#im still kind of new to this so tumblr do your magic

[gay-arsonists-lullaby]

Character introduction: Vincencia

• Vincencia -- meaning prevailing and triumphant,

• she/her, (very) aroace coded {and, well, she might be having a minor little gender crisis}

• a girl who, despite being on the brink of grief and rage induced madness, finds reason to live in a group of mythical deities she was always thought to fear after her village drowns her for “witchcraft” {but don't worry, I do find the concept of the ‘if I seek revenge against them I am no better than them’ trope quite infuriating, so yes, she will get a sickle and she will get to kill a dude, maybe even set something on fire. who am I kidding, of course she is going to set something on fire.}

• “ the river has remembered you ever since the day they drowned you in it.”

• all of this is going on in a folk-based fantasy realm (with slight horror elements), but fair warning, most of it is just vibes for now, sorry.

• once I post more of my OCs, you might notice that “dealing with horrific trauma through unconventional means” is a very common theme. does that say something about me as a person? no, of course not, what would even make you think that.

• “ here, we are all victims of the rules we were forced to live by.”

• DREAM GIRL EVIL - Florence and the Machine { “I am not your dream girl. I am the sudden shouting of crows when you enter a part of the forest you shouldn't have.” }

• “ ‘I could fix him’ this, ‘I could make him worse’ that... good for you, I guess? I could make myself worse and by doing so become the only think he'll ever truly be afraid of. ”

• “if he puts his hands on you, cut them off.” {Kiki Rockwell vibes at their finest}

• SAME OLD ENERGY - Kiki Rockwell / BURN YOUR VILLAGE - Kiki Rockwell {you do not dance everyday with the fear of living in headlights, the hunted, the deer}

• oh to be a deer in the headlights

• “ a lone boy on the highway / you think "that could be me." / but you were born a woman and you'll never be that free.” - MILES TO GO

• LABOUR - Paris Paloma / AS GOOD A RESON - Paris Paloma

• “for if I'm going down / I guess I'll take you with me / screaming birds sound an awful lot like singing” - THE FRUITS

• “ your man-made Gods mean nothing in these woods.”

• “a woman's first blood doesn't come from between her legs but from biting her tongue. ” - The No You Never Listened To | Meggie Royer

• “herr God, herr Lucifer, beware beware / out of the ash I rise with my red hair / and I eat men like air. ” - Lady Lazarus | Sylvia Plath

• “ it seems you are going to have to kill me twice after all.”

• I am not trapped in my own body, I am trapped in the way people perceive it. I think I wish to not be perceived at all. {just a raging and formless cloud, really. honestly, same, Vince, same}

• “dear mother, dear father; this is just survival. ”

• “-the real monsters do not have fangs and serpents upon their head; they are your friends, the men you defend, the hunters of the women you've condemned.” - I'd Rather Be Turned Into Stone Than Ever Be Like You | T.M.

• “it goes / all my troubles on a burning pile / all lit up and I start to smile. ” - BURNING PILE

• BOTTOM OF THE RIVER - Delta Rey

• “I am someone who did not die when I should have died.” - Grief Lessons: Four Plays by Euripides | Anne Carson

• WHICH WITCH - Florence and the Machine

• “isn't it strange, how we were taught to fear the witches, and not those who drowned them alive?”

[echantedtoon]

Demonstober Day 5 Omukade

Ōmukade are monstrous mukade–centipedes (Scolopendra subspinipes) with dark bodies and bright orange legs and heads.

(If you don't know what Kokushibo looks like as an Omukade centaur like Yokai follow the link.

This is half inspired by a comic on Tumblr. Warnings for mentioned death and killing.)

Tagging: @lavenderdropp @six-eyed-samurai @trancylovecraft @cherrysuzaku

Remember if you want to be added to the spooktober taglist lemme know

Once long ago there was a very powerful shogun, and he married a beautiful woman. Together they were happy with no want for anything in their comfortable lives. Except for one thing.

A child.

Even though they tried for many years, they still went without children. One day the woman  of the couple decided to take a long walk in the woods to try to forget about her troubles when she came across a mysterious healer.

"My lady, you seem quite troubled. Would you like to tell me?", the man offered.

"Why? You wouldn't even be able to help me. It's no  use."

"Try me. I might surprise you."

"My husband is happy with life and we wish for nothing but a child however it seems that the gods do not seem to want to bless us with one."

"Oh. Is that all?", the healer laughed before reaching into the folds of his cloak and pulling out a small box which contained three seeds. *I have the exact solution. Take these flower seeds and plant them in your garden in a place only you'll know. One month from now on the night of the blue moon, three flowers will appear."

"What good will flowers do me?"

"They're blessed by the goddess of fertility," the man explained, "Of the three there will be three flowers. A white lotus, a red spider lily, and a black rose. If you eat the white lily you'll gain a son as pure and kind hearted as the heavens. If you eat the red spider lily you'll receive a son as fast and strong as the fiercest warrior. If you choose the black one you'll receive a son as smart as a hundred scholars! Eating any two of the three will result in twins with all the traits of both flowers!"

The woman was so pleased with her gift. It would be the solution to all her problems and she left with the seeds. However the healer gave her a grisly warning.

"These flowers are enchanted by magic no mortal body can handle so there's a limit to how much you can have without a blessing turning to a curse. Remember. You may only have up to TWO. Eating all three will have deadly consequences that even I don't know what could happen. Heed my warnings, My Lady. Or disaster will befall thee."

The woman promised to remember the warnings given to her and that night planted the seeds in a place only she knew about telling no one. A month later on the blue moon she went back out and found the three flowers the man spoke of. She had already decided to eat the lily and lotus, but at the last moment decided to eat all three. It was a blessing from the goddess of fertility after all. Nothing really bad could come from a blessing. And she wanted her children to have all the traits the flowers promised.

Against the healer's warnings, she swallowed the black rose petals right after the first two flowers.  Sealing her fate by her foolish mistake.

Soon after the woman indeed fell with child. Twins. Both husband and wife were so happy and the entire countryside rejoiced with the news. Nothing truly was wrong and the woman forgot about the consequences of her actions. Until nine months later- 

Her husband was called to battle, while away his wife delivered their children in the middle of the night. However the children born that night were not infants.

But horrible monsters from nightmares.

The woman screamed in fear and horror as the doctors looked on in shocked silence as the cursed infants cried out into the darkness. Both grotesque and disfigured. Monstrous and horrifying to look at. 

One they say was born with horns like an oni and eight limbs like a slightly humified jurogumo. The other one was more horrible. Half it's body writhing and squirming like an upsidedown centipede and so many eyes that they were spinning in different directions at once. They cried but no one dared touch them or show them any empathy. Their own mother scrambled away and shrieked out in fear.

"Take them away!," she cried out, "Take them far away! I don't care what you do with them just take them far away and be rid of them! I'd rather have my husband think we suffered a loss than look upon these ugly things! No one shall tell him of this!"

One of the woman's most trusted servants placed the crying children in a chained basket and took them away that very same night. No one knew what became of them. They were never seen again. The maid never did return either. And the woman never told her husband what had happened. No one else who was there that night never dared repeat what they saw in fear of drawing the cursed creatures back to them. 

However they say that they still roam the lands. And if you are unlucky enough, you shall be the next to run into such a horrible monster.

You didn't have any idea of the last time you weren't told what to do. From the moment you were born your entire life wasn't even yours.

"I no longer have need of your services."

"Is that right?"

It had been months since the time you met him. The man who wanted you but who you rejected because he was a monster. An evil monster who would only devour. And you were already spoken for. It was only the beginning really.

Ever since you were a little girl you've done everything right. As heiress and next in line you were prepared for only one thing and that was to become the perfect young lady. You think they resented you for not being born the strong male heir they wanted to have and instead would have to pick someone else from one of the other noble families to marry you and become their true heir. After all a woman in their eyes could never inherit their estate. Not like a man could. So you had done everything you could do to please them. You studied everything you could do to make yourself come off as a proper well bred lady. Learning to dance in those uncomfortable shoes, laugh at suitors' ridiculous jokes no matter how obnoxious they were, making yourself fond over men that your parents expressed interest in even if you hated their entire being, forcing yourself into those ridiculous dresses and make up because that's what you were expected to look like...

And yet it was NEVER good enough for them. Never good enough for anyone. All of your efforts only seemed to make them more angry of you even though you were doing more than they expected.

In the end they were so fed up with your existence that they made the choice to end your life, other than imprison you or vanish you they sold you off to the wealthiest man they could. Both would've been preferable fates, at least then you would've been free to stop pretending to be something else you weren't. And leaving you to be taken off in the back of a wagon as they carted you off like unwanted cargo. If you only hadn't been born in this family maybe nothing would've happened.

It was still better than marrying the destructive monster that kept plauging you in the night. Each night asking you for one thing-

"Give me your hand as my wife."

The same line over and over. Night after night. He asked you for the one thing that you knew if you accepted, you'd never get out. Better the monsters you knew than the monster you didn't. You once asked him why. Why did he want you when there was surely woman far more wealthy and willing and beautiful? His answer was always the same.

"We were lovers in another life. You died then but you're still mine. It just took me time to find you once more. Give me your hand once again as mine. Join me once more as you belong here in my arms, by my side, and continuing to love me."

You rejected him. It didn't matter what you were then, it's a new life and you had a duty to your parents, and you had a fiance now. 

Perhaps you should've accepted because the destruction that followed you when the monster finally reared itself to show in the moonlight and attacked your wagon transport...it was something out of hell.

But now you sat here in what remained of the crumbling mansion and just stared blankly at him. The monster who had done all the destruction. First ones to go were the ones who transported you away, then your parents, then the man who had paid your parents for you, and then anyone the monster dam well pleased. Over and over day after day until the estate and the province as a whole was swallowed up until nothing else was left but a smoking husk of what once was.

You nodded before the red and amber eyes of hellish stoic fury. The one responsible for it all. "Yes. You've done everything you could do to satisfy your vengeance... So we have no more need to be in servitude to one another. I release you from anymore duties you feel you have to me."

Instead of taking the obvious way out, he hummed tilting his head. "Hmm. That would make sense....but I have no interest in in leaving what's mine." Those deadly eyes narrowed. "Isn't that right, my dear little wife?"

Wife.

You'd forgotten about that.

As an heiress you were expected to be married. More like married off. It was your duty to be married off to someone else who you probably would never love. All under the guise of being for the 'better of your people and kingdom' and then to be nothing but the perfect little supportive wife to him for the rest of your lives and produce him many heirs. It was a duty you being trapped didn't want but made peace with doing a long time ago and would've done it at one point in time. Especially if it meant avoiding his destruction and wrath.

To force yourself to wear whatever gown your mother picked and force yourself to smile and laugh in mock happiness as your father walked you down the aisle after the bridesmaids and flower girl and ring bearer. Force yourself to repeat rehearsed vows your mother wrote for you in advance and say I do to a stranger you'd never love. And thank everyone for coming to 'the happiest day of your life' and force yourself to scarf down too sweet wedding cake and cry over tacky decorations you'd have no say in picking.

But now none of it mattered really. You ended up promising your hand to the demon before you.

"Please! Just don't hurt anyone else!"

"Then give me your hand." The claws stained by the blood of many and if you weren't careful, you couldn't accidentally cut yourself if you grasped his hand. "As my wife for eternity."

A princess and a monster. An ironic comical fate but what choice did you ever have? You accepted your fate and reached out to the monster. He was suddenly upon you, grabbing your hand while the other looked around your waist pulling you against him as he grinned a smile that was both malevolent and full of want for you.

"After all all this destruction wasn't a part of just wrath. It was my wedding gift to you Let this be my marriage vow and promise to you, my dear.~"

[windvexer]

id love to have more servitors but im shit as remembering to feed/charge them on a routine!! any tips for ways to have them “automatically” fed somehow?

Inb4 "set a repeating alert."

There are a few methods you can take. For me it basically comes down to a few options:

Permanently plug in the servitor to an energy source

Plug all the servitors into a power strip so you charge all of them at once

Plan ahead and prepare vessels and energized substances so each feeding is easier.

The first approach is to design (or later modify) servitors so that they're plugged into an energy source. This is like leaving a phone constantly plugged in: on the one hand, the servitor becomes tethered to the energy source. On the other hand, it's always charging.

This old tumblr post is still my go-to online resource for this.

There is some fuss about servitors becoming "corrupted" if you attach them to energy sources and walk away, the idea being that new programming can flow through energy, and so over time - if you are not monitoring the servitor - they can start to change in unwanted ways.

I find this to be sort of true, but "corruption" shouldn't be taken as some kind of evil Jekyll and Hyde situation. Probably a better word is fragmented, but even so the effects aren't all that bad in my experience. And I doubt a very well constructed servitor, even a decently made one, would have too many issues with this.

The only real issue I have with plugging servitors (or anything) into an energy source so you don't have to remember it, is that you might forget it.

One thing you can do to keep things more hands-on is centralize the operation. Witches do this all the time with spellcasting altars. Bind each servitor to an object, or all of them to a single object (like extension cords plugged into a power strip), and energize all of them at once.

This can be done cyclically, perhaps around the full moon, but especially when you anticipate actually having the time/energy to do work.

Of course there is nothing at all wrong with just slotting in magic where it fits, but if someone has a lot of work they need to upkeep, I imagine sooner or later a person might actually need to free up one weekend a month to focus on it.

But you don't have to rely on direct energy work to feed servitors. Here's a post on making a feeding oil to anoint vessels, where you spend all the energy enchanting the oil in one go.

This other post about feeding spells may also be applicable (as what is a servitor but a spell with a personality?).

If you do just want to slot things in where they fit, excess energy gathered during other spellwork, energy exercises, prayer, and so forth, can then be used to charge servitors. Of course only you'd know if the energy is suitable for such, but you could do it. If grounding is a part of your practice, funnel energy into servitors rather than into the earth.

So there are plenty of options IMO, but if you do want to start doing things automatically, I'd really recommend keeping strong written records of what you're making. These things are best not completely forgotten.

[angelmush]

hi molly, you inspire me so much, thank you for being you. im about to move to a new city by myself for the first time and im scared. how did you build your life into one you loved? how do i meet people? i want so many things but sometimes they seem so far out of reach!! anyway, wishing you well and it always makes me happy to come visit your page and see you living life so fully :)

hello sweet anon!! sorry i am just getting to this, i was out of town for a few days and have been pretty offline in general lately. to be honest, i feel really really really underqualified to answer any questions about meeting people and making friends, as it is something that has never come easily to me, but i will do my best because i am SO excited for you!! moving somewhere new can be really healing!! i also want to gently remind you that social media-- even tumbr --is a highlight reel.

building my life into one i loved.

i think it's a few things.

it's a skill to find excitement about small things. delicious meals, nice weather, cute animals. being intentional about noticing and allowing yourself to feel excited about the little stuff does some kind of magic in your brain, and in appreciating your life in general. i am not naturally gifted at this whatsoever, but it's a muscle that takes practice to build, like anything.

i also dedicate a LOT of my free time to hobbies. right now it's mostly knitting, but often it's cooking and training my dog as well. watching movies and talking about them with people. spending time decorating the house. i'm very very very much a homebody, often to my detriment. it is monumentally difficult for me to take the first steps to leave the house to do things, even fun things, but once i do i am almost always better for it.

one sort of silly way i have helped to mitigate this, is that my girlfriend and i have started making seasonal bucket lists and magnetizing them onto our fridge. it turns it into sort of a game i guess, and it makes me feel accomplished to cross things off. we did really really well with ours this summer! we have three sections, small things (make smoothies, try a new dinner recipe, make a playlist), medium things (take the dog to the lake, see a movie in the theater, have drinks on a patio), and large things (go camping, go to pride, celebrate my birthday), etc. we just made our fall/winter one and i'm already sooooo excited for it!! it helped me to have a reason to leave the house while we were still getting our bearings in this new city.

i also have limited my social media time more recently on all apps except tumblr and pinterest to 15 minutes per day total. this helps me feel so much less frantic and it's easier for me to stay present than it used to be.

i also started taking medication! it's been a really big piece of the puzzle for me, personally. it helps my baseline be significantly more resilient and regulated and stable. it isn't a singular fix, but it opens up more space for that joy.

as far as meeting people goes, i will let you know when i figure it out LOL. im someone that needs a lot of quiet alone time to function and so i spend a lot of time with myself. i am still learning how to make the bridge from casual friends to a deeper and more meaningful friendship with the people ive met since moving here last august, and it's been a very clumsy imperfect process.

i'm sure this probably wasn't all that helpful haha it felt disjointed to write, and like i said, i am severely underqualified to give advice on this topic. but these are a handful of things i think have helped me in the last year, so hopefully there's something you can take from it!! wishing you all the luck and joy and wonder on your endeavors!! you can send me an ask anytime!! <33

[tojiscrack]

okay first of all liar liar is literlaly my favourite thing ive ever laid my eyes on?? its so good and every time you release a n ew chapter i SLURP it up like the details?? the backstories??

like omg just relaese a book atp.. i found liar liar during the tiem i was procrastinating for my english final and i kept reading until like 5 am (im a slow reader) anyways i was supposed to be preparing for my english final oral exam but i DIDNT! i was supposed memorize the 10 minute essay i wrote and present it to my class!!! but i didnt! ur fic was tew good... i ended up just winging it and i didnt do that bad (90) i like to think that it was because my brain vocab capacity epxanded after reading your extremely detailed scenes on mercupine the happiest moment of my life mustve been when i finished reading ch 8 (i think?) and realized there werent any more chapters and got scared u abandoned it (i have ptsd from all those otther authors 😣) and then YOU UPLOADED A NEW CHAPTER LIKE 5 MINUTES AFTER I FINISHE DREADING CH8 ??? ummm i swear it was like magic or smth i pissed tears of joy

i was also part of the readers that got fooled by kamo... i reallhy thought he liked mermaid at first and just thought it was a silly crush and we'd get a silly little scene of megumi being a teeny bit jelly! but then you wer like IMPLYING THAT KAMO LIKES TSUMIKI? so i was like wow what a plot twist didnt see that coming haha! AND THEN YOU REVEALED HE LIKES MERMAID????????????????????/ wow okay um 😱 and then the tutor trope like i love that

what i dont love is how i feel like mermaid might actually like that two banged freak back (im not a kamo hater i just get emotional sometimes 😞 just thinking about them being a thin g makes me worked up) becaues why was she like.. talking to him?? like hwat you should be talking to PORCUPINE. HE'S RIGHT THERE OPEN YOUR EYES.

but honestly cant blame my girl because megumi is suchhh a loser like gosh i love him but like grab your cheeks and MAKE A MOVE. like pls!!! and honestly kamo is such a sweet little thing like aww you really did all that just to be close to ur crush but also like back off and let my mercupine be i just want my two babies to be together like plss!! but also im scared that kamo and mermaid ARE going to end up together bc ummm megumi is NAWT doing anything... and if the do get together im rioting, mercupine has to be endgame.. but um i also love kamo tho and i dont want him to be sad too 😣 my two personalities guys

have you seen ao haru ride/blue spring ride/???? it lowkey reminds me of whats going on rn because WAIT WAIT SPOILER!! im new to tumblr but like KIND OF SPOILER FOR AO HARU RIDE!!!!!! IDK IF THERES LIKE SOME COVER I CAN PUT ON THIS BUT LIKE ITS KINDA A SPOILER SKIP SKIP SKIP IF UR WANTING TO WATCH AO HARU RIDE AND YOU KINDA DONT WANNA SPOILER I MEAN THE SPOOILER IS KINDA OBVIOUS AND ITS LITRO JUST THE PLOT BUT I MEAN LIE JUST SKIP YK

but THIS IS THE SPOILER PART LAST WARNING like basically the main character is kou and futaba and kou is also a nonchalant baddie like my bae megumi.. but hes like such a coward and CANNOT make a move just like someone ik... (hint hint) and then this other guy (i forgot his name, yk the feeling whenever u watch a new anime or kdrama and you know EVERYTHING that happened but not their names? gun to my head i would still forget immidiately) so anyways this other guy also likes futaba cuz shs a baddie (LIKE MERMAID!) and he shoots his shot and lowkey acts like a desperate loser bUT IT WORKS and they end up together but futaba still has feelings for her ONE TRUE LOVE and she admits to her bf that she doesnt like him and lowkey i felt bad for him... i dont want that to happen to kamo too

but like kamo needs to take a hint... BUT ALSO HE'S VERY CRUCIAL SINCE HES THE ONE TO PUSH MEGUMI TO ACTUALLY DO SMTH AOBUT HIS FEELINGS!!! like i loved seeing megumi jealous, but also the way i literally felt like this

when yaga called kamotionless and mermaid LOVEBIRDS?? like my heart ached for porcupine and the way he just said KAMO SHOULD GET BACK ON THE FIELD!! urgh like pls megumi this is ur sign to acc do smth!! atp if he doent so anything he has to take the L when kamo does end up getting the girl..

thats the end of my rant live laugh love liar liar... i will also probably be ranting a lot the next few decades unless i just want to brain rot lik usual and not work out my finges by typing also sorry if its SO LONG and all the spelling and grammar mistakes i just dont want to think while writing iykwim.. im in full winter break mode and my brain has turnd to mush LOVE YOUUU mercupine forever pls be endgame PELASPLEASEPLEASEPLEASEPLESAESPLEAESEPSELAESPLEASPELASEPLAESPLESAPLESASPLESAEPLSEASPLSEASPLSEASPLSASPLSEASPLSAEASPLSEASPLSEAESPLSEASPLSEASPLSEAESLPSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEASPLSEAEPLSEASEPLSEAPLSEAPSLEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSPALSEAPLSEAPLSEPALSPALPLSEAPLSPEAPSLEAPLSAPLSEAPLSEPALSPEALSPSLEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSAPLSEPALSPEALSPALESPLSEAPLSEAPLSEAPLSEALPSLEAPLSEAPLSEAPL

HIIII 😋 (a long juicy juicy art, ohh i’m gonna be eating so well rn 😝)

firstly, i’d like to apologise for answering this so late! ik you sent it in a while ago but (unusually) my inbox seems to be getting new asks every day — which i assume is ‘cause of the growth of LL (hooray? 🥳🫶🏽). not complaining at all btw, this ‘problem’ isn’t even a problem, i love hearing from everyone!!

but anyway, let’s get to the good stuff 😼

‘okay first of all liar liar is literally my favourite thing i’ve ever laid my eyes on??’ — it’s 4am rn and i should be sleeping for my law admissions exam tmr but i’m too stressed to even get some shut-eye time and this isn’t helping ‘cause now i’m not sleeping out of excitement 🥴 i wrote LL for my own personal gain but in doing that, i seemed to have attracted attention from you which just so happens to be a plus point, ilysmmm 😭🫶🏽 words can’t explain how glad i am that you’re enjoying the story so far!

‘like omg just relaese a book atp’ — HAHAHA STOP OR I’LL START LEVITATING 🤧 i really did consider being an author at one point in my life and then scrapped the idea, not sure why but what’s done is done lolol

GIRLYPOP WDYM YOU NEGLECTED UR ENGLISH ORAL EXAM?? 😭 i mean, i’m super relieved that you ended up acing it anyway (well done! 🥳) but don’t ever do that in the future 🙁 if my fic is ever the reason of someone failing their exams, i’ll literally dissipate on the spot 😭 but on a separate note, i’m flattered that you say your results were good ‘cause of my detailed scenes of mercupine 🥹 that’s genuinely such a creative way to compliment my writing, i appreciate it ml <3

‘the happiest moment of my life must’ve been when i finished reading ch 8 and realised there weren’t any more chapters and got scared u abandoned it, and then YOU UPLOADED A NEW CHAPTER LIKE 5 MINUTES AFTER’ — omg no wayyy 😭 i have a nasty habit of releasing chapters LATEEE into the night (uk time) ‘cause bonus scenes end up taking a little extra time than i initially expect to write up. it worked in ur favour! genuinely crazy ‘cause i was contemplating going to bed and uploading chapter 9 the next morning instead HAHAHA

‘i was also part of the readers that got fooled by kamo’ — muahahaha 😈 i’ll always react the same way any time someone comes in to lmk that my evil plan worked 😭 i found (and still find) everyone’s reactions to the reveal SO funny, like i sit there on my phone giggling like an idiot, and realise just how dad-like that is of me to be laughing at my own intentional trick 💀

‘what i dont love is how i feel like mermaid might actually like that two banged freak back’ — 👀

i mean, if it makes you feel better, she’s completely unaware of his feelings towards her rn 💀 like she had an INKLING during the tutor session, but that was shut down by her own brain 0.2 seconds after it even came up ‘cause of… reasons tsumiki

‘like what you should be talking to PORCUPINE. HE'S RIGHT THERE OPEN YOUR EYES’ — i can feel ur frustration through the screen LMAOO 🌝 and if this is you now… 👀

‘and honestly kamo is such a sweet little thing like aww you really did all that just to be close to ur crush but also like back off and let my mercupine be i just want my two babies to be together like plss!!’ — ok so this is how i EXPECTED my readers to react when kamo was introduced as the second male lead/love interest/whatever the hell else you wanna call him. but this is what i got from them instead: 🌝

‘(…) bc ummm megumi is NAWT doing anything...’ — now where have i heard that before 🫣

jk guys 😭

‘have you seen ao haru ride/blue spring ride/???? it lowkey reminds me of whats going on rn’ — i have!! i read the manga too, and let me tell you how pissed i was that the anime didn’t continue and they gave us that bland ass, ambiguous, friendship ending thingy 😤 will forever be mad about that

i truly appreciate you putting a spoiler warning before you wanted to say what you needed to say 😊 i’ve already read the manga and watched the anime so it’s not needed, but you didn’t know that so ofc, you decided to be a kissable human being by placing spoiler warnings, i could smooch u rn 🤧 can you tell i got the ending of outerbanks s4 wasted literally JUST as it came out in november on a tt comment section on a post that had NOTHING to fucking do with outerbanks omg i’m raging again

but yes! i’m well aware of who and what scene you’re talking about :) toma the ginger-haired guy, second LI for futaba 😟

LL wasn’t inspired or made from anything to do with ao haru ride so dwww!! the ending’s actually undecided as of now but… i think i have a clear outline of the events that should take place just before it. and a lot of things are influencing my decision rn hahaa 😁

‘thats the end of my rant live laugh love liar liar...’ — live, laugh, love LL indeed 🥹🫶🏽

‘also sorry if its SO LONG and all the spelling and grammar mistakes’ — nooo dw about it! 😭 it wasn’t difficult to read at all and i enjoy long messages! i actually encourage my readers to send them in :D

tysm for popping in and leaving such a wonderful message! the memes you put in for every part of it had me GASPING FOR BREATH, like idk why the reaction pics paired with ur literal reaction towards parts of the story had me dying in my bed 😭😭 i think it’s just the way you literally did not address them throughout the message LMAOOO 💀

you are the sweetest person on the planet. it’s nearly 5am now and i’m so tired but no matter how hard i try, i cannot sleep :( but now i have no hope seeing as i’m gonna be thinking about this for the rest of the day <3333

[k-s-morgan]

hi ks!! hope you're doing well. i absolutely love your hannibal meta posts, and while i have no idea if youd still be open to any asks, id love to hear your insight on something im stuck on (im also rly new to analysis so pls forgive me for any dumb comments!!) tw sa mention

in the hannibal s3e13 script when dolarhyde attacks will in his hotel room, there are a few lines with notable word choice:

"postcoital" "terrible lover's embrace" it threw me off a bit bc i didnt expect such specific wording. is this scene an allegory for sa? i wasnt sure if this was just the norm for hannibal scripts or if this was something noteworthy.

as far as i understand dolarhyde is now terribly jealous of will for being the subject of hannibal's love and angry at being emasculated. lots of ppl also say dolarhyde wanted to "change" hannibal by ruining/"defiling" the one thing (will) he truly cared for.

everything seems to makes sense, but i dont know if im making something out of nothing, or oversimplifying it. do you have a take on this considering your opinions on the francis hannibal and will dynamic? id love to hear anything you have to offer!! ty for all you do <3

Another ask: hello!! so sorry to bother again, happy late birthday!! i was judt wondering if you got my ask about the will + francis scene in the script---totally ok if you dont wanna answer it! i would just love to discuss it because i couldnt find much discussion for it when i tried searching tumblr/google

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Hey! Thank you so much for your ask and for your wishes <3

So, 'Hannibal' scripts are indeed famous for having rich sexual imagery. In this specific case, there is also context. I don't know if you've seen this already, but there is indeed evidence that Francis had sexual interest in Hannibal (apart from other kinds of fascination). From his notes made for the show, this particular bit (transcribed by Bentley):

“I think we are so similar and could be the best partners that history could have seen. Let me show you what we could do together doctor. I am so eager to please you to be your friend your lover perhaps. Why not I think we could love each other doctor. Don’t you want to have someone that is the one in your life. That special someone that is always here for you. It is me doctor? I am!”

Here’s an interesting part about Will as addressed to Hannibal:

“He faces you, he traps you but in the end he is broken! Do you think he understands you? Do you think he really appreciates your magical power? Does he realize how special and unique and wonderful you are doctor. I have my doubts, I don’t think he really sings the wonder, the salvation that can come from following you, knowing you. ”

That’s extremely interesting because it gives a much deeper insight into Francis and his motivations. For one thing, one of the phrases that always bothered me in the show is his description of Will - namely, the mention that he’s “not very handsome”. It’s from the books, so it might apply there, but Will in the show is handsome, very much so. Francis seems to resent him.

After Hannibal basically helps Will get to Francis in the museum & some more events later, Francis grows furious because he realizes that Will is the central player while he, Francis, is a pawn. Hannibal doesn't care about him the way he thought.

Francis’ attitude to Will undergoes some changes: at the start, he touched his photo, which denotes his interest. He threw him away like a toy in the museum, and while it’s just an interpretation, to me, he looked pissed at Will in particular. When he tells Hannibal later that Will interests him, it can’t be just from their museum encounter. Francis clearly knows a lot about Will (likely from Freddie’s articles), but he doesn’t like him because he thinks him unworthy of Hannibal, which his notes prove. But in TWOTL, in the moment you mentioned, Francis is very unsure about Will. He is no longer certain what to think of him (since he thinks Hannibal has chosen him). He automatically treats him with some sort of respect because of who he is to Hannibal and what he must represent.

I think this explains how they chose to describe the scene of the attack. It's not necessarily a sexual assault, but violence frequently has erotic undertones in 'Hannibal.' Here, Francis might be trying to look at Will like Hannibal, like a lover, hoping to understand what he sees in him. He's respectful and almost reverent at some points after Will regains consciousness. In his eyes in these moments, Will is Hannibal's partner, the man who has what Francis wanted.

Notably, this respect turns into fury in the finale, where he attacks Will viciously. Interesting that he goes to ruin his face first and foremost. Considering his own insecurity, it says a lot about his many-layered jealousy, from deep to a superficial physical level.

[calocera]

Your posts about SNW Spock makes me so curious, could you please explain how they've done him wrong since he seems very different from the original series :O Are they making him more human despite the SNW taking place before the og?

yeah i can! im not the best person to talk about it probably since im a pretty recent trek fan and also tos/spock arent parts of trek i care about as much as a lot of other fans, but i have opinions for sure!!

firstly just up front i do not like ethan peck as spock. he does not look like spock or act in a way i am satisfied with. it feels like the only reason they cast him was because he has a deep voice. so i am going forward in this with haterism for him specifically not JUST how he is written in snw

Spock is written not like a vulcan but like an anhedonic human. actually not even anhedonic, just like a human raised in vulcan society trying to blend in. like there is nothing about him that feels genuine he just feels like woobiebait for 2012 tumblr to make flower crown edits of because he is awkward and quirky. every scene involving spock is a joke about him and his demeanor, everything he says is a wink wink nudge nudge "lol vulcans act like this and its so stupid lol logic is silly" like i can physically feel a laugh track whenever hes on screen. i enjoy jokes about vulcans but it isnt funny when there isnt anything else. its like spock showing emotion, it isnt satisfying when its a constant and not a little treat peppered in. in snw hes stifling a giggle or screaming in pain or being oopsie awkward silly every time he gets a focal scene, it takes the magic away because now it isnt a rare break in character its just how he is. Ive seen a lot of people defend this aspect as him being young and therefore less mature than in tos, but hes like approaching 30 :\ i get him being less mature but he doesnt act like a sheltered 30 year old he acts like someone freshly 18. at this point its just like…MAKE A NEW CHARACTER!!!!

as a point of contrast, i like how uhura is written in snw (in season 1 anyways, she has barely appeared in s2) she is obviously younger and is growing into her spot on the crew, but they arent hinging her character on the 1 or 2 pop culture uhura moments, retconning anything about that that doesnt align with modern media fandom, and calling it a day; they actually expand on her character outside of like idk her doing a sexy dance and her sitting at the phone (though i guess it is easier for her since she had barely any character in tos anyways). meanwhile they DO do that with spock, his bullet point top 10 iconic spock moments of sometimes being awkward and showing emotion are now the only things he is allowed to do. tldr flanderization

i also think its interesting that it is this way since ethan peck played spock in discovery and there hes the exact opposite. hes extremely serious and vulcan; which fits the tone of the show (regardless of my opinions on the tone of disco). i just dont understand how that spock translated into the snw spock. they are not the same guy.

anyways on to the biggest plot related gripe with him...how he interacts with women!!!yay!!

first theres how they decided to have multiple episodes about his, apparently, strained-yet-loving-and-involved relationship with tpring. the inclusion of t'pring feels stupid because other than the 1 minute of cheap "oh i remember her!" from someone seeing her on screen for the first time what point is there to her returning when the ONE canonical fact about her is that she and spock A: had an arranged marriage, B: did not meet in person since they were children, and C: hated each other. its not like there is a huge contingency of t'pring/spock shippers holding out since 1967 so what value does reintroducing her as a character serve? i assume its as some kind of attempt to give a woman who previously had no real character something to do, but her existence on snw is STILL only about spock and her relation to spock so there isnt any sort of feminist level up happening. including her was not interesting enough to justify retconning the plot of the most iconic episode of star trek. especially when multiple episodes tonally and stakes-wise rely on you caring about them as a couple, and anyone watching who knows who she is already knows that her and spock dont have any relationship to speak of in the future so who is this for? if you really really just NEED spock to have sex with a woman why not make a new character? that would also suck but at least it wouldnt be timeline interfering. im not even a huge continuity purist "oh no!!the timeline!!!plotholes!!!" but when the situation is the writers deliberately breaking the continuity in large ways and the outcome isnt even fun? stupid.

and now his relationship with chapel. i am way more annoyed by this one since its just gross. so from tos the only thing with them is that chapel has a crush on him and spock is not interested. also worth noting that its such a non-plot related thing that it only is revealed under the influence of alien drug virus that makes you horny. and they decided that not only was that enough to base a whole reciprocated romance arc around, but now since theyve introduced tpring back into the story, spock is now a cheater??? what is the POINT of breaking canon to introduce spocks girlfriend only to go "well actually hes horny for his coworker" like...that isnt how love triangles work youve just done a character assassination. the man who would rather kill his best friend than have sex with his wife is now fucking both her and the woman who confessed to him and he got so mad he crushed a computer with his bare hands. ok 👍. i just hate that they chose spock to be the romantic center of the show. anyone else could have been the character who gets into relationship drama why spock? there are multiple new characters who could have taken up the position. and its not like spock has nothing else to do as a character without it

to say things specifically about the most recent epsiode since it was particularly annoying and showed things that happen throughout the series:

firstly spock just does shit thats stupid. illogical even. i know the whole logical fallacy moment with vulcans but when it isnt a point of note in the show and rather just happens as if its a normal occurrence for spock as a person im like...he would be a laughing stock on vukcan and not have any of the positive reputation he holds.

the plot of this ep was basically that spock gets turned completely human and they just miss literally the whole point of it. vulcans have MORE emotion than humans, they ACTIVELY suppress it. yet when spock is turned human he just experiences human emotion completely emotionally? he should be having an EASIER time suppressing his emotions. and OMG he gets a BONER because he sees a hot WOMAN LOL LOL isnt that funny? spock got hard isnt that hilarious? its just so cheap. they act like being human makes him a completely different person, they played it like the voyager episode where belanna gets split into human and klingon BUT in that case she was literally split into two different people (this ep had a lot of issues too ie racism but that’s a different can of worms); here spock just becomes human he still has the same memories and training and history...why would he forget what its like to be a vulcan. they could SO EASILY make excuses too but they just didnt care. and anyways bada bing bada boom the ep ends with him and chapel hooking up which i already complained about and could complain about more.

i think thats already too much so im gunna stop myself here but trust theres more i hate and other people have probably talked about this better than i have :')

blade nation

[nottoofondofgaypeople]

hi hello figured i should send mcd asks to your mcd blog

anyway what’s something in canon that your changing? can be important or not im just curious about your rewrite

Thank you so much for the ask! I literally don't get anything done with this rewrite if people don't ask me about it.

Editors note: I think I missed posting on Tumblr because this post got away from me in the span of five minutes of writing...

I've been having a lot of thoughts about changing canon recently, some that I'm not super solid on. I know I want to change Aaron's death, but I'm not sure how. And I know for a fact I want to change Tu'la pretty drastically, but it's hard to do so with the current cast because so few of them would ever be really connected to it. Those are ideas I'm work shopping right now.

The one thing in canon I know I want to change is Garroth's betrayal. Because Lilian is an illusionist. So like... She could have knocked out Laurance and stole the amulet while disguised as Garroth. And then used the mask she had already used on him to mind control him away from the battlefield and to Zane while she did this.

This means that Laurance thinks Garroth betrayed them just in time for the mind control to properly set in and Garroth can actually betray them. And Lilian plotted all of this out. That's another thing, I'm fleshing out Lilian A LOT because even if she's a barely present character, I find her incredibly fascinating. She's 100% a girl boss and absolutely Zane's favorite that isn't Janus.

I like the idea of Lilian and Zane working together on more things than any other member of the Jury though. She's his most trusted confidant. Because I did something evil. I always thought that Lily, Aaron's dead wife, and Lilian looked similar and had similar names. Suspiciously similar.

Let's be honest, Zane is a petty malicious bastard, he absolutely would have a member of his jury willing to give up their identity to him take on the appearance of one of his victims. Just to taunt another. Man what was I on about with Gene as Arthis, Zane is clearly Arthis Menathil, but his Sylvannas is a man?? Unless Lilian is Sylvannas?? Or wait would it be Kiki?! I should stop going down this path, thinking about WoW only causes trouble.

Hey random aside, Lilian is totally trans, and she's used magic to transition fully. Zane helped her with all of this when she first joined the Jury and confessed to being born in the wrong body. That's all!

Anyways what I was trying to say is that Zane basically asked Lilian to take on the appearance of Lily when she pledged her loyalty to him. She had a different name. It's never clear if she remembers who she was or not, because her life seemingly started when she joined the Jury. Even if Janus is stronger and therefore better at enacting Zane's violence for him, Lilian is the most loyal member of the Jury. Zane knows that he can always rely on her.

And y'know what?? I'm gonna say it. Maybe they were a little in love. There. I said it. Fuck it, I'm gonna make Zane break from canon by expressing a genuine moment of vulnerability when he sees Lilian die because he cared about her. That sort of loyalty may be a tool he uses, but he also just cares about Lilian. How can he not when she's so devoted to him and so genuinely kind? She actually loves Zane, sort of, in a bad way, and he actually loves her, sort of, in a bad way.

Did I just imply that the inner most rankings of the Jury of Nine are actually just Zane's Polycule?? Y'know I can't even be surprised a post that was supposed to be about Garroth somehow turned into a new villain polycule, but I'm still a little amazed I managed to do that...

TLDR: Garroth gets mind controlled, Laurance gets played like a fiddle, and Lilian is a slaytastic girl boss that will surely be missed.

[our-reality]

ok im so so so tired and physically cannot draw new art for them but RUBY AND JAVA MASTERPOST BABY!!!!!!!!! (for @smallartistocbracket)

uhhhh im actually not sure what im supposed 2 put here but wtv. uh

ig ill talk about ruby first

full name: ruby kitamura

age: 19

height: 5'8"

gender/pronouns: cis woman, she/her

orientation: panromantic asexual

race/ethnicity: asian, japanese

spark color: coral pink

personality: she's extremely friendly and bubbly, she loves talking to people and can make friends with pretty much anyone she meets. she's also particularly caring and patient, even to the point of self sacrifice. she especially prioritizes her relationships with her family and her girlfriend (who i'll talk about later) and she loves them all so much i cannot emphasize enough how freely she loves. she definitely perfers being close to people and it can come off as her being in your face all the time which. is somewhat true but she's very kind and respects boundaries when she needs to!!! she's also absolutely a romantic and she always sticks to what her heart tells her to do

relationships: uhhh she has a big ass family!!! she has 6 other siblings (ivyn, natsuo, rain, akira, paul, eve) and a mom who loves them all very much <3 she just has to work a lot in order to provide for them all but they make it work!!!!!!! mostly because ruby's like a second mom to all of them <3 uh she's also very good friends with python and swift. who are gods (ish)!!!!!!!!!! so that's pretty epic. she's a bit closer to python than swift since she more frequently trains under python but yeah :o) and then of course she's girlfriends with java!!! their relationship means everything to me

notable abilities: uh under my magic system she's an averager, which basically means she's born with a higher intelligence than most people!!! she's also trained to use a bo staff in combat and generally does extremely well with close quarters fighting that's epic

other: she has adhd cuz projecting and used to be a full time gifted AND sports kid whadda hell. she played tennis and volleyball and still knows how to play them pretty well!!! she has some trauma as well but we don't talk abt that ❤

and then java's next or smth

full name: java collins (also goes by aerith or cosmic sometimes)

age: 21

height: 6'2"

gender/pronouns: trans woman, she/her

orientation: demiromantic demisexual lesbian

race/ethnicity: white, ambiguously european

spark color: denim blue

personality: much more laid back and sheltered than ruby. she very rarely chooses to talk to new people, and if she does, it can take a while for her to really come out of her shell. when she does, though, she's very easy-going and sometimes sarcastic and absolutely loyal. no matter how much of a mess she may be she can and will stick by the people she trusts through thick and thin. she's also much more of a realist, choosing to analyze things from an objective point of view rather than sticking to any one ideal.

relationships: unlike ruby, she tends to prioritize her relationships with her friends over her family. and that's because her family life is kinda shit oops!!!!! won't go into full detail here but she actively resents her father and is not on good terms with her sisters so we're not going to worry about that. but uh instead we're gonna talk about her friends WOOOOO!! she's also friends with afformentioned gods python and swift, except this time she's much closer to swift and lowkey doesn't like python for a while lol </3 but she's also got her best friend from teenhood c+ and tumblr mutual requiem that she goes through weird ass shit with that's awesome (c+ and ruby also know each other btw). and finally like i've said there's her girlfriend ruby and they are so so so madly in love and they make each other better and oughfjdkelah(×[#&=(÷;

notable abilities: she's an averager just like ruby, but she has a bow and arrow as her signature weapon (get it. bo staff. bow and arrow. this was intentional). and as you might've guessed she's more so a long distance fighter which mean that they cover each others weaknesses that's so awesome

other: she's autistic which is also me projecting and also means ADHD AUTISM SOLIDARITY BABY!!!!!!! she's also an artist on tumblr and like. an influential one at that what the hell. she collects art supplies and is a scary jokes + idkhow fan and she also has trauma go figure (if you decide to follow me. which you totally should cuz im sexy like that. all my ocs have issues LMAO)

AND IF I NEED TO ADD ANYTHING MORE I WILL!!!! THIS IS A SKELETON OF A MASTERPOST BUT HOPEFULLY THAT'S NOT AN ISSUE LOL okay bye

[smaeemo]

Order of events:

Had a freak out about the dentist

Opened ao3 and went “ACK” when I was jump scared by destiel fanfic

Went onto tiktok and watched like 10 Nara Smith videos

Kind of paid attention to this family guy episode

Now Im just chilling

#self care (?)

Sometimes I wonder if I could magically become an animated character and just jump into the tv. Ok thats such a lie, I totally have not imagined that until right now, but now I have a new thing to imagine. You know, like when you pay too much attention to the subtitles on accident, forget how to read, get really caught up in the fact that actors exist, you know that kinda stuff. But this one has like potential incentives. I almost just typed “potential inc*st” and I was giggling about it for like a nanosecond before I was like “Oh boy” and then changed it. Also, how tf do you censor stuff, like F*ck, F**k, F***, etc. Are there rules or is it like personal preference?? Ah, I just thought too much about words and like totally freaked out because I was like “How the f**k(?) do you spell thought” and then I just had a moment of reflection. Sitting alone in an apartment in a lawn chair watching family guy is peak brainrot. Honestly? I think brainrot is what makes life so interesting yk? Like how else will I stop the OCD? Therapy? Psshh (Jk im in therapy) (But you get the point). One time I had an interview with a new therapist and she was like “So what are your coping mechanisms?” and I sat there for like 2 minutes and just said “Family guy, sims 4, and Tumblr” and I will remember that moment forever because all she said was “better than drugs” and then I did not see her again. What a time to be alive. To be fair, I was in middle school. That’s not to say those coping mechanisms aren’t still alive and healthy, I have just added more to the bank (worse and better) (lol) (not lol) and I would not tell another therapist that because I found my embarassment somewhere along the way. Honestly? The best coping mechanisms I have found work, are like literally writing all of my bullsh*t (did I do it right?) thoughts onto paper, notes, google docs, or like tumblr (lol) and then I just sit here and stew in em for a bit. Poetry never worked for me, so like if you open up my “poetry journal” all you’d really find in there is just like “Today I had a panic attack, now I found that I am so scared of mountain lions” and then it ends in like “All in all, I am glady nickname isn’t marv,” Then after I write all of it, I’m like violently reality checked and just like “why am I on the floor, on tumblr, and crying” and then I get back up and watch family guy. Sometimes I just pretend Im doing a vlog and just start talking to myself. It’s like super embarassing to be caught “vlogging alone” because then you have to explain yourself and it always ends in either “omg yeah I do that too!” or “… anyways,” Oh god. I HATE ROSS GELLER. Sorry that just reminded me of that scene where Pheobe was sharing her horrifying trauma and it gets all quiet and R*ss (hahah) just goes “I think the word you are looking for is… anyways” and then proceeds to divert the attention. Also, everything about him PEEVES me. I’ve been rewatching friends as like an actual human being vs like a child, and oh my god. This is an EXPERIENCE. I would talk more about it, but like the music Im listening to just got so “vibey” that I need to listen to it and just process that I wrote an entire tumblr post that I will 100% forget about and then regret in like 20 min. But yk, gotta keep up the grind.

XOXO,

Leenya Green

[st4r5sh4rdzxx]

my website (neocities)

i realized i never talked about my website on here and i wanna change that, so here :)

i made it beginning in like march for a class because i basically just was interested in coding. because of all of my life, it always just seemed like some kind of magic. like how can you just type equations and the computer does all kinds of cools stuff?

granted i still dont fucking understand anything but im trying VERY hard. i researched python for a month and decided i was not getting anywhere because no matter how much time i spent dedicating myself to the tutorials, i still felt confused and lost, despite it being one of the easiest programming languages apparently.

so i went with html because hey ive seen people make their tumblrs look cool before so why not? it also feeds into my nostalgic interest for old web, back when the internet was free from corporate manipulation.

if ya wanna listen to me ramble on about coding more, read below the cut. and if you are desperate to share your site but have almost no one to share it with (like me :,D) feel free to reblog/reply with your url!

i think it's basic to assume that any built-by-hand website is going to be a work in progress- under construction, if you will. same with mine. for a project in a different class, i utilized my limited coding skillset to actually make a game, and i still dont understand how i did it. i just remember spending at least a few days zoning out in my school's library, a tutor or friend sitting in front of me who would remind me to eat and stand up and walk around a few times each day. it was exhibited in a gallery for a weekend and it was truly insane.

for some background, i myself am an artist, currently pursuing my bachelors degree and i work multidisciplinary. i've had stuff exhibited in shows since i was in high school, granted they were small, or free to enter youth art shows. at this time i had grown pretty accustomed to gallery nights and my anxiety about it waned. but this was the first time in several years that i was genuinely so nervous about people's reactions to my work. i kept creeping back to where my work was displayed, anxiously watching people react to my game. in my personal opinion, it feels somewhat self-centered to stay by your artwork on gallery night during group shows- and yet, here i was displaying this bad habit.

working on games and websites is something i never planned to do. its honestly exhilarating to come across this new interest i never had before. i feel that my art is now able to take a new direction that im seriously excited to continue doing :)

[aspiringtrashpanda]

(CONTINUED maybe we're back on track if I didn't mess up my text splitting pls don't eat a part tumblr, I THINK there's 5 if I counted right??? im so sorry OP you're an angel for putting up with me and I'm starting to think I didn't give you an adequate enough heads-up) This fic is my baby, it has grown up with me, I’m literally sending Leaf to College at one point to project that life on 🤣 hey Blue Oak did it, so can she. (but Highschool first, can’t convince me anyone with the education of a 4th grader (or 8th grader tech, Ash is 10, she's 14 Let's Go-style where he was born during "protagonist years") will be allowed to be a Champ who wants in on how to run a region and detective work) schooling is a bit different in Pokeverse, you take Uni classes for fun, don’t need two years of an AA or AS Degree. Pokémon Toxicology, BioDiversity and Medicine re: using their natural abilities VS Organic Chemistry ANY DAY + Law Student-like internships at the League to learn Champ duties + fun bonus of Lance doing extra and involving his League with the Interpol.) "Where do you think you're going?" "Out." "Without doing the paperwork?" "You can give it to the intern!" "You are the intern." “I cannot believe this betrayal. This slight against me will not be forgotten.” “You mean just like how you didn’t forget the League duties you insisted on being allowed to do?” eyebrow raise “…well.” Lance is not exempt from bullying.

"You're the one wearing a bib!" "A what?! It's a cape!" "And it's on the wrong side!" "It's a cape! And it's elegant!" "It's tacky is what it is!" You're likely to find her complimenting Leon's cape just because of how offended Lance gets. Choosing a cape is a science. But nobody wants to hear a one-hour monologue on Cape Studies. Payback uwu. He's actually the reason she ends up having to finish Highschool. He's not giving an obviously emotionally tired 14 y/o Boring Adult Work even if she's eager to do it because SOMEONE needs to fix the atrocious state of the Kanto Region. (Lance was overworked, he's trying, but Indigo Season...what is wrong with all these citizens. It's ok, once she's ready they can split uuuh, the work between Kanto, Johto, The Orange Islands, and the Sevii Islands + G-Men Investigations so Lance doesn't have a heart-attack at his desk. But seriously, who gave him this much work anyways??? Not to mention running the League, the Gym Budgets, restocking Badges, employee paychecks, monitoring trainers during League Season, and the influx of tourists and establishing Pokemon Contests in KanJoh, etc.) So it's off to learn The Magic of Friendship with Ash and friends and falling victim to their puppy-dog eyes. (Occasional meet-ups during Kanto turn into full Joh-Hoenn adventures, and Sinnoh encounter when investigating with Looker about Team Galactic as Lance I presume is off training in Galar, he needs a break too.) So for Johto (*insert horrified look at the GS Ball because that's what you use to capture Celebi, she would know~ "well heck, guess I have to steal that when no one's looking.") And everyone going, "You know Leaf, I was a bit worried when we heard about The Incident but you're still you :)" Cue Leaf "oh...*laughs nervously.*" (That moment when you disappear off the face of the earth after The Incident, and re-appear to win the Indigo League and Clean House and don't know how to tell people you kind of regained memories of your past life and had an existential crisis. They're a bit come and go/the ones getting triggered upon meeting Steven in the Granite Cave episode was fun lol (not) *Gets to Ecruteak, sees Morty, books it the other way because she remembers his warnings to not chase after Celebi from The Other Timeline/Gameverse and does not need him seeing the many ghosts of her dead Pokemon clinging to her if they are.*

BLUE OAK DID IT, SO CAN SHE! This is gonna be my new motto for everything, whether it's relevant or not lmao. These Lance interactions are everything to me. I LOVE found family League shenanigans. So precious I want to cry. Okay I want to read this fic so badly. It sounds so heartwrenching and fascinating and I can tell you've put SO MUCH thought into it. Gimme. *Grabby hands motion* (actually though, i am happy to beta read if you ever consider posting!)

[roci-wolf]

ROCI IM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO REPLY I FORGOT 😭😭😭

but okay lemme go one by one by what i remember from what you said

i’m so sorry you’ve been going through a hard time. it isn’t easy when you feel like your mental health is failing. i know firsthand how hard it can be. but i’m so so proud of you for working on yourself and your mental health. and i’m glad you decided to take a break for yourself. i hope the break has been fruitful!

and gosh i’m so sorry about your bunny :( it can’t be easy. my cats go play around away from the garden for a bit and i freak out when i don’t see them around. so i can’t imagine how terrible it must be.

but AHHHHH NEW KITTYYYYYY!!!! so excited!!! did you get the kitty already? what’d you name it? what kind of cat is it??? heheh i love cats and i’m so excited for you!!

i’m proud you’re working on your self esteem and i get that sometimes the stuff we want comfort from most tend to become the most stressful because we’re in a bad place and the magic and comfort just doesn’t feel the same and it just… ultimately feels worse cause it feels like you lost something very important to you :(

but i hope slowly you can return. i miss seeing you on here and i miss your lil asks and your opinions on my random posts jshdjsjdjsk but no pressure! take your time and i hope you feel better soon 💛💛💛 and i’ll be here~ with a bunch of comfort fics if you wanna ever read em hehe

nooo don't worry, i don't frequently check my notifs anyway so i didn't notice 😭

yeah, my biggest problem was getting out of survival mode, i am the avoidant type of person so it's very hard for me to deal with anything in my life that's out of my comfort zone, but i finally stepped up and started to figure things out. ofc it's still hard and because i've been focusing solely on survival for so long i don't really know what i want from life anymore?? but i am proud i can at least relax a bit more and i can give time to myself to think and reflect. thank you for the words~ you're so kind

yeah, i kinda got used to the idea that i'll never see my bunny again and i'm consoling myself with the thought that she's in a much better place now and that she's hopping happily without my cat bothering her lol 💗

unfortunately smth came up so i can't pick up the cat yet. i'm actually getting him from my friend bcs her cat gave birth a few month ago and she's giving me one of her kitties, but i have to wait 2 more weeks till i can finally get him. also, because i'm getting it from my friend, i actually don't know its breed 🤣 my friend doesn't know the exact breed of her cat and the dad is unknown (lol), so i can't tell for sure, but the mom is a combination of a tabby with some other fancy breed that i cannot recognise. it has many orange spots of her coat mixed with the regular tabby colors, does that make sense?? but he kitty i'm adopting has a dark coat with no orange spots at all. it looks like a tabby, but much darker than usual, idek how to explain 😭

ALSO i actually SUCK at giving pets names 😭😭 i always get overwhelmed bcs it feels like such a big responsibility to me so i always collect ideas from other people. sooo if you have any cool male cat names in mind 👀👀 i'm more than glad to hear

yeah, that's exactly how it feels with comfort places 😭😭 that's why i got away from tumblr a little bit, i didn't want it to start feeling like a 'responsibility' or like something i needed to do, i tend to do that with my hobbies sometimes and it makes them unenjoyable. i also stopped writing for a while and opening tumblr was reminding me about that and it made me feel a little guilty haha

but! it's summer vacation now and things are moving in the right direction (in my opinion at least) so who knows.

aw, THANK YOU, TI, you're so sweet 🥹🥹 i miss sending asks and answering on random stuff too 😭 i am glad i was not an annoyance with those lol

and!!! i actually do want to read what you've been posting since i disappeared 👀 is there anything you'd recommend me to read first??

[lamafuntrolls]

trolls:rainbow drop

Chapter 1 part 2

(so i couldn't post or anything because if school and studying,and i couldn't finish the drawing so ima discript it,and ima make m'y acount half wattpad and Tumblr)

Trollex pov

I finally ended the songs,i was really tired,and i looked at the Time,the party was only half way done!i went done the mushroom and fell on a seat. I then groaned whit m'y hand on my face,i could feel m'y kind of magic was getting Stronger for no reason.

Branch then came to me whit a worried look.

Branch: trollex,are you ok,you dont look so good

Trollex :im fine...just...really tired....

Branch:are you sure,your sweething and your Heart is.....

Trollex :what wrong whit m'y Heart?

Branch:eee..ummm n..nothing....

Trollex :what?!

Branch:your Heart is....gone...

I then look down,m'y Heart was gone!i panicked and started floathing like crazy.

Branch:ok ok calm down!

Trollex :I CANT,MY HEART GONE,WHAT WILL I DO!!!!!

Branch:well at least your not dead....

i then tough,i was still Alive,Do m'y Heart was gone,how was this possible.i Then Heard gasp and wispers in the crowd.

Me and Branch went over and saw the other leaders in front of all the trolls,whit a strange looking créatures on front of them .

We both went on front to get a good look of this.It was a black cat thing whit tentacles out of us ears and stomach,a big mouth whit blood coming out. I let out a small Scream but silence.

i look at the leaders,and they were both confused and scared,then Poppy start talking to it.

Poppy:umm hello,welcome to trolls Kingdom,mat i ask Who are you and what are you

The creature laugh and open is big mouth in a small,i didn't want to be scared,but i couldn't help but Hide behind Branch,Do no one seemed to notice. The créateur then Started talking un a Echo voice.

???:well ,im sorry(bows) i didn't now i would meet royals ,Queen poppy....

Poppy :wait h..how d.did you...

??:now,umm let Say,a guess,now ,im King Darkness of the dark realm

Barb:the what

Darkness:pathetic...

Hé then looked at me,i gasp and His more behind Branch,Who had got out is Weapons,hé started smilling again,and Walker close to me.

Darkness:well,i never though i would see a true rainbow...

Branch:get away!!

Darkness:why i just wa-

Branch then hot him whit is stick,it made a Deep scratch in is chéri,His eyes started to glow red,and looked at him deadly.

Darkness:well,if you Wanna Play like that...

TROLLS

Spray darkness....

They started attacking us ,they took some trolls down,Poppy then Started yelling.

Poppy :WAIT WAIT,PLS DONT HURT THEM

Darkness laugh again and snap is Ginger,some dark trolls and tasu each took a leaders neck and put knife close,but they didn't touche me or branch Do?

Darkness:listen,piploss,i make rules now,you listen to me(Côme close to her)

Because your nothing then a worthless Little Pink Bubble gym,whit no Power,magic or way to even fight....

Branch then jump in front of her.

Branch:LEAVE HER ALONE

Darkness:called in m'y trap..

I Suddenly got took by Two weird trolls,i panicked and try getting off their grib,but the more i tried the more There Sharp Claws got into m'y skin.

Branch: TROLLEX!!!

Darkness:i New you wouldn't let him go,but you wont let us hurt her either...

They started to put a beedle on my green arm,i Scream from the pain,m'y green started to fais away,i delta weaker and weaker...

Branch:WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HIM

Darkness:you wont need to now because you Will sleep a lonnnnnng time...

No one pov

Giff then jumper in front of them,all the dark trolls and tasu gasp

Darkness:giff...i told you if you Do one more mustake....

Giff:i dont care,i cant let you hurt them

Obvist:Giff what are you doing!!!???

Giff:what best for nature.....

(if you want to see part one just Click the tag trolls :rainbow drop or right it in research and you Will find it,since it was on my old acount)

[hanibalistic]

I reread celestial strings pt 1 and 2 and back then when i first read it i was way too shy to say anything but now i am changed and LEMME JUST

the way i smiled at my phone like an idiot and giggled and cooed AND CLUTCHED MY HEART

im really looking for pt 3 of it bc its just so so so good and my heart just breaks for them at the end of pt 2 (begging for a happy ending for them BC THEY HAVE TO BE HAPPY TGT LIKE WDYM)

(the amounts of times i clutched to my cat bc it was so cute and when it was so heartbreaking)

also would you consider expanding this universe when this series is finished? like I can imagine a cute fluffy series for Felix too. His thing about love and soulmates is just so 🥹🥹🥹 LIKE IT FEELS LIKE HE DESERVES HIS OWN LOVE STORY TOO YK

anyways your an amazing writer and im starting to get self conscious and shy abt sending such a long thing to you

gskshkddh WAIT SORRY TO BOTHER but also the celestial strings links atm are like a lil broken cause it directs me to the web version of tumblr as opposed to the app honestly its fine if you dont fix it but just to let you know

here’s the cat that I CLUTCHED AND BASICALLY MANHANDLED bc the story was giving me too many emotions (shes fine and actually really happy abt it tho like shes is an extremely clingy cat)

hopefully this brightens your day like how celestial strings brightened mine <3

hello there! how wonderful for you (and your cat! whose name i don't know so pray tell!) to drop by ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა

thank you so much for reading celestial strings, that story is my absolute baby and always will be (っ- ‸ - ς) i can't even remember how that story came to life in my head, it kind of just did, and it was surprising i managed to finish that story at all the first time i posted it because i am having a lot of issue with writing it now. i don't know what you meant exactly by the first time you read it, but (if you know) the original version of it has a happy ending, which is not happening (๑ᵔ⤙ᵔ๑) the two main reasons why i decided to reupload celestial strings on here blog is because (1) i love the story a lot so i wanted it up, and (2) to give it the ending i wanted it to have, which is arguably a non-happy one!

i actually have expanded the universe in my own time! i mainly worked on the magic system + minho's family, though. i don't think i would write something long for the extra characters in the story. and even though the way this new version ends would seem like it's setting up for a sequel (i suppose? it will depend on the way i write it!), i don't think i will ever write one. i have a track record of writing blurbs for characters within a universe, though, so cs!felix will still appear occasionally.

the links are weird! i don't know why tumblr is doing this even when i didn't insert the web links on the masterlist (·•᷄‎ࡇ•᷅ ) it's been doing that for other links too. i will see what i can do though,,,

[anglefish3008]

THANK YOU FOR THE TAG REAP!!! Keep the tags coming, I love them!!!

Salut! Im coco:)

what I do in my free time: sleeping, daydreaming, listening to music, I like to run and take walks, strength training and stretching for ballet, and doodling in my sketchbook.

What are your hobbies and how did you get in to them: art, (painting, scrapbooking, digital, and so much more) I loved making my own stories with my art as a kid. Some characters I had back then I still have now:) teaching myself classical ballet variations, but then crying because I probably won’t be able to preform them 💔 ballet in general. A family member did it and i idolized so much my parents enrolled me in a dance academy:) scrolling through tumblr, reading, trying new sweets, drinking some good tea and on occasion coffee.

A book or movie that left an impression on you: Pax by Sara Pennypacker was a good one I read recently, made me a bit teary eyed in the end.. I’m really emotional though, I cry all the time haha! I’ve been getting into some classics - like Anne of Green Gables, and Heidi, and I adore those as well. Such a sweet story, especially Heidi.

What kind of music do you enjoy?: such a random assortment. splatoon, jack stauber, mitski and mars argo (on sad girl days) a lot music from anime. Including: all blue locks music, Veil from fire force, and Hitoshiba from classroom of the elite. I like songs that I can relate and admire the lyric writing, while also having a good tempo and something I can nod my head to. I notice I switch between songs I like because sometimes I’m not in the mood for ones I was yesterday. So a HUGE random assortment. Like a charcuterie board! I like ones that take me to a whole other place, being something nostalgic or something magical. (a bit cringey, I know 💀)

Who’s your favorite character (atm or of all time) agahhahahahahah…. Bachira Meguru… maybe… idk… he’s just charmed me to a tea. I relate to him alot (how he grew up, his personality, so so) and he has a CHOKEHOLD ON MY LIFE. Yeah. Bachira Meguru. Of all time.

tagging: @tigreblvnc @cheappickle @jifloulette @underlash @huneyrain <- do you want me to tag this blog for tag games? Let me know! @marcysdreamydays11 @luna-3-clips @animentality @the-lazyyy-artist

@biggestcharleskinnie @s4mmy @saeisms

No pressure and open tags!

tag + q&a game ₊˚ෆ

hello! i thought it would be cute and exciting to do a tag game with all my mutuals to not only talk about themselves, but have fun! so here is my short little game:

alongside this picrew, share 5 things about yourself!

• how do you spend your free time? • what are your hobbies and how did you get into them? • what book or movie left a lasting impression on you? • what kind of music do you enjoy? • who is your favorite character (atm or all time) and why?

i will start first!

my name is rurumi and i enjoy spending my free time writing!

some of my hobbies (outside of writing) includes: drawing, building gundams and keyboards, and fashion! i got into most of them on a whim and became instantly hooked. aside from self-expression, being into fashion also helps with making friends in college because you always have something to talk about!

a book that left a lasting impression on me would have to be either kafka on the shore by haruki murakami or before the coffee gets cold by toshikazu kawaguchi. both stories have kept me up at night thinking a lot about the 'what ifs' in life.

i enjoy soul/r&b alongside anything of jrock influence, but i will basically listen to anything that sounds good. i am currently listening to 'so what' by lucy!

my favorite character at the moment is rin itoshi from blue lock because hes so ridiculously edgy, but at the same time i sympathize with him a lot. on the other hand, my favorite character of all time is suletta mecury from the witch from mercury series, she's an absolute ball of sunshine that i aspire to be.

tagging (+ no pressure) ₊˚ෆ

@kaiser1ns @naenaex0xx @shomatoriashi @choccorin @ryescapades

@rindreamery @soleillunne @kissxcore @rainswept @mitsvriii