#im just so fucking frustrated

[tranquilidad-vacia]

Los malos amores te enseñan a amar.

Los buenos amores te enseñan a amarte a ti mismo.

[missbaphomet]

If you're trying to help someone with something they're struggling with, make sure you actually take the time to listen to them and exactly how they're struggling.

I'm overweight. I'm trying to lose weight for health and vanity reasons, and I know my issues with my weight primarily stem from poor mental health and associated side effects like poor self care, poor self image, self hate, etc.

Chanting "calories in, calories out" at me and telling me "just eat less stupid" isn't going to help me, and is actively pushing me deeper into an unhealthy relationship with food and my body.

What I need is confirmation and reminders that I am worthy of love and that I need to take care of myself. What I need is someone to explain the specifics of what I'm witnessing and why it doesn't match what should be happening in my head. I need someone to explain to me that exercise causes tears in your muscles that your body has to fix, and how it does that is holding onto more water and causing inflammation, and that makes you heavier, but it's not fat. I need people to listen when I tell them that I have an eating disorder and telling me "just eat less" is reinforcing the negative behaviors that fucking got me here.

[rebeljyn-moved]

I know I’ve talked about this SO many times already but these bots are seriously starting to wear me down. The other day I blocked literally 200 of them. Yesterday I blocked 30+. In less than a day I’ve gotten 50+ bots following me. How am I supposed to deal with bullshit like this? I love this website but I cannot fucking stand this shit, why the hell hasnt the staff done anything when its the easiest fucking thing ever to know which one of these stupid blogs are bots or not??

[bunnyb34r]

I know it's stupid as hell, but at this point, I'd rather have to go through the dark, muddy backyard every morning than deal with a repair person to rewire the stupid fucking garage. It opens just fine and you can get it to close, but only if you hold the button down until it fully shuts.

I just spent the past fucking hour trying to reconnect the broken wiring bits together and after growing more and more frustrated (and longingly looking at the electrical socket and at the pliers in my hand...) I gave up. It'll be an easy fix for an electrician but I don't want to have to deal with it. I don't want to deal with calling them, them coming to my house, remarking how messy our garage is. Nor do I want them to see that we have mice or SOMETHING eating it's way through the rubber seal on the fucking door. I just want to be done man

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[arberxhekaj]

atp an espn subscription it’s useless and the only reason i have it is because it comes in a bundle. can’t watch games can’t listen to games can’t do shit!! what is the POINT!!

[miwtual]

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

[ratatatastic]

maffhew who refuses to say runebergin torttu because he knows hes gonna butcher it so bad he might be kicked out of the country the second he tries and staunchly avoids that by going "the one dessert that barky is going to have to explain 😃"

sasha who gets faced with the most generic description of everything hes ever eaten in his life so far because of maffhew and going "???... oh you mean runebergin torttu!"

"he did good he liked the food and he likes the finland so far so its good" sasha says with so much pride now that all the anxiety has left his system that his husband teammate is enjoying his country and doesnt hate it

media availability | 10.29.24 (x)(x)

the smile of a man who knowlingly doomed his husband and said husband using all his brain power to context clues his way to whatever the fuck he just got asked that his brain is running hotter than a mid 2012 macbook air thats somehow still alive in the year of the lord 2024 but girl does she chug along shes louder than a fighter jet

[deoidesign]

Idk who needs to hear this but time and time again isn't over!!!

Webtoon removed the "time and time again will return!!!" Banner and I don't know why, but it's not over!!! There's still another 1/3 of the comic to go! There's a lot more stuff that I'm working on and it'll be coming back soon!

Please be patient with me, I know it's been a long time... But the stuff I'm making is really good and there's a lot of reasons it's taken this long. I promise I want it back more than anyone.

I'm trying to come back around the end of October. I'm doing my best to get everything ready in time, so no promises, but I'm on track to do so! I'm just one person writing and drawing everything, and my editor was fired so I'm not even getting any notes anymore. It's literally just me. I'm doing my best I promise!

[lbhslefttiddie]

youve heard of sex flowers get ready for the flower that makes you into a celestial shoujo herione complete with particle effects you cannot turn the fuck off and creates a wifebeam so powerful it can incapacitate and maim and keeps making you burst into tears and fall on your ass which makes the wifebeam More Powerful and you also cannot turn this off either. and is also still, sort of, a sex flower

from one of my favorite fanfictions, Celestial Afterglow by elanor_pam, a fic that defies description in the best possible way

[tranquilidad-vacia]

Las personas solo se vuelven transparentes cuando te aman de verdad o cuando te rompen el corazón.

[campbyler]

how are you guys doing?

honestlyyy we have both been going through it for a minute which you guys probably have picked up on from our very unplanned absence on here 😗 our work schedules have just been so crazy and we have had some personal stuff going on at both ends so we have been existing in a kind of default state of complete and total exhaustion for like a month i fear. but we are now 1. medication twinsies which is so silly of us actually and 2. getting therapized on the regular so hopefully we will both feel more normal soon and get our creative energy back and be more active online again 🥳 (thea is also actively being blown away by the hurricane right now so everyone please manifest that she stays safe and dry and doesn’t end up floating away down the gulf because i would miss her and be so sad.) thank you for asking i hope you’re doing well! 🫶🏽

[mikichko]

i don't know why we have to remind y'all every single month to think about how you write characters of color. like is someone pressing the men in black neuralyzer periodically or what?

i can understand that a majority of y'all did not grow up in the US and you certainly didn't grow up being at the end of horrific racist remarks and attacks here. but that same device you're using to write all of your fics has this crazy feature that allows you to research things. crazy concept, i know.

a handful of you need to research racism and xenophobia treatment towards the group your characters are from because you're perpetuating those same mentalities when you write them. you claim to be soooo against racism and yet, here you go perpetuating the same image of these people that racists keep pandering to this day. putting these characters in situations that are just plain fucking weird and wrong with the histories tied to these groups. and even just using plain fucking slurs because you don't do your goddamn research.

i do not expect you to know everything. hell, i don't know everything and I'm still learning about horrible things that many groups were subjected to. but jesus christ it is not hard to look into the groups and histories of these characters.

y'all will do everything under the sun to make sure that your characters, their professions, their backgrounds, and their nationalities are presented correctly but you'll completely miss the ball when it comes to the individual struggles of the folks within their ethnic and racial groups.

you just end up perpetuating the racism and microaggressions you're so vocally fighting against.

[stiffyck]

"i dont like animated movies" okay but why. like i genuinely would like to know WHY. and id like to hear literally any other reason besides "animation is for kids" or "its childish"

[ninjasmudge]

shoutout to bitches who sounded soo pretentious when they were kids because they used too many long words in writing/schoolwork bc they genuinely didnt know how else to get the point across

[pup-pee]

bart having 2 learn how 2 run again would ruin me