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I decided to draw more of my si/oc for Hazbin Hotel: Capper Dubois.
He and Alastor's Mother (Am) first met in 1906 at his favorite diner where she worked as a waitress (that he later bought to give her job security, he's rich and does nice things for people he likes, sue him) when he was 20, she was 25, and Alastor was 6.
They were just good friends until he caught Alastor's father abusing them when Alastor was 13. Capper beat him half to death then threw him out of the house and told him never to come back (if he later went missing and Capper and Alastor had a bonding moment out in the bayou together with nothing but a cinderblock and some rope, well, that's no one's business but their's).
Capper and Am's romance after that was a whirlwind, dancing and singing and painting the town. Alastor (15) even gave her away at their wedding (and if anyone didn't like the idea of a lowly black waitress marrying one of the most powerful men in New Orleans, then they were quick to learn that gators got to eat too).
After Am's death from a brain aneurysm in 1928, Capper fell into depression, just going through the motions of life. The only thing he still found joy in was his son Alastor and his radio broadcast. But when Alastor was shot and killed by a hunter in 1933, Capper completely lost it. He tracked that hunter down and fed him to his own dogs before letting the authorities catch him. He was sentenced to death and given the chair in 1934.
Finding himself in Hell, Capper was quick to reunite with Alastor, the only family he had left (he being one of the few people in all of creation Alastor genuinely cares for). With his son's help, he was able to establish himself as one of Hell's sovereign overlords. Using his experience from his time in the New Orleans underground, he made himself a demon of principles: fair contracts for the souls in his employ, merciless brutality against his enemies, and endless torment to those he genuinely hates (pedophiles, rapists, the hunter, Alastor's father, Valentino) every hated soul claimed, adding another eye to his tail.
Eventually however, he hears about a passion project led by one Charlie Morningstar, Princess of Hell. A hotel for rehabilitating sinners and getting them into Heaven. Probably the first time in 90 years Capper felt any hope of seeing his wife again.
And so, he became Charlie's first true supporter (aside from Vaggie) providing aid to the hotel in exchange for safe haven for his people on extermination day and the hope of reuniting with Am in Heaven.
And then shortly after the battle with Heaven and the opening of the new hotel . . .
He was betrayed. Murdered on the steps of the hotel he gave so much to defend.
Of course, death isn't always final.
Overall, Capper would say he's fairly happy with how things turned out.
#hazbin hotel#charlie morningstar#vaggie#oc#si#original character#self insert#oc self insert#si/oc#alastor#alastor's mother#alastor's father#3 am sketch#sketchbook#sketches#sketch#artists on tumblr#my art#art#artwork#im still really bad at drawing people#like normal people#the proportions are always off#this took so long#alastor is in hell for a reason#had to fix that last picture#it was bothering me
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Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness
(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)
#star wars#star wars the bad batch#the bad batch fanart#tbb fanart#tbb fanfiction#dumping my “fanfic_doodles.clip” file here literally#sorry the style is messy#now I see them all Im like “ok it's all over the place zero/100 aesthetically pleasuring post”#hhhh its the thought that counts?#And tbh the point is just to convince you to read theses#because I'm like OBSSEEESSED with theses since you appeared in my notes#Every fic is gold#Me baiting my followers with pretty enough pictures to read fanfics#this being said I should really take the time to color properly my stuff#but I don't liiiiiiiiike it#there is tons of more talented artists if people want colored beautiful amazing art#me I can't really make my “”“spontaneous”“” “”“doodles”“” pretty without trying hard and at the end it's meh#They're so flat too#yesterday I was like “oh my scenes are becoming less flat I improved maybe”#Then I scrolled on my storyboard insta and was like#yeah sure no#I'm still faaaaaar away from the industry standards#I studied like at three arts school and I'm still bad at drawing TAT#why is my brain not working v_v#look brain I'm showing you nice pictures learn from them#brain: no Im gonna overfixate on this left hand here and only this#anyway
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One of my first digital pieces (2010) versus one of my recent ones (2024)
We all start somewhere!
#picked these cause they're in a similar pose lol. i mean not at all. but sort of... more than my other art at least...#oh fuck im so tired im saving this to drafts and coming back later#my anxiety meds wipe me the fuck out so im trying not to take them in the day#and they're like legit borderline a sleeping med for me. i take one and in 30 mins im OUT.#so I'm. i mean i was already only taking 1-2 in the day and then 2-3 at night#anyways it makes me sad when people say they dont have an artistic bone in their body#and especially when they say they could never draw like me :(#dont put yourself down to lift me up! i don't want my art to be used for you to be mean to yourself!!!#lots of experiences of people comparing themselves to me and being mean to themself...#feels bad. it's okay if you're slow it's okay to be learning it's okay!!!#I'm me and you're you and we're here to learn from each other. i just wanna hang out..#y'know what I'm just gonna post without saying anything i WILL forget I made a draft#i have so many things i intend to post and then forget#it's a wonder I post anything#i only do it when i get bored. and run out of stuff to scroll through#like whelp. guess if i want a post I have to make one myself.#also the second one is really good idc that it's a study i still drew it#art growth#this was in 2010 btw#i started highschool in 2011#I've grown a lot and you can too.#also I've never really been one to dislike my old art. like idk I was trying... if it's bad I just won't look at it whatever#like i wouldn't be mean to someone else who made that so i don't get a free pass to be mean just cause it's to me#man my thoughts are bungled. okay sleep time#if my phone made typos you didn't see it
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#stardew valley#sdv alex#i just wanted to draw him in shorts ok#then i just didnt pay attention to how people actually look when moving cause im like#oh cool hes gonna wave and say sup#and then im like hmmmm p sure thats not the proper way youd wanna run#but its a doodle and i can post it and its good enough#sorry september is just a genuinely bad month for me and so energy gets really low around this time as does mood#soooo.... im still updating daily but the energy is real bad ....
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pet archon shard
#im bad at naming things#and people#someone on twitter named the corpus carl the intern so i guess i might just yoink that name#tbh i'd rather just try not to refer to them in any way#im not even letting other characters call him “the corpus” because they give more respect to him than that#anyway this comic is quite multipurposed#in terms of plot and me trying to find something to draw for chipper#he's still hard to draw btw his reference is really hard to come by#maybe that's why not many people draw him...#warframe#warframe chipper#warframe corpus#my art#warframe carl the intern
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shut up
#transformers#maccadam#drama#i like the cover#people saying it's too 'sexy' are the problematic sexists#this same shit happened with z0ner's cover. yes i bullied her too because i believed the stupid shit you guys were saying#I MANAGED TO GROW UP BUT YOU PEOPLE ARE STILL DOING THIS TOXIC SEXIST ASS DANCE#i thought i was the bad person but honestly it's yall and your bullying asses#you're disgusting for bullying artists just because they draw women how they want#GROW UP.#I LOVE DRAWING CURVY SLIM SEXY ROBOT GIRLS#THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT#WE SHOULD FILL THE WORLD WITH MORE OF THEM BECAUSE IT'S WHAT I WANT TO SEE#IF YOU WANT TO SEE SOMETHING ELSE... DO IT YOURSELF!!!! MAYBE ONE DAY THE COMPANY WILL LIKE YOUR ART ENOUGH TO HAVE IT ON A COVER#i like milne's stocky arcee just as much as average arcee from TFA just as much as svelte arcee in this cover#i really thought it was me that was why i left the fandom due to my ignorance but coming back and seeing this petty ass drama you guys#are unleashing... im realising that you guys are the problematic ones. omfg#you make it so unfun to be in this fandom. might as well publish the most recent animation i was working on then take the ones i've already#finished into hiding. you people suck the joy out of drawing for transformers.#transformers was my last bastion out of depression and you guys reminded me why people shouldn't get into transformers#getting back into tf revitalized my desire to draw and held me back from suicide. but knowing how toxic environment you guys are...#there's no reason to keep living with such inhospitable negative toxic bullies.
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i often really do feel like an .. unwanted part of the fandom, i dont draw beautiful landscapes, i have unpopular but strong opinions im constantly annoying about and rarely change, dont like/dont draw the pretty young popular twinks and hot gurls to fanboi over nor do i turn characters into one, the opposite moreso, draw only one ship no ones heard of really, got little energy to interact with the few people that are nice to me and send me asks so it probably looks like im ignoring everyone and unfortunately but still rarely get so stressed i get overwhelmed and emotional about pehaps seemingly minor things and spiral almost into a breakdown feeling super embarrassed about it afterwards but the damage is already done and i look like a freak or agressive weirdo
#ganondoodles talks#also probably sounds like self pity#but this feeling hits everytime i see a super popular artist be the popular cool artist#i am a little weird i know that and thats not somethign bad i think#but the internet never gets to see that much of me#i tend to write posts when i am at my worst bc it has to go somewhere#so the image it tells people is that im a weirdly strong opiniod freak that gets breakdowns over nothing#i also dont feel like im otherwise -cool tm- enough to balance that out#i dont think my art is as stylized or as inventive as others nor am i cool to interact with bc idk how to be cool to interact with#i feel double bad when i misstepped with someone i used to talk to bc of something stupid ... or just dont know what i did wrong#im guessing its especially when i am in that spiraling state of mind where i really am not myself tbh#it still feels very bad bc i feel like i can never make it up to anyone again#sorry i acted like a jerk my brain was exploding in emotions in a desperate attempt to deal with something idk how to deal with-#-and made me not act like myself but now i feel really dumb about it#doesnt sound like a good excuse#... i want to thank those that do stick with me#even if i acted strange sometimes- even if i disappointed sometimes- even when i couldnt keep a promise#there are little things that still make me angry at myself#like that one time i asked in the tags whod read as long as the end of them and if someone did shoudl send me an ask so id draw a lil thing#and i got two#and i kept trying to remeber oh shit i need to do that and forgetting again/not having energy for it in a loop#i still feel like a jerk about it but now its probably too late#i wish i could answer all asks i get but man my energy for that is always rock bottom#no matter how much i enjoy the ask#and i love getting asks!!!#im sorry :((
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am i the only person who tends to think of pain in pitch?
as in, pain can be “high pitch” or “low pitch” — if its sharp, like a paper cut or heartburn or aching, its high pitch; if its like a stubbed toe or sore muscles or a headache, its low pitch
high pitch pain is when you hiss, low pitch pain is when you groan, etc etc
i dont know if this makes sense to anyone else?????
(because everytime im writing fanfiction i have to hold myself back from describing it that way — and im not even sure i could fully, effectively communicate that w/o breaking immersion — but me saying “sharp pain” has become. a problem. probably. i really need alternatives)
#and i for some reason associate high pitch pain with light colors and low pitch pain with dark colors#its not exactly word for word like that but its the best way i can think of right now to put it#yes this was sparked by my shepnax fic#yes ive been writing it for a week and am one paragraph into chapter 2#god what i would give to not stare at my screen for 10 minutes straight with a fully blank mind and actually. you know. write#it is what it is#if anyone has any alternatives…please let me know bc google hasn’t been very helpful (but I haven’t looked very hard since im curious if#other people think like this too)#GOD I JUST REMEMBERED I STILL HAVE HALF THE PROMISED DRAWINGS TO DO#SHOOT SHOOT SHOOT#UHM#MY BAD YALL???#ill try to crank em out tomorrow#whoops#jade rambles#-> really living up to this tag right now huh#not art#writing
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Highschool sucks because I could get hit in the face with a soccer ball at full speed and only 2 girls will care enough to ask if I'm okay
#totally isnt what happened today or anything#ummm anyways my face still hurts a little bit but im mainly feeling fine now#SHOUT OUT TO THOSE 2 GIRLS THOUGH. THEY WERE ALSO THE ONLY PEOPLE WHO ASKED IF I WAS OKAY AFTER AN ASTHMA ATTACK THE OTHER DAY#theyre really sweet#id try to be friends with them but they dont seem like the type of people who would want to be friends with the girl who doesnt talk#so far being friendless at school has only caused a few tears to be shed. living it up guys#plus like i have really bad social anxiety you all know this i cant go up to people or ill cry#but yknow whatever im fine with being alone. it gives me more time to draw i guess#doesnt matter#FUCK THOSE BOYS WHO KICKED THE SOCCER BALL IN MY FACE#MY GLASSES CUT MY NOSE AND I HAVE A BLACK BRUISE NOW#it hurts to have my glasses on my face but i need them super bad i cant see 2 inches away from my face#ughhhhh im so tired of my school. i cant do this#text post#shut up hazel
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drew and animated some beefleaf with this audio cus i think they fit the concept so well :') i had original plans to make it angstier but ill save it for next time :6
hope u like it as much as i do!!
ALSO! i posted this on tiktok too so if u could drop a like and share it there too i would really appreciate it :( <3
🔗 https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTLAbb3PF/
#this was my first time drawing beefleaf and also using procreate dreams so my bad if it looks very noob-ly done#im still learning t-t#BUT i still like it and im proud of how it turned out even tho i can see every single mistake i did#but cant be bothered to fix them alr#animating can get annoying#also not really sure how well does tumblr receives videos??#like- do people like watching vids here?#idk if its that liked but oh well#just wanted to share#beefleaf#shi qingxuan#he xuan#mxtx tgcf#tgcf#heaven official's blessing
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trigun panel redraws from the first 5 chapters
#trigun#trigun maximum#vash the stampede#rem saverem#drawing#artists on tumblr#illustration#my art#comic#manga#trimax#panel redraw#trimax goes so crazy. though early trigun you can kinda tell nightow wasnt quite sure what direction he really wanted to go lol#it's still phenomenal work. I'm having so much fun going through it#im taking the opportunity of looking for panels to redraw to also really like. study the story lol#i'm also so bad at intentionally messy hatching lmaoo i cant do it T^T#all of these are done on little cards :D i'm keepin em in a little case for now#i figure if i take my ww cosplay out again i can hand em out to people who stop me for a pic or a compliment yk#idk what panel i'm gonna do when i finally reach 5th moon. there's so many crazy things
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feeling bad about my art lately. will probably not post for a while. but i wanted to at least dump some stuff here before i retreat into my hidey hole
#hivemind tv#hmfcu#riley savage#graydon weaver#quadeca#jane remover#eden burke#my art#2023#fanart#doodles#furry#its like. augh. longtime fleouriarts followers are familiar with my eternal tango with posting art online#doing this since i was 11 has like rotted my brain and made me rely wayyyy too much on external validation to motivate myself#and every year or so it gets bad enough that i take a break. but the break usually only lasts a month before i miss the feeling#and come back and then the cycle repeats#its probably worse now bc this is a fandom where getting seen by the creators is not really that hard#so there have been times where im like 'well idk if i wanna draw this. but if i do maybe hivemind will rt it :-)'#NO!!! THATS NOT WHAT ART IS ABOUT!!!!! i cant keep letting myself get addicted to the numbers going up man i gotta get out of here#and i was reading a quad interview from around when idmthy got released. cus hes also brain poisoned like this. but he managed to get out#and now just kinda comes online to release music and then leave#i need to be like that. i need to take a break from art posting thats so long that i come back as a changed man odysseus style#idk. its been so long since i drew stuff that no one gets to see but me. all the art i keep to myself is just out of embarrassment#i need to relearn how to draw stuff just for the love of creation and not “maybe people online will like this one”#or “this new thing came out i need to prove my love of it by drawing it”#sometimes it leads to good art but more often than not it just makes me feel worse#whatever. if any of yall are in the hivemind jane or quadeca discord i MIGHT still post stuff there. but otherwise ill keep to myself and m#friends for a while i think#woooooo this is queued to post while im in orgo lab everyone wish me luck with my thin layer chromatography
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a thought that is absolutely bonkers to me: do people think of me as an artist? can i be considered one now? if yes then that is the most bizarre thing in the world to me HAA like yea i do silly drawings but am i an Artist™ in some people's eyes??
#omppu jorisee#YEAH it's not that deep but also.......#there are people who are artists and there are ppl who do silly doodles and i think im the latter 100%#but would some people think of me as an artist? if so WHY hahah#sorry ive got no point really im just forever amazed how much käärijä has inspired me to draw lol#but i guess even a bad artist could still be considered an artist HA
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one of the funniest things I've had happen in therapy was my therapist's failed technique that banked on me being idk like. nice. "ik people probably think I'm annoying/stupid/crazy when I'm forced to express a need that most normal people don't seem to have" "well would you feel that way about other people who have similar needs to you or other uncommon needs?" "I mean I wouldn't like, say it to them, but yeah probably" & she just didn't know how to respond lmao
#really what i need help w isnt 'see yourself how youd see other people' type shit but dismantling the beliefs ive been forced to internalize#since early childhood that if you (the general you) need something that 'no one else ever needs' or is 'weird' or uncommon or even just#something that could pote tially be questioned then thats Bad & Wrong & you should absolutely just hide it or if youre unable to then you#need to at least downplay it as much as possible. like ik logically it isnt fair or right to think that way but 'dont rock the boat or draw#attention to these things' is just how i feel overall about these things. sigh#texticles#idk i guess a lot of people have a 'this is fine for everyone else but not me' thing that i simply dont. like im not gonna ever be mean abt#it to other people or anything but i still havent uninternalized this shit & it applies across the board
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i bet on losing dogs i know theyre losing and i pay for my place by the ring where ill be looking in their eyes when theyre down ill be there on their side
im losing by their side
#sorry for being sad again#i shouldnt be its not even that bad#im just so useless ive even stopped writing the one thing i was doing to justify my existence#all im doing is drawing now and im not even good my friend can draw photorealistically and shes in calculus and is perfect at chem#and greek#and i still dont think i have actual friends or am in a friend group#and ive stopped sitting with people at lunch#and i have two essays due on monday and one of them is on a really dense philosopher and i can barely understand what hes saying#my utterly fascinating life#im not even going through that much why am i so sad
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been real cloudy here, without any rain
#halfway thru this i realized i was drawing myself and not gumi and i had to take a moment and re-gumi-fy the drawing#cant help being a gumi kinnie i guess U_U#dnoodles#vocaloid#i guess? idk i dont think a lot of people will reblog this. i actually kinda hope not.#hello dear followers#yea wow i have um. not been drawing at all lately.#not even simple doodles. i couldnt even pick up a pen.#so i sat down. turned on my favorite music. and drew what i wanted.#not what i wanted to see as the result#but what i wanted to let out of my system.#i dont really care if this looks good or bad. i dont care how messy the lines are. i dont care about the colors or the background#i just wanted to have a good time drawing again. and have a good time i did :)#i have a big drawing ahead of me i need to do. that i Want to do.#im scared of it not turning out good. especially since its for a friend. especially since im being paid for it.#but. im gonna let myself enjoy it. sink into the feeling and let the pen move on its own. indulge in the joy of creation.#i missed art. i missed posting.#sometimes i think about how i was able to crank out so many drawings in high school.#not without extreme determent to my grades of course. but still. i was drawing So Much. and i utterly loved it.#i still wish i could go back to that. perhaps i will. perhaps i wont.#but i want to let that wish go away. and. i guess. start a new chapter.#reinvent my relationship with art.#its going to be bad. its going to be messy. its going to hurt your eyes. and its going to be fun.#WOW okay that was an essay. thank you for reading.#im gonna go eat something and. actually get back to drawing. hehe
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