#it's like... i dont even wanna do nice things for her anymore because i know nothing i do will feel as good for her as her own self-pity

[lilsnatch]

yall ever feel the mommy issues cropping up

[crushedsweets]

what do you think natalie and jack interacting would be like or. if they do at all or

jacks the only one taller than nat. ok i have words now

nat and jack met through toby, shortly after she was finally 'released' from the operator.

really it would just be nat and toby talking in jacks cabin, while jack listens. they never spent time alone together UNTIL toby and nat got into this massive argument and went weeks without speaking. this put nat on edge when she was at the barn that jeff usually crashed at, and she ended up also getting into a huge fight with jeff. so now she couldnt crash at tobys or the barn(when jeff was around) because she would get too angry.

so she went to the next place she deemed safe, jacks cabin. he accepted because he felt bad.

it was a really awkward night, but when she woke up jack awkwardly offered to make her breakfast because that's always how he was with his little siblings. she was kinda surprised, asked about it, and he awkwardly told her about how he used to cook a lot. she said smth about 'kinda ironic you dont eat this stuff then' and he just laughed. etc etc and they finally start actually talking.

natalies lack of filter and jack just accepting whatever the hell people say oddly works out...

she stays another night, she cleans up around the place because like. he sort of has like... echolocation and thermographic vision, so he gets around real easy and knows when there's stuff on the floor, but doesnt really see dust and dirt and whatever. he never even realized his place was kinda dirty and gets hella embarrassed and is like 'why the hell didnt anyone say anything' . he cleans a lot more thoroughly now. he gets so upset whenever he remembers all the times toby was there and said nothing LOL

theyre just.... so relaxed around eachother idk how to explain it. jacks always been pretty calm, and only got more quiet/distant after the sacrifice. natalie isnt super chatty but she keeps a decent conversation and he's oddly appreciative of her bluntness.

eventually they start talking about stuff they like. she shares that shes always liked stories, mentioned how toby tried reading to her bc she has pretty bad dyslexia but they thought it was cringe so she started listening to audio books, and jack was like holy crap. WHY HAVENT I THOUGHT OF AUDIO BOOKS. because hes always been a bookworm but cant read anymore on account of... well....

they listen to audiobooks together while doing their own thing. she'll be painting or something and he'll be cooking and it's overall pretty nice.

inevitably she ends up going back to the barn and her and toby reconcile, plus she doesnt really wanna live at jacks cabin cuz she sleeps on the couch and doesnt like to intrude more than she already has. but jack tells her she's always welcome

they never connect on a like, deep emotional level where they share trauma or something, but overall theyre just really good company

[thealtofvalleyxdoodles]

"Tell her her dress is pretty."

You were just an average babysitter. Nothing too grand-sure you loved kids, sure the parents paid nicely-but fucking hell, Joe Graves.

And Sarah-the cutest little thing ever! She's so sweet, little chatter box, sure, but it's cute, you think, hearing her rant about how cool her daddy is, and how he's got some of the coolest friends. When this happened, you just sat there, letting her talk-but one day, it happened in your front yard. So you played with her and her dolls-kinda. She forgot they were there and started waving her armsand hands around as she told a story that Joe told her, one about where had to swim in a big river. "Really, Sarah? Did you daddy say all of that?" "Yeah huh! Yea huh! He's so cool!" Sarah said, jumping up and down on her feet now. You giggled before saying, "Careful hunny. Dont wantcha falling now do we?" And Sarah shook her head. "Nuh uh. That would hurt...hey-Miss Y/n? Why don't you have a husband?"

you ch0oked on your spit. "Uhm-where'd you learn that word hunny?" "Daddy! He was talking his friends about you-" "And I told you not to eavesdrop anymore, Sarah." the gruff voice made the both of you jump. "Joe! Hi! Goodness, I didn't see you!" "I walked," he said simply. "I don't live far anyway. Besides, it's good for my health." You nodded your head, "True." Joe smiled at you, and you smiled back. Sarah huffed before saying, "Daddy! I was talking to Miss Y/n! And you said it's rude to inter-inner...I don't know!" Sarah pouted, crossing her arms over her chest in that cute little way only toddlers could. You laughed and said, "Sarah, calm down sweetie. I'm listening."

But Joe quirked a brow up. "You've never pouted like that before..." he grumbled to himself, watching Sarah go on her little taggant to you. He listening somewhat, but then looked at his wrist watch, "Sarah, sweetie. It's almost time for mom to pick you up." And Sarah pouted-again. "I don't wanna go to mom's! I wanna stay with Miss Y/n!" "Sarah...I'm being called in-you have to go to Lena's." "I'm not going!" Joe sighed and picked up his daughter. She started to fake cry. "Sarah! Enough! What the hell is wrong with you today?"

He felt bad for saying that to her, he knew it was probably a side affect of aging, but jeez...this was bad. You got up off the little picnic blanket and said, "I'm not going to tell you how to parent, Mister Graves...I'm just going to say, maybe it's because she sees how stressed and annoyed Lena makes you-maybe she's reluctant to go with her mother because of this." Huh. Good point-Sarah's was always a Daddy's girl. "Yeah-Yeah maybe..." but his daughter was (trying to and failing) glaring at him. "Sarah. Sweetie. We'll have a talk at home, okay?" Jeez-he already had to pull out the dad talk? ...Maybe Lena was right-Maybe he spent too much time at work and not enough at home.

"Say bye to Miss L/n." "Bye, Miss Y/n..." Sarah said sadly, waving to you even more so. You jutted your lower lip out before saying, "Well-here's the bag of toys she brought, Joe. Have a nice day!" Joe nodded and he took the bag, "Yeah-you too..."

but as he walked away, "Tell her her dress is pretty, Sarah," Joe said, smiling, "YOUR DRESS IT PRETTY MISS Y/NNNN!!!"

~~~~~ 𝕋 𝔸 𝔾 𝕊 ~~~~~

@spicy-seaweed @seconds-over-first @thebunnednun @staytrueblue @writing-with-moss and my backup blog: @valscodblog bc i can c:

[yelenasgirl]

I cant think of anything different for Jackie as an ask but i would like to hear your take on her character. Maybe bless us with a character analysis???

ahhh okay!!! i have so many thoughts on her!!!! for starters, i wanna talk about why i think some ppl in the fandom hate her sm cause ive never seen anyone whos neutral on her tbh like either ur a jackie anti or a jackie stan theres no in between.

i see a lot of people using the fact that her only crime was being a teeanage girl as an argument to defend her and while i wholeheartedly believe that, i think that’s the exact reason why people dislike her. i think a natural instinct that viewers have when watching a show is to take the sides of the "heroes." people usually root for the people with the best moral code (which is why nat is so beloved, besides the fact that she's hot asf). but in a show based on survival, where morals for the most part go out the window the second everyone is stranded in the wilderness together, nobody cares if you're the realest or the more relatable. in fact, i think in a show that is based on things that are highly unlikely to happen/deals with topics outside of everyday things, you're more likely to prefer characters that aren't real. in stuff like yellowjackets, people want the batshit crazy ones. they want the cult leaders and the butchers and the psychopaths. its made very clear that jackie isnt any of these things. you dont go into a show about cannibalism and murder and survival and think of a character like jackie. 

she's not the typical final girl. shows like these make you want to root for actively seek final girls. so of course, most people aren't going to gravitate towards jackie. i think ive seen maybe two people aside from myself on tumblr who jackie is their number one character and theres a reason for that. shes simply not what most yellowjackets viewers are looking for.

also, shes just a girl trying to fit into society and doing a pretty damn good job at it, at least on the outside. i think that’s another part of the reason she has so many antis, because 99% of the people want to fit in one way or another but if you’re getting seen/treated as an outcast, of course you’re going to envy the cool, popular girl. it would be another story if she was bitchy and mean but the fact that she’s so nice probably bugs people too without them even realizing it. sorry, but it’s the truth - people hate girls who are pretty and kind. jackie is that.

now, im not saying she’s perfect whatsoever, she has several flaws, she can be super vain and demanding sometimes, and even bossy, although i do believe a lot of that comes from obliviousness and compulsory heterosexuality (which, i won’t get too into cause i feel like a lot of people have already talked about it).

now, for a character study i think her defining trait is her popularity which is insanely sad, but also, its true. you see that she only knows how to be a cool, popular high schooler and the second all that doesn’t matter anymore, she doesn’t know what to do with herself. there’s a mitski songs with the lyrics “if i gave up on being pretty i wouldn’t know how to be alive” and i think that describes her perfectly. in a time and society where everyone has a public and a private side, and i think spent so long crafting ‘public jackie’ that she forgot how to be ‘private jackie.’ she spent so long trying to be a pretty girl that she forgot how to be just a girl.

i also think a reason that she was so kind to misty - outside of her just being a kind person - is the fact that jackie saw herself in misty. while i don’t think jackie was ever unpopular, i don’t personally believe that was always as cool and charismatic and we see her in high school. i think she was always charming to a certain extent, but i truly think entering high school she went the extra mile to become beloved and popular. misty was trying to do the same thing as jackie, she was trying so hard, and as much as i love misty, she was failing. jackie felt bad for her because she knew, not so long ago, she was kind of similar to her. jackie was also trying too hard. i saw an ella purnell interview where she said that sometimes she (ella) forgot she was a person, instead of a brand and i believe jackie resonates with that. she forgot she was a person, not just a popular girl.

she forgot who she actually was outside the makeup and the smiles and the perfect girl persona so much so that when the plane crashed, she didn’t know how to be. because while the other girls slipped out of their public image, jackie didn’t know who she was outside of her public image.

it got so bad that i don’t even think shauna truly loved her. shauna, who just wanted what was best for her best friend. shauna, who never really wanted jackie to die. shauna never really loved her, because shauna never really knew her. we see loads of bunnies around adult shauna’s house, when in reality, we know jackie hated bunnies. even shauna only saw the idea of jackie that she showed people, and that’s not shauna’s fault by any means, but it just goes to show that jackie never really let anyone in.

i think the most tragic thing about jackie by far, is that, ultimately, she just wanted to be loved. and she thought that by putting on this whole facade of having her life together and being the cool, hot soccer captain, people would appreciate and love her. but she mistaked being loved for being admired. and, as sad as it is, i think jackie died without anybody truly loving the real her.

tysm for the ask @yourlocalsaiko

[cinnanamii]

Ganjis 3rd year birthday letter and the heavy mischaracterization of the characters in game 3/just ranting about the birthday letter

(⚠️⚠️‼️THIS POST WILL BE DISCUSSING LEAKS/SLIGHT SPOILERS FOR GAME 3 OF IDV!! IF YOU DONT WANT TO BE SPOILED ON GANJIS 3RD YEAR LETTER OR GAME 3, SCROLL AWAY PLEASE! AND ALSO KEEP IN MIND, I AM NOT A GAME 3 EXPERT! IF I GET ANYTHING WRONG FEEL FREE TO CORRECT ME!!‼️⚠️⚠️)

Ganjis 3rd year letter was leaked recently (you can probably find post about it on tiktok and on discord servers) and I am so far beyond unimpressed and disappointed.

To start out this yap session/rant, I’m going to list the characters serial numbers, so that you can know who I will be talking about so that you can get a grip on what I will be discussing.

• 3-1-2 is anne

• 3-?-1 is aesop

• 3-1-4 is ganji

• 3-?-3 is Victor

The fact that netease decided to fill the letter with shock value racism, ruin annie as a character, and just ruined Ganjis character arc, and basically made Victor useless is so BEYOND me. This is a a lot, so I wanna start by talking about the blatant mischaracterization of annie and ganji in this letter.

To start off, they made annie so unnecessarily, hateful and racist towards ganji. It would make sense for annie to be afraid of loud noises, as they did introduce her as a timid woman, but making her afraid of ganji and becoming violent to him because of his accent is so beyond me. The whole reason why annie attacked ganji was originally because aesop manipulated annie into hurting him, not that annie got scared of the way he spoke? Plus, due to her timid and sweet girl type personality i could never see annie physically fighting/attacking ganji, it’s just not something that would happen. How could she ever have the confidence to do that, when she was literally scared of ganji? Then, on top of that, annie wouldn’t be provoked by his accent so easy? In her trailer, she was literally described to be like her mother, who was very nice, that being a trait annie had. So for her to just go attacking him so so EXTREMELY out of character for her.

Then, next screenshot I’m showing right now is the shock value racism randomly put in this for god who knows why?

“unfavorable impression” caused by 3-1-4’s accent? This is so ooc for annie, it feels like a poorly written oc/au. The antagonization of annie feels so unnecessary and just not needed. Game 3 might not have had a Hunter, but it did have an antagonist, that being aesop. The whole antagonization doesn’t feel right for her at all.

Then now, I wanna talk about Victor. One of the main things in game 3 is that they were not able to talk or communicate with each other. if they were able to do that, what’s the point of him even being here if they could already speak verbally? His writing was already kinda not the best, but this entire letter takes whatever relevance he had to the plot away. He needs to get something consistent, or else in this case his character is just useless. It’s completely unfair that aesop is able to get clear motivations and goals, but the other characters goals and aspirations just get handled horribly.

Game 3 was so unique in the way it functioned, and with the characters that were so similar, but so different at the same time. What could have been a group of compelling a deeply well written characters now feel like a dumpster fire or mischaracterization and the severe lack of coherence. All just from one letter too. This feels like a big fat slap in the face for me as someone who loved game 3, and all of the characters for game 3, ESPECIALLY annie, and if you loved game three, also this should feel like a slap in the face for you too.

**im aware that this is a leak, and it could be potentially false, but this has been on my mind practically ever since I heard of it, and everything is just so absurd.**

edit: the letter was updated and changed, a few things did change (examp; annie isnt racist anymore) but that dosent mean I don’t have issues with the letter, I’ll probably make an updated post eventually if people r still interested in this

[luvstappen]

ma’am i apologize for the following rant but... OH MY FUCKING GODDDDD???!! i went crazy reading “because lando loves me and i should be able to love him back the way he deserves but i dont think i do” and then her and p talking about her feelings as if all she’s going through is because ‘she doesn’t love lando like she thought she did’ or how she tricked them or that her feelings changed bc people change and that’s okay………….. but neither of them actually mentioning that maybe she doesnt love him anymore bc HE doesnt love HER the way she wanted him to love her??? like he doesnt treat her like she wants to be treated and thats why she started growing distant and questioning what they had in the first place. its not just like “oh i have him and now i dont want him anymore”. it’s actually like “oh i have him and i think i deserve better than this”. and i know it isnt p’s fault bc she doesn’t even really know whats going on she’s just being supportive of yn i know i knowwww!! it’s just frustrating bc honestly there’s not one single bit of yn and lando’s messages that make me feel sorry for him bc that’s textbook manipulative and abusive relationship (when a guy hurts you and then he’s all nice and cute and makes you feel like he’s gonna be different now but actually he hurts you again and then he’s nice and cute again and full circle over and over again and AGAIN and it just never ends).... so yeah that whole conversation drove me insane as you can see lmaooo 

but that all being said nessie im trusting you with this of course <333 so this is my intense annoyed reaction to this part but deep down there’s nothing but love for the story and also hope that things will work out in the end. rn tho i just need someone to talk yn into senses pls like idk i just wanna text yn myself i think lol

in the first draft of the conversation, she was actually supposed to mention that! that she doesn’t like how their relationship actually feels, how it’s not what she wanted, but in the end, i felt like her blaming herself made more sense for where she is mentally right now :) oh and also thank you <3

[dontdoxarya]

Growing causes so much fucking pain.

To be clear I’m not talking about growth coming from painful experiences of heartbreak. No. It’s not about how your ex made you learn something about yourself. Or how you snapped at your favorite person; lost closeness to them. Then felt horrible.

I’m talking about how the results of growth themselves cause a unique kind of pain.

I still remember being a kid. I was so depressed. So hollow. So empty. My friends couldn’t hurt me. Why? Because I didn’t open up to them. The closest thing to being hurt by people I got was being bullied and abused. So I told myself that loving someone would be perfect. Only a perfect person could ever care about me. If someone was good to me; were unlike those that attacked me. They must be an angel.

But then I found myself in a trap. Every time I interacted with nice people? I started to feel shitty. I got so jealous of other people. Got so scared of losing them. That as fast as I met them; I’d lose them. I’d get too obsessive. So our relationship never grew. I thought that was painful. It was worse.

Being hollow sucked. But it was the weirdest form of safety. I could assure myself no one would ever like a horrible person like me.

I thought the obsession I had in the past was real care and love. But it wasn’t. I loved the idea of them. I never knew THEM so it never was a lost of someone I truly KNEW. That’s when I started having more real relationships with people and that brings a brand you brand of pain.

You know love someone for who they are. But it means learning to find peace with flaws. But more importantly conflict and bad moments.

“I know she loves me. She’s just busy.” Hurts way more than “she doesn’t love me anymore.”

The belief that someone has stopped liking you. But more importantly that good ol’ rage. “I hate her. She sucks. We were never friends. She abandoned me.” It’s a fucking cocoon. You aren’t feeling a single thing grounded in reality.

Learning that your friends can love you to bits? But still have a life outside of you. That hurts like hell. No one is coming to fix you. No one can save you but yourself.

You wish your friend texted more? Or made more plans? Maybe it’s just not her style of communication. Or maybe she has a lot going on emotionally. Dafuq you gonna do? Stop loving her?

Nah. You are gonna have to sit with that pain. No hiding behind externalization. No ignoring what you feel. You aren’t going to pretend it is a comment on you.

SIT THERE

BREATH IN THE DIALECTICAL THOUGHT

OH! YOU GOT INTO A FIGHT?

IS SHE A TERRIBLE PERSON?

DO YOU REALLY HATE HER?

WAS SHE ACTUALLY TOXIC?

no…

DO YOU STILL LOVE HER?

ARE YOU HAVING A TRAUMA RESPONSE?

IS SHE TO BE HELD RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR TRAUMA?

IS SHE ACTUALLY EVIL? OR ARE YOU JUST UPSET

DO YOU STILL CARE ABOUT HER AND LIKE HER AND WANT HER IN YOUR LIFE?

WOULD YOU REGRET BURNING YOUR BRIDGE WITH HER?

Yes

THEN LIVE WITH THAT HURT MOTHER FUCKER.

DO WHAT YOU CAN TO STABILIZE

DONT LET YOUR LACK OF EMOTIONAL REGULATION HURT HER

DONT LET IT HURT YOU

Fine

WANNA HEAR THE REAL KICKER?

IF YOU CAN LOVE HER EVEN THROUGH A FIGHT?

MAYBE SHE CAN TOO.

MAYBE SHE DOES.

Your ass isn’t gonna get abandoned for not being perfect.

Not because she is perfect. You dumb shit.

If you. The person who vilifies yourself. Hates yourself. Is always terrified. Always worried they’ll burn bridges.

If your dumbass can do it.

SHE CAN

YOU WERE THE ONE WHO SAID SHES BETTER THAN YOU. NOT ME

If her imperfections don’t make you hate her. Than your imperfections don’t make her hate you.

DUMBASS

I am not allowing you to mask your own pain and trauma behind hurting your loved ones.

I am telling you to sit with and process that pain on your own.

DO NOT LET IT RUIN SOMETHING THAT BRINGS VALUE TO YOUR LIFE.

DUMFUCK

That’s the thing. Growing means learning to sit with that pain. Learning to trust things. Learning to have things that you value and fear losing them.

You don’t trust them because they are perfect. You trust them because it’s all you can do.

Growing means opening up yourself to the potential of being hurt. Because being hurt by someone you trust…. Is better than being hurt because you hurt someone you SHOULD HAVE trusted

[mariailoveyou-guerin]

second watch #wot

the way Perrin remembers everyone beliefs and says it back to them

not the aiel girls being weird acting like men (basically doing that thing they do) no girls where’s the respect?

also them calling him a coward will never not make me question the aiels bc yall are the oath breakers how do they think they become aiel don’t they tell them about what happens in rhudian once they learn about their history dont they let their people known or even just soilders

Not Alanna and Maksim using humour to try and hide the fact they scared well not really scared but still I love them!

the two rivers longbowers are known to be legends!

not the people making Perrin a flag out of anyone he’s the last person in the world who would ever wanna be a fcvking symbol and be called lord it psychically makes him hurt inside and you can see it!

Now that I’m watching again Perrin is so funny with his distain in and eye rolls 😂 and Faile being the perfection she is and has always been

the way he just understands everyone and is always respectfully of their beliefs even tho Dani’s is very much questionable 🤨 the whole k1lling of witches thing!

she went to far faile

not him trying to send her away because he cares about her!

not the girls trying to save Loial life but did not gaf about Mat almost getting speared😂 the aiels love honour down!

The woman circle is THEM!

‪I guess chiad and Bain don’t think aram is coward anymore bc he used a weapon to defend that baby and he stays and their also staying i wonder if Alanna would try bonding him now! like where was that whole bonding thing i wanted to see it play out especially after her loss 😔 ‬

one thing about Perrin he’ll have the most believe in Mat and be so proud of him and scream about him being his bestie 😔 since ep1 he was so firm in believing he was dragon meanwhile everyone was like it’s not him! then him bragging about Mat being his friend to faile now this

showing and telling his sisters what a hero he is, he was even saying how he’ll follow Mat anywhere I wish Mat knew this fr! bc that man looks down on himself and needs someone to let him know he’s awesome! Even tho nyn tries and min has shown it!why won’t it sink in on them both

‪wait the actress for his sisters are actually twins or just sisters? their name shows up ‬

chiad bain are so funny (glad they are okay and no one got hurt and everyone alive and Loial is back home in his stedding exactly bc he’s just fine resting writing his📕on Perrin)😂why are they making all that noise bc Perrin said the tuahtan are fast like we get it yall fast too!

I need a full version of Perrin singing the song, it was so Perrin he’s not a man of big speeches nor does he think of himself as leader so this was perfect just pure heart for his people is so Perrin #wot

also I need Marcus singing the full song his voice is so good , why is he such a good singer is there anything he can’t do? His deep voice so nice

Not valda gone 😔 you will be missed I knew he would be because I liked him and his de*d being again very horrible yeah it’s very interesting indeed #wot

and aram my poor baby, at least his grandma wasn’t as cruel I hope not! I doubt it that woman is so pure! but I dont get it didn’t he say some of them pick arms and then comeback so why can’t he just go back to them after he picked arm once? #wot they have assassin in their group

like they made a mistake why can’t they go back in? Or is it bc he’s the grandson of their chief? If they can allow former k1llers why can’t they let aram back inn? he didn’t do it to protect himself but the baby? there most be some way! His poor heartbroken face seeing his 👵

‪poor aram his eyes the what he dropped the sword seeing her it’ll haunt him so bad! ‬

‪it hits everytime and even more so now second time that “EVERYTHING” he loves his people damn ‬

‪what a badass couple, the team he makes them get out of balance and she finishes them off so they can’t get back up! that’s what we call a team ‬

what a trio actually, Dain should’ve just helped from the start like we all knew he was gonna, cuz Perrin reminded him of the man he and his father were deep down but he had lost it along the way!

‪Where’s their home, I wonder where he took Perrin? What’s this so called injustice? who’s gonna hold him accountable and give him punishment for his injustice? ‬

‪feel they could’ve let Alanna have more fighting she’s crazy good+ she’s battle ajah it made more sense then what they gave mo blue who aren’t big fighters like green ajah in s1 but guess they needed to show aes sedai power to the full and this is two rivers time to shine #wot ‬

‪Padan fain they can’t make me hate you even tho today you was testing me! If bad why so good at it? ‬

‪faile looks so good this shot her screaming k1ll him my HOT wife‬

those boys look up to him and that forehead thing so beautiful I’m crying again 😭😭😭😭 why are my eyes red and puffy over a fantasy show ep that’s crazy! #wot

‪the way he just threw away the hammer like he’s not solider he’s not someone who picks arm lightly fighting is just a necessity to keep the people he loves and cares for safe 😭😭😭 , That’s why Ila thought he would join them she could tell he was way of the leaf person #wot ‬

‪why am I crying I don’t get it bc Loial is safe everyone is good I have no reason to be crying except aram and illa + Perrin guilt over his people bian chiad saying their goodbye to Loial who is fine btw) but besides that no rzn to cry! Such a heartbreaking ep so much loss 😭😭😭‬

[fairytaehl]

lgief rewatch ep. 1

okay so i wasnt able to stop myself from immediately discussing ep 4 here and ep 5 here and here because the festival is my favorite part of the show.

but ill now be starting from the beginning because i love this show and wanna discuss my personal favorite moments from the episodes!! im not much of an analyzer but i may say a few things here and there...

ep 1 / ep 2 / ep 3 / ep 4 pre-festival / ep 4 festival / ep 5, 5 part 2 / ep 6 / ep 7 / ep 8 / ep 9 / ep 10

where do i begin?! skipping past the first part where we're introduced to miaomiao and the her being struck by lightning and all (which was hilarious) let's get into how CUTE she was waving hi to fuyi!!! i fell in love with her smile asap (as someone who never saw esther yu before.)

what's extra hilarious is the cheering scene, and ill bring this point up again later, but the way she GOES for it, arms linked and all... oh, shes a drinker. in the real world, shes definitely able to outdrink someone.

and i just wanna say they made yao look SO cool on her entry!!! i love her weapon, shes so sick. what a scene!

the fight scene is neither here nor there for me, except for the fact that i felt like the glass pieces kept getting further away and then closer when required, LOL. the continuity was not there. love how ziqi comes in like goku, and never does it again in the series (i dont think?) amazing work. but he looks so hot stalking up to the mirror demon, uncaring about her threats. how'd they get out? what happened to them after that big fire blast? who knows. theyre fine. but heres the first shot of our ziqi being overprotective of yao!! goooood the sister dependency is such a character flaw for you my baby.

rolling his eyes at fuyi being so righteous, and then... dont touch my a'jie. the way his hair is blowing in this scene is phenomenal. credit to the fan making him even more gorgeous while all he's doing is staring at his sister. (ding yuxi has no bad angles and a handsome face coupled with amazing acting skills and weirdly great at intense staring.)

bombastic side eye.

but really appreciate the way we have scenes of how the novel went, seeing esther portray the serious and selfish lin yu is a nice look and so different from how miaomiao is. i didnt read the novel, not that i imagine the drama would follow the same plot, but i wonder how long the demon catchers had been with her for ziqi to see lin yu the way he does.

and, i love how miaomiao visibly shakes after remembering the way the marriage goes between lin yu and mu sheng in the book. girl, id be feeling just as shaken up.

ahhh glaring at her because she touched your sister and you think she has malicious intentions.

can i just say fuyi looks absolutely gorgeous here... literally handsome. breathtaking. i love the little detail with the cloth? streamers? folded over in his hair.

and lmaooooo again, cant let her rest, just have to let her know you do not like her.

im crrrryinggggg. "a'jie, are you okay?" / "i'm fine." "but i'm not :(((((" hes such a baby! yao scolding him is too funny. he obviously wants her attention, still so used to being treated as her precious little brother, but she draws her lines when he starts throwing tantrums. im not including it, but the line where he's dissing fuyi and goes as far as to say, "he even found a woman to marry" as if it wasn't for the purpose of capturing the demon!!! oh ziqi logic fails you when youre angry.

same, miaomiao...

god, this is so funny. you can tell how shes like in the real world. total fangirl and shipper, its beautiful. shes really one of us. also, youre not the supporting lead actress anymore! this is officially your novel, you just dont realize it yet.

love to again, see ziqi give her a look, cause thats all he can do when his a'jie is already berating him.

reblogged version with extra comments here

[superdeluxeaverage]

Am going to be thinking abt my ex friend (might even cry abt it in the near future) but it will be for the better cause i think its safe to say like i finally got closure n whatever existed between us is gone. Literally like an hour after i realized it would not be good for me to try to meet up or anything like that since i already said everything i needed to say she responded to my message asking if she still wanted me to send her my music to her phone number n she said itd prolly best if we didnt take the communication over to there and that she wouldnt anymore miscommunications it does suck that i had to misread that number tho its prolly for the best tbh like so i could get it all out like that but i dont know i am gonna be sad abt it in a weird way. I feel a kinda heavy feeling in my heart i dont kno how im gonna feel in a week from now and i kinda wonder if im gonna wanna hang w/ my friend when she gets back cause i might not be down if im still sad but its nice to have this kinda sadness w/ me tbh like a reflective one i can rly sit with. It doesnt make me feel weak or walked all over this time but honest because i do have things to be way more happy abt my coworkers are awesome n all like me and mt friend is awesum n we both have that drive n urge to make music and be in a band lol. And then aside from that i enjoy my solitude my private time <3 :)

[princessbrunette]

controversial opinion : can i just say that i think topper is actually not THATTTTT bad yk 😭 i know he did some shitty stuffs & i dont rlly like him too for numerous reasons but i'd like to think that he actually has a good heart deep down inside yk. i remember when rafe was drowning sarah , she almost DIED but thankgod topper came right on time . sarah probably wouldnt be alive if topper wouldnt have saved her

maybe he just needed a good partner to fix him up a lil bit .... hmmmmm .....

i mean he might be. it’s all opinion based, and my opinion on him isn’t based on him doing ‘crazy’ stuff cos i mean…. i literally write for rafe ! his vibe just really rubs me the wrong way and i don’t like sarah with him. every ‘nice’ thing he does for her in my opinion doesn’t seem genuine in the slightest, always coming to her rescue as means to put on a display and ‘win’ her because he thinks she owes him something.

even the scene in season 1 when she changes her mind and doesn’t wanna sleep with him anymore and he gets super angry and flips out on her is just a red flag. in my opinion that’s not even something rafe would do bc whilst rafe is crazy he’s not a creep the same way topper is. even rafe is weirded tf out when he finds out topper was tracking sarah that’s how u know he’s a fuckin weirdo. anyway that’s just my take teehee

[jameslongforjimshortforgabriel]

so i got these matching necklaces a few weeks ago for this guy who i thought i liked (im pretty sure it was just platonic love) for valentine's day, but now i genuinely have a crush on this other girl (like BAD im down BAAADD) but its kinda e-dating situation rn (she likes me back btw teehee). so i thought i should give the necklaces to her (lets call her beans) rather than to the other guy (lets call him rice) but then i was like no thats kinda rude like i initialy got those for rice like even if beans never finds out ill always know those were initially for rice like it doesnt seem right. so i was like ok i can give them to rice then, as a friendship thing. but he just asked me whats my favorite pastry which leads me to think hes gonna get me something for valentines (i got him something very nice for christmas and so did he to me. also in one of the drawings he gave me it had a quote from hannibal about love. which makes me specualte that he likes me) so if i give him the necklace hes gonna think i like him back. and if it comes to that conclusion im gonna have to tell him i dont like him and hes gonna hate me and were not gonna be friends anymore and i DONT WANT THAT bc hes literally my best friend. also theres the possibility that he doesnt want me and if i give him the necklace hes gonna think i like him. but also what if he does give me something for valentines and i dont give him shit like that'd be so cruel. and theres also the possibility that i dont even see beans for valentines because we havent even made plans or anything BECAUSE I HAVENT ASKED HER TO BE MY VALENTINE yet and its all very confusing so what should i do

and the thing is i DID have a tiny big crush on rice for a little while so i acted like so (thats why i gave him the christmas present) so itd be very mean to do all that just to end up not liking him. but the thing is i already did all that theres no going back i can only change what i do NOW. (btw rice is kinda super younger than me (2 years (so not that much but still)) but he skipped a grade so hes mentally older i guess?? so i dont wanna act like a predator too btw) and also beans' birthday is literally 6 days after valentines what the fuck what am i gonna get her HOW am i even gonna give her anything

[moominvalley-state-of-mind]

Hellllloooo!!!!

[This blog is not spoiler free!! Alot of my interests are kinda old / already over, but for the newer ones and the ones that r still going, I'll put warnings!]

DO NOT INTERACT IF U ARE :

a TERF or homophobe

a prosh1pper

racist or sexist

abelist (im litterally autistic lmao why r u here)

Name: any part of my tag - people have called me moomin before, so ig let's go with that until I find one that I like better :]

Pronouns: she/her/hers

Age: minor!! don't be a creep!!

Sexuality: bisexual (def still questioning - bi is the best label for rn tho (╥‸╥))

Making Friends: I'd love to!! No adults tho >:0

If I'm following u, we should have similar interests & i think ur cool!!

Nationality: American (i hate it here)

probs should mention it - i am diagnosed autistic!! pls be nice to me and I thoroughly apoligize if i come off as weird or invasive. I want to talk to people & make friends but im not good at taking hints, and i am also not good at not worrying that im bothering you /srs

Fandoms in no particular order :

moomin

hilda

octonauts!!! (+ above and beyond :D) ☆

^ ive got little versions of the octonauts running around my brain,, they power

gravity falls (mabel is litterally me guys you don't understand - (/silly))

hermitcraft ☆ THE CHARITY STREAM IM SO HAPPY

life series (sadly wild life is the only one I've actually been able to watch on time :[ ) ☆

percy jackson & the olympians universe (not making anymore content of this)

Also I should say - I do rb life series and hermit shipping, though only of the characters!!

The far & few between (really only rbs here, very sporadic - shouldnt really follow me for them) :

my little pony

peanuts

the wild robot (both the book and movie)

phineas and ferb

spiderverse (though I do have a spider sona sitting in my drafts... so this might change soon!!)

lego movie(s, both 1 & 2, as well as the batman one)

shaun of the dead

hitchikers guide to the galaxy

dungeon meshi

professor layton

nerdy prudes must die

the stanley parable

minecraft (in general ig??) and a bit of minecraft story mode (is that what it's called???? Idfk)

stardew valley

baba is you (rbs from baba is blog)

rainworld

star vs the forces of evil !!!! (she's also litterally me guys I can't ( ◞‸◟ ))

wander over yonder

sonic

i don't wanna be a magical girl

whitepine

parkor (& pvp) civilisation (because I can't only love one minecraft show/movie franchise made by CCs and cringe is dead and its funny)

ace attorney (i dont even have the games .·°՞(¯□¯)՞°·.)

ENA (dream bbq & the origonal videos :]) ☆

Ik that there's like 2 or just 1 other one but for the life of me I can't remember them ( ._. )""

☆ = currently in brian space so probs more rbs :P

[will update]

Talking, conversing, chatting :

Direct messages - Feel free to talk with me in dms!!! (moots i promise i wont be crusifying anyone) (just know that i tend to be busy (despite how much I rb stuff lmao))

Asks - I usually have it off, but if I have them open please do!! I make alot of posts about aus and I like talking about them,,

And just generally - please use tone tags! I wont barrate anyone about it but it makes things easyer and im less prone to overthinking that way. Please no personal questions about my life or stuff like that - I understand that getting to know eachother is a step of making friends, but i like to be safe on the internet (there's ofc some exceptions to this)

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yeah :D

Last Update: April 16th, 2025

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[star-of-the-underworld]

What Koiyan thinks of campers and vise versa (Cannon Campers) Interview Style

Percy Jackson:

uncle cousin????

he often begs me to make blue food because store bought blue food dont hit the same

tries to do sass offs with kacia but she has disney hades genes so he loses them quite frequently

quite tired of his dumb ass getting into trouble but as he is the protagonist, what am i supposed to do????

i dont interact with him much but hes a good kid

His Thoughts:

Niece cousin??????? the family tree is a circle at this point-

Best. Savory. Blue. Food. Ever.

Why cant their alters let me win a sass off just once 😭

She has contemplated putting a child backpack harness on me because of the shit I do

Whenever someone fronts they look so gods damn cool bc of the main host body and the physical changes are kinda hybrid like are so cool

Annabeth Chase:

shes a nice kid

often too analytical and blunt tho-

one time she said in the most eloquent way possible that i looked like shit and i stayed in my room the whole day bc of that

love you tho girl you the best at keeping this camp together

Her Thoughts:

Koiyan has been at this camp the longest out of all of the campers so she knows some things.

Her alters are pleasant beings.

She’s a bit sensitive, but I think it’s a good trait of hers to get all of her emotions out because of the trauma that caused them to have DID in the first place.

Somehow she can read even though she has the most godly blood out of all of us.

She’s an enigma.

Grover Underwood:

goat boi!!!!

one of my fave saytrs bc the others are creeps to me

sweet boi but he is often weary of me and tries to get out of situations with me in it and it makes me sad :(

His thoughts:

Scariest person I have met.

Their alters are sometimes unhinged and Klee most definitely scares me-

Once, I saw them transform into their headspace self and the crow feathers turned into SWORDS.

HER FEATHERS ARE ACTUALLY SWORDS

SHE CAN SNEEZE AND A FEATHER CAN SHOOT OUT AND TRANSFORM AND KILL SOMEONE.

Cool and scary at the same time so I kinda don’t want them to kill me

Luke Castellen:

Traitor.

but before then, he was a good kid

i mean he had the right idea, wrong execution

he comforted me during the time when i was really feeling down because of a prosecutor doing something.

i just wished he went down the right path

His Thoughts:

I kinda miss them.

Shes a nice kid and her alters are sweethearts, well as sweet as they can be.

The prosecutors are a piece of work though.

Wait what do you mean she has new alters?

WHAT DO YOU MEAN BILL IS BACK???

WHAT DO YOU MEAN SHES NOT FULLY FRONTING ANYMORE?????

Clarrise La Rue:

the fact that i relate to her is scary

we both have negligent dads and we both want them to acknowledge us and be proud of us.

and temper

we both have a temper

Her Thoughts:

Her brother got my dad on his side, respectable.

I don’t know them that well but I have seen her being belittled and mocked for her DID, which she cant control.

I will fight to make her safe because mocking someone for their mental state is not ok.

Niccolò (Nico) di Angelo:

baby brother!!!!!!!!

he is way to self destructive sometimes tho

hes one of dads favorites but i have no hard feelings about it

She’s lying. Shes crying about the fact she will never have the same fatherly love as her siblings do. -Macaque

sometimes i wish he could not look at me with contempt because i was the one that got reincarnated and not bianca

His Thoughts:

I love her but shes annoying

Tried to force me into force me into those slutty outfits and they had to restrain me to do so

I don’t know why she got a reincarnation system

Sometimes I want to find her torch of life and extinguish it for good when she gets too ‘mother-y’ and annoying

I wanna give her light to Bianca

Thats a bit too harsh but I do love her, just, not much

Wait, what do you mean she can hear this?

Wait Koiyan no- I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it-

Percy: I’ll go comfort her if Cory isn’t already doing that yet.

Zagreus: I’ll book another family therapy session again.

Will Solace:

my soon to be brother in law!

me and him have fun talking through our kazoos and trying to understand what we’re saying

we kazooified so many musicals-

His Thoughts:

Kazoo buddy!!!!!

She gave me my hell cat!

She’s amazing and so cool!

I wish Nico could see that in her though…

[wackoffwinter]

i wanna know about the entire cast for the swap au. how would ramona's dynamic with the exes act as?

Ok word vomit incoming. tldr at the end for basics just scroll till you see tldr in blue, the essay is for the real bitches who like lore

Obviously in my au knives takes gideons spot rather than a different ex of scotts like how other ppl do but i decided to make her the daughter of a rich business man (mr.chau) who is gonna pass the business down to her when shes 20 (in my au knives and scott “date” when she like 16/17 like in the books but a good chunk of the exes bullshit + everything before happens right when she turns 19 and she does like. a few chapters into the book and then at the end of the series around the canon gideon scott fight is when shes 20) ofc this also changes scotts age a bit but. lowk idgaf abt him rn hes like 26 at the start or so now instead of 24. roxie and wallace swap place unfortunately, i dont like wallace but i have to put him somewhere. roxie is a semi popular artist and ramona is a mooch who showed up to her apartment after a bad breakup and just never left but they actually have a nice apartment but theyre still in Canada(she drunkenly got on multiple buses and trains from nyc to Toronto at roxies place and survived dont ask how its that white girl swag).

todd takes kims place shocker i know. the twins,todd and ramona all have a band together they replace sex bob omb because they all attend the same college in this au

lucas lee and lisa switch. (yes todd,ramona and lucas beef still happens dont worry)

envy is the 3rd ex and is dating gideon. she has pyromancy psychic powers rather than vegan ones. kim is the first ex still hung up on how scott ditched her in highschool only to find out he was two timing her with lisa. the twins end up. Somewhere. Julie takes one of the twins spots (holly might take the other one. I dont know)

I hate it when ppl age down matthew patel to fit knives’ spot but its also kinda weird because of the whole age difference thing its Odd no shade to anyone who does but it icks me out so im not doing it. Matthew is this guy ramona dates but shes lowk using him for money and cheats on him multiple times (manipulating him to forgive her) before scott is even in the picture.

also in my edit we see she still dyes her hair but she only does highlights and streaks because shes too afraid of commitment in more ways than one.

tbh i need to develop this more but heres the skeleton of my idea also all the exes are friends and often hang out at roxies place but matthew is the last to join them but theyre all friends who dislike ramona lowkey but tolerate her.

if im missing anyone you wanna hear about send me another ask!

TLDR; all of ramonas exes r technically her friends but they do not actually fw like that until the end.

ramona(loser leech)<-->scott(manic pixie dream boy whos life i being tampered with by knives)

roxy->wallace (lesbian semi known artist roommate)

matthew->knives (not aged down,chump being used)

knives -> gideon (daughter of a business man whos passing it down)

todd->kim (whore drummer)

lucas lee->lisa (new actor. Whore)

twins-> stephen stills (in ramonas band)

kim->matthew (first ex)

lisa->lucas (second ex)

envy ->todd(third ex)

wallace->roxy (fourth ex)

julie + hollie-> twins (fifth and sixth ex)

knives doesn't want scott anymore but shes set on making sure he pays for what he did (cheated,lied, used her for money etc)

ty for being interested in my au! idk if im gonna keep doing stuff for it or yk have it as a little side project to keep me busy sometimes! also i did take inspo from other ppl to kinda Frankenstein this together

[ghostsandfools]

(This is a vent post, nothing to see here, move along people, nothing interesting going on I’m just sad again)

I dont like being sad. I genuinely can’t imagine what my life would be like if I didn’t completely mentally shut down every 2-3 days.

My dad has been home for three fucking days and I can’t take it. I hate him so sososososois much. It’s insane how much I can’t stand him-

For some ungodly reason he decided to take a four day weekend when he KNOWS we can’t afford it, and it’s throwing me off. Like, my mom and sister suck too, but that’s my usual amount. I already break down enough with them around, so it’s nice that my dad has a job so he can get the hell out cause he’s the one that makes me feel the worst. But now they’re all home and all getting on my nerves at the same time and I can’t take it.

I don’t wanna be mean anymore. I wanna be a good daughter, I wanna be a good big sister! My sister is only fucking six, but she gets on my nerves SO much, and every time I yell at her I feel so guilty because I know that one day I’m gonna move out and those will be the only memories of me she has and I hate that.

I don’t like being mean to my mom either. She sucks, but I feel like she’s just misguided. Like, if she made some changes she really could be a good person. But idk… I wonder what it’ll take for her to leave my dad. He’s lied, cheated, gambled, they don’t get along, I don’t even think she loves him. I just wonder what it would take. There are a lot of things I think he would do, if he was provoked in the right way, and I just feel like it doesn’t matter what he does she will ALWAYS find a way to justify it. And it’s kinda scary. I’m not very strong, I dont think I could stop him from hurt me or my sister or anyone really… But idk…

The worst part is that I don’t even remember any of it after. Like, I remember TONS of times when he’s belittled me, and lied to me, and not been a good person, but then I’ll try to think about it and I can’t remember. It makes me feel like I’m crazy. Like, why do I hate him so much when I can’t even name any of the bad things he’s done? But I know he has, but I always forget how…

I don’t think any of that was coherent, I’m really trying not to worry you guys too much. I’ll be okay, I may not be physically strong but I am mentally and I’ve got this. I didn’t really give any specific examples above, but I promise you all that I’m safe. My parents are jerks, but they don’t unironically physically abuse me in any way, so there’s no need to get all scared for me. Things are just taking a mental toll on me lately