#it has its uses I suppose LMAO
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bearer of the curse (loving the taste of spicy foods but having zero spice tolerance to speak of)
#I have a fucky wucky tongue that kills me instantly with both spicy and sour foods#geographic tongue momence 👍 to live is to suffer#especially when I am experiencing a culture that has DELICIOUS food but the VAST MAJORITY of it is spicy.#funny story though me dying in the middle of a restaurant due to it got us free food there. So like#it has its uses I suppose LMAO#(was not planned - We asked for no spice but got spicy. I Died on impact. Was noticeable enough that the staff#who did not speak much English#were giving me extra water and making sure I was okay jfkebfkdfnfj)#The agonies! Etc#the food here is so good honestly I just also have to suffer through it 👍#clamtalk
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horrortale waterfall game broke me sorry (hey just like horror!)
#say it with me: average triglycercule art if i locked in#THERES NO FUCKING ART OF THIS CHAPTER YET IS EVERYONE JUST SLEEPING OR SOMETHING!!!!! WHAT!!!!!!!!!#all the blue's supposed to be the light from the core after horror's eye was used to reactivate it btw#and (this was unintentional but anyways) the purpleish tone horror's clothes have is because he said that to aliza in the game#ohhhh my goddddddd....... how much is your life worth......... its worth so much but treated like its nothing#ACTUALLY not EVEN horror's life. just his body. screw the personhood in the first place#hey horror looks awfully similar to another black eyed and mouthed sans out there..... huh...... i wonder who.........#current horror saying that type of shit to past horror AS IF HES NOT SUPPOSED TO BE NICER IN THE FUTURE#this was originally an excuse to draw horror with the new gray eye but then i decided against it smh.......#and also an excuse to draw blood. the ONLY thing i'm good at rendering#my inability to render is really prevalent here. only covered up by the composition and harsh lighting and lineart and whatever the fuck#anyways TRIGLYCERCULE ART???? IN THIS DAY AND AGE?????? when was the last one........... probably my birthday rain of dust art LMAO WHAAAAA#well that completes my shitty trio focused art. killer's bday dust's bday (although it was so ass) and now this! now they all have 1 piece#tricule art#horror sans#horrortale#murder time trio#utmv#sans au#my horror bias has really been showing these past few daus#but i mean........ I MEAN LIKE WHEN HES THE ONLY ONE THAT STILL GETS UPDATES OUT OF THE TRIO IM ALLOWED TO BE OVERJOYED#as the sole horror representative of mtt nation i gotta fucking carry all the other 3 supposed horror enjoyers on my back 😒😒😒😒😒😒😒#bad sanses#bad sans gang#nightmare's gan#eeaaughhhhh hes not part of the gang hes part of the trio...... get horror away from nightmares fugly ass.......euaaghhhhh#but whatever. im so excited for this art to be locked in the Five Note Banger Jail!#IF YOU READ THESE TAGS THIS IS YOUR SIGN TO PLAY THE WATERFALL GAME OR REREAD THE HORRORTALE COMIC 🫵🫵🫵‼️‼️‼️‼️👿👿👿👿👿
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Really admire people who can freely sketch or color in public, I'm so self conscious whenever I do it I honestly can't relax or concentrate 🫠
#I'm at the airport waiting for my dad so i can take him to my mom's#and like its been ages i have my ipad like i could continue with the comic but like the idea of people seeing what I'm drawing#gives me so much dread lmao#i suppose it's cause when i used to sketch in high school some classmates would tease me about it#and like it got stuck that i would be teased if someone saw me drawing 😓#just this year i started sketching/coloring around my family#i was afraid of doing in front of them too lol#miry's yapping#they don't ask me about my drawings cause they know I'm self conscious about it lol#so yeah my fam has never seen anything i do and tbh that's best for me 🙈
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Not sure if you ever mentioned, but what IS your favorite flavor? I can't tell from looking at the cake.
#uhhhh uhhhhh i dont have a reason#leave him be he needs to fix his mascara!!!!!!#the top line (whatever thats supposed to be) will be a bit thicker for a while i guess lol#teehee#[you've got mail!]#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#deltarune spamton#deltarune chapter 2#his must have tube of mascara always in his inner blazer pocket or smth cant go without it lmao#no clue why but i had the urge to do the text. i didnt need to. it was like 10 minutes of extra time. but... idk waiting to see what he say#has more charm#hes using his little really really dim reflection on the monitor to clarify#its bright enough in the dark alley that it isnt an issue :-3#i feel like hes a chocolate guy what can i say
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Physically, I am getting through it.
Mentally, I am laying on the ground kicking my feet and screaming that it isn't fair.
#i hate that i have to work a second job while im in school#did you know we (grad students) arent technically allowed to have second jobs?#because our funding is supposed to be such a generous stipend that we can focus all our time on studying#lol#lmao even#the grad student stipend hasn't gone up in almost 10 years#and it wasnt great to begin with#at a conservative estimate my rent is going to double when i move out of my current place#and its only the rate it is now because i signed onto a four year lease#landlord has been itching to raise it for a couple years now#frankly the university should be ashamed of whay they're paying us
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i think the thing about kab that frustrates me the most is that she seems to think shes a lot more helpless than she actually is, always looking for someone to help solve her problems for her even when shes fully capable of doing things on her own but she just doesnt believe she does
first and foremost is clown: why is her go to solution always clown?? mfer hasnt even logged on in months and most likely will not log on until he finishes elden ring which will surely take a while and thats not even mentioning the fact that they arent teammates -- seemingly a moot point considering how close they are but a declaration of intent to team is important on lifesteal cause it essentially signals to the other person "i'll be there for you" and is a big reason why betrayals hurt so damn much because trust is a rare commodity that essentially got stomped on, the fact that clown wont even do that tells me that he feels no obligation to her and its fair to assume that he'll act accordingly. kab seems to think hes reliable and will always be there for her which is fair cause he has been in the past but the thing is he isnt right now, she cant rely on him cause he just simply wont be there for her -- if he was then he wouldve killed mane by now
second is hannah: i'll admit that out of everyone on the server hannah is probably who kab can rely on the most right now and yet despite that hannah 1. has not logged on in a while and 2. prioritizes her own safety over kab's, to the point of essentially abandoning her and taking red's side when team mice had a fallout so despite being one of the two if not the only person who would throw everything away to help kab out, at the end of the day shes only as reliable as her survival instincts would let her be
third is zam: to put it as bluntly as possible, zam has never and will never prioritize kab. his main and only priority is the server itself esp spawn, the only reason he goes out of his way to assist helpless players is cause he wants to keep the server functional and leaving the weaker players who arent willing or arent able to fight back for dead basically ensures that all conflict will eventually stagnate and therefore leaving the server in a state of decay. his oath is not and has never been an arbiter of morality, its more akin to stewardship rather than justice therefore regular conflict such as grudge kills are far too trivial and most importantly normal and necessary for the server to keep functioning and will never make him go out of his way for her. sure she can ask for gear, thats something that he prides himself on and he can be rather generous esp if hes got a surplus of material, but he will never solve her problems for her unless the source of her conflict affects the server itself such as when mane escalated from hunting kab down repeatedly to becoming the main spawn griefer
she needs to learn to be more independent, to take responsibility, to not rely on other ppl so much esp if there isnt mutual trust and willingness to defend each other between them. she can ask for help of course but she cant solely rely on assistance to help solve her conflicts on the server and with her karma thing going on, how does she expect to fulfill all that if she cant even stand on her own feet without a crutch? like its one thing if it was a whole team but shes the sole arbiter, how is she meant to enact revenge for the whole server if she cant even solve her own problems? how is she meant to face off against some of the best pvpers on the server (who dont hesitate to kill weaker players btw) if she cant even spill blood on her own? she can make traps but is she willing to? over and over again? can she deal with the consequences of being a hunter? cause shes not getting off of this scot-free regardless of how morally good her actions are
#mine.txt#analysis#kab#like. idk. i think shes grown far too used to relying on clown for everything and now shes trying to find a substitute now that hes#not here to kill all the problems that she cant lie and manipulate out of for her#like i can understand her being biased towards clown#and honestly i think its funny that its a big part of the reason why all her relationships are crumbling#but the fact that her first solution to complicated/more difficult problems is to get clown??? girl...#it baffles her to see devotions not want to rely on clown cause shes too used to using him as her first resort when things go badly#she thinks its a pride thing and it is but like whats wrong in not wanting help that you dont need?#if someone else is just gonna go and settle all your conflicts for you then whats even the point of logging on in a server like lifesteal??#shes used to arena smps so i suppose she thinks its a viable all around strategy but its really not#not in a server with no real win conditions that you wanna do things in anyway#and devotions do want to do things and they cant do that if clown is doing all the things for them#but i suppose she doesnt see it that way; i suppose she sees him as a safety blanket; one of the few things that she has going for her#but clown *isnt* a safety blanket; hes his own person with his own priorities and wants and needs and he cant always be there for her#esp not rn when hes on his elden ring arc lmao#the only person she and anyone else truly has is themself#like not even devotionduo is there for each other all the time and they love dropping everything to help the other out#but i suppose thats the difference between devotions and killer bunnies#devotions dont see the other as a safety blanket; never have and never will
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Feeling like yuta before shibuya

feeling like gojo in shinjuku

#girl i've been having trouble sleeping so my psychiatrist gave me benzos and somehow i went from sleeping 6 hours to fucking 2 😭😭😭#it's fucking stress and anxiety cause this has happened before but it usually went away with yoga and shit#so im using the treadmill and doing yoga and meditating and writing in my stupid journal and drinking tea but my brain is like:#let's sleep even LESS than before! granted i've been doing it for like 3 days but its supposed to tire me out like???#i made a bad bunny playlist to work out and put two long songs at the end...#i was ecstatic yesterday but today i was asking god why safaera is fucking 5 minutes long y'all don't need to say all that fr#this shit is making me histeric. the less i sleep the funnier shit gets and i cackle at stupid memes and get a giggling fit after#i am also very emotional. the other day i remembered that one panel of gojo smiling over his shoulder in shinjuku and i almost cried lmao#also get this i got an ad for an online twerking class and i was like lol but maybe god put it in my way cause...#...what if i encounter a tall white haired man with freaky blue eyes or a handsome and very delusional long-haired and purple-eyed cutie#i need to court them by popping my ass out cause destiny didnt give me a dump truck for me not to manipulate and lure men with it#then i'd ask for money a dual citizenship and them to give my cat their last name and put her in their will#her name is gigi so her initials would be gg isn't that funny#whatever wish me luck so that i can sleep well tonight!
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I've finally finished my first boss for my demon hunting game Judgement Nights! A guard dog for a much stronger demon, Grub keeps their secret safe and hidden from all mortal or demonic eyes
#I hope the notes help to understand what I was trying to go for hehe#Judgement Nights as a system hasn't really been tested by players yet. Just me.#I haven't played enough ttrpgs to know if something like this has been done before or not but something like it probably does lmao#think original fallouts if all of your allies shared one turn instead of being sorted into a turn order. If it was all just your guy's turn#And you had to balance using your AP wisely because whatevers left over you can use to counter the opponents turn!!#I hope that makes some sense I've been writing for a minute now and am kinda tired I'll probably go more in depth in another post#this post was supposed to be abt Grub but now its abt the combat as a whole woopsie :3#Grub needs just a bit more polish but I'm really happy I've gotten this far. Used to kinda be a far out idea but now that a Demons characte#sheet is right in front of me it feels almost surreal#First time designing a Tabletop game from the ground up and not basing it off an existing ip/ converting a video game into a tabletop#(even though its still very video game inspired taking a good bit from Devil May Cry)#indie ttrpg#Judgement Nights#ttrpg
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The best 68 seconds in anime history (and a 22 minutes 32 seconds of prelude to that, I guess)
#A good episode. Some interesting politics talks.#But also episode that reminds me how boring b/sd is - to me - when it's not about ss/kk…#It's just that a season finale that isn't centered on ss/kk feels unfair ahah#I like fuku/fuku's relationship and their arc is interesting but man Fukuchi's plan is really so stupid… Like so so stupid…#And I suppose it's the kind of nonsense that's fairly in brand for b/sd. But still‚ man…#Idk. I don't have much to say that I haven't already plenty commented here and there.#Very solid episode. Spectacular animation and art direction by b/sd's standards. Just try not to miss ss/kk too much while watching it lmao#Oh the Teruko scene makes me soooooo mad.#I'm so pissed at that scene it's my least favourite scene in the whole manga. Makes me want to break the screen.#The moment when Fukuchi holds Fukuchi is???? So intimate????? Really has one be like 🏳️🌈⁉️⁉️#I know that's definitely not the point but every time watching I can't help but go#“world war or not‚ activating such a large scale military mobilization is probably going to cause the end of the world–#due to all its consequent pollution either way”.#I mean even ignoring the tanks and fighter aircrafts and aircraft carriers the THOUSANDS of missiles dropped in the sea. Lol#Well... At least we got ss/kk homoerotic bloodsucking. A special tool that will come useful later I'm sure I'm sure#I don't have words left about the final ss/kk scene but seriously. It's incredible under every aspect.#I can't believe Akutagawa stepped in in a new outfit to rescue Atsushi and exchange homoerotic lines.#You had to be there you had to be there. Lifechanging night national holiday worthy event#random rambles#This one + the last episode: episodes that make me go “wow whoever wrote this plot has no idea how UN works”#Like seriously (╥﹏╥) Seriously. I mean it's all good it's just an anime but that's so not how the UN works lol
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At which point did you realise that the plot of IW is ass? I've seen people complain only about the ending or the halfway point where the teams separate, while I was already actively rolling my eyes like four-five chapters in
i think the moment i fully accepted that IW's story was. Definitely A Story was the moment ebina announced 'bleach japan'. like i think leading up to that point i was thinking to myself 'oh i hope i see X happen' or being like 'i wonder where this is going' and that sort but the proverbial bucket of ice was definitely that moment
#infinite wealth spoilers#snap chats#what reaaaaally hammered it in too if it wasnt obvious already was the execution of the jimas/daigo like that still irks me LMAO#i cant even remember what chapter that happened in i just know when it did i was utterly pissed#i think i started to take things less seriously once bryce entered the picture but thats only because of how distracting his VA was#like much love the JP voice actors who try to speak english and japanese but i just cant act like it's not incredibly distracting#esp when the character is supposed to be white yk what i mean- or at the very least their first language is supposed to be english#typically i can look over that thing if its a one or two time kind of deal but he had to speak in english much longer than others#im just rambling about bryce tho this aint bout him. i mean he could be a part of it the cult was executed really sloppily#it might have been the introduction of bryce actually ... i remember thinking to myself 'oh brother' with the whole messiah thing LMAO#maybe it was when kiryu told us his cancer cam from radiation instead of. smoking 💀 ESPECIALLY not even five chapters in#like straight out the gate you just wanna drop that on us mr I Can Do Everything Myself I Cant Worry Others ok#thats a post for another day tho im EVERYWHERE#POINT IS this is not about Retrospect this is about First Impressions and memory warps over time#but i know for a fact i found the bleach japan thing utterly ridiculous and was squinting at the plot the entire time thereafter#like ive said this a million times at this point but although i love IW for it's gameplay (pardon some nitpicks like lack of shortcuts)#its story really feels so messy and had much to be desired. which is so sad after the wonderful stories rgg has been making since 0..#BUT OH WELL im still excited to replay it in english. god willing i ever get the time#i still wanna finish lost judgment <- isnt even halfway through the game#and i wanna do a fun stream Maybe with YK2 but ill get into that when i get into that#if youve read this far. thanks LOL id say sorry for the novel but thats what we expect of me at this point
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Another one of my GPAS Ocs I have lol She's the leader of a ninja clan, specifically the metal clan! During the years that clarity took over there were some books & old building that had knowledge of the old world that a formie kept in his hideout, none of his peers thought it was a good idea but they ended up being assimilated moments before he had the chance to change their minds. Alone the lone formie male was cautious when scavenging around scrapyards around the islands of Luna until discovering a robot named Alloy, she was suppose to be none feeling but instructions when creating her were very indecisive so she ended up being disposed of when she tried to help the formie military but almost got them killed by setting off the ammunition storage by accident. Feeling pity for the lady robot the male formie takes her in & decides to be her caretaker forming a strong bond. As they traveled the male formie decided to want to lead a clan of ninjas with a code of honor from the past when he got invested reading more of the old world. Alloy gets the idea to try to find some GPAs to repair to form a clan! So they go around in the day/afternoon time to find remains of GPAS stumbling into faces of the past, those being Fark Force units! Being Effer Guards, Mechanics, Recruits, R & D, Gunmari, Bowmari, & Swordmari! Being repaired by he kind male formie & Alloy the Ex Effer units are grateful for their help, with no where to go they accept being part of a group once more thus leading to the creation of the Metal clan!
An unfortunate accident happens where amidst of celebration when enough members have been found & recruited Alloy gets way too excited that she bumps into some loose pipes that cause a chain of events of a large pipe falling ontop of her beloved caretaker's head causing him to pass away from the collusion. The metal clan decide to make a burial in the basement for him & in his honor decide to be a ninja clan that fights for good although when the age of piracy happens on Luna they become thieves as time passes. They still keep their moral code of not killing anyone thats a GPA or Formie, only Agents of Clarity if they spot them wandering too close to their hide out or out and about. They are mostly stealthy although they end up getting attention from the wrong people during a night raid on a pirate ship at sea. Some other thieves see the metal clan schedule only appearing at night giving them the idea of forming their own clans for self preservation becoming "false ninjas", 3 clans are formed & they all cause trouble througout the years. Alloy doesn't know what to think of these other clans showing up but she doesn't engage in their shenanigans only thing she cares is about the safety & comfort of her clan. (Think of Princess Peach & the toads) She will fight to protect them at any cost, if some effer units come back with injuries she will keep their spirits high & repair them immediately! The reason she goes out at night with her clan is because the pirates are asleep making it the perfect opportunity to steal metal resources to expand her hide out. If some pirates do wake up they will be confused why their treasure is still in one place but will find themselves panicking when their ships start to sink. Its how she ends up meeting the Inkjet Pirates, Captain Mendoza develops a crush on her due to how silly & kind she is that he will take a break from treasure hunting with his crew to go on dates with her. They do the unimaginable in the age of piracy, that being a Pirate falling in love with a Ninja! Since the rivalry is very strong during clarity's take over & defeat its something very unheard of. They don't see each other that often so they cherish moments they do spend time with each other! Fast forward many years & tragedy strikes! A ninja clan that Oscuri was part of emerges from their stasis pods, they are old world but corrupted by their leader, Raymond. The Blight Clan is very hostile when they awaken they run into these other clans eliminating some of their rivals very easily & swiftly that the false ninjas submit & join forces with Blight out of fear, the only clan to take over was Metal. While Alloy faced off with Raymond there was a stand off, if she kept rebelling then her ninja clan would be taken apart & melted down into scraps/batteries used to make sulfuric acid as their weapons or to join forces & serve under Raymond. Feeling very troubled she surrenders although some of the metal clan fight back being thrown in jail cells. Fearing what other things can turn for the worst the elites stand down along side the smaller effer units, its a way Raymond trys to corrupt them to be evil but they all just pretend to play along, Alloy being under restrictions is trying to find someone to help her free the Metal Clan from Blight Clan's grasp. Due to these events Mendoza wonders why he isn't finding Alloy in the usual spots they would hang out & makes him think she was killed by Agents of Clarity, not knowing that shes actually been kidnapped by evil ninjas.
#mistress alloy#spark tej#spark tej ocs#sparktej#spark the electric jester#medic of luna#shes like a mix of princess peach & master kogha lol#I used double as a ref for her back story since I didn't wanna draw another formie lmao#its suppose to be like a parallel to that btw with her having a master & then suddenly passing away leaving her alone#but she has a ninja clan to look after!#also alittle bit of princess zelda from twilight princess with her surrender to the blight clan#stej#she does end up teaming up with some familiar faces in scala hehe#oscuri has a moment of whiplash since this would be the second time she sees fellow ff members post clarity#girl is emotional that they remember her & wish them all a happy life after helping the metal clan
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I'm trying to find ways to slowly ease my way into taking walks (debilitating social anxiety) so I was going to download pokemon go again but my phone is too old :(
#im actually very upset abt this lol#all of the other tricks ive found rely on having a dog to walk#and like i would love to get my own dog but i absolutely cannot afford one lmao#so i guess i just. still can't go on walks#nobody seems to understand just how impossible it is for me to walk down the street when im not trying to get somewhere#like just going for a walk for fun/to look at nature feels like im being killed#people are LOOKING at me and when someone even so much as glances at me while im walking i instantly feel like I'm doing something wrong#or like they're going to misunderstand my sort of odd behaviors#i can't walk slow because they'll think im a stalker. i can't walk fast because ill get out of breath and they'll think im disgusting#i can't keep a normal pace because im too nervous and i just spend the whole time tense and hate myself even more when i get home#like. what the hell am i supposed to do lol#getting a dog is the only way i think i could stop myself from spiraling like that bc of COURSE im walking slow and leisurely.#im walking my dog. my dog wants to smell and has to poop or whatever#im no longer a freaky fat stalker im just some guy walking my dog#this became more of a vent than i was expecting lmao but if anyone has any actual tangible tips for how to go on walks i would appreciate it#when i had to walk 2 miles to class i used to take a small part of an edible right before i got on the bus lmao and that worked WONDERS#but i don't want to have to do that just to walk around my own neighborhood when i eventually move out#i just want to be normal lmao i want to go out and find bugs and look at leaves#i guess i could walk in the woods but what if i get lost#i want to be able to look at stuff. i want to be able to stop and look at a plant while some person passes by me#without feeling like im going to blow up or like they're going to hit me or like IM going to hit THEM#im used to anxiety but i always feel so erratic in public places. when everyone wore masks i was a little better#i still mask most of the time but it doesn't help anymore bc now im like one of the only people that does it#so now instead of blending in AND having my face covered i just stand out more#my face is still covered so it still helps but its like barely a net positive lmao#i want to be able to look around without worrying that someone is looking at me from their window and thinks im a stalker#truly how the hell am i supposed to do that without a dog lol
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speaking of masks. yall who have masked trolls... how did u come up with the mask designs?
every time i try to make one, it just feels off to me.
also i wrote a novel in the tags about it, but if anyones got some good research sources too, im all ears 👂
#i also dunno how to find good mask references#cus the ones i find that i rly like. idk how to jump off of them in terms of design? all i want to do is use it#also in terms of cultural sensitivity im hesitant because i dont wanna like. blindly use something that has a large significance-#to a dif culture#i know theres a line between enjoying the aesthetic and active appropriation...but i would still like to have the research under my belt to-#fall back on#so also i suppose in terms of research i would appreciate some good sources too :>#good mask sources are surprisingly difficult to find on google and. usually everything i find is like#school-essay level blog post that a white person interested in that culture made#not to say that white people cant know shit but. like i said its usually like they did it for a school project lmao#just the basic information and nothing more#i Would go to the library for this but. its currently placed in an old best buy and its sensory hell for me in there#(theyre renovating the library building)
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So we're in Avernus in my DND campaign and I play Hysteria a purple tiefling, fighter/warlock, my patron being Asmodeus, grand pa pa. We passed this mirror ice wall and my first instinct was to shatter it but I didn't. Instead hysteria was granted a wish. And you know what she wished for? For Asmodeus to be free. It didn't actually work entirely. But it did loosen a few chains and I think she started the apocalypse.
#were talking to bell right now#hes not very happy he doesn't know what is going on and hysteria keeps lying to him#she used to be chaotic neutral but she has since tripped and fallen into lawful evil#my two partners in crime are a cn kalistar that hates Asmodeus and loves unicorns and paladin good lady gwen who wants to bring palor to his#knees and instate zivilin i didnt spell name right as right full ruler of the heavens#in game gwen the paladin is kind of livid about whats going on right now#outside my roommate is having the time of her life with the chaos#dnd#its a fun time#hysteria has miraculously not died yet#this friday will be a treat because we get to see what is happening#lmao the last like four sessions were supposed to wrap up loose ends to the campaign but weve jsut made it all worse#so weve got a few more before my roommate the dm the other one figures out what hes going to do next
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#so on the one hand im having A Lot of existential thought spiraling issues lately. like. idk if its ever been so bad in my life#in this particular manner or about these particular things. so for the first time in literally years therapy is on my mind.#but on the other hand i have a psychiatrist to help w the actual mechanics of my intrusive thoughts-- IS THIS NOT WHAT THE MEDS ARE FOR?--#&i have so incredibly little interest in general therapy. what the fuck is a psychologist supposed to DO for me.#my existential crises are not unique but the circumstances surrounding them are specific&as per there are only a million reasons why#general therapy isnt only probably useless for me it can be potentially literally unsafe if im totally honest-- you know.#how therapy is supposed to be used to actually see results.#so my solution to this has been to read a bunch of fucking books on dialetical behavioral therapy&cognitive behavioral therapy lmao.#next up: acceptance&commitment therapy.#if i could hack my literal physical health hell will be freezing over before i give up on hacking my mental health too lmao.#**therapist. what the fuck is a therapist gonna do for me.
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Some coloring practice w my ocs :)


Though I must say, I always really just like the lineart the way it is, I guess they're perfect just the way they are
#i miss painting(digital painting fyi) but the way i did it before made it so i got frustrated by it and never finished stuff#so kinda trying to find a new style of rendering#which is just several layers where i keep changing what that layer was supposed to be for lmfao#but big fan!!!!#its a lot of fun which is always good!! bcs thats a lot better than giving up out of frustration#i love the highlight layer aaaaahhhh its so fun to make it all shiny!!!#also ignore that its 7 am 💀💀💀 I SWEAR IM ABOUT TO SLEEP SHHHHHHHHHHH#just wanted to practice portraits and then drew for like an hr and a half#also if youre curious!#the oc on the left is Rüß and on the right is Sola(goddess of the sun ☀️)#two characters with opposing color schemes that i find very fun to draw#sola is fun bcs i dont really ever draw lips or makeup and then she has a bunch!!#she used to have a heart motif but then i saw mycenaean blush and it fits her perfectly so !!!#i wanna draw ocs but next fanart i think will be more nandopoleon since i like drawing historical more than race suits#i wanma draw strollonso as napoleon and empress marie louise(only Cofi understands why LMAO)#and then at some point nandopoleon in the emperor robes however that requires more research#catie.rambling.txt#catie.art.
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