#sighhhhh apparently im not really over that traumatic thing that happened on christmas years ago
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#sighhhhh apparently im not really over that traumatic thing that happened on christmas years ago#i was trying to ignore it bc its fine. it doesnt affect my life any more. it happened so long ago#but i was so anxious going to sleep last night and then i had some horrible dreams and i just woke up with a pit of anxiety in my stomach#im not even that anxious or panicking about the traumatic thing though. my brain just hit the panic button and i cant stop ruminating#what if it never happened. what if i made different choices. what if i *was* different bc obviously everything is my fault#(i know its not)#anyways. ignore me sorry for vague mental illness posting on a holiday#but maybe i just need to stop celebrating christmas#but i dont think it would stop just like it didnt stop when i stopped celebrating my birthday :(#smh fandom holidays would never betray me like this#ugh i need to get up bc i know seeing other ppl will help but i just want to sulk in bed all day#ill probably delete this later#vent#personal
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