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So does anybody else ever think about how Loop felt the need to demonstrate that the party's deaths wouldn't have any effect on the loops. I know I do but that's besides the point. Anyway I don't think Loop actually needs to bathe, they just like to feel included.
#'but lucabyte didnt you already do a comic with this exact same message? that loop has potentially killed their party intentionally before?'#yes i did absolutely do that thank you for noticing. that is what the cannibalism comic is about. no that was not a metaphor. lol#isat#in stars and time#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#sifloop#isat siffrin#isat loop#in stars and time fanart#isat fanart#lucabyteart#ill ramble elsewhere some other time. maybe in a text post. but. long and short of it: even if you assume the answer to 'how do they know'#is that in sasasap isa got frozen once. theres still the fact that the loops are from sif being too distressed. how far gone does a siffrin#have to be before they can witness a party member die and notice it has no effect. how does loop feel to have planned to kill the party#during act 3. why did they NEED to show sif that. are they trying to preemtively stop them from getting the idea in their head#that maybe that might work? when they're out of all other options? when they just get so frustrated and at wits end?#loop helps in subtle ways through the whole game. and in less subtle ways like begging sif not to use the dagger. and while yes the#overarching reason you need to learn that the loops are tied to sif is because you need to figure out wish craft.... loop doesn't know the#actual mechanics of the loops themselves. just what didn't work. the power of friendship. getting the final hit in. being perfect. etc...#and besides all that.. how did loop feel during that hangout. being so deceitful. especially since before the other shoe drops#sif is enjoying themselves. but they know what's coming the whole time.#as for: why bathing? its the obvious imagery for blood on their hands/washing/never being clean. and is a bit of an inversion of the other#piece i just drew with the other casual closeness and nudity being kind. this one is cruel instead.#anyway tag ramble over ill do a masterpost of all my fanwork with some directors commentary sometime i promise. since i know im often vague
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sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.
but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.
I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.
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#dont know why continuing in tags but here is more#sometimes we need to ask âwhyâ and not just get mad about how we feel personally. because other people feel differently#yes im guilty of only thinking my feelings and situation and how it relates too and forgetting other peoples. i also need to learn#and everyone's feelings should be valid. just because something might âhurtâ you it might be important for someone else#everyones feelings are valid. but we cant protect everyones feeling. so idk the solution#but stopping someone from having a small positive among a sea of nevgative seems a little mean to me#youre not being empathetic to their side. and i can turn it around and be not empathetic to your side and say stop being upset#and get over it and let people have fun. but i wont. i hear you. but at the same time maybe hear us too.#not everyone wants to live only negatively. youre allowed to but dont expect others to.#and yes i GET IT these things can make the allistics and neurotypicals be even worse towards us. but what do we do?#throw out any positivity we can find and grovel in our struggles because the allistics wont take us seriously?#DO THEY TAKE US SERIOUSLY WITHOUT THOSE SILLY TRENDY THINGS? NO! THEY NEVER HAVE#like i said i dont know the solution and everything still be used against us by those people anyway so might as well have fun?#if we focus on struggles they baby us and dont let us do things and block us from living life#if we focus on positive they dismiss our struggles and try to make us do what we cant and dont help us#we cant win! so its not âthe 'tismâ or whatever other things people made up that cause them to act this way#they already act that way and wont stop unless we figure out how to teach them! but i dont know how! im just a useless little creature#this is probably controversial and someone will get because i dont agree with their perspective despite respecting it#someome will comment to lecture me even though i get it. i do. but two things can exist at the same time!! idk what to tell you!#autistic#autism#actually autistic#lee rambles#words are hard so dont know if i worded it well or not. probably not#also why take away fun things because another group used it for bad? make them stop the bad not stop the good!#i also might be missing more context. i think is about tiktok using these for bad. tiktok is just bad in general and i refuse to use it#why tiktok dictate and ruin our lives now in general? tiktok is really bad đ but that another conversation#no one yell at me and say i dismiss struggles of struggling autistics. maybe you dismiss me needing negative thing to have positive?#not in mood for negative response. will probably cry fhhddhsjdjdjkd#today is real struggle day but if i be little creature i feel better
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Wverytime I sit down at a computer to make music I get so scared
#i like siting down with a guitar and writing music but the daw is still so scary to me and i dont know how to make it less scary#its like i dont know where to start#i understand music theory i can write chord progressions i can write melodies but arranging feels so daunting#like just trying to pick keyboard voices and stuff im like overwhelmed and then its like i just dont even know where to start#i think i need to do more covers to practice arranging because trying to do it with my own songs im just like i have NO IDEA#i do think that trying to recreate arrangements of other songs I like will help me but also just idk#i really want to get better at writing at the piano but i find it really hard#rn i write almost all my songs on the guitar then i guess what i have to do is try to think of like what style i want it to have#and sort of try to create a map like probably literally on paper and then try to go in and sort of do it but god its so hard i dont know#it feels so so daunting#even trying to make silly little stuff with just like some synths is really hard for me right now its so out of my comfort zone and AUGH id#its frustrating im scared of the computer but i also very much do not want to be an acoustic singer songwriter but thats all i can do#because all i can do is play fucking guitar!!!! and its just so frustrating#technically im like with a midi controller i should be able to do whatever program drums write little synth lines etc i dont have to like#know how to play piano and yet whenever i try to do it i just get so overwhelmed and freaked out with how many possibilities there are#that i just . cannnnnt#AHGHHHHHHHHHHHH im so im in such a bad mood right ow#ive had such a horrible night honestly#i think i will just go engage in fixation for comfort and then go to bed sigh#i dont know what to do to improve at making music in the daw i guess ill just maybe try again this weekend to take another crack at it#god its just so frustrating that i only started writing songs 2 years ago and have only learned to use a daw in the last 3 months i WISH#that i was one of these teenagers who spent all my time writing silly songs and playing around with a midi controller but i just didnt#because i was scared!!!!!!!#playing the guitar and singing has always been like the only thing that felt safe cos i felt if i tried to actually write and arrange songs#by myself i would fail so now i just feel so frustrated because i dont feel like a real musician and i feel like im starting too late#AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH whatever sorry for using the tags of this post as my diary but#i am frustrated!!!!
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My headcanons for the named trio in The Cursing of Chateau Castle series:
Josephandre is a big bear. It just fits for him I think! He gets he/him pronouns, and as a way to make him a liiiil more relatable for Mira, he'd have two craft types (Rock type being his main one and paper craft for the other). Battle style wise, I think it fits him to be more of a self-sustaining tank. He buffs defense, heals, and puts up shields. For his weapon, he'd use his fists like Isabeau. He'll be the second fastest in the trio.
Lady Irene-Janine-Kanine looks like an elegant noblewoman on the outside but she has vibes similar to Euphrasie! She gets she/her pronouns. Her craft type is Paper. Battle style wise, she's more on the offensive side, a main dps kind of thing. Most of her skills focus on buffing attack and speed, she'd have an item that helps regen her hp a lil bit and her chosen weapon is an umbrella. The tip is a sharp blade so it's used like a spear that has a hidden sword in its handle. Open it, and it becomes a shield! That'd be one of her skills too, although it's only applicable to her. She's the fastest one of the trio.
Pierre-Jacques-Erneste looks like a nobleman and carries himself as such! He gets he/they pronouns. Their craft type is Scissors. Battle style wise, he's more of a debuffer, skills focusing on weakening the enemies, slowing them down, poisoning them. Their weapon is a sword dagger, though he doesn't seem to be able to handle it well, how clumsy! But he Is a nobleman so it makes sense! Oh but... why doesn't he have a title? They're the slowest one of the trio, how strange, he seemed to be faster than Lady Irene-Janine-Karine that one time though.
#aria rants#how do i even tag these things bro im like-- why am i such a fan of a fragmented series in isat#okay so-- josephandre relied mostly on raw strength when he was travelling all alone before meeting the others#and i think he'd have a fun uncle vibe to him. which makes it easy for others to approach him and befriend him#but he Also carries a sort of pride and dignity to him which makes the others mistake him for a nobleman cuz of it#esp considering the fact that he later became famous for helping those in need and such.#lady irene on the other hand. being a noble she's always had to keep her guard up. also doesnt help that noblewomen#got the short end of the stick what with the ''arrange marriage'' things and being below noblemen#her umbrella weapon helps a lot in warding off the assholes. i think that during the journey with josephandre's party#she got to finally be herself without needing to sugarcoat her words in a way that a noble should. she would also figure out a#way to improve on her shield spell to not only apply to just her but her entire party too. she cares a lot about them after all#meanwhile i got a Whole scenario for pierre (being an illegitimate child of a noble family and all that. i made a post bout it)#he's actually a lot more capable than what he makes himself appear as. but its like part of the plan on getting the others#to lower their guards around him for when pierre betrays them. in actuality pierre is actually faster than irene altho#not much stronger still (irene and josephandre are still stronger than him) considering that pierre mainly focused on#stealth type attacks. hes more used to using a sword than a dagger (he mightve wanted to prove their worth)#it makes their battle style and weapon clash due to the fact that swords arent that good for stealth much than a dagger#its one of the reasons why hes trying to get used to the dagger than the sword. but it is a bit difficult to learn a new weapon
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ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think đ
#haunted ecosystem#i'll take a burst of creativity in a different form than usual than the burnout slump i've been in for a few months#<- part of why my fandom stuff has taken a smidge of a backseat#dont get me wrong i am still very excited about my fandoms im just having fun off in oc hell (affectionate)#its nice to just be able to create and not really worry about perception. and also i feel Less bad about just throwing ocs into the wringer#((blame the fact i've been REALLY interested in whump recently and i have been. fixated. on one of my characters.))#and ALSO i've been! rekindling my flame for wtds. i've been putting off thinking about it since that fic got.#nothing bad happened? but it was still very devastating that somebody who i considered a friend from that fic just. evaporated.#but i'm gonna finish that fic for him :) even if it takes a year. even if it's the one thing i finish ever. it'll be wtds.#for where its gotten me and the fact its what got me out of my shell and is the reason i trust that my writing is good!#i used to really hate rereading my work. i catch flaws that are obvious to me. but that fic. i just think about how *good* the story is#that story means. a lot to me? as a person? like the main character is not a good person. but people care about him anyway.#and there are so many little things. so many sentiments. so much that is a love letter to people who've done bad but learnt to do better#because. god knows i wasnt a good person even just a few years ago. and maybe i see myself in him a bit.#he came from a place of paranoia and fear and pain. and maybe its a good thing that i've found it difficult to write him recently.#because god. i've been HAPPY. even with the rough moments and bad days. i've been happy. i mean fuck.#my birthday's what. ten days away? god damn man. i'm going to be 18. that's an achievement.#i want to look the kid who thought it was over at half my age and tell him we fucking made it. and there are more years to come.#there's a life ahead. even if it's going to be a bitch. even if it's going to be tough. there's love in your heart and people who care and#you're going to fucking live and you're going to feel better one day. you have people to meet properly and thank and cherish.#because for every day it feel like the world's ending there are a dozen more where the sun shines just the right way through the rain#and you can't help but smile because it's just so god damn beautiful.#and fuck it. you're sick. your hands hurt and your legs don't work right. and it's tough sometimes. but you have people who understand.#you have people who honest to god love you for who you are and appreciate your company. and 18 is the first step.#you've spent half your life unlearning things and you've spent half your life relearning how to be what YOU want to be#and if you're a mediocre artist and passionate writer then you'll be fucking great at that. taking the time to learn when it strikes you.#and maybe this is for me. but its also for anybody reading it too. please god if there's one thing you take from this let it be that#somebody out there cares. *I* care. god i care. even if we've never spoken proper i care about you.#i practically have a list of everybody i see in my inbox. i love seeing familiar names show up. i.#i dont know how to neatly wrap up this tag ramble. but. i am so damn full of love it hurts sometimes. its scary to be happy but thats ok!
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achievement get (for the billionth time): take one look at an assignment and get severely overwhelmed AND discouraged for the rest of the day and do nothing
#it's so much and it's dishonest work!! literally dishonest because all i can think of is how bullshit a lot of it sounds. instead of#you know?#actually learning anything?#but this thorough lack of motivation is just gonna get me in trouble isnt it. how do i swallow my emotions and figure things out#its getting harder every year and the feeling that the few people i have close by do not ever truly understand - like at all - is horrifyin#yes sorry this is all i could think of for the past six hours. im having a great day (no im not. i also hate myself for feeling this way)#zero.txt#im sure it hurts the few people who care and who thought i'd actually go on to do things to see me constantly wallowing for reasons#that they refuse to comprehend or have compassion for.#just stop being sad! just get to work piece by piece! have some resilience#meanwhile all ive done is cry. maybe a part of me just likes feeling like this i DONT KNOW#and ofc so often im like. the only reason im still around is im quiet and they havent invented thought police#yet.#how can i have hope when the moment i decide to pluck a silver of it out of my core i read something that in a better world would not even-#-be a nightmare#like. you say things like that with your mouth and expect us to mindlessly repeat if we want anything in life...#fuck my stupid baka life <3#ugh im just going in yet another circle now when i know trying to put my feelings in words is not helpful. what IS helpful#negative#again sorry. at least you dont have to open this wall of tags#delete later#maybe
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ive spent like 20 minutes trying to world this eloquently but i give up; im a big fan of linebeck just. not being capable of watching over kids not the person to be the guardian of a group of young people he struggles to take care of himself at times and has so much shit going on that it takes about one conversation with oshus for the old man to realize that this guy is. not doing great
#this was gonna be like. a jokey post at first juxtaposing oshusâ expectations vs reality with linebeck but im too emotionally drained#so real linebeck talk in the tags bc idk if ive actually talked much abt like. the specific as on why. iwrite and see him the way i do#likr. off the bat i put him at like 19 in ph and im too fucking tired and just. done rn to justify that like whatever kill me if you wish.#like. hes. been throught a lit hes been abused neglected used ignored hurt ridiculed violated deceived hes so fucking tired#hes worn down over the course of ph it causes him to finally like. express his anguish over what hes been theough its cathartic#hes getting pushed but talking to oshus and being around link loosens him up and he fucking. cries properly yknow#he cries about everything and the last bit of ph hes kind of an emotional wreck but hes finally letting himself feel all that shit#he cries he struggles to articulate himself he has a violent public meltdown as he becomes fed up with his reputation#and it all culminates in bellumbeck just. being a really raw examination of what hes been through and how he feels and what to do now#he hates people he has people he wants to kill people he wanted to kill but after bellumbeck its just. hes tired. hes processed everythjng#and then he needs the post ph crew and everyone they meet along the way to just. be a fucking support system for the first time ever#like post ph hes rhe captain he runs the ship he keeps everyone in line he can do that. but hes softer more vulnerable more self doubting#hes kinder and more hesitant but trying new things and being more openly passionate abt his interests#and he keeps working through his trauma he finds out what else it causes problems for and everyone. supports him#hes not capable of like. being any kind of parental figure to link in ph his perspective on like. how to handle kids is fucked#because his perspective on what a normal childhood should look like is kind of a mess#his perspective on relationships is murky on love on adventure on self expression but post ph hes just. free. tired but free#he manages to take naps the group helps him eat properly he learns his physical boundaries and actually does what he loves#idk. im just. man idk. its still measy but like. my version of linebeck is. i really hate the idea that its so out of character its not him#like. idfk what to even say abt that. idfk what âin characterâ looks like when you hc a character to be masking in canon#when you hc them to be lying and covering things up and just. subdued bc theyre working on stuff#that they lie and exaggerate their own traits on purpose but let the truth through some cracks like what rhe fuck then#i hate it bc i dont see anyone else think of linebeck anything like this so im scared im fucking wrong somehow#im tired. i recently learned that one of my cats has been burrowing under and chilling under a blanket we cover a couch with#its very cute
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wait also my tags on that post were about people i knew in freshman and sophomore year of college specifically. i mean some of them i knew after that and most of them i knew from high school but damn some people really made everything about themselves when i was being emotionally manipulated in my freshman year
#i cant even think about it. makes so like disappointed and upset to think about some people.#its also just crazy how some people have like no introspection abilities at all.#they'll be like 'you did x once you abused me' ignoring how they did x 15 times and y 20 times and also came at me physically violently#and i know its not a calculator. i know i cant put all the bad things we did to each other into an algorithm that tells us who abused who#like i am aware that we had a toxic relationship and its better now that we are not in contact#but it makes me shake my head when i think about screenshots people used to send me of stuff my ex friends were saying about me on twt#because those people DO think they can put every bad thing ive ever done into a calculator that will show the result that i abused them#anyway. i like to think any person who knows me well and/or irl knows thats not me and i dont talk to almost anyone from that time anymore#i still follow and talk to fee...i think i still follow joanna but she is never on anymore....#in the end there is not much use in thinking anf agonizing about this anymore. i used to go into spirals a lot like maybe i DID abuse x fri#end and i just didnt REALIZE it maybe im CRAZY but. i definitely dont do that anymore. what she said to me made me do that.#(again. emotional manipulation.)#but its so crazy to remember high school and college from my current vantage point. i've lived so much good life since then.#now i own a house. i garden (something x friend told me i would never be responsible enough for) i have a boyfriend who has been scretly#into me for over year before we started dating (something x friend always told me i was imagining in people) i have a job i find fulfillment#in (something x friend said i would never find if i kept changing jobs looking for one i liked)#i feel like i make a post ever year or so when i inevitably end up looking back on those times...and i always feel guilty for making them#because i dont want it to seem like im gossiping or slandering (even though x friend posted about me all the time) but idk#i dont go to therapy yknow. i just journal and write and think in my head and on occasion i make a blog post with rambling tags#i talk to people and learn about them and through that learn about me. i read and learn about the world and the mind.#im not saying i wouldnt go to therapy if i could afford it...but i guess im defending my right to make a post about the past every year-ish.#it helps#t
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hello can you pls add the f1 x reader tag to your ask answers too đŠľ
Hi, love! I totally can, I'm just afraid to spam it, the 'mick schumacher' tag I switched to only "MS47" because I scrolled there and I felt like the number of stuff I posted (asks) could bother people, idk......
Do you want me to use the tag so other people can find it too, or?
#i will need you guys help to guide me on whats ok whats not#im still learning what works best in here#so idk#im always afraid someone is bothered by how im tagging stuff lol#feel free to lmk if something is filtered and you want me to use it so it wont show up for you <#<3*#anon#millies inbox
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my stomach freaking hurts
#im going to be personal in the tags for a moment. nothing too bad just talking#rewatching until dawn has made me recontextualize a lot of things both in real life and in the game but for now im going to talk about the#in real life. i was best friends with someone named chris from ages 11 to 18. we dated for a MAJORITY of those years. he was my best frien#friend irl and we did almost everything together and were insanely codependent on eachother#he was extremely abusive. mostly emotionally/physically. he was also ableist#i was convinced i abused him for years until i reached out to an ex friend of ours (his ex gf. my ex bff. i introduced them)#and she proceeded to tell me he also physically/emotionally abused her in the same ways and would make fun of me constantly#in their relationship. he had a weird obsession with me. hes the reason i was witch hunted off tumblr for kinning ouma and all that harras#harrassment i got and still continue to get on my more popular rp accs. he stalked me irl. would learn my work schedules and usual routines#to show up and watch me to it. he also brought his girlfriend my ex friend with him multiple times and used her email to make accs to stalk#me. she apologized for that. i forgive her because she was also being abyused by him at the time. i get it#but the thing is until dawn and chris are inherently connected because they were our core kins for years. obviously.#he still goes by chris irl. ive gone by a different name because the association scared me#but i dont know. ive been given time to process everything outside of a family that LOVED him and his family#and refused tyo believe any of this and that it was 'that bad' and thought i was a bad person for not giving him a chance#and i dont know#until dawn but specifically realizing that chris IN GAME sucks too has like. made me really really examine how badlyall of that affectyed m#and attempt to process it and move on and i feel like this is just. helping me a lot#i feel like its helped me get more affectionate with my current partner and be more comfortable and happy around them instead of walking on#egg shells. and i feel like its been helping me work on my internalized ableism too#its just been nice#txt#abuse //
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â°â⤠â dawnbreaker!zayne x afab!reader | smut nsfw 18+ mdni | kinktober '24 (backlog)
tags : pwp (with some plot), kinda porn with feelings, ambiguous relationship, that one "dawnbreaker slipping into dr. zayne's life" theory, angst (butâŚsoft???), slight nipple play, needy/desperate sex, vaginal sex, creampie, breeding kink, praise, use of "my love". lmk if i missed any tags!
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KINKTOBER MASTERLIST / KO-FI JAR / COMMISSIONS
The Zayne you know has not been the Zayne you know...
You don't fall in love with someone in the span of a few days.
It didn't work that wayâlove was a fickle emotion; complicated, unpredictable⌠Terrifying. To approach it meant silent steps. It meant biding your time, holding out your hand, moving forward little by littleâŚ
âŚIdeally.
But love was powerful.
Love did whatever it wanted.
Love could take you in like a storm while you were unprepared; love could crash through your windows and hold you hostage despite your attempts to be gentle with it.
Love could turn the tables.
And sometimes that was what it felt like to be with him.
You wouldn't fall in love with someone in the span of just a few daysâbut perhaps, this case was a special one.
Your eyes were soft, your hand reaching out to cup his cheek. Gentle caresses moved over his skin, and you could see the way he melted under your touch. His own eyes were wide, lips trembling. An inexplicable emotion stirred within the depths of his gaze⌠And it was always like this.
It was always like this when he looked at you.
As if he could never believe that you were real.
"Zayne," you murmured.
He would swallow thickly, and give the slightest of nods.
"Zayne."
The same name, the same face, the same voice. Yet this Zayne, lying on top of you, caging your body between his arms⌠he was not the same.
Not the same⌠yet similar, nonetheless. A reflection of the other, you would think. He barely spoke, yet he barely looked away from you. He felt more expressive of his thoughts, but all the same time adamant on keeping them hidden. And no matter how many times you'd seen him, he felt hesitant, unsure, guilty⌠yet so, so, so full of the very same love that the Zayne you knew would always give.
You'd lost track of how many times this had happened.
They were sporadic, at firstâmoments fleeting and spaced apart, where you had learned to separate your Zayne and the other Zayne through the smallest mannerisms you'd notice to be different.
You watched the man before you draw in a sharp breath as your hand trailed down his face and over his neck, his collarbone⌠Such visceral reactions. He looked weak before you; so⌠broken. Every time he showed himself to you, there was a tense, unspoken sense of longing that hung in the air.
He was not your Zayne.
But he would reach out all the same to mirror your actions, run the pads of his fingers through your hair and down the side of your face⌠and you would let him.
He was not your Zayne, but he wanted to be. And seeing you in front of him made him feel so fragile. That look in his eyes told you that he could shatter at any possible moment.
"âŚIt's okay."
Love was powerful, you thought.
He was not your Zayne, but he was still Zayne, after all.
You knew so little about him, but he was still Zayne. And if love was so powerfulâthen it could fix him, too. Couldn't it? Couldn't a little bit of gentleness⌠Couldn't a little bit of love⌠for him, as much as himâ
Couldn't that help?
"âŚMy loveâŚ"
Whenever he spoke, his words were short. It was hardly the matter-of-factness you were used to, hardly the witty quips and dry sarcasm that could parallel. This Zayne's words were short, his voice hoarse, and roughâas if speaking hurt him even more, as if speaking could drive him further into a puddle of guilt that he seemed to have dug himself into.
Your eyes closed.
"Zayne, it's okay," you murmured. "It's okay."
His touch grew bolder, dipping downwards, slowly pulling down the straps of your top, curling around the swell of your breasts.
Your breath hitched.
"Zayne."
He didn't speak again.
Instead, he leaned in, pressing his forehead against yours. He didn't kiss you, almost felt as if he was holding his breathâ something small, and wet, fell upon your cheek.
Your eyes opened.
Can I have you?
He asked the question silently, stray tears rolling down his face as he looked at you. His hips pressed into yours, and the outline of his erection grinded against you.
Can I have you?
He didn't speak, but his eyes told you everything.
"Yes."
Just this once.
And the whine he let out brought a slight thrill through your body.
It didn't take long before his lips were all over you, kissing you, tasting you, claiming youâdown your chest to your abdomen, inhaling the scent of your skin, before proceeding to trail wet, open-mouthed kisses back upwards. All the while, his hands remained steady on either side of your body, both a sure sign of his hesitance as much as the hunger within him that had him trembling above you.
When his eyes met yours once more, he has his mouth hovering over your nipple. Slowly, slowly, he wrapped his lips around itâit was so tender, the way he sucked on it, loving, the way his tongue would swirl as he took as much of your flesh as he could. Heavy breathing mixed in with the sloppy noises of his ministrations, and you were arching into him, begging him, encouraging him.
One more pull at your nipple until it slipped away from his lips with a wet pop, trails of saliva connecting to your bud.
"Pre...ttyâŚ" he rasped.
You felt your heart soar; for the first time, he seemed happy.
And this time it was you who didn't speak.
You reached for his hand, leaving his balance to rest momentarily on the other as you trailed it down your body. Further, and further, and further⌠His hand rest over your mound, gentle petting movements gliding a finger over your folds.
"MmmâŚ"
As usual, even the softest touch had you melting.
Zayne had always been loving , and tender, and sweet with youâŚ
This Zayne was not your Zayne, but even the careful way he treated your body felt very much like it.
He was not your Zayne. But he was still Zayne.
A mantra you would repeat to yourself.
His movements continued, gathering up your slick and spreading them all over your folds, eyes retained on your face and your expressions.
Are you feeling good? he seemed to ask, and you smiled softly.
"Very good," you whispered.
Look⌠I'm so wet for you.
Though you didn't say it, you saw the way his eyes traveled down to your cunt, finger raising as if to look in awe at the sticky mess you had made for yourself.
"âŚBeautiful."
He spoke again.
And this time, there was little to no hesitation left in his actions before he was in you, cock nestled so warmly, so perfectly, so deeply into your core.
The intrusion had you drawing in a sharp breath no matter how used to his size you would think you'd gotten, but before you could react, he had pulled you into a tight, almost possessive embrace.
"Please," he choked. You could feel his tears wetting your skin as he buried his face into the crook of your neck. "Please⌠just this once⌠Just for the last time, just⌠PleaseâŚ"
You clenched your walls around him, legs wrapping around his waist.
Slowly, you brought your hands up to stroke his hair.
"Zayne," you murmured. "You're still Zayne, right?"
"⌠Notâ"
"Mine. I know. You're the Zayne in his dreams. Aren't you?"
You felt him nuzzle into your neck with a certain desperation, a whimper tearing from his throat.
It was answer enough.
Yet you moved your hips, grinding against him, urging him to claim you more, claim you deeper.
"It's okay," you repeated, softly, "you can move."
Zayne was still Zayne. You had made the choice from the start.
You wouldn't fall in love with someone in the span of just a few daysâbut it had taken only a few couple of meetings, barely lasting hours, barely lasting minutes.
Zayne was still Zayne.
You would love everything of him.
Your hips continued to move, bucking upwards onto his, cherishing the groans he would make into your skin. It was you who set the paceâa silent voice of permission, of pleadingâŚ
And he followed suit.
"My loveâŚ"
He began to thrust.
"âŚMy loveâŚ"
Harder, faster.
"My love."
You gasped as he pulled away from you, panting harshly, driving his length in and out of youâdesperate. Desperate.
"M- mmâ!" you moaned out, arching your back. "Zayne⌠Zayne!"
"Can I⌠Can I?" he groaned above you, eyes shut in pleasure. He didn't stopâdidn't want to stop. Lewd sounds of skin slapping against skin proved every bit of desire he had for you, if the image above you was not proof enough. "Please, my loveâŚ"
You held him tightly.
"Yes," you gasped. "Take me⌠You can have all of me, fill me up, cum inside, pleaseâ"
You mewled at a particularly sharp thrust, and your legs tightened around his waist. He was throbbing, his movements jerking erratically as you spoke your words.
"Fill⌠f-fill?" his eyes were wide, but he continued.
It gave you joy to know you were affecting him like this.
It's exactly the sameâŚ
"Yes, Zayne. You can give it to me. Please, please, I need it⌠Need it insideâŚ" You begged, and clawed at his back, and moved to his thrusts the best that you could. "Inside, insideâ!"
Please, please, please.
He whimpered as you tightened around him, urging him to spill, urging you to stuff you full like you wanted him to. His breathing became ragged, eyes nearly glazing over with pleasure at the mere thought of it.
He could claim you like this.
Even if it's not the real him, even if he's not doing this as himselfâ
You could see all manner of thoughts flash in his eyes as his gaze became hungrier. More desperate. More⌠resolved.
"I'll f-fill you up," he grunted. "Pump you⌠s-s-so full of me⌠All of meâ My love, my love, my loveâ"
You cried out as he buried himself all the way into you, your hips colliding as hot, thick ropes of his cum painted your insides. Your body shuddered, slick trickling out of you and dripping down onto the sheets. You felt warm all felt; almost sore, your cunt pulsing around him as you tried to steady your breaths.
He collapsed against you, pulling you in for a kiss.
"If I can have youâŚ" he breathed, "even just once⌠even just once, I⌠I'm happyâŚ"
I'm happy.
Your eyes shone as you cradled his face, daring to place a small flurry of kisses over his cheek.
I'm happy.
This was all you wanted.
Love was powerful, you thought. And of you loved himâif you loved all of him, then everything would be okay. You wanted to believe that.
Perhaps in a fit overwhelmed by your acceptance, he gasped, and you felt him roll his hips in placeâ
You didn't stop him.
He could do this as many times as he needed, as much as he was here with you.
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sometimes im so intent on engaging myself in tumblr and then i open the app and shit myself cause i get afraid to say i wanna kiss dilfs
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â Ë・âŕ¨ŕ§Ë â double gold - gr63
the most undescreet mercedes fan makes her way to the olympics for team usa. people very quickly learn why she's very unhinged about her love for all things mercedes.
george russell x usa gymnast!reader / fc: suni lee
warnings/notes: reader is mentioned to have had kidney disease in the past/going through dialysis (shout out suni lee my WIFE) everytime i write a george win he either dnfs or disqualifies. i should stop. i also made this SO FAST. ignore any formatting mistakes.
liked by lilymhe, teamusa, alexalbon and others...
uruser: represented my team (USA) and my team (merc) and then promptly fell asleep on the bus bc my awe of being here is too much for my little brain :(
tagged: mercedesamg, teamusa, and two others...
lilymhe: literally boarding my flighttt !!! im so so proud see u soon !
⤡ uruser: pls tell me you stole alex's hoodie for me...
⤡ lilymhe: he'll never know
⤡ alexalbon: these are PUBLIC comments.
user1: every once and a while i forget lily is not only dating an f1 driver, but her cousin is literally an OLYMPIC FUCKING GYMNAST?
alexalbon: SO PROUD WE WILL SEE U AFTER THE GP!!
logansargeant: i love knowing one of the powerhouses the us sends to the olympics
⤡ uruser: aweeee love u too logannn <3 (US PRIDE THIS WEEKEND BITCH U BETTER NOT FINISH LAST)
⤡ logansargeant: yes ma'am i will make u proud
user2: good luck !!
user3: MAKING THE USA PROUD ONE NAP AT A TIME
mercedesamg: we love our biggest supporter <3
⤡ uruser: i love YOU mercedes
georgerussell: best of luck yn :)!!
⤡ uruser: thanks georgie :D!
⤡ alexalbon: hello?? what is this??
⤡ lilymhe: eyeing you russell
⤡ georgerussell: literally what have i done wrong
⤡ landonorris: nah you cant flirt with his future in laws
⤡ georgerussell: if saying good luck is flirting, i have news for everyone.
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uruser: talked about it in an interview, but i struggled with my blood pressure all day. i've been lightheaded, swollen, and exhausted, but i did it. we fought through it, and ur girl is moving to finals!!
tagged: gk, teamusa
georgerussell: incredible work today !
⤡ landonorris: rooting for the enemy i see
⤡ uruser: thank you george <3
teamusa: that's our girl!!
user: so proud of u as a fellow kidney disease survivor <3
user1: girl had a bp of 140 and still beat like everyone. my fucking queen.
alexalbon: ez work queen get back to training
uruser: yessir
lilymhe: get ur meds and take it easy!! love uuu see u for dinner <3
landonorris: u make it look easy
uruser: trust. its so hard.
simonebiles: i dont know how you do it. ur so amazing.
⤡ uruser: coming from the goat herself ?!!!!
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georgerussell: left it all out on the track today. absolutely honored to do this a second time so soon.
tagged: mercedesamg, f1, barcelonagp
uruser: YAAAA GEORGIEEE!!! congrats!!!
⤡ georgerussell: thank u :)
user: GEORGE W!!!!
lewishamilton: amazing as always george. first half of the season crushed.
⤡ georgerussell: it's only up from here mate
simonebiles: the tears @ uruser shed for this win...
⤡ jordanchiles: we will finally get peace and quiet on weekends
⤡ uruser: shut up get a hobby both of you
alexalbon: incredible drive as always george
landonorris: ur so mean for not letting me pass :(
oscarpiastri: best fight of the season so far. looking forward to more.
⤡ georgerussell: hope to see you on that top step again mate
uruser: lets go george lets go george
⤡ georgerussell: my personal cheerleader <3
⤡ alexalbon: delete that heart or so help me god
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uruser: this 'lazy' athlete skipped her dialysis today to win A FUCKING GOLD MEDAL!!!! YAAAAAA!!!! so so so proud of my girls for the team effort put together for this all around win. you are the greatest. (yes lily and alex, i am doing dialysis now.)
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georgerussell: congratulations but please do your dialysis before alex finds out
⤡ uruser: its alright love, im all hooked up and dilating or whatever. thanks for the support as always russell <3
⤡ georgerussell: wow, no georgie?
⤡ uruser: gonna pout over it, honey?
⤡ user: is this not flirting?
alexalbon: YN. I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD.
user: SHE SKIPPED HER DIALYSIS FOR FLOOR??
⤡ user1: and they wouldn't move the schedule around her LIFE SAVING MEDICAL APPOINTMENT?
⤡ user2: no wonder the teamusa physicians grabbed her so quickly after the medal ceremony :(
alexalbon: DIALYSIS IS VERY IMPORTANT. IM GOING TO HIT WHOEVER SAID YOU COULDN'T DO IT.
⤡ uruser: IM DOING MY DIALYSIS RIGHT NOW WHY ARE YOU MORE STRESSED THAN LILY??
⤡ alexalbon: because YOU'RE A BABY
⤡ uruser: YOU ARE NOT THAT MUCH OLDER THAN ME FUCKER
lilymhe: alex is pacing but GREAT JOB BABYYYY YAAAYAYAYA SO PROUD OF UUU
user3: fire whoever had her SKIP MEDICAL TREATMENT.
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uruser: bronzed. sharing that podium with rebecca and simone is such an honor. up and up we go!! <3
tagged: simonebiles, teamusa, rebeccaandrade and more..
georgerussell: very deserved, as always
⤡ uruser: i swear ur obsessed w me (its ok just dont tell alex)
⤡ alexalbon: i'm starting to think none of you understand the concept of public comments
user: WELL DESERVED!!!
rebeccaandrade: vocĂŞ foi incrĂvel!
⤡ uruser: obrigado! você tambÊm! (i hope thats right!)
⤡ user: YN LEARNING PORTUGUESE TO SPEAK WITH REBECCA HAS MY WHOOOLLLEEE HEARTTTT
landonorris: shiny !
logansargeant: AMERICAAA!!!!
⤡ uruser: RAAAHHH
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uruser: GOLD in beam. and y'all know how much beam and i fight. there are no amount of words to express the joy im feeling. wow. thanks to my lovely brit @ georgerussell for the support for his girlie across the pond <3
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alexalbon: i am so.
alexalbon: what the fuck?
⤡ user: LMAOOO
lilymhe: YAY!!! MY BABY DID ITTT!!! I UGLY SOBBEDDD AHAHA LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABES DINNER ON ME TNNN!!!
user1: george!!!!!! GEOOORRRGEEE!!
alexalbon: GEORGE???
⤡ uruser: was me liking mercedes a weird amount not enough of a hint for you?
georgerussell: so proud of you sunshine <3
⤡ uruser: love u georgie
⤡ landonorris: gross get a room (jk. very proud george got a girl just as talented as himself)
⤡ georgerussell: wow a rare lando compliment. i will cherish it for years to come.
⤡ landonorris: fuck you im never complimenting you again
lewishamilton: congratulations!! hope to see you in the paddocks soon in some merc gear this time
⤡ mercedesamg: oh we can handle that
⤡ williamsracing: you can pry yn from our cold dead hands
⤡ mercedesamg: babes. im gonna hold your hand when i say this williams, you've lost in the public eye after ur stunt with logan. we win yn in the divorce.
⤡ uruser: YEAH IM ON LOGANS SIDE DAMNIT!!! AMERICANS STICK TOGETHER!!
⤡ logansargeant: true patriot right here
georgerussell: still in AWE of my gf being a TWO TIME OLYMPIC AA GOLD MEDALIST
⤡ uruser: my boyfriend is a FORMULA ONE DRIVER. how fucking cool is that!???
⤡ georgerussell: cool enough for you to go to dinner with me?
⤡ uruser: always
⤡ lilymhe: they grow up so fast
alexalbon: GEORGE WILLIAM RUSSELL?
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Will You Let Me?
Masterlist Here, Pollen Masterlist Here
Word count: 4,500+
Synopsis: Your crew was docked at a port, exploring a new land while you requested to remain behind. Enjoying being without the unruly bunch, your momentary calm was disrupted by the staggering step of your superior. Coughs, grunts and stuttering over his words: your concern grew more severe as you offered to help him through it.
Themes: pollen!killer x gn!reader, NSFW, mdni, 18+, smut, penetration reader!receiving, swearing, dubcon, begging, pleading, apologising, bruising, crying, rough, do not read if you do not enjoy the trope, fluff at the end, semi-ooc.
Notes: first time writing gn!reader smut! I enjoyed the challenge, but forgive me if there's a word that is used incorrectly! I am still learning inclusive language.
Pollen is a fun trope to play with, but please do not read if you don't enjoy.
Apprehensive Tag List: @sordidmusings @remisloves @tremendoushorsepatrolgoth @since-im-already-here @mfreedomstuff @icy-spicy
The hot sun shone over the wooden deck of the Victoria Punk. The soft waves gently rocked the boat with a subtle lull, the screech of gulls only aiding your heart to swell in merry solitude.
It was a rare occasion that you were tasked to remain behind while the crew explored a foreign area. Your skills as a linguistics specialist usually meant your silver tongue was called for to coax a good deal, or to decipher scratchings on cave walls. Considering this area was only a port meant for resupply, Captain Kid deemed your skills unnecessary for the journey in land.
Never one to complain, and genuinely giddy at the notion of being secluded and alone for a change, you jumped at the opportunity to stay with the Victoria Punk. You adored your ship, and decided to utilise the opportunity to check over her planks, ropes, and panels that may be in need for repair.
As the day went on, you did not expect a member of your crew to return so suddenly: especially the hulking masked figure of Massacre Soldier Killer. Being the first-mate, he was usually by Kid's side, no matter the circumstances.
Coughing, sneezing and sputtering: Killerâs right hand shot out to grasp your left shoulder. The firmness of his grip was bordering on painful, prompting you to wince in response to the hard strangulation of flesh.
âSomething gross hit me in the face,â he strained from behind the teal and ivory mask, âStuck in my chest and my throat. Not feeling good. Gotta-... fuck-... I gotta lie down or something.â
Concern and worry knit itself over your face, examining the staggering movement of Killerâs body as he retreated below deck. He stuttered and gripped onto the wooden beams, walls and ceiling to stabilize his movement: his body almost giving way beneath the pressure.
âKil, do you need-,â you began, halting as his voice raised over the top of yours.
â-âM fine. D-Donât worry, âkay?â he called over his shoulder before disappearing below deck. His large figure seemed to both be inflated and deflated with a foreign paralysis in his choppy, staggered steps. The waves did nothing to sooth him in his glide throughout the halls.
As soon as he reached crew-quarters, he all but shredded his clothes and cast them away from his body. His skin was alite with violent lust, his hands moving against his will to fist, claw and paw at the erogenous zones of his torso, stomach, legs, and his puckered nipples.
He arched his back as his hands gripped the base of his already steel-like cock, immediately pumping it in his right fist. His left hand clawed at the flesh of his chest and lay flat over his heart as he felt the rise in fluttered rapidity.
Scraping and gripping downwards with his left hand, he pushed hard on the base of his stomach, feeling how tightly wound the banded coil was wound in the pit of his stomach: bound hard enough to snap. Every muscle was tense, firm and aching for relief. He began sniffling and sobbing behind his mask, never truly experiencing the shame in the desperation his body was craving before.
He was the only one who managed to not avoid the hessian bag of powdered flowers falling from the rooftop of the naturopathic remedy building. Apologetic calls echoed down from the roof before panic began to rise in the workers. Killer could scarcely process voices above the throbbing ache in his lower abdomen.
Barely hearing several repetitions of Kidâs voice calling: âKiller, are you alright? Kil, are you alright?â All Killer could do was splutter and cough through the burning in his chest.
Golden flecks danced over his eyes beneath the mask, the pollen sucked immediately through the holes and embedded several clusters within the circular orifices. No matter how many times he wiped at the mask with his hands, he continued to inhale the sticky-sweet smell of herbal flowers within deep gulps of his lungs.
âGet him back home!â a hushed voice hurriedly spat at Captain Kid, âHe needs a companion, someone to take care of him while he's going through this. Someone caring and kind enough to-.â
â-Don't tell me what to do! Kil, you know the way back to the ship from here?â Kidâs voice barked at Killer, prompting the blonde to spark a moment of clarity in his progressingly foggy mind, âThe linguist is back there. They'll take care of yaâ if yaâ need it, okay?â
âOkay,â Killer managed to stutter out, his body scorching hot and violently in need.
âOkay!â Kid parrotted back, looking at the shopkeeper, âOkay, great. Now that's settled, we need a couple things from you. Let's get that sorted before-."
As Killer continued fisting at his cock, he felt release on the tip of his tongue. His eyes were scrunched tightly shut and his lips were parted wide. Unbeknownst to him, each time he panted through his heavy inhales and exhales; more of the toxic pollen punctured his lungs and poisoned his bloodstream with arousal.
He was consumed with lust, a beast untamed and unbridled. There was no release for him, no relief that came thereafter. He was isolated, confused, scared and manic. He needed something, someone, anyone-.
â-No,â Killer spoke aloud in a strangled whisper, âNot anyone. I need the linguist. I n-need-... fuck-... I need my linguist. Where i-is my linguist?â
Continuing about your task of ensuring all of the ropes were properly coiled and laid, your heart began to pang with guilt. You decided to cast aside all further self-induced tasks and seek out the first-mate you serve beside, attempting to offer him comfort through his illness. He seemed so adamant about isolation, but you felt called to be by his side.
Venturing below deck, his painful strain of wanton moans called to you. Muffled groans of pain exhumed from the room, cries of anguish falling through the door. Your deepest sympathies clawed at you to push through the door. Your hand hesitated it's rise against the wooden panel, your body almost walking away before you heard a gentle and heartfelt cry of your name falling from Killers lips.
âI-If you're there,â Killerâs voice again called for you, âPlease come in. Please,â he chanted your name with a soft, strangled moan, âPlease. I need you.â
Immediately, your body moved against your will. Twisting the knob to crew quarters, you swung the door wide and was immediately met with the sight of your first mate: glistening in beads of sweat and shed of all but his teal and ivory face covering, and viciously pulling at his cock.
âKiller! Why did you tell me to come in if you were doing that?â you shouted in a harsh whisper, immediately slamming the door shut behind you and scrunching your eyes tightly shut, âI don't want to watch that!â
Thick silence aside from the cruel pistoning of his firm hand slapping against his lower stimach engulfed the air. Soft huffs of muffled pants escaped gritted teeth, Killer's mask doing the heavy lifting in silencing his cries for you.
âI don't want you to watch,â Killer confessed in a soft, breathy whine, âPlease don't watch,â he keened for you, âParticipate.â
âKiller!â you shot over your shoulder at him with a warning tone, âWhat are you-?â
â-I would never a-ask if I didn't-...â He trained off in a strangled whimper, desperately clenching down on his tongue with his teeth and biting back his needy sobs, â...I-I need you. I need you. Only you.â
âKil,â you sighed at him, your concern written over you'd face, âHave you taken something? Was it the gross thing from earlier? Did that have an effect on you? Like a drug-?â
â-Look at me,â a barked command exited the holes in the mask, âPlease, look at me,â he pleaded, gasping as he grasped at his cock, fisting the flesh and whimpering as he was brought to the brink of ecstacy once again, âJust look at me, please. I just need your eyes on me. Eyes on me.â
âKiller,â you whimpered, finally turning to face him. As soon as your eyes met with the icy stare beneath his mask, you were entranced. Your body propelled you against forward, called to serve the needs of the first mate in a hypnotic trance.
âI need you,â he sobbed, reaching for you with his left hand as his right continued beating his weeping cock, âOnly you. Please, let me have you?â
Your body continued reacting against your will, your brain becoming foggy as Killerâs lust thickened the air with all-consuming need. Shame coursed just as heavily throughout your body as the arousal at just the thought of taking Killerâs cock into you began coursing through your veins.
âPlease,â he whined, his eyes holding your own as you stripped yourself of your clothes, âPlease,â his lips spilt as you straddled his lap, âPlease,â as you immediately began sinking yourself down over the tip of his knob.
His precum did little to prepare you your your descent, focussing on your wanton need to have him within you to open your body up to receive him. Killer moaned your name, crying out with baited breath as you slowly consumed all of his length with the grip of your tight hole.
As soon as he felt your heat take his entire length, he was already a babbling mess. There was no strings of cohesive thought as his length became strangled within your tight center. He immediately began shooting your body full of ropes of thick release, ribbon after ribbon of his pale translucent ecstasy.
He cried out for you in warning before painting your walls white with his sticky cum. The pearly beads of his lust coated your tight hole immediately, strings of praise falling from his lips as he rode through his high with you fully impaled on his thick cock.
But he remained firm, hard and desperate for more.
âWha-...â he began, his understanding of his own arousal and relief not aiding him in the slightest as he thrust up into you. He moaned as he sheathed his lengthy shaft deep within you again, your own arousal now taking over as you started to roll your hips against him while sat fully engulfed by him.
âKiller, what's going on?â you questioned him, your confusion and worry knit on your face, âYou're s-still hard.â
âI-I am,â he confirmed, a soft mewl of bliss echoed beneath his mask as he rolled his hips up into you, âWhatâs happening to me?â
His hands found your hips, rocking you above him as he began feeling another wave of need course through his veins. As his hands embedded into your hips, you winced at the sting. His strength depicted in his grasp, gripping you like a lifeline anchoring himself to the world surrounding him.
He tried.
He tried so hard to be gentle.
He wanted to be gentle for you. Needed to be gentle for you.
But his grip turned sinister, turned brutal and unforgiving as he thrust up into you. His end was coming to a close as he chased it with you writhing and pleading on his lap. His desperation enticed him to continue bullying your tight center with vicious snaps of his bruising slaps.
âKil,â you called for him, feeling his cock touch a depth within you that had your back arching and mewling for him, âOh, Kil. I'm close.â
âPlease,â he begged, desperately thrusting up into your lap as his end stampeded before his eyes, âPlease cum. Please. N-Need it.â
âKiller,â you called for him, feeling the band weave ever tighter within your abdomen, spiraling and coiling within the pit of your stomach, âKil I'm gonna-.â
â-Oh, fuck!â he roared, his body immediately betraying him as he coated your insides with ropes of hot, sticky, and heavy cum for the second time. His balls sucked up inside his body, his entire being screaming in relief as his release was once again began satisfying his unbridled lust for you.
But his cock still remained firm.
Your eyes clenched firmly shut, the corners wincing at the slight pinch as the coil snapped deep within you. White-hot ecstacy coursed through your veins, your body releasing your bliss over yours, and Killers, bodies as you rode through your high seated on his lap.
His hands were firm, rocking you atop him with a guiding, harsh rhythm as you called his name. Your whole being was alight with passion, your eyes now opening and looking down at the man beneath you.
Killer didn't realize it until he felt his eyes roll back in his skull, his body immediately ushered into a third orgasm as your body milked him with the rhythmic thumps of your warm orgasm. But he still remained firm, hard and needy. He inhaled a deep, shaky breath: particles of pollen immediately spiraling in a cylindrical vacuum deep into his lungs.
âI c-canât,â Killer called for you, immediately grappling you in his arms. He threw you beneath him, his vice-grip clawing at your hips as he pummeled down into your body, âI can't stop, I can't stop, I can't stop.â
You bit back a whimper, your body barely recovering from the prior spend of your hot release. Overstimulated, ill-prepared and encumbered with your new task at hand: Massacre Soldier Killer never let up. Not even for a moment.
In fact, he only got more intense, ferocious and brutal the moment your body began to milk his cock.
âP-Please know I'm sorry,â he choked out a strangled whimper. His fingers ached with the intensity he was gripping onto you with, leaving punctures of purple intents over your hip bones due to the butality he was burrowing into you.
âO-Oh fuck,â you sucked in your bottom lip, biting down hard as the corners of your eyes began pricking with tears, âIt's okay, it's okay. I know. I can t-take it.â
You spoke through those words of confirmation, truly attempting to convince yourself of the ability to endure this rough treatment for as long as Killer needed to use your body for. Rough slaps of his hips smacked against your body, his veiny cock scraping itself through your body as his knob hit angles you didn't realize you could experience. It would equate to bliss if his grip wasn't so intense.
Excruciating agony and white-hot ecstacy were in a perfect marriage within your body beneath the hulking form of Massacre Soldier Killer. The harmonious entanglement driven further by the grunts, growls, roars from the man above you, only for them to turn into begging whimpers and pleas for you to endure just a moment longer.
âI kn-know this isn't-... f-fucking nnghm-... this isn't g-good for you,â his breathy whisper cut through his growls like a pick through ice, âI can't stop. I can't fucking stop.â
âIt's okay, Kil. I p-promise it's okay,â you grit your teeth as his grip intensified on your hips, "You're good. You're b-being so good." His rhythm was unforgiving, the pace and rate his body rut into you was tormenting, brutal and punishing.
This was not the first-mate you knew. The beast in his stead was as violent as Killer was in battle, ripping bones and slashing through flesh. This was not at all what you anticipated from aiding Killer through this feat of lust.
His desperation was abhorrent, something he was repulsed by. He never dreamed of joining his body with yours in this strenuous and savage manner. He wanted to be kind, always kind, only ever kind, should you grant him the access to you he so desperately longed for from afar.
Softly spoken, dutiful and almost loving. That's who you knew him to be, and that's who he wanted to be for you. Your friend, your comrade in arms, your senior serving crewmate who you trusted to have your back.
How would you ever trust him again after this? How could he ever trust himself? That push and pull of chasing his relief with you caged beneath him coincided with the tug of his heart and the fog of his mind. He wants you to trust him after this. He wants you to look him in the eye and tell him you still want him. He needed that from you; the confirmation this was not only simply for now, but something he could have once again.
âI'm sorry, I'm so sorry,â he sobbed into your neck, the cool surface of his mask grounded you. Huffs of his breath poked through the holes in his mask, his icy-blue eyes were scrunched tightly shut while his body remained alight like a beacon in darkness.
He had already reached his climax three times, shooting burst after burst of his sticky cum deep within you. Although relief was found immediately afterwards, his cock continued to remain stiff as the steel of a blade in a snow storm.
He just couldn't stop. Why couldn't he stop?
âKil, I-I think you n-need-... ahh,â you mewled as he moved his hands up to your waist, his broad fingers splayed out to perch like a bird of prey against your skin. He rammed his full length in and out, your stomach beginning to ache with the bulge protruding deep within your abdomen.
âN-Need you,â he groaned in your ear, his hips stapling you against the floor with each cruel slap, âNeed to keep going. Almost th-there again.â
âI know, Kil. I know,â you soothed his hair in your hands, trails of wet tears streaked your cheeks with how much sensations your body was taking, âTake what you need, I'm here.â
âIâm gonna-... I'm gonna- f-fuck. I'm gonna cum again,â he groaned deep within his mask, his voice picking up at the end in a small shuddery whimper, âOh fuck, oh fuck. I'm cumming.â
Your head rolled back, eyes wide as you felt him empty himself within you for a fourth time. The sticky splashback of his hot cum trickled out of your needy hole, his cock buried up to the hilt with his spend leaking over his pubic hair and thighs. He huffed against your shoulder, his mask almost becoming loose over his face as he recovered.
âGood boy,â you cooed at him, pressing a soft kiss onto his bare shoulder as he shuddered and shook through his fourth spurt of ecstacy, âGood boy, Kil. Get it all out.â His cock twitched at your title bestowment, the hardness of his steely cock refusing to deflate no matter the amount of release he pumped into you.
âI-Itâs not going down,â he whimpered into you, his hips beginning to roll against yours once more, âIt's not going down. I don't know what to do,â his sobs began to shake at his shoulders.
âIt's okay,â you winced out, feeling the heat of release exiting from your overspent body with ooze of fluid, âI-I think you need to take your mask off.â
âWh-What?â he gasped at you, his hands continuing to hold you firmly against the mattress of his bed, âThe mask off?â
âSome-... fuck, Kil-... something hit you in the face, ri-right?â your voice was several notes higher than your usual cadence, crying beneath him as he pummeled into you, âMight be still in your mask. Take it off. I'll close my eyes, I'll not tell a soul,â you winced, clamping your eyes tightly shut, âI'll be good. I'll tell no-one.â
Killer immediately halted his thrusting, his body in momentary stasis as your words reached him. His body screamed at him to keep going, to keep pummeling into you, to keep chasing his high that was just within reach. But he stopped, his cock sheathed deep within you.
âLook at me,â he purred down at you, his hands still firm on your waist. His grip grasped you tighter, misbehaving beneath Killer's pleading to hold you more gently.
Unclenching your scrunched eyes, you gazed up at him as his hands left your body and unclasped the mask from shrouding his face. Icy blue eyes, as pale as the sky and as deep as the ocean pierced you as his gaze met with yours. Your breath was stolen from within your lungs, choking back on your surprise at his appearance.
Massacre Soldier Killer was beautiful.
âLook up at m-me,â he stammered, his hips rolling against yours as his cock burrowed deep within your body, âLook at me. I n-need you to see me. I need you to see how desperately I need you.â
His eyelashes fluttered, his eyelids growing heavy as his rhythmic thrusts began to pick up their intensity. Your eyes never left his for a moment: not to look at his lips, not his beard, nor his angular cheekbones, nor his nose. His eyes were what captivated you most, holding you hostage as their glassy hue glazed over to chase his high within you.
âY-You were right,â he huffed between thrusts, âMy lungs aren't burning, and I-I think this is it. Th-This one is it.â His pace was excruciating, but the satisfaction you were beginning to feel build itself within you screamed at you to let him continue using you.
âYou can do it, Kil,â you rolled your hips to match his pace, staring up through half-hooded lashes into his eyes, âUse me. Take me, I'm yours.â
âYou're mine,â he moaned his growling voice down at you, leaning forward and pressing his forehead against your neck, âPerfect for me. Made for me.â His cock twitched deep within you, your body reacting to his needy chase and toppling over with his final release.
âF-Fuck, Kil!â you cried, your body beginning to throb, your thumps of bliss coaxing Killers balls to empty deep within, âI-Iâm-... Iâm cumming. Killer, I'm cumming!â
âCum with me, cum with m-me,â he begged, his pace picking up as his cock finally began weeping it's spend for the fifth time deep within you, âWith me. F-Fuck, fuck, fuck.â
Pants of breath, fluttering of elevated heartbeats and joint cries of bliss ricocheted off the wooden walls of the crew-quarters of the Victoria Punk. Killer's mask lay discarded beside the door, lulling in the subtle rock of the waves over the floorboards as you both fell away from your mutual highs.
Killer moved his head away from your shoulder, gazing down to where your bodies remained joined together in awe. His lips were agape, his eyelashes fluttering as he pulled himself away from you. Watching the floodgates open from your abused entrance, your mutual juices coating both of your stomachs, thighs and soaking the mattress beneath you.
Killer looked to your hips, his lips parting and eyes becoming teary as he noticed the damage showcased on your body.
Marks littered your skin, deep hues of purple branded your flesh, depicting Killer's unrestrained lust and need for you. His bliss was eclipsed by deep sorrow as his fingers gently caressed the elevated indents in your skin. Sensing his unease, you immediately flung your hands up and collected his cheeks in your palms.
âI can handle it,â your eyes searched his, looking between his deep, blue orbs with your eyes only depicting support and affection, âI wouldn't have let you do it if I couldn't handle it.â
Killer turned his head, his lips meeting your palm with his whiskered chin tickling your flesh. This small moment of affection felt more sacred, more secret, and more intimate than the emassment of bodily fluids you shared moments prior.
âI shouldn't have been so rough with you,â he scolded himself, âI will never be rough with you again.â His fingertips caressed your hips, soothing over your aching flesh and wordlessly apologizing with deep, intentional touches.
âAre you feeling okay, Kil?â you asked him, lazily cocking your head to the side, âDon't need to go again?â
âFuck, no,â he huffed through a small, squeak of laughter, âNot right now, at least.â
Smiling up at him, you propped yourself up on your elbows and gazed deeply into his eyes. You couldn't get enough of the luxury it was to gawk at the handsome man who just spent himself within you five times in consecutive succession.
He truly was beautiful.
âDoes that mean you want to do this again?â you asked him while attempting to not show how eager you were. You began taking your time to examine his muscular physique before snapping your eyes back up to his blue orbs. A red hue tinted his cheeks, his eyes darting around the room before rejoining your own.
âI would like to, yes,â Killer admitted at last, sucking in a breath as he anticipated your refusal. Your smile spread up your face, prompting you to immediately spring yourself up to meet his body with your own.
âCrewâs still out for a while,â you shrugged, looking around the crew-quarters you had both tainted with the stains of your aroused fluids, âWe should clean this up,â you drew your eyes up to meet his, coy and bashful, âAnd maybe we could have a bath together-?â
â-Please,â he spoke over you, far too quickly for his liking but too lost to hold back the floodgates of emotional excitement, âLet me bathe with you. I'll wash your hair, massage your body. I'll make sure you're so, so spoiled after all this, if you'll let me?â
A small squeal of joy found its way to your lips, buzzing at the notion that he not only wants to be with you again physically, but he desired to treat you to the luxury of continuing to gawk at his uncovered face further by bathing with you.
âWill you let me?â Killer asked, his voice still holding that eager anticipation that caused you to both melt and soar in unison. You eagerly nodded, prompting Killer to hook his arms beneath you and elevate you into his chest.
Your fingers quickly drew themselves up to his lengthy blonde hair, detangling the sweat-damp strands and toying with the soft curls framing his face. You hummed in contentment as his smile freed itself on his face, glancing at you as you continued enjoying his luscious, thick locks.
âLet's go then,â he cooed down at you, his lips finding your forehead as he cradled you against him, âLet me spoil you for being so good to me. I need to treat you right.â
âDon't forget your mask!â you quickly uttered, causing him to pause and search your face for clarification. You smiled at him, gently reaching your lips up to press against his cheek, âGotta clean the damn thing, unless you want to experience all that again?â
âGood point,â he huffed, using his feet to kick along his mask to the bathroom as he chaperoned you within his arms, âI prefer my own desire to come from me,â he confessed as soon as he reached the door, âAnd I want to show you how much I truly do desire you.â
âI can't wait,â you smiled in return, wincing as your bodyâs adrenaline seeped out of your body and the pain caught up to you.
âI promise I'll be gentle with you,â he confessed, his eyes innocent and brows triangulating in a peak in the center of his forehead, âI won't be rough.â
âI can take a bit of rough treatment,â you challenged him in return, smiling into his bare chest as he began to run the bath.
âI know you can,â he smiled down at you, pressing a small kiss against your temple, âBut you don't have to, unless you really want to.â
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HII, THIS IS MY FIRST TIME REQUESTING SOMETHING IF IM DOING SOMETHING WRONG FEEL FREE TO DELETE THIS ASK, BUT I WAS WONDERINGâŚ. In one of his lines sebastian makes a joke about having cards and such, the later says âive never played cards actually.. meaning to learn.â. SO WHAT IF, i were to kindly and politely ask for anything that includes gender neutral reader teaching sebastian how to play cards, thank you for reading this in advance :3
UNO!
words: 1,7k
tags: uno, the card game.
authors note: I had too much fun with this and added Uno into the scenario! Sebastian learns everything about the wonderful world of cards.
Years ago, during a weekend at your grandparents' house, your grandpa placed a worn stack of playing cards in your hands and asked if you'd ever played. At the time, you hadnâtâbeing young and inexperiencedâbut that was the day you learned. Every time you visited afterward, your grandpa would teach you a new card game, keeping you entertained for hours.
So, when Sebastian mentioned that he had a deck of cards buried somewhere among his tools, junk, and files, a wave of nostalgia washed over you. Excited, you immediately hopped off his tail, which you had been using as a comfy seat, and began rummaging through his things in search of the cards.
âDonât expect me to play with you,â he huffed, trying to avoid getting pulled into your sudden enthusiasm. He tried to mask his lack of skill by pretending he simply didnât want to play, but your excitement made it clear that he wouldnât be able to escape.
Before he knew it, you were sitting in front of him, shuffling the deck with ease, your fingers expertly spreading and reassembling the cards in one fluid motion. The sound of the cards snapping back together caught Sebastianâs attention, and despite his initial reluctance, he found himself watching you with curiosity.
You smiled at him, seeing the interest flicker in his eyes. âCome on, itâs not that hard. Iâll teach you.â
Sebastian grumbled under his breath but sat down across from you, folding his arms as if to keep up the pretense of disinterest. âFine. But Iâm not going to enjoy this.â
âWeâll see about that,â you teased, dealing out a hand of cards to him. You started with something simple, a basic game that didnât require too much strategy. As you explained the rules, Sebastianâs brow furrowed in concentration. He kept glancing from the cards to you, trying to piece together what you were saying.
âWait, so I can only play a card if it matches the suit or the number?â he asked, holding up a card as if it might give him the answer.
You nodded encouragingly. âExactly. And if you canât, you draw from the deck until you get something you can play.â
Sebastian stared at his hand, clearly overthinking his next move. âThis doesnât make any sense,â he muttered, his frustration starting to show.
âIt will, just keep going,â you assured him, demonstrating a few moves to help him along. Slowly but surely, Sebastian began to understand, though he still looked uncertain with each card he placed down.
But as the game progressed, something surprising happenedâSebastianâs competitive side started to show. His earlier confusion faded as he began to grasp the gameâs rhythm, and soon he was playing his cards with more confidence. You noticed the small smirk that tugged at the corner of his mouth whenever he played a particularly good move, and it made you smile in return.
By the second game, Sebastian was leaning forward, more engaged than he would have admitted. âI got it this time,â he said, his voice tinged with unexpected enthusiasm. He played a card that blocked your move, his eyes lighting up as he realized he was starting to get the hang of it.
âNice move,â you praised, genuinely impressed. Sebastianâs smirk grew, and he gave you a sidelong glance that was almost playful.
âDonât think Iâm going easy on you,â he warned, but there was no real bite in his words. He was enjoying himself, and it showed.
As the games continued, Sebastianâs initial reluctance was replaced with growing excitement. He began to anticipate your moves, even teasing you when he managed to outplay you. The grumpy, stoic man you were used to was momentarily replaced by someone who was genuinely having fun, and it warmed your heart to see him like this.
By the time you reached the fourth game, Sebastian was fully invested. He was still far from a card shark, but he was learning quickly and starting to enjoy the process. After winning a round a rare smile of his made a brief appearance.
âI knew youâd get into it,â you replied, happy to see him loosening up. âMaybe next time Iâll teach you something more challenging.â
Sebastian raised an eyebrow, the hint of a grin still on his face. âYou think I can handle it?â
âI know you can,â you said confidently, shuffling the deck once more. âBut first, letâs see if you can win another round.â
And so, the two of you continued playing, the shop filled with the sound of shuffling cards, quiet laughter, and the growing bond between a grumpy fish and his human friend.
Three days had passed since you first taught Sebastian how to play cards, and in that short time, it had become a regular part of your routine. Whenever there was a lull in your mission and you saw his open vent around, youâd pull out the deck, and Sebastianâdespite his initial reluctanceâwould join you, slowly improving with each game. The more you played, the more his gruff exterior seemed to soften, revealing a side of him that was competitive yet surprisingly good-natured.
On the fourth day, you decided it was time to take things up a notch. When you walked into the shop that morning, a mischievous grin spread across your face. Sebastian looked up from his work, his brow furrowing in curiosity when he noticed the new deck of cards in your hand.
âWhatâs that?â he asked, eyeing the colorful box with suspicion.
You sauntered over to the table where you usually played, setting the box down with a flourish. You found this in a dumpster around one of the many office rooms. âThis,â you said, holding up the deck, âis a game called UNO. I figured since youâve gotten pretty good at regular cards, itâs time for a new challenge.â
Sebastian raised an eyebrow, still wary but clearly intrigued. âUNO, huh? Doesnât sound too tough.â
You smirked, shaking your head as you started to shuffle the cards. âOh, you have no idea. This gameâs a bit different. Itâs not just about matching suits and numbersâyouâve got action cards, wild cards, and, of course, the dreaded Draw 4.â
Sebastian watched as you dealt out the cards, his curiosity getting the better of him. âAlright, letâs see what youâve got.â
You began to explain the rules, showing him how to match colors or numbers, how to use the action cards to skip turns, reverse the order, or make the other player draw more cards. Sebastian listened intently, nodding along as he picked up the basics. But when you explained the Draw 4 and Wild cards, he gave you a skeptical look.
âSo, I can change the color and make you draw four cards?â he asked, holding up the card and studying it closely. âThat sounds a little unfair.â
You chuckled, enjoying his reaction. âItâs all part of the strategy. You have to know when to play those cardsâand when to save them for later. Trust me, once you get the hang of it, youâll see why itâs so fun.â
Sebastian wasnât entirely convinced, but he went along with it, sorting his hand and planning his first move. As the game began, it became clear that this was a whole new level of challenge. The fast-paced nature of UNO, combined with the unexpected twists from action cards, kept him on his non existent toes.
At first, Sebastian struggled with the new mechanics, hesitating as he tried to remember which cards did what. You couldnât help but smile as you watched him concentrate, his usual grumpy expression deepening into a thoughtful frown. But soon, just as with the regular cards, he started to catch on. The competitive spark youâd seen before returned, and before long, Sebastian was playing his cards with growing confidence.
âYouâre getting the hang of it once again,â you noted, as he successfully played a Skip card, blocking your turn and earning a satisfied grunt from him.
âYeah, itâs not so bad,â Sebastian admitted, though his tone was more grudging than he probably intended. âStill not sure how I feel about that Draw 4, though.â
âYouâll learn to love it,â you teased, winking as you placed down your own Draw 2 card, watching as he groaned and drew two more cards from the deck.
As the game continued, Sebastian started to enjoy himself, even laughing quietly when he managed to reverse the play order right before you could make your move. It was clear that he was getting into the spirit of the game, and the playful banter between the two of you made it even more fun.
By the time you were nearing the end of the game, Sebastian had only a few cards left, his earlier hesitation replaced by determination. But just as he was about to play his second-to-last card, you laid down a Wild Draw 4, changing the color and forcing him to draw four more cards. He stared at the card youâd played, then at the stack he had to draw from, his mouth opening in disbelief.
âYouâve got to be kidding me,â he muttered, though there was no real anger in his voiceâjust the frustration of someone who was so close to victory but had it snatched away at the last second.
You couldnât hold back your laughter as you watched him reluctantly pick up the four cards. âWelcome to UNO, Sebastian. Anything can happen.â
He gave you a mock glare, but there was a hint of a smile tugging at his lips. âThis gameâs ridiculous,â he grumbled, though you could tell he was already plotting his next move.
Despite the setback, Sebastian managed to hold his own, and when the game finally endedâwith you barely winning by a single cardâhe was already asking for a rematch.
âAgain,â he said, shuffling the cards himself this time. âIâm not losing like that twice.â
You grinned, happy to see him so engaged. âYouâre on. Just donât blame me when you end up drawing another four cards.â
As the two of you began the next round, the shop filled once more with the sounds of shuffling cards, playful competition, and the growing camaraderie between you and the man who was quickly becoming more than just a grumpy store owner.
#sebastian solace#sebastian solace x reader#sebastian solace x you#sebastian solace fanfic#roblox pressure#uno
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f!reader x switch!mingi smut | mdni 3.1k maybe mingi didnât make the smartest choice picking a stem major? because the classes proves themselves to be rather difficult especially when mingi as to learn about the female anatomy without having any âfield knowledgeâ on the subject. but as his tutor itâs your duty to help him study, by all means necessary. nsfw tags under the cut
loser virgin!mingi with the glasses (i love him so much it hurts), also switch sub leaning!mingi, tutor!reader, use of anatomical terms (reader takes her tutoring job v srly) + clueless mingi (he's cute), exhibitionism/voyeurism, masturbation (f), oral (f), mingi gets pussy drunk fassstttt, pet names (baby, good boy, babyboy), squirting, cum eating, cumming untouched
a/n: wrote this in a fever dream as i was crawling out of writer's block. i kinda love it did you know i loved mingi? yeah i do. he's cute and im weak for him. enjoy this <3
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Why? Oh why did Mingi have to choose a STEM major? Why didnât he go towards something that was a little easier or, failing that, at least a little more fun! Like music! He liked music. Why didnât he go to a more artistic major? He could be learning about different types of harmonies or the life stories of his favorite composers or even the advent of the greatest musical genres. But no, instead he was stuck here in his small student flat, pulling his hair out trying to cram his brain with the reproductive system. Hunched over the thick and worn out second hand textbook.
âI canâtâ he said, calling it quits, whipping his big glasses off his nose and throwing his hands in the air in a rather dramatic manner. Which made you chuckle.
Of all your tutees Mingi was easily your favourite. Sure he was one of the most difficult ones because studying didnât come naturally to him but still he was very endearing. There was something in the way he looked at you with round eyes when he was confused or how his lips curled on his teeth and made an asymmetrical smile when got the right answer. Mingi was just cute without even trying, despite his towering height, his low gravelly voice and his eyes that turned sharp (maybe even cold) when he was focussing. He was just cute. He may look cold but as soon as you get to know him he turns out to be an endearing goofball.
He might even be the sole reason you kept on tutoring this year even with your thesis coming close to the deadline, the research for internships and the immense amount of reading your professors required.
âYes, you can!â you said pointing at the schema on the yellowed page.
âNo I canât! Iâm not book smart!â Mingi said again, this time a little more whiny. âHow can I memorize that when I've never even seen thisâŚâ he gestured to the anatomical sketch of the female reproductive system. âIn real life.â He exhaled, seemingly not conscious of what he had just admitted, taking his head in his big hands.
Your head was spinning with the unprompted confession. And you both sat there in silence for a couple of seconds. Mingi in oblivious desperation and you in speechless astonishment.Â
But an idea sprouted in your mind. If this lack of practical experience was the reason behind Mingiâs memory troubles, you reckon nature gifted you with everything that was presented in this textbook. Maybe empirical science would help in this case. The least you could do was try, that was only your duty as a tutor.Â
Mingi was startled when he felt you lift from under his bent elbows and close the heavy textbook, making him look up through his fingers. You sighed deeply before continuing softly.
âMingi,â you started, a kind of heaviness about the voice Mingi never heard before, the contrast with your normal âpatient teacher" tone made him finally realize what he had said to you in a fleeting moment of desperate academic honesty.Â
Mingi started to stammer, his heart rate skyrocketing, his eyes darting to every corner of the room trying to come up with an excuse to why he still was a virgin loser or better yet a quick lie that would make him appear like a totally cool guy that definitely pulled girls, yes, multiple girls. But nothing came to mind and he was completely silenced when you laid your hand over his thick thigh.Â
âMingiâŚDo you want me to show you?â you said, barely above a whisper, you felt his thigh tense under your touch as Mingi looked back at you, mouth agape like a fish out of the water and round clueless eyes. So you cleared your throat and talked in a more assured tone. âIf it can help you study, I'm willing to show you mineâ you said in one breath.
Mingi was no longer agitated. He wasnât wiping his sweaty palms on his jeans or stammering or looking everywhere and nowhere at the same time. Now, his eyes were locked with yours, and he was an immovable statue. But it was only because he was absolutely dumbfounded. He was stunned into silence, his thoughts werenât coming through, they were completely silenced by your voice, this weird combination of words that made the sentence you just spoke infinitely reverberate in his blank mind until he faintly nodded, unable to form a coherent train of thought anymore.
You nodded and smiled softly at him. Mingi didnât even return the smile he kept on staring in disbelief. Even when you got up and pulled your chair from under his desk and turned it so you would perfectly face him and even when your hands slipped under your pleated skirt and pulled down your underwear. You glanced over at him when you tossed to the side the crumpled up piece of white lace and you smirked when you saw him finally close his mouth to thickly swallow as his eyes zeroed in on the undergarment discarded on his bedroom floor.
Before his eyes snapped back to you when you seated yourself on this chair, your hips scooted to the front and your back comfortably leaned on the office chairback. His eyes followed your every move as you placed one foot on the edge of the desk and the other leg bent and hanging in the air. You took a deep breath before lifting your skirt.
Mingi thought he was going to pass out as he fumbled to put his glasses back on, not even trying to put them on straight on his nose. His face was burning hot and his heart was absolutely hammering against his ribs, and rattling in his ears. He felt the frantic muscle doped with adrenaline pumping blood not only to his brain, making him lightheaded but also to his groin.Â
Mingi had never laid eyes on anything more beautiful ever. You were so perfect he couldnât describe it but he didn't want to look anywhere else ever again he wanted to keep on staring you right between the legs until he eventually died from thirst, hunger or sleep deprivation. He wanted to keep looking forever and ever.
You cleared your throat once again and ignored both the tingle in your lower stomach as you felt Mingiâs scrutinizing gaze on your most private part and the tent he was visibly pitching his jeans by now.
âSee here is the labia majoraâ you started, making your voice as steady as possible. You looked up at him but it seemed like you were speaking to a brick wall, Mingi was entranced and wasnât listening to a single word you were saying.
âMingi!â you called his name firmly and his eyes snapped to yours. âFocus!â you scolded him.
âYeah⌠s-sorryâ he apologized sheepishly, his cheeks and ears going to an even deeper shade of pink.
âAs I was saying, this is the labia majora and here is the labia minora.â you said as neutrally as possible trying to overlook the need that was bubbling in the pit of your stomach the more Mingi looked at you.
âM-majora and minoraâ Mingi repeated as diligently as possible.
âGood! Letâs take a closer lookâ you said before spreading your lips with both hands, offering Mingi a breathtaking view on your entrance.Â
Mingi had to repress a gasp. He felt himself twitch as he saw your pink hole being spread open, he could quite literally see inside you. And as you did so some translucent liquid oozed out of you. He was pretty sure that wasnât part of the anatomical drawing that was in his textbook. He never saw that even in the porns he had watched. All he knew was that the sight made his cock jump inside his tight pants and he bit his lip to keep a low groan behind his teeth as his pants were rubbing on his sensitive cockhead.
âAnd here-â
âEx-excuse meâ Mingi interrupted you hesitantly, âwhat is this liquid?â
Fuck.
You did your best to overlook the excitement and arousal that came along with the exercise and the way Mingi was eyeing you down, devouring you with each look and trying so hard to keep his hands at his sides. But your body eventually betrayed you.Â
âThatâs a lubricating fluid that is secreted by the Skene glands to facilitate coitus,â you said as steadily as possible. âThat happens when a woman is aroused.â
Those words hit Mingi like a truck launched at full speed on the highway. You were aroused? Like right now? You were enjoying showing yourself like this to him? You liked having him look at you? He was feeling dizzy. He couldnât imagine you (even if he was in fact witnessing it with his very eyes) getting hot and bothered because of him. That was all a dream. It had to be.
âAroused?â Mingi repeated, more to himself than anything as he fixed his askew glasses pushing them up the bridge of his nose absentmindedly.
âThere are other signs tooâÂ
Mingiâs ears perked up.Â
âOther signs?â He swallowed thickly. âC-can you show me? P-pleaseâ The last word was soaked with desperation and dripping with such despair, he sounded like a parched man begging for the sip of water that was going to save his life and when his eyes met yours you realized he was also looking the part.
âO-okayâ you said, failing to maintain the self assured tone.
âWhen a woman is aroused more blood is pumped to her private area which causes swelling and changes in color.â you said drawing a sharp gasp as your fingers dipped to your entrance to spread your wetness over your folds. âSee, right nowâ you pulled on the skin of your pubic bone, pulling on the hood of your clit, uncovering the swollen bud. âMy clitoris is swollenâ
âFuckâ Mingi let the whispered curse slither thought his teeth as he looked at the swollen bundle of nerves being revealed to his very eyes. At this point he felt like his cock was going to rip through his jeans but still he behaved accordingly and refused to acknowledge the poor member's pleas for attention.
âI have a question.â
âY-yesâ you breathed out, spreading more arousal on your touched starved pussy.
âIs it true that girls get the most pleasure from their clit?â he stated in one surprisingly coherent sentence.Â
âYesâ you replied simply, your breathing becoming uneven.Â
âCan you show me that too?â
Mingi was ready to risk it all. At this point he wasnât thinking about tomorrow anymore. To be exact he wasnât thinking at all anymore. He only knew he liked looking at you. He wanted to keep looking. He wanted to see it all.
âOkayâ you started. âIâll show you how I make myself feel goodâ. Mingi thought he was going to explode, spontaneously combust in front of you as he heard those words coming from your mouth.Â
You started to draw small and slow circles on your swollen clit and Mingi could tell the enigmatic little nub loved the attention because you elicited a moan that hit him right in the chest. A sound he will never forget. Nothing like the pornographic high pitched screeches he was used to. This one was lower, more sultry and slower. Like the sound caught in your throat but eventually made it out into the world against your will. And you bit your lip right after, your eyes growing heavier, hazier. You looked so beautiful.
He looked at you rubbing your pretty pussy and drawing out all these beautiful sounds out of yourself, more slick gushing out of you as your pretty pussy pulsed and tensed. He was mesmerized, completely entranced by youÂ
âDoes it feel good?â he asked as his eyes went back up to your pretty face being contorted by intense pleasure.Â
âYes, it does. I like when you look at meâ you confessed looking up at him with hooded eyes.
âFuckkkâ he sighed, his weeping cock twitching between his heavy thighs. âI like looking at you.â
You moaned again and picked up the pace, dipping to your entrance again to gather more wetness and dragging it up to your throbbing clit. The patterns you were drawing on your pussy were quicker and tighter, making you moan louder.
The squelching wet sounds erupting from the act made Mingi dizzy. How bad did he want to bend down and taste you, how bad did he want to get his tongue on your cunt, feel you throb under him as he lapped at you clit. He wanted to see you cum. He wanted to make you cum.
But he didnât dare to touch you when you hadnât asked. He didnât want to make you uncomfortable so he stuck to the script. He didnât even succumb to the desire to take his own cock out to stroke it as he looked at you and to be completely honest he was scared to be distracted from the breathtaking show. Even for a single second he didnât want to take his eyes off you.
âSee how my pussy⌠mnph⌠is clenching?â you struggled to say, short of breath, your hand not slowing down. Mingi nodded quickly, his eyes darting from your cunt to your face back to your pussy. âThat means Iâm close to climaxâ Mingiâs eyes grew twice their size as he nodded again, expectantly.Â
âWhen a woman orgasms⌠oh f-fuck⌠the vagina spasmsâ you said, inching dangerously close to your release. âif you want you can put a finger inside and feel itâ
Mingi was not about to turn down such a generous proposition and nodded hastily. He hesitantly approached his hand, he didnât really know what to do though so you took his wrist and guided his index through your fold, coating it in your juices and jolting at the contact before pushing his digit inside your tight heat with a low moan, it was just a finger but the stretch made it that much more pleasurable and you went back to rubbing your clit.
âFuck⌠yessâ you breathed. âDonât move itâ
Mingi couldnât believe how warm and wet and tight you were, your pussy was lightly clenching around his finger everytime your fingers circled your clit.
âDo you feel it?â you asked, a little squeaky. Mingi nodded again.
âYes. Y-youâre throbbingâ he said peering at you over his large glasses you smiled.
âYes itâs cause Iâm very closeâ you kept on teasing your bundle of nerves. âSome women squirt when they orgasmâ you started.
âCan you do that?â Mingi asked hurriedly, his eyebrows arching on his forehead, curious eyes close to bulge out.
âY-yes.â
âFuckkk⌠Can I please drink it?â Mingi blurted. âPlease I wanna taste it so badâ He couldnât stop the question that burned his tongue. He had been curious about that ever since he first saw it in a porn video and to see you do that. He couldnât let his chance pass.
Seeing him like this, begging you to have a taste of you almost had you crossing the line but you held on.
âYes, come closerâ Mingi threw himself on his knees without thinking twice. âOpen your mouth babyâ Mingi bent over you, opened his mouth and stuck his tongue out, his dick twitching again at the novel term of endearment. You entangled your fingers in his soft locks of hair and pushed on his face until his lips were pressed against your folds, making him moan against your cunt, his finger still stuck inside your heat.
âSuch a good boy. So eager to learnâ you praised and Mingi started to instinctively buck his hips against nothing, the wet patch in his boxers growing larger with each pathetic and useless thrust.
âFuckâ he said, finally getting some of your juices in his mouth as your fingers rubbed your clit and occasionally brushed on his tongue. âTho koodâ he said, keeping his tongue out of his mouth, patiently waiting.Â
âFuck keep looking at me touching myself for you babyboyâ you grunted, pulling on Mingi's soft hair. The dull pain made him whimper against your soaked little cunt, urging him to rutt his hips faster.
âFuck I'm gonna⌠fuckkkk⌠mâcummingâ you said, finally slipping over the edge as a powerful stream of translucent liquid spurted out of you making Mingi instantly wrap his lips around your folds and drink as much of it as he could as he continued to pathetically hump the air. The wave of intense pleasure radiated your whole body making you shake and moan under Mingiâs hungry lips, your cunt taking a vice grip onto Mingiâs finger. You continued to circle your clit until the pleasure wore off and you finally came down from your high, out of breath but utterly satisfied.Â
When Mingi emerged from between your thighs he was disheveled, dazed. His face was a mess: his lips were swollen and his glasses were crooked and spotted with droplets of your release. He was completely dazzled but he looked content.
âAre you okay?â you asked hesitantly, closing your legs and flipping your skirt back, sitting back up straight.
âI came in my pantsâ Mingi declared, looking down at the dark blue wet patch on his jeans. âYou looked so hot, you tasted so good⌠I- I-...and you called me a good boy⌠And I- lost it. Iâm sorry I-â Mingi stammered again and you chuckled. You werenât wrong about him. Mingi was definitely very cute.
âI hope you learned a lot todayâ you said, smiling warmly at him, and Mingi felt like his heart was going to fall out of his chest. How can you look so heavenly, so undoubtedly innocent when two seconds ago you were pulling his hair, shoving his face in your wet pussy and making his virgin ass cum without even touching him?
âYes. I learned a lot. More than I ever hoped forâ
âMaybe next time we can practice what you learned today. Okay?â you smiled again, but there was a mischievous glint in your innocent doe eyes.
âYou mean we-â Mingi started but you cut him by jumping onto your feet, grabbing your purse and heading to the door of his room. On your way you bent down and picked up the white lace panties before throwing them at Mingi.
âThat's a little gift for youâ He caught the undergarment and looked up at you through his wet lenses just as confused as ever. Classic Mingi. âUse it as study material okay?â He nodded again, without saying a word and you headed out the door.
âClass dismissedâ
a/n: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. MINGIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII. thats it.
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