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Watching Voltron: LD for the First Time and Saying What I Think
S1-2 | S3 | S4 | S5 | S6 | you are here! | S8
upon formatting this debrief/review, I realized quite quickly that I was gonna run out of the image limit too soon, no matter how many collages I made, so some ideas are better if you specifically remember scenes. Click on images for better quality! I apologize, I only have tumblr on mobile. please enjoy this edition anyway!
Pre-Season 7 Thoughts
-> I said in my S6 post that I thought it could be a decent ending if some strings were finally tied, so hopefully this season clears those up
-> S6 was pretty intense at the end, hopefully they tone it down a notch as they go on their little earth roadtrip
-> the aftermath of Lotor dying is definitely something that will weigh on Allura. Hopefully she doesn’t get too torn up about it
-> I’m really curious as to how the new team dynamics will play out now that Kieth is back as black paladin. Will they go back to s1? s3? Will they just act like nothing??
-> really wanna scene where keith calls krolia mom for the first time
-> what is with this “game show” episode??
-> I’m curious as to how ships will play out now.. Lance seems to be okay with Allura not liking him back after s6, their talk was really nice. As much as I think they look cute together, Allura needs time to get over Lotor first, and Lance seems to be already moving on.
-> now that Kieth is back, I wonder if there was more “klance moments” for people to go crazy over
->also where has Matt been this whole time??
-> them going to earth will probably explore their families, and i really wanna see more of their lore. (Especially keith)
->Hopefully shiro finally gets a break after everything. I’m excited to see who this love interest of his is!!
Post-Season 7
-> holy fuck. yall did not lie. that was…intense.
->ultimately I did not get my pre-s7 wish then.
-> I really liked all the keith/shiro lore about their relationship. It was really sweet. Shiro was the first person (besides his dad I guess) to show him patience and kindness. That’s so heartwarming.
->added to all the motifs and references to them saving each other,,very sweet. I love found family stuff like that. so i very much liked that episode (besides the “tiny” subplot lolz)
-> Romelle (as opposed to the name I gave her: “sailor moon altean girl”) is actually so real. She and hunk have the same “only normal one” vibe and i respect that.
-> literally where was haggar/honerva this whole time. Did she take a sabbatical or something??
->this image is so chaotic…literally what are yall doing 😭
->cosmic wolf (Kosmo, apparently) dgaf I love him
-> Allura is such a cutie.. “but I’m terrible at drawing! 😔” I love her so much
->^hunk upgraded his bayard!! Yayyyyy! More character development!!!
->Axca is back! (I have since long stopped calling her “space asami girl”)
-> i think she’s a really interesting character. While the other of Lotor’s generals go for whatever seems right for them, (as you should in war) she seems to calculate things on a matter of both that and morality, while also looking at the big picture. “Well, this would save my ass, save the universe from chaos, and be morally intact…sounds good”
->^is this the klance moment? seems a little sad tbh. why Lance is like that “wait where are you going?” relax bro he’s not gonna disappear
-> they’ve been gone FOR THREE YEARS????
-> what the FREAK.
-> imagine now how their families have missed them 🙁 I’m actually so sad abt that ☹️
->the game show ep…was really funny. Idk where yall got all this angst from. New mission: write a fluff one shot post-game show.
->^i literally cannot get over this??? Like.. they could’ve really made him say anything else. “because mullet here would punch you to the end of eternity if he didn’t get out *smirk*” or something like that but no it /had/ to be that. And the others thought it was odd too, I mean look at their expressions.
->And same goes for Keith??? If you don’t wanna spend an eternity with Lance just pick yourself?? There had to be another reason. If they made all the other characters say insightful and heartfelt things about one another, why can’t Keith say anything?
-> I think because keith and Lance chose each other, making both of them say nice things would drive you guys a little crazy, so I think they tried to just “klance-proof” (like baby-proof) this season by making them barely interact unless it’s a battle or doing so in a s1/2 way
->Because otherwise keith acted…really out of character..? I think it might be to his growth on the quantum abyss trip, but it just felt so odd to watch him this season
->the “floating in space” episode was actually super interesting to watch. Going space crazy caused for their truest thoughts and desires to come out from the dark. (going to earth, what they think about each others’ actions) I thought that was really cool.
->KEITH CALLED KROLIA MOM!!! IT HAPPENED!! OMG. SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP FALLING TO MY KNEES AT WALMART!!!!!!!!🫡💪🔥🔊🗣️
->Krolia and kolivan definitely explored each other’s bodies idgaf. Kolivan is the dad that stepped up fr.
->Colleen Holt is an icon. She’s a girlboss. She’s a legend. I love her so much. Sam better watch out 🤛👊🤜
->^from “who is this divaaaa 😍😍” to “OMG GIRL LANCE??? 😮😁” to “OMG LANCE’S SISTERRRRR😆🤩”
->^is this not the “the pilot crashed!” girl from 1x01??
->tbh i literally could give less of a fuck about these people. The girls seem cool I guess. But I don’t really care about any of them.
->also no way they deadass named a dude kinkade. That was wild even for them (I’m so sorry if it’s a cultural thing)
->^I love it when they do little homage bits like referencing back s1 or 2 like this
->^screaming crying throwing up.
->^^that hug between pidge and her mom..i felt that. that shit was personal. Ya’ll see the way she held on to her? Diabolical work. (I’m tearing up as I type this)((that’s exactly how I’ve held my mom b4))
->^^^“uncle lance!” STOP. DON’T DO THIS TO ME. I CAN’T DO THISSSSSS *screams*
->HUUUNNNKKKK. MY BOYYYYY. UGHHHHHH. I’m gonna die
-> I will say this tho, I’m glad he’s getting a lot of focus and attention his way these last few seasons (6&7). Like yes!! Give the realest mf in the whole show the attention and appreciation he deserves!!!
->I was so happy when he got his parents back like I genuinely did a little celebratory dance (jumping up and down and going “yes!yes!yesyesyesyes! yeeeessssssss!” while doing exaggerated hand gestures)
->Adam fucking died.
->not even one scene showing his and shiro’s positive interactions. or them being romantic. one and a half scenes. And then he’s gone.
-> while, for the most part, I try to understand the writers faults further than just face level, (ie netflix or dreamworks just didn’t let them explicitly put anything there) idk I just. I feel like they could’ve at least played it off as them being “good friends” or something. But to kill him off is just…it feels wrong.
->and it feels like a wrong for shiro too. He finally gets to be on earth after everything that’s happened to him, and the one thing he’d been hoping to finally see,,is gone.
->I just feel like they did shiro dirty. they can never give that poor man a break.
->^I was right! Keith is definitely acting different because of his growth on the quantum abyss (or “space whale” as people seem to call it). It’s nice to know he’s matured and stuff, and can actually say what he feels and such, be a good team member/leader. I just wish it wasn’t all off-screen. (and while I’m happy for him..I do miss his more broody early-season self a bit)
->as much as I think allurance is cute, I feel like they’re kinda rushing it. Like. by the time they got to Earth it had barely been a month of being stuck in space post-s6. Maximum it’s been 3 months by the time of the final battle. she would not be blushing. She would be mourning Lotor. They could’ve had a little subplot about that,,the crushing weight of knowing she could’ve both stopped his death and the guilty feeling of “why am i mourning him..? He was a bad person” because she still loved him!! She still loved him when they were about to leave him in the quintessence field and she felt conflicted!!
->she would’ve also not caught feelings that fast. Let’s say she somehow miraculously got over Lotor in 2 months. (minimum!) she still wouldn’t have caught feelings! Maybe she would start like. the budding processes to begin to fall for lance…but she wouldn’t be blushing and being all bashful like that.
-> basically all I’m saying is I really hope they don’t rush this. It would feel unfair to both her and Lance. Allura literally was like “oh..😕 he said that..☹️?” In s6 when the mice told her about Lance’s feelings because she felt bad about breaking his heart.
->and Lance has literally been after her for a really long time,, so it’d be unfair to pair him with someone who only started liking him like a week ago.
->I also hate the “guy pines after girl, girl doesn’t reciprocate and turns him down a lot, guy almost gives up, girl starts falling for him just as the show ends after not showing any interest previously” trope. (I am aware Allura and Lance do share some more sweet and romantic scenes/moments in s4-6, but you catch my drift, right?)
-> I really hope they put it well in s8.
->^I got to that Lance scene I’ve seen everywhere and just. Wow. it was so intense. I actually got chills. Amazing work from the animation crew yet again.
-> the final battle was sooo amazing and so beautiful.
->the atlas stuff kinda threw me off tho.
->that admiral sanda girl was a bitch (i do not use that term lightly, especially for female characters) and not to sound like a maniac im glad she died ngl. She was stupid as hell if she thought her plan would work.
->also if the galra can invent something that can easily overpower Voltron, then why don’t they just take over the universe themselves?? They clearly have the resources to.
->seriously the atlas’s stuff was insane. Fym it’s a ship that makes a bigger, cooler, grizzled Voltron??(yes I will forever use that joke)
->^because like. Then what do you need Voltron for??
->like the pacing and plot twists and shit felt so off and out of nowhere this season.
->and the real kicker was the altean chick controlling that giant monster thang. literally what the freak. where the cameras at I know I’m getting pranked right now. they were just pulling shit out of their asses by then.
->again, need to say, if it weren’t for that altean chick, this could’ve also been a good ending?? like after reading the Wikipedia page I found out they had a 72 episode contract, so they need to get those last episodes out, (76 total, I did the math) but if anything I think it would be best if it was just a little anthology sort of thing. Like them defeating the rest of the galra left out, freeing planets, and focusing on their own lives and relationships (during and after). That would be probably the best course of action for s8.
->but apparently it has a “bad ending” (which I’m pretty sure is just ship stuff and people exaggerating)
->erm yeah that’s pretty much it. I think. Yay!
These are thoughts I compile over time. I finished Season 7 on 10/12/24. I apologize for my delay on posting this, I was meant to post it last week. I will now finally start what you have probably all been waiting for: Season 8.
Remember, my ask box is always open!! Feel free to ask anything on my opinions and such!!
#laura’s first vld#vld#voltron#voltron legendary defender#voltron season seven#vld s7#I was gonna post this last week on Sunday but it had gotten really late#and i didn’t wanna have another s6 remake where i made it too short and barely said anything#out of my half asleep delirium#so i said#“im just gonna save and edit it Monday morning”#but surprise surprise#i didn’t have time with school and such#so i edited bits and pieces on Thursday and Friday#and now we’re here#i hope you guys like it#i tried#really squished out as much as i could#I don’t think I made it too funny this time tho#sorry guys#it’s more introspective than anything#like analytical#also I will never put characters tags on these#I hate it when other people do that for traction if their talking about something specific#or general#sorry Coran didn’t talk about you much#I do love Lance’s sister#she’s cool#oh and MATT CAME BACK!!#like for two seconds at the end looking all sexy with long ass hair and a robo gf. super cool.
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Thoughts on being aroace
#I like doing these little introspective thought comics they’re pretty fun#I didn’t get to include this in the comic but I do feel like loneliness is maybe not quite the right word#it’s not quite jealousy or envy either#more like#the sad knowledge that you are lower on someone else’s list of priorities than they are on your priorities#something like that I guess#if this seems like a sad comic don’t worry! I am ok :) I have my best friend and we’re both very clear on how much we care for each other#so I’m never really left needing or wanting more love or anything#love is so weirdly defined anyways
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it’s a selfish thought and arthur knows it because merlin has spent so much time hiding a vital part of his existence, his very being, all because of arthur. so he presses it down into the deepest recesses of himself and focuses on doing everything he can to support merlin, to give merlin the world he deserves. a world where he is free.
but sometimes, when he’s alone in his room surrounded by his endless responsibilities, he will think to himself, i am nothing.
merlin and the old religion hold him as this once and future king, but no matter what they say, he can’t understand why they think any of this is about him. it was never him. everything he’d done, every accomplishment and fight he’d won had never been his to claim. he was a fraud. he was a lonely king with nothing to his name beyond the blood on his hands, the blood staining his every crevice.
he isn’t the once and future king. he doesn’t deserve any of the praise. he is the moon, a piece of rock in the sky that shines only because of the sun. without the sun, the moon is worthless. without the sun, no one would have ever looked at the moon twice.
arthur had never been proud of his mistakes and his inaction when it came to his father’s slaughter, but he had been proud of the things he had done to keep his kingdom and his people safe and healthy and happy. he has fought and fought and fought only to discover he had never even landed a punch. every knockout, every victory he had held up to hide the ugly nothingness of his true, empty self was never his to hold. with the discovery of merlin’s magic, any worthiness he thought he’d earned had slipped through his fingers like sand through a sieve.
merlin is beautiful and powerful. merlin is a god amongst men, a gift given to this world, given to arthur, and for what?
this prophecy for arthur was always about merlin. he carried the weight, he fought and fought and fought and he won, merlin was the one who had carried this kingdom on his back until they reached the safety of the golden era of the current day.
it’s a selfish thought, to be thinking of himself in relation to merlin’s magic when merlin has suffered every single day because of arthur. and yet, in those moments, he can’t help but wonder why he was born at all, why he was named savior of a group of people who would’ve never died if only he had stayed unmade, a whisper of nothingness in his mother’s womb.
his first breath caused a massacre, a genocide, and yet he was given an angel and a title and a prophecy of greatness he could never actually fulfill.
he would never tell merlin about these thoughts he had. merlin would end up feeling guilty somehow, would carry the weight of arthur’s worthlessness even more by taking on the deserved revulsion arthur had for himself.
no, he couldn’t tell merlin about this. merlin would tell him he was wrong, would try to talk him up and fix it. would use that endless kindness to tell arthur endless stories about his own importance. merlin would shine his sunshine on arthur until arthur forgot he was just a lump of rock. he wouldn’t rest until arthur loved himself, until arthur took all the credit for merlin’s own accomplishments again.
no, he would keep this to himself. he would give merlin the attention and love he deserves. this story isn’t actually about arthur pendragon. it never was.
#idk what this is#anyway#sorry#me? projecting? never#also to clarify uh this is obviously not how i feel personally about arthur!!#i love that man i just wanted to explore how the insecurities we see him have in the show would look post magic reveal#merlin#arthur pendragon#bbc merlin#bbc arthur#merthur#it’s hinted at more than anything though#character study#character introspection#might delete later#ficlet#angst#my writing
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Anyways, Prince Gumball be upon ye!
I prefer him like this
A neurotic, incompetent nerdy loser <3
#gary prince#prince gumball#gary gumball#gary fionna and cake#would yall be mad at me if after lots of introspection i realized i like my boy more when he looked like this#and acted like a teenager#and was a little nerd nerdy guy#but loved baking more than anything#multitask king (prince)#i miss himmmmmmm 💔💔💔💔💔💔💔#he was perfect but i was greedy...#now we have normal Mcnormalton/aff#dont get me wrong i love Fionna and Cake Gary but he's just not The Candy Kingdom's Prince™#ya know?#he was such a kin#only twink i respect lol#Worm thoughts 🐛💭
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every day they find new ways to make me try and figure myself out. to understand myself. such is my plight i guess
#talmistaska#introspecting about certain stuff feels weird and makes me more confused than anything so i try not to#and generally this feels better for me. i'm not qualified or in the right position to dissect this stuff#but it does also sort of mean things just Happen to me or i start doing something and i have to shrug and go Guess this is happening now#it's weird but it is what it is. c'est la vie and such
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oh yeah we were also wondering why we flock to media with dead kids that haunt the narrative both figuratively and literally and uh :) yeah we know why
#child death tw#rowan seemed so much older when we were kids#but realistically she was barely like 14#maybe even 12 or 13#Jason Todd chara and asriel. them mfs from fnaf and maria#they’re dead kids but at the end of the day they’re all apart of someone else’s story#and a lot of them come back. in one way shape or form#with the exception of maria they all come back wrong and hurt and twisted by their deaths#but still deserving of love. still craving it more than anything#being a vessel for someone else’s opinions. barely even themselves#rowan died. and a part of us died with her#that was probably uh.. yknow. That guys last real time being here#cheri took all the stuff as kid. all of it happened to them but buddy boy was still kinda around#and then rowan died and then. She did too#and then Jay had to take over for years and then cheri came back but didn’t know they were cheri until#like they were 17 because they just repressed repressed repressed#and obviously those are very shallow views of those characters#but to a hurting kid who resonated so much with them they were everything#I have no clue why I’m so introspective tonight#but my friends do call me the emotion guy so#I guess it means something. but yeah something died in us when rowan died#but something was also born. rowan was a person. a little girl who should’ve grown up and that’ll never change#but I think this year is the year that we learn to let her go#im happy i got the chance to know her when we did#I hope she’s a fucking butterfly or something really cool like an alligator if her next life#also we already knew why we flocked to this media because duh. but like it helps to know which part of us needs more healing#who needs a therapist when you have me ;)
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Sometimes I'm filled with the darkest sense of melancholy for something I didn't think twice about before.
I miss my guitar now more than ever even though I've not had it for what's coming up to two years. I wish I had it with me. I wish I could make those indents on my fingers and feel the ridges in the strings. I wish I could play it. I was never good but I had the chance to learn then and I don't have that now.
#j is talking again#fair warning that if i get suddenly more introspective/angsty/whatever in the coming weeks#im approaching a trauma anniversary and its hitting me harder than it did last year#so yeah#apologies in advance if i suddenly cant do much of anything#ill be back properly once its over but just#yeah
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pensive emoji. orbitshipping angst
#medi.txt#giovanni and rose unable to deny they're head over heels for the other but refusing to compromise their life's work for love.#and looking back on all their past failed relationships they'll fuck this one up too if they did do just that.#and they're introspective enough to know that.#so they can't be anything more than friends(?) with benefits.#much to think about.
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it is such a shame that rainstorms are a consistent migraine trigger for me because I love the rain so much but especially I love the way that the rain makes my city look. it goes all gray and lit-from-within at civil twilight and the skyscrapers at city center stretch up so high that the shapes lose definition and it's something that I am just so so fond of.
#not to mention the classic streetlights and wet pavement. thats always been a particular little thing that ive loved#it feels more like autumn than late winter today which makes me a little upset but driving in rain is better than driving in ice at least#im in a bit of a really strange introspective mood now that ive finally cleared the worst of the migraine#a lot of stuff has happened for me lately that i havent talked about on here at all just to a couple of close friends.#and im kind of. actively trying? to stop caring so much about telling people about things.#a couple weeks ago i did something that not a soul on earth knows. and they never will. and it was SO FREEING.#<- not anything bad or whatever just. a regular thing that happened that i didnt tell anyone about.#idk. im trying a lot more lately to worry less about sharing my life and more about just living it. its good i think.#youll probably still get luke. hyperspecific emotional/contemplative oversharing in the tags sometimes#but ive been doing a lot more things that im not telling anyone about. that exist just for me. and im gonna keep doing that.#.lyr
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mentally ill people who for whatever reason end up wearing the same exact clothing so many days in a row that it begins to disintegrate and will still not stop wearing it until it’s literally just scraps of fabric VS. those weird shitty rich people who ‘’can’t be seen in the same outfit twice’’ human dichotomy
#poast brought to you by my pants that are missing an entire leg and completely open in the back and the front almost#to the point they could not really be considered pants anymore (I wear lots of layers so i have shorts under them but lol)#I tore them again sitting down and it made me introspect about when it's time to throw clothes out and how everyone has different standards#and etc. Like how some people will get stains on clothing and just throw it away#.where others will keep wearing stained stuff if they have an attachment to it. etc. etc.#or like One hole in jeans is okay but 20 holes is Crossing A Line - unless they were made that way as a fashion trend#which then made me think about those people who like.. change clothes multiple times a day and never want to rewear stuff#and just have a constant stream of fast fashion etc. Anyway. not a real dichotomy. just being silly. i like to think about humans behaviors#brggghghb.. still not being very productive as I just keep having flare up after flare up of various chronic issues I have so I'm feeling#sick like every few days but always for different reasons. As if something has increased the general inflammation in my entire body#and its just bopping around making different things worse here and there. but I'm not sure of any underlying cause.#theorectially could always be stress since I am often stressed but I don't feel stressed more than usual. I have no infection markers#on blood tests and my covid tests so far have been negative. I guess my body just felt like 'hey happy new year. would you like.. uhm...#some... Problems.. as a treat? OuO''#I mean I'm lucky at this point that I don't have a condition that makes me completely bedridden or something and am grateful for that but#having so many smaller issues in the background overlapping all the time can be ehxausting and make it feel like a larger issue#because you just never get a break. once one problem clears up it's another. etc. modifying diet. supplements. doctors. new issue. new modif#ications. new doctors. new this#new that. etc. For my body to reach some sort of non-inflammed stable state I feel like I'm going to have to just be suspended in a gladd#*glass antigravity chamber for 3 years eating nothing but basic gruel and iv liquids. something so bland and so untriggering of anything#that literally nothing can be inflammed or etc. lol.. Though I'd probably still somehow have joint pain even with nogravity.#ANYWAY... I did finally edit a new sims video. for the few of you that follow my sims youtube. I have costumes totally ready to post I just#literally havent had the energy to queue up the photos. STILL WORKING ON EVIL WORLDBULDING SLIDESHOW task of epic proportions#. other videos. other stuff. I've had to spend some time on social stuff since I really ned to get started finding friends in the potential#places I'd like to move so I know people when I get there. as it takes me like years to trust someone. but hjgh... I am so like. inherently#unrelatable to the average person. at least the avg people on friend making sites and stuff. I even made a perosnal compatibility quiz#but again.. thats something most people don't do lol... ''buhh just text snapchat me & get to know me through conversation why should i take#a 15 minute quiz up front?'' shut up. i woudl LOVE to take a custom compatibility quiz before talking to someone. its efficent. you will nev#er get it. that is a positive to me. if only anyone else did that. if only. (I'm being jokingly rude. its perfectly reaosnable for people to#have different standards and communication styles. etc. etc. lol) ANYWAY.. tldr me sleepy and feel bad no productive wehh
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Ask game; 21 :)
21 (What I love most about myself): hmm i guess i think i'm pretty funny sometimes, i've got some clever one-liners and wordplay skills. i'm very introspective, often to a fault, but i do feel like that makes me self-aware in a way that allows me to conduct myself with compassion. and i can make a pretty damn nice sandwich, and i'm good at tetris :)
#mayyyybe i'm pilfering from a list of good qualities i made one time. you'll never know for sure#it is kind of funny though really. y'know that post that's like 'not everyone has to be funny all the time'#like 'some people are serious by nature and that's okay'#i do think there's some truth in that and i don't think i'm funny by nature but rather moreso by necessity#like i remember being in school and thinking oh my god if i don't have anything to contribute to my friends' conversations they're gonna#leave me behind in the dust and maybe even hit me with rocks until i die because i wasted their time by making them think#even for a second that i was someone worth talking to. so i tried to be the funnyman#and i was AWFUL at it. not funny at all and more than a little off-putting in the process of trying#and im sure that made it look far more enticing to abandon me than it ever would have otherwise but i couldn't understand that at the time#so i kept trying and eventually forged through the flames of trial and error with a pretty alright sense of comedy#and now i can't turn it off#<this has been an example of introspection to a fault. thank you *curtain falls*#*char noises*#char asks
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hrrrng sonic prime thoughts
#t.alk#theyre all going in the tags lol#like. my one gripe w/ the show other than apparently its supposed to be canon to the games??? i dont see it but i rlly dont mind tbh.#(i think its more of a neato fact than anything)#but like. if the paradox prism destroyed the prime universe in the process of shattering everything. and thus only those in close vicinity#are a part of these shatter spaces#(or maybe its Only sonic and shadow and anyone else from the prime universe is fair game? and the lack of other mobians is a budget thing?)#it means theres no alternate sonics shadows or anyone else a part of the prime canon who werent present 4 the paradox prism shattering#which i think makes it all so much less fun tbh???#like to be fair this is an assumption on my part#(it could just be a case of the prime universe like. imploding itself from the force of the paradox prism#effectively becoming a void space to travel to universe to universe)#but if not :[#one of my favorite parts of multiverse shenanigans is characters seeing alternate versions of themselves & retrospecting/introspecting#because of it#the closest thing we get is pirate amy seeing rusty ros//e but like. idk i dont think pirate amy had any strong feelings abt that.#like . dude . i wanna see knuckles meet dread so bad. or have sonic meet a lil fucked up version of himself from new yoke city#or alternate shadows like AUUGH#Normal abt this . sorry. goodbye
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Being triggered by something is not where your chain of thought should end. Avoiding exposure to triggers is not where you chain of thought should end.
Triggers are triggers for a reason. No one is born with these fuckers. Untangling that reason and disarming those triggers is part of recovery.
Desensitization can be both good and bad. It depends on the method. If the method is dissociation or numbness, that's generally bad -- but if you're actually untangling the reasons behind your triggers or squicks and disarming them, that's good.
Trying to avoid pain at all costs will at best slow down your recovery, and at worst actively make it impossible to heal.
Now, there are times when the process of disarming a trigger is more dangerous than letting it be. But that's a decision you can only really make after you've examined the trigger.
I mean I think people should curate their own fandom experience and whatnot and it's perfectly fair to just avoid things one is uncomfortable with...
That being said. From personal experience? Immunizing myself to all my discomforts by browsing through pixiv and kink memes with raised eyebrows while searching for things I am interested in back when tagging was non-existent has really made my fandom experience much more pleasant nowadays.
I have preferences, for sure. But I have no fear. I have no cringe. The filthiest, grossest fanwork holds no powers over me. I am a god.
Like honestly dl;dr and block on sight is respectable and all but I genuinely think everyone could just benefit from purposefully exposing yourself to your nOTP and non-triggering squicks sometimes? (And obviously don't go bother the creators for it.) If only so that it makes it easier/safer to search for content you like without living in fear of accidentally glimpsing something you hate and having that ruin your day.
#don't take this as “purposefully trigger yourself until you don't feel it anymore”#that is not what we're saying and not what we intended#what we're saying is that being introspective about this stuff is a lot more worthwhile than trying to avoid anything that might#be triggering whatsoever
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i think if people look back at all of this, the amount of people trying to suppress my voice, the amount of people Not believing a victim, the amount of people who want me to shut up about it- i dont think history is gonna look as kindly upon yall as you might hope.
#also this situation ^ is the exact reason ik yall werent actually leftists and why this decent towards the right was predictable.#yall really treated this situation with just 'vibes'. and prefering 'vibes' over truth is something fascists do too so......... idk bud.#im not surprised you like hamas and wont kick out the neo nazis. at all.#even LESS surprised you think the rape was ok bc ik plenty of yall thought to yourself 'even if comickit did sexually abuse him i think#it was a GOOD THING actually' yknow... even though i had to deal w a lot of csa... surely i deserve 'more punishment' for ????? reasons.#for ig believing in shit that only really negatively effected me and no one around you you care about.#if anything the only person effected was my sister and maybe brother bc for some reason they both think im smarter than them#and dumber than them and basically im only smart when they agree with me and found a home for their bigotry in conspiracy theories#so they naturally drifted that direction. so. truly. IM the only one who was effected. whatya know. karma took care of it and#none of you had to do shit but since you did now YOU will face karma for believing lies and trying to ostracize me. enjoy.#i hope it rocks your shit so bad you feel nothing else but to try to crawl back to me and apologize and realize where you fucked up.#ALSO wild ppl thinking rw cis men are safer than me since like. im 99% sure the only reason ppl believe my abuser about what they say#about me is bc they think my proximity to conspiracy theories somehow makes it more true????? idk.#do rw beliefs & conspiracy theories taint people and make them untrustworthy or not bc you're giving me mixed messages here bud#tbqh i think yall just want a reason to hate me and are too stubborn about being asked to introspect that you cant realize it.
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steals all of these for inspo
#💡 - 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐑𝐘'𝐒 𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 // [introspection]#// ok DESPITE what crisp says i mostly hc him as Gay but like.#// the bit of that paragraph “thin. fat. pretty. ugly... he was attracted to intelligence more than anything. and to pain”#// yes. yesss.#// i've been up for 24 hours i am going THE FUCK TO BED#// THE GUN ONE THO URGDHFDHFB SDF CRISPIN DEFINITELY WOULD
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WIP wednesday
With a last adjustment to the simple jade bangle she’d chosen, Gian took a deep breath and straightened up to a proper posture. She looked a little lost in her borrowed clothes with their hasty alterations and the shaky confidence she pulled over herself. For a moment, Jisel almost felt she was looking at a mirror into her own past. Five years ago, she had stood in the same spot, too new to Aeridian clothes to realize how poorly hers fit, trying to draw on courage the same way she pulled on the few pieces of jewelry she'd worn when she fled Tikana. As they exited, Gian caught hold of Jisel's elbow and clung to it in the sort of gentle hug Jisel used to use to hold on to her aunt Amalline. It threw Jisel. She had to stop herself from physically recoiling and pulling away. It was a gross overstep of propriety to Aeridians—but it was perfectly ordinary in Capall. For a young woman venturing into a new setting, it would be far stranger not to hold on to her chaperone. The thought made Jisel feel approximately a hundred years old.
small happy dance for finally finishing the ch5 revisions (first round)
#wip wednesday#story: tcp#ch: jisel#ch: gianntoe#who's showing up (on tumblr lol) for the first time here!#i simultaneously love to write introspective character-centric pieces and canNOT keep the cast small#for anything more than 10k
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