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caffeiiine · 4 months

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sick again 0/10

#it’s probably bc im not eating at much as i probably should #and/or bc im eating the same things #but eugh #i feel like throwing up #sickness tw #sodaramblestoomuch #not ed related btw im fasting for ramadan #it doesn’t usually make me sick tho #this sucks

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inkskinned · 1 year

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probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

#this is true #writeblr #warm up #relatedly for some reason one of our Favorite Jokes #amongst the Siblings #is like - ''this is so good u will love it''#while we are reacting to something we OBVIOUSLY find viscerally disgusting #like we will be actively retching and be like ''nooooo it's so good''#to the point that i sometimes get nervous if someone outside my family is like oh u should try it its good #(obvi we never force each other to eat anything. we are all just curious birds and #like. we're GONNA try the new thing.)#edit to answer why we had so much vanilla:#my mom is a very good cook and we LOVE to bake. so she just had a lot of staples in the house.#it's one of those things that's like. have u ever continuously thought ''ah i should get butter im probably out''#even tho u are not out of butter. so u end up with like 5 years of butter.#my mom would do that in a costco but like with vanilla extract #to be fair we WERE always using WAY TOO MUCH bc we were kids #so like she was right to stock up #ps. yes we were VERY sick after this lol i just didn't want to include it in the post in case ppl had an ick about that #u can tell it's real bc we knew "oh no we fucked up that's too much vanilla to waste'' but our reaction was to just. keep drinking it #> sibling understanding that vanilla extract isn't free > knowledge mother doesnt mind if we use it for milkshakes #> sibling choice to maybe get in a loophole of ''not wasting it'' if we drink it bc that's the same as using it (not throwing it out)#listen bud i was like 13 and my sister was like 9 #when my mom discovered this we. got in. A LOT. of trouble. a lot of it. a LOT of it.#3rd edit bc i guess it isn't clear - i am 1 of my brother's 2 little sisters #i am the middle child #out of all the ways i have had to explain a post before being like ''did u forget a middle child can happen'' is my favorite

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corvidcas · 1 year

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i think part of the reason people are so hateful about fat people is because theyre not fat, even though they put little to no effort into their diet and daily activity levels. even if they dont live healthy lifestyles and theyre not trying to, and theyre still a "normal" weight. and because theyre ignorant and resistant to learning about how peoples bodily functions vary wildly, anyone who is fat must have brought it upon themselves by being extra lazy or extra glutinous and if they were normal they wouldnt be fat and its soooo easy to not be fat because look at them theyre not fat. which is so fucking stupid because so many people complain about how skinny people exist without "earning" how skinny they are, theyre literally just like that even if they eat tons of food because they're trying desperately not to be skinny. but the opposite cant be true for fat people apparently. fatness is always a direct consequence of abnormal habits apparently.

#e.txt #tw fatphobia mention #i know people assume skinny people eat nothing all the time too but every skinny ass mf i meet is like omg i can eat so much and not gain #anything teehee #and i see so many skinny ppl will flood comments of fat positive ANYTHING talking about how they hate being skinny so much and eat so much #to try to gain weight but its not working #like skinny ppl wont shut up about how hard it can be to gain weight but god forbid a fat person suggest its hard to loose weight bc then #theyre just being lazy.#ppl will tell me i should eat less to lose weight meanwhile im living off an orange and a cup of nuts for brunch #and 1/2 salmon filet a cup of rice and veggies for dinner #and i walk 8 hours a day 3 times a week.#if i eat less i will get nauseous i will get dizzy i will get a migraine and i will be a bitch #yes obviously this is a personal grievance but like am i wrong?#rant #probably less than a cup of rice even i make a cup and then split it in half with my partner and sometimes dont even finish it

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puppyeared · 10 months

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#UAUHGG im havung oc thoughts. plaguing myBRAIN. i can feel my heartrate spiking holy shit #ok so. i rly wanna touch up presto and shuffles story without scaring myself out of it by overthinking it. esp the implications of #them having animal features and what they would eat. as well as worldbuilding character dynamics setting background characters ugghh.#constantly have to tell myself its just for fun. basically theyre rival magicians who keep their identities secret and fuck it up in #the funniest way possible LMAO. they rent the same apartment and the landlady accidentally gives it to both of them without them knowing #so they end up walking in on each other out of costume and have this weird tension around not revealing each others identities despite thei #borderline malicious rivalry. blackmail may or may not be involved i havent decided yet #they DO consider backing out of tenancy but they decide not to so they can make sure they dont reveal each others identities #thats the idea but its really abstract bc i dont have a direction or writing in mind. they just rattle in my head like spare change #other stuff i have rn is. they both consider each other a copycat and they have the same skill level of magic #but they have different styles and techniques theyre just too focused on outperforming each other to notice #presto likes to make people laugh so they probably include gags and impossible feats. shuffle is more elegant and focuses on #smooth movements and dangerous stunts. i want to make that reflect in their costumes but its hard bc stage magician costumes tend to stick #to suits and capes.. so idk. then maybe side characters like the landlady and other tenants but i havent given em much thought orz #i really should practice with concepts because i have a bad habit of making everything similar to the first try so its frustrating #and i suck at writing characters. but im doing this for fun so im trying not to get hung up on whether its generic or not #yapping #stares at the floor. maybe i should make a carrd for my ocs #oc talk #presto #shuffle

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sparrowposting · 7 months

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MADE MYSELF SAD BY ACCIDENT WEEKEND RUINED ALREADY

#the duality of fran #yes i called in to work. i genuine stressed myself out so much i gave myself insane stomach issues #ah well #so played bg3 all day. grinding thru the last bits of act3 in my durge run #so i can get the epilogues before im separated from my gaming pc for the holidays #I CANT SEE THE EPILOGUES RN. BC. MT FUCKIN TAV FILES. ARE GONE #had some computer and steam cloud issues and anyway. my first playthru saves are gonsies so i gotta finish this run #TO GET THE EPILOGUES #anyway i did all of wyll and karlachs act 3 stuff and i think that made me extra sad #plus not eating properly bc stomach badness #and also just. probably shouls not have done nearly 10 hrs of video games straight #but alas #anyway im now extremely sad and anxious #about simultaneously everything and nothing #tattoos? my health? my family bullshit? the ultimate fate of the universe? every single problem in the world rn?#the fact that I'll never look like im supposed to? and part of me was using tattoos as a bandaid solution to fix that #and it did. not work #im not unhappy w them just not how i imagined it. but nothing ever is #and also winter. yknow. that awful time #more family drama lately. i rlly should clean my room. or de clutter my desk at least #IDK. IM JUST. SAD #and being sad is ok when i feel like i habe a purpose/duty to fulfill #but now i just kinda feel like. well im wasting air and space and resources and im not serving any function #self as a tool. yknow. i know thats bad. but. idk. idk

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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#it went!!! idk lately my pain treshhold has been so low bc im in pain all the time #so i just dont wnna be in pain anymore... he said that now it'll still hurt for a few days T-T #but he wasnt exactly sure what it was but i had.. a cavity??#im not rlly sure abt the english terms for all of this but the tooth is dying lol #but instead of immediately killing it nd getting a root fill he said that we should give the tooth a chance #so he fixed what he could fix #i hate dentist treatments bc of all the air nd water nd my anxiety i need to swallow constantly #but this time i actually told them abt it nd he was very helpful sksks #he even said 'ok now take a break nd swallow' so i didnt need to be so anxious #nd it was a relief bc he wasnt bad at all. he was actually rlly nice nd easy to talk to phewww #it cost abt $80 so i can manage to be without that until next week!!!!#so yeah it went much better than i had anticipated so im happy abt that #but yeah the problem still isnt 100% fixed yet so im still not relieved #he said i had a cavity in my other tooth as well but that we needed to check that at another time #im so frustrated bc i brush my teeth 2/day i use mouthwash i floss....#and for the last 7 months i havent even had any sugar!!!!! like why did this still happen.. o.o #oh nd he also said that i probably clench my teeth nd yeah i do that a lot more than i've realized #your teeth arent supposed to be touching!! never!! only when u eat #my teeth.... are touching pretty much all day omg. bc im so tense nd anxious #he said that he couldnt be sure bc he didnt have enough info to go on but that could have contributed to this #well well... i did it nd went even if i didnt want to #hopefully my tooth will be better now. nd i have another appt in may to see what i could get done further #if financial aid for it gets approved tho it might not #but yeah.. god dental pain nd issues is my no. 1 fear bc im poor nd i cant afford it

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johndonneswife · 1 month

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#just need to vent rq lololol #my wedding lehenga came out so freaking beautiful #but it needs to be taken in a lot like. i lost 6 inches on my waist since i initially had it made for my body #and everyone at the shop was like ohh wow good job great you look so great now you look awesome #and my mom was like oh wow good job that’s good you did it #like lol #i wanted to just be like #‘thanks i had to go to iop therapy at an ed center where they literlaly taught me how to eat food. like a toddler. thanks’#like i didn’t lose weight for an intentional reason but thanks for confirming you thought i looked horrible before lolol #idk i have been like every size in the book but seeing how much better ppl treat me when im smaller #i’m just like. :)#if my mom says anything about her body or mine tomorrow i will probably fucking lose it and if you see a woman in nj killing ppl on the news #it’s me. lol #it just really took me out of the experience bc i’m trying sooooo hard to be neutral about my body. and like. i don’t need to hear your #thoughts abt what i look like lmao #whatever my dress is beautiful and i’m so beautiful and i’m excited but i really do think i should be able to hunt ppl for sport #leave me alone #nothing you do can please ppl #when i was 20 and 100 lbs and killing myself and sick and miserable every single day my mom was also just like #wow you look great #meanwhile i was balding and fainting at the gym and failing my college classes bc i was obsessed w my body #text #also look at these cats that are just in luis’s apartment’s hallway like rofl who let them out of their apt!!!! so cute #my mom saying ‘you did it’ as if i was trying to do something made me lol #i wasn’t TRYING to do anything i just am healing my relationship w food and my body #bc i refuse to waste my entire life being bitter and miserable and ashamed of existing #like SOMEONE i know….#anyway this could be you too! if you went to fucking therapy!#i ate ny pizza out of spite after all of this #sorry some of you can’t enjoy a fucking carb !!!!!

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pepprs · 8 months

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im home and already swallowed by despair. can you believe i was in CHICAGO a few hours ago. and now im here. lol

#i know i know. and i need to let the anguish motivate me to get out of here. but it feels like i dreamed it all #purrs #chicago #i had a rough time getting out of the hotel and through the airport to my gate and also im bad at math so i fucked up the calculation about #when my flight lands bc of the time zone change and i gave my parents the time in central time not eastern time so my dad was waiting for m #for like a half hour and texting me and i wasn’t answering bc i was still in the air and he was pissed at me and snarky in my texts with hi #and i was sitting there on the plane and could just feel his words ripping into me and the horrors rushing back in and i still haven’t #recovered from it honestly. it wasn’t that big of a deal he just said something that i misunderstood as him saying he was giving up waiting #for me and going home bc id already wasted his time and even though that was not what he actually said it just kinda burrowed into me that #my parents were mad at me and were probably also mad at me for not communicating with them AT ALL the entire time i was in chicago. and it #just was eating me alive. im home now and we haven’t talked about it but they did say things disapproving of the fact that i did a lot of #stuff by myself which i probably shouldn’t have told them. idk. it’s not even that bad i just am torn apart by their rejection of me and #utter inability to just like be happy for me without criticizing some part of it or restraining me. plus the house is just as much of a #biohazard as it was when i left and all the broken things are still broken and it’s like. a lot. i miss the hotel LOL #i think im just sleep deprived and not in my head right today but i do not want to be here. sinking in quicksand unable to breathe. but i #have to be the one to get me out of it and i should have learned how in chicago but i didn’t it was just a break and now im stuck again #delete later #kind of terrible that instead of being so proud and happy about what i did my immediate reaction is to be miserable that im home now lol

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nemesis-is-my-middle-name · 12 days

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mr faust. never not thinking abt him.

#the nemesis speaks #mv liveblog #malevolent spoilers #i mean mostly for what im gonna say in the tags. also gross warning. for tags. i should probably say that.#it's just that i love moments that are VERY fucked up but only brought up in passing #i love that in the pits themselves i was like ''oh did they... name a skeleton they dug out of the wall fsr?''#oh! no! wait! it's worse!#arthur just dumps that whole thing on yellow and moves on and he and john only briefly talk abt the initial killing later #it's just that there's a lot of meat on one person is all. i'm just curious how long it took to get through it all.#did they have to have a conversation about whether it was better to draw it out or not.#did arthur even talk to john abt it that much or did he just go for it and ignore the shouting and screaming #given that john doesn't exactly hold it over his head later i think it's probably the former. and THAT conversation...#did he start eating right after killing him bc he was just too fucking hungry to think abt anything else #did he try to hold off for john's sake after they registered the ''oh this qualifies as a dead body for your dead body powers'' thing #was there a moment of relenting + whose choice was it #look they're not gonna feed us again now. that would defeat the point of the exercise. this is better than dying.#LIKE I SAID. they leave so much room for me to just think about the rammys in my own time. thank uuuuu

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guinevereslancelot · 4 months

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i need someone to hold a gun to my head every time i consider an unnecessary purchase fr 🤡

#unemployed but i stay silly #anyway....bought two hydrangeas....#they're pretty.....#<3 #the reblooming kind 🥰#i could not afford them but they were a good deal #not as much as the flowering trees i bought two days ago #but much bigger!!#in the two gallon pots #so i dont have to wait for them to get big to start looking nice #they're big enough i can probably take cuttings also :)#im gonna make the pond look so pretty!!#rn it looks really sad and swampy lmao #but w a little landscaping it will look like a feature :)#plus is has pretty fishies in it #and im ripping out all the invasive stuff and i need plants to replace them with to stabilize the soil #thats my story and i'm sticking to it #also if there's nice bushes that will take up space so the weeds dont come back #hopefully #anyways this is a cheap time of year to buy stuff bc its all dormant #and its going to be 60f tomorrow!!!!#so my garden fever is crazy rn #i have literally two crocuses in bloom rn and thats it lol #but my daffodils have visible buds on some of them so soon i will hopefully not be insane #this warm day should speed things up a lot #anyway #i will share pics of my garden when its pretty <3 #going for koi pond vibes #but idk if i can add koi in w the goldfish #the goldfish are pretty big but possibly still small enough that the koi would eat them

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toytulini · 11 months

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i did do the things i was avoiding yesterday, for those keeping track

#toy txt post #scheduled a dr appt and a mechanic appt #hopefully both me and my car get fixed uwu #tbh itll prolly Just be my car. but. yea #idk. had the panic of realizing i have like 3 weeks of FMLA leave left and my wrists are not. going back to where they were before this #maybe that wouldve happened had i taken such a break like. right when it started 😔#but alas i didnt realize how much of it was my job. and i had to go insane first. i really need to find a new job hhhhh #i was like oh ill take like a month off thatll fix me. it did not fix me. oh noooooooo #idk maybe if i switch to recieving ill be like 10% less insane? im filled with dread tho. whenever i go back theyll have the fucking robots #and ill have to miss my big renn faire bc i needed time off to rest and ill go back to being so exhausted #and ill probably freak out and quit on the spot and piss off my parents and get more depressed......anyway #i should. get out of bed. eat breakfast get dressed pot tiny plants clean the bathroom drop off tiny plants etc

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 1 year

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see sometimes I try and think about it all more logically. what if it was all happening to a friend. my friend!! you completely forgot to feed your kitten his wet food for five days? you haven't drunk water for a couple of days? you didn't shower or change your clothes for four days? you've only eaten two actual meals in the last two days? your average sleep in the last week is around five hours? my friend, you need help.

since it's me, I don't need help.

#most of it has been genuine forgetfulness/zoning out and 'oh it's 2am'#but like. last night i was lying awake hungry as anything bc all I had was dinner and not a great deal of that. if id been in a house on my #own i would've hopped up and got smth but i couldn't in case of disturbing grandma #(I have since purchased things that I will store near my bed that I can either take out of there #or leave them there for any such emergencies. if you call them emergencies. sometimes if i can't handle eating normally if i can't see what #im eating i can manage that - makes it less real somehow.)#honestly tho i am shocked by how immediately all my carefully created routines have fallen apart tbh #should i talk to my lecturer at uni who does the 12-2 class? to check she's ok with me eating in class? bc otherwise i will likely not eat #anything before dinnertime. probably skip breakfast #i don't know. i don't know anything. i love my course i love it so much and i don't know how i'll handle it #but i don't think i'd handle not doing it #idk im just so tired man #depression does a number on you frfr #okay that's it im turning on the heater finding some music and doing a lil dance. see if i feel better. maybe try a bit of hot water with #ginger or smth livening in it. i do want to try that. something to wake you up. ive been in a dead depressed limbo for five hours straight #and done nothing of use #tw ed #good news tho i find my anxiousness overall reduces the more depressed i am xD idk why lol #personal #puddleglum hours

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oloreaa · 5 months

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Weirdest feeling ever

#no i have stuff to do and i have to study but im kinda having an existential crisis so hm #im going to leave taiwan in about two weeks and im so conflicted on how i spent my time here #i have the feeling that i didnt see enough or did enough while i was here and met with friends #but at the same time i know that lots of time i genuinely didnt have the energy for it and its so hard being away from home #esp since i miss my bf and my family like crazy #at the same time i have family and friends in taiwan as well and i also want to spend time with them but the family is so draining #and its just slowly hitting me that many things i do here will be the last time i do #like being at that bus stop or walking down that street or seeing that building #like i know its coming to an end and i will and can probably never return to this specific point again #so im just. just trying to comprehend whats going on vs what i should have done #all the while wishing that i was back already so i can eat my mums food and see my dad in the garden #and my siblings playing video games together and my friends in our city #and i want to be held by my bf so much. these months have felt like an eternity #but i also dont want to leave taiwan bc it was a really nice time here that felt like being in a little bubble #when im back im going to have to work and focus on my bachelors and deal with family #like im really really torn about how i should feel and if there is a way that i can feel #so kinda wanna just bundle up and do nothing but i have my final on friday so i cant #rea rambles

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toastsnaffler · 5 months

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told my coworker I just started elden ring and he was like fuck me playing souls games is more stressful than a full time job I had to quit ER when I started this job so I could just chill out when I got home instead.... 💀

#I didnt even start the conversation he just remembered im into rogues/souls and was making small talk.. sweet guy #i think ive won his respect by being a souls fan 🫡#ive only played a couple hours so far (and lets be real. most of that was in character creator) but its really fun ive been thinking abt #it at work all day.... the fights are challenging but actually not as difficult as i thought considering how much ppl complain #like it feels very fair + the fight patterns are easier to pick up than most rogue bosses tbh. im a little clumsy bc i dont play many #3d games but ill get the hang of it..#also looooove the visuals + music. goes without saying tbh #i wanna make fanart of the character im playing as already teehee #if i get home and eat and shower relatively quickly i can probably play another 2 hours lets goooo #feeling so much more normal today i love mondays my best friend mondays. my period did start at work tho which suuucked #me titrating this substrate w a white knuckle grip on the pipette trying not to crumple in half over the bench and weep #ibuprofen does nothing for me..... i need to get some more cocodamol even if it does make me kinda drowsy #i dunno how im gonna survive periods when im back titrating meds again bc i cant take any nsaids... well. cross that bridge ig #anywaaay. bus was on time so should be home before 6 today woohoo #.diaries

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melto · 6 months

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something just like snapped in the back of my head like i Need to go like curl up in my room for like 5 days and play video games and not speak to like anyone

#^ guy who is not out of a depressive ep like he thought he sorta was #dont even like particularly feel the old urge of the anxiety/need to hurt my relationships like i used to..i just feel like shit.#short list of people i think i could handle like really speaking to rn but ultimately. i just want to be somewhere safe and easy #even if that feeling is like making me feel sorta suicidal still.#just dont have it in me to like figure out how to act normal right now. something i have to do around most people and nearly everyone #i intreact with irl right now #not healthy. Ofc naturally i know this. and i can push through it. im just not excited about it.#the exhaustion to like contain myself is greater than my lonliness even though that is rather large #and i would like to get this out of my system before like. the semester starts next week. which i know i cant like control but whatever #this is all sooooo stupid. i need to be alone but i need compaionship of someone i trust.#it feels like there is glue in my mouth and i can barely speak to people im not close with bc of how exhausted and anxious i am #man. thearpy is like. going to really . idk. probably not help my mood. bc it has been hard for me to word what has been happening to me #and im always so scared of saying something that will get me hosptizaled again. Even when it shouldnt. bc im not going to do anything.#but i am scared and tired simply. and while so much has gotten better and ive gotten so much better there are some things that i just.#cant seem to figure out how to fix or ask for help. whatever. Guy who is stupid and helpless and will have to just get over it at some poin #sry i just feel like shit. i should probably just eat something i havent been eating much. and then i will probably feel a bit better #news with isaac

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confused-and-dickless · 1 year

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HUNGRY. I WANT FOOD. WHAT DO I WANT. I M TIRED. I NEED TO BE HELD.

#I HATE BEING ON PREDNISONE I HATE BEING AWAY FROM MY BOYFRIEND FOR SO LONG I HATE SLEEPING ALONE #I LOVE MUSIC BUT I DONT WANT TO FEEL STROBGLY RIGHT NOW BUT I DONT WANT THE SILENCE BUT I DONT WANT EMPTY NOISE BUT I CANT CRY #I AM BOTH EUPHORIC FROM HOW MUCH J LOVE MY BF AND EXTREMELY UPSET THAT IM SEPARATED FROM HIM WHILE MY PARENTS ARE TOGETHER BUT STRUGGLING #AND I KNOW HOW TO HELP THEM. THEY JUST NEED TO BE FORCED BACK ONTO THE SAME PAGE. I THINK I KNOW HOW TO HELP. BUT I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO #I WANT TO HELP. BUT I AM SCARED I'LL MAKE IT IRREVOCABLY WORSE SOMEHOW.#AND I WANT MAC N CHEESE GODDAMNIT #WHERE IS MY BOYFRIEND I NEED TO BE HELD.#ALSO I REALLY WABT TO EMBROIDER RIGHT NOW BUT IM SCARED THAT IF MY HANDS ARE SHAKY RIGHT NOW I MIGHT ACTUALLY IMPLODE #maybe ill watch one of my shows and try to embroider something simple bc this ween patch is kicking my ass #(im making it way more complicated than it needs to be bc of how simple the original design is)#((i should have made this a painted project. or made it smaller. but ill learn something from it!!))#idk im gonna go look for a snack and see if i feel better after i eat something #i probably won't bc this dumbass medicine makes it impossible for me to feel full #itll get my weight up which is always good for me but i just hate food. i dont mind that i gain visible weight i just hate eating

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