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space sweepers but they're delivery people and are at no point on screen through the entire movie
#fantasy high#riz gukgak#kristen applebees#gorgug thistlespring#adaine abernant#fabian seacaster#figueroth faeth#the bad kids#half tempted to say these names are forum handles they use so much it pretty much became their professional names lol#I keep them teenagers bc its funnier that way#no real lore I just like drawing this. but I do think abt how theyre all weirdos too also bc thats funny to me#riz is a huge conspiracyhead who does everything by hands. he has a casio fx-570 in mint condition. nobody knows how he's maintaining it#he is nonetheless Really Good at his job. which somewhat tracks bc it's a job that requires keeping up with interstation conflicts#and new policies and an obsessive amount of planning. but he is Too Good at it. and also he dresses like that#kristen has the atomic engine that theoretically lets her unmake and remake matters with her mind. but it consumes a huge amount#of energy so it's mostly useless. she's still a cult survivor also#gorgug lives his entire life on a ship with his parents who quit a cushy deal maintaining a space station bc he wouldn't be allowed on#the low gravity let him grow very tall but also his oxygen saturation is pretty bad so he's got breathing support#fig is a robot who just found out she's a robot like two months ago. she's been assuming everyone's a robot like her and she's been feeling#very betrayed by her mom lying about that part. she's on a body mod spree which is rough bc system-specific parts are expensive#and so is adapting random parts to her system#fabian's still a pirate captain's son. can't say anything that'd be able to get the vibes across clearer than that#adaine went to tech/business school. she put her monthly allowance towards an ecoterrorist group in her academy which turned out to be an o#and she's currently wanted by UTS. more than fabian. which makes him slightly mad#she's also acquired a passion for low-tech weaponry on the way. she likes ice picks and cleavers#I think up all of this for no reason except that once again the idea of all these people being 1/teens and 2/on the same ship to be posties#is hilarious to me. esp. if they were in a forum group chat beforehand
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Momo, Mimi, either is fine. Jojo and I share two braincells. We are connected. 🥴 🤞🏾✨️
And I see! So that's what happened. Hmmm, it definitely takes some getting used to in order to transfer from traditional to digital, but latency issues that bad shouldn't be one of the problems you experience. Although sometimes tablets can be finicky! It may have been a driver issue, like it needed an update. 🤔 If you ever want to try a tablet again and don't have your old ones, I love using huion tablets. You can get a version without a screen for cheap. It's what I use! Although it takes some time getting used to also because you have to keep your eyes on the screen while drawing but I'm sure you'll get used to that. Ultimately it just takes some time to feel comfortable, there is a learning curve but there are pros to using a digital art device, I feel. If you ever try again and need tips or advice, I'm here!! 🤗💕
Also tbh I wouldn't mind entering giveaways for you! I love entering those. I wouldn't consider it a hassle at all and ClipStudio Paint often has tablet giveaways going on that I enter. ✨️ [also you should def start with free art software while you're getting used to digital art but I love Clipstudio paint and think it's a wonderful investment. They often have sales for their software too. Cx they have software tiers and some are put off by the subscription model but they also have a perpetual license version that you can update at your leisure.]
I suppose you could also consider Apple/Android products but I personally prefer actual art tablets. Maybe I've just not found a good one yet [they're expensive!] But I didn't like the feel of the stylus or how the tablet reacted to my hands. Like, it would react to my touch. The art tablets I used didn't have that problem. But Apple/Android tablets are so lightweight, portable and don't need a laptop/pc/phone to use so that's an upside.
But other people who use tablets feel free to jump in and offer tips if you have them!
Hi Myell! Question: What do you think of drawing on a tablet? I was curious since I always see you draw traditionally. Also, I'm asking because if interested, I'll def enter those tablet giveaways for you. 🤗
'Morning Momo! 🩵☀️ Bruh I wrote Mimi I'm so sleepy I'm sorry
I've actually had two different tablets gifted to me, and I did try to draw on them, but... Things never clicked? I didn't like how delayed the input was between me touching the tablet and the line to appear on the screen. I don't know if it was an issue with the cheap hardware, with the program (I don't even remember what it was, Black Ink ???) or just a matter of me getting used to it, but it just made me feel so slow, like I was drawing in a jar of honey.
I didn't have any sort of tutorial, and of course things aren't going to work out 100%, but I guess I still got a little convinced I'm absolutely terrible at digital art ^^;
It's not that I wouldn't want to learn how to draw digitally, there are so many upsides to it! I'm just COMPLETELY lost on where to begin. You're so sweet for offering to enter giveaways for me, but I wouldn't want you to go through all that hassle just for me 😖😖 if you or anyone else did have tips on how I could get myself started though, I'd really appreciate it!
#chatting with friends#myell#myrmyrtheorca#its funny but now I'm remembering how I used to have a screen tablet and I loved it soooo much#to me it was the best fit bc its closer to a traditional feel since you're drawing directly on the tablet and are able to see what you're#you're doing without having to split your gaze. but they got a lot of wires!#they are also expensive so I think its something to work up to once you're more comfy! Unless you are sure you want to invest in digiart#also I have health issues that can make me very weak so there came a time where I'd want to draw but found the screen tablet too heavy#I also bought Huions screen tablet!#I used to use wacom products but I dont rec them at all!!! theyre super expensive but clunky#they have driver issues often too!#I actually invested in a samsung galaxy pro laptop bc I can draw directly on the screen and its light#it was VERY expensive and I still use it#the only reason I have the huion tablet is bc last year my samsung stylus broke and I've been unable to replace it just yet 😭#gonna try doing it when I can tho bc I miss that screen to stylus feeling
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pros of being mostly immune to online impulse purchases: I can save my money and use it on more necessary things, like rent and groceries
cons of being mostly immune to online impulse purchases: I don't get to have The Thing
#sobbing crying etc etc. I'm okay just dumb#ordered a custom thing but the colors ended up looking different from how I thought they would. 0 dead 1 dying of Stupid About It (me)#it's still very cool in its own right and it was Expensive for us. it was just me fucking up and choosing the wrong color...#and there's no real way to request a different version without just. buying a new one basically#but the site is still having a sale and it's chewing at me so bad right now. but it's not something I can afford to impulse buy#and even if somebody did just plop a big donation/order a big commission etc etc right now I still couldn't justify it#because there are other things I should take care of first#instead of replacing something that's not technically broken. it's literally just not the color I thought it would be but aaaUUUUUUUGHHHH.#I'm just mad and sad and tired and stressed and should go to bed and stop thinking about it. it's fine. it's literally fine.#just kicking myself for it and about a billion other tiny stupid things right now.#storm speaking
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Btw if you come on holidays and stay at an AirBnb instead of an actual registered hotel I hate you personally. Not "I hate the gentrification and touristic massification and the way we can't live in our homes and are forced to move away because of tourism" in an abstract way- No, not just that. I hate you.
#I'm from a seaside town that has become popular with tourists who come for the beach and the mediterranean climate#and the typical whitewashed walls of mediterranean coastal towns#in just a few years the average rent has gone up so much that now the average rent id#*is over 1000€ per month#one thousand!#that's a whole salary!#in the past 2 years they've been building a new neighbourhood. they've destroyed the vinyeards to make a new neighbourhood that will make#the town 1/3 bigger than it is. that's a lot. but all those houses are luxury houses with private swimming pools for rich foreigners (we#already have 2 private British schools high schools and college(in the british sense)/baccalaureate where their kids go and never have to#interact with locals. I teach some of those kids and they're very prejudiced against locals and very bigoted against the catalan language#(which ofc they never bother to learn)#there's a law in catalonia that says that for every certain amount of houses you build you are obligated to build a certain percentage of#affordable housing. so in this new neighborhood they built the bare minumum affordable housing which is still too expensive for us#and since there's so few of them everyone is competing to get them. the city hall and the bank have had to make an official competition for#them but you only classify if the renr would not be more than 1/3rd of your salary which is impossible. my cousins who are in their mid 30s#and have been working a good qualified job for 15 years (and their partners too) are considered too poor to be considered for the#affordable housing#everyone is having to move out to other cities away from their friends and family and current jobs. the only jobs left here soon will be#mostly directed at tourists#and the only way to continue living here if you're a normal person and not rich is if you're an only child who one day might inherit the#parents' house#but we look around at what's happening in nearby cities and we see the next step which will be airbnb taking the houses that are left#in many places (I've posted about thia before) there aren't any flats for rent or sell anymore that isn't an airbnb#I'm still lucky in my town when compared to other places like Barcelona which are already full of the airbnb plague#actualitat#airbnb#tourism#touristic massification#gentrification
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what drawing tablet do you use/recommend?
I've been a wacom girlie ever since i started drawing!! currently i use a cintiq 16 but up until 2021 i was using an intuos! i love my cintiq and would NEVER go back but if you're looking for a cheaper alternative and don't think you need a screen the intuos is a really good option, my first one lasted me almost 6 years and it's also really portable so i still use my old one sometimes if I have to work outside my studio! the reason i use specifically the cintiq is because i think it emulates drawing on paper the most out of all the screen tablets ive tested. I'm actually sort of a traditional art supremacist in that I want my digital experience to be as similar to my traditional one as possible, and the cintiq's screen and pen are the most similar to a traditional drawing experience imo.
#the drawback to wacom is that it is. of course. very expensive. but it's worth it for the quality imo#i have the budget model cintiq which was around $800 new at best buy iirc but the more expensive ones can go up to around $1500#but i've never had ANY issues with my wacom devices that couldn't be really easily remedied#and when my first tablet died it was because the cord literally snapped in half and they were no longer manufacturing cords for that model.#otherwise it still worked completely fine after 6 years. my current intuos still works after about 5 years of on an off use too#i don't plan to replace my cintiq for the next 5 years AT LEAST and from what i understand they generally last that long#asks
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Ooh will you pls walk us through your perfume/body wash/lotion collection?
fun fact i actually use gentle/unscented body products so all of my body wash/soaps/lotions/etc are not (or are negligibly) fragranced! my derm put the fear of god into me abt how it can irritate your skin, and since switching years ago i just haven't gone back! i like that it makes whatever fragrance i'm wearing smell cleaner and less muddied too. (my shampoo/conditioner/other hair product is fragranced so that still has a scent, so does my deodorant, and my laundry detergent. w that many scents happening on a regular basis i feel like there's rly no need for scented body cleansers imho.)
#liv got mail#as for fragrances i tend to go through phases and use up one at a time! right now i'm actually in the market for a new one#for a long time my go to was g**** water by byredo but i hate that it has a literal slur in the name (and is SO expensive) so i gave it up#i tend to prefer very unisex scents now that aren't super fruity or floral#some that i've had and enjoyed include:#you by glossier (pre-reformulation)#not a perfume from juliette has a gun (still have some of this one! will probably repurchase again)#black musk by the body shop is also nice! so is replica jazz club but it can be a bit alcohol/tobacco forward in an abrasive way#loved flowerbomb by victor and rolf when i was in my late teens/early 20s but idk if i know what it smells like anymore#i had a travel size of a jo malone one that i used up this summer but idk what it was anymore#there are more for sure but these are the ones that rly jump out at me!!
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Everyone is suggesting stocking up on morning after pills in case they get banned. And Yes! do that! But also if you do not plan to bare a child in the next few years look into long term birth controls.
Even Missouri never banned long term birth controls. They just make you take a pregnancy test before being prescribed it. So as long as you are not currently pregnant and want to avoid having a child during the next 4 years get on long term birth control.
Call Planned Parenthood today because the wait list is usually a month out for the earliest appointment. If they plan to attack abortion and birth control options day one you want to get prescribed them before jan. In case they make it incredibly hard to get prescribed it. But one doctor visit and they can prescribe you the Depo shot for a year. Depo is the least invasive option. If you go for one of the inserts those last years on their own. They just have the risk of slipping and you not know it until after you've become pregnant.
Depo; lasts 3 months, stops or lightens most periods, and income based PP charge 0-20 dollars for low income people to get it every 3 months. You qualify for low income even/especially without insurance. At full price it's 70-90 dollars every 3 months. but if you make less than 30k a year you qualify as low income.
TLDR: Long term birth controls are less likely to be banned and at least will take longer to ban compared to abortion pills. Conservatives don't want to "kill the embryo" which is what they see morning after pills as doing. Long term birth controls stop the embryo from even forming. Look into the Depo or other options before Jan and get prescribed it so you are at least set for the next year.
#politics#us politics#birth control#planned parenthood#election 2024#I know some are looking into surgery's to get their tubes tied#but that's expensive#and even if you find a doctor that will perform it on someone under 40#that doesn't mean insurance will cover it if you are under 40#insurance will see it as something you don't “need”#Depo is far cheaper and at the very least not permanent#i don't want a large chunk of the queer community voluntarily sterilizing themselves#you do know sterilizing the gays is one of the Right's goals right?#don't do something permanent when there are still other options
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I'm still weeping about how fcking ugly that figure is. Skul looks like he will fall over or run against a pole. Also, why the glossy finish?? Gloss shows like ALL your mistakes while matt hides it somewhat, plus suits ain't glossy. It makes it so obvious he doesn't really understand folds.
And then he demands such a high price?? I get that the other figures are from video games which make more money and have a bigger audience, but if you are gonna take such a high price for a figure at least make sure your customers get their money's worth!
Why is this random ass youtuber doing it more professionally than a 'globally bestselling' author that has HarperCollins, one of the biggest publishers in the world, backing him??? Instead, he goes the nepotism route because he's cheap. Sorry, but his brother is not a good sculptor and he's a worse concept artist and his paint jobs ain't great either. Landy would only have to cough up the money for the concept art up front, then he could do a Kickstarter again and use that to pay the sculptor and the production and box art.
And then this sets me off even more, because what the fck kind of backwaters hillbilly operation is this, why is he packing them in a fcking shed
The only thing he is committed to is being cheap!
I love figures so much and watching this is just killing me on the inside 😱 it's just a card box. Does he not know that the boxes that figures come in can be displayed too?? I certainly do for most figures I got!
Jinx Arcane Figure
Lilith Borderlands Figure
Luigi Figure (this bad boi is made with LEDs)
#SCREECHING#skulduggery pleasant#sp merch#I could rant for hours more#like Landy being like “created by me”#like what did you do? come up with a self insert character with the most basic design ever#and package that stuff#he wasn't even bloody involved with the actual creation of that figures as far as I'm aware#also his dad get more credit because he's using his shed than the artists that draw his merch#like merch artists usually aren't credited but you could at least answer when I directly ask who drew it#also he promised merch of more characters and that hasn't happened yet either and there have been multiple merch drops since then#I also feel very strongly about figures#because one I love them#and two I have figure painting as a hobby#or I'm trying to have it as a hoppy#it's expensive and time consuming#I know no one else gives a damn about this but if I don't write this down I'm going to hunt him down for sport#rant#art rant#I can as for 50 at most for that Skul figure#and that would still feel like daylight robbery#I also feel like since this is a book fandom most people have no idea how expensive figures usualy are
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just a few little bits from the past few days
#both the word count screenshots are from the same day - just different sections of the text. so that was like 4000 words in#one DAY.. huzzah!! (< making up for the fact that I did 0 words the 3 days before that lol.. so its not actually an accomplishment ghjjh)#In renpy I think you can have multiple separate texty cody whatever documents and still jump between them so long as they;re#labeled properly. Rather than like... having one extremely long 60.000 line file where in some places youre in a menu within a menu#within a menu within a menu within a menu within a menu within a menu jhbhj#But that was the way I started doing it lke 5 years ago when I actually made the base of everything so I feel like it'd be too much#work to change it all that dramatically now. But that means I cant just get the word count for the whole document I just have#to jump around to the few sections I worked on and highlight them to get the word count for only that portion#.. the one tiny fraction of the whole monster text wall. Though it is of course spaced out and organized into#clearly labeled sections within that because otherwise I have trouble discerning text on a screen. still.#Resuming a project that's been basically abandoned for 4-5 ish years is just always finding weird stuff like.. why did I do this that way..#why did I write that... why did I organize that in this manner... what the hell am I referencing in this note... etc. lol#Anyway... also......................cat with plum on his head.#everyone point and laugh at mr. plum head boy..!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:3c#I've been obsessed with Calico Critters' social media presence from afar (like how I mentioned one of my possible dream jobs would#be to be the person that sets the scenes and arranges all the toy animals at a tiny little table and etc. to take the type of pictures they#post on their facebook page and stuff) and I see all their photos of them posing the rabbits as if they're in a swimming pool#or on a nature hike or etc. etc. BUT I have never really seen them in person. Recently I was at a store (in a KN95 mask and not staying#very long still of course. wastewater covid levels are still high where I live (and most of the US truly)) and it just crossed my mind#to actually go to the toy section and see if I could find any....wow.... Its like meeting a celebrity.. the Latte Cats....#Of course I didnt buy them because they're like... very expensive?? like $25 - $40 just for one little pack of a few critters like#what is shown. but.... I still got to see them................ my beloved.. I want their outfits... T o T#Oh and then lastly just a pot of purple clover looking things. I just think theyre neat lol#photo diary
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so not only do we have weird antisemitism in the update today apparently sse is switching the lifetime tiers?
ive been hearing from a few people that now they're offering normally priced lifetime offers and on a case-by-case basis people are getting offers at around half price. with the catch being they very sneakily removed the text saying +100 sc every week, and those tiers get lifetime membership but no SC allowance. THEN telling people who contact customer support confused because they didn't get their allowance that it's for a higher tier and telling them to pay MORE than the normal tier costs to upgrade/ "fix" it.
idk i get why they'd do it, it would probably make a lot of money (and from what I understand a lot of live-update games like this don't include premium currency in their subscriptions) but like. that is so shady. and evidently not a mistake if customer support is directing people to upgrade to "higher tiers"
#star stable#ssoblr#but shady integration method aside what do yall think of having a lt tier with no star coin allowance?#i think i would be accepting of it if there were ways to 'earn' sc (very meager amounts but still)#like i know way back i used to play wizard 101 in middle school/high school and you could do trivia things for their premium currency#it took about a month of daily playing to afford anything or even two-three months for the more expensive things#but it was something i guess?#idk i am torn because i know sso is very abnormal with how much they give you#(pay once subscription + weekly premium currency)#but at the same time i feel like what you can buy with the premium currency takes up a lot of the gameplay#which is it's own can of worms of course
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not to be ungrateful but i don't get paid enough at my job lol
#the problem with jobs that people do bc they love the work is that it doesn't pay well and you will be overworked to death#genuinely couldn't quit bc i love the kids too much already but 15 an hour is....not ideal tbh....#how am i supposed to make future plans in these conditions#i cant ask for a raise ive only worked here 3 months but ugh#the only reason i got hired is i finally broke my rule abt the minimum hourly rate i was willing to accept#i applied to the two 14-16 an hour jobs and used the one i already accepted to get this one to gove me 15 instead of 14#but that's still not a lot tbh#need to buy an oven since we havent had a working one since january#and i keep gping ok next time i get paid i will buy an oven#and it hasnt happened yet#and i need.....17k to invest in starting my own business and i will not see a return on that for a very long time 😭#and i have no idea where that money will be coming from lol#fortunately its not that time sensitive except it kind of needs to happen in the next year or two probably but idk#if i dont do what i need to do idk what will happen but i think the issue will become more expensive but also maybe less expensive#but also uglier and make my neighbors mad#but i have no choice but to wait bc i have no money for that lol#anyway#17k is my immediate expense but i also need to come up with the money to eventually buy my parents house somehow#and i dont even make enough to pay the mortgage 😭#fortunately i dont need to do that for a long time but...eventually#anywayssss#how am i supposed to live laugh love in these conditions#i do love working with kids but jts hard work and all my coworkers are petty and hate eachother so its a lot#and i dont make enough money to live fr#im so lucky i live w my parents bc nobody at my job makes enough to live on their own lol#also the sheep that are supposed to be clearing brush got sick and went back to their farm and they're not coming back this year at all#so we need to brush hog it#or contract another farm#im not sure if its even safe w their poop all over the place snd im not getting any communication from the farmers#but it lowkey might be better to get our own sheep but thats so much work i dont want to think abt doing livestock
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please tell me about the pigments i would love nothing more than to hear you talk about that one shade of red you like and the process it took too recreate it
... oh, op. you have no idea what you've unleashed.
alright. here we go.
OKAY SO THE RED PIGMENT. pr206. my beloved. my dearest friend. it was an absolute bastard to find because there are so many of these. however many you think there are, there are MORE, and that's only if you don't count the many many scenarios where colors are known to be multi-pigment mixes, usually varying in tone/shade/intensity depending on the brand and manufacturing style. some colors are more consistent than others, but there are situations where a color can be named the same and contain the same pigments and STILL look wildly different depending on the ratio, binder, and paper you use. and that's not accounting for the way the pigment is processed. some pigments (like pv19 for example) can come in so many shades it's frankly kind of ridiculous.
anyway, my quest begins when i am, admittedly, in an edgier phase. i want a blood red, but not specifically because of that—no, i want it because it is THE IDEAL COLOR (to me) for a perfect, warm, slightly muted but still intense shade to add to a muted autumn watercolor palette. and... if you look at my whole theme, you probably know how much i love warm colors. i want to paint mushrooms. i want to dim down some of the brighter greens to make them autumnal. i want the perfect red to put as an undertone.
the search starts in earnest.
the immediate issue is this: reds (and purples and pinks) have horrifically bad lightfastness. not all of them, mind, but many are NOTORIOUS for fading under uv light, which means they will also fade if exposed to sunlight even in passing should it happen often enough. and—in especially bad cases where they're essentially working with dye and not pigment—they can even fade inside your notebook. inside of a drawer.
so not only are we working with an unfortunate pigment base (i'm simplifying here, there's way more nuance to this but shh) but we are working with one that skews heavily toward floral pinks or oranges. the red i'm searching for is warm, but not orange. dries dark but not brown. is transparent, not opaque. that last part is agonizing, because i also desperately do not want a color that will fade on me or generally destabilize, and most of the stable dark red pigments are EARTH pigments like red ochre (pr101) or the like. which, while fascinating because of their historical usage in things like pottery and even cave paintings that last to the modern day, are VERY OPAQUE. this is an issue with my preferred style of watercolor painting specifically, because opaque pigments tend to lift easier off the page and limit layering.
the search continues. pigment after pigment breaks my heart for one reason or another, drying too close to the cooler purpleish-red tint of wine at best. i think i find it in perylene maroon, but the drying shift (the difference between how a color looks wet vs after it dries on the paper) is so extreme that it loses the luminosity AND it's more opaque than most. i languish.
for a while my search turns to creation. i try and mix as many of my single pigment colors as i can into something that vaguely resembles what i'm looking for—so i take quinacridones and mix them with napthols, with nickel azos, with dashes of ultramarines and burnt sienna. everything turns out either just a bit too opaque, just a bit too muddy (that happens with multi-pigment mixtures, and is why so many people swear by single pigment colors. it's personal preference, really, great art can be made either way.)
still, nothing works. failure haunts me. i sit before a pile of used up watercolor paper that is literally covered edge to edge in nothing but similar red squares with various gradients and blooms as evidence of when i tried and failed to convince myself my efforts were close enough. i admit defeat.
in the meantime i shift my focus. i try and appreciate different color palettes and profiles, experimenting with things like fully transparent palettes (personal favroite) to fully opaque ones that function more like gouache. but despite finding appreciation for it, i still think about the damn red that i could never recreate. it kills me.
and then one day, a youtube video. a pigment is being discontinued, and the watercolor community is distressed. this happens a lot, because pigments are actually not always popular because of artists—sometimes beloved colors are put out of production because larger markets like car companies no longer find them popular enough to invest in. this time, the casualty is pr206, aka brown madder, aka quinacridone burnt scarlet.
let me tell you a little about quinacridones. they are genuinely remarkable colors. they have their own cult followings because of how bright and abnormally stable they are under uv light. they're transparent. they're luminous. they come in mostly shades of red and pink and purple, though there are a couple oranges and yellows in there. (there are no quinacridone blues, as far as i'm aware, but the phthalo blues have that category covered.) they also rewet beautifully, so you can put them on your palette and let them dry and not worry about it turning into a useless little rock of color that you can't get any pigment from anymore.
quinacridone magenta (pr122) is probably the most popular of these, the most often used besides maybe quinacridone violet (pv19). a few years prior we suffered the loss of quinacridone gold (po49) and since then people have been On Alert when it comes to losing these colors. i am one of them, because i never got the chance to even see po49 in person, and now the tubes are so stupid expensive that even the student grade versions go for Ridiculously High Prices on ebay, and the professional brands are being hoarded like (ironically) gold by anyone lucky enough to have a tube left over.
but back to our main character. not me, the pigment. pr206. i have legitimately never heard of this one, which to be fair is probably because i try to limit the random colors i fixate on since the hobby can easily get VERY expensive if you aren't careful. but it's a quinacridone, and that catches my eye.
i open the video.
now, i'm sure any artist out there will be familiar with the fact that screens don't display color consistently. it depends on your device, but most can agree that something that looks cooler on one may be warmer on the other, it's just what happens. but i see this color being swatched, and my brain implodes.
it's almost a perfect match.
it could work. it could. years of thinking that same thought have left me bereft and mistrustful of this specific quest marker, but the thought refuses to leave me. probably because the 'discontinued' label flashes like a neon sign.
i resist for about six months, and then i cave. at this point i have genuinely been trying and failing to find this color for upwards of five years. i am desperate, and the color might not be available anymore soon anyway, and apparently i am weak to sales pitches. (note: the color IS now unavailable in some brands, but others bought a decent supply and should have it available for at least a little while, alongside po48 which is quinacridone burnt orange, a favorite of mine and probably one of the only oranges i use regularly. both are discontinued officially, but they'll still be on sale till those supplies run dry.)
the color arrives. i grab my favorite brush. i pull out my stash of paper that i save for special occasions.
it's almost perfect.
i mix it with quinacridone burnt orange.
the result is, i swear, a perfect match for what i have been searching for.
it's warm. it dries dark but not dark enough to look brown. it keeps its luminosity (thank you quinacridones). it's fully transparent (thank you quinacridones). i genuinely feel the urge to weep, but i don't because i am clinging at last to the dredges of my sanity and also salt makes watercolor pigments behave differently and i will not risk this glorious moment. finally, after all these years, bill cipher has a gun i found the goddamn COLOR.
i mix it with warm yellows and with my favorite blues. with the pinks, just to laugh. life is beautiful and i am painting its sunsets, and i do not care if they look ridiculously messy. i have won.
the moral of the story is to never give up. or maybe it's to remember you never actually know everything about even the fields you love the most, because this color totally blindsided me despite being much more common than i expected. or maybe it's that i seriously needed to chill out for a while.
but yes. that is the tale of one (1) of the colors that has taken up residence in my soul. i hope you don't regret asking now lmao.
#ney's art tips (art questions)#ney's chatter (ask answers)#so also i said that a good alternative to pr206 is pr175#but i'm actually not totally sure about that because i've never tried it myself#watercolor is an expensive hobby and that's part of why i swapped to digital orz#BUT! from comparisons i've seen they are at least similar enough to scratch the itch#ironically i think i still USE po48 more than i do pr206#but that one is also In Discontinued Limbo where you can buy it but supply is indeterminately limited lmao#still a gorgeous color though.#... wow. this was incredibly niche and probably barely coherent i am so sorry LMAO#but thank you for indulging my color madness. it was the only hobby i had for *ages*.#long post#very very long post#good god is this my longest text post? aside from maybe a hive story?
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someone really should be talking about how difficult it is to plan a wedding - a gay wedding - when both of your families fucking suck
#who is talking about this!!!! let me know#idk i have 0 expectations for my family but they still somehow always manage to let me down which#i was anticipating#and i didn’t think i would care because i have never cared before#but liiiiiike.#i wasn’t expecting to feel sad rofl but my family is so fucking flaky. again i KNOW THIS i know i cannot rely on any of them#it’s annoying when i have given them a year and a half to make plans and i have had so many people tell me they would be there#just to back out or ghost or come up with some excuse#like do you know how expensive weddings are 😭 JUST fucking be honest with me and rsvp no#anyway i was very intentional with the few family members i did invite#and specifically invited people i have a rapport with / had a good (ish lol) relationship with growing up#people i have bent over backwards trying to please!!! and dropping everything to help them out#and they can’t even be bothered to communicate with me lol it’s fine. like. i do feel like it’s internalized homophobia at this point#or maybe they have hated me this entire time which is totally plausible#but they KNOW how much ayesha means to me and knows that no one from her family is coming to our wedding#at the end of the day it’s going to be like. 5 people from my family 1 from ayesha’s (her brother) and like 30-40 friends#which i am so grateful for obviously#i sound like such a brat but it’s also like - watching your family continuously choose drugs/alcohol over showing up for you - lol#AGAIN i’m used to this and expected as much but i’m still feeling bad#just rsvp so i can move on with my life please. stop telling me you’re trying to make it work when we both know you aren’t#i have so much more to say but i’m going to sound crazy even though i knooooow it is homophobia like i Know it#i think there are certain people i will finally go no contact with for good after this#which is a freeing thought but i only invited v few family members to begin with. there’s abt to be no one left lmao#probably for the best#ugh whatever#again i can’t help but feel a certain way when they have done more/traveled further for relatives they hardly know#meanwhile i was forced to spend so much of my life living for these people and for them alone#AAAAAAAA i just want to scream#text
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so yea running servers isnt like a cheap thing is what ive been learning these past couple weeks
#fair warning this is me just like going off new knowledge so i could be getting things wrong#buying an actual server isnt really that expensive itself! the issue is like actually running it and when you have actual ppl on said serve#thats where costs start racking up#theres different ways to go about handling a server but mainly what ive been getting from this is:#self hosting (running urself) or managed hosting (having a 3rd party run it for you)#so when ur small or solo u can get away with managed servers cause theyre pretty lowcost or free#and you usually want to go this route if you dont have the skills built up to take care of a server yourself#or if you arent interested in learning cause its pretty time consuming and u have to upkeep it#but they are scary expensive once u get a certain amount of users from what ive seen#its extremely convenient and gives u peace of mind but theres no point using the service if ur making enough money#especially since you wont have as much control of your server if its managed#so at that point just hire people to take care of your own servers you buy#however there are still server costs u need to pay (along with the people u have hired)#im only bringing this up to say that solmare is running ''two'' separate servers for two seperate games (as far as ik)#and probably arent making that much more in profit cause#me as a user...if i have two games that r practically the same on my phone im not spending money on both#its either one or the other#but you still need to pay accordingly to have both of these servers up#like realistically they arent gonna be able to keep both apps running indefinitely#but yea whatever they were saying in the beginning about having both games running and not forgetting about the og#was either a very generous guess or they were just lying#if it were like a nikki game situation where all the games r very different then maybe it would have been feasible#anyways yea sorry i needed an excuse to talk about the website stuff ive been learning!! and obey me is always in the back of my head#im like thinking about this stuff a lot cause for my site i need to have a server and its like okay we r gucci rn#i can stick with managed for now cause im assuming its gonna stay small#but like...theres always that non zero percent chance that it might not be gucci later on lol#so been researching a lot and i just dont wanna run my own server that sounds so boring its not even funny#so yea im just like AHHH
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okay im back!!! sorta!! the worst of the hecticness is over at least although im still so so stressed & wound up & work starts next week.
this is kinda not as anti-work hashtag as i usually am forgive me for that but i have to admit after about a month of not working im feeling a little bereft. dont know what to do w myself right now. also im finished w the flat hunting ive got a place + have officially moved + still need to figure out some things that arent working right now like the energy provider im trying to switch to not recognising the meter readings + need to clean + officially living on my own now.........
aaugh !! okay. see ive always said i wanted to move out & i did & im happy not to be living w my parents or brothers anymore specifically but again must admit now that im doing it its kinda lonely :/ i don't think i wanna live on my own for a long time
#🫐#maybe if i just spend all my time outside doing stuff i wont feel it#or maybe at some point in the next year or year & a half ill find someone to share some other flat with & then i wont have to live alone#ALSO i got my credit card info stolen !!! they didnt manage to do anything w it bc my bank immediately flagged the transaction they trie#*tried to make as suspicious & notified me & i cancelled it & got a new one but 😮💨😮💨😮💨#its been a very busy expensive month so far 😩#hopefully after this week i wont have to worry abt a million things anymore#i still have so much to do & get sorted but im kinda wallowing right now in feeling like shit & sad & miserable#so im letting myself use tumblr again to vent
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Seeing people (probably people who didn't vote and don't want to accept the blame they deserve) say that it's Kamala or the Democrats' fault if they lost, talking about what they should have done differently, is killing me. The other option was TRUMP, you shouldn't need to do shit to win against someone like him. The Democrats could have chosen a one-leg pigeon with the intelligence of Hei Hei from Moana as a candidate, and it would still be a better option than Trump.
You had the choice between stepping in some slime or some shit, and you are justifying stepping into shit with "Well, the slime was turquoise instead of fushia..." It's not the slime company the problem, it's the people who stepped in shit deliberately.
#us politics#usa#politics#“killing me” as “everytime I see it I want to bash my head in a wall and that's not going to end well for my health”#“democrats should have done things differently” mf don't change the subjet from you choosing Trump#once again Trump isn't the same as other far-right politicians these are manipulative and smart he is a moron#Trump is very open about how much of a pos he is contrary to other far-right politicans so it should be easier to make the right choice#yeah I'm not usamerican but I care about people and I know this man is going to ruin lives#also the usa is an imperialist entity they have a ton of impacts on the world#I remember when France wanted to tax Google and Twitter more and Trump stopped us by making French wines more expensive#it's not the worst thing he has or can do to other countries but the smallest things are still an issue
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