#it’s what they deserve goddammit

[novelconcepts]

anyway until we get to see modern-day Tai and Van fuck their souls out, I guess I’ll just have to keep writing it

[lepusrufus]

In case you're wondering what I've been up to

Dragons

The answer is dragons

[sketch-twentytwo]

WHAT WAS THAT LOAD OF HORSESHIT

[jungle-fae]

Bear with me, it’s essay time because crying about beefleaf while rereading some parts of book 4 gave me a LOT of thoughts and emotions.

The more I think about it, the more I’m convinced that beefleaf were never going to get a happy ending, not because mxtx didn’t want to give them one, but because their dynamic literally makes it an impossibility. I don’t think it matters that He Xuan genuinely cared for SQX as Ming Yi because he is never going to be able to look at them without recalling what they took from him. Sure, he might not hate SQX, and he might actually wish them a happy life, but that life cannot be with him.

And this is taking into account a scenario in which He Xuan didn’t kill Shi Wudu, because even if he didn’t, I don’t think he himself could ever be truly happy with SQX. There is too much pain associated with them, and even though they were not the direct cause of that pain, I think it’s still fair for He Xuan not to want to be around that reminder. Is that fair to Qingxuan? Not necessarily, but neither was any of this fair to He Xuan.

I don’t think they could ever have a healthy relationship built upon a foundation filled with so much hurt, because they would only end up hurting each other more, whether intentionally or not. I think they both know this, and it’s why I personally believe that the ending mxtx gave them is the best we could have hoped for. In the end, I believe it’s clear that neither of them hates the other, but they do harbor a lot of complicated feelings on the matter that cannot be resolved with apology and forgiveness.

For Qingxuan’s part, I don’t think they blame He Xuan for their present situation. In fact, they are adamant in relaying to Xie Lian that He Xuan didn’t do anything to them after the events of the Black Water Arc. However, they also seem intent on moving forward with their mortal life. As for He Xuan, his dropping SQX off at the royal capital, as well as his willingness to give SQX his spiritual power and the fan (regardless of the dire circumstances) shows that there’s a part of him that still cares about them. He has no desire to interfere with Qingxuan’s chances at happiness in their new life, precisely because of that affection, but he also doesn’t want to be around to grieve over what could have been. Because every time He Xuan sees SQX, there will only be regret, both for his inability to see SQX without the attached pain and for the friend (or even lover) he could have had had their fates not been so maliciously intertwined.

Yes, I love beefleaf, but what I love more than the ship are the incredibly written individuals themselves. And I do firmly believe that, in canon at least, they would both be more at peace by letting go and moving on. Not necessarily happy, but at peace.

Now, in another universe, where these two met outside of these circumstances? Beefleaf most certainly sails.

Side note: In a weird way, writing this was actually kinda cathartic because it gave me peace with and acceptance of beefleaf’s canon ending, while still acknowledging that these two definitely had the potential to be lovers. That potential can be (and already has been) explored through everyone’s lovely fan creations.

[kanonavi]

(Spoilers for Kaeya’s Hangout)

I actually can’t believe that one route of Kaeya’s hangout is literally just everything I’ve ever wanted from the two of them interacting. The fact that Venti, Barbatos, looked Kaeya in the eye and basically said “Even though you feel lost, I will watch over you as you search for what you’re looking for” has just left me in shambles. 

The first route I played was the one where Kaeya vagued about wanting to break free from the chains of fate and not wanting to exist as a pawn in other’s schemes, and now Mondstadt’s Archon has told him to his face that he will watch over him as he searches for that freedom. I’m just insane about it. I’m insane about it! 

Because it really is the kind of thing that I think Kaeya needs to hear. He’s in a better place than he’s ever been (he has his place within the Knights and has forged friendships with them, he’s on better terms with Diluc, etc.) but clearly these kinds of thoughts still occupy his mind. And now I don’t necessarily think Kaeya knows for a fact Venti is Barbatos, but I’m certain that he of all people understands that Venti is more than he says he is. So to have this person who clearly has a deeper understanding of Barbatos than most say these things to him must serve as at least a little bit of a comfort.

I truly cannot stand to hear it said anymore that Venti doesn’t care about his people, because it just isn’t true. Venti believes in letting his people live their own lives without any heavenly micro-managing, but he still loves them so deeply. If he didn’t, he wouldn’t have gone along with Kaeya’s scheme to help Grace and he certainly wouldn’t have said all of that to Kaeya. A God who doesn’t care wouldn’t go out of his way to tell a person who wasn’t even born in his nation, “I see you and your struggle, and I am with you.”

[janetsnakehole02]

when we already had to deal w season 3 going to polin instead of benophie and now i see people saying philoise should be next because it “flows better chronologically”

[man-down-in-hatchet-town]

So uh it's been like two hours since I heard the last third of Ghosts of Antikythera and I think I've been changed as a human being???

[areyoudoingthis]

will my heart ever stop breaking for the season 2 we should have had

[jimmywilsonschutzpah]

Watching 5 to 9 and damn, poor Cuddy. Lucas wants sex and he orgasms too fast and that’s it, sex ends and Cuddy is left hanging. I sometimes forget how boring heterosexual men (or their depictions in media) can be. You have Lisa Cuddy in bed, ready to go, and you leave her there, untouched and unsatisfied, because you came in your pants? Shame on you, Lucas.

[relictalksic]

When you get this, please respond with five things that make you happy! Then, send to your last ten people in your notifs (anonymously). You never know who might benefit from spreading positivity ❤️

Oh this is really really sweet! Thank you anon!

1) My best mates, including but not limited to my partner and also my best friendo guy pal

2) my 3 cats! I love them! I have 2 mainx boy cats and one rescue girl cat (tuxedo maybe?) that we saved from baby. shes a menace and the smartest one, its terrifying /silly

3) Oooo i have to say my system. these guys are amazing and while i may not fully know who I am, these guys are some of the nicest (and unique) people i know. odd to share a body but, i mean, were making it work! :)

4) the communities im in, im lucky to be surrounded by actually decent people. sending love! (And if you, random scroller want another friendo (pro endo (that rhymed!)) feel free to message me ^^)

5) being lucky enough to still be able to walk most days without difficulty. there was a period of time where i had to use my crutches to get around, and barely had enough energy to do that. Im happy that my legs still function, and while i know i may lose that ability again in the fiture, im thankful for what i have now.

bonus 6!) Anons in my inbox like these! i love people sometimes :D thanks again anon! </3

Sending love to all those that need it, sincerely, the blur who is probably someone lol. </3

[gotmyass2marz]

daily 3am Getting Emotional About Characters session

[blushyslushy]

Part 1 cus of pictures limit, god fucking dammit tumblr

"BUT WHY NOT??? WHY DON'T YOU PLAY CRIMINAL CASE??"

"BECAUSE CRIMINAL CASE KILLED MY GRANDMA OKAY???"

...

"My uncle played criminal case and got stuck in season 1"

"How...how did criminal case killed your grandma? What season she was playing?"

"I was the one playing"

*Branch going thorough the cases normally*

"BRANCH LOOK OUT!!" *Saves him for major characters deaths*

*Reaches the season finale*

[sweet-as-kiwis]

WHY JS OT WIMDY

[victo1re-arc]

can’t port from my pc rn but — asherín :)

[sluttish-armchair]

I had this lovely dream where I designed & sewed custom wedding dresses for a living and Julia wanted to buy one cuz she was getting married to Winston so like I helped her design it and all. and it's kind of a stupid dream but it felt so nice. like they were getting married and everything's okay! I don't remember what the dress looked like but it had so many layers of tulle. I also had to fight a bear but that wasnt relevant to the wedding

🥹 She got her dress aaaaaaaaa

[six-improbable-things]

I forgot to post anything about this, but I did the scene where I had to read some of my writing to the dnd party (twice!) and they were SO nice about it. I couldn't stop smiling. (which was kind of a weird disconnect since the scenes were super dark, lmao.) But augh, I'm so glad they were nice to meeee. My poor boy Rook is Going Through It right now, and things are about to get worse.

Next session we also might get to do our first version of ship combat using the rules I made which is kind of wild. I'm very nervous, but I feel like after this last session and sharing stuff I wrote with them (out loud!!!) I can handle it. Probably.