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[waterfallofspace]

helllooooo my dear 🥰

🎧🍐💌 !!

Helloo <33 Happy to see you here~ ^-^ Under cut bc they get a bit long haha~ I'm so sorry-

🎧 last song you listened too

I'm listening to music AS I write this, so currently playing is 'No Surprises' by Radiohead~ Just shuffling my liked songs and skipping till something hits haha~

🍐 if you could make one character real, who would it be

This question makes me feel even more insane then usual. My god... I mean.... predictable but... G- Gojo... but... but also so many more... why just one 😭 I'd have to go with Gojo because I just... that man needs to be held for his mental health and I need to hold him for mine <3

💌 why did you start this blog?

LONG ANSWER WARNING:

So, I actually didn't interact with anyone with the kink for a veryyyy long time, it was only in... maybe 2019? that I made a kink email for the first time, and actually signed up for some stuff. Still, until I found anime, I didn't really interact with anyone. I made this blog specifically to interact in kink communities, but at the time of creation, I didn't know what to expect, or where I'd fit.

Then I got into anime, and found you guys in this lovely little community, and suddenly for the first time I had friends who not only felt as mentally ill about characters as I did, but also had the kink, so we got to discuss that side of myself that I had been so scared/ashamed of for as long as I can remember~~

So uh, to sum up, I made it to push myself out of my comfort zone, and maybe (in my wildest dreams) meet a few friends, and then I found so much more then I could have hoped for with you wonderful people <3333

[taegularities]

Hello lovely Rid 💕💕💕

First of all...

okaaaaay 👀👀👀 I don't like seeing sad Jungkook (or sad Rid for that matter) but short hair Jungkook makes me crazy, so I'll take it.

Also I wanted to ramble about who I'm a bigger simp for, since you posted that cruel poll making me choose.

So basically, I'm really really obsessed with c&f Jungkook and I can't even pinpoint the exact reason why? I've said this before but I've never been more whipped for a man who I don't fully trust so quickly. There was just something about him that had me from the beginning, even with his very questionable looking intentions. So I'm a big simp for him in a more base level way? Like it's almost involuntary lmaooo.

And then for cmi Jungkook... I mean he has my whole heart. He might be my favourite fictional Jungkook ever actually... Literally all sides of him (that we've seen so far) I'm in love with. Just writing about him right now has me going 🥺🥺🥺. I'm ready to protect him at all costs and he also makes me crazy (in all kinds of ways). maybe i'll save the love letter for him for the cmi anniversary i mean what?

I love both of them a lot though. Thinking about both the c&f epilogue and cmi8 gives me emotional whiplash.

Other than that though, how are you doing, Rid? I saw that you're feeling a little sick and once again I'm ready with all the virtual blankets and tea and hugs since I can't take care of you irl 🥺 I hope you get through it very very soon!!!

I've been feeling very emotional and a little melancholic myself recently. But today I listened to d day and it actually made me feel loads better, Yoongi just always knows how to comfort 🥺 I also got started on a paper that I'm excited to write, for which I received unexpectedly good feedback while I was still at the planning stages! Trying to focus on the good things and set up a good base for when my exam season starts.

I hope you feel better soon Rid, sending you all of my love 💞💞💞

IVI LOL, you really do point out the subtlest things !!! did not think anyone would catch that haircut bit, but look at you :'))

i think you're a simp for c&f jk bc you know a good man when you see one... despite his initially questionable behaviour, he truly is a sweet bean who tends to act monstrous (in bed) at times lmao so i understand the obsession... :')

and i know, cmi jk is just 😭 thank you for loving him so much, tbh he might be my fav jk i've written so far too :(( my lil baby :(( and i can't wait for his return :((((

thank you, ivi !! :') i hate that this happens, idk why i get colds so frequently ?? like i spent most of yesterday and today napping and it sucksss lmao i want to be productive, too :') but i'll take the blankets i love you 🤍🥺 so happy you've been well !! despite the melancholy... i get that feeling. there must be something in the air, bc everyone's been very emotional these days. i'm so glad you have stuff you can look forward to, though, and i hope that mood stays bc you deserve it 💕

(also i've been wanting to say this — i know you said i don't need to be, but im so sorry for being slow with answering at times... you send such thoughtful and incredibly kind thoughts and then i feel bad. but i want to answer just as thoughtfully and the current time has been beating my ass lmao sorry again but i love you rambling and will always get to it bc i love you so fkn much 😭🥺🤍)

[entishramblings]

Hi Vaya! This isn't really an Ask, but I just wanted to thank you for the very sweet review you left on my "Dandelions" fic, plus the extra shoutout you gave by recommending me as a one-shot writer. I have been been dangerously close to burning out this week, and your kindness really helped make me feel better. <3 I know you do this for a lot of other writers and that makes you a Tumblr hero and gem.

Your Legolas long-fic ("Innocence") has been on my to-read list for a long time now, but I finally just went ahead and bookmarked it on Ao3 to improve my resolve to get around to it. XD I doubt this is the first time anyone has told you this, but your writing style is wonderful! Even more impressive is the sheer quantity of content you have on your blog, especially considering the RL responsibilities you have.

I hope you have a great vacation and that your family doesn't give you too much drama and grief!

@sotwk YOU are the sweetest human being omlllll

This was such a wholesome ask to receive—I needed this lovely message, my friend!

First things first, I am sending good vibes and hugs your way to support the burn out!! Make some tea, get in some bed, and cuddle something soft 🍵🛌💗

Second things second, oh Valar!! I’m so glad that my little book review made your day better! It makes my soul shimmer with happiness to hear that my little message helped.

I try my best to give good feedback for fic authors bc I understand how much work it is to create content!! I am glad to hear that people value that as much as I!

Also take your time in getting to reading my fics!!! NO WORRIESSSS!!! You also have so many irl things going on, don’t push yourself!! You deserve rest time!!! But I appreciate you so muchhhhh <3 also omg my heart—you think my writing is good??!?!! ☺️🫣💨🪭

sending lembas bread your way 😉

[miyasann]

Pls I just thought you postponed answering it then forgot 💔 but no tumblr just wants to destroy our friendship (hope this one actually gets to you, I'm writing it as a letter and sending it by owl to make sure)

I was just flattered that you called my alias pretty and that it suits me because then, I too would be pretty- shocking!

But anyways, I've been studying for my finals and my god it's taking forever; I've still got 2 more weeks to spend studying and then another to get them over with. But I'm still hanging in there!! Think I'll be dying by the time I actually have to do them though.

And my birthday was a while ago so I've got a cake and flowers and some really nice scented products to keep me hanging in there, and I'm watching gilmore girls for a drop of fun in my life.

That's all I've been getting up to! What about you!!

i could never forget about answering an ask from you :( the owl was the fluffiest ive ever seen thank you for sending her 😌

and yes?? why wouldn't you believe you're pretty???? only the prettiest aliases for the prettiest girls 😋😋

omg finals 😭😭 yeahh i totally get you grrr it's nice to have time to study but at some point you just want to get it over with 🫠🫠 don't forget to take breaks!!! sending you a million hugs >.<

and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY??? sobsob im so sorry i meant to drop by to wish you but i got super busy over the holidays 😭 cake and flowers and nicely scented things sound absolutely perfect it's what you deserve !!!! did you have fun celebrating that day!! hope this isnt a crime but.. ive never watched gilmore girls HDJSHAHAH

THANKYOU FOR THE LIFE UPDATE! ive been more busy with irl stuff 🥹 i think half my break was spent training hahaha bc we had grading early in dec and then after that we had our training camp! and ive also just been hunting down my friends bc it's so hard to find time to hang out once the sem starts 🥲 but it has been lots of fun spending time with family and friends (old and new hehe) ive also just been playing genshin a lot oops HAHA am hoping to clean up my desk too bc school starts in about a week 🥲

ANW I HOPE YOU HAD A GOOD HOLIDAYS AND THAT YOUR BIRTHDAY WAS AS LOVELY AS YOU!!! ilyily im wishing you only the best this 2023!!

[windbornevioletta]

Poly WangXian x Reader Headcanons

Okay so I have a lot of hcs and prompts written in a notebook but it's taking me a bit of time to transfer them onto my laptop to post them. Also there are a lot of y'alls in these because I use it a lot irl (bc of where I live)

o More likely that y’all met after Wei Wuxian is summoned into Mo Xuanyu’s body

§ I don’t really wanna insert reader into the Cloud Recesses flashback thing because that whole bit was a point of personal development for both Lan Wangji and Wei Wuxian

o Could have met Lan Wangji during the 13 years following WW’s death and become another parental figure to Sizhui.

§ Angst Alert: You like LZ romantically but you know he probably doesn’t like you in that sense bc he told you about WWX. What you don’t know is that he is conflicted because he does like you romantically, but he still loves WWX and is mourning.

o You could have met WWX at Mo Manor and travel with him as y’all interact with the juniors who quickly become attached. (could also travel with LZ either way y’all meet)

§ WWX has a lot of faith in you because he didn’t know you in his first life so he feels safe as he is trying to avoid anyone who could recognize him (also bc man needs a hug and a warm presence in his life)

§ Trust increases as he begins to wonder about settling on a life of traveling with you

· UNTIL Y’ALL SEE LAN ZHAN, and you tease him for his blatant crush but dense boi thinks you mean his crush on you lmao.

o Canon ensues with you being a grounding presence around the two and not letting anymore miscommunication happen because man that stuff is annoying

o Reactions to your marriage:

§ Lan Qiren is begrudging because he doesn’t have the best opinion of WWX and he kinda hoped LZ would marry you as the “better” influence.

§ Lan Xichen is pleasantly surprised because LZ got the man of his dreams, but they also included another (you!) which means his brother will never be alone again.

· Also you and Xichen get along great and have weekly discussions of anything and everything

§ Sizhui is like “ I have TWO dads AND a MOM! Or I have THREE dads!”

· We love him in this house

§ The other juniors are happy that no one was forced to choose

o ALRIGHT FLUFF TIME!!!!

o WWX is sandwiched between you and LZ when y’all sleep because either you and LZ sleep like logs and stop WWX from accidently hurting himself or you and WWX move a lot and this stops y’all from pushing LZ of the bed.

§ WWX just deserves all the love but occasionally y’all will switch who is in the middle

o Morning Routines

§ If you are an early riser:

· Morning tea/breakfast with Lan Zhan

· Meditation or morning walks together to get fresh air

· Just comfortable silence or quiet chats while holding hands

· Gentle and sweet kisses before you start the day

· Comparing day schedules while you prepare breakfast for Wei Wuxian to see when your paths cross for a quick kiss or two

§ If you are a night owl or late riser:

· Holding onto Wei Wuxian when you wake up

· Comedic shenanigans ensue when trying to pull him out of bed in the morning

· Late night talks that end with y’all asleep mid-sentence

· Attentively listening to his invention talks (whether you really understand them or not) and hugging him when he is brainstorming

· Tired cuddles

· Success kisses

o Throughout the day:

o Sneaky smiles shared during mealtimes in the Cloud Recesses and quiet chatter when its just you, WWX, and LZ

o Lots of spoken and unspoken “I love yous” (it’s kinda sickening how sweet y’all are)

o SHARING LITTLE MELODIES THAT YOU CAME UP WITH FOR EACH OTHER

o Those two are prone to overworking so it’s more than likely that you plan some days off to spend together and/or with the juniors.

o You and LZ fighting anyone who talks crap about Wei Wuxian or your relationship

o If you speak another language, then you definitely sing songs to them in it and give them foreign petnames

o If you are non-chinese (I’m Mexican-American), then I assure you that they would definitely try to integrate parts of your culture into your life if you do the same with them

[lsd-astronaut]

SO i haven't written in a whole two months. like wth???? anyways, i know i'm supposed to be studying rn but you see, i've been doing so for 6 hours so i thought that i deserved a rest. So in order not to be rusty af for not having done this in ages, i'm writing a lil scenario with ur fav (and mine ofc) murderous bb💕💕💕💕

this is gonna be fluffy af even tho i write angst better bc i like to make myself suffer in my free time and everyone needs fluff in their lives once in a while

So, imagine you've had a shitty day at work (or college, it's your choice really). You feel like you've been ran over by a car multiple times (yikes)

As if you hadn't suffered enough during the day, when it's time to come back home, God decides to play some tricks on you by making you miss your bus and you having to walk home for like an hour bc it was the last bus too

When you arrive to the familiar warmth of your house, you see that it's empty and the lights are off

Which means something horrible: Roger hasn't come from studio yet! (insert a pic of The Scream by Munch)

This automatically puts you in a much worse mood if that was even possible

So you just throw your coat in the hanger by the front door and your shoes haphazardly on the floor

Then, you walk to your room and just... let yourself fall down on the bed (absolute mood)

You wrap yourself with the blankets and stay with your eyes fixated on the wall, and your back to the bedroom door

You don't sleep bc you're just frustrated af and understandably so

Ten minutes later, the front door opens and Roger comes in

"Y/N, I'm home!!", he screams yknow like it isn't almost midnight and your neighbours are surely going to bed rn

He gets confused when you don't scream at him to shut up answer

He steps forward but almost trips with one of your shoes which immediately makes him be concerned bc you're a tidy person (act like you are even if you aren't irl)

So he goes to your room as every light is off and he figures out you're sleeping

But when he comes in the room and sees you lying on the bed, he immediately knows you aren't asleep bc you see, he knows how your breathing sounds when you're asleep

He carefully approaches you and sits down on the edge of the bed

Meanwhile, you feel the bed sinking a bit but try to ignore it the best you can

Roger leans down and softly kisses your cheek after brushing your hair away from your face

"How are you, my love?", he whispers

You, however, stay silent

Roger smiles sadly and rubs your arm and cheek with his fingers (he is still in a sitting position)

"Rough day?", he hums against your hair as he presses soft kisses

You bite your lip as not to show any emotion

Roger, though, keeps caressing you like you're the most precious thing in the world

"You know I love you so so much, don't you? I couldn't imagine a life without you by my side", he smiles against your skin as he kisses your face again and again.

That, for you, is the breaking point

You start to softly cry and you turn around to hug Roger's waist who is still sitting on the bed

He holds your head close as he strokes your hair and your back, and he shushes you

"It's okay, my darling. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere."

Finally, after some minutes, you stop crying and move yourself to a sitting position

You hold your forehead and Roger chuckles when you pout "Great, my head hurts now."

"Then I'll give you a painkiller and some water, but you need to eat something. I'll prepare you dinner.", he says before kissing your forehead

He gets up from the bed and beckons you with him by extending his hand towards you

You happily take it and 1. He pulls you in a hug and 2. He accompanies you to the kitchen

As you're sitting in the table, he cooks you two dinner (imagine he can actually cook) and makes you laugh and forget about your shitty day by telling you about what they've been up to in the studio

hehe oh god i hope you guys liked this as much as i did when i got the idea😩😩😩💕

[ekanatsume]

☠️☠️☠️ i cant copy paste so ill list it down.

1. Before our spring -jonghyun

This was the last song in his entire musical career and his life. I can't describe it really. I think a few texts arent enough for me to describe it. It's my only favourite song and it'll hold that position till i die. Even tho he's not here with us anymore, that song feels like he's still here with us really. The "then then then..." at the end kinda feels like a comma or a semicolon and not a fullstop. I think there are some things that you just can't get over with no matter how much time passes. So yeah, this.

2. Love poem -iu

I listen to this song everytime things get hard. This song doesn't really go "OH ITLL GET BETTER. ITLL BE COMPLETELY FINE" no. It says "I'll be there. Till this dark night ends". Sometimes- no, most of the times you don't really need advice or anything. You just need someone to just sit there with you when it feels like it's too hard to continue alone. This song is the perfect depiction of that. I dont listen to it that much bc it never fails to make me cry.

3. Promise -jimin

I love this song. Its just someone is giving you a hug irl. Like no cap. This is literally a hug in song form. I heard that jimin wrote it for himself to cheer himself up even when things get tough, to promise to continue on, and thats why it makes it even better for me. Even tho theres obviously the language barrier but i cant help feel what he's singing when i hear it.

4. Adult -sondia

☠️ ayo why is it all comfort songs. I say no description needed for this. It is what it is. Sondia's songs are always comforting in a way. It's not like Adult is very comforting but i think we all need to feel like "oh it's not just me who's going through it. I'm not alone in this" moment. This is the song for that moment for me.

5. To my youth -bol4

☠️☠️☠️ i have no idea how many times ive heard this song on repeat trying to internalize the meaning of it while crying my guts out. The lyrics are just 😭😭😭😭🫶 "but still maybe i could be a bright light in this world" the lyrics (im having goosebumps atp) make me bawl and hopeful at the same time.

6. Cruel summer -taylor swift

This is like that one song that hypes me up no matter how i be 😭🫶 i LOVE this song. Cant believe its not that popular like blank space or love story. It deserves more fame i tell you

7. Coin -iu

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THE RAP. PLEASE. this is like my goto motivation song.

8. Daylight -taylor swift

I dont know but like i adore this song too much. This song is like the personified ver of love. Idk why but it just resonates with me a lot? Especially the last part "you are what you love" 🫶🫶🫶 oh boy i could write an essay about this

9. Autumn morning -iu

Nah bro this is like the perfect song to hear in the morning. I used to listen to this every morning when i woke up. Its such a lovely song.

10. End of a day -jonghyun

I used to listen to this every night without fail on repeat and conclude my day. Its such a comforting song. I absolutely love it.

Okay that settles it! Thenks for the tagggg

thanks so much for tagging me @xo-lesserafim!

rules✨

List 5-10 songs that are your long time fav or

you’ve been listening too!

or both !

( you can also give you reasoning why if you want!)

and to @ people !!

MY SONGS

1. New Me - wjsn

i love love love this song. it's such a bop, seola wrote it, and the rapping/singing call/response that exy and bona do is amazing

2. always - yoon mirae

i started watching descendants of the sun recently and this is on the ost, and it's so gorgeous love it

3. fearnot - le sserafim

this is one of my fav songs ever - the lyrics, the melody, the vocals. it's like being wrapped in a warm blanket by le sserafim!!

4. cruel - zayn and snakehips

i love this song so much - i used to play it on loop while studying for bio. it's such a good song, amazing melody, and i love the rhyming. zayn is one of my fav western artists and his vocals on this...

5. faded - alan walker

this is a nostalgic one for me - once we went on vacay and my brother kept putting this song on so now i associate it with my family, my brother, and iceland (where we went)

6. joan of arc - little mix

this is such a great song! i love the chanting, and the repetition of "i put my own rock on my hand". i also love perrie's melodic parts - "man i feel like cleopatra". bop. go listen to little mix yall

7. shout out - enha

i can't talk about my fav songs without mentioning this one. where do i even start?! the melody, the vocals, the lyrics... i also love that jake helped write it, and i love watching videos of them performing it live for us!!

8. moon - jin

another all time favorite. i just love the lyrics - jin saying he'll orbit army. such a warm, feel-good song

9. run away - txt

i keep saying this about every song lol but another all time fav of mine. i don't even think i need to explain this one bc everyone with taste will agree lol

10. home - one direction

i love the vocals in this song, and how vulnerable their voices sound. like the part where harry goes "i was stumbling looking in the dark" it's just so raw and emotional and i'm a sucker for that kind of music.

tagging @vizstars @jayjongsungparkgf03, @hello-flosch and @mrsandypants + anyone else who wants to join!!

[nemuitoka]

What are your favorte jshk fanfics? also where do you like reading them the most?

Hi Anon!!! today is the day I can finally answer this question😈 ahaha you know how much I enjoy making fic recs so 👀 Let’s go!!!

To answer your second question first, I like reading them on AO3 the most! Mostly because I get almost unlimited number of characters to rant in the comment section........... 😆but also the tagging system is very helpful.

Okay, now to the fun part of this ask😏

You said JSHK, but I mostly read Hananene ones so all of my favs include that pairing... as  I already did a fic rec here of my favs, this list will continue that one, so please check that one first hehe ((I apologize in advance..., I would love for people to recommend me some mitsukou ones tbh... I’m really lost when it comes to other pairings orz)) 

If I’m completely honest with you anon-san, my favorite JSHK fic right now is the one Roxanne ( @istoleyourboat )  wrote based of my art and her snippet:

Star-Crossed and Falling- Where Stars Go to Die by lilaflo

Hanako is Princess Nene’s personal knight 👀. A tale of forbidden love. They slowly fall in love as they exchange a series of gifts, one that includes a pair of matching earrings that remind them of their love when they’re apart. Also, jelly Hanako of Nene’s suitors😏... Oh, but nothing lasts forever and those sweet moments will come to an end when they have to face their cruel reality, in this world, they don’t get to choose neither their battles or the ones they love.

Now more of Roxanne, because I seriously enjoy her work so much (I’m sure everyone knows by now lmao sdkj) 

Night of the Phantom King by lilaflo 

This one is a spooky one. Nene’s regret for never realizing who she truly loves takes her to mourn her deceased friend Amane and cry on his grave in a Halloween night, then suddenly the Phantom King comes to take her away👀 & he looks suspiciously familiar... Beautiful world building btw, also the ending is just, excellent. 

12 Year Romance by lilaflo

Amane meets Nene at the Tanabata festival, she’s older than him, but he falls for her instantly, fast forward, Amane is now in middle school, he’s a troublemaker, & gets constantly into fights, but he swears the new school nurse looks familiar... he then realizes it’s her and thinks it must be fate!!!... This one hits close to home bc I’ve been in this situation irl, so I can confirm all of Nene’s struggles are real (and ofc how a love with an age gap should be handled the correct way, this fic really teaches you many life lessons hahaha) 

took a sip then another sip, then you turned and said to me by chivalrousamour 

This autor has a bunch of good JSHK fics!! I recommend you check their AO3 out, bec you may find something you like for sure! But, this is my absolute fav from them. Nene is a mangaka, celebrating the finishing of her long serialized manga, while Amane is a delivery boy who happens to find her in a very questionable state in her house👀 (it’s all family friendly ofc, anon, I’m not a slimy pervert like some ghost boy)

Maid for Each Other by corologs ( @corologs )

Courtney has this amazing College AU collection series that I encourage you to check out!!! But Maid for each other is my fav!!! So it’s the Yugi twins birthday, and it’s Tsukasa’s turn to choose where they go to celebrate it... you can already tell where this is going... (let the chaos begin) & as the title said, it involves maids!!! (it has Kaicho wa maid sama vibes if you liked that anime~~)

If I Could Tell Her by corologs

What if the picture perfect arc plan was successful??? Well, this fic explores this idea, and it’s very interesting to read. I like how Amane and Hanako are two separate people here.

the horizon tries but it’s just not as kind on the eyes by sincerelyand ( @sunlightinourheadlights ) 

(Oh my sweet Karen, she writes such good fics, so go check her AO3 out as well!!) Amane and Yashiro are friends that share an apartment (& they were roommates-- OMG they were roommates), even if Amane has its complains, because Nene can be a handful sometimes (and in denial of her true feelings as always, are we even surprised at this point?) he loves her dearly anyways😭.

for real, this time by sourlemoncandy  ( @sour-lemon-candy )

Did somebody say fake dating AU?????? Because hell yeah I did asajj I loved reading this so much!! Nene and Amane are childhood friends, and Nene overhears some girls talking about Amane and how one of them plans to ask him out... but she senses these girls are up to no good so she... well, you gotta read it to find out more~~ it’s no fun If I tell ya everything hehe... so go go go!!

lemon cream by sourlemoncandy

Amane and Nene, just two good friends having a road trip and sharing donuts... what could go wrong??  😏 seriously, I loved this fic so much!! Instant fav! Also makes me wanna try some good sweet donuts...

Trip Down Memory Lane by insipidenvy ( @insipidenvy )

This fic is so sweet. I have such a huge attachment to it, because I read it when I really needed some fluff in my life hahaha. It’s sort of a collection of memories between Amane and Yashiro’s relationship over the years. So heartwarming... if you need the fluffs you’ll enjoy this very much!!

The Radish Princess and the Toilet Prince by insipidenvy

This is my favorite fic from insipidenvy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know how I am a slut for Royalty AUs so that’s why!!!!! Also Toilet Prince!! hahahaha such a good nickname lmao. I love how they bond over their insecurities, it’s very relatable tbh. 

Between Wind and Water by WingSongHalo  ( @wingsonghalo )

My beautiful Wing always delivering the good Hananene content, as she should!! This fic is so fun to read!! I laughed so hard at Nene and Hanako being awkward with each other!!! So you know how Hanako is super clingy with Nene, he’s always touching & hugging her, but this time something weird happens and he’s so distant~~ Nene doesn’t want to admit it at first, but she misses his clingy ghost boy~~ you’ll have a good time reading this for sure!  

The Monster's Bride by Hammsters ( @uglierdaikon )

Have you heard about the myth of Cupid and Psyche? Well this fic rewrites it in a very Hananene way <3 hehe I loved it so much (as I’m a huge fan of mythology~) To sum it up, Nene is fated to marry a monster that lives in the mountains so she’s devastated... to her surprise, her husband is far from what she expected... she only had one rule to obey and well... we all know how reckless Nene is so... you go find out what happens next now!! hehehe

Morning Reflections by FalalalaLa  ( @miss-sternennacht )

So you’ve heard of Hanako watching Nene sleep, but what about Nene watching Amane sleep???!! this fic offers you this and so much more fluff <3 Also Nene remembering how they met and how their relationship evolved during the years, aww <3 

Cursed Coin by DaikonSenpai  ( @daikonsenpai )

There’s a school dance, Yashiro’s supposed to be dancing with Kou (since she can’t go with Hanako, which causes him to be jelly~~ and bitter), but she loses a coin Aoi gave her for good luck so she goes out and searches for it on the last place she saw it, the school fountain. Suddenly Hanako spots her, what’s she doing outside??? is she drunk or something?? what happens next you may find out when you read it~~~

Between Love and Hope by Baronesscmd (SweeterThanYourDarkestSin) ( @baronesscmd )

Oh to be Nene and get to sleep between the Yugi twins... God really has favorites uh... ISTG, this collection of fics is so cute. I love how Nene loves the twins so much in this AU, they have their little cute family. She ofc is in love with Amane, but their relationship with Tsukasa is so tender... it’s mostly this trio having fluffy moments together to heal your soul... if you need some, you’ll get it here for sure hahaha. 

Ghost of You (And All the Futures We've Forgotten) by Indigo_Floof  milkteamoon  ( @indigosienna , @spades-queen )

So anon you may have been wondering, well this bitch likes fluff only???? how about some angst for a change, uh? DAMN, OKAY THEN, here you have some angst to rip your soul out and wish you never sent me this ask in the 1st place, bec of the emotional damage this fic will leave you sdajjsa, also if you liked “Erased”, you’ll love this fic too! 

Hanako of the Opera by zxrstan

Finally, but not less important, me being annoying about Hanako of the Opera & POTO AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!! This fic is based of the AU Aidairo created mostly, it’s really fun to read if you didn’t get much of what was happening during the Hanako of the Opera event, it has a nice ending also! very satisfying I must say. 

AAAAND THIS IS THE END OF MY ALL TIME FAV LIST OMG;;;; Kudos for me for searching through all my damn AO3 and Google Chrome history (from both my PC and phone, since I am a FOOL and forgot my AO3 password so I read a lot of these in the past as a guest before recovering my password LMAO, please be patient with me omg, and also if you see me bookmarking them now, you know why 😭) 

Kudos to all of my writer homies as well, I love and appreciate all of you so much!! you have no idea! 💖

I hope you find this list useful, anon!! Thank you for sending me this ask and have a wonderful day! 

Ps. Please everyone feel free to add more fics to this list if you want! this is all my personal picks, but I’m aware there are a lot more fics that I haven’t read and deserve as much recognition as the ones I listed!

[sugasugawarau]

Happy New Years to you all! I’m a bit late in writing and posting this but I wanted to take the time to properly thank everyone who follows me for sticking with me :) I know I’m not the most active when it comes to writing or even making shitposts so I hope you know it means the world to me that you enjoy my content. While just because 2020 has ended does not mean things will get automatically better, know that you have the capability of making a difference both for yourself and others. I’m proud of you for coming this far and please remember to take care of yourself when you can <3

And I’d also like to take the time to thank some individuals who have made a huge impact on my tumblr experience and have made this year better under the cut! Be warned there are many words and also sorry for any typos I wrote this at 3am :D

I’m going to start off with a few major lo$ers (joking) aka my irl friends that have tumblr

@kbh-ton, @ashr00m, @kae-and-the-lost-dragons

Okay the fact that you all follow me here is EMBARRASSING because you have to endure perceiving me from a sorta totally different perspective but surprise hi,, ily 😹 I know ⅔ of you don’t even use tumblr that often but I digress!! Thank you?? Like I’m not kidding when I say I don’t know where I would be without any of you guys. Stinky pp Paul, you’ve been here with @/sugasugawarau since the beginning-ish and have always been supportive of my absolutely stupid ideas. And my sons AKA get cucked squad, this is going to be ultra sappy but I hope you know how proud I am of the both of you (but no thanks to one of you for teaching us about nussies 😕). Thank you all for tolerating my overthinking ass as well as whenever I get high from a lack of sleep and just in general bc I’m a constant mess of a human being; you are all the best people ik stfu I don’t take criticism.

To my first ever tumblr mutual, @tendouthighs

Hi Codie!! Ik we haven’t talked a lot lately but just know that I appreciate your endless kindness and how you’re able to keep up with my smooth brain antics in dms so much. You’re so funny and I’ll treasure all the jokes and headcanons we’ve made, I hope you’re taking care and doing well heading into 2021! 💖💕

To wife Lyra @yacoka

Miss… Thank you sm for dropping by my inbox all the way back in like June/July because otherwise I don’t think I’d ever have gotten the courage to dm you LOL. It would be an understatement to say that you’re the kindest and most easygoing person I’ve met on here - I hope you know how grateful I am to have met you and read your works (and for lending me your knives and just being so?? supportive??? truly idk how you do it but ily 😣❣️)

To wife Joy @lesbians4yaku

Joy!!! I really don’t know where to start because you’re just so amazing?? And we’ve been mutuals for as long as I can remember ajdjfka I’m just,, so glad to have met you and I hope you know how much I love seeing you on the dash, whether it’s being able to marvel at the genius that is your mind whenever you make a haikyuu shitpost or reading your tags. You always make me laugh and smile and I am wishing you both of those things in 2021 bc u deserve the best, love u 🤍🤍🤍

To Arell, the sweetest soul I know @g4nyu

You have a natural talent for being able to make me both soft ™ and also laugh as freely as Tanaka and Nishinoya with your relatable quips and jokes and I adore you for it. (Also.. can we talk about how absolutely gorgeous your writing is I will nvr shut up.. also also I am here whenever u need to be enabled to rave abt any and all Haikyuu or Genshin characters <33) ily and ty for being my mutual, I feel v lucky to have u in my life 🥺

To Cal, a goddess in her own right @heyhinata

Ma’am the way ily?? You’re beautiful inside and out and I have sm fun talking to you. Being able to call you a mutual and read your works is a blessing and I’m so glad we started talking in dms ajsjfja I’ll never forget plotting smaus with you to raving abt Genshin and making fun of B*n Sh*piro, hidden muppet 😍 Wishing you the best in all that you do!

To Rae, fellow Tim Hortona enthusiast @mehreya

Hi bae I just want to start off with a big thank you. You’re such a wonderful and invigorating person to talk to and I always feel at ease talking with you, and seeing you on my dash with your interactions with others is always a light in my day. And for u I will embrace the Oikawa kinnie in me any day <33 ly and have an amazing New Years 🥰

To Ria, the absolute best and only Ria ik @kumaoi

Omg hi sexc 😍 ahdjkfka idk if you’ll see this but hey,, fun fact even if we don’t talk as much as we used to I still love u sm and I hope you’re staying healthy and happy !! Meeting you was and still is one of the best highlights of my tumblr journey and I’ll always be grateful for your existence

To Gracie, writer of all things beautiful @sneezefiction

Gracie!! I hope you’ve been doing well since the last time we talked and that you’re enjoying the New Years to the fullest <3 You were also one of my earliest mutuals and I just wanted to say thank you for all the kindness you’ve shown me and for writing and sharing your works on tumblr. Sending love ! 💖

To the one and only angel, Yas @whipped-cream-writings

Yas bb we only became mutuals rather recently but I have sm love for you 🥺 Your kindness inspires me and your fics are the cutest things ever (pls,,, teach me how to write fluff ahfjfkka) Ilysm and I want to remind you that you’re so wonderful and amazing, sending you all my love for the upcoming year ahead !!

To Kay, who I will protect with my life @kayzume

Kay I don’t know how to even begin to put in words how glad I am to have met you in Lyra’s server,, you’re so sweet and you make me feel safe every time we talk. (Also THE DRAWINGS u made and shared with us,,, have I alr said ily bc ily and all that you do.) I know we haven’t chatted in a while but I’m sending you all my hugs and kithes always 💕💕💖

To mutuals I’ve interacted with some time during these months on tumblr and cherish a whole lot @taiyaaki @kageyuji @sophiawithstars @buddh-art @sa-suga @baeshijima @cherryonigiri @catharsisbabey @tris-does-stuff @tetsurolls @come-on-shitty-boys @iwas-angel @star-puff @voxamcris @azucanela @heartjime @miyafeuille @suikazura @deerixiie @hajiimes @skateme2yokohama @aliteama @yuujiya @omijime and many others but I think I hit the tagging limitajdhfka

Hi ily. You’re all such inspiring and talented individuals and while we may not interact frequently or know each other as well I wish we cld be ajfjjfa but I adore you all and I wish you an amazing New Year 🥺💖 (and if you ever want to talk, feel free to dm or smth! and I’ll try my best to be more active in popping into my mutual’s inboxes amhahshsj)

To the pillars of tumblr @sugardaddykenma @hina-wit-da-glock @nidaenk

You are all so special to me in that you are the reason I would wake up and get my butt on this hellsite and find so much fun and joy in the fandoms I enjoy - it’s not even the content you post but just,, your amazing and stellar personality and interactions with your followers and mutuals alike. Thank you for being a part of this weird space on the internet and I hope you are taking care and being kind to yourself, love u very much <33

[pepperful-qt]

hello!! i saw that your requests are open so,,, anyways, can you please make a hcs of kenma, kuroo and any other hq boys u like and their reaction when their s/o sends a video of them with i love you written on their cheeks? thank u and always take care!! ♡♡

this is so cute what🥺 almost went with Suna but decided on Tendou bc i just did something for him recently! & he deserves something like this tbh

Kenma, Kuroo, & Tendou when their s/o sends a surprise video with ‘i love you’ written on their cheeks 

*****

Kenma

you don’t send it to him in when he’s in public which he is thankful for

you do, however, send it out of nowhere. no special occasion or anything, which makes it so much more special to him tbh

you guys are video chatting while playing minecraft or stardew valley if you’re like me (or another online game of your choice) and you pause yourself and say you’re going to the bathroom or smth and mute your mic

it’s not really a big deal, so he doesn’t think too much on it and just continues building his redstone mechanism or w/e 

until he gets a notification from you

his first thought is that you ran out of toilet paper and he’s like why would you text me we’re not even in the same house-

but, that’s not what he sees. instead, it’s you in one of his hoodies that you stole 

you painted your nose and drew cat whiskers, with ‘i love you’ as the top whisker on each cheek and two lines beneath so cute wth

he thinks so too

it’s a short and sweet message, but clearly something you put thought into

but-

achievement unlocked! you broke him

seriously, he stops breathing for the entire video

he’s an absolute blushing MESS currently pulling up his hoodie to cover his face. pulling the drawstrings and everything

direct affection like this always makes him flustered. always

which is why it’s so cute hehe

he’s not much for pda or anything so you take your chances where you get em

little did he know, you were hiding just off camera where you could see the whole thing and you are currently 🥺

you just hear your name in an exasperated groan from the call

“y/nnnnnn” muffled by his hoodie ofc

you’re smiling like an idiot bc✨mission accomplished✨

“hehehe did you like it?” 

you still have the makeup on and his soul leaves his body

“why would you do that to me?”

“awww can’t you read?”

more blushy blushy 

he wants to hug you or hold you so bad in that moment like it’s absolute torture

and next time he sees you, oh boy is he stuck to you like glue. good luck getting him off you ever

* * *

Kuroo

you decide to drop this on him while he’s en route to nationals. you weren’t able to come until the second day for school or work reasons, but you still wanted to show your support for your bf, esp for something so important to him!

you know he’s the type to keep his phone on dnd or airplane mode while he’s on long trips, as he prefers to sleep or read in peace

and you use this information to plan the perfect surprise! you send the video during his trip so he’ll see it when he’s going through notifications when he finally arrives

you tell/bribe Kenma to record his reaction for you too, which he may or may not do

your relationship with Kuroo has always been one of teasing and banter. for pet names you call each other ‘babe’ or ‘sweetheart’ as easily as ‘dork’ or ‘dumbass’

so it’s very very amusing to him when you start the video with “hey dummy~” while you have ‘i love you’ written in red on one cheek and ‘Nekoma #1′ on the other

the moment he sees you this guy has the biggest stupidest grin on his face. not even in a smug or cocky way, just completely lovestruck

he’s doing that thing where he covers part of his face with his hand and shakes his head a little bc he finds you so adorable

the video is actually really sweet with you hoping he got to the inn safely and wishing him good luck, and promising him a special kiss if he wins so you can see him play the second day

talk about motivation ammirite ;)

and your surprise works; he’s totally caught off guard

by the end of the video the genuine grin definitely turned devious lol, and he’s not one to blush easily, but you definitely got him a lil bit

some of his teammates heard a very ominous giggle from their captain, and his expression is even more disturbing

no one who asks is allowed to see, you're for his eyes only, but he does brag about the wonderful video his s/o sent him

excuses himself immediately so he can facetime you

if you’re still wearing it he just starts laughing again, and try as he might he can’t stop smiling

says some stupid cocky playful line

“hey baby, you got something you wanna tell me?” or “looks like you can’t contain your love for me” smh

partially scolds you for trying to catch him off guard (in public) 

“i love you too but you’ll regret that” etc

okay this mf is suggestive af fill in the rest

you better be looking forward to more than just a kiss when he sees you is all i’m saying

* * * 

Tendou

happens at like 1-2am on a school night when you’re both texting memes back and forth bc you enable each other

and tbh you’re feeling a bit delirious,, like at this point you’re actually laughing irl at the stupidest things he sends and muttering to yourself

so once the idea pops into your head your impulse control may as well not exist

he doesn’t really notice your absence too much, just keeps sending da memes. in fact he’s spamming so much he doesn’t even notice what you do send LOL

so you’re sitting there like 👉👈 waiting for him to react,, until eventually you’re like: ‘hellooo?? did you see what i sent??’

LEAVES YOU ON READ LMAOO before a keyboard smash and then silence

bc he is freaking out

like Kenma’s, it’s a cute, sweet message where you’re just gushing about how much you love him

it’s a little rambly and your words are a bit slurred but that just makes it all the more endearing

“tendou~~ look i just love you so much i need the whole world to know!!” while pointing to your cheeks

poor bby is about to cry fr he's overwhelmed

he’s just watching it over and over again like🥺🥺🥺

and you’re back to waiting for a reaction and you’re starting to feel a little silly. you’d already accepted that he’d tease you over it but now you’re embarrassed--

but you know what? he sends his own video back, with 'i love you my angel!' haphazardly scribbled on his forehead 

“y/n~~~” he’s totally mocking you “i can’t believe you love me so much you’re gonna make me cry~” doesn’t mention he already did a bit “i can’t believe i’ve been blessed with such an angel--” 

he’s just going on and on until he hits the video size cap

congratulations you’ve absolutely ruined each other at 2am and you have a test tomorrow and he has morning practice

but do either of you care? no

he cannot stop smiling the next day he’s just glowing and is just all over you

and you didn’t realize you’d written in sharpie so there’s still a little bit visible that you tried and failed to hide with concealer

he’ll never let you live that down😌😘

*****

THIS REQUEST MADE ME SO SOFT WRITING IT JFC😭

[astro-break]

Thoughts on the 8th ep of Hypmic Rhyme Anima. Spoilers beware

Ep.1 | Ep.2 | Ep.3 | Ep.4 & 5 | Ep. 6 | Ep. 7

Love that every time its a MTC centric episode im so busy that i can’t watch it the day it airs

I like how the beginning of the episode kinda mirrors the events in MTC’s story in ARB

hey hypmic you wanna try making it Less obvious who the culprit is? like damn you’re just giving away secrets like its candy. First Ramuda, the Ruikawa and now these two assholes. Might wanna keep your cards close before you spoil the ending of the anime oh wait they already did that nvm :p

Samatoki please have some sense of self preservation and ask what its about before accepting something. but I guess it also speaks to how trusting he is of those he lets close to him which also explains a bit more as to why he hates Ichirou’s guts

Love that Jyuto is actually choking the information out of someone and Samatoki is actually gathering intelligence and creating boards out of it. Most people expect the opposite from their characters and it such a great dynamic

I find it hilarious that Rio uses older computers but that brings up the question of “How far into the future really is hypmic?” bc those computers look to be from early 2000′s which would be A N C I E N T and completely unusable for hacking come a time when WWIII happens

Iris on a bike has no rights looking as hot as she does. The vehicle CGI is really nice too and so is her character model on top of the bike. Loving how Iris completely owns the two cops

The MTC love here is jsut. through the roof i can die happy now that i’ve seen Samatoki aggressively caring for his teammates animated and voiced. like, please. just. help. I can.t/ MTC care so much for each other I would hug them all and tell them good work, you can finally go rest now uughghghgh MTC guys. MTC

But mannn Iris is so cool, approaching MTC without any fear

I find it hilarious that Saburo would pose as a game dev from dubai which yknow doesn’t make any sense if you think about it. but whatever it just makes me laugh at how easy it is to fake a lot about yourself because yeah! it is easy! 

The whole conversation about cops and good cops seems a bit off considering ACAB but considering Japan who has largely swept both BLM and ACAB under the rug it isn’t surprising. That isn’t to say that Japan doesn’t care, its just that these movements aren’t on the spotlight so topics like these don’t carry as much weight

lol yeah he should have expected to be stabbed from the front lol

SRKHFSKJD Rio please stop living in the water, i can’t believe he did that lol

Love the SamaJyuto subtext in the translation lol

Jyuto’s sequence is kinda cute in a way ahaha

The kurosawa-esque b&w screens are a nice touch to the song as well as the MC Name drops and hypnosis speaker drops. Idk about Rio’s 2DIE4 reference though since it doesn’t really rhyme nor does it add much to the rap itself

The song itself is pretty nice but it isn’t a bop like Fallin’ was. It has a different more gritty feel to it that i don’t hate but isn’t my style

Of course Iruma pulls this situation into his favor, its so typical of him.

Rio didn’t speak much here and took a general backseat to everything. I wonder if it was because during the time of recording this episode, Rio’s VA, Kamio Shinichiro, went down with The Virus (you know the one) so he couldn’t record much. Who knows but best boy. just let me hear best boy’s voice please

Ramuda’s phone vibrate actively annoys me oh my god it makes my skin crawl

If Ramuda’s sleeping on the couch then that really does confirm that Ramuda lives in his studio. Not surprising considering everything we know about Ramuda but at the same time, please get like a futon or smth sleeping on a couch will only hurt your back

Ramuda just busting in is fun

but im not sure how to feel about two divisions shoved into one. like this is basically telling us who is the important divisions, Ikebukuro and Shinjuku. Obviously BB are the protagonists of the series what with the staff coming out to even say that Ichirou is the hero, and if you know what happens then you know why Shinjuku is also highlighted which. also gives away the ending of the anime. again. I’m just glad that the team decided to stick with the irl results bc if they didn’t, they’d have a lot of angry fans

Back to my main point tho, this just. pisses me off. I love FP and MTC and to see them sidelined like this doesn’t feel fair. they deserve full eps to themselves bc if I’m being honest, these two teams have some of the best inter team dynamics out of the current cast. I understand that budget issues and episode constraints exist but this is just kinda frustrating that my main division has been tossed aside and the team that gets the most overall development gets thrown away too

Im not surprised that they cheated because gambling anime is about who can outcheat the other and the mind games played. thats the thrill of gambling series is the psychological factors in it

Ramuda emulating Gentaro’s speech is cute

The mindgames are not present at all and I expected that lol

thats.... midly gay gentaro lol do you always go around pressing shit into people’s mouths while leaning in close? thats pretty gay lol i love the homoerotic subtext present in this episode. First SamaJyuto and now GenDice

no speaker summon sequence? thats slightly disappointing but whatever. the anime is really doing FP dirty by cutting a lot of corners with their episodes

I never noticed that Ramuda and Gentaro hold their mics in their left hand while Dice holds it with his right. neat detail

I love how even in a battle FP still keeps their preppy attitude

Gentaro looks so awkward to the little sway and kick thing in the song lolol

This is probably one of the songs that I like the least. Jackpost is a very Dice song and not really fitting for either Ramuda and Genaro. I think i’d like it more if it was a dice solo or dice centric but the emphasis was pretty cleanly spread so that makes it pretty hard to enjoy

Oh hell yeah FP meshing as a team is just, so cute. Though that foreshadowing with Ramuda and his candy is just. wow

Yup they kept the og brackets so I think the anime’s going to stick with the IRL results. Which means that any tension they try and build won’t work for ppl who are already familiar with the series but I hope they don’t take that fact as an excuse to slack off

[dizzybelief]

alright imma spam about The Circle and i’m not sorry about it and imma talk about every player, as if anybody cares but here is my ranking on them too and i know i’m hella late to this too but like better late than ever anyways here’s my least to favorite:

13. adam/alex: I could not stand him at all. Catfish and IRL. The way he entered the game was awful, dont know how he made it as far as he did. Don’t know why they wouldve chosen him over miranda. I don’t know, but he was so uncomfortable. I genuinely don’t care if he was married, he just seemed like the guy to get upset if you didn’t send him a nude. I don’t know. He was weird.

12. ed and tammy: I couldn’t stand this mother and son duo AT ALL, too. I thought tammy was gonna be the one who was going to be cat fishing as ed but when they worked together the whole thing was completely off. I don’t give a FUCK if he was a helicopter engineer, you know DAMN WELL he was a shitty ass person. The fact that they REALLY thought they were gonna win over rebecca is beyond me. Message: ‘NEXT’ send.

11. bill: I honestly didn’t care for him lmfao. He was just there, but the fact that he lost over alex, that made me mad lmao. Anyways, yawn.

10. miranda: I also didn’t really care for miranda either, definitely preferred her than most but she was a lil annoying for a bit lmao. She’s pretty and what not but personality wise, it was eh. Good for Joey, tho. Shooby is better.

9. antonio: Couldn’t care less. We get it, you are professional basketball player. That isn’t a personality trait, say something else.

8. alana: She was also another white girl, but it was funny because she acted EXACTLY how you would think a white girl would act. The minute she found out Chris was gay she was literally the “YASS GIRL! SLAY QUEEN!!” for sure was the “I do it for the gays and that’s it.” type of person, which I didn’t mind. But honestly super stereotypical lmfao. it would’ve been interesting to see where she could’ve landed in the game. The “Skinny Queens” chat was the cherry on top with her, everyone else just took it the wrong way. Sammie for sure didn’t have to act the way she did with that chat name lmfao.

7. sean: Loved her! super sweet! Definitely should’ve came in without cat fishing, but it is what it is! It was understandable. For sure should’ve made it further than ed and tammy, but WHATEVER, we don’t discuss that. I appreciated the representation with the whole plus-size thing as well. Again, she’s super sweet and came in with good intentions. I feel like a 7 is a good rank for her. I would’ve loved to have seen a Sean and Seaburn duo. <3

6. mercedez/karyn: I LOVED HER BOND WITH CHRIS!! AND CALLING HERSELF MOMMA WITH SHOOBY AND CHRIS WAS ALSO SUPER CUTE. I wish she would’ve stayed longer. Anyways, for sure would love to see her play again as karyn!!

5. sammie: I love sammie, but the only thing I didn’t really like was that she was quick to point fingers. She had all rights to do so though, but when she immediately didn’t like alana bc of a group chat name (which of course, alana didn’t have bad intentions with it) was a lil petty. But other than that, she played a really good game. I loved the bi representation (along with miranda) too!

4. shubham/shooby: I didn’t like him at first with the whole “social media is the bubonic plague” vibe at first. BUUUUUT, he was honestly one of the most adorable players in the game and I could 100% agree on everyone loving him for who he was. I felt SO bad with the whole rebecca/seaburn situation but I’m so happy he took it super well considering how he didn’t take it too well with Sean. Social media can fuck you up a lot, which is true on shooby’s end, but I hope he actually tries it out and see it’s good side of it as well. He was honestly a hit or miss. He would get on my nerves too cause sometimes he’d be on high horse about the whole “social media being awful” thing. Other than that, his and Joey’s bromance is also the cutest thing in the world. Don’t hate him, and he does seem super sweet and protective no matter what. At the end of the day, he was playing a game and he played it really good, hence on him getting top influencer 4 times in a row lmfao.

3. joey: I DIDN’T LIKE HIM AT FIRST (but literally everyone and their mom would say the same thing) BUT HE GREW ON ME AND IS THE CUTEST PERSON TO EXIST. He was honestly good at what he did. Super proud of him! Deserves the world. Such a cute momma’s boy. Has my heart.

2. chris: okay okay okay okay. chris has my whole heart, too. I feel like I could feel genuine love from him with everyone in the game and that was beautiful. His faith in God was also so amazing, considering that he’s gay AND MEXICAN, that was a boundary broken for the whole “how can you be gay and also believe in god” thing. Especially in the hispanic community since it’s so taboo to be gay and also love god. I just loved that and I completely felt such a strong connection with him. I wish I could give him a hug. <3 UGH CHRIS I LOVE YOU <333

1. rebecca/seaburn: ONE HUNDRED PERCENT, HANDS DOWN, MY FAVORITE PLAYER TO DATE! HE IS SO FUNNY AND PLAYED SUCH A GOOD FUCKIN GAME AND NO ONE HIS GIVING HIM THAT CREDIT!!!!! SEABURN DESERVES THE WORLD. I WOULDVE LOVEDDDD TO BE HIS FRIEND IN THE GAME AND IRL LMFAOO. SEABURN WAS SO BAD AT BEING A CATFISH THAT IT WAS GOOD LMAO. SEABURN, YOU DAMN LEGEND. AHHHHHHHHHHH. love u bitch.

There you guys go. I said what I said. Goodnight!

[seoschangbin]

Hi hi, it’s ya gal Rachel! To start off, this isn't really a follow forever but more of a mushy love fest. I was going to do this back in October when my blog hit 2 years but then with everything that happened... 😞✌ figured it wasn’t the best time! But since it’s the new year, I just wanted to spread some love to start off the decade, especially towards all the lovely people who have made my 2019 a little bit happier ♡ Thank you to everyone for making this such a fun & amazing year; thank you for supporting my gifs & graphics and interacting with me; overall, thank you for making Tumblr fun again! So to all my moots and followers, I’m wishing you all a very happy and wonderful 2020! 

I wanted to take some time as well to write some messages to all my mutuals - seeing you guys on my dash + all your work (if you’re a cc) is such a joy and I admire all of you very very much! Thank you for putting in the time to making gifs/graphics/fic/etc. and I hope you won’t mind if I gush about you a little, even if we’ve never spoken hehe! Under the cut in alphabetic order.. she’s a long one sorry!

@00hj | karen!! angel!! first of all, everything u make is just the cleanest cutest thing ever, i truly want your brain!.. u are such an incredibly talented gfx creator and i get heart palpitations every time i see ur work!! i adore u so much n ur tags are also so full of sweetness n purity and 😞💕 i just want to give u a hug!! + the way u always say hi to ccs in ur tags when u rb their stuff. cute!! pure!! 

@01degree | joanna!! first of all... thank u for filling my dash with so many groups, some of which i almost never get to see 😌💕 ur brain being multi af like me.. chefs kiss! also! you make such clean and nice gifs please don’t ever doubt that laskjd!! 2020 joanna stops saying her gifs suck! idk how u make them so clean but legends only! bls remember to be kind to yourself this year! 💕

@1095 | nicolle!! i haven’t seen you around recently but i hope everything is okay and you’re doing well! i have to say that your graphics are absolutely INSANE i don’t know how you do it!! the colours.. how it all comes together.. amazing! ur career as a graphic designer will be a good one 😌👍 secondly your urls are always so cute nd nice!! and thirdly back to number 1.. i just love everything you make so so much bls come back to us 😖

@3noracha |  falak.. ur the fandom’s gem.. the sharpening on ur gifs takes my breath away everytime + the colouring.. omg chef’s kiss!! i didn’t know you before you came back earlier this year but i’m so so glad you did come back bc u are so full of love 😳💗 you make the cutest graphics as well and are just radiate so much positivity 💞

@bamgchan | henri! still my confident car selfie king!! so glad i found you through sagey.. i love all your content (ur graphics.. always so well put together!) and the way you interact with people is so full of energy and positivity and i adore that! i hope 2020 treats you well 🥰

@banghans | ollie!! all of ur content.. ur gifs! amazing.. wonderful.. iconic thank you for providing so much hq content for the rest of us peasants 😌💕 your love for chan and jisung is also so pure n cute when u rave abt it 💞 bls stop being so hard on yourself and i love reading about how you’re always striving to be better to yourself! i hope 2020 is a good year for you 💖

@binnieseason | emily.. a loss for binnie stans that you’re gone 😔 anyways i hope to see you back sometime because you make such nice gifs + the colouring on them.. so pretty and clean.. how to be you! i hope things are okay with you and that you’ve been well!

@cb-97s | miss li! y/a novel protagonist herself!! li you’re a burst of sunshine in my day and i love chatting w u! your love for chan.. too pure 😭 every time i talk to you i’m like.. dang.. she’s real.. ppl get to see her for real! might force u to meet me irl 🤷‍♀️ also queen of gfx.. always so clean.. 😍 i know it’s been a stressful year for you but i hope 2020 brings you happiness and love 💞 love u! 

@changbeanie | hi ruby! ur graphics are always so intricate n pretty + the colouring on ur gifs.. so pretty 😭💖 thank you for providing like 90% of the changbin content nd keeping me well-fed 🥰 ur always so sweet to ur anons as well and are just a lil ray of sunshine ☀️

@changbinie​ | jo.. what even is there to say abt u.. still can’t believe i got u into skz.. CAN’T!!! thanks for suffering w me and dealin w me wakin u to talk abt middies.. + changbin arms.. i love u a little i think (?) 

@channie | hi fishy! ur one of the very first skz blogs i ever followed back in 2017.. we ancient 😌🤙 i know you’re not too active anymore but all of your gifs have like. the prettiest colouring ever idk how you do it! i hope you’ll come back to us 

@elfminho | min! i love the way u tag skz in your tags.. so cute 😭 star boy!!! cute 😭 ur gifs are also lovely as well 🥰 i think ur one of the first skz blogs i followed when i starting using this blog again n i’m glad i found ur blog bc i adore u 💞

@glowsvt | grace.. my little baby! i wish i could just !! get into ur brain how lovely nd wonderful of a human you are.. have more confidence in yourself! 😣 you make wonderful graphics.. ur style! cute! and you have such a sweet and good heart!! i love when you ramble about things and always appreciate how you take the time to reach out to me despite how busy you are 💕 thank you for being a real-life angel, i hope 2020 is good and kind to you 🙇‍♀️💞

@hanjisungz | britt!!! nerd squad let’s go!! you’re such an angel, the way you treat everyone who talks to you with so much kindness and positivity makes me want to cry!! ur truly just the cutest sunbeam and just such lovely lovely human!! thank u for puttin up with my late replies and how boring i am 😭 i also adore your gifs and icons.. which you know.. but always.. chefs kiss to them!

@huiracha | marie... first of all skz AND ptg? great, amazing, fantastic combination... galaxy brain 💞 secondly, u make such SUCH nice gifs 😭 ur prob one of my fav skz ccs and all ur pretty chan comp sets.. always look forward to them! thank u for also bringing me ptg content i never see enough of them 💕

@hwang-hyunjin | agnes!! ur topaz settings r always insane and they make your gifs look amazing!! + the colouring u do is always so beautiful!! the combo rly makes ur gifs so distinctive nd pretty💞 ur edits too!! just lovely 🥰 also the fact that we’re also moots on our mx blogs.. amazing.. i love a staybebe!! 

@hyunjins​ | godleigh???? still one of my fav gifmakers ever!! perfect colouring.. sharpening.. best brain! 💞 rmbr ur skz x prince series... still think abt it sometimes.. wish i could be half as brilliant as u!  i’m so glad we started talking bc u are incredibly funny and fun to talk to and i love witnessing ur breakdowns even though they’re probably way funnier to me than they should be 😭 love that u vibe w me and we can be mean together 😭 thank u for giving me this url 😭 thank u for being my friend, u truly are like. half the reason i enjoy being on this blog 😭 you’re wonderful and i love u a lot! sorry for clowning u sometimes! i hope everything sorts itself out soon bc u deserve some peace nd happiness 😩 and i wish u nothing but the best for this year and hope that the next year will be filled with good things 💖

@ifbin | mikaela.... u know i could talk abt you forever right???? ur graphics.. bro 😭 literally my fav gfx ever on this site.. u have such a vibrant + clean style it’s so sexy 😭 literally am in love with everything u make.. every time i see it i’m like 😳💖 also you’re such a sweetheart in your tags i can’t with you... spare friendship miss 💍

@jeonginz | bri! honestly.. i think you’re my oldest mutual from when we first started our blogs during survival era #ogs? 😳 when i found out you were nctmark... mind blown... anyways all your content is AMAZING even though u dont make as much for skz anymore msdg but ur dedication to all ur sideblogs.. galaxy brain 😌

@jinlix | kelly...!! still gazing at u across the river i love love love u!! how to purchase friendship? ur just the purest snowflake and a wonderful person with the cutest tags... ur love for hyunjin.. CUTE 💞 all your graphics are so pretty and clean as well.. dragonlix gfx never forgotten.. 😳 and you’re rly just a little angel!! 💞

@kim-woojins​ | emma, i know that you’re gone and closed pretty much but if you come back to this! just wanted to let you know that you were my fav woojin cc and i hope you’ll consider coming back someday 💖 your gifs.. always amazing! plus, you’re such a kind person and i hope everything is okay with you and things have settled a bit! sending you lots of love 💕

@kittylixie | moon.. honestly one day i just started seeing ur content everywhere.. ur gifs are so clean and pretty and just! mwah! you’re always so quick to gif as well i don’t know how you to do it! all the stuff you choose to gif as well.. best moments 💖

@kmwoojins | sagey.... still don’t really know how i came to be following you! 😩 but i’m so happy i am because you are so pure and sweet and i adore adore adore you!! 💞 love how welcoming and lovely you are as a human and still laugh every time i think about how shocked you are about jo and i... 😌 anyways i adore your graphics and you, thank you for just being such a lovely human, you were a wonderful part of my year 💖

@leeminho-s | hi lia! i know we only became moots recently but all your gifs.. so pretty 😳 and we never have enough minho content.. thank you for providing 😫 i’m sorry i don’t know much about you yet but i just wanted to say i admire your gifs so much and hope you have a wonderful start to the new year!

@minknows | hi thien! first of all.. your name.. so lovely 😳 secondly.. the colouring on your gifs is always so pretty and good 😭❤ the sharpening too.. 😔 just!! chefs kiss to it all, would take a class on how to gif from you 🙇‍♀️

@nochous | dez!! we haven’t interacted much on this sb of mine but hehe i loved our convo on my sf9 blog.. still always thinkin abt you calling kun daddy 😭 you’re such a fun person to talk to and i hope everything is okay with you since you’ve gone on a semi-hiatus! i hope we’ll have another chance to talk soon, sending you some good energy for 2020 💗

@prodskz | hi neha! i feel like you took a hiatus sometime this year (??) where i didn’t see you on much but i’m happy to see you a little more active on here now!! u provide such nice content + for some reason i rly rly love your icon 😭💗

@realstraykids | miss em.. secret santa FATED us 😔💕 anyways i adore you, we are the core of fantastay culture and this will forever unite us 😌 i’m vibrating at the thought of their comeback 😖 ANYWAYS you are such a friendly and lovely person and i enjoyed getting to talk with u so much over the past couple of weeks 💖 you’re one of my fav gifmakers honestly your mv aesthetics swap.. as i said.. 😭 amazing iconic showstopping! + the colouring on all your gifs.. so pretty 😭

@seungminhos |  to quote you. you are far too funny to be a gifmaker 😣 but then who would provide all the good seungmin content.. 😞 you’re such a force of nature on my dash and i love reading all your thoughts bc you are Funny.. and your love for seungmin + how you always want the best for him is pure!! our sporadic interactions too.. always enjoy them 💕 even though i know you’re stressed about being on here sometimes, i want you to know that you’re wonderful and i appreciate all you do to bring more seungmin on our dashes 💗 pls stop threatening to delete your blog, i would be devastated 😫

@seungminsmile | aurora!! the one time i was about to have a seungmin breakdown and went to you... hehe you’re such a cutie and very grounded person (imo!!) and you make the cutest little graphics.. the little doodles.. how do you do that!! 😳 and now that you’re making gifs.. Queen! i hope your first semester went well! 💕

@seunie | hello nia!! i know we are still new moots but you are such a pure soul.. just ur blog title.. angel! you radiate so much love and sweetness 💞 your gifs are always so vibrant + colourful as well and bring a bit of colour onto my dash just like you! hopefully we can speak in the coming year, i wish you the very best! 🥰

@skzbffie | rayana... all ur gifs... bro.... how to start a rayana religion... amazing 😍 ur gifs are always so clean + i can recognize them by the subtitle font you use.. u always choose the best moments to gif honestly how to be u! honestly ur tags are fun to read too don’t judge me i am just an admirer and fan of u 😭

@skznta | miss sierra! idk how to put it into words but you... goddess of goodness? you truly radiate so much positivity and happiness and it makes me so.. uwu (for lack of better words).. you’re so so cute over all your love for science and i’m glad we got to bond over that! the way you’re always striving to learn more + improve yourself.. u inspire me 😳 you are also an incredible cc and thank you for bringing so much joy into the fandom and my life!! i feel very grateful to have gotten to know you a little this year 💞

@thechanboys | jem.. u are a GEM... 😭 the way i got u for secret santa i’ll never get over it!! you are just such sunshine and so fun to talk to and 😳💞 if u ever wanna abandon bin for me.. 😌 my fav number one chan/bin stan..! i’m so happy you got into skz this year and i’m gonna try my hardest to get you into some other groups hehe 🤧 anyways, you are incredible, lovely, wonderful, amazing i love u jem!! 💖

@tinyjisung | bea! honestly.. we are moots on like 3(?) blogs our multi selves.. galaxy brain...  i know ur more active on ur ateez blog but i wanted to write abt you here anyways because I CAN! 😌 but i love all that good san content you provide + you just seem like a very calm n fun person 💕

@virgolix | nina. you’re such a cute person filled with love and you just spread so much positivity and good energy! you treat everyone with so much kindness and it’s so nice to see 💖 and if i can rave about your gifs for a minute... they are unreal 😫 the sharpening.. colouring.. always so amazingly clean + pretty + vibrant! 

@wonstal | hi hi! okay.. i adore all your content, you have the cutest colouring ever!! + topaz settings.. so pretty 😖💞 even though we started off as moots on my mx blog, i’m so glad you got into skz and ateez + will be on your sweet merry way to sf9 soon 🤞 i’m glad we’ve just started chatting a bit because you seem super fun and i’m excited to get to know you better! i hope 2020 treats you well darling 💖

@yongbells | iana.. hope everything is okay with you always and sending you lots of love! i miss seeing you on here but i hope you’re taking good care of yourself 💗 also.. gfx queen... 😖 you’re SUCH a ray of sunshine.. the way you always tell people how much you love their creations is so kind and all of your own gfx are some of the most beautiful things ever 💖 we are so blessed to have you in this fandom 😩 

[lnarizakis]

— sam’s match-ups masterlist

hi! if you sent in a match-up ask, you can find ‘em all here! if you sent off anon, i have just tagged you and added the link to the post. if you sent as anon/anon with identifying emoji, i included your description along with the link. this post will be constantly updated as i continue to post my match-ups! thank you and i hope you all enjoy your match-ups!!

— @hqprotectionsquad . . .

— anon . . . ❝ could i get a matchup🥺 with 2 boys~ i'm 4'9, i'm really tiny and i've been told i have really nice hair hehe personality wise i've been told i'm really gentle and calming, i had a teacher that said my voice is "serene" and "soothing" >__< i'm the mom friend of the group🥰 i'm quite the introvert, i enjoy just staying home with some takeout, studying quietly or playing acnh underneath all my blankets.. i'm quite fond of hugs and cuddling and forehead kisses too though😚😚💞💞💞 ❞

— anon . . . ❝ could i request for a matchup?🥺 i'm about 5'3, my friends always say i'm the perfect height to hug 🤗 i have long hair till my waist that i dyed a rose-gold colour, i like wearing green or grey contacts because i like the way they make my eyes look. i have a resting b!tch face though...i'm not very approachable because of it😭 i've been playing netball for about 6 years now and i'm quiet irl i guess, but off the court and when i'm comfy, i'm quite the goodball🤙🏻🤙🏻 ❞

— anon . . . ❝ grats for 500! I'd like to request a matchup w 3 ppl pls! Im female, 5'2, i LOVE volleyball! i play wing spiker but i used to play setter, i loved setting for my besties in hs after training. I like to work out, read books & study. i clean my room every morning cos i like neat things, my closet's organized. i have dark brown eyes and thick thighs, proud of em! i also dance, im flexible, and im taking journalism. i wanna play pro vb in the future but tbh 158.5cm's too short, but im not giving up! ❞

— ⭐️ 🌸 anon . . . ❝ Hey hey! If ur still doing the matchup event i would love one!! Im a short gal with wavy dark hair and green eyes. I wear makeup p often esp red eyeshadow and black winged eyeliner (bc im an egirl until i DIE). Speaking of egirl i dress in black and with a chain most of the time but i also randomly flip into floral soft girl hours?? As for personality im really energetic once im comfortable and i love people who can match that energy, esp bc i get anxious rlly easily so i need someone . . . who will help keep me calm and happy when my drive for success gets a lil out if hand lmao. I’m also v combative towards ppl who i think are disrespectful! I love classic novels and watching foreign movies, but I also LOVE sports and get rlly hype abt them. I also LOVE music esp metal but i can and WILL vibe to literally anything esp if its during a workout (bc i live at the gym and someone spotting my squats is so romantic 2 me 🥺). A match w/ 2 boys would be sick, tysm in advance! ❞

— anon . . . ❝ Im medium height with long brown hair and sharp features. I like drawing, reading, cooking. I’m rather chill and level-headed, i’m usually the one to fix objects and solve problems, I avoid drama. I’m compassionate and caring but sometimes indifferent. I like mountains, art galleries, concerts, cello and graphic design. I’m adaptable and open to learning new things but I don’t like changing my routine too much. + 1 male character. ty for this and congrats on 500 followers!!! you deserve it ❞

—anon . . . ❝ hihi!!!! congrats on 500!! i lov ur content sm.. akfjag im asking for a two chara match up!!! im 5'3 and i have pink hair,, i switch between so many hobbies LOL i play volleyball and softball,, and i love singing and painting!! i have a really cottagecore aesthetic and i love baking things for people!!!!! im really energetic and v bratty over text but i get flustered so easily in person,, i hope youre having a good day//night !!!!!! ty for ur fics ❞

— 🐧 anon . . . ❝ match up please!!🥺 2 characters n no gender preference!! im a tall (around 184cm) kinda chubby girl w/ shoulder length brown hair, hazel eyes, pale skin w/ a lot of moles n i wear glasses! im p shy n it takes me a while to open up. but when i do i am a completely dif person,, making friends is hard but the ones i do have i love more than anything! when im w/ them im cheerful, talk a lot n goof around. otherwise i look p intimidating n serious cause i have a rbf n barely talk,, . . . im the mom friend, an optimist, a dreamer n a procrastinator. im p hard to piss off but when im angry i can get scary 😳 im sensitive n cry a lot, currently im working on being more confident! i love animals n flowers!! cause im not the best with words i use lil gifts n touches to express my love! my hobby is drawing! ive been doing it my whole life n im rlly proud of it!! congrats on 500 followers love❤ ❞

— @raevaioli . . .

— 🦆 anon . . . ❝ Happy 500 bubs! You def deserve it :)! I was wondering if I could get a #1 male matchup? Looks: 5’1 petite fem w/ small chest/tiny waist. Thick/medium brown hair and eyes. I’m a cancer with ENTP type! I’m a very affectionate person to my loved ones. I’m very stubborn, sensitive (but I try to hide it), ambitious, witty and very talkative! I like to tease my friends, watch Netflix and try new baking things! Although I show my love through actions, I’m fine with getting love back in any way . . . Also I like baths! (It’s random but why not 😌) I wish you a good day! ❞

— anon . . . ❝ Hey! Can I get a matchup? (#1)I’m a Leo and a ISFJ chick! I have medium brown hair and big eyes w/ glasses. I have a petite body with a small waist and chest. I’m really nice to people but very awkward (I’ll laugh at the floor) and when annoyed. I’m much more open to others like my best friend,I feel at home with her :,) .My hobbies include watching greys anatomy, shopping for clothes, and calling my friends. I would want my partner to be a lil more extroverted than me. Happy 500 😊 ❞

— anon . . . ❝ hi! Can I get a matchup? I’m 5’2 straight girl w/ long brown wavy hair and big brown eyes. I’m thick in all the right places🥴 plus I have a curvy body. My star sign is Pisces and I’m a ISFP. I’m more introverted than extroverted. I dress like Hobo type of way, but i always wear AF1s and I NEVER crease them. In my spare time I draw,listen to raps (mostly by Tupac) and oldies, learn raps, and hang out wit friends. I also have a bunch of piercings on my ears and one on my nose. ty CONGRATS ON 500+ ❞

— anon . . . ❝ CONGRATULATIONS ON 500 WHOOP WHOOP❣️🥺, can i please have a matchup doe! so happy to celebrate this with you❤️ i’m a female, straight, 5’4 and a half, dark skin with medium black curly hair, chubby cheeks and always smiling, i love being outside just experiencing life or trying new drinks at restaurants!! i also enjoy staying home to watch tons of anime & movies or dates to the museum or theme park, spring is my favorite season and orange is my favorite color, i’m so hyper and loving, thank you! ❞

— 🐾 anon . . . ❝ Twice the charm I suppose :) I’m a 5’1 girl with long wavy brown hair. I have a lot of piercings and I tend to wear a lot of jewelry. I wear two knee braces due to a connective tissue disorder. I’m bisexual, so either way works for me owo. I’m an INFJ and a type 4. I’m told that I’m pretty easygoing but I get angry real quick when someone I love is threatened. I’m very empathetic and I’m the mom friend of the group 🐾 . . . Fun fact, don’t leave me alone in public for more than two seconds or else random strangers come up to me asking for advice. This has happened way too many times now don’t ask me why lmaooo. I’ve been playing soccer for eleven years now. I was the captain of a coed college-age division team for two years. I play left defense and goalkeeper. 🐾 . . . I go hiking a lot, I love cliff diving, and I’m an archer. I am also a painter and a writer. My dream job is to become a book editor, but I want to eventually live off my books. I tend to be pretty clingy when it comes to people. I randomly need a lot of attention and force my friends to cuddle. They like rejecting me 😔. Sorry that this was so long aha. Ily and have a good day 💕🐾 ❞

thanks for sending in an ask ! didn’t see yours? please let me know !

[johobi]

Milestone Thank You Post

So I hit a pretty significant milestone the other day, I wasn’t gonna make one of these but I haven’t in the past and I think it’s important to thank those who’ve made my time on Tumblr so wonderful. 

It’s been a helluva 2.5 years and while I haven’t been the most productive of contributors, I wanna thank all those followers who stuck with me nonetheless, and if you joined me further down the road, thank you to you, too. I hope you’ll all enjoy what I’ve got planned this year. I want to thank you for more than merely supporting my reading, though. I can’t count the number of supportive and commiserative messages I’ve received from many of you and I want you to know that you have genuinely affected my life for the better. I love you.

And to the friends I have made on here - you are precious to me. I’m incredibly awkward and conversationally stunted so those of you who have endured and coaxed it out of me anyway - thank you for persisting, haha. I love you, and I’m honoured to know such kind, skilled people. Even though Tumblr isn’t the greatest of platforms, the people on here are and I love seeing your follower interactions on my dash, seeing your fics do well, seeing you flourish creatively. And when things aren’t going so great, I’m always here if you need me. Anyway, I shan’t ramble on.

Bolded: mutual

Italics: i have read your work/seen your art!!!! and loved it!!!! (everyone else i need to get round to!!! i’ll get there!)

💌 : there’s a special note for you at the end

A-F

@aambrosia​ / @aesthete-soul-13​ / @anyaaniyo​ / @bendthekneetobangtan​​ 💌 / @btsinned​ / @btssavedmylifeblr​ / @btssmutgalore​ / @caramelkth / @cinnaminsvga​ / @dark-muse-iris​ 💌 / @dearlytea / @ditzymax​ / @dovechim / @floralseokjin

G-L

@gimmesumsuga 💌 / @guksheart / @gukyi / @hobiwonder / @hoseokiehopie / @httpjeon / @iq-biased / @jincherie / @jeonggukingdom / @joonbird /  @jungblue / @junqkook / @kittae / @koyamuses / @kpopfanfictrash 💌  / @kpopsmutbin / @lamourche / @littlemisskookie / @lockedarrow / @lthyl

M-R

@maadim / @marginalmadness 💌 / @meant-for-dreaming / @m00nk1ld / @mrsmin88 / @nikiis​ / @noona-la-la-la / @paperpurple / @parkmuse / @readyplayerhobi 💌 / @rohobi

S-Z

@seokeros 💌 / @seungyovn​ / @shelive-shelove​ / @spacejooon​ / @sweetbunnykook​ / @suga-kookiemonster​ / @sugasgrowl​ / @taeken-my-heart 💌 / @taezui​  / @thatlongspringnight / @tuserendipia​ / @underthejoon​ 💌 / @versigny​ / @wearelondonbound / @wildernessuntothemselves / @worldwidebt7​ / @yeoldontknow​ / @yimeizhu​ / @yminie​ / @yoonia​ / @yuscee​ / @zixxossi​ 💌

I also want to say a sincere, heartfelt thank you to the followers who frequent my notifications a lot - your usernames always bring a huge smile to my face and I want to thank you for your continued interest and support. I love you!!!

@99020448 / @ari-maccha / @ascendingbts / @blue-eyed-fantom / @bts-luvvv / @cerulean--rain / @deapplearrow / @dvmbassbitch / @guacj / @igot7nuggets / @joon-dream / @jooniperberries / @junkfoodwriting / @kimyishin / @krystalkoya / @lamptastical / @mellifluous--bts / @mhysaunburnt / @midnighttifa / @motleygirl98 / @murd0cks / @mygsii / @nomnomsik / @oppas-lube / @queenofthefurries / @reddidh / @saxpam24 / @seasofhoney / @shedevil65 / @shunjou-romantic /  @singulari-taes / @stubbornthot / @viva-lian / @yepthatsabingo / @zequiviya

I’m so sorry if I missed any other regulars - these are just some of the names at the forefront of my mind right now.

Special notes  💌

@bendthekneetobangtan: MJ, I’ve already rambled on and on about my love for you many times, but I fear it must be said again!!! You’re not only a kind and giving person, but you are a boon to all the writers you honour with your readership. Your reviews are so damn thorough and AMAZING, I always wriggle in excitement when I see one from you. Thank you so much for sticking with me since the early days (when I wrote more adlkwjalkj). I love you.

@dark-muse-iris: Iris, not only are you one of my dearest friends from this hellsite, but you are literally one of the two people whose writing inspired me to start my own blog in the first place. You are wise, gracious and sassy and I so enjoy watching you grow with your blog. I am so excited for your future projects, including those not related to FF. Love your writing. Love you.

@gimmesumsuga​: STEPH. You know how much I love you because I usually say it at least once a day because you are a cutie-patootie and just one of the loveliest, more interesting people to talk to. I live vicariously thru your IRL shenanigans lmao. Also, you’re such a caring and willing ear; the best to sound fic ideas off of. Speaking of fic, you’re ONE OF THE BEST ON HERE and u should give yourself more credit, sweet. You’re also probably gonna be famous when u publish STS so keep me in mind when u make a shit-ton of money pls. You’re the best concert buddy I could ever ask for. Can’t wait for next time. alkjaljk anyway, I LOVE YOU.

@kpopfanfictrash: Shanna!!!! Okay, not only are you perhaps one of the best writers to grace our community (and most likely to find success outside of imo!!!), but you are just the kindest, humblest, most chill person to talk to. Plus u tolerate my weird-ass humour which is incredible. I love you!

@marginalmadness: Shippy, I am most likely gonna have to bug u on Twitter first to read this bc since our failed collab (LMAO) I don’t think u’ve logged into Tumblr since. STILL. As I’m spilling my feelings, I have to say u are one of my most treasured and oldest (no, not age) friends. We first bonded over otome games. AND THEN, FINALLY, LAST YEAR, WE INDUCTED YOU INTO ARMY!!!! And it’s been amazing since. I was so happy to meet u and your gorgeous, majestic self. Plus u and your headcanons always make me w*t (w/ tears or other). I appreciate u and how u take care of me. I hope you feel cared for in return. I LOVE YOU.

@readyplayerhobi​: Tali, u are a wonderful enigma. U put up with my clingy-ass affection and ridiculous jokes and only sometimes get annoyed at me. Plus u are literally the Queen Of Fantasy And Amazing Fic Ideas/Execution and am always in awe of you. For that, and your productivity. Like, damn, girl. Also, u talk about the weirdest things and I appreciate that. I like a fellow weirdo. Hope I can meet u more in the future!!! because I love you!!

@seokeros​: Tessa, I’m certain you don’t check tumblr much anymore but if u do, I just wanted to communicate to u my deep appreciation for the support and encouragement that you offered me in the early days of my blog. I was so in awe of you and your writing skills that I could hardly believe when u began to interact with me. I’m sure ur the driving force that pushed out several of my pieces when my motivation was low. I want to thank u for everything u’ve done for the BTS FF community and when u do decide to leave for good, I will be first in line for your bestselling books. I love you.

@taeken-my-heart​: NORA!! I think I’ve known u for nearly as long as my blog’s been alive. Not only are u literally just the sweetest, purest bean, but u wowed me recently with your writing and I’m waiting with baited breath for the conclusion of Independent. Even though many of our chats are brief they are a frequent mood-lifter for me and I want to thank you for being here. I love you.

@underthejoon​: Fal, thank u for introducing yourself to me bc otherwise I would never have been able to get to know the lovely u (I’m too shy). U are for certain one of the most supportive and kind people I know on here and ur also my emotion twin (Scorpios unite!!). I really hope your experience on Tumblr improves because u deserve nothing less but love and appreciation. For your writing, too, because u have a fucking knack for it. I love you!!!

@zixxossi​: Last but not least, my darling frogger Alexa. U are my bestest and most treasured friend. We’re chalk and cheese but we’re also Bonnie and Clyde (without the death). We’ve spent so many hours dreaming up worlds and writing them into being and those were some of the most fun nights. We’re past that now, but I know we’ll forever have a strong bond and I’m so, so happy to see u flourish these recent months. U deserve nothing less, my little 6′1″ angel. I can’t wait to see u again and suffocate u in a hug. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bravest-notts]

(suicidal thoughts mention tw but don't worry, it's in the past and ok now) re: your tags on the mm reblog about having immense irl grief- i completely agree with you. obvi everyone experiences things differently and a stubbed toe still hurts when there's starving kids in africa, etc, but i've had irl grief that plunged me into depression for years and led to two near-suicides. and then i see people justifying doing irrational, ridiculous shit or attacking the cast or attacking the fandom (1/2)

with the justification of “it’s all bc i’m grieving for mm, grief is irrational and makes you do things, this is what grief is like!” and a) i did some awful, unhealthy shit when i was in that intense grieving period and it was not & should not have been a get-out-of-jail-free-card and b) i don’t know how to say this w/o sounding like a bitch but it’s not the same thing? he exists just as much now as he did then, still fictional but in fanfic instead of canon. he’s not gone like an irl person is

(grief anon cont because apparently i’m not done with this rant) like obviously i was going through something awful & it was difficult to function like a human being but there was also a point where i had to look at myself and go “ok, this isn’t healthy, i need to figure out a way through this or else i’m gonna be very unhappy & keep treating myself/others worse than they deserve” and i think that part of grieving is important too. not forgetting mm but maybe finding healthier coping mechanisms?

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boy we’ve apparently had extremely similar life circumstances because reading this was akin to someone quoting the past eight years back at me. 

*solidarity hug*

putting this under the cut for grief talk, suicide mention, and other Grim Stuff.

for about four years after my mom died, i was a massive mess to the point of existing at the breaking point for nearly the entire time. three suicide attempts, two hospitalizations, and looking back i am amazed that i actually survived the bouts of starvation and lack of care i put myself through when i was in full breakdown mode. it was… really, really bad. dangerously bad. it was also a massive example of how not to cope with grief. 

obviously That Group of mm people are - i hope - not at the depths we’ve been to but yeah, unhealthy handling of loss can manifest in different ways and obsession is absolutely one of them. especially when the dead wasn’t a family member or a friend or someone close to you – strangers, celebrities, they get obsessed over in death. 

and god yeah like. i’ve said this so many times i feel like a broken record but people really, really need to examine how they interact with both media and the fandom because yes, a fictional character’s death can and should cause emotions. it absolutely can be tragic and bittersweet and all those things. but… like, look at vax. no one - at least no one i’ve seen - is inserting him into, say, the search for grog/bob and discussing how vm’s choices in those games are due 100% to his attitude in life. vax’s death is engaged with in a more healthy way, treated as the tragic and sad and still incredible end to a beloved character that molly’s also should be. 

they’re also not dead. because they never existed in the first place. fictional characters can have large and meaningful impacts on people’s lives and hearts, but in the end… they were never truly real. i would never wish the life-consuming scale of loss i’ve experienced on anyone, ever. i lost half a decade to guilt and grief and absolutely consuming depression, i’ve been in so much emotional agony that i would pray that i’d die in my sleep so that i wouldn’t wake up feeling it in the morning, i cried so hard i threw up every day for weeks. a fictional character’s death… there’s no way to say this without sounding like an insensitive twat, but they’re nowhere near comparable. and if they are, if someone out there is experiencing intense and chronic grief like that over a fake person… seriously go get help, because no one deserves to live in that state.

also!! i’m proud of you for clawing your way out of that deep grief state! i know intimately how incredibly difficult that is and i’m glad that it’s in the past now.