

I headcanon her as a lesbian, because she seems like the type to be in a tiny bit of denial, even though she makes her girl dolls kiss. She has a crush on Amy but she isn’t really willing to admit that. (GUYS DONT WORRY. WLW GET A HAPPY ENDING IN THIS AU I PROMISE)

Gwen is really sassy and sarcastic and she’s just winning tbh she seems like the type that would just get up and leave the room if a teacher denied her asking to use the bathroom. Gwen is winning the IDGAF war yall!

When Finney escaped the basement, Gwen was REALLY worried about him and like refused to let him walk alone anywhere like she wants to go with him every time. If Robin can’t walk home with Finney on Fridays then Gwen will walk Finney home first. Gwen is like bffs with Griffin so she learns sign language for him pretty quickly and is always making sure he and Billy are okay at school.

Amy

Amy is around the same age as Gwen, so she’s a bit younger than Bruce. She likes being the instigating younger sister. She’s also best friends with Griffin, but she’s also really good friends with Billy. When Billy admitted to his crush on Griff, Amy was the one who basically told Billy how to impress Griffin and win him over.

Amy is Bi (With male preference) She had a crush on a guy for a bit, but when she got to high school she started having HEAVY feelings for Gwen like she is WHIPPED folks.

Amy is ALSO incredibly sassy like atp her and Gwen are like “they asked for no pickles” and with Billy and Griffin behind them like they’re Amy and Gwen are the two doing the talking. Amy also doesn’t care if she gets in trouble but she still has good grades and stuff. She’s competitive like Bruce but is less cocky. And if she has funny blackmail about the others, she gets them to buy her silence with barbie dolls and/or candy. (Vance and Bruce fall victim to this the most)

When Bruce escaped the basement, Amy was literally overjoyed and so emotional. She was literally so happy that she could see Bruce again. When she was visiting in the hospital it was literally just all tears. She didn’t have to feel like she was grieving a brother anymore. She has her brother. If Bruce has a baseball game, Amy makes sure he has someone with him on the way home. She helps him put concealer over his scar if he wants to cover it. She helps him feel more secure. Amy also got closer to Billy, because they also bonded over a lot of things. (Silly bi4bi bffs!!)

Donna

Donna is Billy’s twin i’m not taking feedback on this they would be fraternal twins. Donna got more of her mom’s traits while Billy got more of his dad’s traits. I feel like her best friend would be Robin (fuck all of the people that say they would hate each other) and she’ll hang out with him sometimes.

I feel like she’d be bi with no preference but she didn’t really know until high school; she was kinda confused when she started having a crush on a girl in her class. In my opinion I think she didn’t have that much of a thing for Finney. (but again thats just my opinion) She told only Billy for a while about her crush since she knew Billy was with Griffin.

Donna is probably way less sassy than the former two! She’s super nice and I will literally hunt down anyone who says she would be mean she wouldn’t have a single mean bone in her body. She’s always doing nice things for the others and she doesn’t judge any of them. I feel like she’d be honest but not in a blunt way, she just is nice about what she thinks.

When Billy escaped the basement and Donna reunited with him in the hospital, she didn’t even try to stop herself from crying. So much had happened since Billy went missing and she felt horrible that Billy had to deal with it also. Their parents had divorced while Billy was still missing, so Donna was upset seeing his reaction to that. It felt odd when Billy was back home for the first few days though; she felt like her brother was frozen in time and just came out with scars. It’s odd standing next to him now when he’s noticeably shorter from malnourishment. She feels like she has a little brother from how childish Billy acts now. But she loves him all the same.