#ugh anyway sleep will help all this

[spaghett-onaplate]

i need to pack my bags and get the hell out of frown town

[melonyfelonyfellonme]

Yeah ik there's something pure sweet about Lucanis feeling safe enough to sleep a full night around Rook etc but bloody hell he looks fucking exhausted 😭

It's honestly all the more impressive he's even functioning, let alone at the high level he is, given how tired he looks

Honestly the day he's had more than one night's worth of a full sleep, it's so over for everyone lmao

[running-in-the-dark]

my niece is staying with us for the whole weekend for the first time. until now it's always been one night only, not two.

it's the second night now and I have already decided this is not happening again anytime soon. I'm so fucking exhausted. it'd be less exhausting if it was my nephew, I think - he's older and also doesn't need as much help (even when he was her age).

I love my niece but she just asks so many questions. like when we're watching a show or a movie, even if it's one she has seen before (even multiple times), she doesn't understand what's going on and constantly asks me to explain everything. I don't mind it, really, but it does take a lot of energy. plus tonight it took over two hours for her to fall asleep because she was scared by the noises of the house and the nearby road. I get it, but damn I'm so fucking tired, I just want to sleep 😭

[justmevoldemort]

I'm experiencing Sirius brainrot per usual so here are some of my thoughts on him singing

I think Sirius can sing

And well for that matter

It's a combination of natural talent and musical lessons he took as a kid

But he can just

Sing

He doesn't sing very often (and when he does it's often classic rock)

But he can easily hit notes and his voice is just

So pretty?

Makes you want to stop and listen

The Marauders love it

They were floored when they found out tho

And James tries to get him to sing all the time

(James can't sing)

But he only really sings if he's in a really good mood, if it's a distraction for a prank, or if he's drunk and it's karaoke night

He kills karaoke night by the way

With the vocals and the insane charisma the crowd is just in the palm of his hand

The first night Sirius gets up on stage and does karaoke it's talked about for weeks

But I digress

What I'm really thinking about is Sirius singing smooth jazz

It's not his genre of choice,

But his voice could fit it so well

Smooth with rasps at the appropriate times and able to hit both low and high notes?

Perfect

It happens one day when Sirius and Remus are studying in the common room or their dorm and Remus is playing smooth jazz from his gramophone (bc Hogwarts tech)

It's not his genre of choice, but the melody is catchy and he likes the beat

And so Beyond the Sea by Bobby Darin is stuck in his head

Thoroughly stuck in his head

He spends most of the day humming it quietly

But in the evening when they're just lounging around the common room,

He starts to sing it

Softly, under his breath

He doesn't even realize he's singing aloud

He's just singing while staring off into space and fidgeting with something

Peter notices it first

His eyes go kinda wide when he looks up and realizes who's singing and he immediately nudges James

James immediately smiles broadly

He loves when Sirius sings

James kicks Remus who glares at him until James gestures his head toward Sirius

And Remus's jaw drops

He's heard him sing, but not like this

(Take that platonic or romantic either way Remus would love it)

And maybe his voice gets a little bit louder as the song rises

But he still doesn't really notice

And he doesn't notice when one by one, the whole common room quiets

Because Sirius's voice is addictive and is the type makes people just stop to listen

And honestly some are just surprised

Bc that boy can croon

He sings the whole song through

And it's absolutely perfect

When he finally finishes, he abruptly becomes aware of the silence

And he kinda blinks blankly at everyone staring at him

"What?"

"Flitwick is gonna be so pissed you never joined his choir"

[indecisive-dizzy]

why brain whyyyy

i just want to read a book why must it make me paranoid?? I want to Sleep 😭

[seventh-district]

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[undefeatablesin]

Every time a new Bloodborne comic comes out and the Nameless Hunter is nowhere to be seen, I am not at all surprised but eternally disappointed.

[abyssalpriest]

God I could and should write a whole fucking book by the end of this life here on Lev and his symbols

ill write it then burn it before anyone else gets a copy. or i wont. im supposed to be helping him this incarnation here to get a better anchor in this plane so maybe it would help more than itd be weird - im just getting from him the energy of "yeah no people already effectively have these things, people on my plane already know me inside and out to an extensive degree, may as well have it here too" you know. fair

[anonymolly]

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[asavapatr]

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[shreksflamingknob69]

for someone who’s been in therapy for seven years i sure suck at actually being therapised

[running-in-the-dark]

my niece stayed with us last night. it was pretty fun this time, probably because I was feeling better (if I'm already in pain or exhausted, I can't handle it). after we dropped her off, we talked to my mother for a little bit, and then drove to my in-laws. we were there for a few hours and because the guys were busy outside, i ended up talking to my mother-in-law for most of that time. it was... kind of good? I don't know. she actually showed some real emotions, just a little bit, but hey that's more than ever before! I even gave her a weird little shoulder squeeze/side hug, it was so weird.

anyway, I almost fell asleep in the car on the way home because I was so tired, and actually did fall asleep immediately on the couch.

[never-quite-buried]

Bless the overnight emts & er staff who communicated with me, a psych patient presenting with panic attacks verging on fear of a heart attack or stroke and delusions of surveillance, as if i was a human fucking being. So not used to that but wow it was a change of pace. Being offered an ACTUAL benzo to stop the spiraling instead of a fucking benadryl was so refreshing. My mind is quiet right now and I’m so fucking grateful. I feel like a different, far more coherent and pleasant to be around, person.

Extra shoutout to my mom who sliced me up some cheese and an apple to snack on cause everything else sounded awful. I love you mommy😭

[cheeses-degree]

I LOVE COLLEGE. I want to go home though 😭

[straykats]

/meds talk, mental health as well ig, uhhhhhh

[ioannemos]

should really be turning on the ol' dream machine rn but my brain will surely be rolling out the new stuff, so before that happens...

the main thing i remember is that there was some kind of demon or monster or god or something that had lost four pieces of itself and needed them back to like. fully manifest or whatever, but they were really weird and small parts, not like the head and hands and feet or anything. they were like... they weren't these ones specifically but it's like if a demon was like RIGHT i need you guys to find my appendix, my pancreas, and my collarbones so i can reward you and also bring hell on earth. like. what

anyway the weird thing about this one was that it was like i was experiencing two timelines simultaneously, the one where the demon was sending people out to find these pieces of itself and the timeline where i was following an unguided tour of where these things took place. i remember touring a big fancy house (that of course made no sense bc architecture never does in my dreams, but at least this one looked kinda cool i guess? lots of very loud wallpaper) and coming very close to seeing someone get eaten by the demon. he was a follower too, not some rando. i think he had Sinned or something

...can't remember if this was part of the same dream or a different one, but i was struggling to get dressed properly for something, properly meaning a dress 🤢 and also i ended up paying for someone else's whole outfit and it was like $1700?? i remember being mad about it bc i have that much in my bank account atm so i could pay for it but i was very doubtful that, despite her promises to the contrary, she would actually pay me back