#im sorry i dont know why i wrote this

[hotelhousecat]

Addiction as told by LDR

1. For the last couple days I’ve been fascinated by the song Jump from the album Lana Del Rey AKA Lizzy Grant.

One time my little cousin (who’s since come around) told me she didn’t like to listen to Lana Del Rey because it made her feel dirty, like she just smoked a pack of cigarettes.

I think this effect is even stronger in her pre-LDR music, despite the brighter sound. Lana is a wealthy, glamorous starlet. But Lizzy Grant is forever immortalized in a world of motels, gas stations, Christmas lights, flamingo lawn ornaments, and bleach blonde hair.

Palm Trees in black and white/Last thing I saw before I died

Jump is a song about heroin, but it’s one of her most fun tracks. It has an almost childlike innocence to it. That disconnect between the dark subject matter and the sound of the music, her ‘cutesy’ approach, is really disarming. It almost puts a lump in your throat. Like, you know this young girl is in real danger, and here she is singing about the fun of it all.

The lines, “Hair thinnin’ in the wind” and “You got the grin of a very old man” creep me out in particular. It’s a scary image, and yet she’s sitting in his car innocently admiring him. It reads with a sense of dark humour. The simple chorus is just perfect; the tension hangs thick in the air as she asks, “Do you wanna (jump, jump, jump)?”

2. Art Deco is a beautiful track from Honeymoon that I always neglected until I realized it was not, in fact, a song about a man, but a solemn reflection on the naivety of her Lizzy Grant days. A sequel to Jump, if you will.

A little party never hurt no one, that’s why it’s alright/You want in but you just can’t win so you hang in the lights

A nobody aspiring to be a star, caught up in the attention and adrenaline that comes with the partying. I love her choice of words in describing the protagonist as “shining like gunmetal, cold and unsure”.

3. Each of Lana’s albums represent their own era and a sort of turning point. To me, Lust for Life seems to mark her turn toward happiness, growth, and building a future.

The song Heroin is a further reflection on the pull toward escapism. She condemns the drug, commenting on its destructiveness, but lyrics still hint to a sense of nostalgia and longing.

Oh, makes me feel like I can change/Oh, all of my evil ways and shit/Oh, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t sick of it

Substances and addiction are a central theme to a lot of Lana’s music, so forgive me for only mentioning these three songs in particular. Another that jumps to mind is Fuck it I love you off the album Norman Fucking Rockwell, in which she sings “I used to shoot up my veins in neon”.

I suppose the overall point here is: it’s interesting to watch LDR evolve in style and sound, but even more-so to witness the tremendous evolution of character which shines through in her lyrics. I love the song Jump, but it’s hard to listen to with the added context of her later music. The whole fun, fast world of Lizzy Grant gets a lot scarier the longer you dwell on it.

[nemotakeit]

i think that if we dig all the way down to the roots of tøp's musical theme, it all comes down to that constant internal conflict between desperately wanting to be seen and desperately wanting to stay hidden. we can see how they've been making gradual progress in "managing the tension" but it's still there on Clancy. dare i say it's the central theme of the lore as well.. the reason the character & the era Clancy feels so rebellious is because he's actively fighting to Be Seen. the oscillation continues, but a subversive variable has emerged.

[faaun]

Jack Marsh (2005), Friendship Otherwise - Toward a Levinasian Description of Personal Friendship

[greasydumbfuck]

also just for the record. no matter how much utterly stupid shit i say or draw about him, frank actually makes me so deeply sad. this old man should be picking up his grandkids but he cant. i think about him too much and im so sad

[storywestistrash]

i am actually so tired of the way westerners treat eastern europeans

[walmartbrandwhatever]

In honor of Dallas Winston birthday here's some angst I cooked up in the qpr server 🫶.

For some reason, as he stared at Johnny just lying there, all he could do was think about Mrs. Curtis and that stupid chocolate cake. Johnny wouldn't be getting another one. He wouldn't see another light of day. Part of him knew right there that he wouldn't be getting that chocolate cake again either. Not because Mrs. Curtis wasn't alive but because he wouldn't be alive. Dallas Winston would not make it to 18. He couldn't when Johnny wouldn't even make it to 17. So he booked it out of the hospital and towards the one thing that stayed a constant in his life. Stepping onto the tracks, he faced the train, puffed out his chest, and closed his eyes.

[skunkes]

unsure how to word this but there is something about having ocs with unsavory events happening in their past where it's like. talking about it, even when asked, seems almost gratuitous and inappropriate. and i'd much rather describe it through the oc themself and/or draw Them saying it. which is like. fitting for the subject matter? like of course its weird to talk about somebody else's business...!

and falls back into humanizing em/exploratory writing and development where u consider the impact of words said/words unsaid/HOW those words are said etc etc

[bloomfish]

hahaha i just looked up taylorswifs age to see if it was at all justified that someone on here called her 'almost middle aged' and she's 34 😭😭😭 u guys have got to stop, even actual middle-aged women often are cringe and write bad poetry, as they should. try going to a poetry open mic or something.

this isn't a defence of taylor as a songwriter because who cares and idk enough to tell u. but i guess i find the idea that she should be ashamed of herself because 'women who are younger than her are writing/have written way better stuff' absurd. like yeah? such is the way of the world. age doesn't really matter that much. girls who are younger than me are writing poetry that's better than mine and i'm undoubtedly writing stuff that's better than some women who are older than me. I'm all for an honest criticism of, well, anything, particularly pop music but that isn't an honest criticism lol or even remotely relevant.

anyway im listening to michelle branch and avril lavigne rn so I can't really talk about cheesy pop music lol. it has its place in society is my feeling i guess and ppl r gonna enjoy it, it's made to be enjoyed is the whole thing about pop music and the fact that ppl like it is not worth getting up in arms about. chill. relax. do some ketamine

[secret-side-hetalia-blog]

I love having friends that will listen to me ramble about anything else, any other stupid interest.

But just not hetalia, thats the line.

[tankgotstuckinthecircusgate]

i know that when carlo suddenly decided that he needs to marry guy made a whole list in his head n like had a deadlines n shit. like it was some kind of a task he needed to do

[volfoss]

Actually sorry I need to bitch and moan about this. I've been reading the san.dman (do not ever do this to yourself it's a hell unimaginable by anyone) and like... I really think it's interesting how much ga/iman is praised as super progressive on Tumblr for THIS specifically when it has so so much bad in it. About 10 issues in I started a game with how many women were in the issue who survived/were raped/nearly raped and it was insane how little women did not fit into these categories. One black woman lived and the rest were all burned alive. And he then later gave an excuse that it was bc of how Dream imprisoned Nada (16 year old African queen who fell in love with him. Its a very big mess and really sucks) in Hell so of course it influenced the entire world and so every black woman but ONE (who was introduced in the second to last issue) died and died violently. Not even to get into how it plays into the really violent misogyny that he had during the short story he wrote around the end of San.dman (when he was in his mid 30s) that was literally just one graphic rape scene to a minor after another (his snow white retelling is pretty infamous bc of how bad it is just by the summary but let me tell you that it is FAR worse to read). Like there's so so much that I think people do not discuss with his writing and it honestly just is very baffling that people hype him up given well. Everything that happens in San.dman. like the endless alone has a lot of... Well let's say interesting issues. Every single woman dream comes across wants to fuck him (to the point that at his funeral, it's 90% the women he was with/wanted to be with him and then a little from his siblings????), despairs entire character is literally just that she's depressed and coincidentally the most prominent fat character (and also naked all the time. Which they did seem to fix in the show but it's baffling how it's like her, one serial killer who nearly raped a woman before dream stops him, a guy that dies and I guess Abel if you squint for the fat rep) and then desire oh my god. I wish desire was written well instead of here's our nonbinary/gender fluid/genderless rep (cool in theory!!!) and then the fact that it (in the original series, she uses he she and it pronouns) raped a woman is dropped on your head and he is not at all regretful about it and ends up like.. taunting the victims granddaughter??? And delirium my god if there was ever a representation for born sexy yesterday and also being weird as fuck about mental illness it would be her. She's barely clothed most of the time, referred to as very very young most of the time and her mental illness (vague) is just kind of used as a joke a lot of the time? Like it's a funny joke that she doesn't remember stuff or that she's overstimulated or that she's using the wrong words or talking like a child. It's really weird because all of these characters have potential but they aren't really ever treated that way. Me when I get him for every single woman treated horribly!!!!!

[6mayhem]

anyway i need to hang out with my brother again he is the one person who i am pretty sure knows literally everything about me so he's the only person i trust that i can absolutely not disappoint. nothing i can do could be worse than the sum of everything i've been doing to that poor man (and him to me) the past 19 years

[albireon]

1. Yippee!

2. My personal interpretations of a few of the details in my last post since my friends enjoyed hearing them

3. The background image comes from here. The specific one I used is labelled "Page 7 View – Voice 5 QBASS2"

https://synthroom.com/fairlight-cmi/psb-fairlight-disks/psb-lovequi/

[widevibratobitch]

so i am singing that vitellia in the end... but at what fucking cost.

'you gotta sing this softer'

'what'

'this is mozart'

'this is vitellia'

'this is mozart'

'im singing about how much i hate this mf and want him dead before the end of the day'

'this is mozart'

'i wanna murder a guy'

'this is mozart'

'...'

'softer. gentle. mozart'

'...ok'

[fruityumbrella]

unfortunately to me a 'ficlet' is 2000 words

[2024skin]

I know artists are capable of creating narratives that are totally unrelated to their own lives but I HATE that "death of the artist" is the preferred way of analyzing the meaning of art. I think when an artist is black or female or living through war or disabled or gay that matters. It colors their entire life. How can you divorce those things from their art entirely? I think the viewers own interpretation of a piece becomes deeper when they incorporate the artists perspective into it, and everyone should be taught how to do so