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skyward-floored · 4 months ago

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How do I react to a fic comment that basically said “I wish you’d made the ending more angsty. here I wrote one for you” and then did indeed write several paragraphs of what I would argue isn’t actually any angstier than what I wrote

#like I’m flattered I inspired them but also #um #it just feels. weird. to me.#to go onto somebody’s fic and say ‘here I wrote a better ending then what you wrote’#is it just me?? or am I overreacting like I always do

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realbeefman · 1 year ago

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stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!

wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end

#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh #some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2 #recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person #and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety #like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that #my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms #UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child #so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had #a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time #which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem!#its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it #and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome'#instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems!#anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now!#house md #hilson #greg house #james wilson #stacy warner

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ricksanchezbignaturals · 2 months ago

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is everyone on pinterest experiencing the internet for the first time? folks click on the most mild-ass stanchez fanart and react like they stumbled upon gore

#comments are like EW WTF IS THIS I GOTTA BLEACH MY EYES and it's like #a drawing of 2 old men holding hands #sorry if i've already posted about this i can't remember but it's killing me #i get it's probably mostly children but like i was reading some vile shit on wattpad in middle school and i kept those reactions between me #and the friend who was showing it to me #i hope i don't sound like im doing a 'kids these days' ik people have always overreacted to fandom stuff but i am pretty sure the hate #stanchez art gets is like pm just homophobia #ig crossover ships are cringe or whatever but it's also like as canon as a crossover ship with characters from different companies can be #idk whatever i gotta stop getting distracted by fanart every single time i go on pinterest for drawing references #stanchez #my nonsense

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buried-in-autumn-leaves · 10 months ago

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I know logically I am not any less ill because I lack a diagnosis but god does it make me feel overdramatic 💀

#my mystery leg problems flared up at work and i felt like i was overreacting #but like my friend kept doing shit for me bc i was limping #and i knew i needed the help but i felt like i shouldve been able to do it myself #it wasnt even that much to do #idk #i just wish i could do more and not constantly worry about getting fired because im weaker #non fandom #chronically ill #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #disabled #also idk if im allowed to call myself that LOWKEY IDKKK I THINK I AM BUT MY MOTHER ALWAYS GETS PISSED BC OF THE LACK OF DIAGNOSIS #but yk what i mean

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dogearedheart · 1 day ago

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I am glad that my ex best friend and I are talking again, but I still feel like we are still stuck

#it's just...#I'm not sure if I'm allowed to complain or if I'm overreacting #before we took a break... she was doing pretty bad and i thought i was there and i tried to help her whenever #and i always felt like she was unloading her stuff onto me #which is fair because i wanted her to do it i wanted to help her and take care of her #but i often felt like i wasn't allowed to do the same #and even after i was brave enough to tell her that... things didn't change #and i know I'm an idiot because i want her to ask me how i am and i want her to be there #but if she ever asked I'd say 'it's nothing'#god idk if that even makes sense #I'm just... i feel so selfish for asking for anything #and... is that how it's supposed to be? idk #txt.#personal

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kindheartedgummybears · 11 months ago

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you wanna know what??

I am

TIRED

of overmasculinized werewolves!!!!

I WANNA SEE A

WEREWOLF

WALKING AROUND IN A CVNTY LITTLE OUTFIT!!! WALKING THE STREETS!!!! DISEMBOWELING CREATURES!!!!

I WANNA SEE WEREWOLVES COVERED IN BLOOD AND GORE WHILE WEARING A SHORT SKIRT AND CROPTOP WITH HELLO KITTY ON IT!!!!

I WANNA SEE A WEREWOLF WALKING AROUND IN COTTAGE AND FAIRY AND PRINCESS CORE OUTFITS!!!!!! WITH A DEAD MANGLED RABBIT IN ITS MOUTH!!!!

AND MAKE THE WEREWOLF

D I S G U S T I N G ! ! !

#i am TIRED of seeing all these manly man werewolves that are all copy and paste white boys #I am TIRED of seeing all these woman werewolves being butch and masculine(also mostly white) or submissive!!!#I WANNA SEE SOME PLUS-SIZE WEREWOLVES I WANNA SEE SOME BLACK ASIAN LATINO MIDDLE EASTERN NON WHITE WEREWOLVES!!!!! THAT ARNT F3TIZIED!!!!!#I WANNA SEE A G I R L WEREWOLF THATS INTO “G I R L Y” THINGS!!!!! LET THE WEREWOLF BE A SLVT!!!!!#LET THE WEREWOLF BE IN THE TRADITIONAL CLOTHING OF ITS CULTURE!!!!#AND RIP AND TEAR AND MAUL AND CRY IN THE MORNING AFTER DOING ALL OF IT!!!! RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#no but fr can we werewolf fans like. actually sit down and reflect on the inherent misogyny of werewolves??? ESPECIALLY IN MEDIA #like. almost EVERY. SINGLE. WEREWOLF. in movies and shows and stuff are always a buff white man with anger and trust issues #and on the rare occasion that there *is* a woman werewolf shes always either over masculine or “weaker” than the “stronger alpha male” were #olf and only seen as a mate. AND shes always “calmer” and “maternal” and “calms the alpha male down🥺🥺”.AND she never has an actually good #werewolf form its always either wolf tail and ears or full wolf. or if it *is* actually a decent werewolf her transformation is offscreen.#like whyyyyyyyyyyyyy are people so scared to make women go ape shit?????? werewolves are NOT pretty creatures!!!! STOP MAKING THEM PRETTY!!#(lmao jk we know why they're so scared hashtag male gaze)#like yes. werewolves ARE pretty but not in the “dog show 30k$ poodle” kind of way i see some people making them(not that that's bad tho)#AND ALSO LIKE. ARE WE JUST GOING TO PRETEND WEREWOLVES LITERALLY WEREN'T MADE FOR WOMEN AND MINORITIES???#like. once a month someone turns into a raging bloodthirsty unstoppable beast driven by the moon and instincts with an insatiable hunger an #need to hide away from people due to them wanting to kill you or fearing you simply because you're a werewolf. they don't know you. they ju #t see you as a creature that might hurt them. constantly being hunted down to be killed simply for existing.#WHAT PART OF THAT SCREAMS: “ah yes. White man.”#IK theres going be people(men and pick mes) that see this post and think “this bitch is overreacting” and tbh idc.the girls who get it get #the girls who dont dont.#anyways shout out to Ginger Snaps trick or treat and every other piece of media or fan piece with disgusting non-f3tiszied woman/poc werewo #i love yall #*smooch smooch*#Werewolves #Werewolf #Lycanthrope #Lycanthropy #Werewolf AU #Yeah. Im tagging that too. I see yall.

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gaysforbyler · 4 months ago

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Rant post because you guys are my only friends, which is kind of embarrassing but the truth. You don’t need to read it i just wanted to get it out.

I hate complaining about my parents bc they’re actually the best parents in the world, but i think I’ve been trying so hard to put them in this perfect little box that i completely ignore how much they’ve fucked me up. So many adults in my life have bullied (emotionally abused?) me because of a mental disorder I have, and I’ve always left my parents off of that list because it really wasn’t that bad with them. They might have made a few offhanded comments, but it was definitely not on the same level at all. I would never classify them as abusive in any sense, but in doing so I ignore the fact that they hurt me in general. My dad just stood there while the “trusted” adults in my life made fun of me in front of dozens of people over and over again, and he did nothing to stop them. That hurts more than anything.

When i was thirteen my worst abuser came into my life. She was my coach, like most of the others, but i was old enough to where my parents didn’t have to watch over me. I went to practice alone, and she tormented me. She pulled me aside in front of my entire team, and scolded me for being disrespectful to her. She said that my actions were not the result of any mental disorder, because she was a psychologist and she would know best. (I wasn’t diagnosed with anything at the time. I thought i was fucking insane. I’m now diagnosed with selective mutism.) She threatened to kick me off the team if i didn’t fix it. I was scared shitless that she would go through with it, because I didn’t know how my parents would react. I thought they would blame me like they had before, so i spent the next year hiding what she did (and continued to do). I was so scared to go to practice that i nearly passed out every week when the time came around. Idk, i just feel like i should have been able to trust someone

I didn’t get diagnosed until i was fourteen. I wouldn’t have gotten diagnosed at all if my cousin hadn’t been diagnosed at the age of nine. It was too late for me. I watched her get better while I made no progress myself. In the past five years, I have only spent two in therapy, because they were too busy to find me a therapist. I can’t make friends, i can’t keep friends, i can’t get a job, i have breakdowns every time i go to the store, I’m wasting my entire life being scared of every human interaction, all because no one cared enough to figure out what the hell was wrong me. I’m never getting better. This is the rest of my life.

And i know i secluded myself from the age of eight. I used to spend all of my time alone as a kid, because it’s how i felt safest. I pushed my family away. But i still feel emotionally neglected. I can’t remember the last time i went to my parents with a problem. I don’t know if i ever have. Maybe that’s because of the anxiety, but i still feel like that’s their fault. I was a child. They could have pushed more, or done literally anything to research what was going on with me. That was their job, and now I’m facing the consequences

#anyway.#sorry. i just realized how severely fucked up i am because of this #me realizing that my parents dismissed my emotions as a kid has led me here #everything makes a lot more sense though #I’ve always been like ‘perfect parents. done nothing wrong. but why do i relate to every sign of having shitty parents?’#they aren’t shitty #it’s my fault and im totally overreacting #but. it was damaging #selective mutism #that’s a tag!!#It’s niche. i feel like a kid who likes indie music #‘what mental illness do you have?’ *debbie ryan hair tuck* ‘you’ve never heard of it’#im gonna tag this like a fic #emotional abuse #bad parenting #no :(#decent parenting #emotional neglect #no one is gonna read this

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phagodyke · 1 year ago

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okay can we have a new rule that if you're my friend and know I struggle with rsd from adhd + you're planning on hanging out with mutual friends but specifically aren't inviting me for whatever reason. Maybe Don't Tell Me About It

#id just rather not know man. even if I cant go or dont particularly want to im going to get stung by it and it rly sucks #its a TON of extra effort i have to put in to emotionally navigate that information without overreacting and making it an issue #wait actually maybe i do need to sit down with her and explain this more explicitly. bc she probably doesnt rly know abt it #even tho ive mentioned it shes rly terrible at reading ppl and i probably dont let on much abt it anyway bc im used to dealing w it #ugh. but also its rly embarrassing to talk abt and ill have to tread so carefully to make sure it doesnt get misinterpreted. hmm #but itd be worth it if she stopped so. ill give it some thought #it makes me feel so unreal sometimes bc i cant always tell if im justifiably upset or if im 'just overreacting' so i assume the latter-#most of the time to give myself space to work thru the emotion and minimise the damage i might cause if i AM just overreacting #but then sometimes later on i realise that it was justified but its too late to bring it back up and anyway ive worked through it #and idk. theres smth self disrespectful abt it all im tired of making space all the time and never taking any up myself #im not THAT upset rn like this is a v minor thing but still. might be time to start nipping this stuff in the bud #aaanyway #im procrastinating eating bc i cooked a nice meal but now im not in the mood to eat it 😭😭 but i gotta fuel up.....#ill find smth to watch hopefully thatll do the trick #yawns so loud bye for now #.diaries

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knifesxedge · 6 months ago

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imagine if my medication worked to stabilize my bipolar disorder.

#pi's personal #delete later #i WOULD be Worse without it like ping ponging up and down and suicidal 90% of the time instead of 20%#but i can dream of a world where the smallest thing doesn’t suddenly trigger a hairpin transition into a depressive episode.#that would be nice.#and it always is The Smallest Most Insignificant Things that trigger it #making me seem like a huge bitch and the world’s worst person #aw you’re sobbing hysterically because you couldn’t find parking in a downtown parking garage on a friday evening? literally anybody else #would just suck it up. nobody else would do that #now this is something i should be bringing up in therapy and not talking about to my 1000+ tumblr followers BUT #i have a theory that it’s always a straw that breaks the camel’s back situation.#things build up and i don’t feel like i’m really struggling that much with things or bottling them up but i Am. and then i hit a seemingly #arbitrary tipping point and it all comes combusting out like a shrapnel explosion #the fun thing about it is that because it seems so arbitrary i drive people away from me #because they think i’m severely overreacting to something very small #and also that i’m a Huge Fucking Bitch. just the worst kind of mean annoying lashing out person #everyyyyyything has to be about me. i always make it about me. i always cause a scene.#and rightfully so nobody then wants to be around me. or to take my side in a conflict.#because i am quite literally The Problem.#and it’s like i can’t even help it. it’s like i can’t control it. i just go into a state of Shutdown Overwhelm and suddenly things are #Too Much and i lash out at anything i can because it all goes spilling outward.#and THAT is why nobody who knows me well enough wants to be around me

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collideliketwostars · 11 months ago

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I worry this wound will never close and will continue to bleed

#I want to stop hurting so bad but im worried I never will stop hurting because of how much it still hurts and how it leaves me confused.#It’s been a few months and I still cry about it. My heart still aches and breaks when I think about it.#I thought they were someone who wouldn’t hurt me. but I guess I was fooled. I guess they always were that someone. Just hidden #it hurts to know that someone who I thought was a close friend and an ex got “together” in a way.#They aren’t exactly together together but together in a way where they’re kinda fucking #And that’s where it hurts. To know what they’re doing.#that was my closest friend. my actual soulmate I believed. and thats my ex. They got “together” a month later after we broke up.#after talking about it to a few people.. were they attracted to each other even when my ex and I were together? If so.. what was I?#And how could they do this so easily? Or am I just overthinking/overreacting?? I don’t know. I need someone to tell me #I look back when my friend & I were still friends. I think I started to lose them during the beginning of summer last year #I just tried believing I wasn’t and things would fall back into place soon. but they weren’t.#They just said one thing and left. Leaving me alone in the dark.#I don’t know.. I get it in some way? I was in a bad place and probably draining for them to stay but like #Idk.. I guess I can understand why they left me. but why get with someone who I dated and start.. fucking.#im so hurt by this. I’m worried this wound will never close and that I’ll be a wounded dog chained to the tree forever.

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enigma-the-anomaly · 9 months ago

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#vented in a discord server (not the tumblr moots one dw moots <3) about my mom barging into my room this morning #which really pissed me off because I feel like I have no privacy #and someone responded by saying I should be grateful that my parents care enough about me to walk into my room and check on me #which is. not what I needed to hear #idk I’m just always terrified that I’m too sensitive and that I’m having problems that aren’t actually problems #I know I’m privileged trust me but. that same thinking is what makes me deny my trauma #because others have it worse or whatever #like I am sure the person did not mean to insult me or be rude #and I do think I overreacted a little (mainly cuz mental illness and shit makes me annoying)#but. idk it rly hurt me #the last thing I needed was for someone to tell me that actually I should be grateful that I have no privacy #this person even started talking about how their room doesn’t even have a door #look idk what I’m saying I was just trying to vent rq and now I feel like an asshole #and self pity makes me feel even more like an asshole #I’m sorry I’m selfish and ungrateful. im sorry I overreact to everything #vent #ramble #god how does anyone stand me

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thedisablednaturalist · 1 year ago

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I don't know what to do about my partner.

I'm literally being abused at home. I am working my ass off to get out and am about to take on even more hours so I can afford to get out. I can barely handle part time. I was always taught never to rely too much on others because you can only trust yourself to save you. Others always have their own agendas. Yea this has messed up a lot of relationships (and I've been through a lot of therapy)

My partner has promised me that he will always be there for me. But when I need him the most he just. Says no. And it's making me feel selfish. He works less hours than I at an underpaying job. He says he wants to have free time to work on his art and relax for a bit after graduation. It's frustrating because I WOULD LOVE to be able to do that. I also recently graduated. But I can't. Because I'm trying to survive. And I never wanted to be a burden on others. But is it bad to say I'm extremely hurt by this? Y'all know how abusive my mom is. He also knows this and has witnessed it (not to it's full extent though). Many times I've called him in the midst of panic attacks. But he refuses to step up and help me. He wouldn't even LOOK into any of the job positions I found for him that pay as much or more than mine currently does. He says he can't work full time right now because it would interfere with his art. It feels like he doesn't care that I'm suffering. And I feel so selfish and I've tried to bring it up to him but then he gets all self deprecating and I have to comfort him.

He's letting his fear of leaving his mom's house overpower his worry for me. And it hurts. I've been trying not to burden him but he doesn't get that this is becoming an emergency. I've already had one recent accident where I was left on the floor immobilized and in pain. It's affecting my job too (late because my mom yells at me as I'm leaving for work).

What about my dreams? I'm putting my masters on hold to get myself out of here. I have no free time. I work and I sleep. If he at least tried to step up but failed I'd feel better.

He was supposed to come over and we were going to discuss it but he overslept again and won't be here for a couple hours.

#wrenfea.txt #ive never been so mad and hurt due to him #hes always been there for me except when things get too hard #like am i overreacting? am i being selfish?#i love him but i feel like i cant trust him to be there when i need him #how am i supposed to talk to him about this without anger #he does have unmedicated adhd btw and we are trying to get him a psychiatrist #but thats another thing he hasnt been trying to do #even though ive been helping him find one #im gonna ignore anyone who says lol just dump him #im tired of having to be the strong one #chronic disability #chronic pain #abuse #relationship problems

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strwbrymlkshake · 2 years ago

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Why can't I be satisfied with everything? It needs to be perfect to me and I can't accept anything otherwise :(

#mine #oh boy here we go. guy last post was about has been pretty cool and i got flustered around him a few times #but i feel bad bc. i need m o r e he isnt insane enough he isnt making me go absolutely crazy i want to be satisfied but im NOT im sorry #like its quite honestly the most attention acceptance etc ive gotten but its not ENOUGH he doesnt die whenever i send a selfie #im never satisfied WHY i have unrealistic expectations !!!! i hate my brain killing and violence and death etc #i get crushes on guys who want nothing to do with me but then when one actually wants me its not enough? what is wrong with me #thrill of the chase? i cant accept being loved? what is it brain. christ almighty. im not doing anything like deliberately yandere related #anymore im just being generally incomprehensibly mentally ill 🙄 still trying to find a therapist but idk how on earth ill explain that #ill update this post tomorrow with more insanity but for now i am the sleepy tired #// ok its now 3 days later i dont feel like making another post. i think i was just having a mental illness moment as always #because he does make me insane. hashtag girl. im trying to be the smartest and calculated i have ever been with a relationship in my life #like im thinkin about it so hard bro. the future n shit. how would this relationship go. im so scared ill do something wrong its preventing #me from doing things RIGHT. im sad becaude i flipped out today over even imagining him being upset with me a little #so i was really embarrassed and it put me in a weird mood for the rest of the night but he reassured me he doesnt hate me or want me to die #every one aaalways says theyre different. i can only hope this one is telling the truth. i dont know what ill do if he isnt.#well i need to stop whining about fictional scenarios and focus on the good stuff in reality. i get along with him very well and he #is very niceys to me :3 he doesnt think im fucking insane or stupid for overreacting. i feel very comfortable gossiping and talking w him #every long time blog viewer of mine reading this like ah shit here we go again #but thats what im here for. i guess. just have to keep doing this shit until something good finally happens to me romantically hngh #i feel so strange because i have wanted and yearned for a relationship but now that i actually could have one im like WAIT #I DIDNT THINK ID GET THIS FAR 💀💀💀 bruh. and he doesnt even think im stupid hes respectful to me he checks in on me all the time #like perhaps the only person to ever actually almost match my energy in a romantic sense. there was [redacted] i guess but he didnt love me #he listens to me talk about my problems he doesnt think i complain or overreact too much. all the ridiculous cringe shit i do #he doesnt mind it. its nice to be able to be myself. and im really proud of myself for not rushing into a relationship right away

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princeofyorkshire · 11 months ago

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me to my mom 4 years ago: i’m bisexual

my mom today: so you still don’t know if you like boys or girls?

#bruh when my therapist mentioned me not being heard she was not fucking lying #she remembers a complete different conversation than it actually was #and i’ll be honest i’m crying while i’m typing this cause i remember it all so perfectly it took me so long to finally have the courage to #say it and she just. heard whatever she wanted to hear #or part of her chose to remember whatever she wanted to remember #so how much of that acceptance was real?#this hit me so fucking hard and she doesn’t even understand why i’m upset #she just doesn’t fucking get it she was like don’t expect me to remember every detail of every conversation i have #well we are talking about me coming out in a household that used to be a little bit homophobic because it was the early 2000s #like it just hurts that she didn’t care enough to remember it #she understood whatever she wanted to cause i NEVER said i had doubts about my identity #or that i didn’t know if i liked boys OR girls #it was always both it was always the big word it was always bisexual #she was the first person i came out to by using that word #i remember the date i remember the situation i remember where we were #and she doesn’t even remember it right #like part of her didn’t want to accept it no matter how supportive she was/is #cause that’s the thing she IS supportive and i should be grateful and i really am but i can’t focus on that. not right now #this is so fucking depressing to me i might be overreacting a little bit yes sure but i don’t care this is how i’m feeling rn #fuck man i don’t know what to do with myself rn #effie talks to the moon

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halfdeadwallfly · 1 year ago

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i

my mom said she looked at my schedule (classes, rehearsal, etc), factored in sleep and an hour of personal free time, and told me that i have 82 hours of free time a week to work on homework and stuff

which

great

but also

i

#i get why #it's to tell me that when i say that i'm overwhelmed #i shouldn't be #because i have plenty of time #and if i'm struggling to get things done #it's because i'm managing my time poorly #which is fair #but i also seriously hate that she would literally calculate my time out like that #like i don't know #i'm probably overreacting #but for some reason it just feels like an invasion #not of privacy #like i can't exactly quantify what it is about this that's making me feel so shaken #it's not the actual time itself #because i know that i need to manage my time better #she already tells me that plenty #and also i'm the one living my life so i can see that already for myself #i just feel like i already am so on the hook for what i'm doing all the time #i love talking to my mom #but there's always a layer of judgement behind our conversations about what i'm doing and when and where and why #like it's not because i particularly have anything to hide #just that hovering feeling all the time #even though i live at school and i'm technically an adult #and i know i'm still basically a child and probably shouldn't expect that much like . autonomy? control? idk #i just feel like there's always a hand reaching in and pushing down on my life. like it's not entirely my life #i feel so self centered #but it's just such a weird twisty feeling #idk #boink

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strawberries-n-ships87 · 1 year ago

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All I ever do is what ppl ask of me and the second I say “no, sorry I can’t” ppl get mad at me

Like sorry but I can’t always do everything jfc

#i may be overreacting #but this is in response to coming in to work for someone two hours early bc the person has to drop their kid off #like you knew you had to drop him off why didn’t you plan ahead #and why am I always the one being asked to do shit like this for others #I say yes all the time but today i said no I couldn’t and they just got mad and ignored me #telling me to come in as soon as possible #anywayyyys lol #vent #random

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