#it's getting harder and harder folks
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god for years i was like. im so over doctor who. i don't even like scifi anymore, it was a nice phase of my life but im over it. then they seemingly cast every actor i care about. then i was bombarded with ncuti gatwa's charisma uniqueness nerve and talent on all my algorithms. BUT NOW i learn that sacha dhawan is playing the MASTER??? and looks so hot doing it????????????
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perhaps the most important question i’ve ever asked:
does anyone have tips for people trying to stop being chronically late to everything in the world that aren’t weirdly judgmental and aggressive or flat out lies
#when i tell you every single resource i’ve ever found or tried to get through or anyone i’ve ever asked#has been just so. mean about it#not even intentionally#not always at least#but there’s so much inherent shame tied to being late to things or being a person who used to be late to things#that i don’t think people can untie that from their ‘helpful tips’#it’s all ‘i used to also be a lazy uncaring piece of shit! you don’t have to be a horrible wretched loser anymore!’ and it’s like. okay.#you see how that’s not helping. right.#making me feel worse about it is NEVER helpful. i promise you i already have tortured myself over it FARRR more than any ‘on time’ person#ever had#this has been a comic i’ve been stewing on for ages as well but. well there’s of course the shame#idk it’s something that people are always despicably mean about bc fundamentally people who have never struggled with it#see it as a personal choice to be late#and as something one needs to just ‘try harder’ to fix. and that if you don’t#you inherently don’t care about other people’s time or even other people in general#and that feels horrible! it feels really bad!!#i mean i’ve got it from EVERYONE. disability allies. other adhd folks. disability resource offices#it’s something that nobody ever cares to acknowledge or try to accommodate for#bc time blindness and exec dysfunction are NEVER taken seriously as disabilities. they’re always always viewed as a personal failing#and i’m sick and tired of it. bc all this does is make people struggling with this Hate themselves#and worry endlessly that maybe they Are selfish and actually Don’t care about anyone else#there’s a bit too much here to keep in the tags i should really do the comic for adhd awareness month
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#why do you need this many legs sir#toedscruel#woah holy shit i just looked outside and it's super dark out. i'm queuing this up at noon why is it so dark#lemme look#yeah it's. dark. there's a bunch of dark evil clouds in the sky lookin like it's gonna storm oh i just heard thunder yeah it's gonna storm#uh oh. good thing i'm queueing this guy up before the storm so my power doesn't go out. this happens frequently#anyway toedscruel. it's definitely an evolution of toedscool. it definitely looks like tentacruel#if it's a different pokémon why does it evolve into something so suspiciously similar. i can understand wigglet and wugtrio being#different pokémon. just based on how different they are from diglett and dugtrio. even though their names are a typo away#but this guy is. it. really should've just been a regional form‚ i think#unrelated‚ but on random occasions seemingly whenever someone new finds the blog and reads my tags#i'll occasionally get folks asking me how i type commas in the tags#the answer is that this character → ‚ ← is not a comma. it just looks identical to a comma because of tumblr's font#it's actually a lower quotation mark. so for a language that does ‚this kind’ of quotation marks#and i use it as a comma because i have a fancy linguist keyboard that can type all kinds of fancy symbols. and it's easily accessible#some of my favorites include the single-character ellipse: …#the degrees symbol: º and °#small A: ª#fractions: 1⁄2 2⁄3 1⁄4 etc#and obviously IPA symbols and various diacritics‚ so that i can type the word pokémon without having to copy-and-paste the E#currency symbols‚ too. £¢$§¥ euro is on here somewhere but i don't know where bc i don't use that one really#i just like being able to type things the way they're supposed to be. like it's 80º outside. the stopwatch costs 15¢ in the shop#and‚ of course‚ pokémon. it's the linguistics and computer 'tism combining together i think#it's storming harder now but i found the euro symbol: €#oh fuckin hell my lights just flickered. this is gonna be rough..!
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Acknowledge your flaws
With all these uwu fandom queers who turned out to be racist Zionists, I think it’s important to acknowledge or be aware of your flaws and accept that you can do and believe shitty things and that being from a marginalized group doesn’t exempt you from that. For example, I can be very harsh and a bit of a jackass or a shithead. I try to work on that but it’s not easy. Self love is good but not if it causes you to ignore your faults as acting like you can do no wrong if you’re queer or from a marginalized religion is an easy path to falling for fascist and racist rhetoric.
#free palestine#free gaza#from the river to the sea palestine will be free#liberal zionists#fuck liberals#important#self love#white queers#transmascpetewentz#prismatic bell#vaspider#spot-the-antisemitism#emperorsfoot#short-wooloo#Take notes folks#I can be a petty bitch and I’m not always proud of it but it’s something I acknowledge#Sometimes I use it to my advantage against Zionists or bigots#But it does make it harder to get along with people which I have to accept and work on
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it's very funny to me that tumblr of all places has so much heat for the worst aspects of k tanaka's character beats considering that they started out as nearly a direct parody of the tumblr sjw. and as much as i love evan, i can't help but see the irony as well that brennan created a character who, in universe, is the object of a lot of misplaced adoration, specifically referencing kylo ren who had this website in a chokehold, only for evan to become one of tumblr's sad boys even when k has apparently addressed this and grown past it. there's lots of other things that k has not dealt with that we can talk about, but ALSO maybe it would be a good idea to turn a lens on evan considering that the archetype of someone resisting violent conditioning is something else that popped up in this episode that is extremely fucking pertinent irl right now. i've called it 'magical' nationalism before because the allegory is white supremacy and imperialism, right? if we had gotten the shit with the militia in iowa in mismag 1 it would be even more evident. even if evan himself is struggling with something that displays similarities with psychosis or autism, it's not a one-to-one parallel. there is crucial context being overlooked in favor of woobifying him and that's just... chef's kiss. gods bless.
#misfits and magic#i'm fighting not to get spicy in defense of k because i acknowledge that i am projecting on them HARD#(ganbatte yo! nikkeijin stick together)#but also i am so so tired of the microaggressions#and i think folks are projecting their self-hatred on k even harder#OF COURSE i feel sympathy for evan#especially right now#brennan is really good at creating grounded touches for his characters that wrench your heart and obviously losing an arm is traumatic#however given everything i've experienced on tumblr over the last decade some of y'all are yelling at your own reflection rn
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#Good morning folks#I can finally get around to being in my mourning for Chelsea Jessie era#Gift dump probably coming on Sunday#jessie fleming#woso#chelsea fcw#canwnt#canxnt#magdalena eriksson#pernille harder#niamh charles#melanie leupolz#sam kerr#millie bright#zecira musovic
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pov u r going to comicon in a few months so u went charity shop hunting for a cosplay and found half of it in a singular day :)
#me#my face#cosplay wip#cosplay#can. can yuo g. can yuo guess who im gonna. coughs. can y#the last half are some matching pants and a wig... maybe a mask also idk if i should get a custome one or just rock a normal blue defult on#cuz thats kinda his brand ig. boring ass.#oh i also need a briefcase i spose. thatll be much harder to find cheep tho.... if its a cheap beat the hell up one tho#itd be literally perfect#anyway. young girl to boring old man pipeline starts here folks. :)#edit: i am not going for full 100% likeness tho btw. i will add some buttons and the triangles to the suit ofc but i dont care tooo much ab#missing the breast pocket. plus i can paint the clouds on the tie itll be fine ^_^. my shoes will just be my work shoes#theyre not the most comfy things in the world but theyre black and the same general ish shape and i wear em all day already so im used to e#unless i find some cheap shoes that're more similar cuz my work shoes have a pattern on em idk...#either way i go for comfort over anything else with cosplays anyway so this all works out :]
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Was thinking about this all day yesterday but hcs on some IM characters and what their modern music tastes would be and why I think that
Gonna start with Fanny who I think would like rap and hiphop, pop is fun and all and I do think she'd be into pop culture but considering the history of rap and how it usually gathers the attention from people with unfortunate backgrounds [abuse, oppression, ect.] combined with her personality I wanna say she'd like rap
Holly took me a solid minute before I decided she would like indie music, specifically experimental indie, but she's definitely one of those "knows a little bit of everything" music people but also can pull up the most obscure song playlist known to mankind
Cuphead is SO easy, rock, grunge, punk, the alt genre you know what I'm talking about. I feel like he'd have a lean towards indie creators as well. Partly because we all know him as the edgelord he is but also because of that one time Cup was grumbling at the Gala about rich people. I did debate on him also listening to rap but I decided he wouldn't, I feel like the [usual] lyrical choices of rap would bug him and the morals he maintains. I also believe that he'd hate pop due to how corrupt Hollywood is.
Boris was the other one I was struggling with but then my coworker who was playing music started playing country and it hit me like a rock. So I feel like country would be the one he'd lean into, but ultimately considering his age he'd just listen to what everyone else is playing on repeat while he explores what he likes
I went back and forth with Bendy because so badly I wanted it to not be that answer [because otherwise I was just imagining him breakdancing which is so cursed to me] but Bendy would like pop. It's catchy, easy to dance to and also more then likely played all over the place which considering Bendy and Boris grew up on the streets, would most likely be the first genres they're introduced to. However I imagine he usually isn't too picky about his music, as long as he can move to it. I feel like later on he ends up listening to more alternative and indie with Cup and Holly's influences but moreso as a "just to listen to" kinda thing. He also knows a LOT of different types of dance styles and can basically dance to any song. It's just pop is his go to.
#orb ponders#the inky mystery#Haven't decided what Felix Alice or Mugs would listen to yet#I though R&B for Mugs and then maybe pop for Alice? But I don't know I'd have to think harder on it#Absolutely no idea for Felix going to be honest I have so little clue for him I forgot he existed#Bonus: Demi is a metalhead and also a rock fan I refuse to believe otherwise#I know it deep down in my soul#Cup feels like a guy who'd complain that all of rap is talking about “getting bitches” and “shooting people”#I don't think that but I could see Cup having that complaint#Or he'd get too mentally ill from some of the songs reminding him of his trauma#Also this is not what I associate with these characters#I associate Bendy with electroswing and Holly with folk
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You alive man?
Just wanted to check as it's been bout a month or so since your last post
no i'm dead but don't worry about it. tis the season and all that shit ya know?
(all that shit includes, but is not limited to, seasonal depression, art block, retail and food service worker hell, the election, 5 stress induced nightmares in the space of a week, managing a new relationship [first time], living in a capitalist nightmare, etc.)
[more rambles in the tags, as i am often to do]
#its been two months anon im so sorry#ive been doodling but like not getting anything done at all#there is just nothing going on upstairs i am beyond burnt out but i don't know how to take breaks and#its really fucking killin' me folks#don't do this to yourself learn to take breaks from things that are draining you#lean to manage your batteries and dont stretch yourself thin to make other people happy#i know this and i keep doing it to myself anyway#i dont like to vent here so i wont go into much more detail than what i already mentioned in the body and all those tags#just generally exhausted and having a hard time finding the energy to draw and be happy with it#outside of that had a loss in the family that hit way harder than i thought it would#there has been good to though stress and good things#gonna travel outta the country for the first time ever even if it is just up north but im really excited#half the reason im being assassinated by work is because i need the money so i can take this vacation without worry#as well as having a partner for the first time since.... 5th grade? if that even counts?#i feel like a whole years has happened in the span of two months i'm dying chat#not art related
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a lot of dramatic irony in the fact that vale's attempt at an act of erasure is what truly tied their legacies together. i mean, first of all, in my opinion, vale has a bigger chance at winning his tenth if he doesn't make that accusation public, even if he believes it. but secondly, it is that claim of sabotage that means no one ever can forget that marc and vale were part of each others careers, nor can their intrinsic similarities and differences be denied
valentino's low-key quite quirky with legacy management in general, like there's a different ask in my drafts about this but it's sooooo funny how he keeps talking down biaggi/gibernau because. y'know. why would you do that, they were your main opponents in your prime... it's in your interest to talk them up! you want people to think they were super strong and tough to beat! also you did struggle with them you twat. with jorge/casey it's just kind of interesting how little he's concerned with arguing his case, y'know? jorge and casey, especially the latter, are quite actively concerned with Selling their sides of that rivalries, reexamining various controversies quite regularly - which is fun and interesting because it's kinda unintentionally revealing about what's going on in their own brains where valentino is concerned, how they want to be perceived etc... it'd probably be a bit undignified if valentino started getting petty in the press about it, but that didn't need to stop him... he really just has taken a general 'ah isn't nostalgia lovely' approach to discussing these rivalries, he's really not doing much of his own pr in that regard
obviously makes it interesting that he still kinda gets into it with marc when you catch him in the right mood and idk host a podcast. but even there, is that really legacy management? is that really pr? honestly, I kinda think that's just the stuff that feels a bit more compulsive... it's a bit confessional vibes, where usually when he's asked about marc he can be quite sensible about the whole thing and keep it to relatively bland + uncontroversial statements. on the rare occasion where you get more out of him (and it really is pretty rare, that podcast was a bit out of nowhere when you're following this stuff on a rolling basis over the years), it's less selling his story and more just needing to have a bit of a rant? kinda the urge to be a bit cruel with it where he usually knows it's not really in his interest? basically from at latest mid-2016 onwards, he was aware of this dynamic and tried to starve that rivalry of oxygen more often than not... but sometimes he's slipped up. quite memorably so, on one or two occasions, still clearly a slip up
anyway I'm sure it is kinda frustrating how closely they are linked, which, yeah it's fun! marc and valentino were always going to end up linked just because of how bloody good they both are and how they did have a decent bit of overlap in their competitive windows... but! now it's a story! it's the rivalries everyone remembers, and they've managed to tell the most memorable one of them all. I still think in a way, y'know, the deed was done because he did still manage to cut that interpersonal link... it's not like most fans of either of them these days would really see the two blokes as particularly similar. kind of the natural result of the polarisation that's taken place, but it is a narrative that's gradually changed... obviously more neutral fans are generally still aware of it lol - but I wouldn't say the similarities can't be denied... a lot of people seem to be doing just fine at that. still, even the fans can't deny the importance of the enemy in their guy's story, kinda beautiful in a way. everyone's trapped forever and ever
#also lbr valentino's still aware of these similarities. they do bleed into the stuff he says. doesn't really go away#as ever it's important to note the respect for marc as an operator hasn't ever gone. he's extremely consistent on this#//#brr brr#batsplat responds#the only downside is that it's way harder to get the kids invested in the gibernau rivalry these days. like guys. I'm telling you#I'm not talking down the marc rivalry. I just think you also need to check out the one where the one guy was CURSED#with the casey rivalry folks do at least seem vaguely interested in. except mostly just kinda flanderised versions of the pair of them#the jorge rivalry has actually massively suffered because it just gets wrapped into 2015 now. or into generic teammates drama chat#biaggi is interesting because you do want to poll the masses on how everyone thinks suzuka went down. just to check we're on the same page#idol tag
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Apparently my cigarette smoke allergy has gotten significantly worse! I can't even be around it for 10 minutes before my lungs start hurting
#ow my chest#i could just feel my lungs slowly tightening and the desire to cough get harder and harder to ignore#i knew allergies could get worse but come on#ive been around smoke since i was a kid (which yeah maybe dont smoke around kids folks)#now i cant even stand it a little bir
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i fucking love the "A fell first but B fell harder" trope so much that shit makes me so ISJDJSJDJSJDJF
#niko fell first#cause he does#hes more emotional and lord knows when he started having a crush he acts way too obvious about it#cause like... as much as they bicker and banter its really only one of the only time niko get to be himself instead of holding this#mask he has to other ppl#just being as unhinged as he could be as his emotions be free... plus uh the guy is pretty too ig //lh#but man wanderer being the one fell harder.. AUSBAJDBSJDJSJDJ#wanderer hid it better heck you wouldnt even know hes even in love cause hes in denial#he talks about him at least ONCE in his therapy session with nahida#AND SHE NOTICED BUT SHE DOESNT BRING IT UP#CAUSE SHE KNOWS HE DIDNT NOTICED#if you think niko's attempt at hiding his feelings is bad wanderer is even worst#cause wanderer thinks hes being slick hiding it but nawr its#its as transparent as niko's#ok maybe hes better at it in a way that most ppl cant tell#but nahida can#and like.... hes really not as harsh as when they first met#and he can put his guard down a bit seeing its just niko cause he knows niko wouldn't betray or hurt him for whatever reason#anyway they made me ill thats all folks#.txt#tag: puppetgear
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{COMMISSIONS}
#my art#my oc#rambles?#MY BODY HAVE BEEN RUNNING ON NOTHING BUT COFFEE WITH MILK AND A PACK OR TWO OF CRACKERS#WHY HAVENT MY BODY GIVE UP YET???#and if you ask me no#me and my folks do not have enough money to just buy anything that EVERYONE in here will eat#the cheap thing is sushi#AND I HATE SUSHI#SUSHI MAKE DIZZY AND MAKE ME WANT TO PUKE#BURGER IS TOO EXPENSIVE#PIZZA TOO#do you know how much it is a coke of 500ml in here???#and im not talking about the 12 pack of coke#no#ALSO#THE CRACKERS ARE DONE#I JUST ATE THE LAST PACK#I lost my job a few weeks ago too and they still didn't pay me for the days I worked#I NEED TO CONSUME MEAT#i only ate coffee with milk and crackers yesterday#is getting harder and harder to just stay awake during the day#my body cant work like this forever#i need a job
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okay I am SETTING a DEADLINE for myself because if I don't I will fiddle with this fic forever and never finish it, and that would be BAD because I have to get started on my fic for the pale static exchange and I really need to get the one I'm currently working on off my plate
july 9th (to mark a year since I first beat disco elysium). next tuesday. 6 days from now. if I have not posted a new work to AO3 by the end of that day you all have permission to harass me in my ask box about it until I do
#I'd ask for folks to harass me about it now but I don't know if my demand avoidance would kick in even harder#but if I don't put some amount of external accountability on myself it's never going to get done#the finishing the fucking fic thread#<- might reblog this post with updates of how much I've worked on the fic in a given day so if you don't want to see it block that tag now
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What would people actually like to see from my Patreon? I've hit a bit of a wall IRL and want to implement more incentives for folks to join, but I also don't want to offer something that no one's interested in.
I'm mostly doing my own thing, and have considered selling merch, but there's also that anxiety associated with interest/cost of production. I have decent skill in ceramic work, so if I had geographically convenient access to a kiln, I'd be able to do more with that. I miss working with clay and could never get into the polymer stuff.
This isn't like a life or death situation: I'm not exactly well off financially, but the straits aren't horrifically dire yet. I have a decent living situation: the folks here are great. Patreon and Ko-fi are mostly something I do on the side at the moment, but if y'all have any suggestions, I'll look into providing it.
#txt#the folks i live with are great: they've almost single-handedly prevented me from having to live outside.#tough to find modest employment in this day and age without a safe place to sleep or somewhere to shower.#and the housing/rent market isn't looking too hot. so i'm grateful for what i have.#things are getting harder for us: we're not in any danger at the moment but if push comes to shove it would be nice to have a#little bit in the till to contribute on top of my minimum wage#i don't wanna push patreon and ko-fi too hard: nobody likes ads and again my art is more of a hobby that i occasionally make money off of#i'd like to go serious with it at some point but i'm not in a position to give up wages to go full freelance y'know?
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yknow i love transmasc/tboy dirk always and forever but the way some ppl treat transmascness vs transfemmeness in HS's narrative........kinda sucks. like the whole thing about how being transfeminine is a literal transient experience and lets the character in question (any character) truly escape the oppression of HS's narrative-as-a-character which is patriarchal and toxic (lord english, hussie-the-character to an extent. i guess. idk ive seen a lotta ppl lump SI-hussie in w/ this), which is great and does hold weight as an analytical lens esp with how hussie irl is nonbinary. but where does this leave transmasc characters. why are we treating (headcanoned) transfemme HS characters like this and then tbh gleefully dooming (headcanoned) transmasc characters to eternal narrative suffering brought by LE and then mocking them for being ''gross tboys'' full of ''icky testorerone'' so its their fault theyre in this perpetual torment really? because they ''''chose to be a man''''? dunno man its starting to feel bad. especially since some bnf's who are really into this fan theory do actually kinda treat the general idea of transmasculinity like somthing to hold with tongs at arms length away from them. as if its alien or infectous or something and then get really mad when equally dysphoric transmascs do the same with feminity. why are we dooming dirk strider to eternal toxic-masculine suffering and what does that say about how we treat real life transmasc folks both in and outside of the fandom
#my t#basically you arent more or less special or deserving of celebration or joy depending on what pronouns you use#and idk yall gender is such a personal thing and your trans experience def does colour the way you look at the world. it def does mine/ours#and i wish ppl on this site would be more honest about that cause holy hell do some of yall treat eachother like dogshit#PURELY on the basis of identity. you are no better than a TERF if you do this. you ARE a TERF if you do this#but like...........can we all at least TRY not to demonize '''the other side''' here#in quotations because theres no '''other side''' in the trans community we're all just trans in different ways#theres just like. yknow#theres a reason why so many tboys and transmasc folks identify with the striders and dirk especially#and theres a reason why *so many* transmascs felt so much joy abt tboy roxy#so many of our lives pre-transition looked and felt like roxy lalondes. so many of us legit forcefully feminized ourselves#bc the alternative was so fucking scary. as you can probably imagine regardless of what flavour of trans you are#theres also a reason why there are so many transmasc fictives named dirk and dave and idk what to tell these ppl abt that#i remember rlly clearly this affectionate joke like a literal decade ago on this site that was like#daves intro dropped and 1mil tboys named dave materialized into existence#dirks intro dropped and 1mil MORE tboys named dirk materialized into existence#i try rlly rlly hard not to get sour at wlw/nblw focused memes that are like#''i made pepsicola better!!! theyre she/theys now :)'' for example#but its getting increasingly harder to ignore when the same ppl who make these memes treat#fans who prefer m/m *bc they themselves are gay* like shit#or like enjoying m/m because theyre mlm is mysogynistic. which it isnt ffs#that shit gives i am uncomfortable when is not about me and i aint here for that#if i were like these ppl maybe id turn all their fave girls into tboys just to spite them#but it wont be just to spite them bc 1) i aint abt that actually. im too fuckin grown for it and 2)#i genuinely just enjoy exploring m/m and masculinity more because i am a trans mlm. its very simple math
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