#yes ive been writing it for a week and am one paragraph into chapter 2

[jadecantcreate]

am i the only person who tends to think of pain in pitch?

as in, pain can be “high pitch” or “low pitch” — if its sharp, like a paper cut or heartburn or aching, its high pitch; if its like a stubbed toe or sore muscles or a headache, its low pitch

high pitch pain is when you hiss, low pitch pain is when you groan, etc etc

i dont know if this makes sense to anyone else?????

(because everytime im writing fanfiction i have to hold myself back from describing it that way — and im not even sure i could fully, effectively communicate that w/o breaking immersion — but me saying “sharp pain” has become. a problem. probably. i really need alternatives)

[altruistic-meme]

I’ve been stalking your page ever since finishing the latest chapter of (why is there) joy in this poison and FINALLY SOMEONE WHO IS OBSESSED WITH YR AND AFTG.

It’s funny seeing crossovers between fandoms and I like to keep my blog quiet between my many indulgences and hyperfixations but omg!!! I’ve loved both of these series for so long and to see some one as joyed about them as me is so neat!

in all honesty I came here to gush about your writing, how I really enjoy what you made and continue to make for the aftg universe! the way you write Andrew specifically is so unique and defiently made me re-read his lines and certain chapters because they’re just that GOOD! And to see a relationship between Kevin and Neil that’s so near and dear- is so refreshing- I love how much love they have for each other! And DONT GET ME STARTED ON THE ANDREIL MOMENTS!! Ugh the trust those two already have and continue to show each other in such a short amount of time (truly a feat for sir “walls” Andrew Minyard) has me on the edge of my seat for every and all chapters! And who isn’t a slut for sassy Neil really. That kid could trash talk anyone into the ground and I’d be applauding him the entire time!

Thank you truly for the lovely fic weather you choose to continue it or not, I have been blessed either way and definitely will check out your other fics! I’ve got my eye on I’ve Got You, Brother its seem like such a fantastic concept and you’ve got to love some older brother bonding!

Anyway- sorry for my rambling, just thought I’d come and sing your praises and if you see me lurking in your mentions here and comments on Ao3 from now on, don’t mind me!

hi omg ;;; i hope you know this got neither lost nor ignored, ive just been thinking about it nonstop for the last 2 weeks and have wanted to keep it close and easy to reread so i could cry over it

bc um basically AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ya know?

this is so so so incredibly sweet of you!!!!!! like i said ive reread this so many times in the last 2 weeks bc it's just. i cant form words even now, rereading it to reply.

YES aftg and yr are both SO good and im always glad to find more people who like them both!! (and there are a few of us out there! i am certainly not innocent of convincing more than one of my yr friends to read aftg and i will never apologize 😌) but they are both such big big parts of me now <3

thank you so so much for reading (wit)jitp!!! ;;;;; that fic means so so much to me and i swear to you i have no plans of abandoning it, ive just been kind of hitting walls in writing (though slowly ive been finding cracks, and hopefully i can convince the walls to crumble) but i have too many plans to give up now >:] there's still so much in store. you barely even know Nathaniel's plans 😩

SOBBING AGAIN OVER THE PARAGRAPH HERE BTW i am truly awestruck bc i was so so nervous about writing Andrew bc he's such a hard character for me to understand, and to hear your thoughts on him was so amazing for my self-esteem!! (it is also the easiest way to make me scream and cry, to compliment my characterization, since im almost always worried about it but i digress skdhg)

Kevin and Nathaniel's relationship is also something that i could scream for hours about but let me say it has been AMAZING seeing how many people love their love for each other and i will forever be ecstatic to hear it ;;;; and Andrew and Nathaniel!!! two very traumatized boys finding trust in each other bc they both have the same values and can find common ground (and comfort!) with each other where no one else will. ;;;;

also we stan a sassy Neil, you are SO RIGHT literally who wouldn't be a slut for sassy Neil. he deserves more sass, imho.

also omg thank you for giving my other fics a look, too ;;; I've Got You, Brother is definitely a good choice for some brotherly bonding, that's the main focus of the story after all :] (though im debating some ideas which won't feature Wille at all, we'll see how it goes) i definitely need to work on that one as well >>

you never need to apologize for rambling btw!! i love rambles :D (as you can probably tell bc i also rambled... a lot, whoops) but always feel free to send me asks or messages with any and all of your thoughts <3

thank you so so so so so much for this, and for reading my stories, and for being an amazing person!!

[toas-tea]

tagged by @thank-god-and-you ty bab

Are you staying home from work/school?

had to put school on hold, was supposed to get my degree to make my resume look prettier but alas the world went to shit. i learn better when im in physically present in a classroom and i cant stand the idea of all my classes being online. luckily am in college so it’s not as detrimental.

blessed to still be working since my job is considered an essential.

If you’re staying home, who’s there with you?

me myself and i

mom, mama, and madre

Are you a homebody?

yes. and no? does that make sense? im the type of person who needs to ocassionally get together with friends ever two-three months, so that deprivation has been slowly consuming my butters. i actually think i would’ve gone bonkers if video chat didn’t exist.

video chat and animal crossing. thank the croissants.

What movies have you watched lately? What shows are you watching?

i haven’t watched a movie since It Chapter 2

boo thing and i were in the middle of watching Next In Fashion but that’s been put on hold because of social distancing...Queer Eye S5′s on my list. along with a bunch of other stuff i have zero motivation for atm rip

An event that you were looking forward to that canceled?

mulan live action like how dare this world push the one movie i’ve loved since CHILDHOOD and looked forward to since it was first announced BACK into the void. gdi at least put it on disney plus or whatever its called so i can cancel my subscription after im done with the movie.

still salty enough to season your garlic knots tbh.

What music are you listening to?

good music

recently got into ghost, highly rec.

also have had madeon’s “the prince” on repeat since i first discovered it days ago, hoping and praying this dude just releases this song already because sweet jeebus

What are you reading?

iain glen’s face and the void that is my incomplete wips

What are you doing for self-care?

animal crossing, few sessions of social media isolation, bananas, writing at least one paragraph for jorleesi about anything just to be a bit productive sometimes with a bit of sapporo.during these SUPER vulnerable times, ive definitely tried not to drink as much or take hits, and restricted that to only 1-2 times every few weeks. ate cherries every time my mind wandered above my self-imposed threshold as a substitute and/or made avocado smoothies.

tagging whoever wants to do this