#it's got homework for it tho so i'll do that tomorrow

[aloyssobek]

got a job interview on friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[xxplastic-cubexx]

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, I recently went into the x-men and I found my own dead with Charles and Erik AND I NEED READ MORE OF THEM BUT I SO LOST AFTER POWERS AND HOUSE OF X SO I DON'T KNOW WHERE CONTINUE, can u help me?

(alsoIlikeyoursdrawingsiwishbeingsoconstantwithmycontentlikeu)

i'll be very candid with you my friend: i'm totally lost too !!!!!!! your comic-reading journey is about as green as mine and so i cant personally give you a super great guide- but beautiful people on the internet exist who've done most of the dirty work for us when sorting through the stories you 'should' read so i'm borrowing them to help us both

you can read this article to read about one person's advice with exploring krakoa and- in their opinion- its most 'significant' stories, though to summarize the issues they recommend looking into:

House of X/Powers of X (which you should have already done)

X of Swords event

Hellfire Gala

Inferno

X Lives and X Deaths of Wolverine

Second Hellfire Gala

Third Hellfire Gala

Fall of the House of X/Rise of the Powers of X (also should have already done, however...) +Single issue: X-Men (2021 series) #35 aka Uncanny X-Men #700 is featured at the end of the FoX omnibus, though the omnibus excludes an extra bit at the end involving a cliffhanger for Charles's fate after he's arrested

if you want to dig a little deeper though, you can check out this article from another individual which includes another wave of 'relevant' (word used loosely as some can be considered more poignant than others) krakoa stories and stories related to it or set during the period.

it's a lot longer and more in depth than the last article, so again i only really rec peaking at this one depending on how deep you wanna go, or if you decide you want to explore more after reading the more 'key' stories. def wouldn't hurt to give it a glance just in case you read some summaries that pique your interest!

all in all, don't take these as concrete rules or guides to follow: comics are meant to be fun, these are just good starting points if you're feeling lost or overwhelmed. at the end of the day, you decide ultimately what you want to read and which stories interest you the most

happy reading !

[hoshigray]

A Pricked Hand to Hold

Just thinking about h*lding h*nds with Miguel for the first time bc I'm still fucking soft for this man (like it's so bad).

An: Yup, it's been three weeks, and my infatuation for this man has yet to falter (or that movie in general bc I've seen it like 5-6 times already, and can't get tired of it). This was meant to be a little smthn, but I just wanted to get my soft aggression out of the way. Also, tysm for 1k followers again!! Like fr, y'all are too sweet :') Sacrificed sleep to get this done, sooooo hope you guys like it!! If there are spelling/grammar errors, my dumbass will take care of it tmrw bc I need to take a fckin nap right tf now ahhhhhh— Also! Gonna make an ATSV masterlist later today, so I'll be sure to link it when it's done!!

Cw: Miguel x reader - fluff - h*nd h*lding (barf) - the reader is implied to be in college (at least age 20) - you and Miguel aren't together [yet] but the pining is strong in this one! - Lyla and Jessica teasing you lovestruck idiots lol - you accidentally prick yourself with your lead pencil, but no blood or injuries - ayo you and Miguel almost kiss tho??

Wc: 2.1k

As usual, it was a busy day at headquarters. Many anomalies have been captured for Margo to send back home, Spiders helping other Spiders fight off evil-doers and placing them back in their universes, and Pavitr having a scare nearly revealing his identity to his girlfriend, Gayatri.

Then there's you, sitting at a table doing your homework that needs to be finished for the lecture tomorrow. But you're not alone. In front of the table are three others discussing matters of their own. Lyla is giving new information about another anomaly that needs to be captured before going home, and Jessica's leaning on her motorbike listening to her pixel friend. Right next to her is another taller person listening along as well.

Miguel O'Hara — leader of the Spider Society and the man you've been pining for a while now.

You've been working here for a few months, taking in Margo's shifts or helping Lyla relay messages to other Spiders across the multiverse. At first, you've tried to keep it simple and only see it as a job. But the more you work here, the closer you get to others...and your boss, Miguel, is no exception.

Things started short and blunt with him between you two — just simple greetings and exchanges of the necessary information. But then there was a time when the man was in HQ for far too long, probably sacrificing too much sleep and time to eat that day. So, you got him something from the cafeteria and a little note telling him to "Take care of yourself, leader!" before going home.

From that day on, you and Miguel got closer slowly but surely. Not only does he appreciate you reminding him to take breaks or grab something to eat, but he also checks up on you whenever it's your shift, talks to you on his breaks, or eats dinner with you whenever he has a chance (or when he's not stressed out).

And how you talk to each other is much more comfortable and personal. Sure, you're still respectful of his position and are aware of his duties, but it's always a guilty pleasure when he spends his little free time with you. Unfortunately, you've developed feelings for the tall and brawny Spiderman due to this.

You know how complicated it is to have feelings for someone, especially within the work field, so this is something that you have no faith in whatsoever. But for some reason, you can't help but think something between the two of you is starting to bloom...and based on his actions, maybe Miguel feels the same way as well? Lyla and Jessica tease you, saying it's plain to see that even Pav fangirls about you two.

".../n."

However, for a man like him, is such a thing possible?

"Y/n."

Your thoughts vanish as you turn to the person calling for your attention, just to find it's from Miguel. The two women are nowhere to be found, probably tending to other matters you didn't catch because of your overthinking.

"Yes!" you stutter a reply. Oh God, I hope I didn't make him call on me so many times...

"Done with your homework?" He asks while coming to your side of the table.

You give him a nod, fidgeting with your mechanical pencil. "Yeah, I took care of the stuff for my classes tomorrow. Now I just got a paper to finish by Friday...What about you? Gonna head out soon?"

"I would, but I gotta stay here in case Jess needs backup for the mission. She just left to fix up her bike before she goes."

A chuckle sneaks past you, and Miguel swoons at the sound of it. "Are you sure you wanna do that? Didn't Lyla keep bothering you the last time?"

You can tell he reminisces the time you recall; his sigh and a shake from the lead confirm so. "Yeah, well, when is she not bothering me."

"Heard that." The woman appears in front of him quickly before disappearing again, leaving Miguel a little puzzled before a slight scowl paints his face. Yet it's not so bad when he sees you laugh at the interaction.

"I swear," your giggles wear down, but your smile remains. "It's like you two are siblings or something. But that just means the pestering comes from a place of love."

He hums at your words. "Yeah, love..."

For the past few months, you've been a reoccurring theme in Miguel's life that he thought he'd never experience again. From the day he met you, he figured keeping his distance and maintaining an appropriate work relationship would benefit him. But he was a fool to challenge your beauty and welcoming aura whenever you entered the scene. Especially your kind gestures, starting with the food and your little note for him.

It was apparent then that avoidance would do more harm to himself than good, so he spent his days getting to know you more, understanding you more, appreciating you more...and worse, loving you more.

An emotion such as love has been something that's only brought up painful memories and anguish. And for that reason, Miguel has chosen to dedicate his life and being to doing something he's good at — his job protecting the multiverse. Because, in his eyes, it's the only thing he seems capable of. Not love.

...However, whenever you look at him, speak to him, or smile at him, Miguel can't fight the twinge of his heart longing for something — longing for you. And he knows he isn't the only one who thinks so since Lyla constantly ridicules him about his "schoolboy crush," just like a sibling.

Nonetheless, he still doesn't go far from the talks you share with him or the times you eat together in a friendly manner. Because that's what he and you are comfortable with, and he wouldn't want to break it. Yet he can't help but wonder what would happen if he was just a little more selfish.

Be more selfish and pursue you...without losing you.

"OUCH!!"

Without hurting you.

Miguel's thoughts are immediately halted when he hears your hurtful cry. You drop your pencil and grab your finger as you wince through the pain. And he wastes no time coming to your proximity to examine what happened. "What!? Something wrong?"

"Ahhhh, yeah, I'm fine," You reassure him with an attempted smile. "I just accidentally pricked myself with my pencil."

"Let me see."

The words take a long to register before the man takes your hand in his, the back of your hand resting on his palm while he surveys your fingers. He then sees a tiny circle indent on your middle finger. "I don't see any pieces of lead."

"Oh, thank goodness," you exhale in relief. "Because I don't think I'd survive tomorrow if I did. I got three lectures that day!"

Miguel chortles at your comment, and it has the beat of your heart quicken. "So sorry for you."

Your smile is still prominent. "Thank you, Miguel."

"Don't mention it."

Silence follows those words, yet they're substituted with gazes between you and the man. The twinge on your lips slowly dissolves the more you lose yourself in his burnt amber eyes. The same goes for Miguel, who still has your hand in his.

The internal turmoil in his mind doesn't ease at that fact, incapable of deciphering whether to let go. And when your hand slowly reciprocates the hold — turning it for both palms to face each other — his breath hitches.

"Miguel..." his name appeared in a whisper, only for him to hear. Your breathing goes shaky when he replies with his fingers intertwined with yours. And you notice him take a tense gulp, easing your nerves to know that he's also nervous.

He knows he shouldn't be this close to you as it could jeopardize the relationship you have spent all these months building and maintaining together. However, this is the first time he's been so close to you, touching you. And his heart pushes him to want more.

He knows he shouldn't...but curiosity is an intriguing dance. That's why he slowly leans forward to you.

And you go rigid by the notion...yet your eyes are drawn to his lips, and you follow suit by going inward. Eyes close, letting the moment take place for itself.

"Ready, Miguel?"

Nevermind.

Both eyes open immediately, and locked hands are withdrawn from each other. Miguel puts on his mask quickly, but you could still see a slight flush of pink on his cheeks and ears before they were covered up. You straighten yourself and look to the other side of the table to see Jessica on her motorbike entering the scene.

And just like that, the moment was gone.

"Oh—" the woman spots you two before Miguel stands straight up, and she doesn't try to hide the smile that creeps on her face. "Oh. Was I interrupting something?"

"No." You two say in unison. Jess only lifts a brow through her yellow goggles. You continue with an explanation while you pack up your stuff. "I accidentally pricked my finger with my mechanical pencil, so Miguel checked it out to see if I had any lead on it."

"Ooh, yeah, those aren't fun. Basically like a splinter." Before Jessica could say more, Lyla appeared in everyone's line of sight.

"Good, you two are still here." She jumps around between Jessica and Miguel. "The anomaly we discussed earlier has jumped to another dimension as predicted; better get them now so we can go home."

The two nod while you get up from the table with your backpack. "Good luck out there, guys." You address the older three before exiting for the night, and they all say their goodbyes to you.

For a few seconds, your eyes linger on Miguel. Despite the mask covering his face, his gaze was intense and palpable. Without saying a word, you let your eyes say your final words before turning to leave.

Miguel still watches you leave until he's unable to spot you through the dark hall. And unfortunately for him, he can feel two pairs of eyes on him. He mentally prepares himself before looking at the two women who harbor shameless grins. "What's with the faces?"

Lyla and Jessica only share a look amongst themselves and shrug before answering him. "Oh, I don't know, Miguel." The pixelated woman darts close to the man. "What's with your face?"

"Wh-What are you—"

"C'mon now, Miguel." Jessica cuts him off. "Seems like something more was going on than just a pricked finger."

He sighs. "Well, you're wrong. Because that's all it was." The two share another look with each other as their smirks go higher.

"Oh~, my darling Miguel," Jessica changes her voice to a higher pitch and daydream tone. "I wish you luck on your mission and that you return to see me tomorrow~."

"Don't you worry, my wonderful Y/n," Despite Miguel's eyes narrowing at Lyla's terrible impression of his voice, she still acted out the role. "I will return to you unscathed and have you in my loving arms in no time~."

"I don't talk like that." The two women chuckle at his blunt statement. "How old do you think I am?"

"Old enough to look like a man but still scared to talk to your lil' crush." Jessica crosses her arms with a matter-of-fact attitude, her smile itching broader when Miguel rolls his eyes through the mask.

"Ay, por Dios, can we please open the portal already?" The poor man can only take so much teasing from the two, making him feel like he should've left with you instead.

Lyla giggles one last time before Jessica uses her watch to open a portal to the desired dimension. "Whatever you say, lover boy." The portal opens, and a flash of colors and shapes contrasts with the dull room. Jessica is the first to go, Miguel following right behind her.

Even when going on his mission, his mind can't stop thinking about you and the moment you shared together earlier. It was a risky thing to have happened, and he scolds himself for letting such a thing happen. Miguel knows he isn't a person for love, for it's something meant to be destroyed by his very touch. You are no exception; the last thing he wants to do is hurt you. He loves you too much to put you through that.

But then the compliance and willingness you've expressed in holding his hand surely meant that you wanted something more, right?

If Miguel were selfish enough, he'd use that as a hint. A hint to look forward to what other things you'd allow him to express to you.

If he were selfish enough, he would plan to approach you tomorrow in the right way.

If he were selfish enough, he'd test out the waters more and finally let this "love" flourish into something better.

[ros3ybabe]

Daily Check-in: April 3rd, 2024 🎀

Today was a weird day. My anxiety was off the walls, and I think it's because that time of the month decided to occur, which is throwing me way off. Birth control has made that not happen for 2 years so, I was definitely caught off guard. (omg I hope that's not tmi, it's just something I gotta deal with again as a woman)

🩷 What I Accomplished Today:

Reviewed Spanish Busuu Chapters 6 and 7

Reviewed all flashcards once fully through

listened to one podcast episode in spanish

completed question set about renal nutrition from my dietitian mentor

met with an advisor regarding adding a 2nd major in finance

met with my advisor and got some good advice before adding the 2nd major

emailed the director of the Dietetic program at my college to schedule a meeting

wrote chemistry notes (need to finish and catch up with this week - I've missed both lectures)

completed a chemistry homework assignment

planned tasks for tomorrow

met with dietitian mentor

scrubbed my toilet clean

🩷 Good Things That Happened:

got an extension on my chem lab report

got confirmation of taking a make up quiz for my psyc class

took an hour nap

got excused from lecture and lab today (going to make it up tomorrow)

met most of my goal tasks

my meetings with the advisors went really well

got to talk to my dad per usual, and he was supportive of the 2nd major stuff

my boyfriend was supportive of my 2nd major stuff

met a super cute blue heeler puppy that was so cute and friendly, tho she did cut my thumb slightly but it's okay cause she's just a puppy

got 7k steps in today

🩷 What Could've Been Better:

could've managed my anxiety a bit better

could've been more productive instead of doing my "productive procrastination"

need to stop trying to do academic things while sitting in bed

need to stop trying to stay awake when I randomly wake up at 4am

need to drink more water, for sure

need to work on better nutrition

Today was a weird day. But that's okay. Weird days do happen. I know now what made it weird, and I'll adapt.

Til next time lovelies 🩷

[o2studies]

|| ༻`` 18 Sept 24 — Wednesday

I wasn't overly happy in school today, at least not for the second half of it as I spent it alone and with a dying wrist.

My art study is coming along sooo well! I'm super proud of it! But it is taking a good while and so I'll work on getting it finished tomorrow. All of that is really hurting my wrist tho, especially as I'm using colouring pencils (and the next one I'm planning on doing will take just as long and hurt just as bad... but we'll get through it).

I was honestly quite worried about driving back from school today because I wasn't in a good mood at all and I know how I'm like at those times.. But luckily I did calm down 🦎 quickly after putting on my favourite singer before the drive.

I also kept my mind off of school later and got new glasses! My prescription almost doubled but the frames are so nice!! Plus I got a few comments about how nicely they suit me which gave me such a good boost of self-esteem 😊.

Later I ordered pizza for me and my mum, got the amazing idea of bringing a bottle of apple juice to the formal after party where most others will be brining alcohol, talked with friends and rewatched a Medusa animation. I didn't revise Chemsitry as planned but I got a reference and idea for another art study and finished my Math homework.

I'm happy with how my day went after school 🌷.

Day 0 clean (didn't even realise I was doing it at first and I'm not exactly sure why I got so upset but I did)

Day 0

Floor time ☑️ // 🍊

[eddiemunson-fanfic]

Gasp i has a cute short request !

Can I please request Dustin have a huge crush on reader only for Eddie to softly break it to him that him and reader have been dating for long time

Oooh, I will try my best, hope you enjoy it!

Already taken.

Eddie Munson x Plus Size!FM!Reader

Warnings: none?

Summary: Eddie was the reason you became friends with Dustin Henderson. He introduced you to the entire club one day, and you and Dustin hit it off straight away. Almost unseperable, and Eddie loved that his girl was hitting it off with the friends he cared about the most. You didn't try to keep the relationship with Eddie a secret, you thought it was pretty clear you were his girl, but not everyone got the gist that you were taken and happily in a relationship.

"It was a stormy night, and something was off about the place you came to as you looked up at a green-lighted tower" Eddie dramatized, reading from the campaign he was writing, asking you for input as you sat on his bed, looking at him as he spoke, smiling. Feeling lucky that he was yours.

"It sounds awesome, can't wait for tomorrow when you're gonna put it out there for the rest of the club!" you smiled, as his eyes searched yours, his eyes dancing with love as you leaned closer, pecking his lips softly as he smiled against the kiss.

"I love you, you know that, right?"

You giggled slightly as his hand brushed against your side, tickling you slightly.

"I love you too"

"You ready to meet Dustin later? Heard you were helping eachother with some homework?" he asked, curiosity clear in his face as you looked at him, scooting the book he had away as you straddled his lap, cupping his cheeks in your hands as you bumped your nose to his, sighing heavy as you relaxed, having his hands softly placed on your love handles.

"Yeah, I guess, I just wish he could do some on his own, you know? I feel like he asks me everytime, not that I mind helping him, but it wont get him anywhere if he doesn't try on his own." you shrug your shoulders as Eddie chuckles.

"imagine the poor guy have a crush on you tho, maybe he haven't gotten the gist about you being mine"

"How could he even ignore the signs tho? I am clingy as fuck towards you, and you me" you shrug, giggling slightly, shaking your head at the thought of Dustin having a crush on you. It couldn't be the case, could it?

You just brushed it off as Eddie laid down, pulling you with him, making you lay your head on his chest as you cuddled up to him, feeling at ease for having him in your life.

"You want me to give you a ride?" Eddie asked, as he stroked your hair.

"That would be really nice, babe, you don't mind?"

"Ofcourse I don't mind getting my girl to places, knowing she will arrive safe and sound! It's my job as your boyfriend to make sure you're safe, baby"

You giggled, leaning up to peck his lips.

"What would I have done without you?" you smiled up at him, as he shrugged.

"You will never find out, you're mine for life, just so you know"

"I love the sound of that" you grinned at him, and he chuckled, kissing the tip of your nose.

"Oh, I bet you do, princess, good thing I do too"

~~

"Finally!" Dustin exclaimed as Eddie helped you out of his van, which he normally did whenever he drove you somewhere.

Dustin walked over to you, and Eddie pulled him into a tight hug as Dustin laughed.

"Hey, butthead" Eddie said, as he looked into Dustin's eyes, and Dustin rolled his eyes at him, swatting his chest playfully.

"Told you to stop calling me that!"

Eddie chuckled as Dustin pulled away from him, walking over to you to embrace you in a hug.

"Ready to learn some shit?" you joked as he pulled away, grinning at you, nodding eagerly.

"Always!" he said as he ran towards the door, stopping looking back. "You coming?"

"Yeah, I'll come soon! Just gotta ask Eddie something, and I'll be there"

He gave you two thumbs up as he walked inside.

Eddie didn't waste any time in pulling you close, hugging you tight before he placed a soft kiss to your lips.

"I'll pick you up around 10, sounds good?"

You nodded, kissing his jaw before you rested your head on his chest, inhaling the scent of him.

"I'll miss you"

"I'll miss you too, baby, but when you're done here, I'm all yours, always" he gave you a soft smile as you looked up into his chocolate brown eyes.

"Go help butthead now, so we don't have to waste anymore time being away from eachother, yeah?"

You nodded, turning to walk away as Eddie placed a smack to your butt as you walked away.

"Love you!" he shouted almost at you as you turned around to look at him.

"I love you" you mouthed towards him, before walking inside, seeing Dustin standing there with a huge grin on his face, several books in hand as he nodded towards the living room.

"My mom is making us some dinner, hope you're hungry!"

"You know me, Henderson, I could always eat"

~~

The time went by very fast, you helped Dustin finish all his homework for the next week, and ate some dinner with him and his mom, and by 9:45 you just waited for Eddie to show up, and you knew he would come before 10, which he always used to do.

Your heart skipped a beat when Dustin leaned in close to you, sitting very close as you looked at him as if you were a deer in headlights.

"What are you doing?" you asked, a bit scared by how close he was.

"I got told to just shoot my shot, so here goes nothing"

He said before his lips crashed against yours, and you didn't get the chance to react before you slapped him across his face.

"Dustin!" you exclaimed, jumping up from the couch, holding onto your lips as if they got burned.

"Why did you do that?!" you exclaimed, looking at him with pure shock.

"I'm so sorry, I thought.." he started before you stopped him.

"I don't know if I've lead you on or anything, and you are a very nice guy, but I am already in a happy relationship, Henderson"

"With who?"

The look in his eyes made your heart break in two. You felt somehow sorry for him. You knew he never meant to do any damage, and that he just wanted what was best for you, because that's how Dustin was as a person. But you couldn't lead him on like this, it was wrong.

The lights from Eddie's van lighted up the room as you looked down on the watch Eddie had gave you.

9:50. You knew he would be here before 10.

"I'm sorry Henderson, but I gotta go"

You started walking towards the hallway, pushing on your shoes as fast as you possibly could as Dustin followed you, trying to do his best to tell you he was sorry.

Eddie was shocked when you came out of the door, looking all shocked and as if you were about to cry.

He walked towards you in such speed, embracing you as he glared at Dustin.

"What the fuck man? What happened?!" Eddie exclaimed, holding you close as you let the tears fall.

"I kissed her!" Dustin exclaimed back, and you could feel Eddie tense up.

"Why?!"

"Because I like her" Dustin said softly, matter of factly to Eddie and Eddie huffed.

"Look man, I'm sorry, but she's already in a relationship"

"Yeah, she said so, but never with who"

He was really blind, wasn't he? How could he not understand by now that it was you and Eddie as a couple?

"Wait a minute.."

There it is!

"You two?!" he exclaimed, shock clear in his voice as Eddie chuckled, letting you bury your face in his chest.

"Yeah" Eddie gave him a soft smile as Dustin chuckled.

"How blind am I?" he said "For how long?"

"Counting almost 2 years now"

"Shit"

Yeah, you can say that again.

"Did I really think I had a chance for so long, when in reality she was yours from the day you introduced us?"

"Pretty much" Eddie shrugged as he chuckled. "Sorry man"

"No, it's me who gotta be sorry, I'm so sorry Y/N, I didn't know!" he apologized. "No harm done, still friends? Please?"

You turned towards him as Eddie held onto your side, helping you wipe away some tears as you sniffed.

"No harm done, still friends" you smiled, and you could see he relaxed straight away.

"See you tomorrow?" Eddie asked, reffering to the campaign tomorrow as Dustin nodded a yes.

"See both tomorrow?" he asked, and you nodded as Eddie gave him a thumbs up, helping you into his van.

~~~

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[ursogoldenn]

october 6, 2024 dear diary...

sooo i kinda forgot to do one of these for yesterday and friday so this is kinda for all the three day weekend. friday was productive!! i woke up i think around 9?? and then i did my chem homework which is the left pic i tried to take an aesthetic picture of it lol. then i did some english stuff and caught up on anything else. then i just kinda sat around. i finished the outline for one of my books so i need to start writing it- i wrote 2 books in 2023 and theres NO WAY im coming out of 2024 without writing another. november is coming up and i need to start because nanowrimo!! even tho theyre pro ai :/ so i have to find an alternative im still gonna do the 50k words in a month thing. and then yesterday was meh, i didnt do much. mostly just sat around. then today i woke up at 12 again :( i got up and got ready cuz my friend and i were gonna go thrift shopping but her mom said no because she couldnt drive us (neither of us have our licence YET) and she didnt want us walking anywhere because its too hot?? and i think its dumb really bc yeah it was like 98 degrees but that weather is normal here and we walk around in that heat all the time?? plus my friend is a runner so she RUNS in this weather, plus we wanted to go walk to froyo so it wouldnt even be that bad. but WHATEVER she ended up coming over and we did each others hair and i taught her something on the piano and we just kinda hung out. and then yeah im all caught up on weekened hw, my spanish teacher FINALLY put in the grade for the quiz and i got 40/43!! not 100% but i'll take what i can get. then we have a chem test on wednesday, i need to lock in and study because i dont understand chem and my grade is barely hanging on to an 80%... my teacher is really nice though she said if i still dont understand after this then she'll help me individually and go over things at lunch or something. so yeah im looking forward to this week- and only 11 more days until my concert!!! im sooo exctied to see conan yayayaya

proud of myself for: doing all weekend homework on friday looking forward to: taking pics in photography class tomorrow song stuck in my head: sweater weather by the neighborhood

[lex14cross]

today was weird, yet the most relaxing things happened as it came to its end, and I wanted to tell everyone in here that may find themselfs in a stressful situation, that this phrase "for every tear there's a laugh", it's completely true, and I'm telling you, you can do ANYTHING that you want, ANYTHING that you propose yourself to do, as long as it's something you really want to put effort on it, not only dreams, or goals, but with life itself. You wanna write a story? do it, don't stop yourself and let your soul go with the story. You wanna come out of bed? Do it, don't think to much about it, and if you're not feeling well enough to come out of bed, for who knows what reason, come out of bed anyways! do your bed, and lay on it if you want! but do it, if you do things, you'll slowly realize that if you propose it to yourself, you can do it. It's gonna be hard, you may want to give up at some point, you want help to do something? seek for it. whatever it is, seek for help. if you're wrong about something, or fail at anything else, then do it again, take a break, breathe, collect yourself, and do it again! you'll see that if you try again, you may find a new way, and you would have learned from your previous failure, but keep trying, even if you're trying your best! not everything goes according to plan, but make sure you enjoy every single bit of the process. And if you're feeling down for any reason, please, just please look for someone to talk, someone that you know will listen, you might even change your point of view after speaking to them, it can be your parents, siblings, a therapist, a friend, you don't need to tell them everything if you don't feel like telling them, but let them know how are you feeling and let them help you. Here's an example. The conversation that I had with my mother just a few hour ago after I came back from school, stressed, feeling down, tired, headache, and a thousand reasons to complain about high school, plus 20 pending homework, she called me, to tell me what they told her on the parents meeting, I was so tired and stressed for something that's happening currently that I just went upstairs to speak with my mom through the cellphone, I started crying because I had to much things over my shoulders, she helped me a lot when she organized a schedule for us both so she could help me read my pending book for the test, finish the homework, meet with the other guys from my high school anniversary alliance, and a bunch of other things that I have to do within these three days, she told me "Don't worry today, you sleep tonight then you go to school tomorrow morning to that meeting, you come back from school, have lunch and then do some homework, when you come to my home I'll help you with it and we'll figure it all out, what matters about this is that you get to have fun with these activities, but you have too much things on your mind that overwhelms and stresses you." for the first time in years, I relayed myself on my mother and not on my pillow, and it felt weirdly amazing how that weight slowly went away as we started laughing toghether, I found my courage on her, and remembered how I got to this point of my life where now that I let myself be and believe that I can do anything, even if I know that I can't, I stay positive, I'm not always positive tho, cause we all need our vulnerability, and we have to allow ourselfs to be vulnerable with other in a healthy way, so that you can relay on them, the same way they can relay on you, trust in yourself, and try again, get up from bed, live every minute like if it's the best, we'll always have our ups and downs, but you need to belive, belive that you can do it, the same way I belive that you can do it. and hear me what I say! there's always gonna be a bad day, but don't make it the center of all, learn from it, and wait for another day to come, a day where you can always try again, and fight for your goals.

[livvyofthelake]

anyway prom pact was fun however i'm biased because peyton elizabeth lee could star in the worst movie ever made and i'd still have a good time just having her on my screen. but it was fun <3 tee i think you should give it another chance.... or don't if you really hated it that much i don't think its necessarily your kind of movie i'm not gonna advocate for it that hard. of course it was no honor society but what truly is? it was very similar to the kissing booth except like. produced by disney plus. so kinda weird vibes coming from that. didn't like the cringey gay rep character sorry SORRY he was annoying his sex joke was annoying and cringe and i would rather have gone without it idk why they tried to make the movie edgy or whatever by including lines about sex but they made those lines so bone achingly awkward to hear. like we could have just not done that and no one would have thought the movie better or worse for it... also i already complained about this in my letterboxd review but there should have been bloopers over the credits it's so fucked they didnt do bloopers over the credits this should have been a bloopers over the credit movie.... anyway. loved andi. loved basketball guy sorry for saying he should kill hmself earlier i was misinformed and i don't like offering men the benefit of doubt. loved zed. loved latoya reynolds.... they're so breaking up first semster of college tho no offense. but their asses are not gonna make that work unless they magically went to the same school. and hey maybe they did! in which case good for them they're gonna make it! also loved the risky business one direction promposal that slayed fr.... loved how he took a gap year to figure out his life without his dad's pressure because she impacted his entire worldview so deeply that he wanted to become a better person... that was so penelope 2006 core.... anyway. i literally have homework to do and dinner to eat and another movie to watch tonight. after midnight. i've got homework at midnight lol.... actually i've got other stuff to do i should probably just watch 2 movies tomorrow huh. if i go to the movie theater earlier in the evening i'll watch another movie at night. wait slay i could so do that. ok break!

[artinandwritin]

A little writing practise I did yesterday at 11 pm. I wasn't really sure how to put the idea of texting each other down in a way it still feels natural, but doesn't slow down the plot. I kinda think I did a good job for once :)

This is for GusSiri's modern au during the time period where Siri is about a month away from finishing high school and Gustav is just,,, fucking around in college doing who knows what haha. Have fun!

Unread-Read;

S: I got full marks on my biology test. Mrs. Haddock gave me a sticker because she thinks I worked so hard.

Unread.

S: Did you know red carnations symbolize affection?

Unread.

S: I found it online.

Unread.

S: I thought you would like it, you told me once you like carnations.

Unread.

S: Can I send you some? I don't know if they'll come through okay with the post, but I'm willing to try!

Unread.

Siri took a deep breath and put her phone away - this was no use. She had scrolled through her past messages with Gustav Larson for what seemed like hours, and none of them had been answered.

Not a single one.

She didn't know what had happened between the two of them. One moment, he was texting her what felt like every other minute, sending her pictures of his homework, his dog Fanghook, or things in stores he wished he could buy but didn't have the money for - the next moment, nothing. Only unread messages.

Of course, he must be busy, Siri knew he probably was. He was in college, following classes to get a degree in teaching. He was probably making new friends, going out with them, getting drinks and probably not needing her anymore.

After all, she was still in high school, all alone. She had her friend Adelaide Jorgenson, sure, but all her other friends had already left to pursue a carreer. And now, even Gustav had forgotten about her.

She grabbed her phone again, her fingers trembling as she tried again.

S: How's Fanghook? He must be so lonely, now that you're studying so much.

Unread.

S: To be honest… I feel lonely too.

Unread.

S: I miss you.

Unread.

S: Gustav, I miss you. Can you please text me back?

Unread.

S: It's okay if you can't.

Unread.

S: I'm sorry if I've done something wrong.

Unread.

S: Or said.

Unread.

S: Just please text me back.

Read.

Siri's eyes widened as the two marks in the corner of her message turned blue; she leaned back against her pillows as Gustav started typing.

G: Im so sorry! Roommate hid my phone for a joke, couldn't find it for days.

Her heart jumped.

S: It's okay, I was just worried.

G: Can I make it up to you?

S: No, you don't have to, it wasn't your fault.

G: Yeah no, if you miss me I definitely gotta make it up to you. Of course, everyone must miss me so much, I was so legendary in high school.

Siri chuckled, slowly calming down as she typed a response. Oh, how she had missed his little remarks.

S: They don't talk about you anymore :'). But… I do miss you. Quite a lot.

G: Wanna go get ice cream or something when you get outta class tomorrow? I've borrowed this sick scooter from a friend, I'll come pick you up.

Oh. A strange whirl went through Siri's stomach; her heart felt really light.

S: That sounds a bit like a date, Gustav. Isn't that girl you had eyes for gonna be jealous?

G: Nope, turns out she already had a boyfriend. So there is no-one to worry about.

Relieve washed over her; her shoulders relaxed at his message. However, her racing heart kept beating, and her hands suddenly typed on their own.

S: Do you want this to be a date?

G: Um.

G: Maybe a little. Not gonna lie, you're cute. And you've always been nice to me even tho I'm sometimes kinda an idiot ;).

Butterflies, that's what they were. They were twirling in Siri's belly as her gaze was glued to her phone screen. Her hands trembled at every word they texted to each other.

S: I kinda want this to be a date too.

G: You do?

S: Yeah. I think so.

G: So I guess we've got a date ;))). Anywhere you wanna go?

S: The movies? They're showing Titanic again.

G: Sounds good to me. I'm gonna hog the popcorn, be prepared >:). And!! Pleasepleaseplease put on a thin dress or something. I wanna offer you my sweater.

Siri couldn't help but laugh softly, casting a quick glance to her wardrobe. A sundress may be best suited for his little request and oh, how she adored the detail.

S: I will! Can we make dinner at your dorm after the movie?

G: Yep, I'll just bully my roommate out. And afterwards I'll take you home nice and save.

S: I'll see you tomorrow, can't wait :).

G: See ya, can't wait either.

G: And Seer.

G: I miss you too <3.

A smile overtook Siri; there was nothing that could describe that special feeling she felt when he said that.

S: <3.

She closed her phone, putting it down beside her. Her heart racing, she slid further down onto her bed as she started up at the ceiling. Oh, this would be perfect.

This would be absolutely perfect.

@rosiethedragongeek for the tags!! Just a lil smt for funsies <3

[andstilliam]

tomorrow i need to

~braid my hair

~wash my comforter and electric heating blanket

~clean my floors

~do some homework:)))))))

~eat some fish

i haven't had fish all week because the thought has made me nauseous. i either really want fish or it makes me sick, there's no between. you know the egg ick? it's like that with fish too. it's funny tho cuz actually as a kid i used to love these mini fish omg it was my fav food ever for a really long time and i ate that fish charred af LOOOLLL. i hated those frozen fish sticks as a kid cuz they were just disgusting, but i loved these mini fish. it was kind of like this but charred black lol). i wonder if my mom or my sister remembers. i'll have to ask them.

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on a side note, i think a guy on my floor is bulimic. i was the only girl on my floor until about 2 weeks ago when another grad student moved in. sometimes there is obvious vomit residue in the toilet at times. this guy is very big. he's most definitely morbidly obese, obviously eats a ton. when i first met him in a meeting, he sat on a chair and said "i hope i don't break the chair." so he's one of those LOL. omg he's actually very charming, such a well to do, brilliant engineering student. he's really lovely to talk to. and today i saw what looks like self harm scars on his arm. i mean, i don't want to make assumptions. perhaps he eats so much that he gets sick sometimes. there's another fat dude on the floor too, so it could be either one. i don't know but whoever is throwing up is not flushing twice when it needs to be flushed again and i know that bulimic haze when it just doesn't get done or you have to wait for the toilet to be able to even flush again. we have old toilets in this house. anyway, i don't know, but it's gross because i didn't make the mess. and it's sad, you know, if that's what's actually happening. i mean, look, that guy cooks like 5 steaks. i mean, he did say he was meal prepping once. i was like haha yeah i can't do that because they're all gone by wednesday. i mean, big boys eat big... he was also a football player, i learned today and he was recruited here to the maritimes for undergrad. he got a full ride scholarship. he's a smart guy. i definitely feel like an idiot talking to him lol.

[a-heart-like-a-sparrow]

April 29th, 2024 - Chains

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My new necklaces are actually very thin chains with shiny charms. The one with the dice was tangled in my jewelry box, I don't know why. But a friend fixed it for me.

I had my English exam today. It was pretty easy. I shared my macaroons with my classmates and even my Law teacher. It was a great time.

It was so rainy today. My mother drive me to school but I had to run like an idiot to get to the entrance. Somehoe I barely got wet.

I slept for like two hours when I came home. I haven't done a single thing from my Economy homework. I'm sure it won't be too difficult tho... I guess.

I'm dying to read "The Picture of Dorian Gray" but I can't. I sleep, do homework, or eat, but never read. I'm such a fool.

I've been thinking that I should change my Instagram account already, follow all the people I actually see on my profile, and pray that my classmates don't find it.

I should block them all, honestly. Except for my friends. But I'm too lazy to do all that. But I'll do it someday.

Aaaaaaaaaa I'm tired. I really wanna go to sleep but I have to finish that goddamn homework. I cannot avoid it anymore. Well, I actually can procrastinate until tomorrow in the morning. I don't know.

I'll watch some TV and go to my room. Rest well.

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PS: Okay I don't understand. I saw a picture of him at a party a few minutes ago. He looked... quite ugly, I'm gonna be honest here. I don't know if it was the lighting, the whole vibe, or if he's just horrific and I don't see it. I swear he looks better in real life. I have to admit, sometimes I think, "how on God's sacred Earth could I think that way?", and then I say, "oh my god, he's actually very handsome". I have some... peculiar taste.

That motherfucker never smiles for photos, apparently. I guess that's the proble. Come on, dude. Smile. I like it.

[ros3ybabe]

Daily Check-in: April 17, 2024 🎀

today was a decent day up until the end, when I got upset and emotional over some things and ended up crying again. I swear, I've cried the last 6 out of 7 nights, and I'm so tired of it. here's to hoping things finally get better soon because this emotional stuff is seriously affecting my productivity, motivation, and discipline.

🩷 What I Accomplished:

studied chapter 6 of Latin American Spanish on Busuu

listened to 3 podcast episodes in Spanish

completed and submitted my lab report and pre lab quiz, also did my pre lab notebook prep

went to my last chem lab for the semester

went to chem lecture

had a meeting with the Dietetic director to map out some classes for the upcoming semesters

washed dishes

attempted a phone call with my boyfriend for the first time in a week (relationship issues + long distance × love ÷ dating for 2 years = an emotional rollercoaster, and lots of frustration)

washed laundry, did not put away yet

scheduled a therapy session for tomorrow morning

completed a 7 minute pilates abs workout from Madeliene Abeid

completed the 11 minute wake up yoga from Yoga with Adriene

started to do the 5 min daily stretch from Pamela Reif but my dad called me so I didn't finish it

downloaded a pdf of a Spanish textbook

rescheduled my italki lesson because I need to study for chem

scheduled 2 study rooms to study for chem with my chem lab partner

completed the pre class assignment for chemistry

walked ~8k steps

🩷 Good Things That Happened:

saw my dad this morning, who then took me to the campus library a bit early (I love getting to see my dad, I don't get to see him too often since he lives on the opposite side of town)

passed my lab report and pre class assignment

finished my chem lab super fast

had pizza rolls for dinner (I needed something quick and simple cause I've been tired)

got more practice with the chemistry lecture content

woke up esrly enough to do my morning routine

did a complete night routine, including skincare (-didn't read tho, couldn't decide on a book )

more good things happened, I just honestly can't remember them right now. but today was not a bad day.

💗 Stuff For Thursday:

psyc doc appointment

therapy appointment

supplemental chemistry class hours

make sure I'm caught up on homework

apply to/write essays for some scholarship applications

check hours worked if possible to determine next week's paycheck

study Spanish!!! dedicate a good chunk of time to it

do my morning and night routine as best as possible

Thursday is definitely going to be an interesting day, thats for sure. I don't feel as tho I'll have as much to do, but I'm going to find things to do, like studying my Spanish, etc.

til next time lovelies 🩷

ps. check out my depop shop <3

💕 Song of The Day -

Le Sserafim - Antifragile

this has been a long time fave of mine

[o2studies]

༻`` 18 Jan 24 — Thursday

100 days of productivity 18/100

Had my very first work experience today at a dentist's and I did not want to leave even tho my back was practically breaking. I absolutely loved it! Yes I really almost passed out not 30mins of me being there but I didn't think others' blood would have that effect on me, still I'd love to come back. It was really interesting too, got to see how the cleanings done, an extraction, a few x-rays, 1st stage of a root canal! Plus the dentist and nurse I was shadowing were so so lovely and funny and great. They answered all my questions, sometimes talked me through and explained the procedures, encounters with patients, tools, uni application tips. It was truly an amazing experince.

Thing is that I haven't considered dentistry before and didn't think it would have appealed to me as much so I didn't take biology and I'd need it if I didn't want to study abroad and for an extra year (I really don't). I'll see what I can do and email the university if an AS could be accepted.

Anyone else been in this situation before? Realising you should've gone down a different path? (and listened to your parents when they were suggesting it at the start of the school year...) (help ;-;)

༻`` 19 Jan 24 — Friday

100 days of productivity 19/100

Studied a bit, finished my chemistry notes and have to start one's for physics. Will do its and maths' homework tomorrow. I started planning out a study timetable and it's both stressing me out and calming me. I have so much time but not enough. Either way I've really got to put more hours into this and people aren't joking when they say to start revising as soon as you start school, especially at A Levels.

Tomorrow:

Study chemistry 1.1-1.3

Study physics 1.1 + 2.1 table

Do a full past paper

work on art

[moralchampion]

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[mikkouille]

I did two arts in a day n they look v good cuz I'm sexy n talented n the most powerful being on earth 💚