#isolation creation

[teeny-tiny-revenge]

Underdicussed aspect of Ed and Stede's future life in their "Inn": within a couple months they are going to be incomprehensible to anyone else. Mr Zangy and Mr Tangy have speedrun the development of a new dialect. It's still sort of English, but it's riddled with made up words like zangy and tangy, with technically normal words that have been given a completely new meaning because one of them said it in accident once, then it became A Bit for a couple days, and then it just became normal to use this word in the new context and they forgot it didn't always mean this. Some words have gone from being nouns to being adverbs and verbs. They are about to invent their own grammar. They talk to each other all day about all sorts of things because they love being together and they love talking to each other, and with every day their language moves further away from being actually intelligible to anyone else. When the crew comes to visit, they'll find a pair of retired pirates/not-yet innkeepers who use completely nonsense words for common household items and who talk to each other in gibberish.

[burningvelvet]

my desire to write shitty fanfic VS my desire to write original works i can attach my name to VS the part of me that just wants to creatively experiment & never actually finish or promote anything or have expectations tied to my output bc that takes all the fun out of it VS the part of me still clinging to the pipedream of being famous & living on thru my work after i die like my creative heroes did VS the part of me that understands thats not possible for several reasons but mainly because we live in an increasingly post-canon world due to globalization & the rise of mass media platforms so the main way to reach audiences is thru social media apps VS my hatred of dealing with social media apps & their atrocious algorithms VS my need to connect with people VS my fear and hatred of other people &/or the often isolatory nature of creating VS my love for collaborative works & understanding that the creator/audience relationship is collaborative in and of itself & every form of it is worthy

[bakerstreet-and-beyond]

Pile Body Upon Body

[ranmaru-kageyama]

omg i cant believe theyre selling 0104 rain yuri for pride month

[acknowledgetheabsurd]

[3 p.m.]

You did not write to me yesterday.  And this day, so beautiful outside, is poisoned for me. I needed your letter today. Or rather its absence makes me see how much I need it every day. This paper, these words always repeated, what an isolation, isn't it? But I wish you wouldn't go away. Just now, sad, a little frustrated, I tried to imagine a future without you. I beg you, my darling love, whatever happens, never leave me. Do whatever you want, I'll put up with everything from you but be mine.

What I say to you is very serious and long meditated: the link which binds me to you is from now on that of life itself. If it is cut, it is agony and madness. I underline this to you and I write to you very coldly, with the certainty of those who have experienced what they say. Do this for me, will you? Put this letter aside and if one day you are tempted to reject me, read it again. It will tell you the truth that I discovered with fear one day: that, in spite of what I thought I was and in spite of all that I am apparently fulfilled with, I am nothing without you - only a desperate and now barren selfishness.

You are life and what binds me to it. I owe you a new being in me, or rather the one I really was and which had never been born. That is why you belong to me absolutely and forever, as a mother belongs to the one she has created. I am not crazy in telling you this. It is I, the one you know, the clear one, the lucid one, who is speaking to you. The blood we exchanged one day while laughing meant exactly that: indestructible union. And one of the meanings of the indestructible union is that if one moves away, the other enters into harmony.

What binds us are not the bonds of dreams or conventions, they are the bonds of blood, of the creation of one by the other, and of the flesh. They are bonds that are never denied because they are found only once in a lifetime. They are bonds that we do not imagine when we have not known them. But if we finally found them, we know, as I know, that until that moment we had not known anything or lived. It is known that we have just found one of the oldest secrets of life and that it is worth the suffering of being born and growing up. If you don't feel this as I do with the same inevitable force, the same precision and clarity, then I am alone to die. If you feel it, all is saved, and we belong together.

Forgive me for this letter. The absence of yours made me look at the future and I tell you only what I saw there. When I return to Paris, it is this union that we will consecrate. I have a thirst, a terrible thirst for happiness. Just say that you think like me, that you are mine forever as I am yours, that is to say unconditionally, and then we will live far from words, scruples and struggles, and days of happiness await. I love you, I am yours. Don't think I'm crazy. It is the bottom of my long compressed heart that bursts. I have your blood in me, your taste on my lips, your passion to live in my heart. Courage again. And soon we will be happy with our happiness. I kiss you with all my heart. But write, write, I beg you. Do you feel, do you feel how much I love you?

[6 p.m.]

I wrote you this letter just now, which I am sending you after some thought, because it says exactly what I think and feel. But at least don't worry. A movement pushed me to speak to you like this because this day without a letter had literally knocked me out. By reaction, the bottom, the blood of the heart came out. Rereading what follows, cold, I can't find a word to deny, and, finally, I am happy that you didn't write to me and that I found this opportunity to tell you the limitless love I have for you. Panic is good. See you tomorrow, Maria dear. The wind is still blowing on this deserted day and I am waiting for those months when we will be happy, when we will finally enjoy ourselves and this wonderful love. But answer me with a sentence at least, tell me that we are similar and confused. I send you all my love and my desire. I kiss your dear mouth, my mouth...

Albert Camus to Maria Casarès, Correspondance, February 10, 1950 [#183]

[whatudottu]

Honestly Ben 10 is probably one of the most based science fiction series out there by sheer virtue of it having the balls to showcase any alien concept it wanted to no matter how ridiculous, and whenever someone is like “there’s no way in Hell that could ever be scientifically feasible”, it dared to look them in the eyes and go “Yeah, well, this is a world where magic and superpowered mutants also exist. What are you gonna do? Cry about it? You grown ass adult who’s expecting scientific feasibility out of a cartoon meant to sell toys to preteen boys that has lore so inconsistent it’s almost impossible to tell what’s canon and what’s non-canon? LMAO loser.”

I mean OS had it all- obviously aliens but not only that, at minimum 10 of them; mutants in daily life across at least America, no doubt in other places too; magic, albeit one without a system beyond ‘there’s a spellbook and some charms’. The shift to purely alien in AF makes the wonderful nonsense sci-fi stuff into frustrating logic trees of ‘how does xenobiology get this powerful’ which I had definitely fallen into. Ben 10 is unabashedly science fantasy, so why not go the full fantasy and bring back mutants and magic, haha!

Admittedly a good implementation of magic in a series tends to follow a magic system, which I’m not especially great at coming up with, especially in comparison to speculative biology which come with pre-established rules. But hey, I don’t exactly expect it to be fleshed out, at least not as well as the alien aspect of Ben 10; even then, there’s only so much fleshed out, it’s to tease us into making lore for it lmao-

To be fair though, Ben 10 itself had to whack itself on the cheek in order to be reminded of its magic and especially mutant parts, which unfortunately in the latter case was central to major retcons so…

[apenitentialprayer]

[Hans Urs von Balthasar] registers doubt that human freedom has the capacity after all to reject God finally or permanently. This is because the person who demands, in her autonomous self-motion, to be utterly independent and cut off from God can only do so in a perpetual state of formal contradiction, since the freedom by which she requisites total freedom must itself be exercised precisely in a state of being given to her. You can't logically atomize yourself without depending on God in the very act of "autonomous" rebellion. Put otherwise, human nature is irreducibly dependent and so can't act in freedom without God (indeed, von Balthasar further specifies that this "nature" actually bears the indelible mark of Christ's own eternal relation to the Father, which makes a finer point here).

Jordan Daniel Wood (George MacDonald against Hans Urs von Balthasar on Universal Salvation)

[sir-adamus]

....Hermes created Meteion and her sisters, who, if they're anything like her, are innocent and childlike and haven't been taught to be able to compartmentalise their own emotions from the ones they absorb from others, and he's already sent them out into space (and i recall Cid telling Omega that the lonely journey from one star to another would be too much for anything with a soul)

yeah this is a fucking red flag

[multiplicity-positivity]

Just... looking for some affirmation here, if that's alright. Not like a positivity post or anything, though. Unless you want to.

Have you heard of headmate packs/build a headmate stuff? Recently our system has gotten pretty into them. We've used them to form... two headmates fully from scratch (of that makes sense) and help three others define themselves after forming initially.

But in the past few days our system has come into a newfound guilt about this. Eg "why do we want our system to get bigger","why do we want so many new members", etc.

I'm not gonna lie, the new members have been immensely helpful to our system as we can form them to have specific roles that are needed for the system (eg, forming a headmate with the role of anti-depressant to help out our depression holder headmate, if that makes sense.)

I think I am the only one who hasn't been influenced or formed by a headmate pack in a while. I just showed up not too long ago. I have some... not amazing roles (isolator, persecutor, protescutor/prosecutor) and honestly, it kind of makes me feel a bit guilty for not having better roles. I'm not sure why. Does any of this make sense?

But yeah, I think we may just need some affirmation that it's alright to make new headmates, even if we don't "need" them. It's kind of nice having a bigger system, especially because recently we learned we lost our core to dormancy. We've sort of been struggling with that fact because it kind of throws any semblance of ideas of "what if im faking" out the window because the guy who was the before the system is gone now. Thay doesnt make any sense foes it. New members might help us cope with that a bit better. If that makes sense.

Apologies if there are any spelling errors in this, there's a bandaid on my finger and I can't type quite normally with it.

-🗝Charlotte (via @cloverstarsys )

Hello - we have indeed heard of headmate packs. Personally the concept makes us feel uneasy. We’re not certain what to say regarding them.

However, as for having a large system, wanting a large system, or gaining lots of members… all of these things are fine ways of being plural and normal goals to strive for. Some systems are more comfortable with sprawling member lists and multitudes of headmates. There is nothing wrong with this.

There is no wrong way to be a system or go about your own plurality. Your (collective) multiplicity is a personal journey that is dependent on your own system, not the opinions of outsiders. If forming new headmates helps you all cope, we don’t see them as not being needed. In fact, it’s alright for headmates to not be needed, or to not have roles, or to have formed without a specific purpose. What matters more is that they are wanted, and have the opportunity to feel loved, accepted, and supported by their system.

It is alright to create new headmates for fun, out of boredom, or in order to see your system size grow. There’s no wrong reason for new headmates to exist. It is all about how that headmate is treated in life. Individual origins are, in our opinion, far less important than how headmates are treated in the present.

As for feeling guilt about your role specifically… many headmates in other systems may find themselves in your shoes. One persecutor in our system regularly goes through similar bouts of guilt because of their role. For us, it is important to remind our parts with “negative” roles that they formed for a reason, and that their roles functioned by protecting us in ways that were necessary in the past. They may continue to bear these roles in the future, they may not, but what matters more is that we show them unwavering kindness and love, and treat them the same way that we treat even our most vulnerable parts.

We are uncertain if that mindset could help you. But please try to refrain from being harsh with yourself for having a role which is outside of your control. If being persecutory or isolating yourself and others is bothering you, it may be better to focus on trying to change your behaviors than hating yourself for having the role you formed with. Roles are not always set in stone, and it is quite possible for them to change with conscious choices and effort.

We hope something we’ve said here can help put your mind at ease a little bit. Our apologies if our affirmations are not helpful or useful at all. We’re wishing you and your whole system all the very best.

[dataframe]

the system and specifically how it preys upon intense emotional investment...

[cowbot-lumberjane]

im gonna go insane about this game if I dont talk to someone about it but my fucking head wont fucking let me

[cuteniarose]

PART 5 of my incorrect quotes shenanigans featuring six of our newest OCs, which I am happy I kept forgetting to post because that means I now get to use them to hopefully brighten up @katkastrofa’s day a little ^–^

[loderlied]

i’m soooo tired brain bad body bad romeo bad

[duncneydivorce]

If i were to ever adapt Quicksilver: No Surrender the ‘indefinite motion which separates himself from reality that’s metaphysically represented by a still grey landscape’ would just be the Backrooms.

[fell-court]

I tried and failed to make a pose with any semblance of dynamics, but that won't stop me managing to take a screenshot I'm happy with, eventually

I'm very glad I already have Lorenza's post-Endwalker outfit so set in stone ^-^

[kaleidiope]

My computer mouse broke a while ago, and I'm very upset I bought a new one, but I can't draw straight lines with it; for whatever reason it keeps arcing and curving which is a no-go for what I do. I need to have very steady lines for tuning and drawing, this new mouse doesn't allow for that, and I'm very upset. I can't do the only things that make me happy now :( Ever since my hand started shaking and my hearing's been messy, traditional art and melody making have kinda sucked,, and now you're telling me digital art and tuning is now not possible? I enjoy writing, but my cognitive abilities have been getting worse, too. So that's only an option sometimes Drawing was one of the few things I could do when shaky and unwell, and life took that from me now too via mouse death?! c'mon now