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Nothing like spending your entire childhodd bitting and eating your nails and picking your hair and your parents never realizing it means something must be wrong but rather keep telling you to quit
#my mother used to put invisible nailpolish on my nails to refrain me from putting them in my mouth#it was disgusting. it never stopped me#i was sooooo stressed. constantly. i needed something to calm down and since i couldnt just eat outside of meals..#they shamed me so many times for that. which made it worse but whatever#my entire childhood was really just me eating whatever and my stomach trying to keep me alive. i strengthened it so much with my bullshit
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We all know and love the AUs where either SY!SQQ or SJ!SQQ get dosed with truth serum and hilariously clear up a bunch of stuff, but consider:
Yue Qingyuan accidentally gets truth serum-ed, said truth serum removes all brain to mouth filters and makes him voice his thoughts a loud.
Not only would this probably lead to him reconciling with SJ and just speaking about the damn cave incident, but also be unbearably honest to everyone else.
I cannot imagine ANY of the peak lords would be able to look at him the same ever again, we all know this man is deeply unhinged and SJ-co-dependent deep to his soul.
Mu Qingfang would probably have to deal with the worst of it as he frantically tries to find some cure so that they don't have to collectively hide their sect leader and stop him from saying real unhinged stuff
#svsss#yue qingyuan#mxtx svsss#the peak lords realizing their sect leader is a lot less adjusted and domesticated on the inside#and at the same time they really want him to stop gushing about xiao jiu#sj is probably dying of a qi deviation caused by too many fucking emotions#mu qingfang has never been so stressed at his job his entire life#and then they have to deal with disgusting reconciled qijiu#they'll live tho there's worse things than their sect leader being happy and sqq finally somewhat chilling tf out#probably#let me know what you think even if just in tags i read that stuff always
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I can't stand ship wars but I physically can't restrain myself when I see my faves mentioned in the comments of a video that says smth like "when there's a disgusting ship that makes you sick to your stomach but for some reason it's popular"
Cuz they gotta be rage-bait, ain't no way you're saying bkdk or stsg or itafushi or killugon or sns or erasermic or any other perfectly normal ship instead of naming shit like gojo x yuuji?
Saw someone say "any ship that isn't canon" and I started laughing, some y'all really hate fun huh
#like it can't be that hard to conceptualize that a ship you dislike≠disgusting and revolting and should be burnt at the stake#they got me ready to start with the paragraphs#i never do i manage to hold myself back but trust that i am laughing at your nonsense#stsg#itafushi#bkdk#satosugu#killugon#bakudeku#fandom ships#sns#erasermic#and i understand hating bkdk cuz some of the fans ARE annoying or maybe you for some reason still hate katsuki in the year 2024#but itafushi? like what have they done to yall that you comment them under a “ships that i hate sm i could kill yo mama for shipping them”#ain't no way#it's not that serious#like if you wanna hate fun and have horrible taste be my guest ig not like it's gonna stop me from being a diehard shipper of these morons#at least i never see haikyuu ships mentioned. idk what id do if i saw anyone saying#shobio#or#bokuaka#but i know it wouldn't be pretty#haikyuu
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N e ways here's Jack's actual design for the au I posted about the other day lmao
Love this sorrowful lizard.
#minecraft story mode#mcsm#mcsm jack#jack mcsm#Mcsm au#Me when old man yaoi#Except one of them has been turned into a creature and thinks he's a disgusting unlovable monster..#And the other adores him and thinks he's the most stunning man he's ever laid his eyes upon..#“stop making slightly tragic Jurm AUs” how about suck my nuts.#Loser.#Anyways I've mentioned this au to one of my friends but for those I haven't told about this#Basically Romeo set up the ender dragon as a challenge for the order. As he does. But obviously Soren just blinks it out of existence#And Romeo is pissed but like he didn't set any rules AGAINST doing that so he can't really do anything about it#But he never let the idea of big badass dragon battle go#And when he kidnaps jack (or Petra) he smushed them together with the dragon to create the ultimate champion#Like the totally chill and sane guy he is#Clemont_ine#Also yes his design is based on falin from dungeon meshi#No it wasn't on purpose at first#But then I realised and I just decided to embrace it lmao#Angelic Yuri Vs evil yaoi.
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such an experience being a girl growing up in an african home. you'll really watch all the women in relationships/marriages spending entire days cooking for men who would barely even say thank you when they serve them food. and then these women think they can speak to me about the wonder and joy of marriage LMFAOOO girl you are in JAIL.
#and then they'll say there's nothing to cooking lmao stop lying!!!!#why tf wouldnt men whose lives are a thousand times easier be against feminism if i was enjoying like them I'd be like hell yea patriarchy!#this shit has fascinated (disgusted) me since i was like 10 and 15+ years later everytime i see it im shocked all over again#maybe im just a lazy bitch but the way i always knew that'd never be me jdjdjs hello! why cant you cook for yourself wtf?#these mfs (men) do not step into the kitchen so they dont know shit. the day they cook 1 tiny thing they want all the praise in the world
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tell me why i can hear another tenants fucking music from my flat. HE DOESNT EVEN LIVE IN MY BUILDING. HE LIVES IN A COMPLETELY SEPARATE BUILDING ON THE SECOND FLOOR AND I CAN HEAR HIS MUSIC FROM MY FLAT. MY FLAT WHICH IS IN A DIFFERENT SEPARATE BUILDING.
#and staff just say ‘oh we can’t do anything bc its not 11pm yet.’#ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS.#i am autistic person who has just spent a full 12hrs in extremely overstimulating public spaces#i am exhausted and i have had to wake up at ass o’clock in the fucking morning#every day for the past like week and a half and will be expected to do so for the forseeable future#i am extremely sensitive to noise and have no ability to zone things out#like everything is always at the same volume for me#all the fucking time no matter what#and they say like oh well in the community there wouldnt be anything to be done so we cant do anything here#BUT WE ARENT IN THE COMMUNITY. ARE WE. WE ARE AT A SUPPORTED LIVING ACCOMMODATION WHERE I HAVE BEEN PLACED#BY MY LOCAL AUTHORITY WHO ARE PAYING TWENTY THREE GRAND A YEAR#AND I AM PAYING FIVE HUNDRED A MONTH#IN ORDER TO RECIEVE SUPPORT FOR MY DISABILITIES. A BIG ONE BEING MY FUCKING AUTISM.#YOU KNOW. THE ONE WHICH IS BEING DIRECTLY IMPACTED BY THE BEHAVIOUR OF ANOTHER TENANT.#WHEN I AM BEING PUSHED TO MY LIMIT ALREADY. LIKE IDK FEELS KINDA CRAZY THAT THIS ISNT SOMETHING THAT CAN BE SORTED.#i fucking hate men there is just literally no fucking respect or consideration like its genuinely disgusting and so fucking infuriating#and like he says that staff (women. btw) are being too naggy about it. but never fucking stops to consider that maybe.#maybe people wouldnt have to ‘nag’ you about it IF YOU JUST. DIDNT DO THE THING THAT IS ACTIVELY CAUSING OTHER PEOPLE STRESS.#IDK FUCKING WILD IDEA JUST THOUGHT OF IT.#literally die i want everyone involved to die like I CANNOT DO THISSSSSSSSSSSS
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TW: trypophobia and worms
So. Hear me out.
Anyways, one of my more…gross drawings. I love it.
#art#digital art#fanart#the magnus archive fanart#the magnus archives#tma podcast#tma#tma fanart#jane prentiss#MAG 22#colony#I had to search up holes in body for reference cause the grind never stops ‼️#tw trypophobia#tw worms#tw holes#bro#I’m like disgusted and I drew this#also the hear me out is a joke#I’d never#but-
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This may be a strange question but have you ever been bullied in the tbhk fandom? I am having a hard time here
Heya no worries at all for the question! This is an important thing and if you needed to have a place to say it I am happy you did!
I really hope people will be nicer to you :// There is never a good reason for bullying unfortunately it happens a lot on internet QvQ my only advice would be to block those people and/or delete anonymous asks for a while if people are just putting stuff as anonymous :///
To answer your questions, idk if it counts as bullying but I was the target of some stuff like that yep, and tbh I don't really know why. People can have the opinions they want but I will be honest in the tbhk fandom you like a character or a ship that is not 'what everyone in the fandom should like' and people start menacing you for no reason.
A lot of people in this fandom are kids who sometimes don't get what insulting people do. (and not only kids but it is one of the reason, I feel like a lot don't have 'internet basis' like not saying everything about yourself on twitter help.)
Which is also one of the reason I am taking my distances with anyone in this fandom because I had too many unwanted stuff like when I was just trying to be nice and answer messages. It's not because we are in the same fandom that we are bffs.
This is sad to say but yes I don't think you can just have fun 'fun' in this fandom anymore, people will make sure you have a hard time for no reason and honestly I am tired of people who are unable to understand that we aren't just bots on the internet and that Surprise! people have feelings wow
I hope you will be better but don't hesitate to take some time off the fandom a bit ^^ I am being overly dramatic here because I had some bad experiences (I've been in the fandom since the start of 2020 so welp) but a lot of people are really nice and I am sure you can make some friends too ^^ (I did too! even if a lot aren't in the fandom anymore, it's nice seeing mutuals from far away doing their lives)
#I am so sorry for the wait on this ask#I really hope you have a better time now Anon#(and once again bullying is not okay#but there is a difference with people just living their lives and people who are straigth up creeps)#(I shouldn't have to mention basics stuff to anyone to understand that being an asshole is not gonna solve anything)#asks#tbhk#kind of a bad/sad topic but an important one I think#I say that kids are the ones who insult the most but I will be honest my main problem was with someone who was one year older than me lol#anyways this is my experience once again but I am sad to see that some people are being treated poorly ://#I honestly just stopped being active when it happened and honestly I would understand if you have this reaction too#and last but not least#don't let the fandom ruin the og work for you#because it happened way too much for me personnaly and that just makes me sad#(eg: I adore witch hat atelier but I am seeing some stuff from far away and I REALLY don't wanna interact with the fandom#I love this manga too much to be disgusted by it because of the fandom)#this is a lil bit salty but welp no one here should be surprised to see that I don't really like the fandom ahah#And I was a kid on internet once too#I tbh understand at some point to be angry at a lot of stuff and needing a place to talk/to have funB#I never understood the intention of hurting people willingly though#being an asshole and having opinions is different
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the day am fans realise that miles/milex shippers are less problematic and harmful to the fandom than lv/her supporters will be one of the best days of my life
rant incoming because I'm going insane:
i will never ever understand why am fans have so much beef with milex shippers.
i have been in SO many fandoms throughout my life, I've been obsessed with SO many bands whose members are shipped to the point of insanity, and it was never a problem. sure, some people didn't like the ships, but why are so many am fans acting like this is something unique? bts, mcr, dan and phil, harry potter, I've seen fucking everything. every other fandom in the world are just this obsessed with their ships, trying to prove that two men are fucking, posting theories and so on. shipping was always a thing in fandoms and always will be, especially if we're talking about male celebrities and teenage girls.
having said this, the kind of fandom i have never been in is one where grown ass women bring this much toxicity to the community and behave like children. there are hundreds of celebrities whose girlfriends are not liked by the fans, but no girlfriend ever engaged this much with the haters, probably because they realised that it would only make things worse, and the fans would hate them even more.
we could've had some peaceful end of the tour content, but no, we have this instead. every few months something has to be done by a certain someone in order for people to pay attention to her, and so that in the end fans will forget the reason they're fans and engage in stupid shit like this, defeating the whole purpose of being a music fan.
all this drama is slowly making me not want to have anything to do with am or the fandom anymore. if not for miles and him being connected to am, i would've stopped giving a fuck about alex years ago (technically not through his fault, but then also because of him). this whole thing just makes me sad because miles does not deserve to be associated with these people and the fact that he will never be able to get rid of them is so not it.
#look i could talk about this for hours but it makes me so angry it's best to just stop#i saved the spiciest things for the tags#matt used to be my favourite but now i cannot even stand to hear his name#such a disappointment i really thought he was better than this#which also makes me question what the hell alex sees in him#and then again alex is probably not the best person in the world#which i guess we knew ever since the absolutely disgusting behaviour towards taylor and him being friends with ppl like josh homme#and cameron avery#sigh#it's just a shame that his music is really good#(anyone looking to buy some am vinyls? 😂)#oh miles the things i endure for you#i have such a love/hate relationship with alex it's crazy#one second i love him the other i never want to see him again#which then makes me think about how different things would be if he had a different girlfriend#she really ruined absolutely everything#(not) sorry#rant#alex turner#milex#louise verneuil#arctic monkeys
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im experiencing emotions this evening so i made an important message for every single person who has ever hesitated before thinking about creating something due to their perceived or actual level of technical skill relating to the medium
#ray's tag#described#keys' art#i am not lying when i say this: amateur and objectively 'bad' art gives me life because theres this honesty to it that i can find nowhere#else.#its sacred and i dont care what people tell yoy otherwise. please never stop making horrible and weird and disgusting and ugly things#and im not fucking kidding
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actually american liberals can fuck all the way off with their "slur reclamation" bs. go to hell all of you.
#slurs will never be empowering#but to white people every slur is a new opportunity to be as quirky and annoying as possible#no i am not comfortable with a man calling me a bitch because he's gay stfu#no one can redeem a slur still in usage by the oppressors that created it#stop saying tr*nny#straight women stop saying d*ke#stop saying q*eer#no structural change but we're all supposed to pretend we're liberated#normie homophobes stop saying f*ggot#i am so tired of these disgusting words polluting every facet of lgb and leftist spaces#liberals#leftism#our rights are eroding everywhere but what is important here is that americans get to play a misogynistic stereotype of white women#from LA#“serving cunt” GROW A BRAINCELL LIKE JUST GROW ONE SINGLE BRAINCELL
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#torchwood#owen harper#mine#this is dedicated to myself bc i never shut up abt owen's sad wet eyes#G-D DIDN'T GIVE BURN GORMAN THE SADDEST BIG BROWN EYES EVER JUST FOR HIM TO PLAY VILLAINS ALL THE TIME#shawty doin 1940s movie starlet wet eyes over here#u kno the part of a noir film where the femme fatale throws herself into the detective's arms and starts crying#that's who owen is to me#btw#he's a gross little goopy eyed chihuahua and he won't stop barking and growling at strangers#thats why jack hired him he was like look at this trembling miserable little beast with his disgusting wet eyes i cant not adopt him#ok im done#that was involuntary. something possessed me#torchwood posting
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Saw some of the grossest parenting today in the bus
#this dad was on his phone the whole bus ride ok#and his two kids were screaming arguing#at most he would periodically tell them to lower their voice while still on his phone#one time he told them to stop the one sitting next to him hit him 😭 and he went back to look at his phone with no reaction#my guy something is seriously wrong with you#your kids are screaming at each other doesn't even matter all that much that we are in the bus rn#theyre not just being loud kids you need to do smt!!!!!! its too early for this!!! i could hear them even with my noise cancelling headphone#anyways#ive never seen smt like this#and i work in a mall i see lots of parents and kids#idk smt really disgusting about a parent just not even interested in engaging with their kids#dude no wonder they're loud they probably want ur attention#also this one lady once who came in wjth a big stroller#and the store where i work has little moving rooms between the aisle so this woman decided TO LEAVE THE STROLLER WITH A KID INSIDE AT THE#FRONT OF THE STORE#the kids started crying and his hrother (toddler not in the stroller but not following the mom for some reason) started exploring and i#i had to watch them until the mom came back but like the woman just left them there???#i just stepped in but what if i hadnt??? lady?????????#i see lots of cute interactions of course#like this little girl who came with who i think is her grandpa and he asked me to help her chose her next manga read 😭💖#i basically work in a book/toy store#theres a lot of candy as well the kids love it#idk i like seeing kids being happy ok it is healing#like all the kids sitting on the floors deep in their books while the parents shop 😭😭😭 makes me smile every time top tier behavior
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Day 158 | id in alt
The hater streak returns, your honor.
#dailykugisaki#jjk#kugisaki nobara#fushiguro megumi#inumaki toge#NO BEAR KUGISAKI RN BECAUSE I WAS THINKING TOO HARD AND THE BRAIN WASN'T BRAINING#but yeah like Kugisaki will always hold that fuckass grudge and she should!!!#She will purposely say shit and look absolutely disgusted or pissed at the mention of yuta and i think it's fun#i am slowly giving Inumaki more lore like a freak you cant even stop me#i watched some insane wordplay and was like “omg Kugisaki would.”#(Kugisaki voice) Top ten smelliest smellers to unfortunately inhabit this planet with: First place is Okkotsu Yuta#oomf does not know that sometimes i draw entire things of Kugisaki in different poses in expressions that i never post#ITS ABSOLUTELY FUNNY#because sometimes i just finish something and just start doodlin nothin but Kugisaki#shes very fun to draw honestly idk how at the beginning i thought she was gonna be awful to draw(I thought her hair was gonna kill me)
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i honestly do feel that eiffel's disrespect for authority and willingness to complain are positive traits. in terms of 'these are things i value in real people', but also for what it represents and what he's resisting within the narrative of wolf 359.
it's notable in the face of cutter's personal philosophy and goddard's corporate culture (pryce & carter #5, etc.) ... eiffel won't just accept anything, he won't do his job with a smile (he might not do his job at all, but either way, he reserves the right to be upset about it), he won't learn to compartmentalize. he will complain. he will keep on complaining. he values emotional honesty, and actively encourages others to express their feelings, especially the ones that aren't goddard-approved.
no matter what happens, or how long they've been up there, he never gets desensitized, and i think there's really something about someone who will keep saying 'this isn't normal, it isn't okay, i'm not okay with it, and i ask you to also not be okay with it,' even when he seems alone in saying it. their situation is horrible, and he feels everything so strongly. being able to express that is healthy, and it's human. i find it reassuring.
#wolf 359#w359#doug eiffel#you know?#it's how all of the antagonists in wolf are so good at compartmentalizing. it's cutter's particularly intense brand of toxic positivity#eiffel isn't interested in any of that. he feels how he feels and he's more than willing to express himself.#it's not just that he doesn't get desensitized either. it's that he is always surprised when other people are.#no matter how much callousness he runs up against he never stops being shocked and disgusted that other people can do that#and his emotional honesty creates a space for people who otherwise don't feel safe or comfortable enough to be honest with themselves#minkowski tries so hard to buy into the corporate culture but she's never quite got it.#and hera has internalized on a much deeper level that it's not safe for her to express her feelings#so it's just... nice that he can do that. i like him.#i like that he doesn't try to fix things for hera or tell her to feel better. he's just willing to be there and be upset with her.#to me (and i think for her) that counts for a lot.#& being good at complaining is a very attractive trait. to me.
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so… in the additional media of stranger things (specifically the comics i’m mentioning), it was initially brenner’s idea/plan to kill off the other test subjects because they weren’t performing as well as eleven was. it was his best solution because that way, all the resources, time, and money could instead be placed only to her. and i just…. sure henry is a fine character and the massacre makes a lot of sense to me, but i think i am once again gonna change up my canon to actually fit this potential narrative instead.
i genuinely think the comic canon of the lab and brenner is far more intriguing than the show. everything with 9/9.5, ricky, and francine. eleven being the only one who grew up completely in the lab. those other kids were either volunteers, well into their teens, or had some semblance of a home life. eleven was the only one practically moulded from the womb. and they all had such a range of interesting powers. i firmly stand with the idea that jane is the only one who can contact the void.
brenner’s entire point of view on the lab subjects changed the second he found out terry was pregnant. he discovered he could steal this baby and make her his own. there would be no convincing the child because it’s all she would have ever known. because of this, i would not put it past a man like brenner to kill the other subjects for the sake of the “greater good” in this case, eleven.
eleven’s gifts just continue thriving beyond his wildest expectations. brenner would never dare assume that having moulded her from the womb, she would still be able to grow into her own person, her own mind, and one day be able to see him for exactly who he was.
back before season four aired, it was obvious there were other test subjects because jane was 011. so there were at least ten kids before her. but i always liked the idea/assumed that she was the last experiment because she was the most successful. that they didn’t need anyone after her because she was fulfilling everything they set out for her to do. with flying colours.
i just think the whole rainbow room idea, pitting the kids against each other thing… been there, done that. boring and predictable. i think at this point my portrayal of her time in hawkins lab really stems from the complete isolation she endured. where having the rainbow room, although eleven was obviously the most isolated out of the kids, brings that sense of community and sister/brotherhood. albeit extremely warped and toxic. knowing that she wasn’t alone in that experience just. doesn’t sit well with me. i think it’s important to note that she was alone, physically and mentally. which is why kali is also so important to her growth. i thought a lot of the flashbacks of her time in the lab during season four was really boring, repetitive, and just very predictable. although peter becoming vecna was a surprise to me, and was a nice little twist, the idea of her having an ally on the inside was really interesting.
maybe they did get as far as they do in canon, peter ballad was telling the truth about everything, about some of the workers there being prisoners like him, and he really wanted to get her out and to safety. but before they can escape through the pipes, they’re caught. peter is shot on the spot, and eleven is put into the isolation room for a few days as punishment. in this timeline, henry would be vecna, but henry would not be peter ballad.
when eleven turned seven, and was already showing extreme promise, where the other children were average at best, brenner had the eight children killed. kali had already escaped. this was the main cause for peter to gain eleven’s trust and try to get her out. because if brenner could murder his “children” in cold blood, there’s no way eleven was safe even in spite of her power.
when eleven is allowed out of the isolation room, her testing becomes more rigorous in attempt to distance and make her forget about what she attempted to do with peter. brenner begins gaslighting her, saying that there was never a peter, that she must have been dreaming. eleven does ask “papa” about “mama”, given peter told her of the day terry broke in the lab, but brenner is convincing enough to make eleven believe it was all in her head. say she is around eight years old, meaning the same timeline of season fours canon flashbacks.
i still do wanna keep the henry creel canon, and keep him as 001. brenner didn’t have him killed alongside the other test subjects, because who knows, one day he could become an even better asset than 011. brenner definitely wants to be able to control henry, but keeps the chip in him because, for the moment, doesn’t know how. killing him would be too big of a loss.
when eleven is ten years old, henry’s concealed powers break free and he manages to get the chip out himself, and unleashes hell onto hawkins lab. he almost kills brenner by snapping his bones, but eleven manages to stop him. her extreme abilities are unleashed, and she sends henry to the upside down. she does fall into a coma due to the extremity of the situation, but she does not forget what happened. brenner believes she’s the perfect weapon as she stepped in to save him without a second thought, was able to defeat henry, and opened a door to something he never thought possible. eleven is rewarded for her efforts. although she remembers the entire battle / confrontation, her memories regarding the portal are very hazy.
brenner decides not to focus on the portal straight away, instead gets her training harder and harder to see what else she can accomplish. also loved the idea of brenner sending her into the void to “look for him” so that will definitely be kept.
by the time she escapes and season one begins, her knowledge of the upside down is basically what we see in canon. because she passed out the moment after she sent henry away, she was once again gaslighted into believing she merely threw him through the glass and killed him. for two years she believed this, until making contact with the demogorgan, and those memories return completely.
due to her saving brenner’s life, (it was pure instinct. she happened to be there. saw her “papa” hurt and knew she had to make him better.) brenner constantly thanks her. but in a very condescending way. tells her: “you saved me so i can continue saving you.” aka, harness your abilities and see what else i can achieve from you. despite the fact that she saved his life, these words and phrases make her feel indebted to him. that she owes him something further.
i don't realistically see her thriving with her speech improvement until she's well into her twenties at least. her slowed development, sensory and social deprivation causes a serious delay in language. surrounded by other children she would have overheard conversations, some would have spoken to her. her conveniently forgetting her upbringing pre the battle with henry just isn't good enough for me anymore. it makes more sense for her to have been raised alone.
it also helps indicate why she gravitated towards the boys when they found her in the woods. they would have been the first people her age she ever remembered seeing. as far as she knew, during the lab there was no one like her. everyone was much older, they were adults-- although she stayed with benny, i'm not sure if she would have stuck around very long. where she followed the boys home without thought.
also it's important to note that after time, jane does understand that peter ballad was a real person, and was truly the first person (aside from terry) who wanted the best for her. when she remembers him, knows that brenner was lying, she deals with immense guilt regarding his death. he was shot right in front of her eyes, because he was trying to help her. this is another catalyst as to why after season two, jane never refers to brenner as papa. she does not give him that sort of credit.
#study‚ in my dreams it's all real and my heart has so much to reveal.#THINKING THOUGHTS. i have had this concept in mind for a while but i THINK i’ve fleshed it out properly now.#will write this up properly one day (never).#although henry offering eleven a place at his side wouldn’t be canon#he would definitely still look at her as an enemy for basically stopping his revenge.#AND the whole speech between he and jane never sat right with me.#saying brenner made him what he was / that it wasnt his fault etc. Like. No? henry was a sociopath. he killed his family.#brenner didn’t do anything to make him who he is. so jane always saw him for exactly what he was#and there’s absolutely no sympathy there.#and then regarding my season four canon as her regaining her powers by remembering the massacre/the fight. i am changing that to her#regaining her powers by simply confronting her past. understanding what she went through. finding ways to cope with it physically and#mentally. getting coping mechanisms from her therapist. seeking help. not needing to know WHY this happened to her (because there is not.#and will never be a reason.) but finding ways to accept it and move on. how to move on from eleven and become janessa ives.#also just because in this case henry doesn’t massacre a bunch of kids? It doesn’t make him any less evil. in this instance i am following#the idea that some of the workers were prisoners there in hawkins lab. and henry killed a bunch of the workers. so would definitely have#killed some innocent people.#just because i am separating peter from henry. does NOT mean i am excusing anything from henry/vecna.#in this case they are two completely different people. although i highkey wanna use jcb as peter because he just did the role SO WELL and#was SO BELIEVABLE i’m not sure about it yet. because i don’t want anyone to get the impression that i’m making excuses for henry.#BUT YES.#this be the new canon. <3#idc brenner is such a good fuckin villain he’s disgusting but so intriguing.
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