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thefallennightmare · 4 months ago

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I'm just so tired.

#tina talks #personal #it's exhausting being on here sometimes #I'm going to keep my mouth shut from now on #not to mention life is kicking my ass #kids daycare just raised tuition #i'm spending more money than im making #personal rant #personal shit #i just need to vent then i'll be fine

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ribbononline · 1 month ago

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Pokemon Masters made a really cute halloween Iono outfit so obviously I put Courtney in it

#pokemon masters #magma admin courtney #oras #i have nothing else to tag this as its just courtney. but in ionos halloween outfit #i have some stuff in my inbox i WILL get to answering them all I promise #ive just been ultra exhausted due to work. life is stressful. but we keep on trucking!#and ive at least been having fun drawing :]#its nice to do some regular art inbetween the pixels. i love doing pixel art but sometimes i miss doing my oras sillies #so here. oras sillies #ive been fucking around with my style a lot because i keep being unhappy with what i make when its not pixels #and it has been helpin g :] its just fun to experiment with stuff #part of the reason why im drawing regular a bit more again. havin fun plus playing

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eyeoftheb3h0ld3r · 1 month ago

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its sad to me how directdogman had to take down the post saying henry was bi because of the sheer amount of hate he got on it. yall wanted henry to be homophobic that badly huh well too fucking bad he will forever be bi in my mind

#plague rambles #dsaf #dayshift at freddys #this fandom is exhausting sometimes #can we normalize being kind in here??#some of yall are so rude bro its insane #actually fed up with this fandom istg

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triglycercule · 8 days ago

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hhhhidea...,,,, CUTE idea (kinda?) dust reading to phantom papyrus during night to lull him to sleep,,,, but really its just a way for him to pretend that everythings not really that shit (as if phantom paps isn't just dust's denial incarnate) and to help him NOT wake up because of a nightmare again or something

(and just because i can't resist now im imagining this with mtt. not that dust stopped reading to paps in place of killer and horror (because he wouldnt he simply wouldn't) but now the two join them for storytime. horror knocks out pretty damn fast and eventually dust falls asleep too after he makes sure that paps is satisfied with the amount he read and then killer's just left to sit there. maybe he tries to fall asleep maybe he doesn't,,,, maybe he picks up the book and continues reading but EITHERWAY,,,,,, this scene in my head so 💥💥💥😇😇😇)

#sweet soft mtt taking OVER triglycercule's brain has been invaded with them.........#horror probably sleeps like a rock man. dust is a very very very light sleeper. killer doesn't sleep at all and when he does #its just like that half asleep state. better than nothing tho....... those weeks of not sleeping probably leads to the most delicious naps #now in an ideal world killer learns to get a proper sleep schedule even if he can't feel his exhaustion #however in MY mtt dominated world killer doesn't fix his sleep habits and instead just takes a shitton of naps everywhere #they killerfied the house (made everything softer to sleep on) and killer always has 2 walking pillows to sleep on #sure he might not get 8 hours of sleep like during night. but he got that over the day so its ok TRUSY #this surely wont have any bad side effects but whatever its the mtt since when do they care about PROPER habits. if it works it works #ik i aaaaalways say hrkl wouldn't like phantom paps and find it weird but also now im considering #like. them being jealous of dust for always having kinda papyrus with him #like damn..... horror fucked up his brother permanently. he will never get the old paps back #and killer doesnt want to see his papyrus again because then he thinks hell just ruin everything again #but dust gets to talk and laugh and joke with his paps all the time!!! he got it better than them and thats just cus he hallucinates!!!! wt #i mean phantom paps isnt a 1:1 version of papyrus but hes close enough in my eyes #another idea....... horror (and maybe killer if he warms up to it) hanging out with dust JUST to talk to phantom paps #dust could easily just lie about what phantom paps says (although unless he had a reason he wouldnt risk upsetting paps like that methinks)#but theres something there. something something toxic mttpoly dynamic or whatever idc man. im in the mood for FLUFF!!!!!!!!!!#i think it would be funny if phantom paps says dusts deepest thoughts about hrkl. and then if he wants to say it dust has to filter it a LO #they could be sitting near killer and phantom paps would provide a detailed description of why killer has the mannerisms of a cat #and then dust would (hesitantly) agree to everything paps said (he was thinking it too) but when killer looks back at him #(he's been staring at killer for the past 10 minutes to see if what paps said was right) dust just says like. you remind me of a cat #OR BETTER YET he doesn't wanna admit that he thought of that so he just says paps says you remind him of a cat #insert horror version of this moment here. and killer quickly realizes that dust's just using papyrus as an excuse for why he says stuff #like that sometimes. horror just thinks dust's a weirdo freak (but unlike killer he takes the little observations to heart. loser)#killer sans #horror sans #dust sans #murder time trio #utmv #tricule hc

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ezlo-x · 18 days ago

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Also sorry i havent been drawing much lately 😭

#i come from classes being exhausted…i forget we are just passing mid-term #like wdym im already halfway through..so I just come home and lay down #and scroll on insta…i should stop that but also lately I haven’t had ideas on what to draw #still working on the comic!! but it is slower #i should ask for drawing requests sometime #just to exercise yknow #also completely unrelated but i decided to watch bride of discord for the fun of it #omitting THAT part I think 12/13 year old me wouldve gobbled this up #also ive been writing chapter summaries of my au and i want to challenge myself how far I can go #currently i just finished w chapter 8’s summary #also sorry idk why im just ranting here #txt

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scary-friend · 6 months ago

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Current Mood

it’s literally midnight but here I go

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jrueships · 2 months ago

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i genuinely cannot stand being around ppl who have to take their anger out on others . i'm so sick of always having to act like the bigger person to my Older brother while he can just tornado around my entire life & belongings & relationships without warrant all over smthing that had absolutely nothing to do with you or anyone, rlly.

#but HE runs and tells on ME?#i was just going to let shit blow over #lock myself away as fucking alwys like when we were little and he would cuss up a fucking storm #screaming crying and throwing the shit i bought over being unable to beat a game he plays every fucking day #set on fucking Easy mode #and hes hitting a bat into the door or wrecking my shit in my room or fucking. yelling abt me to the fuckin dog #and in the 'dog's voice' making the animal agree with him bcs im? acting crazy #over a fcking video game that u cant even tell him to turn off or at least stop fucking screaming and wailing or else it'll just set it off #sooner #when dad did it he was fcking drunk and i was illegitimate #it's like i cant even fcking escape fcking hell.#hiding all my bad grades in math bcs i couldnt read a stupid fking number right bcs i didnt want ppl screaming at me #for causing even more trouble than they already have to deal with and just living as dumb bcs it costs less #ill get over it ill try harder #i always have to be the bigger fucking man and im so fucking tired of it #but how are u supposed to cut off someone youve been assigned caretaker as b4 u were even born #im so fucking exhausted #anyways so yea. im pretty sensitive to tone so if i seem like a baby to smthing i apologize #i rlly just. cant stand sme things sometimes #i love getting told i never felt like a friend to my other siblings not only bcs of our massive age gap but also theyre legitimate and #i dont drink or smoke so apparently we cant hang without them always checking the time on their phones #while im taking them out to smthing they like like it's so fun i fcking love it here #anyways yea. love zero comprehension or compassion. love it. loving my life

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writerfae · 2 years ago

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Actually some of us don’t have the time or energy to write thousands (or hundreds or whatever) of words a day and that’s okay and that’s fine. Don’t beat yourself up about it. There will be better times. Save your energy for those instead of beating yourself up about not writing recently. In your heart you’re still a writer.

#am I talking to myself here? maybe so #actually I’m the target audience of this post and so are people that feel the same #like I see writeblrs going I wrote …k today or I’m logging off and going on a writing spree or I will spend the whole day writing #and I’m happy for them #but sometimes I tend to beat myself up about not being as productive #because meanwhile I’m like I came home from work and crawled into my bed to watch a show and I call it a success that I didn’t fall asleep #half way through #those are just old thoughts resurfacing again I know #anyways #to all my exhausted writers: you’re valid #writer speaks #writeblr

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corokoro · 5 months ago

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twitter was having a shit fit earlier when the SGF happened and the s2 cast was revealed and like

i understand part of the rage at two crossovers and bison already being back, people wanted the big faves to come back like the sf3 cast in general, cody, menat, etc

but think of the LORE, gang, the POTENTIAL

and also when it comes to growing rosters and what characters get in, you gotta get used to the odd choices and potential disappointment, this is why the smash dlcs still worked even with characters like piranha plant and min-min, so i was kinda surprised by all the anger on twitter, and it was genuinely hurting my own hype because yeah i didn't think bison should've been added this early either, but since he is here now anyways, it's time to deep analyze on what they could do with this, because they could prove JP to be the bigger bad if they play their cards right

anyways guess im lurking on tumblr for a bit, yall are stuck with me now KFHSLFND

#sf6 #street fighter 6 #not even joking when i say twitter's reaction exhausted me #like look i get the disappointment but like #some people were saying they were gonna walk away from the game if their fave didnt get in like #guys its season 2; we have time #its disappointing to not have them now yeah i get it since i wanted falke #but like it feels like theyre having a visceral reaction and i cant help but be concerned bc of it #like guys sfv had like 6 seasons give em time #i rather have 4 dlcs this season than 6 dlc btw if it means less crunch for the devs #basically i have lots of feelings about peoples reactions and it feels like whiplash bc this community's been pretty calm otherwise #sometimes later is good! sora was last for smash dlc and it worked way better than if he was introduced earlier #many thoughts head full; i think the fighting game connecting universes is cool enough to warrant it #also i saw someone being directly rude to takayama like bro why #its not that big a deal just dont buy the dlc if youre not gonna use the character-#you literally get them in WT for free and i know that bc i only own ed and yet here i am with akumas style on talon

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boundinparchment · 3 months ago

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The double edged sword of wanting to participate *more* but not feeling the draw to anything in particular despite trying is an engagement killer.

#certain things don’t tickle my brain #but that means I just stand here like 🧍🏻‍♀️#and even if I try it always feels surface level because I don’t feel a connection but I like my mutuals #that’s not to say I don’t try new things but they definitely don’t make me want to write or engage with a fandom #like sometimes that’s exhausting #and I am so tired of being the pillar you know?#(they being the new things sometimes I just enjoy things and don’t feel fixated)

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spaghett-onaplate · 3 months ago

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i need to pack my bags and get the hell out of frown town

#i realise that recently i have been disgustingly self absorbed with my own issues 😔#there is a line between discussing bad feelings with friends and being stiflingly negative and i leapt across that line a few weeks ago #like yeah my own issues feel horrendously overwhelming at points but i can't always be caught up in that when i'm around my best friend #i think it's a mix of just exhaustion and also the fact i see her after school where i'm more positive #so i just crash after a tiring day and become the mayor of frown town #it hurt to hear but i mean she worded it much less directly than i have been wording this #and the vibes have been feeling rancid lately so im glad i recognise the issue now and things should feel a bit better between us #just ough it's so easy to become an unpleasant person #not even necessarily by inflicting harm on others but just not inflicting any joy #it's rough out here but it's good to find out negative aspects of yourself and improve them ig #bc i have had friends that are horribly negative and it's just difficult to be around them sometimes #ugh anyway sleep will help all this #oh also in the morning today seemed impossibly exhausting but i got through it #woohoo #now i desperately need to fix my sleep schedule starting with now. bye bye tumblr

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erisolkat · 3 months ago

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god i hate everyone

#who thought it would be cute to immediately start ribbing me about how hairy and bald and ugly im gonna be when i go on t #one. im taking minoxidil. two. i wanna be hairy. and three. im not transitioning to attract you guys im transitioning to attract other trans #people! other trans guys find it hot come on!#like ok so dads brother is out here rn right #so first mom tells me hes gonna ask me questions about being trans. ok fine.#second she starts going on about how i had to be emotionally vulnerable with like 3 different therapists for this. whatever.#then when i start participating in the conversation she immediately asks “so how are you feeling about losing all your hair”#THEN she has the audacity to say to my uncle “yeah its sort of a gamble hes either gonna end up hairy like the italian side or fairly #baby smooth like yall“ when she fucking KNOWS that im dysphoric about my lack of body hair #and this happens every time! and its out of nowhere constantly!#all the while the cis men in the room are fucking bullying me with all this toxic masculinity bullshit!#sometimes i just wish i had never come out is all im saying #kept this a secret until i became an adult yknow. yeah i would have to do everything myself but it wouldn't be like this #just because i told you that you could call me a fag doesnt mean youre suddenly allowed to do microagressions constantly #shes tickled to fucking death with calling my future bottom growth my “teenie weenie” what the fuck! what the fuck!!!#and meanwhile every time i try to say words or make a joke my dad and grandpa jump on the fucking opportunity to correct me! or cut me off!#sorry im fucking exhausted i barely slept at all the night before last and got i think maybe 7 hours of sleep at most last night #and i just got out of therapy which always wears me out

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brothfan1997 · 11 months ago

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the problem with working a job where u interact with like 1500 people per day & u are supposed to be charming and informative the whole time is that sometimes you are so weird on accident?? and u say something that is so weird to say to another person out loud ?? and u just have to be like :) lets pretend that was normal. do you have any other questions

#me sitting at my table in silence recounting my day and visibly wincing repeatedly etc etc #to be fair to myself people say really weird things to me and then i have to respond.#i think sometimes disney adults expect childrens museum employees to all be like disneyland character employees.#which we are not i’m not actually doing a bit i’m just some guy who works here and will talk to your kid about dinosaurs ??#if your kid points to a dead bug and asks if its dead (this is in the context of letting children touch preserved specimens)#im literally not gonna play along and lie to your child that is ridiculous #its not sleeping. i am here to talk about science #LOL i will probably delete this later i am so exhausted holiday break sure is… breaking me…#2600 people today…#unrelated sometimes people come up to me later to compliment my stage shows and i think in the new year #im just gonna start being like :) what parts did you enjoy ? elaborate please #i feel like im doing improv all the time.

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unhingedlesbear · 1 year ago

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Hoghhh after a long month of defending the following characters from an entire discord server, I'm running back to here to say:

-I love Mark

-I also love Ashley

-I ADORE Emily

-I think Alex is okay

-I like Salim a lot

-I love Rachel

-I love Taylor

I am far less likely to get attacked here than there <3

#I can see peoples reasons for some of these but #1. idc I still love them #2. Why Mark? Genuinely what reasons are there to hate Mark?#This I will never understand #Genuinely the least problematic character in that entire game #And people despise him there #It's crazy #You know it's bad when DU'MET gets more love than Mark #And I've said enough here about Emily and Ashley #As for Rachel I haven't played HOA enough to fully defend her but I know that she ended up being my fav soooooooo #And Taylor? She's literally just a girl who made the mistake of being *Gasp* Emotional #tbh most of these are just girls making the mistake of idk existing #let me not get into all that here but #Isn't it funny how all these people I listed are either women POC or both?#Funny how that works #Anyway yeah it gets exhausting sometimes

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milo-is-rambling · 7 months ago

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I can’t even imagine living without anxiety. Like. How. What?

#I mean if I woke up tomorrow with a normal amount of anxiety it would be a shocking difference to my daily life. and I am medicated!!! like.#what? am I missing something here?#my mom tells me that meds can only do so much and that they’re really just meant to make it so you can get out of bed every day #but now I’m wondering like is that true or is that my mom is on the wrong dose herself and something could be done to help us both #gahhhhh idk I just feel helpless bc I’m scared of making big changes and the big changes have to make are scary and large and I need a #bulleted list made of things I can do (and break down into very small steps) to actually progress in a positive way in my life instead of #being SO afraid and SO stagnant. it’s been six months since (ptsd diagnosis causing thing) and I don’t feel like I’ve made any progress even #with a therapist. I’m working towards a more intensive program but I feel like it’s almost making me feel more alienated bc I’d have to like #go be surrounded by other mentally ill people and medical people which brings dad dying trauma and like I know I’m running from it bc I’m #afraid to face the changes I need to make and the feelings that are going to come up but fuck man can’t I get some fucking meds that make #this easier to deal with!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grief and ptsd and long term isolation and anxiety and chronic pain like fuck it’s #so exhausting!!!! I feel like I’m fucking fighting thru life and then from the outside it’s like I’m doing nothing cause I stay in my room #and get stoned and play animal crossing and watch tv and cry and over eat and sometimes I drive around in circles so I can scream sing until #my throat burns and I get a headache and everything finally quiets down in my head for a second. I know I look like I’m doing nothing and #that’s because I am doing nothing but waiting for the next time a mental health professional will talk to me for an hour like it’s so sad #anyways. you ever take a big dab and then start crying and type all of this like it’s an epiphany even tho it’s things you already know.#honestly crying in front of the air conditioner is so slay slight breeze over my face cooling the tears the white noise calming me down

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year ago

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I have found a beautiful perfect humble rock specimen that is light yellow with a weird dark yellowy brown lining, somewhat resembling a chunk of smoked gouda cheese... effervescent

#I am still very into trash collecting at the moment and even went out and got one of those grabby sticks for cheap and a little #bucket I can carry around and put trash in. so I am going on walks in nature a bit more (not really to enjoy nature but more to play the #very fun Real Life Hidden Object Point And Click Game that is 'hunt for bottle caps and cans' .. but eh.. whatever gets me out of the #house lol).. anyway.. some nature places near water will have cool rocks #Which I know you're not supposed to take them and I MOSTLY dont.. but every once in a while it's like... when else will I ever find a #gouda rock... I have cleaned up 4 buckets of trash today.. I have helped the environment.. mayhaps.. i could take a One Single Rocke as a #treate... ANYWAY. but yeah. I don't know the names of rocks but there's a rock that's a matte muted marigold yellow sort of #color and I call them 'cheese rock'. I'm pretty sure this one is of the 'cheese rock' species but it just has weird brown coloration #like maybe it got stained or something on one side of it. Most of the other cheese rocks have no markings. though sometimes there will be a #auburn reddish sort of hue on a corner or something.. hrmm.. curious. I also got a Beginner's Hobby rock tumbler and some supplies #so I might try polishing some of the rocks from my enormous rock collection. even though they're all street rocks I picked up from sidewalk #and stuff. I saw a video where someone put random gravel and stuff in a rock tumbler and none of them were Stunning Gems or whatver #but some still turned out cool enough that I would be pleased with the result... OUgh.. I want to post more I need to like do costumes and #sculptures and stuff and be Active On Social Media and think about my Future and Career and how it always benefits artists to keep an #active social media or etc. but I just feel so tired and bad lately. I think the summer heat waves have really exhausted me. I also have #been trying to make new friends + on a weird schedule so I've been socializing and also watching media too much. I notice I always start #to feel this kind of unsettled stress of not making any forward progress in my life if I do that for too long. like 'Okay this week I've #done nothing but meet up with two friends & watch like 10 episodes of tv and only worked on a few projects on the side.. this is HORRIBLE!'#(ppl who follow me here that I talk to on discord: this isn't about you! Im specifically just referencing being tired of introductory talks #with a new round of random strangers during my Friend Hunt. Just clarifying so it couldn't be misinterpreted as vaguepost implying that I'm #secretly bothered by talking to you or etc. lol.. anyway) . Which I know to MOST people 'I talked to a lot of friends and watched some cool #stuff!' sounds like a GOOD relaxing time but.. to me it is not ghhj.. Those are 'external' focuses on things outside myself which bothers #me if not moderated. Like.. i MUST retreat internally to work on my worldbuilding and my own thoughts and etc. at very regular intervals or #it will really start to bear on me too much. Brain Mandated Hermit Isolation lol. Just being too detached from my world and stuff for #too long feels increasingly bad. PLUS. every day I don't make tangible progress towards my goals is a day wasted that I could have been #investing in my future by working on novels/games/sculptures/actual career relevant stuff. Not even in a Capitalism way i just genuinely #enjoy Completing Tasks & feel miserable if I don't for too long. EVEN the media I'm watching I turn into A Task since I rank in a detailed #google doc list after viewing lol.. Like EW movie too boring on it's own. NEED to turn it into something I can categorize and analyze ghghj #LOVE to make things more complicated than they need to be. like YAAAY organizational tasks! yaay meticulous sorting!! BOO ''mindless fun''!

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