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duskdragonxiii · 9 months ago

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i need to start a riot i think

#quacks #im sick to death of all this #housing is unaffordable. food is unaffordable #sustainable and 'Affordable' options are unnaffordable #the rich cunts on the world continue to get richer while the rest of us scrounge to survive #dont get me wrong im more privalaiged than many. but it feels so pointless #every day in the rat race for a future im not gonna be ablr to afford anyway #im angry #between this and the horrible attrocities happening accross the world #things are just... never gonna be normal huh #and yet i power on. we power on #im a hopeful person at heart #i just wish it would pay off

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beastlyidiocy · 2 months ago

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my sweet old man who is genuinely too kind for the world he lives in :(

#decadentart #bloodborne #retired hunter djura #he makes me so sick hes actually so fucking sweet when i think about it #Yes i gave her a skirt. whenever i draw the people of old yharnam i slways give tbem little accesories :)#the colors are a bit wonky because i intially drew it Reeaaalllyy Dark also idk i picked out some weird ass colors for the pallete #every time you shoot him off that tower an angel looses its wings #legimitately got upset when i killed him for his set #made sure he didnt fall to his death though. thats called bullying when you knock him off btw #also yeah i hc that the beasts are chill w him . and slso he knows all of their names #first maintagged art on this blog. shudders. i hope the fans dont eat me alive im serious you guys scare me #the halo was necessary btw #so anxious…. SEND IT! RAHHH!!! MY AUTISM BLAST GO!

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yaolmao · 2 months ago

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they come as a pair (happy and unwell)

#all I learned from dn is that these two would have been unstoppable (insufferable) as canon lovers #all they needed to do was make(out)up #meronia #mellonear #death note #death note fanart #myart #nate river #mihael keehl #near #mello #THEY MAKE ME SICK #IM SO ILL

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opens-up-4-nobody · 3 months ago

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Suspirium - Thom York

#this is my very favorite song and i think ive been wanting to make this for abt a year #when i was at my most compulsivly unwell i would be focusing so hard and sleeping so little that i would feel physically sick #like the world was tilting around me and i would think: all is well as long as i keep spinning #bc i would stop moving and suddenly id be in pieces on the floor. but now i think my favorite lines are: when i arrive will u come and find #me? or in a croud be one of them? bc its such a profoundly lonely idea. i dont believe in a life after death. i think when ur gone ur gone #your brain stops and the thing that made you you is gone forever. but if i imagined an afterlife image getting off a train onto a crowded #platform and searching for my mom through all the chaos. when i arrive will u come and find me? would our connect extend past a lifetime?#or would u be in a crowed one of them? would i stand alone in a sea of people waiting for someone who was never coming?#its a very upsetting thought #im glad i waited to make this bc i feel the song more deeply after the death of my mom. it feels more sad and more ethereal.#there r like 2 different versions of the lyrics bc thom york is so fucking hard to understand #so i use the version i like better #original art

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nonbinarylesbianherb · 3 months ago

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this would’ve been Alicent when she was 14. (same age she was married off to Viserys.)

don’t mind me im just crying and screaming and throwing up!!!

#this is emily when shes about 14 #im so sick #alicent hightower #young alicent hightower #young alicent #emily carey #young emily carey #hotd #house of the dragon #hotd alicent #show alicent #all my homies hate viserys #i actually need to fucking stone him to death im so serious #him and otto by the gods you better pray i somehow never get my hands on you #‘they dont exist’ i will force myself into the screen to physically beat them to death actually #viserys targaryen

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7cfc00 · 11 months ago

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home is where the heart is (and yours is gone)

#happy holidays #dndads #dndads fanart #dungeons and daddies #dndaddies #dndads s1 #glenn close dndads #dndads season 2 #dndads odyssey #dndads glenn close #im so sick and fever rn so forgive me for any mistakes in this drawing or in my following explanation #background is covered in crosses for the bad day book. the chains represent his time in meth bay prison #the three swords are a reference to the three of swords tarot card which means like heartbreak or smth #also can be taken literally because his heart exploded #the swords themselves are modelled after the sword of justice to bring in themes of justice and punishment as well as referencing the trial #i also drew the same sword in the blackjack thing.#bottom left is his funeral pyre (referencing his death) and nick jr (representing his son's “death”)#the door is the door to his apartment its number 48 because ep 48 is carry on my wayward son #christmas decor cus of course hed had them up all year round #the plant is a peace lily representing death and funeral s again #headstone is morgan's the crysanthemum represents her death. this is because its also featured in the “remember death” thing i drew once #also i just associate flowers w the close family because it very easily represents both mortality and love #anyway. fuckin. his heart (loved ones + literal heart) are gone and its like. can he ever return home #idk smth about not being able to go back to the way things were smth about having the comfort of a home anymore. leaving all that shit behi #d. i feel so tired #sorry for the long explanation i think i may have went a little too hard on the symbolism but i didn t know how else to #express the feelings of glenn's conversation w darryl in that one episode

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suntails · 11 months ago

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fallen

#KICKS OPEN THE DOOR. HIIIIIII IM BAAAAAACK. TWIRLS MY HAIR AND STARES UNBLINKINGLY AT U #okay so long story short i need to speedrun if i wanna draw ANY lore art this time #bc i go to NY w no computer for 2 weeks on thurs and i wont have nrainrot anymore after. so i need to draw FAST things #so yea. she um. she. died. sniffles. ngl i thought she was already dead from the prev update so this STUNG #the fuckign GRIEF the way lilia collapses down in mourning her loss. she falls to the humans. i am SICK it HURTS #silver was so devastated in 7.5 without even seeing the death firsthand and being like 'how could i ever be loved'#lilia looking at malleus. the future of the kingdom. the treasure of his two closest friends (loves?)#and is like 'how can i ever love him enough' and proceeds to spend A FIFTH OF HIS LIFE SEARCHING FOR A SOLUTION #dealing w prejudice from humans. kicked out of the army Disgraced. all while mourning. he keeps going out of LOVE #twst #twisted wonderland #lilia vanrouge #malleus draconia #hes an egg he counts #ch 7 spoilers #so yea blah blah blah im not as eloquent as u geniuses i will just draw a silly little dramatic art to capture my misery and move forward #suntails

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mwagneto · 1 year ago

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why'd they bring in a woman only to have her shave her pits. in 1717.

#PUT SOME HAIR ON THAT BEAST IM GONNA BE SICK #this is all trailer footage too like ohhhhmy god #this is pissing me off so much why did the body diversity fly out the window the second they got women characters bruh #our flag means death #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd season 2 #archie ofmd

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freyadragonlord · 29 days ago

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I will freely admit it when I am wrong.

Reading the manhwa, I didn't think Lout of the Count's Family would actually ever get to the war part Cale has been talking about since the beginning.

And I sure as hell didn't predict the battles would be this brutal and badass. Holy shit.

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scatterbrainedbot · 11 months ago

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Hello :D

You're so cool

Anyway have you thought that in your rat sons au Splinter might outlive the boys?

You're very cool :D love your stuff dude

(tw for some blood, light gore, implied overdose (kinda??))

hi copper!!! this is a fantastic question!

so obviously typical irl rats have far shorter lifespans than the average irl tortoise. according to google (yes, be awed by my spectacularly in-depth wealth of research) the average pet rat lives between 2-4 years ish, and the oldest on record lived to be about 7. meanwhile, an African spurred tortoise (Splinter's species) averages more around a 50ish year lifespan in captivity, tho is suspected to possibly exceed 75 or more in the wild.

Now, the mutation does give us a lot of wiggle room for playing with these numbers. For the rat sons boys, id say their natural lifespan probably clocks in at about 45-55 years old? definitely not old by human standards, but not young young either. (though, its also important to note that the boys were exposed to the mutagen just days after being born.)

For Splinter, meanwhile, aging is slightly more complicated. He lived the vast majority of his life as a regular normal African spurred tortoise (well, non-mutated at least. there were perhaps some shenanigans of a more mystical variety going on before he was mutated, but thats a separate matter) He was about 70ish i think? when the boys were born and they were all exposed to the mutagen. so he is already distinctly an old man turtle papa. id guess he'd probably still have another eh lets say 25-30 years after his mutation. he could probably push it a little farther even with some mystic nonsense, but when push comes to shove id say his 'natural' post-mutation lifespan would put his death like a solid decade or two before his sons.

of course, the tricky part of the matter is that theres no way for Splinter to know any of this. theres no way for him to know how the mutation affected them all, or if it even affected them all in the same way. especially since the boys dont show many physical signs of mutation for the first few years, and just kinda look like normal rats, (albeit with a more human sort of intelligence) — what sort of health standard do you hold them to? what if they simply dont show external signs of sickness or old age anymore? how do you actually know if something is wrong?

for a while there Splinter is very worried that one of his babies will just essentially reach the end of their normal rat lifespan, fall and not get up again.

so mostly, he just tries to live in the moment, enjoying whatever time he does have with his little ones, taking each day as a gift <3

still,

that fear

never

really

goes

away.....

#cue the 2003 tmnt dramatic Shredder sound effect TM #my art #rat sons #tmnt au #ask reply #TOOK ME A FULL MONTH TO ANSWER AND IM STILL NOT SUPER PLEASED WITH THE RESULTS BUT #also apologies if shits incohierent im v sick rn #but thank you so much for the question copper!!#a parents grief and terror at the thought of outliving their children #always gets me #and boy howdy these rat babies do Not make that shit easy for ol Splinter #all of them have brushed too close to death too many times #tbh thats probably why he started teaching them ninjutsu etc #like yeah yeah discpline and routine and practice all excellent lessons #but also #yall squishy babies and ur father is Stressed please learn to fight good so its one less thing he has to worry about #sorry splints theyre hamatos now theyre destined for danger #cw blood #cw gore

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god-of-this-new-blog · 10 months ago

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“Sorry that it all went down like it did”

#hi! back at it with more highly specific art from The one The Only!#Apa au #Isa I am sorry I left out my true thoughts behind the scar on this one but I am trying to achieve wider lawlight audience appeal #speaking of:#death note #lawlight #light yagami #l lawliet #my art #anyway.#many a lawlight fight that dissolves into a week long stalemate ends with a shared bath #they make up in water every time I have decided #its a theme and its a motif #anyway. the whole plot of our au goes down in the song Motion Sickness by Phoebe Bridgers #also drawing this I learned I do not know a fucking thing about how to draw water or wet skin.#so uh maybe more bath art soon so I can learn to do that #thats all folks I feel like I am normally more insane in the tags #hmm #OH I know what I will over share #I think im like… going to get to into r*ck and m*orty. I liked it when I was like 13 and I was rewatching it for hahas when I couldn’t sleep #but im so scared guys that im going to get INTO it #like yesterday I felt the urge to draw fanart for it and I had to quickly slam my head on the desk until that idea went away #okay yeah this is a good amount of oversharing in the tags #I feel good

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phoebespenglers · 10 months ago

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can we please stop telling people to kill themselves and to rot in hell and that they deserve to be bullied and that they are inherently horrible people who deserve to die and get doxxed. please. can we please stop doing that.

#like #okay first of all. do you understand the gravity of what youre saying or are you just throwing words into sentences #second of all. that kind of language is so fucking harmful for people with ocd or just obsessions with morality #because i mean not to make this abt Me (though this is kind of a vent ) but when i see people saying that it just. Sends me into spirals #because if people can say that to other people then what if they say it to me because i secretly believe the same things (even if i don't #-most of the time!)#what if im an inherently horrible person deep down? am i going to rot in hell for feeling slightly bad for this person?#i cant imagine that others dont feel like this or something along those lines.#im so fucking sick of death threats they do nothing. they do fucking jackshit except make more people feel terrible.#if you send death threats to people or say shit like this im blocking you. i dont want you in my space #bee.txt #moral ocd #scrupulosity

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frantic-babbling · 2 months ago

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currently watching emma's vlog (12 minutes in)

she mentions how danya said that soda's letter is a battle of the brothers: your blood family (soda and darry) versus your chosen family (dally and johnny)

i'm going to throw up and will need 2-5 business days to process this

#oh how i am tweaking!#what do you meaaaaan #his chosen family being the one there with him #and his blood family being so far but desperate for him to come home #the staging is despicable too #soda singing at pony as if he's there #but johnny and dally are the only ones physically there with him #and then darry comes on stage too #because despite his tough exterior he's dying inside #he just wants his baby brother to come home #this house aint a home #dont even get me started on the scenes before this #darry and dally fighting #yeah we greasers are just one big happy family aint it #oh im gonna be sick!#and there's also throwing in the towel #and then deaths at my door comes before all this too #and it's johnny and pony singing about their love for each other #because they've chosen each other as family #whether that's brothers or a qpr #qpr pbj #the outsiders musical #the outsiders #dallas winston #darry curtis #sodapop curtis #ponyboy curtis #johnny cade #emma pittman #danya taymor

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pixiatn · 2 years ago

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When fics try to portray Dick as a horrible sibling to Tim but make Tim have a good relationship with Jason yet they constantly bring up Jason beating the shit out of and almost killing Tim

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neilphen · 1 year ago

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THE BEATLES ON HATE/LOVE

1.Tennessee Williams Cat on a Hot Tin Roof / 2. George Harrison Get Back dir. Peter Jackson / 3. Succession s4e10 dir. Mark Mylod / 4. Isn't It a Pity by George Harrison / 5. Paul McCartney Get Back e2 / 6. The Bear s2e10 / 7. Why - Fleetwood Mac / 8. Ethan Russell / 9. Getty Images / 10. quotes from I.B. Vyache / 11. unknown / 12. Ethan Russell / 13. Peter Kaye / 14. post from @/adampvrrish

#yeah im ill #yeah im unwell #web weaving #on hate #on love #the beatles #ugh ugh ugh ugh im sick #ugh uguh UGH the intricacies of it all. ugh #this was very fast and sooo sloppy but idc idc idc i needed to put it out there fast #loss and grief and love and hate and light and death and belonging #mine

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puppyeared · 10 months ago

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man

#maybe im being pessimistic abt this. im not saying u should wear a mask every waking moment of your life god knows i cant #but also. hell no i dont trust u if anything i distrust u ppl even more after how things played out for the past 3 years #like there are situations where it might be inevitable catching covid. most of my family members are nurses and in constant contact #but there are also a ton of ways to make that risk low as possible like masking and wearing a face shield and having sanitizer #for me its not enough to just say oh we're in a small group and we're all vaccinated #motherfucker your kid is sick from preschool EVERY TIME WE VISIT. of course ill be wearing a mask she gave me covid last year #also no the fuck it isnt seasonal the cases go up because lack of caution makes the virus spread and mutate especially around times when #ppl gather. add that with virus transmission in cold weather and its a matter of different factors increasing the risk of spread #im also tired of ppl not understanding that i wont be their responsibility if i do get sick. maybe they can help me recover #but at the end of the day the risk of death and long term health is all on me. i cant change that #the govt barely gives me accommodations what makes u think theyll do anything for every individual case of long covid or worse #im so tired. im so tired #i dont even know if its possible to want this to be over anymore i just wish we didnt have to deal with this in the first place #ALSO COUGH INTO YOUR SLEEVE SERIOUSLY HOW IS THIS SO HARD TO REMEMBER #oh its just a cold/dry throat its not like i have covid or anything. no!! its basic hygiene!!! how is this so hard to understand!!!!!!!!!!#and no this isnt abt whether people have the means to protect themselves this is me bitching abt my relatives not taking me seriously #vent #my art #myart #doodles #covid 19

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