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LU Four headcanons + Minish cap thoughts
EDIT: HELP I DIDNT MEAN TO POST THIS YET💀 fuck it we ball
So I've been playing minish cap and I'm having a great time it's so fucking whimsical and lovely everybody ever should play it right now but it made me realise how little?? Minish cap stuff gets mentioned in linked universe??? like where is my funny little figurine collection I spent thousands of shells on, where is my cute minish lore, where is my cane of pacci, where are my KINSTONES!!!
Anyways this is basically me nerding out over Minish cap and sharing my new silly little thoughts on Four (and spreading my new knowledge to the fic writers please there is so much untapped potential here you dont understand😭)
I've never done this before so bare w me
Starting w KINSTONES
So much of this is kinstones why does nobody talk about them I've read hundreds of LU fics and did not even know they existed till I played minish cap
I think Four has just SO. MANY. KINSTONES.
He just has a bag of random kinstone pieces on him at all times
Imagine the chain all sitting around the fire one day and fours like "anybody wanna match kinstones?" And the others stare at him like... "bro what is even that 😭"
Another funny idea, he just goes through his bag and starts trying to match the pieces he has, one actually works and a chest just appears next to the chain and four is like "aw hell yeah that's some good luck"
Everybody else "four how did you just SUMMON TREASURE"
"Got lucky :]"
Imagine hes not even really known as a hero in his home town but as the kinstone guy™
They go to Fours hyrule and little kids will just come up to him like ",,kinstone,,?" And he will just whip out the biggest bag of kinstone pieces and grab the exact one needed to match
It's like a magic trick
Desperately need some good luck? Talk to the kinstone guy hes gotchu
Imagine the colors all get their own bags
He just has four bags of kinstones at all times (maybe five if they have a community pile)
(There are more at home)
Also animals? Can have kinstones?? I feel there is comedy potential in that
Four has a collection of silly little figurines he paid thousands of mysterious shells for and I need somebody to talk about it
He has over A HUNDRED SILLY LITTLE FIGURINES
I dont know what to do with this knowledge but it is important to me that people know that
Cane of pacci.
CANE OF PACCI
Please its concept is so fucking funny people need to use it more.
(I've seen it a few times but NOT ENOUGH!!)
Imagine dink shows up and gives an evil monologue and everyone is having an intense stare down and four just discreetly grabs his cane and zaps dink w it and he just fucking flips upside down smacks his head on the ground and passes out
LIKE PLEASE ITS SO FUNNY I LOVE IT
Theres a hole in the ground and he just zaps it and jumps in and rolls around and fucking flings himself into the air
I've seen so many fics where Four can just shrink down at will and that's fine I like em but in game you have to use minish portals and it's a whole thing
And I've seen people utilizing portals which I love
But I need more funny moments so
In game they are so very inconvenient and some are so fucking funny to me
Four just walks into a house flips this beautiful, giant vase, upside down jumps on top and becomes smol
Like??😭 going into people houses and breaking their pots is a link tradition but just... flipping one upside down is for some reason incredibly hilarious to me
Or running head first into a tree using pegasus boots to reveal a portal
Somebody do something w these portals they are so incredibly good
Also piccori are SMALL
They are TINY
When I imagined the minish I was picturing a lil guy the size of my thumb maybe a little smaller
NO
THESE BITCHES THINK ACORNS ARE BIG!!
THEY ARE SO INCREDIBLY TINY!
MINISCULE!
I dont know what to do with that I just desperately needed to share
Imagine the picori lore potential yall
I've seen a few good ones but I NEED MORE LITTLE GUYS
Fours hyrule has a whole lotta beliefs and traditions about the minish me thinks
I mean they already have a festival about them
So imagine-
They find chips on the walls of their homes that are neatly shaped and nicely trimmed and they leave them, they take it as good luck, the picori are staying here
You see many of such spots in someone's home and you take them as kind, the picori stay with them
I think they abide by leaving picori paths
Random small planks connecting homes and making paths too small to walk are left where they are
If a plank starts decaying they leave a similar sized one nearby and the next day find the old one replaced and a kinstone lying nearby
If your flower pots neatly lined in a row suddenly have a small gap between two, keep it, the picori are passing by here
I think they make spaces in their homes for them
I think Four would go out of his way to leave space for the picori in his
Maybe he makes little houses he keeps in his yard or on a shelf or on the rafters or all of the above
Maybe he leaves out food in odd places and when it disappears he finds treasures somewhere nearby
He basically has a whole neighborhood of minish living in and around his house
I think Four has actually learned minish
Like yes he used the jabbernut to understand them initially but I think he went out of his way to properly learn it
And there are canonically different dialects, lil tidbit courtesy of Ezlo, so maybe hes learned multiple versions of minish
Imagine the funny moments where he just fucking starts saying smth in minish like "pico pipi pori co" and the chain stare at him and he just stares back like 'what?' "WHAT DOES PICOROCOPOIPO MEAN,??"
Hes just spent too much time as a tiny guy
#lu four#four linked universe#four headcanons#minish cap headcanons#minish cap#loz#legend of zelda#linked universe#help i havent posted in this fandom before#I DIDNT MEAN TO POST THIS YET WAHHH#i literally wrote this entire thing one night after waking up past midnight and literally unable to stop thinking about minish cap#wrote this whole thing at like 3-4 in the morning just to get it out of my head so i could sleep LMAO#fr got posessed by minish cap headcanons during the witching hour
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Congrats on the 400 followers! 🎊🥳🥳🥳 you deserve it for being a cool friend 🥳
I saw your request thingie
Can I request a LU Time x Reader piece like in a semi romantic way?
Unbelievable
AHH!! HIII BUTTERS MY FRIEND!! Thank you very much! I think i got across the 'semi' in that semi romantic hdahfafa
Summary: After an unbelievable week, you find yourself on a balcony with some fine company
Character: Time x Gn! Reader Warnings: None Word Count: 800+
Whistling wind blows past your shoulders, the autumn air crisp as the evening drags on. You found yourself nursing a cup half drunken on a lonesome balcony --you were surprised to find that the Inn had a few of these cute hideaways for some of the rooms, and you were lucky enough to have one in yours-- observing the cobblestone streets below. Amber leaves dance across the stone, jumping and skipping with the wind as their dance partner, the faint glimpses of people tightly wrapped up in shawls and coats alike shivering as the wind wraps them in a blanket of their own.
It was...a calming evening. Something rare these days, but you couldn't find it in yourself to care.
The boys had been driving you up the wall. Truly, the last few weeks were unbelievable. Everything that could have gone wrong, did. And if it didn't then it was like those lunatics were determined to make sure it did-- hells, Time had to separate you from Wild after a...mild disagreement about the use of moblin parts on weapons. You knew they weren't malicious, you knew they were as stressed and as frantic as you to find a solution to their growing list of problems but it didn't make it any less frustrating. And you weren't exactly the best at hiding that growing frustration, which is why you haven't heard a peep from any of the boys since arriving at your -single- room.
Swirling the mug, eyeing the sloshing beverage inside, you wonder what to do with the rest of your evening. Hunkering down and becoming a hermit wasn't a bad thought, but you were growing restless on the tight balcony.
You honestly wondered, for a brief moment, if you should head out and try and find--
A heavy knock at your door startles you, a call of your name following soon after. "Are you in?"
--Time.
Well it seems he found you instead. Pushing off the wooden railings, you shuffle into your untouched room, gently settling the mug on the beside before continuing to the solid door before your.
"Yeah yeah," Opening the door as you answered, tired eyes meeting tender ones. "Hey old man, was just thinking bout you actually, need something?"
You cant help the smirk on your lips as the broad man tilts his head ever so slightly, eyes narrowing in on you, if you were bolder you would have compared him to Wolfie but for now you kept your mouth shut.
"It seemed fitting to check on you, I know these last few weeks have been less than kind to us all. And you especially." He began, a smile pulling at his lips. "May I exist with you?"
A snort escaped you, but you stepped aside without a fuss.
"Exist with me? Have you've been reading Sky's romance novels again?" You teasingly accused.
All you get is a lazy shrug from the man as he walks past, hands clasped behind his back as his eyes scanned the room. Cheeky bastard. Shaking your head as you close the door behind him, it didnt take long for the man to find his tiny waisted ass to the balcony and it took you even less to find your space next to him.
In truth, you've never seen the man read...anything. Sure, he was well spoken and prim when needed but you've known plenty of pompous pricks who were as shit at read as a blind rat. But still, the phrases the man used were something straight out of fiction. The idea of Time reading romance novels was quite an amusing thought though.
"Glad to see a smile back on that face," Time muses, eyes-- well eye-- watching the chattering children below. "An important member to the team, it is."
Leaning against the railing, you roll your eyes. "Yeah, sure." You scoff, blaming the cold winds for your tinted cheeks.
Time turns his captivating eye to you, ducking closer as he leans against the railing beside you, a deft hand fixing the collar of your shirt. "It is."
You expect him to continue, watching for the bob in his throat or parting of his lips to speak once more, to explain, yet he doesnt. No, he simple fixes your collar -fingers lingering on the peak of your collarbone for a moment- the rough fingertips a stark contrast to the gentle touch, and turns his gaze to the people below once more. Blinking up at the man, you held back a scoff, shaking your head at the sheer audacity the man had to be so...Him.
It was infuriating how two simple words had you lost of words- not by the words themselves but by the tone.
Here you were, somehow reassured by two words and the voice of a man as confident as the day he set off on his first adventure. It was as if he had answered the most simple of questions with the most sound of logic.
"You're unbelievable." A grumble.
Tilting his head to you, eyes still focused on the street below, mirth in his tone. "Shush, I'm watching a very determined goose try and steal a child's sandwich."
Unbelievable indeed.
Taglist: @yourlocaltreesimp
#trippy answers#lu x reader#linked universe au#linked universe#lu time#linked universe time#lu time x reader#reader insert#stories from stardust
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I just wanna see the eras tour live in concert
#ts#the hoops ive jumped through#the trials ive faced#istg I'm gods bravest little soldier#IVE BEEN THROUGH IT FOR THOSE TICKETS AND YET.#the amount of queues ive been in#THE HOURS SPENT LISTENING TO A RADIO STATION#FROM A CITY 5 HOURS AWAY#with bagged packed just in case!!#up to the last minute!!#every 11:11 wish!!!#I LITERALLY STILL DONT UNDERSTAND HOW PEOPLE GOT TICKETS!?!?#I JUST DONT#it was like trying to get something that didnt exist#AND EVERYONE AND THEIR MOTHER GOT TICKETS#LIKE MY COUSIN !??!#MY EX'S SISTER!??!#at this point.
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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now
#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL#really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us#ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great#extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore#the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog#its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow#i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating#i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one#i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it#theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget#anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by#there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad#cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now#maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that#im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away#ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free#i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20#i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her#but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more#maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know#because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before#i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years#i dunno. i dont know#anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process#the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months#the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time#when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move#just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend
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Hi! You can always request some specific positivity on @multiplicity-positivity if the post we made doesn’t suit your tastes. We are NOT trying to exclude anyone or make anyone feel unwelcome with our posts. You are always more than welcome to make your own request.
Funny considering that the entire reason -this- blog exists is because that one only writes positivity for factives who source separate or are distressed by their own identity. I did request specific positivity on your blog. Twice. Both times I was directed to the same old blog post that was super heavily focused on problematic factives that just like hate themselves of something. And not just me, I get asks all the time from people talking about how you seem willing to make decent positivity for every group, but our positivity has to be rooted in self loathing.
Like I really don't mean to seem rude, but what kind of sense does telling me "you're more than likely to request your own" make when you know you direct everyone who mentions a problematic factive back to the same old post that descends into a clear bias for problematic factives that need to source separate for their own mental health.
It is incredibly ironic to only ever mention problematic factives that need or want to source separate, ignore multiple requests of positive for problematic factives that enjoy who they are and don't want it can't have that separation, and then turn around and talk about problematic introjects who love themselves and don't separate are valid.
Your problematic factives post mentions a couple of types, wonderful! It then goes into only shouting out negative experience, I can not explain enough how much it feels like "shoutout to problematic factives but only if they hate themselves because what happened in source was so bad that you can't just love yourself" and it is incredibly frustrating because we're told told by the people around us who pretend to be accepting that the only way we can be accepted isn't changing our names and our interest is and cutting source off completely and if we can't do that it's a hurl of insults. Positivity should be a place to get away from that, not have these stereotypes affirmed.
There's a reason I chose that blog post to reblog as incredibly frustrating as it was considering that it is meant to be for introjects but it *begins* with fictive specific positivity meaning readers will likely have fictive on the mind for the next post and has nothing for factives despite the fact that people do continue to request good factive positivity from you. The reason was because even though that blog was clearly not catered to us at all and there was not a sliver thrown in our direction, it was *all* we've been able to get from you. The best positivity we get from you is the one where you can't even give us a little nod.
This has been a problem on my mind for a long, long time. Go back and look at the difference between your two posts. One of them gives some neutral shout outs (if you are this, if you are that. Nothing attached to that, just if this fact applies) and then straight into the negatives (if you're going to therapy to not be yourself anymore). The other starts with a neutral but has SO many positives, while still giving some attention to the introjects that source separate.
There is such a CLEAR difference in how you handled these things. I'm allowed to point that out. I'm allowed to tell my followers that this post clearly either wasn't made with us in mind or didn't want to mention us specifically for whatever reason, but it's better for many us then the one made specifically for us.
I mean like. If you hadn't made a post for problematic factives I can get where my actions would have been pretty uncalled for, I could just ask. But I did ask. I asked twice, people in my inbox asked, and from what I understand, nothing that was beneficial to me or my askers was ever posted. Nothing that was as accepting and warm feeling at the blog post I reposted was posted. And idk what you think about that but I think that gives me the right to seem upset.
Introjects post
Factives post
#and of course none of this was meant to sound rude#but the whole reason this blog exists is because people HAVE BEEN asking you and if I were to submit you an ask (which i did)#you would link back to the exact same old post and a lot of us just dont feel like thst post is made in our best interest#I made this blog because i felt like you didnt care about our best interest#and there are people in my inbox whove asked you the same thing gotten the same responce and feel the same way i feel#so im incredibly uoset that you would come to me saying i just need to request something and then id get better specifics from you#because thats literally a lie and we all know it is#so take with that what you will- im not trying to stsrt beef or be the bad guy here im just trying to show problematic factives its okay
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this made me kinda happy... at least
#in the midst of another one of my “what do?” moments#where either i just go to tafe and get into library work and live a stupid little existence in sydney#or actually try and move to the netherlands and do a masters (risk as like?? i'll be doing something less employable and its more expensive#tried to talk to my mum about this and she was like “yea i settled for my career bc there was money and i didnt hate it” and i was like?#that sounds AWFUL#anyways sorry for venting on a geoguessr post
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Anything on Neglected Karai at all? Is she Splinter’s daughter? Personality, skills, relationships, pronouns, or anything at all?
nah she's a 404 imagine not found screenshot and she doesn't exist she has no pronouns skills relationships or personality and she isn't anyone's daughter she came from the void and to the void she will return. amen.
#nnstuff#ask#sorry but like. im in college. i already cant make the art i want to cuz im busy all the time#yea i know a lot of characters outside the main cast are underdeveloped#i know we barely see april#i know the foot clan basically doesnt exist yet#if this were my full time job and i got like. paid to do it or something maybe i could come up with something but as it is !#im sitting at my work desk trying not to imagine killing myself because this next assignment is going to make me miserable for#at least another full month#and i didnt get to choose my partner because everyone else had already paired up because they all just. fucking known each other somehow#even though ive been with them all since freshman year#somehow im just not friends with any of them#and all i really want to do is attempt suicide to get out of it!!#but i CANT because god knows i wouldnt succeed!! and then i'd have to face making everyone i know fucking miserable#SO!!!!#TL:DR IM WORKING ON IT
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genbu ai has been found dead in miami.
#JK JK this is really exciting im glad kotarous getting an ai singing bank first#the whole point of virvox is a variety of masc synth voices after all and hes got like a really interesting voice#like his goofy very character-y tone is pretty unique so thats gonna be pretty fun#i seriously would have thought ryuusei would be the first tho. mostly just because hes so popular#but then again his voice provider might be busy. hes doing a lot of vtuber stuff and theres the upcoming aivoice2 talk bank#and yeah i didnt think genbu would be first LOL i prophesized this......#i mean i didnt know for sure but i did think it would be kind of funny. and it is kind of funny <3#also low key... i wouldnt be surprised if they gotta hold off for a bit. genbu might be cursed? they have been so so SO unlucky with him#king of software deprecation. king of contracts falling through. hes trying. hes trying#so i was like okay the first ai singing bank might not be him KJDSHJfdsjhkfds#besides as much as i would like an ai bank for benby (i would selfishly prefer a SV bank specifically so i can have my SV conveniences LOL)#im pretty satisfied with his concatenative. if you havent noticed <3#also selfishly i hope the next singing bank announcement (whenever that is) will be sourin. i think hes another really unique vocal#and also i want that old man. i need that old man. who said that#but any of them im exicted for. the younger guys kotarou and takuto i think about a little bit less often than the others#but i still like em a lot so it'll be fun to have that (not)catboy around#when we get more info i may start planning out some songs for him to cover.... ruh roh im already considering a few....#edit: im hoping SV because i like it but i'll be fine with any engine. except someone reminded me ace studio exists#i went from no fear to one fear in seconds flat. nothing against the software ive never used it its just#subscription software is not something i can do orz. please anything but that. i will be happy with anything but that LOL
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i'm not trying to be mean but if you're not american and you have no idea how the american voting system works, maybe just shut the fuck up about the 2024 election. thanks.
#seeing a bit too many people who go 'well why can't americans just xyz' and it's s/t that literally doesn't exist in the voting system#if you want to discourse about the election maybe do some basic research on how it works first & then come back with ur loopholes#gonna be honest. losing it over how many people are tying to suggest voting third party this election. THIS election.#im sorry but the political landscape in america is so aggressively binary right now that it will literally take years to make a viable#third party candidate and so far there's been literally no one with the charisma and backing to pull it off in like 8 months#the last person to get any significant vote as an independent was 30 years ago and even that was only 18% of the vote#and he didnt even get ANY electoral votes. NONE. you cannot! win! without! the electoral votes!#something libs have been trying to fix for YEARS but can't. bc republicans know how much electoral voting helps them.#anyway im getting mad about it again but pls shut up about third-party voting until you've actually looked at third-party candidate history#bc i promise you it is actually not an option esp for an election in EIGHT MONTHS.
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i've been having bad luck with pulls in my games lately. I guess I used up all my luck with e6s1 imbibitor lunae that didn't cost me anything but all my luck it seems 😅
#if i knew firefly existed then i would have saved it for her tbh#im saving now for something i havent decided yet#but in genshin i lost my last 50/50 and just lost navias weapon. again. didnt get it last time either D:#in wuwa i didnt get yinlin. didnt get jinhsis weapon. and am now trying changli bht nit looking good#but not*#other people i know who play wuwa say you get so many pulls and they all have myltiple characters and weapons and im like HOW#ive barely had enough to get jiyan and jinhsi and im only like 30 in on changli and 30 in on weapon banner#how do some people have at least 3 characters and their weapons and say its easy because you get so mamy pulls lmao#im struggling to get more!!!!!!#just did math. 423 pulls for e6s1 imbibity. idk if thats a lot or very little but it was lucky enough to win all of them
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ASDFHJKLG PUTTING HER CHRISTMAS STUFF UP??? IS SO???? EVIL????
It is her fault for being baby-cousin. If she didn't want this to be her life, she shouldn't have been born last.
I'm the middle child of the cousins and no one dares prank me.
Because it's too hard and also I always get my revenge.
#ask#plus i have a password protected folder on my computer and 3 harddrives that is titled 'blackmail'#and everyone in my family believes I have horrible photos of them that I am fully prepared to post#nothing dirty but like embarrasing mid-sneeze photos and screen shots of embarrasing texts#so they give me a wide birth and only play the small pranks like hiding my knife at dinner#or putting sugar packets in my purse at a restaurant if I use the bathroom.#but in reality the folders are all empty#its just the existence of the folder and their own imaginations as to what is inside keeps them in line#at first when my uncle asked as a joke yes there was a funny screen shot of my grandma sneezing on a skype call when i was overseas#but the way he asked; i was trying to think of a funny retort and too much time passed so i just kept quiet with a neutral expression#and theyve been scared ever since#a lot of people think im more scheme-ie than i am simply because if i feel i havent come up with a reply in the right time frame#i just dont say anything#or cock an eyebrow and let them imagine what it means#see in HS my friends would tease me for accidentally saying something that sounded naughty and i could never get them#because i didnt have a pervy mind back then#so i started just giving them the same look theyd give me and they would freak out like i caught them#even though nothing they said sounded pervy to me#i applied the same practice to family interrogations#and if people think you know something theyll fill in everything for you
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dont think about betty on her own thinking about how she gave up so much in her life and so much she wanted to do and so much of her own independent identity to follow simon and do what he wanted to do. oh god dont think about simon telling betty he wants her by his side and she cancels her trip to stay with him and when he spins her around he leaves her standing just one step beneath him. but in the theoretical reality where he goes with her they stay on the same level the entire time. and who knows what would’ve happened. but it didn’t happen and they’ll never get to know. no changing it. betty doesn’t regret anything. they made their own choices. and don’t think about simon having this realization that changes everything way, way too late, with absolutely nothing left to do about it but just. know. and keep going. and don’t think about that being how it ends. they never see each other again. Yeah it’s too late I’m crying so much
#BANGINF MY FIST ON THE FLIOR#ME WHEN THE COUPLE WHO HAS BEEN NOTHINT BUT TRAGIC FROM THE DSY THEY SPAWNED INTO EXISTENCE CONTINUES TO BE GTRAGIC#Im.#im briefly trying to turn off my analysis brain and not consider what does or doesnt work narratively and etc#bc im sure i could get into so much and so many pathways w that but right now im turning off my brain and focusing on going .#ITS NOT FAIR#EVERYTHING THEY TRIED AND TRIED AND TRIED AND LOVED EACH OTHER SO MUCH AND.#AND THEY JUST DUG THEIR OWN METAPHORICAL GRAVES#LOVED EADCH OTHER SO MUCH AND THATS WHAT THEY GET#EVEN IMAGINIFN WHAT IF HE GOT ON THE BUS. HE DOESNT.#SHE LEAVES.#I HAVE TO DIE OR SOMETHING I DONT KNOW#[UGLY TEARS] MY FAVORITE DOOMED YURI WAS DOOMED#i dont know. what they deserved. but i am being hit with bricks#They loved each other so deeply and then they went through so much and then they tried so hard#but they made their choices and their choices mewnt theyd have to go separate ways. its better for them#And im going to DIE AND RHROW UP. IT DIDNT HAPPEN IT NEVER HAPPENED RHEYRE OKAY AND THEYEE TOGETHER AND THEYEE HAPPY LIKE THAT#PLEASE . GGGGGGGG#basilposting#atposting#fionna and cake spoilers
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#ever sit like a corpse in your own body?#im doing a job i wasnt designed for. theres this funny thing we do in academia where we beg for money. write in consise phrasing why we#deserve funding. what it is about our project what it is about our personhood that makes us deserving. what we're doing in our present to#give back and ensure a better future. and i can pull together a description of a nervous kid who couldn't read but loved to learn anyway.#who didnt kno how to hold proper a conversation until college and so tried and got better at ppl. who wouldnt let a language problem get in#the way of information gain. who cares about making complicated info visually digestible. and that's a nice story. but it falls apart when#projected into the future. what r u doing for the future? im just trying to continue existing#dont u want to help other ppl like u? sure but i dont have anything nice to say to them. does it ever get easier? no. it probably never will#ur brain was not built for reading. sometimes things r just terrible and u have to accept that. develop a crippling mental disorder or do#something where u dont have to read. see. not helpful. bad attitude. im just too full of blood and broken glass. all my achievements r#stained red and it hurts to look at them. to get myself to function i have to squeeze so tight i can feel the strain in my head. and even#then its not enough. do u kno what its like to spend ur whole life building something only to watch it burn to ashes in front of u? just a#broken machine rotting away underground where no one will see it. but dont let things fester. speak up if somethings wrong. and say what?#lmao i wrote this last night and then today when my advisor was like: hows it going? do u feel like u have enough time to get everything#done? and i had the gall to be like *voice strained high to prevent crying* its alright i think ive got enough time. bc yea technically i#think there r enough hours in yhr day that if i really tried i could get it all done. but that doesn't count the time i spend laying with#thr absolute desolation of my mind. so no. there isnt enough time bc im not doing well. but there's nothing he can do abt it so ya kno#whats the point in talking abt it except to say ya sorry im such a wretched miserable person. i dont kno how to fix it. my enthusiasm is#hidden under layer upon layer of pain. i burnef out before even getting here and im only making it worse#but whatever ill see my therapist Tuesday#unrelated
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it is such a shame that rainstorms are a consistent migraine trigger for me because I love the rain so much but especially I love the way that the rain makes my city look. it goes all gray and lit-from-within at civil twilight and the skyscrapers at city center stretch up so high that the shapes lose definition and it's something that I am just so so fond of.
#not to mention the classic streetlights and wet pavement. thats always been a particular little thing that ive loved#it feels more like autumn than late winter today which makes me a little upset but driving in rain is better than driving in ice at least#im in a bit of a really strange introspective mood now that ive finally cleared the worst of the migraine#a lot of stuff has happened for me lately that i havent talked about on here at all just to a couple of close friends.#and im kind of. actively trying? to stop caring so much about telling people about things.#a couple weeks ago i did something that not a soul on earth knows. and they never will. and it was SO FREEING.#<- not anything bad or whatever just. a regular thing that happened that i didnt tell anyone about.#idk. im trying a lot more lately to worry less about sharing my life and more about just living it. its good i think.#youll probably still get luke. hyperspecific emotional/contemplative oversharing in the tags sometimes#but ive been doing a lot more things that im not telling anyone about. that exist just for me. and im gonna keep doing that.#.lyr
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i have too many vanitas headcannons that i just have rattle around in my head
#mun in the moon [ ooc ]#i have no idea how he got to me so badly on this playthrough of KH#i think he only knows like. fire magic and maybe one or two other spells#i think he doesnt know healing magic at all#i know that boy doesnt know how to read and write he was raised in the KEYBLADE GRAVEYARD by XEHANORT#i think he doesnt do training matches he acts like hes fighting to the death in every fight ever#hence why he just fuckin#flops on the ground after so many fights in bbs#he just puts his entire strength and all his energy into every fight so viciously he doesnt keep stamina#so after it hes just absolutely winded#holding my head in my hands. boy whos anger comes from a deep sense of lonliness and envy because hes been alone all his life#and wants what ventus has so bad cause hes gotten so many looks into it#but he thinks the only way he can Stop feeling like that is straight up just dying. and becoming whole with him again#cause he hasnt been given the space to breathe and deprogram himself from thinking hes a monster not made to exist#which. it doesnt help in the bbs times darkness was way more villianized people didnt think you needed both!!!#so everyone would've just been like ew youre mad of darkness youre evil right away anyways even without the xehanort influence#i know he hates looking at his reflection and so many parts of himself cause hes like ew im just a mismash of ventus and sora#my boys lack of a sense of identity out of being a weapon or feeling like something not meant to exist#just meant to die to fulfill a bigger purpose and become someone else again#everyone else is trying to get out of the heart hotel hes trying to get IN#anyways. im normal now.#i have so many other thoughts but i cant word them just yet. boy who i adopted 3 days ago rotting my head
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hey
dont talk shit about other peoples tattoos or ridicule them for getting whatever on their bodies just cause they wanted to. not your body, not your decision or place to comment
thats all
#my mom was basically staring at mine today. i told her yeah its still there. she actually voiced her displeasure for it like???#im sorry i got something meaningful on me that you dont get. i dont ask you to get it im asking you to respect my decision#thankfully my sister (who has multiple tattoos all over that my mom never complains about) backed me up#but god. dont do this. to anyone ever but especially to a family member or a close friend#..especially after i just this week pulled through because of it exists on me so liiiiiike. that was nice#i dont wanna dwell on this but i need to get this out of my head as i feel so gross having to endure that today after the past few weeks#the unsupportive mental health talk (unrelated to this or me) didnt help#i fucking loathe this family sometimes jfc#im gonna try to calm down i just feel very rattled and quite frankly angry at all of this ugh#night is an absolute mess on main
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