#i have so many other thoughts but i cant word them just yet. boy who i adopted 3 days ago rotting my head

[cindyss]

Theodore nott × reader (book reader)

They go to the mall together Theodore trying to find ways to spend on his girl because she keeps rejecting everything (growing up her parents didn't have money so she finds buying stuff for no particular reason is unnecessary).

But she's on her phone looking at some books she really wants, she's been saving for them but still doesn't have enough to buy all 5. Theodore looks at her phone wondering what she's so interested in, when he notices that you want the books, he leads you to the book store and buys those books and 4 more. When at the till, you see how expensive it is and try to tell him to not pay he quickly dismissed you

— you know ill do anything to see that pretty smile of yours -theodore nott

- pairing: theodore nott x reader (book)

- word count: 1.08k

- note: absolute cutest idea ever 🥹

you and theodore had hit the three month mark of dating, and to celebrate your anniversary, you decided to go out together to the mall and after it you would go grab lunch together.

you put on a cute yet casual outfit and got picked up by theo. as soon you got in his car he greeted you with a kiss, “hii bella, you look so beautiful”.

you face turned red, your boyfriend not once failing at making you blush, not missing a chance to compliment you. “thank you baby”.

he started the car and drove the both of you to the mall. on the way there, you talked about a few things, exchanging laughs and smiles. suddenly, his phone started ringing, “sorry i have to take this, enzo is staying over at mine and he was trying to cook pasta before i left, so i just wanna make sure he hasn’t burnt my house down already.” you chuckled “of course take your time.”

you opened your phone while he spoke on the phone, scrolling through instagram, you came across a recent reel of your favorite author, talking about the release of her new book. from next to you, theodore took a glance at your phone, wondering what you’re so interested in when he saw a last holding a book.

“berkshire, the cheese is in a white container in the freezer, how many times do i have to tell you that? i have to go now, take care and don’t burn my kitchen”.

With that, he ended the phone call, he turned to look at you before then turning his head to keep his eyes on the road, “isn’t this the book you’ve been telling me you want to read?” he questioned.

“yes it is, she released it a few days ago. ive been saving up for it and a few others im going to buy soon”. to that, the boy nodded before turning the car to the parking lot of the mall.

after a few hours of walking around the mall, you only a bought a small amount of clothes as theo wouldn’t let you pay, your stomach grew more hungry.

“i think its tike to leave, im starving and our reservation is in around 25 minutes” you told him.

“okay, just, one more place, come” he said holding your hand, leading you to a shop. as you got close, you found yourself standing in front of a book store

“oh theo, i’ll come back later, i didn’t save up money for all of them yet” “who said anything about you paying?” he said leading you in.

“oh no, i cant baby, they’re expensive.” “please cara mia let me do these for you”. he smiled at you. “now lets go find these books of yours.” he added as you walked through the shelves.

after finding the correct isle for the genre of your book, you scan the shelves looking for the newly released book. “there it is!” theo exclaims grabbing it. “thank you theo now can we leave”.

he came closer to you taking your hands in his “cara there are 4 more you wanted didn’t you?”

“how did you know?”

“it wasn’t hard to find your good reads tbr list” he said earning a smile from you.

theodore was the most careful and thoughtful boyfriend ever, he could tell when you were uncomfortable just by your behavior, sad just by meeting your eyes.

“thank you but i promise ill have enough money saved for these by the end of the month” “no bella its our anniversary today and so i will buy these for you as a gift”

growing up poor wasn’t exactly a story from a kids book, you didn’t have each and every shoe you’ve ever dreamed off, you didn’t have your own room, bathroom, not even privacy, all had to be shared with your family members.

Therefore, someone spending money on you made you feel so guilty, and especially something like this, your boyfriend wasting money on something for you was unnecessary and unfair as you couldn’t give back something in return.

As you tried to protest, theo just pulled you, leading you everywhere. He managed to find 2 of the books you wanted , however, 1 he couldn’t find, and as you refused to cooperate, he walked up to a worker there, “i’m sorry where can i find the book shadow and bone?” “come with me” the woman led you to one of the isles

“we currently aren’t selling them separately so you’ll have to buy the whole 6 books” “theo no! these are way more than i need right now.”

he turned his face to look at you then turned back to look at the women, “yes ill take these thank you”.

with that, he took the box from her, and went to checkout. as the lady was checking the books, theodore never once bothered to look at you as he knew you were probably fuming by now.

“it’ll be $123”. your boyfriend then pulled out his credit card as you gasped “theo no seriously,” you stated in a serious, angry tone. “this is for my own entertainment and i told you I’m saving money for it, this isn’t any of your business to buy it for me.”

the boy next to you then let out a sarcastic exaggerated sigh “your business is mine okay? you know ill do anything to see that pretty smile of yours principessa”.

your heart absolutely melted at his words, you wanted to cry yet scream at him for not listening to you.

the lady then handed back his credit card and the bag containing your books. “how long have you been married for?” the woman asked, smiling, she looked quite old, early 60s perhaps.

“not yet, no” theodore said “but as soon as we graduate I’m putting a ring on it” he smiled as the lady chuckled. he carried the bag in one hand and held your hand in the other as you walked out,

“thank you so much for all of this seriously, but i am mad at you so dont ever think about doing that again.” “oh i will” he teased,

“lets go eat some food right now before i resort to eating my better option.” he spoke “which is?” you asked

“you.”

cutest request ever, i need a boy like him who will buy all the books on my tbr list fr 🙂‍↕️ .

[mouse-fantoms]

On top of being robbed of so much Juke content we’ll never get, what I think about alot is how Juke would have been approached more if it went further.

One of the (many) reasons I love jatp so much is it makes me believe their characters are real, that they have background, they have their own goals and ambitions to them, they’re fleshed out.

That moment of Flynn going “my girls got a crush and his name is Luke” and Julie going “what no?! Luke’s a ghost😳.” And Flynn saying “a cute ghost” and Julie giving in and saying “…with a perfect smile☺️” and adding that Luke is “cute air” which implies she has indeed given this Luke crush idea some thought.

That moment of just two best friends talking about the others potential crush like that’s such a good moment bc I genuinely believe that I am watching these two genuine besties just have that kind of talk with one another bc that happens!

Like that moment we have with our friends when they’re like “hey I got something to tell you 👀” or they approach you like “so… umm… I’ve been kind of noticing your behavior lately around this person.” It’s the realistic little things like that which is why I appreciate this show so much.

Julie having the line of “what no! Luke’s a ghost!” Means so much that, on top of acknowledging “hey he’s got a cute smile, and he himself is cute” she also acknowledged “…he is a ghost though…” but then our Julie being who she is (we love her for it) went “but he still do be cute though 🥰” like this is a genuine teen girl in high school having a crush

And then later on when Reggie and Alex bring up how Luke and Julie ooze chemistry (and the way that throughout the show when Julie and Luke are being cute and them, the looks that we see Reggie and Alex give like Juke and then each other is so good bc I genuinely believe like “yeah these boys are all friends with one another so of course they’d react that way to their other friend showing an interest in their fellow friend”) Luke’s like “no come on I have chemistry with everyone I sing with” HE DOES THE SAME THING JULIE DID WHEN THE EXACT SAME TOPIC EAS BROUGHT UP TO HER! (Soulmates your honor!)

Him denying it, like Julie did, implies too that he also had the thinking of “…she is alive though and I’m not” (I mean me personally I feel like Luke didn’t truly realize he liked her until later on even if there were signs earlier, just bc he seems like the kind of person where like music was his absolute everything like even if the Sunset Curve fangirls were always like ‘omg Luke is amazing 😍’, I just get the vibe that he would never really notice the advances towards him bc he is just so consumed in music and that is his whole existence, so when Reggie and Alex see that Luke appears to be falling for Julie it’s a big deal bc they’re probably like “Luke has NEVER shown any interest ever so the fact that a girl has replaced music in his life THIS IS A MASSIVE DEAL”)

And then the moment when they’re on Julie’s porch and she tries to hold his hand but ya know CANT (huge what a gut punched) and then she awkwardly looks away and he’s like “…this is an interesting little relationship you and I have” and they’re just there for a moment just looking and smiling at each other (THEY’RE FLIRTING SO MUCH WITHOUT SAYING ANY WORDS UGH TAKE ME 😩)

I am sat there genuinely believing that these are two teenagers who even though they know they’re not *supposed* to feel a way about each other, they still do. Like that scene is their confession to one another and it’s so sweet and genuine bc in that moment where Julie tries to hold his hand, they’re brought back to reality as to what they are and yet, they can’t help but still like one another and appreciate each other bc of what the other person has changed so much in their life.

AND THEN, that scene in the beginning of the last episode how Julie asks to talk to Luke (and Reggie and Alex immediately are like “oop leave them be 👀 they’re having a moment” being the greatest friends that they are) and they’re both standing there, in each others presence, it takes a moment for Julie to say what she wants to but they’re just two kids who ended up in each others lives and they know they like each other but they know they can’t act on those feelings yet they still just have this love for each other is so enduring and charming. The way Luke tells her “anything Julie you know that” MAKES ME MELT like ugh 😩 their dynamic and friendship has grown so much with each other from episode 1 to like now and it’s so just ugh it gets me

When I think how Juke could have been approached if we had gotten a chance, I would have loved to see the new like “glowing touch” development and how that would impact their dynamic. (I just imagine Reggie just hugs Julie all the time bc he can (he just seems like such a hugger and I feel like he’d give good ones🥺) and Alex also will gives her side hugs (they just take advantage of being able to physically touch her bc they don’t know how long they’re able to do it for with their new ghost development)) I feel like Luke and Julie would just be a bit apprehensive since the hand holding thing on the porch, and maybe their hug was just a one time thing.

Would have loved to see Carlos referring to Luke as “Julie’s boyfriend” (he was there for edge of great and stand tall THERES NO WAY he’s thinking anything of than “the sleeveless one is indeed my sisters boyfriend”) would be extra great too with like Luke being in the room and Carlos just says that and Julie quickly trying to make him not talk about it bc it’s embarrassing 💀 her just being like “Carlos, he’s a ghost” and him being like “…hey with you having a boyfriend are you going to have less time with Dad and I bc you’ll be busy kissing him?” And Julie’s face just goes pale as Luke takes the time to take himself out of room meanwhile his face his like bright red

Would have loved to see when Carrie’s redemption is happening and it’s Julie and Carrie and Carrie’s like “sooooo 👀 I’ve seen how you look at your guitarist” and she immediately tries to shut it down but Carrie is like “Jules, we may not have been that close in the past year and some but we’ve known each other for how long? I can see your tells!”

I just think a lot about how this ship, even though they’re not meant to like each other yet they do and still care about each other, would have been approached more if we got the chance

[shadowbriar]

Sirius Black - Time in a Bottle

Pairing : Sirius Black x (she/her) Reader Word Count : 0.7k Warning : Happens during the war. Synopsis : Whatever storm they might need to weather in the future, knowing that marrying her would be the first thing they'd do once the sun comes back up, would forever be enough for Sirius to give the day another chance. Notes : Don't forget to fill the form here if you'd like to be tagged for my future works. If you like this story and would like to support me, please visit my kofi page and perhaps get me a coffee?☕ Sirius Black's Masterlist click here. Taglist : @jsjcue @ell0ra-br3kk3r @sofiacblair @when-you-cant-think-of-anything

His occasional hums were the only sound breaking the silence of the cottage. Her cheek resting on the bare skin of his chest, legs entangled with each other, body covered only by the thin layer of bedsheets. If either of them could find a spell to freeze time in a bottle, this would certainly be the moment they'll capture.

"Humour me," Sirius says, his fingers now travels through the strands of her hair "If we managed to get out of this war, alive and unscathed, what would you do first?"

"If?" She lets out a breathy chuckle "That doesn't sound optimistic."

"Yes, well, I'm trying to be realistic."

"Realistic? Sirius Black being realistic?" She asks, looking up and raising an eyebrow at him "Who are you and what have you done to my boyfriend, Stranger?"

The boy rolled his eyes, "Just answer the question."

"Let's see," She says with a long sigh, her smile never leaving her lips "The first thing I'd do when we win the war would be.."

Sirius waited. He stares into her eyes, trying to see if there's anything she secretly wishes yet couldn't find the words to utter. He watches as her brows furrow and relax. She's certainly trying to work the gears in her head to find an answer.

And then it dawned in him. Like an episode playing in the back of his mind, replaying all of his favourite moments with her and all the things he's loved about her. He could hear her voice when she first called his name back in second year. He could see her smile when he first won the Quidditch cup. He could feel the weight of her fingers around his when he first held her hand. All of them replaying and flooding his senses like a tidal wave.

The thumping in his chest quickens. He begins to wonder about all the future possibilities for the two of them. He wonders what kind of a house would they be moving into. He wonders what kind of dress would she wear on their wedding day. He wonders how many children they would have and if they would have his eye colour or hers.

"Marry me."

His question snaps them both, blinking as he tries to process how his mouth ran faster than his brain, just as always. Sirius could see the surprise on her face as the smile on her face dilutes into an uncertain one. His mouth feels dry all of a sudden. An unexplainable lump forming on his throat and he struggles to followup with any kind of explanation to his sudden outburst.

A hesitant smile tugs on the corner of her lips, "Marry you?"

"If you'd like." He says, voice filled with uncertainty "I mean, if you couldn't find anything to do first after the war, that could be a suggestion."

"Actually, I've thought of something."

"Yeah?"

"Mhm," She nods, moving to now lay on top of him "I was thinking of going back to this cottage and redoing all the things we did tonight, as if we never left this place."

Sirius grins as he rests his hands on the sides of her waist, "That sounds nice."

"It is," She nods once again "But marrying you sounds a little bit better, I would say."

"Just a little bit?"

"Just a little bit," She coos, kissing the tip of his nose "This place is a bit hard to top, I am very fond of tonight."

"Me too," He smiles "So is that a yes then?"

She raised an eyebrow, "I didn't hear any question I should be saying a yes to."

Sirius' grin goes even wider that it practically hurts his cheeks but his heart was full. He's never felt any more loved than now and he sure would never want to risk losing this. Whatever storm they might need to weather in the future, knowing that marrying her would be the first thing they'd do once the sun comes back up, would forever be enough for Sirius to give the day another chance.

"My Darling, Sweetheart," he calls endearingly, tucking the few strands of her hair behind her ear "Would you marry me?"

[scrumptiousstuffs]

Hii~ I'll say firstly I'm keeping things strictly speculative and I'm NOT diagnosing anyone since I'm not a doctor.

I've noticed this for so long and just wanted to out this in the world asgdjdjfkf but khaotung gives me MAJOR adult with undiagnosed adhd vibes. The messy car (bottles in the front seat?!), always messy room, extremely creative hobbies and passions (song writing/ composing/singing/ acting), impulsive purchases !!!, frequently getting lost even with maps, engineering major but cant math, has a hard time rmring past events even though he's in the same location (timeblindness). I have ADHD too and I can see such a striking resemblance in me and him it’s crazy. (Ofc everybody presents with stuff like this but when it's excessive that's when you know)

I've watched and rewatched interviews and content enough to see how he tends to be a little spacey and needs to ask things twice to make sense. (People with ADHD struggle usually with too many thoughts, attention going everywhere instead of just the task at hand) And oh when I saw that gifset where he's like he asks first's help to organise his tasks for him my heart just died cz yes!!! (That's troubles with sequencing and work ordering that we folks struggle with and there's his bestie just calmly helping him out oh it made me heart hurt sm but anyway-)

He's my little aloof baby girl with 26739 facial expressions cz he cannot for the life of him calm tf down. He's so reactive and expressive and in the moment, yet he falls over his words (not all the time, yes, but A LOT). My boy is doing his fckin best and has grown so so much and I adore him for that.

His sleep habits??? Classic adhd. Can't fall asleep cz his brain wouldn't stfu. (He said that himself in one radio interview)

His shopping addiction is just him boosting his dopamine every chance he gets. And I get him. So much.

Somewhere he also talked about how he got burnt out and couldn't get out of bed and I just. I just wanted to hug this boy bcz- oh. Oh it all makes sense. (ADHD folks are notorious for burning out cz they already run on little to no fuel. They have to work extra hard for things others do without effort and that gets so goddamn hard)

Manager can’t reach him. Hyper aware of his surroundings (hence attuned and caring to everyone around him). He frequently gets distracted by fans screaming while he's talking (cz of the external stimulus) - and first has spoken on his behalf to not misunderstand him 🥹 (Again bcz ADHD makes your attention go everywhere and you can't regulate that shit)

But why am I even going on about this? There's plenty of people out there who don't have/require a diagnosis bcz they're doing just fine.

YES. YES.

This makes me all the more emotional bcz yes, people, community, friends, family when all of them pick up on your lost pieces life just gets so much bearable.

First is that person for Khaotung 100%.

He literally called First his second manager, he asks First to organise his work for him, answer for him. He looks for him everywhere because he needs him like genuinely, genuinely needs him to be there. (Like that one time he won't let him go off stage bcz he was taking pictures and didn’t want to be alone aahdhajsk)

Like we call First as the one who clings to Khaotung, let's be honest the whole company says it. But when I see Khaotung with First it's like he turns towards him like he's the sun. Pre-FK, in interviews he used to be so shy and struggle at articulating things, but with First taking the reigns he got the space to become better at his own pace and that's what I love about them sm :(

Okay I'm done. I'm just saying he might (again, keyword MIGHT) have ADHD. It's a whole spectrum and having friends around who aren’t judgemental and willing to share the load for you makes life easier and bearable and First is that person for him which just makes me admire and love this pairing even more aaagsfhjdk :((((

So, finally, what do you think about this? Sorry if this is in any way unsettling you don't have to answer it I just wanted to get it out haha

Wow anon, this is certainly a long post😅. You must have thought about it hard.

I have no training to diagnose ADHD. However, I'm glad you identify with Khaotung and sees yourself in him.

That's why most of us love the boys, yeah? In some ways or another, they are relatable and we connect with them. (On top of their kind, sweet nature, amazing acting skills plus beautiful faces of course!!!🥰🥰🥰)

Either way, some of the habits you listed above can easily be considered annoying to a lot of people. Clearly, First just finds everything Khaotung does adorable (but can you blame him? 🥺🥺🥺…look at this pookie!)

They balance each other superbly well. Yin and Yang if you want to call it ☯️

So, I agree with you when you say First is the person for Khaotung (just as Khaotung is for First)

(Khaotung towards First during an interview) ☝️

And you are absolutely right when you say that it's very easy (from the outside) to see First appears to be the "clingier" of the 2, but I suspect privately, Khaotung is just as sticky (he is just not as open about it like First, and I'll be addressing this on a different ask I got).

There is a quote by Walt Whitman (American poet) - "Keep your face towards the sunshine, and shadows will fall behind you."

And so, your statement of Khaotung looking at First like he is the sun, oh yes... he does it all the time!! (be it in official photoshoot, concerts or events)

[batfambrainrotbeloved]

Hey so you know how you made Dick speak sanskrit in your fic? lives in my head rent free.

Why did he not speak romanian. how far back in the historical timeline was his clan(??? idk how to translate the word im thinking of into english but its “ନକ୍ଷ୍ୟତ୍ର”/ “ଗୋତ୍ର”) separated from the rest? How was it not prakrit? Were his parents just trying to reconnect to their roots? Did he learn it from his parents or was it learned while trying to connect with his roots? Does he ever realise that any songs and texts are all religious? Is HE religious with how many words in sanskrit straight up reference god?Does he feel alienated with how his culture is romani but his language is indian? Does he ever realise theres only one village in the world that speaks sanskrit as a native language and its over 13,000 km away? Does it get lonely realising that even damian’s knowledge of languages cant cover it?

Im sorry for ranting but my struggle to reconnect w my culture has me projecting HARD ���

OH BOY- I have been avoiding some asks (because I haven't had the mental strength to give each the time and love response they deserves I swear im getting to yall) But THIS one was just far too good to pass (and im bored as hell in class)

I would say I do dive a little more into my headcanon culture stuff involving Dick and even Damien in Mama Bird (which again I REALLY NEED TO UPDATE)

BUT Let the rambling begin <33

Why does he speak Sanskrit in the fic vs any other language? Simply it was the closest language I could trace similar roots to Romani ancestery too that was easily acsessible dictionary/translator that I could use in my writings.

Canonically he probably WOULD speak a dilect of Romani or Prakrit etc, but in my desperate trying to look into the language and culture half of the resources I came upon were incredibly racist even for someone who had no idea about the culture before then.

How far back in the historical timeline was his clan??? (Clan/Tribe/Family are good english translation's) Im not familiar enough with Romanian clans to assign a specific one (Though from my understanding of research, The Grayson family would be desenced from Romani people lineages that used to reside in the Indus Valley region- yet another reason for the use of Sanskrit)

Were his parents just trying to reconnect to their roots? Did he learn it from his parents or was it learned while trying to connect with his roots? I havent thought into this TOO much, but i'll say as a headcanon that his family felt a great pride in their culture as some of the lucky few who could maintain their nomadic lifestyle with the circus. His Mother was probably less connected (only knowing from her grandparents sort of thing) and rediscovered her roots after meeting his Father who was VERY in tune with his culture.

And as such tried their best to reclaim those roots and share them with Dick. So yes he learned from his parents- but they were still fully connecting themselves.

Does he ever realise that any songs and texts are all religious? Is HE religious with how many words in sanskrit straight up reference god? This is more projection but as someone who grew up in the bible belt, (Translation- American southern region nicknamed "The bible belt" because of how ingrained the Christian Faith is in both religious practice and general culture) Dick is less belief religious and more culturally religious- he will use religious phrasing, have some habits/beliefs FROM religious background without being fully invested, and even some things he doesn't realize are heavily religious until pointed out.

Aka religious pratices in the way of how your mother would teach you to put knifes in the dishwasher upside down (so they wouldnt be as much of a hazard) but something you do because its how you were told instead of thinking about the WHY as much.

Does he feel alienated with how his culture is romani but his language is indian? Does he ever realise theres only one village in the world that speaks sanskrit as a native language and its over 13,000 km away?

Now this is more complicated, I don't know much about circus life (though I do actually have a friend I can ask so might change this later) But from what I know its a VERY mixed enviornment so Dick was both entrenched in his cultural lifestyle as a nomad with his parents proudly sharing their roots, while also being exposed to dozens of other cultures that were also "his".

Aka- Dick is an amalgamation of culture to the point he both belongs in more ways than most people could ever have, and yet feels completely isolated as a result since no one else understands why he gets upset when people wish him Happy Birthday early, why he always dumps the first steep of tea, why he "pays respects" to his bike and tools, why he sets aside food just to be thrown out, etc etc

Its nice, to be able to connect with people over so much, but at the same time it sucks when his family points out "weird habits" that he hadnt even realized were strange. (Thankfully after a few long talks, people stopped commenting on Dicks habits, anyone who does faces the wrath of the Batclan and just about every Hero from Metropolis to the edge of the Milky way)

Does it get lonely realising that even damian’s knowledge of languages cant cover it?

Actually Batfam DOES know some Sanskrit just by exposure of living with Dick. The one who knows the most is probably Alfred since he was the one dealing with the rambunctious kid who would get frustrated with instructions he didnt understand (and that frustration only getting worse for English being like 5th or so language)

None of them are anywhere near fluent though, but I like to think Dick has a pen pal/friends he practices with. Also because he's terrified of losing his proficency and in turn, losing another part of his culture his parents tried so hard to give to him.

And No need to apologize! Like I said, im an outsider looking in from a very different culture but I loved reading (what little good sources I could find) about this topic. Of course if you have any insights/comments/crituqes I would love to hear about them and thank you for the ask!!

[ughgoaway]

i hate matty healy- chapter 1

content warnings; no direct smut but theres build up, swearing, drinking, creepy men and my first attempt at writing anything!! word count- 2500-ish

a/n: here we go again! here's chapter 1, this was my first time writing anything so keep that in mind whilst reading lol. I just hit 200 notes on the original like 2 days before tumblr deleted my account so thanks again tumblr!! I'll stop being bitter soon I promise...

next chapter

You hate Matthew Healy. Specifically, you hate his hands, which are currently desperately groping you wherever he can reach. His hips that you usually stare at on stage and roll your eyes at their gyration are pushed up against you, grinding, trying to get any friction between the two of you. You also hate his hair, the mop of unruly curly you have currently between tight fights gripping and forcing his lips to yours. That's another thing you hate. His lips. Even though they are furiously kissing yours, you try to reassure yourself you hate them. You absolutely categorically hate everything about Matty Healy, apart from the fact that you don't hate him. Not even a little bit. Not at all. But you don't know that yet. 

This “hatred” began at a house party in Wilmslow. Your very sad, very grey, very English hometown. You were in some massive country house staring at a room of teenagers grinding against each other. Whilst they might all be technically adults, they certainly don't look like them whilst giggling and swaying their hips to some awful house music. Large paintings of deer and horses decorate the wall as well as an oil portrait of the family that owns the house hanging over the fireplace that is currently filled with empty bottles of liquor. An interesting interior design choice you thought. The bass of some EDM tune is vibrating through you making you more uncomfortable than you already are surrounded by drunk people from school. You thought the guys you interacted with on a daily basis couldn't get any worse, and then you interacted with them once they had a bottle of vodka in them. 

Right now you were cornered by Josh Brown by the entryway and desperately trying to escape the presence of the, frankly, concerningly sweaty boy. In your head you vowed to never be a good sister again, the only reason you were at this scummy party in the first place is to support your brother Ross. Ross had formed a band a few years ago, from what you've heard they're alright but you had made a promise to yourself to never meet them or see them perform live.

You didn't want to meet anyone who had any desire to form a band as generally, they are the worst kind of people. Always somehow insecure and full of ego at the same time. As for not seeing them live, there were many reasons but mainly because you knew how girls react to a guy in a band and the last way you wanted to spend your Saturdays was seeing fit girls fawn over your brother. It was bad enough hearing “Oh my god you're Ross’ sister? No way! Can you introduce me?!” every day at secondary school and you just knew it would be worse now that he's 19 years old, in a band and is sporting an impressive beard (not that you would ever tell him that.) But Ross has insisted that you come to this show, apparently, they've finally perfected some new songs and you just needed to hear them, so you broke your rule. “Never again,” you thought whilst Josh somehow got closer.

Suddenly you heard “Josh bugger off mate cant you see she's physically moving away from you? Take the hint and move on” It was not a voice you recognised but a nice one nonetheless. Josh turned around suddenly and accidentally gave you a quick flash of your saviour before the stupid oaf blocked your view again. All you saw was a head of crazy curls and a leather jacket. “how cliché” you thought- coming to a house party in a cool leather jacket and saving a damsel in distress. Not that you were a damsel, you were however in distress but, to be fair, so is everyone within 10 feet of Josh due to the impressive odour he gave off. “Oh shove off Healy, you don't know what you're talking about. Does he love?” you vaguely recognise the name Josh angrily spits off but can't place it.

your brain was ticking and you were soon lost in your thoughts you hadn't realised that had Josh turned around and directed the last part of his statement at you. Once you realised he was actually talking to you, you glanced into his eyes and saw he was clearly hoping you were going to try and be polite and lie. You don't lie. As quickly as you can you respond with, “Oh no he definitely does, please don't come near me again. Or near anyone frankly. You are 19 years old, how have you not grown the fuck up enough to know when a girl wants absolutely nothing to do with you?” expecting a violent response you tighten your fists to prepare yourself to punch this asshole in the face. Ross had taught you how to throw a punch properly when you were 13 and had discovered that men suck. But, much to your surprise all he does is scoff and scuttle away standing slightly less tall than when he first came to speak to you. 

Once Josh is finally out of view you turn to face the guy who managed to get him to leave you alone. You are faced with someone you were certainly not expecting. From bottom to top you scanned him taking in his outfit and then his face. He had black doc martens on his feet but had missed a few holes when lacing them up leaving them looking slightly askew. Black skinny jeans adorned his legs followed by a baggy white t-shirt with the Chanel logo on it. You made the assumption that it was in fact not real Chanel. Covering the shirt slightly was the aforementioned black leather jacket. Clearly vintage and too big for him but he pulled it off anyway. Lastly, you looked at his face. Chestnut brown eyes stared back in yours and he had a lazy smirk on his face.

“No need to thank me love” he began to say “No one should have to be in the presence of that dickhead for any longer than absolutely necessary” he had a remarkably average voice by any definition but you picked up on the slight scratchiness of it, you guessed he was a smoker. “Thanks for your help but I really would have been fine, I can deal with people like Josh,” you said back trying to keep any nervousness out of your voice as you don't want to give him the satisfaction of knowing he helped you. You were petty like that. “Alright well since you're so fine on your own I guess I won't ask if you want a drink” he said cheekily whilst leaning on the wall behind you getting a little bit closer. This made you snort and take a deeper look at the man. You guess you could say he was attractive. Actually, the longer you looked you decided he definitely was attractive. Very attractive. Maybe you would enjoy this scummy party after all. 

This illusion was soon shattered when you heard a familiar booming voice behind you say “Matty why are you anywhere near my little sister, you're gonna give her an STD from breathing too close.” You then felt an arm sling over your shoulders, after a second of shock you quickly connected the dots and realised it was Ross. Well maybe it was longer than a second of shock, you had drunk a fair amount of jack daniels at this point. Ross chuckled at your clearly tipsy state causing your whole body to shake due to the sheer size of your brother, at well over six feet he towered over you- even in the platform boots you were wearing. “Ah well Ross I was just doing my civilian duty by saving her from Josh Brown, he has somehow gotten sweatier since leaving school you'll be happy to know” the man you now know as Matty rebutted.

Suddenly a third voice deeper than the other two joined in, “Does your civilian duty require you to be standing that close and leaning in so far you could see down her top?” This comment made you spin and glare at the voice, it came from a man somehow even taller than your brother with a pile of dirty blonde hair on the top of his head that had been scraped into a bun. “Can we all stop perving on my baby sister, please? This is not the introduction I wanted” Ross then turned to look into your eyes “Y/n these are two of the boys from the band, the blonde giant is George but we all call him G- he plays the drums. The short-" Matty's voice cut in “Hey!-” he was cut off quickly by Ross who only reaffirmed what he said “Ahem” he glared at Matty as he fake cleared his voice “As I was saying the extremely short curly dickhead is matty, our “charismatic” front man” his voice dripped with sarcasm as he did air quotes with his hands around the word charismatic. “And our final member Hann, well technically Adam but no one calls him that, hasn't arrived yet” You completely missed that last sentence as you were only thinking about Matty, something that you didn't know would become a staple in your life. 

You then start to really think about the situation, and it all becomes painfully clear. The random attractive stranger only helped because he knows Ross. Of course. You obviously cannot have a life separate from your older brother. Even the seemingly kind strangers who you're attracted to have to know him. Not even just know him, they have to be one of his best mates. Any thoughts you had of getting a quick shag tonight from the hot stranger dissipated quickly as you realised Matty was not just being nice and was in fact teasing you by talking to you. Just doing it knowing it would piss off Ross. Great. You love being the pawn in their immature games. 

Then and there you decided you hate matty healy. This hatred stuck for all the years that followed. It stuck through them getting their first song on the radio. Getting their first album out. The first tour. The first award ceremony. Through it all you hated Matty Healy. Even 10 years later you still hated matty healy. Which circles your thoughts back to his hands on you. You considered maybe you didn't hate Matty like you thought. Maybe this whole time you have done nothing but desire him. But you push that thought far far away.

The day began with you being awoken by a clanging in the kitchen and you knew it was Matty. Everyone else tried to be respectful on the tour bus, and keep quiet. Especially if you had all been drinking the night before like you all had last night. So when you heard the kettle click off and the loud banging of mugs together you knew it was no one other than Matthew Healy. There wasn't anyone else on the bus, they left earlier in search of pancakes. So it was the perfect opportunity to berate him with no backlash from his friends, in a state of anger you rolled out of your bunk to go and do just that.

However, as you walked into the bus kitchen your angry words died in your mouth as you caught him standing there in nothing but a pair of low-hanging grey jogging bottoms trying to make a cup of tea.  As he turned to face you, you snapped back to reality and you made your face as stoic as you could manage. He didn't need to see you gawk over him. He might be attractive but you knew he didn't need to hear it. If his ego got any bigger you think he would be a danger to society.

“What,” he said, staring at you with disdain in his eyes. Due to all your years of hating Matty, he hated you just as much. In the 10 years you have known him you've never laughed a joke, complimented him or given him any idea that you actually like him. In fact, you've done quite the opposite by constantly saying you hate him. This infuriated Matty to no end due to his incredible ego so he hated you too. Mutually assured destruction was the best way to describe your relationship. “Do you have to make the most amount of noise possible at all times Matthew?” you angrily said between clenched teeth. You saw his jaw tick with anger at the use of Matthew. You never called him Matty to his face, in your head you did but never to him. Anything you could do to make his life marginally worse you would do. Hence the heavy use of Matthew. Normally he would rebut with something equally snarky but something was different this morning, he was obviously at the end of his rope.

“Oh my god. I'm done. What the fuck is your issue with me?” he stated angrily in a raised voice. “Oh Matthew we don't have enough time to detail all my issues with me, you have a show tonight!” You snarkily replied. That wasn't good enough this morning. “No. Not today. I'm being serious y/n what did I do to you that means you have done nothing but despise me for the past decade?” you scoffed signifying to him that you weren't going to dignify him with a response. This angered him further and he started to walk closer to you, “are you seriously not going to respond?” he said, you opened your mouth trying to speak but he interrupted you throwing his hands up and saying “That's fine actually because we all know why you really “hate” me” he put air quotes around the word.

“Oh, really Matthew?” You said starting to stand taller and walking closer to him like he had to you earlier, “please enlighten me then why do I hate you? Share with the class.” you replied sarcastically. “You really want to know?” he replied in a scarily calm voice getting closer to you once again.

After one final step forward by you, you were face to face as you whispered angrily “Yes.”. You stared at each other for half a second before you both shot forward and crashed your lips together in a fit of fury. This isn't your typical first kiss. There was no gentle start and gradual deepening. No. it was hard, dirty and full of anger. He quickly started groping you which was easy because you had been sleeping in nothing but a long shirt and some skimpy sleep shorts. You groaned and grabbed his hair and his hips started to grind into you. Teeth clashed as you forced yourself as close to him as you could while he pushed you against the wall of the bus kitchen.

After you physically had to pull away for air all you did was stare at each other, after a few seconds all Matty said was “Bed?” and you quickly replied, “Bed.” You then both began to stumble into the hallway desperately grasping at each other and going to the large bedroom at the back of the bus with no thoughts other than of each other.

(note- this is a repost, tumblr deleted my old account so this is a new one! I'll add this note on each reposted chapter)

[melimpostor]

OMG you are one of if not the best aruanie artist i saw, i cant believe i have only found you now!

They were like the first ship ever for me and they still mean a lot, they are so sweet, especially in your style. The ironic thing is, that at first way back around season 1 i started to see aruanie fan art, and at the time i tought it was a bit odd (i guess i missed all the signs in the show), i liked it but i considered it somewhat of a crack ship, especially since Annie was present just for one short season then it seemed like she never actually gonna come back. And then i lost my mind when suddenly in the manga it was just straight up canon xd. It propably helped that from the begining they were my favourite characters even individually.

They are still the best ship ever, like what do you mean in her whole life she was raised for war, but then couldnt kill the one guy who didnt cared about all this conflict and revenge he just wanted to explore the world, and her decicion cost the warriors the whole mission and eventually changed the world 😭

Btw do you know of some fanfictions that you would recommend?

WaaaAAAAAA- (ಥ◡ಥ) I’m not sure i deserve such a title, but thank you very much for your kind words, I appreciate it a lot ! ♥ ♥ This blog is fairly new, i've been active here since january so it might be why -

Haha I feel you! Aruani made me feel things i never thought i would for fictional characters before. I personally shipped them from the start. I guess I was gifted with the vision and carried the curse of being judged by my AOT-enthusiast friends for years. So I understand why it felt like a crack ship at the time for some. I was pretty sure i was delusional myself- but now… SIKE !!!!!!!!!!!! I am unapologetically taking my revenge with Aruani fanart now XD

But yeah, Annie is basically the one who compromised the whole mission because of her affection for Armin. Ruthless Annie. Flawless Annie... Falling for the sweet sweet boy with cute smiles and curious eyes?? aaa i’m weAk..

As for fanfictions, I am actually new to this kind of media. I never really looked for written fan-content in any other fandoms before…well- now... But i’m happy i’m finally doing it because it opens my artistic viewpoint and this community is very talented ♥ I didn't know writing could make me feel so many emotions and keeping me involved like that. I never experienced it to that extend in the past.

That being said, it means I haven't read a lot of them yet, besides work keeps me busy and my reading is pretty slow…So for the time being i 'll suggest you take a look at this post which regroups a lot of work already (and I think reblogs have some updates too ! )

And if you wanted my personal recommandations, maybe ask me again in 6 months or 24 so I have time to catch up ! haha- sorry dear writers, i failed you for so long ;;

[wribbles]

Mermay au

Sailor!Aizawa adopts siren!shinsou

All human sailors consider sirens to be enemy beasts - intent only on killing them all. Some sailors have never seen them while others have seen many - and killed many. None who have fully fallen under the sirens' song have ever returned from the sea, drowned by the witch-beasts.

The crew Aizawa's a part of has encountered and killed many sirens. He has felt their pull himself and resisted - so much so that its almost considered a unique talent among his crewmates. He just shakes his head and tells them to stay focused.

One day after a storm, the ship docks on dry land - a small island beach - to survey and fix any damage and mess caused by the storm. Taking advantage of the chance to walk on solid ground, Shouta explores down the beach leaving the rest of the crew behind.

Near a rocky outcropping he hears a sound - like melodious talking but he cant quite make out the words over the waves. Cautious, he draws his knife and approaches.

The first thing he notices is the blood in the water. Too much. Whoever spilt it is either dead or close to.

He looks further in and she notices him the same time he recognizes her.

A siren.

His hand tightens around his knife.

She curses him, then begs him to leave her be. Pleading, not compelling.

His eyes notice what shes holding so tightly to: a child.

His grip relaxes and he all but puts his knife away. Shes dying and wants to keep her child safe, she wants him gone as much as he doesnt want to be there.

He turns to leave, pretend he never saw anything and wander around elsewhere, but she calls out to him.

Her begging for solitude turned to a cry for help. He turns back, confused.

She shakily holds the child out towards him. Shouta is mildly surprised to see two young purple eyes blink at him. The child is alive, and unharmed.

"please," she begs. She knows she won't survive. "Protect him?"

... What? He can tell she's serious but that only confuses him more. Why would she expect a human to protect her child? How would that even work, assuming he wouldnt just kill the thing outright?

She begs again and he steps closer, finally sheathing his weapon. She holds out the child and Shouta can see it has legs. No fish tail like its mother. Is it human? Can't be, no human has eyes or hair that brightly colored.

"His father - human," she says. Her eyes flick away and he follows to the corpse lying bent across the rocks. Certainly dead - definitely human. He sees the wreck of their little boat scattered around. Was she travelling with him? The child...

Shouta blinks as his worldview readjusts somewhat. So sirens and humans can intermingle, huh. Okay then. Half human half siren baby with legs. Dying siren mother. Him.

Oh goddamn it.

He cant just walk away and let a child starve to death when he could do something about it. He's not a monster.

He kneels down next to her and nods.

"Okay. Ill protect-" he glances at the child, a few years into life maybe "-him. I'll keep him safe as long as I can."

Her relief come with tears, and she clutches her boy back to chest as farewell.

Before she can give the child to Shouta, he tells her, "Take your time, say your goodbyes. Im not in a rush."

She sighs and focuses back on hiding her pain from her child. Shouta sits back and processes everything he's coming to understand about these people he thought were monsters.

He listens to her sing brightly, comforting her boy who doesnt seem to yet realize that his mother is growing pale and weak. Her dark purple eyes and hair stand out brightly against pale skin. She calls him "Hitoshi" and asks Shouta to keep him near the water - he agrees. He sees thin gills on the boy's neck but the mother holds him above shore without issue. The boy- Hitoshi's eyes and hair are a paler purple, possibly owing to his father's blond.

At some point Shouta gets up and scavenges the wreck - looking for anything useful or sentimental. He doesnt find anything - some food scattered on the rocks, already soaked through, no spare clothes other than what the father was wearing. He takes a long look at the man's face and tries to commit it to memory - to honor his memory, if not just to remember for the child's sake.

He hears something change in the mother's crooning and turns back to her.

She's at death's door now. When she holds Hitoshi out to him, this time Shouta takes the child. The boy blinks at him, confused but unafraid. Shouta holds him close under his jacket.

He looks back at the mother.

"thank you," she says. "Treat him well, good man. Protect him. Please."

Shouta feels the burden of what he's accepted land on his shoulders. He breathes through the weight.

"I will do everything I can for him." He promises.

She watches Hitoshi as she lays in the sand and doesnt get up again.

Shouta sighs.

"Alright then. Back to the ship for us."

Hitoshi blinks, his gills flex, he sits calmly. Shouta refuses to question his choices.

He stands, and carefully climbs back over the rocks, mentally rehearsing what he's going to say to the crew and captain.

[domjaehyun]

omg i was notttt prepared for smut in the first quarter and yet we're spiTTINGGG????? haechan u freak (me too i guess)

tbim making me feel so many things likeee it's all such a mess (which i love does that make me a masochist idk) and i feel so bad for every fucking character like yn is confused and haechan is a dick (in every sense) and winter is pretty self explanatory and then there's jeno who got dragged into it poor boy. and all of their friends myyyy god if i was one of them i would be torrrnn any decision they decide make regarding yn and hyuck it's like basically picking sides and i would feel so fucking bad if i had to

and i just want to add a tier of my fav your work of yours and idc if udc

1.pussy fiend (been here since it came out literally never leaving)

2.tangerine love (weirdly a very comforting fic likeeee what's wrong with meeee)

3.the boy is mine (new entry might even rank up based on the ending have so much hope for this one)

and i wanted the patreon contents sooooo bad but i live on the other side of the world and when the currency is converted its craaaazyyy im so sorry ill just have to imagine shit myself and support u morally ig if i am any help

OMG HEHEHE HI HI

yeah we’re spitting IN MY DEFENSE THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ONE LONG FIC I DIDNT MEAN TO COME OUT THE GATE SWINGING WITH SPITTING IN THE FIRST SCENE OF PART 5 😭 yeah me too that’s hot hehe

I’M SO HAPPY YOU SAID THAT that means im doing something right :D I DONT THINK IT MAKES YOU A MASOCHIST it makes you human. it makes you curious. feeling emotions is what makes life worth living (and hopefully the good emotions are powerful enough to make you stick through the bad ones) so wanting to read complex situations with a myriad of emotions makes total sense! it’s more realistic than, like, i am…… bc ideally i would never have angst ever ever ever only happy thoughts at all times :D and yeah they’re all going through it EVEN HAECHAN GIVE HIM A BIT OF GRACE!!!!

OF COURSE I CARE I LOVE KNOWING WHAT PEOPLE LOVED MOST OUT OF MY WORKS !!!!! now im going down 1 by 1:

1. pussy fiend — this is fair i love pussy fiend it’s perfect perverted lovesick haechan like what is wrong with that boy and can he date me

2. TANGERINE LOVE MEANS SO MUCH TO ME I ADORE IT HE’S SO . FJKGLDSJKGFJKLDKJ I CANT EVEN FORMULATE WORDS something abt that specific haechan is so dreamy. its one of the first times i considered like . him just knowing she likes him from the get go like in pussy fiend he figures it out at the end but in tangerine love he can tell like from the beginning and theres no playing around with her emotions, he’s just very earnest while still being hot and flirtatious and playful and i love that so much

3. HEHEHE well i hope it ranks up but i would understand if it stayed in the same place bc i am not sure how you want the ending to go,,,,, but i hope it goes the way you wanted!!!!!!!!! :D

AND i was thinking about this earlier but if you wanted to like . paypal/venmo/cashapp me the $6, i could share the tbim patreon content with you!!! like if you can’t do a monthly subscription i totally get it bc we’ve all got stuff going on !!!! i’ve already done it for one person and i wouldn’t mind doing it again!! if you’re interested u could come off anon and i could work something out w you? up to you though no pressure 💖 THANK YOU SO MUCH DARLING THIS MADE ME SO HAPPY have a great day ily 🫂

[rebuke-me]

im giving you permission to ramble more about the ever after high au

I AM KISSING U ON THE MOUTH /p

okay. okay. im gonna ramble under the cut bc i have so many thoughts.

crash course for new readers: son of cinderella jeremy, charming kids brooke and jake (they're cousins), pied piper kid michael, daughter of the boy who cried wolf jenna, beauty and the beast kid chloe, alice in wonderland daughter christine, and goldilocks kid rich.

chloe and brooke are constantly at odds. they're always together because they're both princesses. they HATE each other but cant ever seem to leave. chloe keeps putting brooke down because chloe has a story, a destiny, and brooke doesn't. she's a princess, she's beauty, she's a big deal. and brooke's just a charming, not even a specific princess. she doesn't have beautiful hair or glass slippers or anything. she's just... a damsel. in distress. but she's kind and caring and wants to help, but she's not beauty, right? and then chloe ends up being the beast. she's the beast and brooke's HER beauty, and brooke puts her foot down and says no. she's not going to be in chloe's shadow anymore. she's not going to bend over backwards for HER story, for HER development. she's not going to be nice and kind just because chloe needs her. and that's how brooke becomes a rebel.

rich has a lot of pressure on him, ever since he was a kid. he's always told to be just right. he's goldilocks, the pretty little girl who takes over a poor family's life and cares so much about perfection. too tomboyish, too awkward, nothing's just right. he doesn't feel right pretending, either. so he cuts off his golden curls. he shears them off and finally, for once in his life, he feels just right. he goes by rich now, and the gold theme finally feels earned.

jenna rolan will never be believed. she knows no one will listen to her, even if she tells the truth. because no one can EVER think she's telling the truth. she never can, anyways. there's always a little white lie that slips in. she can't help it, her mouth runs for her. her friends all keep her around for gossip with a grain of salt inside. she's not even a BIG story. she gets eaten by wolves, and she can't even feel righteously angry about it. no one will ever believe her, and yet she still keeps pouring as much of her truth into her words as fate will let her.

christine's always a little out of the loop. she's from outside this world, but not quite. she should be fine. she's alice, of course, she's just a normal girl who happens to fall into wonderland. but she's too curious, too wild, too eccentric. she's seen as not quite one, not quite the other. too wild for wonderland, too normal for ever after. she lays awake at night, wishing she could hear the narrators, like the other wonderland kids. or wishing that she could know the right words to say, like the ever after kids.

michael loves his music, but keeps most of it to himself, playing it over his headphones instead of out loud. he's not a villain, not technically, but he doesn't like it when people have the idea that he's somehow making them do things. he doesn't play his music out loud, doesn't want to call a plague of rats to him, doesn't want to bring kids away. he was adopted, anyways, maybe these powers will go away. but he knows that it'll happen, and he'll leave, and it'll be fine. but he still takes the first opportunity of rebellion.

jeremy and jake know each other since childhood. they're royals, of course. they don't get along at first. jeremy's a princess kid, and clearly. and then his story's started early, with his stepmother. his only solace is his little sister, the destined ugly stepsister. he doesn't want that for her. doesn't want her to feel ugly, or evil. and jake's the charming, going to be the beast and the prince of chloe. or at least, they think so. but things shift. they talk again, and it's easy now. they get along, they have things in common. they risk their happily ever afters. and then the storybook of legends, and the signing. jake was going to sign anyways, of course. he didn't know not signing was an option. but then he sees what the future holds for him. he's not chloe's prince, he's not the beast they've wanted him to be. he's jeremy's. he whisks him away, he finds his shoe, he... pulls him away from his sister, his family. there's no ending where jeremy has both. but selfishly, he signs. and then rich refuses to sign, refuses to be just right. and jeremy doesn't sign either. and jake doesn't tell him that he signed because he saw them together. because he doesn't want to make jeremy choose between him and his family, between a happily ever after and the right to freedom. and jeremy thinks that jake saw his future with chloe and chose her over him, because of course he would. why would jake ever choose him in the long run? isn't that a tragedy?

[shiftingtomydrs]

I've never read the Shatter Me series despite my friend telling me to so what's your dr like?

thanks so much for asking <3

i already made an introduction post for the dr which you can find here

spoiler alert under the cut for prolly all the books since my head likes to mix up what info is in which book

the shatter me series is set in a dystopian world, basically humans fucked the world up enough to more or less make it unliveable in (food was poisoned cos animals ate trash and shit e.g., illnesses like cancer were very common etc.) and then the re-establishment takes over. the re-establishment was elected by the people, promising to re-establish life as they knew it (spoiler alert: they didnt) and then took over the world, turning it into district 12 from the hunger games more or less, except its more technologically advanced (the technology is used to monitor civilians tho not to help them) while the psychopaths (really theres no better word, i dont even think that word is strong enough) at the top enjoy life

now more on my backstory (its basically just juliettes backstory from the books cos i dont have a creative bone in my body):

i was created by evie sommers (juliettes mother) whos also the supreme commander (kinda like president) of oceania in a petri dish out of her dna and maybe someone elses? idk but she modified the dna to basically make me the perfect specimen for her little project. my memories of all this are erased regularly btw so i dont talk about it to other people i coincidentally meet (this is before the re-establishment took over completely, which happens when im around 13-16?) bcs what shes doing is obviously lowkey illegal. anyway at some point (in my head when im around 4-5) she starts letting me play with the kids from the other future surpreme commanders (theres one for each continent) which is also where i get my name (as a project i dont need a name so evie never gave me one) which is juliette (its a bit complicated but basically juliette in the book is really called ella so for the sake of logic ill call her ella from now on and im juliette) and was given to me by aaron cos he likes shakespear and thought it fit me soo juliette it was. after evie discovers emmalines (ellas sister) abilities she decides to abandon me and puts me into a foster family similar to ella in the u.s. (for plots aka aaron and my love stories sake) and since theres this whole plot no-matter-how-many-times-they-erase-my-and-aarons-memories-we-always-fall-in-love-again anderson (aarons dad) thought itd be funny to make ellas undercover name juliette ferrars to see if itd make aaron change his mind (he does these fucked up little experiments for fun) or smth idk i dont understand that guy. anyway my powers (also in the introduction post) start manifesting when im like 10 or so and we have to move a lot after cos i cant control my powers yet. when im 14 it all escalates when i accidentally kill a classmate with my powers (he was an ass tho not to excuse my behavior but just wanted to add that) and after that my parents decide its best for them to give up guardianship for me and hand me over to the re-establishment / government. ella at this point already escaped her family to omega point before she ever touches that little boy in the grocery store. anyway the next few years are a lot of moving in between facilities and rehabilitation centers which ends with them locking me away in an asylum when im 16 and thats the point i shift to.

after that its mostly just the plot of the books which is i get pulled out of the asylum after a little less than a year on aarons orders, he wants to use me as a weapon for the re-establishment (but secretly not), i escape with adam (temporary love interest) and get to omega point along with kenji and then anderson takes 2 hostages from omega point and wants me as an exchange, i shoot him, we kidnap aaron, bla bla adam and i break up, aaron and i have this denial thing (from my side), aaron escapes, omega point fights against the re-establishment and gets defeated, anderson shoots me to teach aaron a lesson, i survive cos aaron saves me, we find the survivors of omega point, aaron gets them on base, we kill anderson and take over north america and then after that its the other books which are a bit more complicated but i can get into that too if anyone would like me to :)

now that i read it back its a tiny little bit confusing soo if you have any questions feel free to ask <3

[ask-paradox-and-friends]

Mk style intros godkillers edition start with kaito. (Let's just say he has limited telepathy for these.)

Kaito1:same regrets?

Kaito2:last to die?

Kaito1:I was the first.

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Kaito1:so about Aki? Is he Akari's lover?

Kaito2:no. She has Maki. I think Aki is into someone else.

Kaito1:who the hell is Maki?

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Kaito1:so is it like mine? The...similarities?

Katio2:I'm not kaigaku. I'm more a Akaza.

Kaito1:so...not a hashira.

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Kaito:you again?

Posiden:I was too lenient.

Kaito:so you can learn.

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Kaito:I know this smell.

Posiden:be careful with your words boy.

Kaito:You related to Gyuko?

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Posiden:You mortals have lot to answer for.

Kaito:Which idiot brother?

Posiden:Don't you EVER call him that.

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Paradox:20$ I'll beat your ass!

Kaito:I don't wager money or possessions.

Paradox:fine fine I'll just rub it in your face.

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Paradox:so you got a super nose?

Kaito:Thrud wears perfume now? Also, your fly's open.

Paradox:son of a..AH ****!

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Kaito:I smell...Flowers?

Shiva:Your father would know.

Kaito:you smell like you ate them...or was laying nude in them.

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Kaito:so heard a rumor.

Shiva:I DIDNT DO IT!

Kaito:so you DID eat all the damn Mochi!

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Shiva:hey got a message you can deliver?

Kaito:No I'm not Bhudda's mailman.

Shiva:no. Tell amatarasu's GF to leave Parvati alone!

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Kaito:I'm sorry...you were..what?

Tsugu:well originally it was supposed to be Ran and others but I was a devil hunter?

Kaito:YOU WERE FUCKING 16! WHY THE HELL ARE THEY STILL USING CHILDREN!? Freaking cowards...

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Tsugu:say what's Perfect pitch?

Kaito:the ability to perfectly copy or mimic any music or song you hear with the correct instruments. Why?

Tsugu:oh so that's what they ment...thought it was a band..or a song.

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Kaito:you remind me of my old master.

Herc:really?

Kaito:yes.

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Herc:a demon? Fighting for humans? And you were a slayer?

Kaito:do I look like muzan or Kokushibo?

Hercules:right..sorry.

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Kaito:the hell?

Zero:huh?

Kaito:i..nothing..I just am coming to grips with things.

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Zero:hi mister! Have you seen my friends? Or my brother?

Kaito:resist the urge...you cant...Mido would break things...

Zero:huh?

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Kaito:large bastard aren't you?

Haujin:you dare insect?

Kaito:I've fought a train and yet you're still the bigger asshole.

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Hajun:your powers are like mine...

Kaito:unlike you I know how to use them.

Hajun:but mine are stronger!

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Hades:I'm sorry but you are the one that took my brother.

Kaito:I understand but reconsider.

Hades:I have. Many times.

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Kaito:as brothers we have a duty.

Hades:yes. That we do.

Kaito:so do not fault me. I fought for my sisters. You fight for your bothers.

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Kaito:Sire.

Derail:none of that. We've been over this.

Kaito:it is an honor. So let me give you due respect.

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Derail:so..about that question.

Kaito:yes?

Derail:no. I don't believe any of my guards know what you are talking about when you bring up a..certain demon.

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Kaito:so that hero killer's name was..who again?

Deku:stain. Or Chizome. Why?

Kaito:...i...might have decapitated him.

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Deku:I feel like you and the current number one wouldn't get along.

Kaito:please no.

Deku:I swear if I wake up to the headline 'Endeavor found gutted!' I'm throwing you to Mai.

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Kaito:Yep..definitely Rengoku.

Sunblood:huh?

Kaito:nothing.

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Sunblood:hello again! Careful you don't cut me!

Kaito:you're not funny.

Sunblood:aw...

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Beelzebub:your sword and powers are nothing special.

Kaito:same can be said about you Buzzbug

Beelzebub:I've heard better.

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Kaito:odd.

Beelzebub:what?

Kaito:you are covered in the smell of pity. That and Lilith's shampoo.

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Kaito:I'm just saying someone has to bring Ares down a peg. And ill--

Mai:ill call Eve on you.

Kaito:NEVERMIND!

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Mai:so with this new world made from all our worlds being merged into one....

Kaito:people think I'm a descendant of Apollo or Artemis.

Mai:not what I'd say.

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Zues:OH HOHOHO! I KMOW YOU!

Kaito:haven't brushed since Hera?

Zues:and here I was going to make it quick.

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Kaito:really? A bulky form?

Zues:like it?

Kaito:blindness has its upsides.

(I'll do more if I can think of more.)

(Also for the hell of it. I'll do a DLC pack.)

[otakebi-cam-wao]

produce 101 ep 4 - from a harowota (thoughts in real time)

Okay so i guess just the teams

Hype Boy

HypEST

Kokona says they mixed acting in it

Fuka's group now!!! (second group shown)

Fuka's cute

oh right this group has Koto in it

Rinon stands more says Yumeki, on the other side Yuuki doesn't stand at all...

Yuuki tells Nakasone she doesn't know how to express the song, flashbacks to the audition mainly and solo part choosing

I want Nakasone as life coach and to teach me how to dance with what she told, not only for Yuuki, but mainly

Rinon has what usually happens to me, i run some lines, sometimes

Kokona has no confidence to be center...

Kokona started to cry on rehearsal w Yumeki but the rest literally told her she can do it, they're SO SWEET

I trust this group more

friends intro with selfie?

uuuuu Koto!

Everyone at the moment

this group is wearing more jeans lol

awww Fuka

who was the blonde here? nice nice

Fuka speeded up a bit

Koto being cool while Kokona freezed in cute

cute Kokona tbh

nice nice, but sometimes they speeded up says Yumeki

cute tho

Yuuki nice

Kokuhaku kenkyuusei? (CONFESSION TRAINEES)

Runa reveals they sand in korean appear

shown first!!!

so this is true

Arisa studies korean as hobby, Natsuho says she can read hangul, Airi says sometimes she understands meanings

Runa felt anxious while rehearsals okay

Lee Hongi? tells Runa to practice pronunciation makes sense, one of the reasons i'm not into kpop (like the #100) is that the pronunciation is so weird for me as spanish speaker

Nakasone says good ideas colliding with emotions to make others understand okay okay

Natsuho suggest to add ballet, interesting

Yumeki is a sweetheart with them in the general rehearsal

Hongi says Aiko voice is nice

Performance

In line is cute intro from them

Emi? with intensity in the intro

wow their coreo arrangement (i guess) is nice with the ballet-ish moves in between

cute performance, i agree with EVERYONE

Natsuho ballet is the best

dunno if the other team is better yet, but i don't think they win as team in vs, but! i agree with Nakasone, feels fresh

Comments

Airi (group 2) said they choosed characters for each one

Points time!

let's see this!!!

Koto 31 Natsuho 5, i mean Koto is class A, but she is also so cool at dancing

noooo Fuka 3 Aiko 13 (i like Fuka she cute and soft and funny)

Aki (Blonde!) 10 Emi 45 now i really wonder who will win

Rinon 61 Arisa 3 wow (Arisa felt a bit discouraged as couldn't find anyone with a sign w her name, sad)

Yuuki 64 and Runa 35, so group 1 or 2?

Kokona 84 Airi 37, yeah group 1 won, i knew it withouth seeing them perform, sadly

FIESTA

random fact i say "i zone" but is like "ice(?) one"? "easy one" makes more sense in my mind, but okay (also, i didn't follow them nor P48)

ONever

I see gyaru!

apparently group had it hard vocally...?

lotta dancers here (w experience)

this are the tone deaf ones? i'll oshi Yurara? (i must oshi a tone deaf girl)

Sakura (gyaru) also tone deaf

Miyu saves w singing? i hope

Ah Tsuzumi helps for their last day of rehearsals!

the gyaru has nice voice, but she cant (as most of her group) hit the right notes

poor tone deaf girls!, i swear i hope Miyu saves it, this is a dance team...

i hope the best for them now

well nice dancing ofc, and charisma

Gyaru went out of tone badly on her solos

Rena also went a bit out

I'm Tsuzumi yelling "Rena kawaii yo"

Miyu's killing, yeah, she's saving this group

Yurara looks cool cute

damn, the vocal senseis are complexed rn

dance senseis seem nice w dance

NON blink

the 'murican!

oh here's the ex-HKT48 Rimika.... i don't trust her... (not as harowota, as someone who felt iiiiiii whit her re-evaluation video)

I trust Jueri, nice Jueri leader

oh, Jueri is changing the choreo they have?

Rimika got hit by Nakasone words

WAIT HERE IS THE OTHER BBY TAKAHASHI... eh... Hina?

hmmm Rimika troubles in many things apparently (everything in the show must be hitting her HKT48 former idol pride...?)

fake self confidence revealed, also the reason of her isolation (not wanting to be in the group apparently)

awww Jueri

Nakasone is so nice!!!! this is like group therapy

LET'S GOOOO

Ameli looks so cool cute

awww Hina!!!!

wait Hina is main vocal?! nice

Rimika is center then

Jueri deserves a lower pitched song or lines at least

ahhhh Jueri's voice hurted me as it broke a bit

Ameli reminds me a bit of my dear crazy english speaker Arisawa Ichika... this is random thought

winners i think

POINTS

Rena 2 Jueri 6 (sad for both)

Miyu 22 Ameli 10

Sakura 28 Honoka 68

Rio 2 Yuka 71 this is a big gap, so sad for rio

Yurara 26 Rimika 64, undestandable tbh, i think, i still like Yurara cute cool more tho

Riro 4 HINA BBY 82 OH MY GOD, well done bby, deserved it, i even forgot Riro was main vocalist here

CHEER UP

Love Potion

Karen looked for cute girls

ah this one has the twins! she definitely wants cute

wanted the song cuz cute lyrics

everyone except Maho (leader) wanted to center

Riko center (i thought it)

Sakura cant talk cuz scared as a C class girl

she felt bad and stopped practice and they became a mess, sad

complex communication here (twins afraid to talk as they're not close to the rest)

they bring it up a nioce atmosphere when Sakura recovered, nice

show time

i can't they're too cute!!!!

Mikoto out tone?

nice rap i guess

Sakura goes wild!!! (not really, but yeah)

cute cute cute cute

everyone cute

Sakura amazing

Twins not 100% twining tho(?)

Honey and Chili

Aruha tried to make everyone stand out w the dance

No one seems to suit the song at first (too cool for such a cute song)

Aruha and Seia are the ones i think could fit cute if they work hard

problems w choreo

ohhh the "doesn't fit me/haven't done this so i can't give my all yet"

c'mon Nakasone cheer up the 2nd cheer up group!!!

they're finding the way!!!

embrace cuteness (says the one who neglects cutness even tho they want to cute)

performance!!!

surprise kawaii!!!

i think the same nakasone, energy up pls

who's the red headed? i forgot the biggest cuteness surprise with the tall one sub vocal 2

ohhh coolness on the rap part

nice end

they were able to get the cute they didn't thought they could

Points

Mikoto 10 Seia 7

Kotone 11 Mitsuki 46 i wonder if no one get mikoto and kotone mixed up

OHHHHH A TIE Karen- Aruha 35

Riko 12 Ayaka 37 the cool ones are winning, had better vocals in my opinion (and Anon surprised, lol her name)

Maho 4 Anon 56

Sakura 139 Sayaka 6 OH MY GOD SAKURA GAVE THEM THE WIN! (i agree she was 10/10 between both teams

Tokyo Girl

Mel-fish

group without experience, in general, please surprise me

ahhh Haruka is a INTP girly i forget but i support anyways (also her face reminds me of Yanagawa Nanami)

heavy preassure from the other group lead by Ran and Kassa

Mana is leader? she pretty... ohhhhh she's older than me, i was looking for the older one!!! cyz i forgot who was

awww Haruka has many troubles to remember all, Haruka is me (?) (not really...)

Mika? and Mana are the ones that can handle it more...?

even tho Yumeki says she's not focused, makes sense she's worried for the babies she has there

Okay Mana being mom/teacher here

I'd think the same as Haruka if i was against that other team!

Rio was leader ooooo

this team needs hardwork, and Mana is nee-san for them so must do her best

relying on each other, good

i don't expect a lot from them but to surprise me considering who are they going against

ohhh rehearsaling whole day

final class lets see!

Yumeki smiles!!!! good sign!!! he's surprised!!!

they'll surprise me, right? especially if i compare my expectations from them, theyr performance and the other's group they'll surprise me, i hope so

performance

wow nice

perfume is so good btw and i always forget to listen

ooooo haruka

i'm being surprised

same Hongi, nice expressions

Mana is beautifull btw

what was Mana's previous experience? the theater girls?

Haruka makes me awww so hard here

dance break-end wow

yeah, they surprised me, they will lose but surprised me a lot

😮AWAKE (had to add the emoji)

the name sounds so... something Kassa would come up with

btw... KASSA! (Momona for the non harowotas(?)) RAN! MOMOKA! KEIKO!

"aruku aruku cha cha cha" -Ishii Ran

I trust them cuz Kassa was a while on H!P's dance club, has a nice voice, and then many girls i liked a lot

tho i'm worried bout Momoka's voice with this song, will it fit?

LET'S GO RAN!!! Ran's wants to compete w Miu againt

Kassa showing the experience

Tsuzumi bby helping them randomly lol (mostly Momoka, right?)

oh right, Kassa center!

Yumeki says they're the best group as far as first class i guess

Miu's group visiting, this is to fuel the rivalry, specifically Ran's and Miu's

But also to study

Nice rivalry love it

Ran feels she lacks something after seeing Miu's grouop oooooo

Ran is doubting OMG

Nakasone knows, she's so mother, be my 2nd mother please, therapist, life coach, dance teacher pls!!!

ohhh Keiko glasses

let's go Ran...

show!

uaaaaaa!!! ahhhh Kassa, Ranm everyone

nice Keiko

Momoka fits v well omg

aaaa Ran nice

nice Keiko yelling omg boosting this up

Ranka cool btw

me too touched nakasone

ohh wait Momoka is main vocal? nice

wow Ran killing this

they slay!

a bit over expcted, specially from F class girly i forgot (ranka?)

will win

Points

Mana 20 (me bit sad) Ranka 23 nice smol gap

Haruka 18 Keiko 21 smol gap again, don't worry Haruka, you also did good

Mika 3 Nonoka 7... tbf, i ignored them unvoluntarily, so...

Nana 7 Momoka 73 i want to celebrate for my husky voiced girl, but Nana did well i feel sad to celebrate (goooo momoka)

Rio 12 Momona 93, expected sorry, AND I WATCH THIS CUZ OF KASSA SO I MUST CELEBRATE, i feel bad tho... (go Kassa)

POOR SARA, DUDE THIS IS BRUTAL GAP, EXPECTED BUT BRUTAL

Sara 1 Ran 123 DUDE! i really feel bad i cannot celebrate a girl in my ranking now (i mean Ran)

61-340 is brutal, but again expected in a way

awww the hug!!!

NOW FINALLY MIU'S GROUP!

Body & Soul

Miu's group which name i forgot rn

ONCE AGAIN I LOVE HOW THEY HELPED THE OTHER TEAM, AND THIS COULD BE SOMETHING KASSA SHOULD HAVE DONE

not them finding out SPEED was a girl group lol these gen z girls (i knew cuz i've researched jpop)

ohhh Kokoro is leader

ohhh Miu's direct with things she doesn't like, so it seems conflictive (Miu is what i avoid to be)

Kokoro has nice words, for Miu's moment and life i think

Nakasone's classes are so funny

I kinda get you Miu... on those views

NAKASONE STOP BEING SO MOTHER

wow Rino went real mother with Miu, that's so cute and nice

LET'S GO MIU!!!

team meeting group therapy, this is nice

lol Nano fell asleep momentaneusly

they all need group therapies here at every time

nice rap Suzu

Kokoro's voice is so soft idk

let's see what Yumeki says...

over 100 OHHHH

Tsuzumi is cute

Nano is funny in an unexpected way

they're playing somehow, this look so cute

yes Kokoro, i think so as well

showtime

same nakasone, can't believe suzu is 16

ii tsuzumi

ohhhh Tsuzumi is main vocal, nice

Kokoro's voice has something interesting

ohhh Hazuki, Suzu!!!! let's go

Kassa is really focusedto Miu's group

nice nice tbh

they won obviously, but still the other team had a lot of inconvinience and hard work

Points

i hope team one has nice points cuz of the troubles they had and cuz miu's group helped them

Meika 1 Hazuki 11 sad for both

Kokona 11 Nano 26, wow this is close for the moment, i like this

Serina 13 Kokoro 61, somehow expected

Kano 1 Suzu 54, i mean... yeah... expected

Rin 8 Miu 28, expected, but girl Rin had a lot going on, i'm proud of her and her group

ofc Rin, you just can accept it

i hope for a bright idol future for Aito Rin

Shizuku 16 and Tsuzumi something (high ofc... just reveal it)

ofc Miu's group won

cute Tsuzumi btw

awwww Tsuzumi's "daisuki" to her group!

OKAY BUT TSUZUMI'S VOTES?!

Who won?

okay group 1 for how you like that, 2 for love dive, 2 for seifuku no manekin (LET'S GO AYANE!!!), 1 for hype boy, 2 for Tokyo girl, 2 for Fiesta, 1 for Cheer up and 2 for body & soul

over all winner is?!?!?!?!

Body & Soul group 2 (Miu's avengers group)

i somehow expected it... but group 2 for Tokyo Girl (Ran's) and group 2 for Seifuku no Manekin (where Ayane was) were good af (biased tho)

Ohhhh the ranking? here?

many ties wow

i won't write the fricking ranking here

wow Miu had 28 votes and got 43rd, shocking

i won't say the ranking but wow nice the 3 to 11

top 1 is between Tsuzumi and Ayane AAAAAAA

Tsuzumi has the crown, let's go Ayane, you can steal it

this is fun cuz Kassa got 5th and i'm originally and mainly supporting her

ohhh so Tsuzumi had 172 votes

congrats Tsuzumi

clap clap clap clap

oh right the 3000 votes thingy, so unfair

wait, i'm confucción now, how does this work? each wining group got 3000 extra votes? it seems that happened... idk, me confussion

i just want all of these girls to debut

i hope Kotone goes up cuz i don't want her leaving now

oh so it was 1 week learning and rehearsal

next week dance battle

AND I HEARD RENAI REVOLUTION 21?!?!

HIDDEN CAMERA?! OMG

lol explaining MBTI and showing with them nice

lol Tsuzumi guessing IZ*ONE yelling lol lol

and idk who lost her hearing after that lol lol

Tsuzumi loud ENFP bby

Honoka is reaction ENFP lol

S. Miu's unexpresiveness ISTP (crying in the inside, me until i'm alone)

i want to see this more lol

[ducknotinarow]

♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ ( for Usagi - all verses pls uwu )

| For every "♡" I get I'll give a tip on how to win my muse's heart.

*Since I write a few more usgai's I decided to divide the hears up for each one uwu.

So you have fallen for the rabbit Ronin who has lived a life mostly built on solitude? As someone who spends a great deal alone truth be told he loves companionship and

♡ "Someone of great sword skill would be eye catching."

I will forever love that no matter what Usagi and Leo will always, ALWAYS, fight when they meet friendly or not its gonna happen. Usagi may live in New York (which makes me laugh he just there now XD) Usagi even when assuimng the turtles to be bad couldn't help but point out Leo's own skills. Usagi is a swordsmen first so him complimenting another is a big deal for him to show he notices another's skills.

♡ "Those who stick to their honor"

Usagi, is someone who even against his will, sticks to what he finds and sees as honor. Usagi's honor is his whole being. SO the fact Leo is someone who can understand that and even defend his actions when he had to do as Shredder ordered? And helped him out from the situation? How can't usagi be grateful for someone so thoughtful and kind uwu

♡ "Those who will fight to the end."

See this can go for either turtle he has an eye for uwu Both Leo and Don have shown that no matter the odds or numbers of a fight? They are willing to step up and fight. Usagi has fought along both of them and well let's just say he has gotten heart eyes watching them uwu

♡

"Being a warrior comes with a lot of trails, and I have seen many let their hearts be tainted. So thought who stand to be kind still?"

Usagi can't help but find those who are willing to help others to be very appealing. Usagi world is far more hostile even his closest friend Gen cant fall into temptations of gambling and such so kind heart people do tend to get Usagi's attention the most.

♡ "I tend to find stubbornness annoying but also attractive."

Say what you want but Leo's stubborn ass for sure is what got under Usagi's skin enough to fight with him even when they were on the same side later on. Leo can be head strong himself and stick to his guns like when he got upset about the cliff stuff. But this stubborn side was pretty big asset to beating Jei in the end (so they thought but still) uwu this can also apply towards Jei as well seeing how guys about as stubborn as they come about welllll everything XD Look Usagi can find an appealing and seeing how we have that they dated before? I feel it was what started usagi's attractive uwu

♡ "I do not often spend time around others so I do enjoy company when given."

Yeah boys kind of lonely lets be honest uwu Usagi meets people here and there sure but he doesn't often get to meet others all to much. So he also doesn't get to know others all to much either as it stands. But time spent traveling and such? Yeah that dose allow the chance to talk between destinations and learn about each other. I just feel Like Usagi would be very curious about Leo's world and could see them having talked a lot in their travels uwu.

MM Usagi uwu

♡

"Well I kind of find Leo funny? What's not to like about that? " Leo is funny if not a little Awkward but it's cute and enduring to Usagi. He likes how Leo can't really lie or stumbles over his words even. It's hard not to find cute to the rabbit, it makes Leo not seem so intimating but its clearly a side Leo means to display but what can he saw Leo's little quirks have captivated him uwu.

♡

" Leo's very trust worthy "

I haven't posted on Usagi for this verse yet! but I will say Usagi's gonna have trust issues but Leo's just so earnest that its gonna help a long way with getting the rabbit from feeling skittish and needing be on a constant defense around Leo at least.

[blucassiopeia]

so in Dangerous Oikawa has to give a. massive apology to reader BUT BUT BUT (unless i misunderstood) Iwaizumi owes an apology too to readers.

it wasn’t really mentioned in the fic if iwaizumi kept in touch with oikawa after the bistro incident…and as far as it was revealed he knew little to nothing about reader and her relationship with oikawa. IF SO then he had no right in lowkey gaslighting oikawa in that phone call saying he could not drop his (their) dream just for reader and then saying she was just a Ran’s placeholder AS if oikawa could/should never move on from Ran - unconsciously he was already movin on….

also i don’t recall, in the bistro incident who (if osamu or Ran’s man) in the end told oikawa to stay away from ran (forever i suppose)…then during the wedding day the gc was full of pictures of them being happy and oikawa left the gc BUT Osamu added him again 🥴🥴 what’s with this toxicity

he fucked up, no one can deny it, BUT it takes two to have an affair (if that’s what really happened) unless the cheater lies about their single status. Let’s not forget that in the end Ran told oikawa that she would always choose her boyfriend (Ran’s plushie) - as a lover. What was Oikawa supposed to do? Yes, he promised the boyfriend he was staying till he came back (from i dont even know where he went) BUT in my own opinion a good friend understands that sometimes (right or wrong) we have to prioritise ourselves and not someone else’s well being (Ran’s in this case).

cant wait to know the boyfriends name to yell at him a big fat F.O bc if he and ran didn’t have a complicated relationship then im pretty sure many thing could have been prevented. 😬

so far i’ve yet too see the boys held Ran accountable for her mistakes (?) - i.e the affair - i mean only two people went to argentina but my gut feeling is telling me that everyone in the gc thought oikawa was the -only one - at fault (whether they knew about the affair or not)

also this might be an unpopular opinion but all the boys seems to be a bit too (over)protective of Ran’s well being (we know she had her problems growing up but who didn’t) to the point where they not just protect but coddle her too…like from their point of view she cant do no wrongs and her happiness comes always first (it doesn’t matter if they -the boys - are breaking bc they are in love with her and they don’t have a chance).

since they will never have Ran romantically (oikawa’s story proves it) they will do everything to make her happy/life easier being at her beck and call and at the same time as they grow up and life goes on they meet new people (readers from the different spin offs) they will not only prevent themselves to move on and be actually happy but, at the same time, hurt the various readers, some more than others (ie kuroo’s spin off). ngl this is kinda a toxic behaviour (from the boys pov) 🫣

sooner or later they will understand/realise that their happiness can be linked to someone else and maybe what they really needed to move on was time and space (away from Ran). A clear example (so far) is kuroo’s story, it took him literally years to realise (his) reader was the one for him and also to actually see that he was already in love with her but he always dismissed those feelings bc he was so present and active in Ran and the twins lives everyone would think he was the actual father 🤔🥴 …and the way kuroo’s realisation was worded sounded like he was too late?

Semi’s story is similar, but completely different at the same time compared to kuroo’s (referring to the time skip when they are no longer uni students but working adults). Semi’s reader, the singer, was a his friend and her presence was sort of a constant reminder that he should stop being delusional about Ran since she was happy with a family. He might not had space (away from Ran) but the singer was there with him when he babysat the twins, they even argued about it.

While Kuroo’s delusions where strong enough not even kenma could do much about it. at a certain point he wasn’t even taking care of himself but it was reader silently doing it. Ran’s twins were sick, he was rushing to them, it was their birthday, he couldn’t miss it. someone implied he might be one of the godfathers but still…he was doing what a father is supposed to do/not miss. Where the heck was Ran’s husband in all of this? In the end readers words (when she talked with kenma) were true: if kuroo doesn’t take care of him (and his heart) who’s gonna do it? if reader wasn’t silently there kuroo might have collapsed bc of exhaustion between his workplace and Ran’s house 🫡🫡 Kuroo’s missing an outsider’s pov (Semi’s reader) who could tell him what is he living for? if Ran’s and the twins’ well being is his own purpose of life then maybe he should rethink about it. What would Ran think if she finds out he’s devoting (not her finding about he being in love with her but just as a friend) his life to her family. I don’t think she would be happy

Ngl as much as i want to see all the spin off boys be happy with their respective readers i wouldn’t mind see kuroo suffer after the realisation he lost his true love of his life (reader). Her falling for someone else would be a deja vu BUT her dying *chef’s kiss* You can fix many things but not prevent someone’s death 😬

one last thing: in the main story is there gonna be a chapter where Ran kind of realise she was the reason (unconsciously obliviously) some of the boys where keeping potential love interest at an arm’s length/not wanting anyone in their lives bc of her?

sorry for the long ask

okay i'll loosen a little to explain further the issues presented aaaand i would like you to know anon that i appreciate these kind of asks because some people also needs to ask this 🥺🥺 thank you for collating it for you and for them 🥺🥺 so okay..

yep, and Oikawa and Iwaizumi would be there to apologize.. for maybe (2 weeks for iwa 3 months for Tooru ANDDD ssh) they'll be with someone else in here andー🙈 eitherway, Tooru and Ran would still have a VERY complicated "interaction" (i wont say relationship), but she, too, will apologize.

hajime is aware of all that's happening to tooru in san juan and he didn't bat an eye on everything tooru shares day by day, and he updates him with SOMETHING I CAN'T SAY. All I can say is that he has every right to gaslight tooru in that phone call because tooru himself is confused and iwacchan intended to make him realize his feelings (he intends to say that tooru should take yn to his world if he really loves her, prove to iwacchan he has moved on, but tooru can't even say anything at that moment other than his attempt to drop their dreams for her, that's where they both fucked up)

it was ran's plushie that said tooru should stay away from Ran (didn't say forever), i will say it here coz ill not be stating this in the other chap so.. tooru previously left the chat consequently when he left Japan, Kei added him back tho and that was enough for the others to understand a little of what's happening (ran not batting an eye on that too, she doesn't care). and osamu is not toxic in that scene i swearrrr, he knows kei's intentions on adding tooru back, but yes they are teasing tooru in a very savage way i believe he deserves.

yep, tooru fucked up bigtime but i dont remember saying Ran had an affair with him or something............. it's safe to say that Ran's plushie intended to leave Ran on tooru's care as a friend AND THAT'S ALL THAT I CAN SAY, let's just say tooru made a really REALLY big mistake that destroyed Ran and i think everyone who's close to them (especially Ran's plushie).

and no, you can't yell at him 🥺🥺 im not revealing his name but really, you would understand why they have a complicated relationship. in the fic, you would first see Ran's POV, i mean the entire first half of the fic is hers, then 2 POVs of Ran's plushie explaining the events he cant say to Ran (but he did say to the boys) AAAAAAHHH SSSSHHー

i mentioned that Ran, Tadashi and Kei are in levels of density other people can't reach (in Kageyama's) but yep, it's not an excuse but she really doesn't know anything else toottoot i think Osamu's spinoff would relieve your issue on this coz it will tackle Ran's density (but still lowkey) but it will show you another side of Ran. AND they are protective of Ran, especially the Karasuno ones, because they know something others don't, and there are groups within the "volleyball idiots GC" that knows other "issues of Ran they can't tell anyone about". let's say there are 3 groups of that, one being lowkey mentioned on other fics i wont tell.

yeah, they are loving Ran in a toxic behavior im not gonna deny it but i think that tooru is just the hard-smacked lover, tetsu is well yeah YOU WOULD UNDERSTAND KUROO TETSUROU LATER IN THE FIC and add "3 someones" there, because they have the same issue.

and 🥺 we're tackling my Semi 🥺 but i can't say anything about hiiim, and yea, he's clearly different with the others. and i can't say it's a "delusion" for tetsu. all i can say to explain tetsu is that "Ran's plushie gave him something he can't afford to lose". and where is "Ran's plushie" in all of this.. i cant sayyyyyyy 💔 but tetsu devoting his everything to Ran has some sort of explanation in the fic, don'cha'worry. AND HEYYY did i say that kuroo's yn is some sort of a game changer (but for the 2nd fic). and believe me, Ran knows what's happening to whom, you'll understand her more soooon.

and omg, kuroo's yn dyingggg, I LAUGHED SO HARD. 👀👀👀 you might wanna read that portion again and you'll know when you know, then pm me if you have a hunch.

in a chapter, Ran will realize everything after she loses something really big. someone will sit and talk with her about these things and that will lead to her apologizing to tooru's yn, and to the others as well, but i dont think she's accounted to apologize butーAH YOU'LL KNOW YOU WILL KNOW I SWEAR. but you will see something like this (but lowkey) in Osamu's soon enough.

i love youu, you're nicely knitting the spinoffs 🥺

[thedevilshere]

Disclaimer: I got the inspiration for this from a song I've listened to on loop for the past 30 days, during every waking hour of the last month, yet I wasn't sick of it.

a very strong feeling of liking and caring for somebody/something, especially a member of your family or a friend -

is the definition of love, says oxford dictionary

the urban dictionary defines love as - the act of caring and giving to someone else. Having someone's best interest and wellbeing as a priority in your life. To truly love is a very selfless act.

and i,

i cant even begin to define love,

i attach myself to anybody who shows me even an ounce of affection,

which im told isnt the best way to find the right match.

i dont know what love really means,

what i do know is how heartbreak feels like,

after all, mine breaks every day,

and let me tell you, it isnt the best feeling in the world.

my heart breaks when i see the dam holding the ocean back in HER eyes break,

my heart breaks when i cant afford my favorite coffee.

my heart breaks when the stray dog follows me home but my home isnt even able to keep me contained,

my heart breaks when i cant seem to hold onto dear life,

my heart breaks when waking up seems like a chore id rather not indulge in,

my heart breaks when i recall all the great loves ive lost in this lifetime.

dont misunderstand me when i say i cant define love,

ive experienced many.

and isnt it true that a great love will have its ups and downs,

the problem is,

some days i was too scared to stand my ground and uncover all the beauties of the great loves ive had,

and on others, they couldnt hold on.

when i try to sleep after a long day,

my thoughts are haunted by one of those great loves,

and this story, im sure isnt just mine,

most of you here, today must have lost this special one too,

and those who havent, i beg of you - dont ever let it go.

there was a boy who loved me so,

he could single handedly melt my heart one second and push me off a cliff the other,

yet our love was one of a kind.

that was a great love.

how do i know that?

i know that because,

even back then i could tell that i was gonna lose him one day,

yet i couldnt care less about the day i lost him,

the only thing i cared for was to love him as beautifully, and with the same force as his.

so when he asked me one day out of the blue,

after being friends for the longest time -

"hey a! i wanna ask you something. do you feel anything for me?"

i didnt miss a beat,

i gave into my weakness and responded with the most enthusiastic "yes z, i do"

after which he proceeded to say - "i want to know that you cried for me. that hasnt ever happened in my 30 years of existence."

and folks, that was when i knew,

ours was a great love that id lose some day,

but i had to see it through,

i had to love him just as much,

i had to give him everything he's ever longed for like - being loved and living, not just breathing.

ours was a great love and i can tell you that today,

because now that he is gone, i do miss him, i do sob in silence so no one in my life now can know,

but i also recall our conversations sometimes and laugh,

i smile thinking of the days we spent together,

and i cherish them.

he was my great love and i dont know if ill ever find any like ours,

so when i say i cant define love,

i dont mean that i havent ever been in love,

i mean that it cant be explained in words - no matter how much the writers of these dictionaries try to dictate it,

love is a feeling, you cant call it anything else but that.

so now when SHE asks me to write about love,

i write what i know best -

to give in to your weaknesses is not always the worst thing you could do.