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oh you just KNOW im gonna be extra about this
S - Summertime [My Chemical Romance - Danger Days: The True Lives of Famous Killjoys] E - Eternal Sunshine [Flower Face - Girl Prometheus] L - Last Words of a Shooting Star [Mitski - Bury Me At Makeout Creek] F - For the Best [Gregory and the Hawk - Leche] D - Dead! [My Chemical Romance - The Black Parade] I - If You Could Save Yourself, You'd Save Us All [Ween - Quebec] A - After Dark [Boyscott - Spellbound] G - Goodbye [Bo Burnham - Inside] N - Neighbourhood #3 (Power Out) [Arcade Fire - Funeral] O - Oats We Sow [Gregory and the Hawk - Moenie and Kitchi] S - silver spoon [dead boyfriend - battle of carthage] E - End of Summer (I Used to Know) [The Front Bottoms - Single] D - Disco [Surf Curse - Heaven Surrounds You] E - Early Sunsets Over Monroeville [My Chemical Romance - I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love] Y - You're Gonna Go Far, Kid [The Offspring - Rise and Fall, Rage and Grace] E - Everything for Free [Gregory and the Hawk - Come, Now] M - Mermaids [Forest City Lovers - The Sun and the Wind] O - Old Friend [Mitski - Be the Cowboy] T - Twin Size Mattress [The Front Bottoms - Talon of the Hawk] I - I'm Not Okay (I Promise) [My Chemical Romance - Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge] F - First Day of My Life [Bright Eyes - I'm Wide Awake, It's Morning]
okay this is. this is me after finishing typing now. this took me honestly like forty minutes this was excessive. because for some reason i was like. im gonna do some side challenges. so youll also notice that there are no album overlaps here. and also that ive pulled one song from each of MCR's four main releases
additionally. some shoutouts. apparently i like a lot of songs that start with the letter b. Biblical Love (Flower Face), Be Still (The Killers), Be Nice to Me (The Front Bottoms). i think thats it. the letters c and g were also highly contested
also! no chappell roan! i dont care for that! but also my favourites of hers are Pink Pony Club, Kaleidoscope, and Coffee. so fuck me i guess. and i wasnt willing to sacrifice Goodbye to make room for Good Luck, Babe! so thats egg on my face i guess.
anyways normally i would. link these songs. youll have to forgive me for doing no such thing this time. or tagging. if youve actually reached the bottom of this for some reason uh. join on in if you want to! woo! collapses on the floor in a puddle of my own blood!
bored so i thought id do a tag game :)
rules are you have to pick a song for each we letter of you name and/or username if you don’t wanna use ur real name :)
T: Two Pills by TX2
Y: You’re gonna go far by Noah Kahn
L: Loving You by Thomas Headon
E: Enchanted by Taylor Swift
R: Rise and Grind by Noahfinnce
tagging: @riceandcurry3 @newsies-lodging-house @st0rmyseas @nosuchthingasdeadlanguages @misha-misha @bigmack2go @paralleluniversesfan @apairofnewshoeswithmatchinglaces
no pressure :)
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let's give him a name. we must. if i don't give him a name then our discussions will become far too complicated and i don't think i deserve the confusion upon rereading. let's call him ross.
let me also preface this and say that, i do love my true love - who also needs a faux name. let's call him a martyr, he is after all. i love martyr with all of my head and heart, it's borderline all consuming. so i feel guilt in the post i am about to write. i feel guilty even putting it into a space where no one will ever read it except myself. but despite my all consuming feelings, there exists an arrow stricken into my hip by ross. he appears and takes my mind away. he's taken residence but he was never invited in the first place. was he?
anyway, all things must come out or they eat us alive. maybe i'm just saying it so i can develop a sense of shame. anything other than action. please god anything other than action.
please just let me say it. if there are higher powers do not strike me down for i am about to sin. forgive me. but as they say, there's no such thing as bad thoughts.
my mind is in a whirl regarding ross. he's everywhere, he's taking up everything. i want to taste him. it's been so long since i have craved the touch and taste of another, it's been so long since i've had it too. i imagine his lips on mine, his hands wrapping around my body, hair pulling, teeth biting, bruises from lips left too long on skin. he went away for the summer, i finally knew peace and honestly, i finally let him go. i wasn't thinking of our secret glances, our smiles and eyes searching each others faces. i didn't think about it after the first month or two of not seeing him. i think i may have even stopped looking; at least not frantically. not the way i do now that he's back. maybe it's simply the back and forth. i can feel it frantically coming off of him too. the urgency to see me, to talk to me. to taste. i know it's not in my head. i've got a sixth sense.
and of course, he's just there now. present. existing. beautiful. it's nauseating. i hate that there's no one to talk to this about. no one hates someone more than a cheater; everyone takes it personal and offensive. i tried to talk about it last year with a friend, i couldn't keep it in, but i can tell she thought less of me from it, she was shocked i could even utter the thoughts out loud. but what does anyone expect from me when he's tied a rope around my thoughts. how am i supposed to act with something this heavy on me.
i can try not to stare and try not to smile too big and resist the urge to reach out but how many times can you resist something before you just give in? it has to be over one hundred times by my measures.
i just want him. his new hair is breathtaking too. it compliments his smile well. it looks so soft i wish i could touch it. he looks tired too, like this summer has taken a toll on him. god, i want to ask him about it, i want to know everything. tell me all your secrets, i beg of you. but in typing this i may realize that i have to gain some control. i can't ask. i can't keep laughing and smiling. i can't compliment him, even when it aches to keep the words in.
i should be a better girl. but it's so hard when the bed at home feels so empty and cold.
edit: i masturbated and honestly it’s not even that serious he’s not all that im just ovulating… he is very charismatic tho
#ross#when martyr met me he said he heard i cheated on my ex boyfriend and that he didnt know if he could trust me#it wasnt true to me because it was things like this#is it cheating if its innocent#i have to put an end to it
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i have a problem
really long rambling in tags
#ive always liked him but i was in denial about it until i read the myspace stuff#it was then i realized i wasnt a fool for liking the stereotypical character#because he was rather prominent back in the day#he was one of the only when pizzas attack debutants important enough to be named. he had a myspace account.#in the development of pizzeria he was almost going to have something that people assume was similar to the blue ribbons#but as the focused shifted to gamerias his entire thing kind of became The Food Guy#to the point where theres a joke on the official blog posts about cupcakeria and donuteria of him wanting to order 4 cupcakes and 6 donuts#which is double the maximum amount#i don't really hate that hes The Food Guy (because i relate)#but some people are really mean spirited about it.#and i always used to think#there was no way to justify how upset that made me#because that was just how he is in the games. it was “true”#but like... some people think that's all he is and its not true at all#even if the gamerias make it seem like it is#god if i had a nickel for every time i liked a stereotypical character who had interesting details about them that no one knew about#bc most of the fandom refused to see them as anything but that stereotype#id have two nickels#i would like it to stay at that amount. anyways. id like to tag this properly now#papa louie#flipline studios#flipline big pauly#bluebay art
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isaac & scott / mason & theo | sometimes all i think about is you
#twedit#twvid#scisaac#mason x theo#twrarepair#back on my scisaac masontheo parallel bullshit btw#back on my masontheo is just scisaac if they were True enemies to lovers bullshit. btw. if anyone was wondering.#like of course scisaac and masontheo get paintaking scenes. its enemies to lovers. ofc mason calls theo a bitch its FULL enemies to lovers#for clarity the hands at the rave and the masontheo hug r parallels to ME bc its touch with an excuse for it#scisaac can brush hands when theyre holding a needle between them and theo can hug mason when its a means to an end#the rest i feel r fairly straightforward but i wanted to share the vision for that one#mason hewitt#theo raeken#scott mccall#isaac lahey#tw#oh also the last shot is the last shot of isaac and theo respectively. if that wasnt clear.#like how isaac and theo both nebulously sort of Gone from beacon hills#and the theo shot also to me looks like footage from The masontheo ep 618. btw. which just brings me joy#actually i have more to say. hi. masontheo r just so.#you know how isaac kind of has. he has the awkward tenderness of someone who has never been loved and is forced to improvise#theo doesnt even have THAT!!!! scott holds out a hand and isaac takes it with an awkward fervor#mason keeps his hands to himself because he doesn't trust what theo might do with it and theo can only help when its helping himself#bc the tenderness will be TOO AWKWARD. so isaac says he wont leave without scott and theo says we need to find him so i cant leave you#so isaac grabs scott because scott makes him feel safe and theo can only grab mason when its part of a script bc thats how he feels safe#HELLO. IS THIS THING ON. DO U GUYS HEAR ME. SCISAAC IF THEY WERE TRUE ENEMIES TO LOVERS!!!!
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Maybe it's the gender is an illusion or a spice of life in me but I gotta say the gender bends are transphobic discourse stuff sounds a lot like nonsense to me. Before you shoot me between the eyes I use they/them pronouns so therefore I am allowed to have an opinion about this lmao
#sophie speaks#sophie answers#its a strange discourse#wait i should tag this#tw discourse#i like gender bent stories theyre interesting to me#probably because im an afab autistic person who REALLY shouldve been clocked as autistic earlier#but wasnt because i was a girl#a lot of ppl say its dumb because the characters would be the exact same but that aint true!#simply by how girls vs boys are raised#and also i will be fr fr ive always had a thing for feminine guys and masculine girls and anything weird w gender#its just fun idk i dont get the trouble
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Truly from the depths of my struggling heart. Viva La Vida by Coldplay belongs to one Toshinori Yagi aka the one and only All Might.
Coldplay should just sign over the rights of the song at this point promptly too.
#the song just works on so many levels#cause yeah there’s the grander theme off glory days gone past#but there’s another layer of was; I really effective or good if the minute I left everything that I had built crumbled around me#because Toshinori was the symbol of peace but any peace that can’t survive without one man isn’t true peace at all#it’s a stalemate#hero society#should never have been so easy to collapse without all might#and honestly even though it was never really fully explored that was always a layer of the story I enjoyed#the ways in which a complete dominance in a field especially one as important as heroing can hurt just as much as it can help.#because if yagi had actually let people stand beside him if he hadn’t helped to create a space where other heroes could grow complacent#because all night was there. hero society would never have collapsed so easily without him.#it’s touched on but not a lot not dope if icalry about all nights dominance#it’s why I feel like if you watched the show and your geniune conclusion was that Deku should have become the new symbol of peace#then I just think we didn’t watch the same show#And don't get me wrong I'm not saying that yagi was wrong for saving people or using his powers to the max but it was touched on repeatedly#this kind of deep fear/belief that he had. That only he could save these people and if something happened to them it was on him.#Like every case could only be solved by him and it wasnt a pride thing if anything it was a trauma response same with Izuku#the tags for this got so long i swear i don't mean to do this😭#the symbolism#symbol of peace#all might#yagi toshinori#mha toshinori#mha#bnha#boku no hero acedamia#my hero acedamia#mha analysis#music#coldplay
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RODYA WAS A MAMAS BOY HE DID NOT HAVE MOMMY ISSUES.
You must understand he is in a situation that will make you want to bark at everyone at some point... He is already extremely isolated but combined with his own issues it can make you want to push everyone away. Not to mention he's in all this for his family. But he doesn't hate them. He doesn't want to see them because he's depressed and isolated, and he (feels that he) FAILED THEM!!! He's out here to get an education to support his family, and now he's expelled and cant manage a job and his mama is having to send over money so he can get by. Of course he doesn't want to see her or his family. He's ashamed he's DEPRESSED.
Any moment he claims to hate his family is not literal. There's a lot going through his brain. He did also just kill someone. And then his family returns, so the guilt is making him insane. You forget he calls her mama/mommy. Deep down, he's child who wants to run back to mama. In my opinion. He loves her deeply.
#STOP SAYING HE HAS MOMMY ISSUES#crime and punishment#Im putting it in the tag. please.#i dont usually tag these character things but guyssss. this could be cleaner with direct references. but you must understand#not to say he wasnt a dickhead at points but it didnt reflect his true feelings or deep down or whatever#If he was never so isolated none of this would have happened. SOB.#i dont want to say he fails them because he is also just a victim of poverty so he sincerely tried. but when what he found paid so little#i understand him falling into a pessimistic and depressive episode that shut him off from society. well whats the point?#the last scene with him and his mama is one of the main ones that get me. my god.#floyd.txt#I dont want to come across as rude also i see this take a lot and its like He simply did not have that
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the irony of one the first main things established about omori as a character is that he's known for his great memory as if he hasn't lost the entire fucking plot repeatedly for years.
like he has a great memory!! if you don't take into account He's Actually The God Of Repression.
#replaying the game aggaaaiinnnn#now with full appreciation for foreshadowingggg#omori#omori spoilers#raven rambles#.....should probably have like a tag specifically for playing incase people wanna block it lmfao#raven plays omori#fr though he has a great memory until he forgets minor details like he was designed to help sunny forget everything#goddddddd it kinda makes you wonder though how much of it he's aware of#it's implied he still remembers basil after deep well. but I dont know if he's aware he's actively causing everyone else's#memory of him to disappear. like yeah yeah deep well is designed to make him forget too. he set himself up#to make sure sunny never reached blackspace. the loop resets if they fail. if they die#but the whole branch coral dialogue makes it seem like yes. omori is still very aware of basil's existence.#I have a lot of thoughts on deep well.#and especially omori not really realizing he's the one sending basil to blackspace because in past loops it was stranger who confronted him#his guilt of leaving basil is the one thing still tying sunny to the real world. mari is dead. he can't do anything about that except forge#basil is still alive.#as long as he remembers that basil exists#he will keep unknowingly dragging himself back to blackspace. blackspace would stay hidden if stranger wasnt haunting him lmao#he starts the loop by sending him there and then follows through on it by searching for him because he's not yet aware its his own fault#idk it's. aaaaaaaaaaaa#the hug in the true ending is everything to meeeeeee#I have a lot of thoughts about blackspace too but not right nowww thats an essay for much laterrrrr#there's just something about the “deity forgets theyre a deity and rediscovers it later and denies it and forgets again” that kills me#ESPECIALLY WITH THE FUCKING TIME LOOP#and then there's the route additions. he can accept it but he'll try to fight sunny to end it one final time#looooookkkk I'm veryyyy norMALLL ABOUT THIS GAAAAME#hylia and omori remind me of each other in their sort of ignorance of their own power. hylia being the reincarnations of zelda#see it all loops back to just Tropes I Fucking Love#there's a pattern here. do you see the pattern?
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still haven't moved on from zane in this episode (aka I hit tag limit again and am unhappy about it)
#alek insanity#not gonna main tag this but prepare for a tiny rant#home is actually really good zane characterization and its super cool to me how it holds up to this day#s1 characterization is very specific to me because the behaviors displayed by the ninja there (mostly) isnt bc thats how they really are but#its due to societal pressure. cole originally being more 'stone faced tough guy' -> 'down to earth' -> 'really sensible easy to talk to guy'#is because hes always been a sensitive guy... but he felt he couldnt express that true version of himself. thats the whole thing behind his#true potential. jay going from s1 -> s6 -> now is less of societal pressure and more teenager figuring himself out but it still applies. ish#seeing how much the ninja have changed or grown from then to now is amazing because back then they all wore masks. they didnt know each#other all that well. but theyve gained that comfortability with each other and also have grown and matured as people#some seasons / eps characterization for certain people im not a fan of (lloyds random misogyny arc in s13) but i mean the overall trend here#and then there is zane. zane in home was pretty dead on to how he behaves now (at least... when it comes to his faults?) and i dont want to#say people skim over that but i am the sf proclaimed n1 s1e2 fan and overthink every scene. zane's early characterization is some of my fav#for him period. he also goes through a ton of traumatic stuff and a ton of bad writing bouts but why he acts so 'weird' or 'distant' has#always been a thread sewn in. he changed so much he stayed the same in a way... if that makes sense. -> ohhh the ninja get mail and he#doesnt? oh he has no family? he quite literally walks away from that situation. oh the ninja are yelling in his face and asking whats wrong#with him? he literally walks away from that situation. he says its to follow the falcon but seeing how he apologized to them by not only#baking a ton of pies (cough... the food fight is what led to him leaving at first) but he also found them a whole entire new house.#zane is unable to truly value what he does for others. insert him in s11 saying he 'tried' to fufill his goal of protecting others.#everything he has ever done still isnt good enough. then the ninja tried to apologize and he didnt really... let them.#that one post about characters putting on facades and that facade being how people really see them. even in fandom. thats zane to me#the guy who lies about being upset and avoids his problems ran away after being yelled at? and he said he wasnt really mad? that is a lie!!#him being a ~360 when it comes to his character development is neat to me because he never hid behind a mask in the same way the others did#cole wanting to seem tough vs being really soft? kai wanting approval so bad he starts being selfish? kai isnt selfish usually!#he is self centered but that is a whole different thing. just wanting to fit in and breaking free of that. zane's true potential came in the#form of 'i finally know why i am not normal' instead of 'i will be my true self'. zane never pretended to not be weird#(instert book) states he literally didnt know why people got mad at him. he just existed and it was 'wrong'. the mask he hid behind was#avoidance. he was pretty open about how he actually was (most of the time). when he was upset he would audibly sigh and walk away lol#but for him saying he wasnt upset / saddened by the ninja... it felt like a moment of selflessness. if that makes sense. he blamed himself#for the monestary burning down. so he didnt deserve the apologies (ish) in the virtues of spinjitzu zane is shown as the generous one iirc#he puts the needs of others over his own. he will bear whatever burden he needs if others are happy. at that same time he doesnt allow
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god i fucking hate my dad
#he came home today from a bike trip he went on and he's been arguing with me about honeybee the whole fucking day#he keeps saying just let her out let her run around! every time i put her in her pen to nap#and he refuses to stop her from biting him#and he got mad at her for playing with his socks when she'd just been playing with mine and he threw them on the floor of the living room#which first of all stop being such a fucking slob#and second of all what the fuck did you expect to happen? it's a soft new toy on the floor where she spends most of her time. where all her#toys are. very similar to the two soft items she's allowed to play with (my socks)#she's fucking 3 months old she doesn't understand the difference between my socks and his socks#and i keep telling him i know what im doing i was doing all the research while he went to buttfuck nowhere on his midlife crisis motorcycle#but he just wont fucking listen to me#and hes like oh youre at that age where you think youre right about everything and are so stubborn like fuck you actually#first of all im stubborn about this because its a living breathing puppy and his actions will affect her behaviour as an adult#and bc i know what im fucking doing. ive been an animal person my entire life. i did all the research. i did this exact same thing with#parrots for five years.#and hes like you cant just put her in her pen every time shes being a dog like no i fucking dont. i only put her in her pen when it's time#for a nap and she's getting overtired. you can't just let her run around until she collapses bc for one she never fucking will#second that's only going to make her energy threshold higher and then she'll be absolutely impossible to handle#and i told him that and that i read that on like every professional dog training source i read#and he said that might be true or might not be#like it fucking is bitch omfg#and then he tried to one up me like um i actually raised you guys for a long time i know what im doing#like a child is not a fucking dog. also my mom raised us lets be fucking serious. and look how well adjusted i turned out#and he told me to relax and calm down like i wasnt even arguing with him but i sure as hell will now#like dont tell me to fucking relax. when has telling anyone to relax ever made anything better. especially a teenager. especially a (for#simplicity's sake) woman.#and i told him dont tell me to relax and he got all pissy and stormed off#like literally fuck you#im my fathers daughter. im just as stubborn as he is.#rambles
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guys no what would be the funniest way for t to get dumped
#i cant get it out of my head#but buck dumping him because they just arent compatible is so funny to me#hes like. yeah yk it was fun to figure out explore things with t but we just. idk really didnt have much in common yk#like apart from firefighting he just wasnt that interesting and wasnt interested in my hobbies/life#like its not funny for t because bro#how do you fumble buck buckley? but also#its really funny for t because he didnt even Do anything wrong like any of bucks past love interests#he was just. boring.#like rip t#i would personally never recover if buck said that to me#buck finds joy in maggots and random ass sea critters and his (sorry but its true) devastatingly sad/depressed fire fam#if he couldnt find joy in YOU????#bro theres something wrong with you#like i would start going to therapy to figure out why the guy who finds joy in everything cant find joy in me
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I always thought it was so odd that in Steven Universe they have a whole episode where Steven like projected himself into Lars' body and then him being able to do that was never mentioned again
#ok well thats not ENTIRELY true bc he did project himself into the watermelon Stevens but im pretty sure that was explained as them just#having a connection bc he magic spitted them to life and not because hes just able to astral project himself into other peoples' bodies#also thats just like a ridiculously overpowered ability to have. none of the other gems can do that its just Steven#except white diamond but i dont think that's the same#because she can control herself and other people at the same time#but they have to do everything shes doing and she cant really make them act individually#and Steven can only control one person and he has to fully leave his body#but his body isnt doing the same thing as him#anyways but why wasnt he able to use it to possess humans again? like maybe it was against his morals but like#wouldnt it have been so much easier to just possess someone in Beach City to tell his dad and the gems what was going on instead of#going through the stress of possessing a million watermelon Stevens?#if he cant control possessing people thats fine but i still think they should have mentioned it again#sorry for SU posting i just thought about it for the first time in a while and i remembered that that had always confused me
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show tempe gang crossover with the morris islanders would actually have been the best episode of bones ever. btw
#please ignore the rest of the tags i will just be making things up#okay they start out in carolina but at least half the episode takes place in dc. do not ask me how travel logistics would work#tory spends the entire episode off with tempe doing bone stuff. booth feels upstaged by a 16-year-old girl#so he goes and hangs out with ben who does NOT trust him right off the bat#ben ends up having to run him over to liri at some point because there's crime afoot and tom is busy. they spend most of the ride in silenc#ofc they end up bonding Eventually because they are both obsessed with crazy emotionally stunted redheads named t brennan#tory is more effective than any of the squinterns and manages to piss hodgins off so bad just by existing#coop hangs out in the lab as saroyan tries to kick him out thirty times. he just keeps showing up and she can't prove who's letting him in#(it's tempe.) angela loves tory but tory does not love angela back. saroyan tolerates her. sweets likes her but knows she's hiding somethin#comes to the conclusion that she can read her friends minds and slowly drives himself crazy because obviously that can't be true#tory brings hi along whenever she needs someone with people skills and he is MORE than happy to participate in a hodgins experiment#hi gets to be king of the lab for about ten minutes. shelton hits it off with angela immediately and they solve half the case together#booth fucking HATES hi because he's evasive and really good at the manipulation thing. booth can't win verbal sparring and he gets Big Mad#at one point the four of them are in an interrogation room together (MISTAKE) because tory had them meddling a little too close to the sun#and booth is trying so hard to question them which didn't work even when they COULDN'T read each other's minds#tory figures out who did it and hi steals her thunder a la shrek wasnt vandalized he gave birth#temperance tells tory 'i know you've got a secret sweets told me and even though i don't trust psychology i find he's insightful' etc etc#tory's like well i might be but i can't tell you it's not just my secret and you wouldn't believe me anyway#because let's be real tempe WOULDNT believe her#meanwhile saroyan convinced by sweets paranoia managed to get a sample of tory's blood and test it and is like HEY WHAT THE FUCK#gets hodgins and they just stare at the results together and delve into conspiracy theories. he's like i KNEW there were werewolves#they debate telling tempe but know it wouldnt end well for the kids and decide to get rid of the evidence. but hodgins is SO smug#also angela spends the whole episode trying to convince everyone hi and shelton are dating and no one believes her#they finally see them kiss or something and they're all somehow floored and angela's just like yeah? duh?#if anyone read this i'm sorry and why
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slowly learning that things you say/do when you're mad are still your fault because you said/did them. this was not the case in my household growing up and is such a weird rule my family has so its been so strange realizing that yeah no actually, calling someone a mean name over text when arguing is still something i have to apologize for. getting snippy with my boyfriend because I was having a bad day is still rude and I need to take accountability for that. weird weird weird. but I'm learning.
#jay says a thing#family has always been like 'things said in anger dont count because anger took over and that wasnt you'#which like. isnt true.#even if im mad i still said and did bad things#that was still me#i still need to make it right
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trigger warning. do not read if you dont want to read something triggering.
#my bf is a fucking rapist#i told him i didnt want to have sex again because it was getting late and i have work tomorrow#and he usually takes a long time to finish after round 1 so i didnt want to stay up an extra hour#and he started manipulating me and pleading and saying he loved me and i dont know why i capitulated but#the fact that i said ok after 10 no's?#and i was crying#i was crying while i sucked his dick and while he fucked me#and he told me to struggle more because he found it hot#he thinks rape is hot#and after he joked about being a good manipulator and being able to get me to disregard my boundaries#which is true#but like he knows im an abuse survivor and have trouble with boundaries#the fuckdd up thing is he was the one who taught me to have boundaries#he told me to tell my mom to eat a dick when shes egging on my eating disorder#he told me i didnt have to stick around when my mom was calling me slurs for breaking dishes or failing classes#and here he is being proud that he managed to get through an abuse victims boundaries#he also joked about waking up to the cops at his door#which like shows that deep down inside he knows what he did is wrong#and if i wasnt such a cool girl i could get him into trouble#not like cops here persecute rape anyways but#i pretended to like it after the fact because i still needed him to take me home and i didnt wanna start a fight#but holy shit#idk what to do...#i mean im going to leave him fuck the trip#im shaking i dont even know how ill be able to go to work tomorrow#when this whole thing was over me wanting to get a reasonable amount of sleep on a work night#misiabear rants
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#i forget that tumblr is almost entirely american#because a lot of my mutuals are european#and a lot of british#presumably from liveblogging eurovision and bake off each year#but uh#its kinda annoying when you make a post where youre like hey british mutuals what do you call this thing#with a not british option in the poll#and just a lot of americans start reblogging it and being like ''in true usamerican fashion i clicked before i read''#and its like#i made this poll mostly because i wanted to know how many other british folks call them x#i probably should have been more specific but i wasnt expecting it to get more than like 10 notes#usamericans#thank you for telling me you call them that#but in this such case#i really do not care#not everything is about you#especially when we specify in posts its not#i know its because most of the internet is americanised so yall just assume everything is about you#because most things are#so i shouldn't really be surprised in anyway#but is it too much to ask you guys to at least read the post before voting#i mean i deleted the poll because i do not want to see more tags from it shdjsjjskd#and im writing this in a tag vent post because i dont want to just insult an entire swath of people#because i know a lot of americans and you guys are great#its just frustrating sometimes lmao
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